#that's my excuse and i'm sticking to it

[egophiliac]

just something I wanted to try! (tumblr please don't absolutely destroy this, thank you)

#art #twisted wonderland #gif warning #gifs that remind you that they are still just cats warning #i was going to do the tail stepped but i actually kind of liked it with the interpolation? #i thought it would look weird with cheka being frame by frame but. i dunno. ymmv but i think it's kind of fun! #it is also Late™ and i did this mostly all in one sitting so my brain is kind of fried #that's my excuse and i'm sticking to it

[oneknightstand-if]

I just wanted to say the gifs on this blog are glorious. Truly a gift that keeps on giving 🫶❤️

Then the years of collecting the most random-ass things in my Funny Gifs folder were finally worth it. I knew they'd come in handy one day!

#That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it #oks-asks

[memorydragon]

Okay, so my finger slipped and I reread the Po Yun manhua (to be fair to me, the good, non-ad infested version is going away at the end of the month) and decided maybe just posting about it will alleviate the need to consume it a third time since the start of the year.

(Okay, yes, I am a tiny bit of an eldritch horror when it comes to inhaling media. So shoot me.)

I'm just so insane about Bu Chonghua and his obsession with "I'm home."

The first time he says this, he says it to an empty apartment. It's status quo for him, and it's not a terrible life, but he had to chew someone out at work because after he explained PTSD with the clinical definition, explaining that the witness's differing accounts were because of this, the others started to say 'I didn't think a boy like this would be so weak.' And he barks back no, it doesn't matter how strong or weak someone is, it's a natural reaction to trauma. It doesn't make someone a mental case, nor is someone weak for reacting in a such a way.

(And I love that this is the first time Wu Yu takes note of what his superior is saying. We've seen how very little he thinks of Bu Chonghua and his leadership at this point. But at this Wu Yu stops and listens, and I love how in the manhua it shows him passing off the exit interviews and knowing exactly what to say to be 'mentally sound' while he's still deeply traumatized by Everything. He's listening, because it's the first time anyone has even mentioned the terms for what he's went through to him, and that is so fucked up, please just let him go to school like he wants to, but it's coming from Bu Chonghua, who he hates, but was patiently explaining it and calm until people started badmouthing it. He used his 'elite' schooling to normalize a trauma response, and Wu Yu takes note that maybe this guy isn't quite so awful.)

But Bu Chonghua isn't talking about the witness, not really. When he comes back to an empty house and says "I'm home," he goes through his usual routine and then, just before bed, he picks up the picture from his tenth birthday, before his parents were murdered in front of him and he has to tell himself to not think about it. Don't think about it, don't get lost in the memories. He's home, and he's safe and no one is there, but he can't break down. Because if he breaks, then he's the one who will have to pick up the pieces again, and he could be working, he could be preventing the 502 murderer from striking again, so he can't break. He's talking about himself, his own trauma, the in the clinical manner he was probably taught in, then he shoves everything down. He knows what he's doing is dangerous and self-destructive, but he's alone and he's home, so it's okay.

(And when that impulse almost kills Wu Yu, when the car drives them off the road and into the hands of the bad guys, it destroys him more than the accident and kidnapping)

The next time he says "I'm home," he very pointedly corrals Wu Yu into staying at his apartment. Yes, he's going to work. No, Wu Yu can't follow because he's still under 'confinement'. No, Wu Yu can't go to his own apartment, he has to stay at Bu Chonghua's. If Wu Yu leaves, then he wouldn't be able to discuss the interrogation when he gets back from work, right? Bu Chonghua shouldn't even have left the hospital, but he's pulled Wu Yu back from the dragon swallowing abyss, from Wu Yu's own self destructiveness, and he selfishly wants to keep Wu Yu there.

Of course, he really can't stop Wu Yu from leaving. When he comes back and says "I'm home!" there's no one there. The apartment is empty and dark (and Wu Yu hates the dark), and he's checked the guest room and everywhere just to be sure that maybe, just maybe, Wu Yu had fallen asleep and hadn't left. That he's not coming back to an empty apartment. Then he sees the light cracked under the door to the study. Wu Yu is asleep, curled up on the piano with a book. The lights are on. It's not an empty apartment. And the relief that hits Bu Chonghua nearly staggers him.

The third time he says "I'm home!" he told Wu Yu to stay at his apartment. He gave his key to Wu Yu. (You still left things at my place. You should just meet me there to pick them up and we can have dinner, then I'll send you back. Stay there. Stay please.) This time, the apartment really is empty. Wu Yu isn't there. There's no one but the framed picture of his parents. Wu Yu isn't answering his phone, and when he calls the office to find out where Wu Yu is, he learns that Wu Yu has taken leave. He's gone back to his old workplace and Bu Chonghua looks at his empty apartment then texts Wu Yu that's he's going to Yundian too. And he's in the car, pulling out to do just that, but there's Wu Yu holding a bag of take out on the corner in the rain.

They go back and eat the take out together.

Wu Yu is as determined to not mooch off his boss as his boss is determined to keep him, so he cooks, shooing Bu Chonghua out of the kitchen. "It's the first time I've ever cooked for someone," he says as Bu Chonghua ignores how incredibly unhealthy it all is and eats what Wu Yu made for him. Wu Yu laughs because Yan Xie's presents are truly terrible, but Bu Chonghua never threw them out, and his apartment isn't empty. He's home.

But wanting and having are two different things. When Wu Yu leaves again, this time determined, Bu Chonghua forces his way into Wu Yu's apartment, because he knows Wu Yu is there instead of at home. Wu Yu hilariously compares him to the Prince visiting Cinderella (and I have another rant for another day about Wu Yu's Cinderella complex) in his backward little apartment, but Bu Chonghua insists on doing the dishes, ignoring when Wu Yu tries to stop him, because he doesn't have a dishwasher and Prince Charming has to wash them all by hand.

When Wu Yu determines there's only one bed, and that one bed is not actually going to work for two grown men, he sets a mat on the floor for himself, trying to give Bu Chonghua the bed. Bu Chonghua bullies him into taking the bed, then has the nerve to say, 'I'm sleeping on the floor. That's what you get for not coming home.' And Wu Yu has to deal with the fact his boss is sleeping on his floor.

Wu Yu can't sleep though, not with the lights off and too many things to think about. He moves to give Bu Chonghua his blanket, and Bu Chonghua, who has all the swag that his cousin doesn't, captures his Cinderella. ('If you don't say anything, I'm going to kiss you.' Captain Bu, please.)

When Bu Chonghua pauses at the door, because his colleague had been bragging about how he didn't even have to unlock the door, his wife just opened it when she heard him coming and he thinks that it's probably a little too ridiculous, even for a fantasy. But then Wu Yu opens the door, teasing him about if his finger was broken that he couldn't unlock the door himself, and his apartment is lit up and bright and warm. And he's home.

When Wu Yu kisses him, then punches him hard in the face because it was Bu Chonghua who left home first this time, ("Things that are not used only take up space." Wu Yu, talking about cutting Bu Chonghua's dick off like the power bottom he is. I actually do have quite a few thoughts on service top sub Bu Chonghua and Wu Yu taking control. It's a pity I'm too ace to write them.) his apology is that if Wu Yu had known he wouldn't have the courage to take the risk. ("It takes a lot of courage to clear your name for you," Wu Yu rightly retorts, but admittedly, this plot has been in the making since before he entered Bu Chonghua's life again.) He's so happy to have his home back, even when he can't go home.

When everything is revealed, when the pumpkin finally turns back into a carriage and it's all tumbled down, when Bu Chonghua has to chase after Wu Yu, running head first into an explosion and a flood because he just wants to hold Wu Yu's hand one more time, when Wu Yu asks 'Are you taking me home?' Bu Chonghua's answer is 'No, I don't have to take you. Where you are is my home.'

Wu Yu's true name meaning 'to return/to come home' makes me feral, ngl.

Because this is what Bu Chonghua wanted more than anything else. Wu Yu appeared in his life the day he lost his family - his home. And only when Wu Yu has returned, his home is no longer an empty apartment, but family again.

#This is Mem's life #Huai Shang #Swallowing the Seas #meta and things #yeah I'm still not over gay coproganda #yeah I'm still making it everyone else's problem until someone joins me #I can go one month before rereading - yeeeeeeeeeeeeah #Month is almost done? #and it was only the manhua #not the novels themselves #and like I said to be fair bilibili is taking everything down on the 29th #I had to read it again before then #That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it

[amuhav]

     “What are we gonna do?” Back home, snuggled into Chad on the sofa, a slight unease began to sneak into River’s happy haze.       “What do you mean?”      “I-I wasn’t exactly... expecting your news...” River stammered. It still hadn’t sunk in, not fully.      “Neither was I, to be fair.” Chad paused before carefully asking, “are you upset?”      “What? No, of course not!” River sat up to meet his gaze. “I... we aren’t prepared, that’s all.”      “Well, we have nearly seven months to do so.”      River chuckled awkwardly. “I suppose you’re right. Seven, huh...”       He saw the worry in Chad’s eyes, even as he tried to hide it with a brittle smile. “I’m happy, I swear!” River rushed to reassure him.       “O-okay...”      “I am! I’m just trying to think ahead...” He giggled nervously. “Never been my forte.”      Chad smiled softly, though he certainly didn’t rush to contradict him. “I’m sure we can work it all out, Rivi.”     “...Yeah.” River smiled, moving back to his snuggling position, trying to push any worries away. Chad was right; they had time.

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#ts3 #ts3 legacy #Karaish Legacy #River Karaish #Chad Sylvester #(⊙_⊙;) #anyway I think the anxiety comes thru in the pic lol #denial what denial this is fine #anyway uh #I didn't forget the ring I swear >> #uh #it needs resizing? #that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it

[helenthwaite]

I was watching an interview with Todd Stashwick where he was told "Don't read the fanfic" and his face was such a picture of "Oh shit" that I nearly died.

Anyway, I don't have a contract forbidding me from consuming fanfiction, so I totally am. He's getting off lightly thus far. Though I have absolutely accepted as headcanon that Liam Shaw is bi.

Also, major props to the author who wrote Shaw in jeans, tee and a leather jacket. He basically cosplayed as Deacon and I was amused.

#todd stashwick #I'm reading fanfic so he doesn't have to #that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it

[justshahrukhkhan]

#shah rukh khan #my heart #shahrukh khan #it's his birthday so I'm gonna post a bunch of pics #that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it #srk

[ioannemos]

had a good day today! did a load of laundry and put away clean clothes that have been sitting around for a few days, entertained and brushed the dog, cooked and ate food (three meals! with a snack or two in between!), emptied and then ran a load in the dishwasher, and finished the inspector lynley mystery believing the lie while moving around the apartment so that i was always a little in the sun but not enough to get too hot. didn't turn on my laptop until sevenish i think? and only used my phone to play music. which is why i totally forgot what day it was. which was probably for the best, tbh - it meant i actually relaxed

#only thing i thought about doing but didn't get to was taking a shower... believing the lie is like. 600 pages and i Had To Finish It #that's my excuse and i'm sticking to it #i wonder if elizabeth george has ever been married. i've noticed a repeat of certain dynamics in the inspector lynley books i've read #her characters feel true enough that it isn't annoying but it does make me wonder #anyway #think positive #personal #abbie needs a twitter #food

[partyinthemysterymachine]

KICKS DOWN SILENT HILL FANDOM DOOR

I'M GAY

UR WELCOME

GOODNIGHT

#that's my excuse and i'm STICKING TO IT #haha pride portraits. gayass lyrics. if you recognize them? i got bad news for you #you MIGHT be a r*nthead :\ #the FBI is on their way bye #(i have GOT to learn how to sleep you guys this SUCKS--)

[mobscene-london]

PLEASE MAKE SURE TO PUT THE ADMIN IN JAIL:

Nora Berkeley

#it'll be good for my muse okay #that's my excuse and i'm sticking to it #I PLAY TOO MANY MEN #AND AM ABOUT TO KILL ONLY WOMEN SO #mobfollow

[seething-river]

Me to my friend: Hey, could you tag NSFW stuff you send me when I'm at work? Thanks. Me writing smut at work:

#writers on tumblr #writeblr #writing #smut #the muse strikes when she strikes #maybe it helps that I work in fertility #if I'm talking to my patients about it then technically writing about it is on topic #that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it #technically professional

[soybean-official]

It's going to hurt every time

#DMC'S FAVORITE PINCUSHION!!!!!!!!!!! #devil may cry #devil may cry fanart #dmc dante #dmc dante fanart #dante sparda #pretty difficult to draw this one!! i'm new to drawing faces from this angle #and a different rendering style #aka same as my default but using a smaller brush #please excuse all the style experimentation...... trying to find something that sticks :) #beanie art #dmc fanart

[robocracker]

huh. the ‘reblogs turned off’ message has disappeared on that post. is this just tumblr’s weird way of making you aware that nothing in your queue or drafts can be reblogged from you yet?

#you learn something new every day i guess #you probably also annoy your followers when you liveblog your discovery of a basic tumblr feature that they no doubt already know all about #what can i say it's a monday and it's too bloody hot #my brain is cooking #that's my excuse and i'm sticking to it

[itsdefinitely]

coug h

#whenever i start disliking my art i automatically switch into lineless #and then my excuse for not liking my art is “it's lineless” #but anyway i'm viciously beating back art block with a stick #tinky pokey and blinky went to see barbie. nibbly and wiggly went to see oppenheimer #source: it came to me in a vision like a twisted prophet #id in alt text #wiggog y'rath #wiggly #nerdy prudes must die #hatchetfield #npmd spoilers #definitely art

[raishiteru]

I was told they're best friends, your honor.

#Docm77 #Rendog #Renthedog #RenDoc #HermitCraft #MCYT #kemono #goat #dog #ID in ALT #Rai's Art #Raishiteru #I don't actually know how they interact. #But this is my story and I'm sticking with it. #And any excuse to draw dog... yea.

[sergle]

How's Hugo? May we have picture of the Boi? 🥹

he's good!!!! he's long suffering, his life is very very difficult bc nobody loves him or ever does fun activities with him. he works very hard at being a dog every single day. here are some pics proving that he never gets to go anywhere or have ANY fun!

#thank you for the excuse to post pics of my BOY #sergle answers #sergle's pets #Hugo #I love it when he picks a stick up and carries it around i'm like oh my god... that's a thing that dogs do.. #he's being such a dog rn...

[0illipheist]

Fel's Character Sheet for @bareee's @tav-dex!

These are the starting stats only, no buffs/feats or anything. I'll do another 'End Game' sheet bc there'll be a different class, different look, diff stat spread, diff everything bc *plot developments*

(I have a whole story written including immediately before the events of BG3 but I want to try and get my head around comics first so I can tell it that way - comic layouts are my Achilles heel this will not be in the very near future)

#bg3 durge #bg3 fanart #bg3 #tav dex #Be nice be gentle I'm very fragile this is the first time I've done any bit of colour in nine months #(or really any drawing at all aside from one project) #colouring is also my weak point #That's the excuse I'm sticking to