#this is definitively what i want forever

[pabotofus]

tumblr tag therapy.docx

#what i want forever #emmas thots #emma rambles #see what i think is happening here is. like. we are.... so small yknow? #and its like. what we want... well. i wont speak for everyone. what EYE want. is just someone to go through it with!! and its like. i wish. #for that kind of connection. where it's just Obvious oh those two... yea they're a pair. (this is the iwaoi stan effect speaking 😖) but... #and like. if you've liked someone for a long time. at what point is getting over them a betrayal to your emotions yknow? like if u thought #oh this is going to last because i like them That Much and because i believe in (cliche cartoon voice) The Power Of Real Love xoxo #and after a while you realize hey this isn't working out. like. if you were to stop and move on. that feels like. to me kind of like... #like saying oh actually your feelings weren't that serious if you're just going to stop now #and i know you won't just love one person in your life (typically speaking) but it's like. how do you contextualize the feeling of #this is definitively what i want forever #vs #this won't work and i have to find another option #like if i get over and find smth else 1. isn't that a betrayal to the thing i wanted and 2. how can i ever feel like #my future feelings are legitimate if i was able to get over smth i felt That Strongly about once #but like i KNOW i can't be hung up on this forever it's not good. but like. #i feel like im talking in circles. this is not a problem i know how to solve. im just going to sit back and let whatever happens happen... #i have bigger more pressing worries rn (orgo exam :skull emoji:)

[heartorbit]

can i get a magical girl set please

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #proseka #otori emu #im just going to start drawing ever set i want ti beg for. i wahted phantom thief wxs but inlove what we gor bc mizukitheworld so im good #phantom of the opera is p close to that. the mask even... actually i steal set dieas from rev/star becaude come on. theyre kind of real. #we need swan lake set and nutcracker set and little prince and e #and i want them all to be wxs because i am a wretched little beast. PLEAK #the set with all 5 little pink guys slready went to a diner theme and its the cutest set ever. but. magical girls... #dream place minori the cutest csrd set forever definitely comes close but Still. can i get a mixed even magical girl set pretty pleade #can it go to the april fools sunny smile sentai. wheres my mafuemu mixed event. PLEASE #it was so funny to me i also tried to draw tsukaser but the . level of effort compared to how i drew emu is SO. SO FOUL. EVEN I FELT BAD.

[bbaked-beans]

Kyana!!! 💛

this is a piece I've lovingly named 'pow' cause ya girls punching anything and everything

this is another idk what the fuck I did but something worked sort of piece... seems to be the recent status quo.

#rwd #rolling with difficulty #kyana rwd #hey #if youve seen this in the discord and it looks a little bit different you would be correct #i was drawing the piece while on call with a friend and there were a couple of things i missed out on that really irked me #so i went back and changed it to my liking and overall the piece looks much better #IDK IF THIS ANATOMY IS CORRECT BUT WE SLAY MMMKAY #also the astral arms most definitely are NOT correct but i do what i want forever and ever and ever #<3 #my art

[bedazzledpiss]

hi i mentioned bribery in your comments on the pronouns poll. i am here to bribe you with it/its lim life scar.

(this is all /lh ofc dont feel pressured to do anything, write whatever you want! i just wanted to be silly and wanted an excuse to draw lim life scar)

:3

I do love a good bribe

#hai stiff :3c #im definitely gonna do he/it or it/its scar #also im so sad that she/her mumbo is losing 😔 #i mean i can do what i want forever but the people dont see my vision (transfem gnc mumbo) #elvens letter box

[zeb-z]

Cellbit who holds his shit together, pieces together the clues, and solves the issue while walking on a tightrope, where if he cannot correct for the mistakes made, the fallout would be catastrophic. He cannot fail to solve the case, he cannot fail to cure his friends, it isn’t an option in how desperate the situation has gotten.

He’s relied upon by everyone as the leader of the order, shoulders heavy with the burden. He is intense when he needs to be, gentle when a soft touch is required, and keeps his head when the situation is so intense the others are speechless.

He gets through Forevers stubbornness, reassures Pac in his sorrow and indecisiveness. It’s a fucked up scene and he handles it well because he has no other choice.

He doesn’t cry until it’s all over. Just for a second, when the moment is over, and he can take a breath of air. And even then he leads the rest of them through clean up. He makes sure Pac gets home, gets Forever to a proper place to rest, ensures the rest of the group is okay after what they just witnessed.

Then the moment he leaves the others, he finds another critical clue that he can’t just ignore or put to the back burner.

Another mystery, another crisis, another billion clues he’ll have to organize and follow up on and solve, because he’s the investigation guy, the leader of the order, and the island is counting on him. The kids are counting on him. He doesn’t get a chance to truly breathe. To fully sit down and let himself crumble, let someone, anyone, else be the strong foundation, because if he can’t solve this, who will?

Even with his family returning to him, it’s no wonder he feels so alone. Out of the frying pan and into the fire, I guess.

#I just. the moment he could take a breath and his voice started cracking. god #bad and Phil were instrumental in this ofc but there is no world they would have gotten any sort of cure without cellbit #he was key because he was relied on. bad and Phil and Pac and even forever played their parts (esp pac my fucking god) but #I dunno. everyone comes to him with the latest mystery and it’s what he’d prefer at the end of the day because he can trust in himself to #do his best. he trusts in his abilities as much as he naturally wants to know the unknown. but still #there’s definitely some part of his affinity with the entity of knowledge too. knowledge at a cost whatever he must pay #what’s a little self destruction and misery in the face of discovery? the satisfaction of a puzzle solved and saving the day? #he’s chosen the entity of knowledge as much as it’s chosen him. to know things is to be alone #i just. when the day comes where he can’t solve the problem and save the day. what then? what then? #and isn’t that a kick in the pants. please god everyone help him with this because he deserves something secure to fall back on #he’s just so. leader man cannot crumble because he cannot afford to. god give him a break please. 167 injured 82 dead #mcyt #qsmp #q!cellbit #Cellbit #qsmp meta #z speaks

[petrichormore]

(It’s time for a 4halo ramble and analysis into their current relationship! Everything that follows is about the characters, I’m not using the q! because I’m lazy. I also want to repeat that while I am a 4halo shipper this entire rant is me explaining why I don’t want them to get together right now or anywhere in the near future. I don’t really consider this 4halo neg but let me know if you want me to tag it as such - they have the chemistry and in a distant future I could see it - but the fluffy 4halo that everyone seems to be imagining right now? I can’t see it happening. Toxic 4halo is another story entirely though and not what this ramble is about)

Okay you have been warned (THIS IS LONG):

not saying I’m not a huge 4halo enjoyer because. I am. But I do hope they don’t actually “become canon” or get into a relationship for the foreseeable future. Because the only realistic way that will end is in a giant, heart-wrenching break-up after like. 2 weeks. And I don’t see the ship recovering from that I’m gonna be honest.

Look. They can barely communicate as they are right now, any kind of committed relationship between them would end in fire and brimstone - especially when you take into account the power imbalance that is already causing problems.

Forever has not apologized for jailing Bad, even though Bad has asked for it (a rare show of communication on his part) and he might not apologize ever because he thinks he’s in the right. Somehow Cellbit is the only one to have apologized despite being the one calling for Bad’s head the most during the actual furniture incident. Anyway, Bad knows Forever thinks he’s in the right. And Bad also knows Forever wielded his presidential power to keep him jailed - so if Forever’s not sorry and he believes he was right, what’s to stop him from doing it again - in Bad’s mind, that is. There are actually quite a few things keeping him from doing it again, chief among them being that he doesn’t want to lmao. But Bad wouldn’t know that, would he?

I just- The imprisonment hurt Bad’s trust in everyone so badly that he destroyed every waystone in his base - and he when he found out Pac had someone gotten in anyway, he destroyed the waystone again. I don’t think people understand how long he’s been contemplating doing that. I don’t think people understand how many times he’s decided against destroying his waystones. It takes a pretty big fuck up to get him to do that. It takes a fuck-up of pretty tremendous proportions. And he did that last bit with Pac extremely recently too, which means he hasn’t forgotten.

And that - the whole furniture fiasco - that’s not a misstep that will just smooth over if Bad and Forever just care about each other hard enough. They already care about each other deeply - it didn’t stop the conflict. It’s not something everyone can just sweep under the rug with the power of love and no actual communication. Or at least I hope it’s not. It shouldn’t be. Any relationship the two get into right now will be steeped in distrust and wariness on Bad’s part due to the amount of power Forever can choose to use against him at any moment. And even if Forever hadn’t imprisoned him, that would still probably be the case, albeit to a much lesser extent. But Forever did imprison him, so now Bad’s not only wary of Forever turning on him in a hypothetical sense - he has past experience with that exact scenario. He has reason to distrust. It’s not paranoia in this instance; it’s genuine, rational distrust, which is even harder to alleviate.

By the way, that’s not even taking into account that Bad now knows of the existence of a drug that can brainwash Forever into potentially abusing his power against his own will. Think about how scary we all thought the drug-induced marriage proposals were. Think about how much scarier it would’ve been if Bad and Forever had actually been dating at the time. I’m not going to get into the risus potion here, or what implications it has for Bad’s trust in Forever - or more accurately, the trust he has in Forever’s position of power - because that’s too fucking complicated for my silly brain right now and this is long enough.

So basically: how is a relationship between a president and an anarchist supposed to work? Is Bad supposed to shut up, abandon his core principles, and do whatever Forever wants? When he opposes/attempts to help Forever improve the voting system he’s not being ‘immature’ - he’s acting in perfect accordance with his own belief system. There are points where he does act antagonist in an immature manner but in those instances he is very obviously being dramatic on purpose (and Forever does it as well). Him thinking Forever’s voting system isn’t fair isn’t him being immature, it’s just him being politically opposed. And Forever - what about Forever? Is Forever supposed to throw away his entire presidency? Oh, Bad’s an anarchist so that means Forever has to give up everything he’s worked so hard to accomplish, all the plans he has, all the good he’s desperately trying to do despite the fact that the nature of his position is scaring his loved ones away? He’s supposed to let everyone boss him around? Just because his crush hates government? Really? See, none of these options sounds particularly healthy, but their friendship isn’t even healthy right now so I can’t see them somehow reaching a better alternative.

Idk if you couldn’t tell I don’t like it when people non-jokingly boil down Bad and Forever’s political arguments as something that’ll be solved if one of them gives in or apologizes. Because they won’t. Because neither of them is wrong. Forever was partially right when he told Bagi that nothing he does as president will ever satisfy Bad - Bad is an anarchist, the fact that a government has been forced on him in the first place is already a fundamental problem - and that’s not wrong of him! It’s a genuine difference in beliefs and neither of them is wrong! Bad is not somehow automatically wrong because he’s an anarchist, and Forever is not somehow automatically wrong because he’s the president. Grrr bark woof grr bark, etc… you get what I mean.

(TLDR; if 4halo becomes canon right now it’ll crash and burn instantly and kill everyone on board which I don’t want to happen. Therefore I don’t wish for it to be canon.)

#please remember that while forever has the title of president the position is actually comparable in power to that of a king #he can actually do whatever he wants the only thing stopping him is his morals and the federation #and while q!forever himself may not realize that #q!Bad definitely. DEFINITELY does #and he’s behaving under the assumption that ‘morals and the federation’ is not a very strong power balancing system #partially because of his own moral code and what he would do in that position but even still he Knows what ‘president’ actually means #qsmp #qsmp analysis #4halo #taking minecraft political relationship drama WAY too seriously #q!badboyhalo #q!forever #neither of my perfect boys have ever done anything wrong ever and I refuse to accept otherwise

[thebewilderer]

my jewish friend is doing her final math project on the structure of the israeli governmental system

one of the people in our group is very staunchly and vocally pro-palestine anti-israel

we're presenting our projects next friday

i am scared.

#to be clear she's not doing the project on anything related to the war she's just modeling the parliamentary system but #the pro palestine guy ALWAYS asks questions about peoples presentations #and hes definitely a nice guy (nothing on the level of ''from the river to the sea'' at least from what he been saying in the group chat) #not a violent man in general but i am. #still not convinced he wont ask 'as an extension how does this apply to the genocide' type questions #we've talked to him about saying that stuff in the group chat but #i have no idea how to shut it down if he says anything to her ANY suggestions are welcome PLEASE #last thing i want to happen is a big ole fight during finals time ykyk bc she will feel guilty and unsafe forever #cards on the table obviously im backing my jewish friend if that happens but i think she would rather it not happen at all.. #genuinely asking for advice on shutting him down politely and nonconfrontationally if he speaks btw #ih #pers #my school is not as bad as colombia by a long stretch #but i still have had to peel 'down with israel' 'free palestine' stickers off the jewish part of the interfaith center multiple times

[fuckyeahagainstme]

I'm delighted to finally post what I've been working on lately! I've gone on youtube and downloaded a bunch of mp3s of various unstreamable songs then cut them down from the videos into individual songs with proper metadata + album art so you can just download them all in one place and throw them into wherever you play your music. Right now I have various EPs, demos, and singles, but I will be adding unreleased live songs and debut/early/alternative/etc versions of songs later on!

(Also as a fair warning, the early ones sound really rough, but it is what it is)

#against me! #laura jane grace #feasibly i could tag Every Member From These Eras but like. anyone looking for them is probably in the am! tag already #what else to tag idfk #audio #compilation #my contributions #anyways next up is unreleased songs like untitled 2 #also maybe some rips of her soon-to-be-released songs bc im a real [ALBUM NAME PENDING] enthusiast #and like theres so many songs from like. late 10s early 20s that were scrapped so like MUCH to come #anyways im 50/50 on posting park life forever bc like. I Have No Clue Why It Was Removed From Literally Everywhere so like much to ponder #and being like a thing w her kid like idfk maybe they didnt want it up anymore yknow? #<- guy whos definitely not an over thinker #like obvs theres a rip on youtube but yknow

[ranminfan]

When Rumpelstilskin likes to host parties and will often invite people he knows.

.

There's this scene in Shrek 4 where they enter Stilskin's palace and we see all the witches partying.

AND BOI THIS scene right here made me think maybe the Piper would be here surrounded by these witches sprawled all over him because it looks like a frikkin nightclub and I can't stop thinking that this version of Piper would actually be into this agh- 👀😩

#life as a bounty hunter is hard and he needs some indulgence on his leisure time #he actually just wants the free food and drinks so he gotta keep his hands off from these withes lol #sorry I keep jamming hc of this guy he's just so hot #Pied Piper #shrek #shrek forever after #quick sketch #my art #Rumpelstiltskin even has his own witches around him in this scene like what- #That is definitely a nightclub bro I can't -

[genderfluidgothwitch]

For those who are unsure of whether or not they really have the "sensitivity to cold" symptom of fibromyalgia, because you think that it's just you not being able to handle colder temperatures like other people, that's one way of putting it. The other way is, when it's winter and the temperatures start dropping, do you feel your pain more intensely? Do you feel like you have more problems with your joints? Is your partner always commenting how cold your fingers and toes are, but it somehow gets more frequent in winter? Those are other ways to consider being sensitive to the cold.

#just a little food for thought #I'm thinking bc I'm high af #I had to take an entire 50 mg gummy tonight because I had some serious fucking pain #I didn't realize it was going to be a consistent pattern of winter making me feel like shit #but here we are in year two of No Longer Ignoring My Symptoms #and I'm still questioning whether or not it's actually fibromyalgia #like I 100% definitively know what it is #I just still don't have the doctors sign off bc I hate phone calls and I'm getting new insurance next month #so I figure might as well wait to see if the new insurance covers any differently #things to look forward to with the new job #anyways I'm forever grateful I didn't have to jump through every stupid ass hoop my husband did when he went full time with my company #it's explicitly designed against people who aren't neurotypical and it's honestly the most bullshit program ever #no they don't give full time by merit in my company #I really only got the job because my file boss wanted me explicitly for her job when she retires #and I will be eternally grateful that she saw something in me that no other manager saw #anyways ignore all these tags anyone who reads this that found this in the fibromyalgia tag instead of my blog #fibromyalgia #>.> #kudos to those who read this far #your journey shall reward you with a small token of my gratitude #🐦‍⬛ a friend for you

[meownotgood]

THAT'S 60,000 WORDS LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO!!

#RAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH #I might write a little bit more this weekend we'll see cause I may be busy #current status on chapter two: beginning portion edited and good #still working on editing the smut and #I don't know if it's just taking forever or if I added way too much to the scene where you jerk aki off #because why am I still working on that segment #you haven't even slurped on it yet #editing the rest of the smut is sure too take just as long though because after this scene #everything is pretty much rough outline mode #so there's a lot of work that needs to be done #I've also started working on the ending #I'm about halfway done with the rough draft for it #I figured out what I want to do with it I think #at this point I think I will certainly get close to 70k words but I'm not quite sure yet if I'll actually break that barrier #there's a ton that needs to be added to the second half of the chapter though so it's definitely possible #and I still can't say when exactly I'll be done #my current hope is to release the second chapter about three weeks after the first #is that good? is that too long??? #you promised you'd be willing to wait didn't you... yes I'm talking to you.... #I'm starting to gain a little more confidence in the second chapter after working on it more #gonna have my bestie read it when I'm done so she can affirm that I am indeed not a failure #ok I've talked too much #aki sex. soon. aki sex

[graciousdragon]

fuck ok who's got that one post about gloom division where they describe every song as something like:

"i am going to fuck the devil in the pussy" (sounds of dallon retching and throwing up on his bass) (loud ass synth riff) "and then the pussy will kill me"

someone please help i can't find it and i can't stop thinking about it its so fucking funny

#rys.txt #i am so so sorry to everyone who has to read this post but like. it wasn't my idea to put those words in that order i'm quoting someone els #i think that's mostly what it was verbatim but there was definitely different capitalization and punctuation #i know i've reblogged it like twice but i really don't want to sift through every reblog from the last two/three days to find it #if you can find it please tell me i will be forever grateful :] #idkhow #i dont know how but they found me #gloom division #idkhbtfm

[aforgottenthing-in-space]

Ok so. Miles Edgeworth is trans. Gregory was definitely a trans affirming father so when Miles told him he was like “sure son. What name do you want to go by?”

And so all Manfred von Karma knew was that Gregory Edgeworth had a son. When he gains custody of Miles, he just. Does not realize that the kid he’s now in charge of is a trans boy. (Maybe Miles already had a name change. Idk. Somehow legal name wise, von Karma just. Does Not realize.)

So Miles grows up being raised as a boy and von Karma just. Doesn’t realize. Until puberty begins.

And he notices something, that Miles isn’t experiencing puberty the way he would have expected and he’s like hmmm. I am not sure what is happening.

And then like preteen Miles, incredibly nervous, comes to him and he’s like, “excuse me, Mr. von Karma, sir, but would I be able to start puberty blockers please?”

And von Karma’s just like “WHAT!”

He’s so caught off guard and so used to thinking of Miles as “Gregory Edgeworth’s pathetic son” that he just… kinda lets Miles medically transition bc he’s so caught off guard by the realization.

And for his entire life, Miles is like. Unable to wrap his head around von Karma being surprisingly trans accepting???

#especially because von karma was decidedly NOT accepting of the fact that miles is gay #for the rest of miles’ life he is forever confused about this. and he never realizes that von karma just. didn’t know he adopted a trans kid #in my headcanon franziska is also trans and basically i think that like. von karma was so shooketh by having one trans kid in the house #that he was like. I. I. I don’t know what to do #and also Franziska would TOTALLY weaponize the fact that miles had transitioned without comment #‘why does miles edgeworth get to but I don’t??’ #also also. Manfred von karma probably has some toxic ideas about what it means to be a man. that were definitely taken to heart by miles #especially bc he wanted to prove himself as being ‘valid’ in the eyes of bin karma #I like to think that as he let go of the other ideas von karma taught him he also let go of this ideal and let himself embrace #less ‘traditionally manly’ things #this is the ‘not traditionally masculine transmasc’ in me coming through #I feel like that’s such a specific thing to work through when it comes to reconciling masculinity ESPECIALLY if you’re someone who’s #felt like they’ve had to fight to be accepted for it #wow. that got actually serious on my stupid lil post. #anyway miles as of chief prosecutor wear jewelry and makeup and maybe sometimes skirts #also fun like trans kid headcanon: Phoenix comes out during the year he miles and Larry were best friends and his mom went to Gregory #for advice about how to support your trans son :) #ace attorney #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright ace attorney #manfred von karma #trans miles edgeworth #miles edgeworth is trans dammit #and so is Phoenix Wright #Phoenix Wright #mention #gregory edgeworth #franziska von karma #tw transphobia #like. Hinted but tagging just in case

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

you know if we do accept the last epilogue-esque sequence as a sort of dream/wish of ted's and therefore not necessarily canon, very funny if we then simply go "yeah, trent's book is called 'the lasso way' actually. he didn't change that. nope."

#listen on one hand #i think that like #i don't think ted actually changed trent's mind about the title #i think trent changed it because ted asked him to #and like that's especially interesting bc he even made a point of being like #'tell me if you disagree with anything and i'll tell you why you're wrong' #but he respects ted; more than that he likes him and he wants him to like the book--like him #anyone else and trent would have told them to fuck off but ted? ted asking him to change the title? yeah #i think he didn't agree with 'it not being about him'--and not bc of any feelings he may have for ted--but if we accept that him changing #the title is canon then like. he did it because ted asked. nothing more nothing less #maybe he felt he owed it to ted as the subject of the book; maybe he just respected him too much not to #maybe it's partially bc of his feelings; maybe it's because he just couldn't say no to ted #but it's ultimately just. because ted asked him. #and trent respects him; trusts him; cares about him #and that's pretty heartwrenching #but like on the other hand if we say 'no that was ted's wishufl thinking trent definitely went 'sorry ted it's called the lasso way'' #also like.... him being like. like quietly not changing it and if ted said something him just. being like #ted. i respect you. i care about you. i trust you. but with all due respect absolutely not #yes it isn't ONLY about you but YOU made this happen. YOU are special and YOU have a place here whether you can stay forever or not #yes it's about the team and the coaches yes you aren't a one man band but ted. TED. you touched lives. you changed lives. and that was YOU. #that was you and your philosophy and your attitude. #you made richmond what it is today. yes the team deserve credit too for the kind of bond they have now but YOU facilitated that #none of the coaches currently here woudl be coaches if not for you. the diamond dogs wouldn't exist. literally every single one #of our friends--OUR friends--wouldn't be where they are and probably wouldn't be as happy #you got through to people over and over again who were hurting and lashing out. to rebecca. to roy. to jamie. to nate. to me. #and you can be humble but there's being humble and there's acting like you don't matter to any of us like you didn't have an impact #like you can just leave without a trace. we don't blame you for leaving--i especially don't--but acting like we won't miss you and like #your time with all of us--our time--meant nothing is more insulting than it is humble because we /love you/ #and yes. it was the goddamn lasso way that built this place #this community.

[anintroverteddarling]

Hope I'm not late--

#i think we're gonna have to kill this guy #shitpost #welcome home #fnaf security breach #fnaf moon #moondrop #wally darling #and yes these are my comfort characters #say what you want with moon but I need sleep forever #notice how my favorite characters are blue? #blue supremacy #it been so long since i draw Wally and that's a crime itself #meme #be real which one is actually more dangerous? they're both horror franchise #like sure moon will definitely knock you out but wally? he can see you through every fanart you draw of him #i still love him tho lmao

[bunnychargebolt]

Gosh theyre asleep in call right now and immmm auehwiehwiehwieh. Talking to him is so amazing always. Shes so caring and understanding and gentle with me. I feel safe. Im able to ask for clarification and not worry about it. They know amd understand stuff that ive been through and are just so isnqiheqiheiwhe shes so nice to me about it. He has a real big talent of saying things I need to hear before I even ask for them and it always makes me so fucking happy.

We meld together so well. It feels like we continue to meet each other where its needed and it meshes so fucking well. Being able to give each other the love and affection we’ve been wanting or maybe not even daring to want and receiving anyways. Both having the feeling of “i cant believe Im the person you chose” and its soooo sweet and mushy and beautiful.

Hes so understanding of my fluctuations in sex repulsion and insecurities i have. Being able to be told that shed be here even if I never wanted to do anything sexual again but also being told that i got them so worked up that they have to go get off right now. Feeling attractive and wanted but not used. Im safe saying no. Im comfortable saying no.

Goshhhhh and the way they have a fucking key to my brainnnn😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 He could just look at me amd Id manage to melt right into a puddle Im sure. Shes just- ienwiehiwhe its crazy to me that theyre newer to domming cause hes so fucking good at itttt. So many of our kinks line up amd it just works so fucking good. I feel comfortable telling them if im wanting softer or harder stuff and gods everything we do is just absolutely incredible. The idea of doing stuff with just about anyone else is almost foreign to me and we havent even been talking for that longgggg.

I know that every single part of me is loved. Even the parts I hide from most people. And thats such an amazing feeling. I feel safe. I feel hope. I feel happy. I have genuinely been in tears so many times the past few weeks over just how much they mean to me, or something she said to me, or just- him. I love them. On purpose. So fucking much.

I have never even dreamt of being allowed to feel this way and be loved like this before. You are my beautiful midnight sky. The bright shining moon lighting my way. The comfort of a campfire. The awe of the stars. Visible in the daytime too. Always there. Helping me feel safe. I couldnt be more grateful that the person I get to feel like this with is you. I felt the most safety i can remember feeling in years meeting you. I was able to be myself immediately. My walls down from the beginning.

I like you. And I love you. And Im sooo attracted to you😵‍💫 (<- someone who thought it was asexual) And I cannot fucking wait to get to meet you. To hug you and hold you. Breathe you in and smile with you. To be able to look into your gorgeous eyes. And to fall for you in so many new ways. @seren-eclipsed <3

#☀️ #hai baby #i knowwwww i should be asleep #i prommy ill explain what happened when i wake up #but i wanted to leave this for you to wake up to #and just #hhhhhhhhhhhhh keep thinkin boot things youve said #im going feral #after not doin stuff for a bit the floodgates are open #and there js #definitely a flood #and im #hmfffff woof woof woof woof #and just- wanna snuggle up with youuuu #ararararara #i like you so fucking much #you amaze me every day #and im forever grateful you chose me #andddd im gonna stop typing now so i dknt sob ajdbwihd #gnightttt i love you