#the entire way i communicate with this blog

[rabbitofharmony]

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#its so odd that i only talk in tags i know #its become like #the entire way i communicate with this blog #but like. i dont know why i do? #am i embaressed by my spelling maybe or grammer #or maybe i just dont want to leave a perminent stamp on a post? #tumblr has been really bad lately in the site loading #its like constantly freezing or breaking #i feel like its not long for this world sometimes #i was looking at bluesky but i dont know #cause like my twitter was for my twitch #and i dont know if i want a social media where it would be me just posting? #and like. if its just a retweeting board like here #i follow 2300 blogs or someth #i dont want to refind all that. im a tired ol gal #sometimes i think about going back to streams #but only if i get a house and thats gonna take a while #still. thanks for following even tho the only way to see my blurbs #is to come across one of my hundread posts a session #that actually have a tag on them lol #and no i will never tag things #the tag feature is just for secret messages between freinds #dear readers <3

[pinacoladamatata]

eating my popcorn watching all this drama go down irt the larian discord server

#like i never joined but the whole discord community relationship thing fascinates me from a psych perspective #like in a miller exp or stanford prison exp way #i am aware of the irony of this coming from a blog on tumblr where i act stupid on purpose #but i do think the entire larian discord has been incredibly unprofessional both from larian's employees and the moderators/support team #but. this isn't a hospital where i. like. care. this is my silly blog where i post dumb shit and wow are you guys seeing this? #like im am just trying to imagine. like if my hospital had an 'official discord' where staff interacted w the public like that #i cant. actually. because i've fired people for taking pics in clinic. this shit is wild #like no one seems to really know whats going on and some ppl are claiming larian hate modders/1 or 2 modders specifically #while others are like. no they dont; it just sucks having to reverse engineer the script extender etc #and then there's the google doc thing of like thousands of screenshots of the discord mod chat which i WISH i had the time to study #it makes me realize how little i know about the whole online moderater lifestyle thing that happens on discord and reddit etc #anyway im curious and nosey always so this is interesting to me #and the drama of it all takes my mind of other horrible things for a bit

[jinstronaut]

anyways being a mean girl on the internet at a grown age in a space where the thing we’re celebrating is so meaningful and lovely is such a bad take

#entitlement on the internet over nothing is crazy #the way this entire fandom space changed so drastically when attitudes changed so drastically is wild #i love bts and you know what? that fondness can get lost in the sauce because of all the bad vibes around here lately #things that aren’t competition: enjoyment of context. friendship. artistry. fostering community. #i’m gonna start setting Hard boundaries to enjoy myself in this space again #because nothing gets to overshadow the love i have for these boys #but i rly want some of y’all to reflect on maybe why like half the people you know are leaving without a word #and sure maybe making content feels fruitless and contrinbutes #but also? the environment has become a lot less kind and welcoming #and i fear if i had just made this blog recently compared to when i did join. i wouldn’t last #it’s so so so easy to be kind and open and that’s just … not the energy anymore #and i want to get that energy back #because we’re all here for the same reason so why be anything But kind and welcoming and generous #u kno #.txt

[cinna-bunnie]

so like..

is the idea that as a compromise to only having to toggle off tumblr live once a month, you now have this permanent tumblr live icon regardless of ur setting choice stuck to the bottom in the middle of everything in the hopes that i click on it accidentally anyways even though it's clear i don't want it or? where is the NO 100% STOP GIVING ME THIS SHIT I DON'T ACCEPT YOUR POLICIES AND LITERALLY COULD NOT CARE LESS ABOUT TUMBLR LIVE AND WILL NEVER BE INTERESTED IN THIS TYPE OF FEATURE OR FORMAT.

@zingring @photomatt @humans idk how many feedback requests people have to cut tumblr for "no" to just be a valid response here. ppl aren't dumb and see u inching over the line trying to force this on them despite the snooze choice.

what, are there so many ppl snoozing and such a low adoption rate that you know you need to trick users into using it so you can "make number go up" or? 🙄

#snoozing tumblr live for a month but perpetually having a big centered button that will take you there immediately at all #times while also inherently meaning that you've accepted the privacy policies and TOS for using a third party service #tumblr is so fucking annoying is2g i should just pester my mutuals repeatedly about getting onto cohost and being active instead #of talking to a fucking brick wall because obviously NO ONE at tumblr gives a shit that NO ONE wants to use their shitty third #party live stream feature. for the millionth time leave me alooooone #my patience and grace for this site is almost entirely spent y'all ngl (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) tumblr is like one or two annoying updates away from #me bugging y'all to get on cohost. was hoping there'd be a few more good updates before we got back to the annoying enraging ones. #like.. seeing if ppl r mutuals or followers on mobile? 👍 snoozing going from 7 to 30 days? 👍 live being there despite snoozing? 👎🔫 #I'm STILL not over this whole twitter UI too in the browser too. tumblr's trying sooo hard to be a blogging platform in a twitter trenchcoat #u ARE a blogging platform and are functionally different than a typical social media site in multiple key ways. why r u downgrading urself #it's bc matt thinks elon's sooooo cute and wants to kiss him so bad he'd do anything to get his attention #even crash the popularity of his site and burn his good grace he had w the platforms community. #y'all rich mf need some hobbies i swear to god (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) y'all get bored or divorced n start tryna fix shit that ain't broken. pests. #now it's everyone else's problem too 🙄

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭 #and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!! #''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/ #''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍 #I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ???? #what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly. #vent // #SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it) #(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl) #delete later #dandyshucks

[magicdyke]

dude is just not smart

#i mean if you have a blog entirely dedicated to “discourse” then what can you expect #love that he can just decide that using queer is never ever a slur no matter what and say that being tme doesnt affect you #while also having several different instances of transmisogyny on his blog or thinking he has the right to joke abt certain things #its like ok so you just like the word fag because it makes you sound special #or edgy or whatever #with zero real care for the actual lgbt community at large #like maybe there are people that dont like to be called queer because it is still used as a slur in Most Spaces #also btw hes like “I literally talk abt [transmisogyny] on this blog” but i like did not see a single post referencing trans women #aside from a post where he was getting mad at ppl for being mad that he made some shitty transmisogynisyic joke that he took back later #maybe being obsessed with “transandrophobia” is an insanely moronic thing to do and maybe you have to accept #that you are white and not hypervisible to humanity and have similar problems and experiences to the people similar to you #but still have the ability to exclude transfems from spaces #and are actively doing so by talking the way you do on your stupid ass blog #god. white trans men thinking that they're exactly the only people that have ever experienced oppression that gets ignored by society #drives me fucking crazy #im sorry but you are not special. #the toothpaste flag icon on top of all of this just to really remind everyone that hes a lesbophobe whenever hes talking ever

[fooltofancy]

have at last concluded that the boy is structurally asexual but proudly sex-positive, in that he doesn't experience attraction much at all but is dtf almost all of the time.

#do you use physical intimacy as a way to avoid communicating? you. might be ilya. #actually caring about someone complicates the sex for him quite a bit honestly #it's easy when you're just bodies something else entirely when youve gotta be a part of that person's life #unrelated but he is also the kind of person to show up at a one night stand's door three weeks later with a hammer because he hasn't #been able to stop thinking about their leaky roof. #baby mode blogging #inexplicable ten in the morning ilya posts while i try to con myself into painting

[blobbei-art]

I recently archived all of the old art on my DeviantArt accounts I still have and 14 year old me actually was onto something with pixel art?

Also I dearly miss the experience of this Team Rocket Roleplay(ish) DeviantArt group I joined 2015/16. Having a public group where your OCs just exist very close to one another/live together so you included each other a lot. Very good times!

I hope all these people with their edgy Pikachu OCs are doing good out there nowadays.

#old art #pokemon #pixel art #idk i felt the need to share this #i think young me would be so proud of how far we've gotten #partially inspired because the ask blog thing thats been going on in the r/ain w/orld fandom looks like its the closest to this #ive seen in a long time #and i constantly wanna join in but also its exclusively asks and a lot of work and also tumblr isnt a great medium for this tbh #very hard to keep up #my ideal way of talking about my ocs or interacting with others' ocs is to just #'haha wouldnt it be funny if my characters attended your characters' weddning' sparking an entire conversation discussing this #making others' ocs part of the canon etc etc etc #and the place to do that is discord except ugh you have to find the right discord and also i do actually like doing that publically #like hell yeah asks i love rambling abt ocs i would love to answer some in character stuff #but its JUST in character and i like a variety of things on how to ramble about ocs #sorry this is long lol ive been thinking about this bc the r/ain w/orld community is pretty based

[sprite-periodt]

Y'all ever so flustered already that you can't stand to look at any t-word vids because you visibly squirm and it's like you can literally feel it happening to you and you get even more flustered?

Yeah.

#I am losing my entire shit but in the best way????? #I can feel my blush up to my ears... #that's........that's never happened before /)///////O #NO AND I CAN'T EVEN SCRATCH ITCHES ANYWHERE BECAUSE Y'KNOW...... #tickle community #tickle blog #tickling #tickle fluff #tickles

[ibroughtyoumybullets]

did Pinterest fuck with their algorithm or smth? their suggestions used to have me by the throat but lately theyre shit 

#pinterest is really the only algorithm based site i support even conceptually #actually now that im thinking about it the reason the way tumblr is going about updating this website sucks #is because theyre trying too hard to emulate twitter but tumblr and twitter are fundamentally different website genres #whereas pinterest is the only current Well Known analogue to tumblr #like. this is very much a Multi Media Blogging Platform with an undeniable and historic focus on visual media #twitter on the other hand is Thee Text Based Blogging Platform and has also been like. legitimized in the eyes of #the non-chronically online public. #i think there are plenty of ways they could more effectively monetize this website without so .... crudely altering the very essence of like #this websites spot in the web 2.0 canon. #i think discounting this websites foundational relationship to visual media - and by extension creativity focused communities - #is only going to alienate your userbase and create a contentious relationship between developer and user #and really what could elevate this websites foot traffic and therefore ad revenue #would be to differentiate itself as the Big Social Media Platform where the developers arent seen as like. evil overlords #like that is the hole in the internet that needs to be filled #if you read this entire essay in the tags ... girl why #anyhow #honestly? #staff #should hire me.

[nullbutler]

Literally all of my irls dislike Alois. What do I do. How do I convert them (I’m not forcing them to watch the source material)

HMMMMM have you tried forcing them to read fan fiction?

I think alois is an unusually acquired taste, because most of my IRLs watched black butler when they were 12 and only vaguely remember him as the "energetic mean blond kid". That ignorance is a blessing and I'd imagine you aren't in that situation. their experience is probably more...lucid.

That being said there's little to nothing from the source that portrays him in a particularly good light (every scene is so...vaguely iffy lol like the scene where he meets Ciel? he licks him. The eye gouging scene? enough said). Fanfic is also a good outlet, and also the fight scene with him and ciel is one of my personal favorites from the show because it's literally just his personality and a sword to swing. It's one of the best digestible clips if you ABSOLUTELY MUST. The butterfly OVA is also particularly charming and puts some good insight on his character -- he also doesn't injure anyone or do anything too wild in that one (aside from setting his room on fire).

...BUT YEAH it's very difficult, because a part of liking him is being disturbed by him and then slowly having those feelings ferment into a kind of "I can't fix you but I love you in your brokenness and I wish the best for you" mindset. AT LEAST FOR ME. And it's very annoyingly difficult to convince people to enjoy a character that, at the end of the day, is more a fan amalgamation than a set in stone particularly well written person (not that our beloved traits AREN'T present, implied, or otherwise portrayed, they're just sequestered in a lot of sludge)

#I'd be honored if you showed them my reanimation but even that is very heavy + he's...messy in the in character way #alois is hard to water down - I imagine the disturbing feelings are a part of the experience #show them like ten minutes of the show and then immediately pull up nana's entire blog like “okay this is ACTUALLY him” #or maybe just let them abuse your alois plushie until they feel something #(I did that with one friend of mine) #alois trancy #I know I'm being mean to him but #I love him and his poor writing and this community #blorbo from my (questionable) shows

[mythvoiced]

-. not to post about fking sh.erl.ock in the year of our Lord & Saviour ND Stevenson 2023 but exclusive english speakers will never understand the linguistics based gasp-gutpunch-tearsinmyeyes of the scene where john asks homebaby to be his best man because if you watch the show in German when Sherlock asks 'i'm your best friend?' the 'you' John uses in his answer ('you are') is informal as the first time in the whole show they switched to 'du' rather than continuing to use the formal 'Sie' and it's such a beautiful dialogue choice i think about it every time i mourn the lack of differentiation between a formal and an informal 'you' in English

#;ooc #;tbd #i also just mourn it because it's so USEFUL to have as a teeny way to keep a certain distance to people #or as a way to underline growing proximity #the contrast of first naming or title + last name you have in English is too intense #back in the day when men used to refer to each other via their surnames without titles that's probs the closest to a formal you #using SH as an example 'Watson' implies closer proximity than 'Dr Watson' #in German you can first-name people but still use a formal 'you' which implies an entirely different social structure #hypothetical name 'Robert Smith' there's Mr Smith + 'Sie' and potentially Smith + Sie then Robert + Sie and then Robert + du #in LETTERS/emails/written communication you can add an EXTRA layer by yes using the informal 'du' but writing it with uppercase 'D' #so you can have a progression of Title + Sie | potentially surname + Sie | name + Sie | name + Du | name + du #ANYWAYS sorry for the rambling i'm tired and had some wine and just... OOF all's good otherwise #gonna leave that inbox call up and try to avoid posting 'til sunday so it's still visible high up on the blog~ #pls feel free to like it even if we've never even breathed in each other's direction before ♥ #i gotta go to sleep omg HAVE A LOVELY TIMEZONE

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[butch-bakugo]

I truly and wholely believe that white people will never truly, fully and honestly sympathize with people of color and our history of oppression unless they can look upon their specific heritage and find genocide or immoral and wrongful treatment. Like fully. And I'm gonna use my wp mixed self and my white friends and my white partner as an example. Like the only time they will ever sympathize is when either they are shown the raw truth of genocide faced by others and forced to see it's generational traumatic effects or the more likely option, their specific culture has faced some form of genuine mistreatment.

Like an Irish person who was treated as a second class citizen and understands their past with indentured servitude and same-race colonization understands me, a native American and native Canadian, better than a British scholar who knows the ins and outs of the native American genocide front to back in significantly more detail than even I do. I'm sorry if this is hard to hear or too hot of a take but it's honestly true. A white person who knows some form of genocide heritigicly will sympathize with me in my grief as a native better than a white person whose culture has never faced any kind of mistreatment based on race.

No matter how much education you receive, you just won't be able to fully sympathize. It's been shown scientifically that black student's mental health severely declines once they are taught the horrors of slavery in the us, same for native Americans and colonization, vietnamese students and the Vietnam war, Muslim and middle eastern students and 9/11, the list goes on and on. Learning about your culture's past with the horrors of racism causes literal mourning, I don't think anyone could argue against that, but the white people who've never been racially harmed will never convince me that they understand my pain, empathize or even know an ounce of it. It is simply outside of their experiences and therefore fully unknowable to them.

Some white people can. Some know it or seen it enough to get a rough look. Those aren't who I'm talking about. I'm talking about no history of harm and racial degradation. French, British, etc. You simpley won't. You won't understand it and I'm tired of letting them get away with their false empathy. No you don't understand. You never will. I mourn every time I think of how many natives were needlessly murdered. How many natives could of been alive today hadn't we been nearly eradicated. There were millions of us and I feel so alone in my grief. I feel so alone in my culture. I will never fully know my culture because of it. There are no records. There is no land. I have no country to visit. I'm sure I could find at least something but the reality is there are millions of people who can return to their cultural roots and fully envelope themselves. Who can fly far away and be surrounded by the food and drink and people who share their origin. They can read their history in large libraries and speak their language in full. They can dance their people's dances and sing their people's songs. They can live as their ancestors did. Those people are white. My people were brown. Their land is no longer their own. Their food nor drink has not survived. There aren't many of us left, certainly not enough to fill a country. Their history has been burned and erased and tortured out of them. Their languages are dead and gone. Very few of their thousands of dances survived and many are merely pieces of a shredded picture. Their people's songs have been choked from their throats. They can't live as their ancestors did without white people telling them to stop.

Alot of people like to pretend we can simply rebuild what was lost. That no more damage is being done. That what's broken can be replaced or fixed. When this isn't true. Native societies will never be the same. More damage is being done(see the challenges with icwa and cultural erasure through adoption of native children into white christian families aka residential schools lite). Our cultures are decimated. Our long and proud and expansive history prior to colonization is almost non-existent and none exists after. We are practically ghosts. We are neanderthals. We are almost extinct. Small traces of us exist in many but they simply won't know and if they do, they are encouraged to never explore it. We are dieing not by climate or lack of trying, we are a planned extinction and it's ongoing.

And I'm sorry but.... This upsets me. It upsets every native. It upsets every culture in the same condition as mine and even those with lesser damage. It destroys you. It ruins you. It makes you feel small and unwanted and like vermin. It makes you cry. And I don't think a British/Nordic or french person, the same people who caused this genocide and eratification, can understand my grief. I don't think they can or will. Not unless they are exposed to a huge degree and in the world they built entirely on corpses, it's easy to not look down to consider whose body your stepping on. You simply must walk on.

#levi speaks #im tired of hearing im sorrys and i understands #your not fully sorry and im sorrys here are complicated #its not a simple answer #and you will not understand it #even by virtue of reading my entire blog and every single time i speak of it you wont understand it #there are white people who will #white people who try and understand their poc partners white people who research these things in great depth #white people who work with these communities #white people who see the raw trauma in racism #they might have one glance of the reakity enough to sympathize but never full empathy #you dont know what thats like #you never will #some white people do by virtue of experiencing it #certain countries like polish pple #Portuguese pple #even some italian pple can understand racial injustice #wp dosent mean you arnt white just that you pass that way #some white people dont look white and thats true #but you wont get this issue #and thats okay #sympathy is still better than apathy #concerning racism

[honeykaes]

If you have a backup account or side account try posting it there and see?

I did and didn’t see the community label thing happen so quickly. It isn’t happening to others in the Genshin Smut tags since I saw post relatively posted at the same time as me and they didn’t get a CL yet

Which begs the question of who is targeting me and why :,)) since this doesn’t seem to be tumblr moderation getting stricter

#sigh #this isn’t the first time this has happened but it’s been awhile since I have #like I’ve had someone mass cl my entire blog #for posts I did a couple years even before community labels came out #it just sucks since it seems malicious in a way? idk

[georgelore]

okay i lied i cant stay away

#ive been so conflicted #everyone is talking about prasocialism and they are completely and truely right #the way this whole situation affected me really shed some light on my obession with dt and friends #ive been in fandoms my entire life and ive never experienced the hurt and confusion ive felt this last week #coming back here and seeing people's incredibly well put takes on the situation snd the 'end' of dt.blr and we knew it has been very helpful #as we knew it* #and healing in a way #ive literally avoided any dt or dt-adjecent content for a week because it made my stomach hurt knowing what happened #it's been such a huge part of me for almost 2 years #so i cant let it go #i will stay here #and engage in dt.kq etc. content again #<- you're free to unfollow/block me if it makes u uncomfortable #i'm reblogging a take that summed up a lot of my thoughts this last week really well #and it tell you more on where i stand on the situation #im sad to see so many go but i completely understand because i felt the same for so long #as i mentioned it really broke my heart seeing the community we built end the way it did #but i hope i can still find happiness and breaks from real life in what we have left #and in the future of my blog #because it's MINE #but it'll be more diverse from now one #maybe a rebrand is in order #who knows #one step at a time :)