#theyre so pretty to me it makes me so mad

[technovillain]

stardew is a horrible game for making these two men not only undateable but total npcs you can't have any sort of relationship with

actual crime.

#theyre so pretty to me it makes me so mad #when the old man wears glasses and hat and is mysterious. #i hate this game..... jk i love it so much #stardew valley #.txt #is mr qi a tumblr sexyman yet

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!! #im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

[boxwinebaddie]

NINNAAAA WHATS SPCD STAND FOR??

oh, it's not that exciting, it's actualy awful. i mentioned it towards the tail end of chapter five of rm. it's basically what cartman used to call kyle when they were growing up. a really cruel fucked up nickname.

the s.p.c.d,

or rather,

the south park city dump. :(

the sp boys used to be fucking horrible to kyle because cartman ruled their elementary/middle school. and when cartman and the boys saw kyle in the hallway they were like "what are you doing here, broflovski? trash day's tomorrow" or omg whenever he walked ANYWHERE they made the "Beep! Beep! Beep!" trash truck noises, but worst of all was that they used to dump out...Full Trashcans On Him. like spoiled milk, rotted food stuffs, glass bottles that werent put in recycling, crushed aluminum cans that cut his cheeks, all kinds of awful, foul smelling sludge...sigh. :/ ily so much baby jersey.

also, if you want to cry extra hard, i think that being covered in all that disgusting lunchroom trash, feeling it soak thru his shirt, stink down to the skin, pool around his shoes, get buried in his hair -- just feeling that dirty and disgusting and Unclean was one of the factors that made his ocd so severe and it's a large part as to why he takes scorching showers and rubs his skin raw bc especially if he smells something weird or its trash day, he gets triggered & has to SCRUB.

but anygays! you bet your ass that tiny lil stan was giving them ALL the business rippin around on his bike brandishing his hockey stick like a big sword, running them out of town and back to their mommas crying and screaming bloody murder all in that giant wayne gretsky *ravenstan vc* yersey...they were SCARED, lolllll!!!

which is a very interesting juxtaposition to sweet, gentle stan very lovingly picking all the food debris out of his kyles beautiful curly whirly hair before marching him over to the bathroom where while kyle showers, stan always sits on the toliet bc their running joke is that kyle might drown ( yes yersey also can't swim ) while stan listens to rock n colors his nails in w/ sharpie or stolen nail polish from shell.

and he's just like "dude, Fuck them, kyle! those fkn gilipollas are just mad because theyre all total perros and you're the most handsome guy in school, hands down." wHICH? AAA??? tbf stan does say shit like that all the time & Means It bc ravenstan has loved jers from the moment he Heard him but kyle thinks he's fuckin w/ him

bc haha!

very fun joke, stan! hit on the weird, overweight, clunky, awkward, nerdy loser boy to make him feel better about himself! great joke, bro!

bUT ITS NOT A JOKE, BESTIE!!!!

HE WANTS TO KISS YOU SO BAD!!!!!!!!

not them both bein secretly and painfully in love with each other but convinced that acting on their feelings would ruin their friendship/be unrequited and both of them being like "he is perfect, what would he want with a fuckin Loser like me?" :/ </3 WERE IN HELL!!!

regardless of thinking it was a joke, it totally made kyle blush, my rosecea king and stan was sooo nervous like oh my god, you are SO stupid, stanley marsh!!!!! guapo??? gUAPO BITCH??!!!! ARE U ACTUALLY INSANE!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU??!!!

i love nervous ass tiny stan with his massive universe sized crush on kyle broflovski that he carries around in his black jansport backpack at all times...along with the weight of the world, ofc. we know this.

but anyways..off topic.

closing thoughts?

fuck you fartman.

-uncle nina, tiny but big baby jersey kyle defense club

( don't touch my sweet son!!! MY BABY!!!!! )

p.s. i'm sorry i just started making new sections without warning. i wanted a way to post about what the boys looked or acted like during different periods of their lives -- so like, satana ( which is what stans mom called him ) refers to the period of time before the fire and kyle's 'the s.p.c.d.' section also refers to that period of time.

it's cool you guys are so perceptive tho! i hope you like them <333 you're always welcome to ask me questions about them xx

#the spcd nickname always makes me want to cry #i love you baby jersey kyle he is my angel #the world was so cruel to him #just for being fat too like #everyone who has ever hurt jersey can go hell right after they meet with me and i beat the living shit out of them...til they Die #stan was mad over protective too and stan was weird but he had Clout from being pretty so he was like IF I SEE THAT SHIT AGAIN ITS OVER #and then goes to lovingly tend to kyle like dude im so sorry you dont deserve this shit look im gonna tell their moms #and theyre gonna get so busted and have to pay you back for al your clothes...then we pretend to hit the gap and go to good will instead #and use the rest to buy tokens at the arcade or buy the new mario game and see who can finish a pizza faster its me btw #theyre in love ur honor like why didnt i give them a chance like they were...so married #ALSO AN ANON ASKED ME ABOUT BALLET KY #YES JERSEY TOOK BALLET it wasn't his idea it was an accident bc they were marking electives #and ballet was RIGHT next to basketball and then basketbal got full and sheila was like I ALREADY BOUGHT YOU SHOES UR GOING #and like at first it was really awkward but i think kyle actually really liked the structure of ballet and when u dance beautifully #what he found is that no one had anything to say about his weight just that his pirouette was perfect it was freeing #he dropped it during the kyley b era #but picked it up again in college and its kind of a form of self harm and he fucks up his feet very badly trying to be perfect #also hes like fuck all those people who laughed at me im perfect now im fucking perfect i have to show them i have to be the best #sigh...kyle kyle kyle...ill elaborate on that more in one of the ballet kyle asks but kyle loves ballet and going to preformances #ice skating and dainty refined stuff which is cute bc theyre very nosm like jers on ice skates and stan w the hockey stick during winter

[jrueships]

avon 'EXCUSE ME!! he ASK for no

P I C K L E S . '

barksdale

#avon: my man here-- #stringer: *looks down and fidgets with hands in bashful and shy husband who hates confrontation* #avon took one glance at string and said ok ure my nerd husband now i guess #i love them theyre such a problematic power couple #it takes a problematic power couple to fight a problematic power couple (avon and string vs marlo and chris) #avon being a leo and string being a virgo is so extremely important to me #a leo taking charge can either be an extremely good or extremely bad thing #THINKING they know something vs ACTUALLY knowing something makes a BIG difference here #STRING BEING SO EMBARRASSED OVER AVON IS SO FUNNY 😭😭 #the construction workers glancing over at string for help like he can reign in his upset husband or smthin #how is this clip not on utube like it's so funny #legit a little treat for me holding out thru the civilian part of season 2 #avon and his pretty pink shirt being the girlboss king defending his malewife queen adamantly and loyally #string awkwardly staring at the ground thinking 'ok babygirl.. dont embarrass daddy at work now' or smthing LMFAO im ruining this show #but my friends are forced to watch it with me bcs i cant stop noticing things #when a leo and a virgo are on the same page against the same enemy.. they are a force to be reckoned with #leos have the creative analysis of insult and virgos have the methodical movement to approach #but when theyre warring against each other on opposite pages ... their opposition rlly tears them in two #when a virgo starts seeing a leo as lesser.. and the leo can start sensing it.. steer clear of their argument bcs 😭 uh uh #that shit gets heated mad fast #'he has to wear a hat on this site. code. u know-' #string shuffles past silently. as if he had a major say in whatever avons set his mind on #he can adjust the approach or ground it but whatevers gonna takeoff is gonna takeoff unfortunately #sometimes string is tired of playing stabilizer #avon not being a fan of cramped places.. always on the move and always looking around #he doesnt know where hes going or why but he does know that him and his husband need to be treated right dammit !! #hes ambitious but hes aware of lanes. he does what hes good at string does what string is good at. strengths and weaknesses is a big thing #...when he can see them properly. sometimes his stare can be a little skewed. a little tilted #stunted by himself without realizing it at times. a second pair of eyes help steady his aim #they were such a perfect couple and thats why they had to be the ones to essentially destroy the other UGH i hate poetry I HATE POETRY

[8cfc00]

im literally going to throw up im sooooo mad i never got to trick or treat OR sleepover OR play dnd in all SIXTEEN YEARS OF MY FUCKING LIFE..... im supposed to be a TEENAGER doing TEENAGE THINGS but for some reason i CANT

#THE FUCKING TEENS IN DNDADS HAVE A BETTER SOCIAL LIFE THAN ME #WHAT THE HELL #sorry im listening to teen talk and theyre talking about key pivotal teen moments #and i literally have not been over to a friend's house in a YEAR #AND NONE OF MY IRLS EVEN WANT TO GO OUT AND PRACTICE CINEMATOGRAPHY W ME #THIS IS FUCKED #im not that mad about it though #pretty okay on my own #i enjoy the time i get to spend w myself #and i enjoy the freedom that it provides me #an di understand that i gotta make the most out of the situation i am unfortunately in #but like its so fucking hard to do things without the support of a friend by yr side... #but like being friends w someone just for the shit they provide you is kinda fucked #and if i think too hard about the power of friendship and the strong emotional bonds it creates #bad stuff happenbs #idk i just find it hard to find people who understand me #and i tend to click with people who don't share very similar perspectives on friendship w me #i just wish it was as easy for me as it seems to be for the teens #and in a way im afraid im falling behind or missing out cuz i lack a strong friendgroup to fuck around w #but i mean ive been told sleepovers are overated anyway soooo

[anotherpapercut]

in 1 hour I will have officially relinquished the $1,032.96 that the library took from me by firing me for handing in my 2 weeks notice and then telling me I could only have it if I waive all my legal rights o7

#just realized one of the things in this contract is also that i cant fight them about my last paycheck #and im pretty sure theyre either a half hour or a full hour short and im so willing to fight that its unbelievable lmao #im not signing your fucking gag order for 1k but i will fight you for $6 #one of the stipulations in this thing is that im never allowed to apply to work at the library again or id have to give the money back #i doubt im going to be applying to this hell hole any time soon but that just makes me mad. fuck you you ridiculous bitch #im one of the most qualified people in this entire city. die. i want the option of returning after these people are all dead #because someone is gonna kill this bitch thats not a threat its an observation on statistics #you treat enough people like this eventually theres gonna be a consequence

[apple-os]

ppl who like making friends solely with one-note cardboard boxes who will hang out with them when it's convenient and never open up about who they are as people and what their lives are like dni

#the salt just caught up with me and now im pissed #hi welcome to what i like to call a friendly reminder that hanging out with someone just because its convenient is kind of shitty #and a less friendly reminder that talking about yourself to connect with people is an autistic trait #and an even less friendly reminder that not telling someone if theyve done you wrong and then proceeding to blow up on them is ALSO SHITTY #ESPECIALLY. WHEN. THEY THINK. YOU'RE ON GOOD TERMS. BECAUSE YOU ACTED LIKE IT AND THEY CAN'T READ YOU. #IM REALLY FUCKING MAD #I THINK I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE. #the people who actually somewhat knew me and hung out with me and were on good terms with me think the same #so like BLEH MYEH :PPPPPPPPP #like okay youre entitled to your opinions but sometimes you need to keep those to yourself #did u see me insulting u to ur face #nope i have not done even once #and thats on getting better communication skills instead of lashing out at someone for trying to fit in with your own vibes #like yeah oversharing is my deal. anybody who sees me here knows that #i bond by being open with people about who i am and what i like in the hopes that theyll do the same #if u think im just around for gaming and making silly jokes u would be wrong. #but of course nobody told me people weren't there to bond like that which in my opinion shouldnt be on me #and once again i am outcasted over something honestly kind of fucking stupid #some of the jokes i made were stupid yes but thats solely because i severely misjudged the vibes #and checks notes oh yeah nobody pulled me up for it even once. #okay so let me get this straight you barely know me and have been making assumptions about me since day one #pretty much let me believe you liked me for two whole weeks instead of asking me about things or cutting me off #and im the one who gets treated like im in the wrong? okay #this miscommunication was not my fault in the slightest and i KNOW that #if you hadve just talked to me things would be fine but theyre NOT. #if you hadve just looked at my gosh darn profile and seen im the queerest fucker around making gay and homophobic type jokes maybe you woul #have had half the mind to ask me if i could stop making those jokes!!!!!!!!! #i am not transphobic!!!!!!! I AM TRANS!! I WAS MAKING A MOCKERY OF SOME TRANSPHOBIC CULTURE I HATE!!!! #i mightve vented on main ONE TIME under the guise of a silly joke but oh my god guess what?? that was an attempt to see if anybody related. #you never liked me in the first place dont lie to yourself

[floorpancakes]

not to be me again but i present you with this 'xxxholic tatami galaxy au where watanuki is watashi and doumeki is akashi and yuuko is higuchi and also hanuki but ozu is still ozu because ozu is unreplacable'

#xxxholic #dont ask this is so random but like IT MAKES SENSEEEE #i wanna rewatch tatamigal its been too long #tatami galaxy #inflicting aus based on the introspective glasses boy multiverse of madness again #not to be me again but you can like pretty seamlessly replace akashiwatashi with douwata #just think about it #theyre so ALIKE!? #didnt realise this until recently #but it hit me like a truck

[krispiecake]

i hope that everyone is aware that i am trying SO HARD to be normal but the universe is TESTING ME.

#i am trying ao hard not to fall back into old habits rn but jesus CHRIST brooooooooo #i havent been able to get barely any time with the staff i need for the past two days and now #theyre like 40mins late with my meds bc of another tenant #and its not even like theyre WITH the other tenant rn btw there are two members of staff sat in the office just talking #and its like bro. BROOOOOOOO #like they know this shit is SO triggering and i know they cant help some stuff but i still feel like i should be able to get my meds on time #if they arent actively with another tenant #its such a small thing but it helps my brain remember that actually they do still care abt me lol #all ive wanted to do since like wednesday was just watch a movie with my fp now that we’re cool again #and i was waiting in the lounge for like an hour and no one even came in #and its not like we planned anything so im not mad or whatever im just frustrated that #i had a rlly shit night last night and a pretty shit day today #and there just isnt anyone around to talk to bc theyre all dealing with someone else #or not even just sat around talking or whatever #idk this shit makes me wanna punch things burn everything to the ground and then kill myself if im being totally honest rn #and like last night and this isnt my therapists fault or anything but ahe wasnt able to pick up #and i managed to get thru it but it just added to the feeling like no one gave a shit #and its past nine again so she probs wouldnt be able to pick up now even tho i kinda need help again #idk this shit just. its so fucking triggering and i feel insane and so tightly wound #and ive been putting so much effort into my stupid therapy and i just wanna let go and have a full on meltdown again #i wanna take a bunch of pills and scream and cry and throw things and argue and just LET GO #cuz i feel like thats my ‘true nature’ and everything else is just me faking #or masking #AND IM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT ITS SO MUCH EFFORT AND I FEEL LIKE IM GETTING NOTHING BACK

[last-answer]

i hate it when . people have such black and white opinions on characters

#☆ chatting ! #i need to stop reading random ppls comments on sk.ip and loa.fer after each chapter its making me sooo mad #like i get that the side charas rr being pretty bitchy to mits.umi but like !! theyre 15 !!! #theyre gonna be mean and bitch and moan abt things like that #not saying its a good things but like. saying theyre so annoying or being so ungrateful and that they need to just disappear or smth is. #its crazy to me #teenagers bitch and moan abt eachother. yeah its horrible but uu shldnt rlly ?? be wishing suvh horrible things upon them #sorry. i am upset #i realize this is all fiction and it doesnt matter that much but oauuwhhsvshs

[shishinpenshin]

hot take. deco27s recent music sux and is very much the same tiktok love song republished with a different theme each time

#i cant see the end of the horizon.... HATSUNE MIKU?!?! #these are my 2 cents. my truth if you will #like it doesnt suck technicality wise (maybe it does i cant say for sure im not a musician) #its very obvious that it has like decent production. but even still they just sound Eh #i understand that the songs in the mannequin album are supposed to sound like same ish #since theyre following a story and all (im pretty sure at least) #but cmon you can make a story album without making every song sound like a copy of itself be fr #his recent songs have no soul in them i think #compare coward montblanc w animal for example #and yakousei haizu w cinderella #SORRYYYYYY ive been mad abt this for like YEARS #ok yakousei haizu might be not the best example but i was thinking of the bandori cover while writing that so be nice to me

[femme-malewife]

Not to be mean but can people not send me asks, asking if they can "liph//yo beam" me?

#im sorry but i do not ship it. at all. #the ship makes me viscerally uncomfortable. #also imo??? hiyori deserves So Much Better than lxl #like. they treat her so awfully when it comes to romance that its just sad to read abt #like if you ship it!! good for you!! im glad that the ship makes you so happy!! /gen #but that ship is NOT for me!!! i just. also. #do not like the whole ''i have trauma with women but you're different cuz you're not like other girls'' trope that they would have #hiyori deserves someone who wont literally call her ugly and say that she'll be rejected bc she doesnt look pretty #and that she NEEDS to throw all of her ''ugly clothes'' away. like im actually mad that they made lxl tell her that in canon #lxl are shallow assholes. i love them but theyre genuinely so horrible to her and they literally told her that #she wont be a heroine bc she doesnt look pretty anymore. i cannot like a ship that puts one down so much like that. #im sorry. normlly i wouldnt rant abt a ship i dont really like in the tags but im trying to keep this post out of the main tags #to avoid upsetting people who had nothing to do with this ^^ #but this isnt the first time ive gotten asked that or been sent unsolicited liph//yo #even though my blog makes it VERY CLEAR how i feel abt the ship :/ #sooo ^^^

[cosmicallyavg]

just saw such an L take on tik tok that said yaz and the fam weren't allowed to be angry/upset about the doctor being gone for 10 months because so many other companions had worse experiences with the doctor disappearing and/or longer amounts of time away from the doctor ???? what????

#like oh yeah im mad the doctor was away #but this person i dont even know exists had to deal with the doctor being away much longer than me #so i wont be mad at her 🥰 #like wtf #how does that make sense #she was gone for 10 months and they had no idea if she was even alive #theyre allowed to be mad #who cares if amy had to wait 12 years #they dont even know who she is or that she exists #and even if they did???? like thats still a valid reason to be mad wtf #suffering isnt a competition #and it isnt her fault she came back so late that wasnt her intention #which they probably thought she chose to come back 10 months later #and like also. yaz and dan literally got weeping angel'd into 1901 and were stuck there for 4 years #thats pretty crappy #everyone finds every stupid reason to hate on the era and im mad #anyways #doctor who

[tiredrobin]

@spectra-bear when i read “dresses like a preppy jock” my very first thought was hisuian lilligant idk why. hisuian lilligant preppy jock moments epic compilation not clickbait

#robart #spectra-bear #i was gonna draw more but i am dealing with brain #do u ever listen to pokemon vocalizations in game and try to transcribe them in ur head? petilil says mwee ip #or ewe wip #sometimes er in an eer kinda way but quick #probably this is not how a lot of ppl wld write their vocalizations #i do it too but i find it funny when ppl write their names as the sounds. like it makes sense cuz thats just. what the anime does and its #pretty ingrained in the brain that they do that #but theyre animals they make animal noises!! like mwee ip #normalize writing weird sounds for pokemon voices. normalize expressing pokemon video game sounds phonetically thru text #im rambling at this point. i do that when im nervous. i also do it jsut in general constantly #but im doing it now because im nervous because its fine when i draw for myself but the moment i draw something that isnt Mine its like #oh no (passes away like a leaf in the breeze) #anyway my cat is YELLING AT ME he is SO MAD i am not giving him attention so im gonna do that

[senseiwu]

If any of you put the i am a surgeon meme on my dash. I WILL bite you.

#keep seeing versions of it where shaun is replaced by someone who. isnt actually what theyre saying #and it makes me so mad #like i saw a morro version about being the green ninja and. #no #he was never the green ninja #and wu didnt take that away from him #and. comparing wu to han...... #im pretty damn sure wu would help someone like shaun with their bedside manner and interactions with patients #rather than just going 'no lmao you cant learn this. youve learnt surgery and anatomy but this? nah. youre doing this where you wont see- #-patients. because im going to decide for you what you can and cant do.' #....i hate to admit it but 'i am a sturgeon' does kinda make me laugh a little #but thats the only one