#this will not stop the agony tho

[semercury]

Also like. The insane thing is like. If what I'm afraid of happening did happen, like... Sounds like a personal problem? Skill issue?? Literally not my fault? I stay so far in my own lane that actually that's a problem in and of itself. I am vibing by myself and if people get upset to whatever degree (if!!! IF!!!!!!!!) that is not on me I am my own person doing my own things.

#stuff sarah says #this will not stop the agony tho #also the only people ive ever said my worse fear about this thing to are my therapist and recentlu my best friend #bc its crazy person shit. it really is #but also... it isnt that far of a stretch from things ive experienced #bc ive had people get upset with me and say its my fault they feel bad bc i was happy abt smth or smth good happened to me #its not outlandish of my brain to make up worst case scenarios based around other fears #but like #ultimately... its not my problem #i am not directly harming others by doing things that make me happy. and if people interpret that as indirect harm... thats on them #and i need to keep remembering too that like. joy is infectious. maybe itll actually do good #again tho. im not gonna stop agonizing over it #but maybe i should just bite the bullet and push through the fear #camp nano is coming up. i could work more on my cringe fic or start new cringe fics

[surreal-duck]

these things again

#duck scribbles #doodles #enstars #these r so low quality i need to stop drawing so small #meant to be warmups for me to start sketching up some other piece drafts but got too silly w it whoops #midori takamine #yuzuru fushimi #midoyuzu #yuzumido #comms... rarepair week.... bb..... zine........ i Will kick ass on each one if my wrists would stop hurting so bad god fecking damn it #gonna be a on a school trip for a while next week tho </3 agony but at least ill be free of work for a Bit

[mythesque]

rank #3 wanderer on akasha woo ^_^

#.txt #WHEN WILL HE RERUN SO I CAN GET HIS WEAPON PLS IM IN AGONY ignore the ugly lost prayers its fine it doesnt matter kindly avert ur eyes i wi #will remedy it expeditiously trust me #hahaha sighhhh #regardless tho i am very happy w this accomplishment and i will not stop here i WILL make him PERFECT just u fucking wait >:3

[soldier-poet-king]

My boss stop talking about losing weight for her son's wedding challenge

#body image cw #MAAM. MAAM. U NEED TO STOP #at least once a week. and its giving me fitting rooms level agonies #she looks fine! bit shes like. well. its a straight sheath dress #MAYBE GET A DIFFERENT STYLE THEN???? and stop talking to ME abt it #I AM LITERALLY SO AVERAGE SIZED #but am convinced because i have A Stomach. yknow. where i store my organs and food #that means im awful because i get rolls when i sit #LIKE EVERY OTHER PERSON ON GODS GREEN EARTH #anyway. i dressed real cute today and i look gr8 #even tho i am inexplicably bloated. i didnt eat anything weird #but it is possible that allergy meds on an empty stomach was a mistake #anyway. itll be fine. im just ANNOYED #and im not actively trying to give myself an ED and yet MY BOSS PERSISTS #i simply. do not wear insta fashions made for impossibly thin bodies. and dress what fits MY mii shaped ass #also my fucked up pelvis alignment has given me lumbar lordosis and that certainly isnt helping

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!! #which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling. #i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated

[haliaiii]

every god damn honkai impact reference in this game makes me go insane-

#I think just having welt and himeko in the game is almost enough to make me sob #BRONYA AND SEELE TOO AFADFKLDHAJFKLHADJFK #ig kiamei got stuck in genshin- #I miss fu hua........................ #i hope bronya and welt interact #or actually i hope welt and luocha interact and welt starts throwing hands #ok second hsr post i might stop now lmao i have to study- #i wanna keep playing tho this is agony #honkai star rail

[geniichiro]

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#someone stop me before i go replay skyrim for the 100th time #i'm so lazy to download all my mods tho.... pain and agony etc etc #rant tag

[classicstupid-tom]

literally what the fuck is even going on with fnaf lore at this point <3

#could they stop doing things to william please #first the mimic now this #i dont even care anymoree I DONT CAREEEE #i have a version of fnaf that exists in my head and thats the real version #whatever bullshit scott pulls out of his ass is noncanon to me now #it doesnt even fucking make sense to me #like why. why would he do that #why would he make michael kill cc #it just ruins any kind of motivation he had #like 'hes already evil but his son dying made him do something about it' #to 'yeah hes just evil and performing the fucking russian sleep experiment on kids now. fuck you' #like WHY. WHY WAS THIS NECESSARY #i could accept the lore getting all sciencey and shit when remnant and agony were introduced #but this is just getting stupid #'uuu villians with no motivation are scarier' i dont care #its like. we got to a good point a little while ago #where the theories were good and i was like yeah i like how it is now #then in the past like year theres just been wrench after wrench after retcon after 'uhu its actually been planned the whole time' thrown in #and i just hate it now gjfh #wtf do i know tho #bullshit talking

[agatharights]

Actually there IS a practical application for my desired huge “can you taste this and what does it taste like” test and it’s “please someone make a toothpaste that I can use without flinching”

#my current toothpaste is a child's strawberry toothpaste #which is going pretty good #and i used to really like a burts bees orange cream toothpaste #but they stopped making it and their new orange toothpaste isn't good #but also i am cursed that every toothpaste i actually can stand goes out of production after a year #case in point #my current strawberry toothpaste #which has ceased production in favor of the same brand's bubblegum flavored toothpaste #i need you all to know I am SO brave and SO strong for brushing my teeth like five times a week despite the fact it causes me physical agony #flossing every day is fine tho now that my gums are strong enough that they don't bleed it's actually pretty dope

[nick-eyre]

Fun fact about me is if I lay on my left side my ear starts ringing

#every day a new agony #i hate this #I can’t even hear fully out of the ear but It rings great #i could get really invasive surgery to fix my jaw and have it stop affecting my ear like this but its too scary but im tempted I won’t lie #i would have to get braces again tho after too 😭 #so no thanks

[3-aem]

Adult depression vs that one vocaloid song i had on repeat in gr 8. Fight!!!!

#ooooooo maybe it is a fever #i don't know what my body wants tho #if u need rest so bad stop fucking aching jfc #i don't wanna get out of bed to find the advil #my legs cannot make that search #will just lie here in agony with the most obscure vocaloid song i kno blasting in my ears #i guess they were right about immunity wearing off

[halloithmeagain]

A bitter truth but sometimes people are simply part of the journey and not the destination

#grief #just getting these two out there #some heavy words #sometimes I keep myself so busy so I never have time to think #new interest new hobbies and work and I have three kids who are always down #so it works out pretty well #but sometimes knowing they’re no longer alive or knowing they they’re alive and just not around anymroe creeps up #and I’m back to being in agony #‘your memories are ecstasy’ is a real thing #you can’t stop even tho you know it destroys you

[indexcard]

something i don’t really see spoken about with regards to sizing inequality in the clothing industry is that even in brands which go up to like 3X you’ve got sizes for below a 30″ waist that are all an inch apart and then suddenly the moment you’re above 30″ it’s like either you’ll need a belt or you can try squeeze into the size down. good luck!

#sorry for the like personalllll talk and weight talk but: #i lost a lot of weight last yr when i stopped consuming lactose (lmao) #generally think of myself as quite a small person esp since i've like gone down a size #but the thing is even tho my waist is smaller i still have a fat ass and broad shoulders #so i'm like wearing an L in most brands still #and like when you get above a M you're just not allowed to have clothes that FIT #sorry but if i could snap you like a twig you should have to suffer the agony of waists that don't fit too #wear a fucking belt for once see how we live on the other side #i will say the exception to this seems to be big bud which is where i buy literally all my pants now #and i wear an S???? #idk i prefer number sizes to letter sizes just in terms of .. . . avoiding value judgement culture #but it sure is a thing i've been Going Thru #blah blah blah

[sc3n3kitt3h]

SOON!!!!!!!

#ACT 2!!!!!!!! IM. VIBRATING!!!!!!! #AUTISM MOMENT!!!!!!!!!! #I THOUGHT THE DAY WOULD NEVER COME............ #ONLY 2 OR SO HOURS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #SRSLY THO IM KINDA TOO EXCITED. IM SHAKING A LOT!!!!!! BUT ITS FINE PROBABLY!!!!!!!!!!! #SO FAR THIS HAS BEEN THE LONGEST DAY IVE EVER EXPERIENCED!!!!! I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT.... (LITERALLY) #I WATCHED MY ENTIRE FAVORITE VIDEOS PLAYLIST!!! #I PLAYED CYBERGRIND WHICH IM PROBZ GONNA GET BACK 2 AFTER THIS..... #I PLAYED OTHER GAMES.......... #I PACED AROUND MY ROOM FOR LIKE 30 MINUTES.... #I CAME UP WITH AN OUTFIT WHICH IM GONNA WEAR 4 THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL (EW) #AND THERES STILL 2 HOURS LEFT!!!!!! THATS TOO MANY HOURS >:( #AGONY!!!!! #ANYWAYS ITS MY BLOG SO I CAN POST WHATEVER I WANT. #INCLUDING MY RABID INSANE AUTISTIC RAMBLINGS!!!! ALL MY FOLLOWERS SIGNED UP 4 THIS!! #IDK IF ANYONES EVEN GONNA READ THIS. IF U R FEEL FREE 2 SEND AN ASK OR SOMETHING!!! IM BOOOOREDDDDDDDD #>:T

[nerdyqueerr]

The human body was a mistake

#who up experiencing discomfort in their neck shoulders and upper back so unpleasant theyre unable to sleep #ME #truly started sobbing like please..... please @ my body....... just be comfortable im begging u...... we are IN BED like stop that....... #idk we're gonna try and book physio appointments through my gp or whatever. dont care rn. that doesnt solve my immediate problem which is #the agonies!! #i dont know what the fuck im doing #like bad posture. not drinking enough water. being so full of tension and stress probably. fuck if i know. somethings wrong tho #god being on my phone also probably doesnt help with the going to sleep well whatever who even cares at this point #ugh #yuck #other such sounds of frustration #my shit