#tw transramcoa

[the-kaleidoscope-sys]

If you're going to be "transRAMCOA", I'm going to demand that you start by paying reparations to all the real survivors out there.

My therapy with a DID and RAMCOA specialist (very hard to find, btw) costs me almost $7000 a year. Let's start there, shall we? That's almost $600 a month. Just on therapy. That I am incredibly lucky to have access to. Most survivors are shit out of luck and have to try to heal without a specialist.

I've lost untold amounts (hundreds of thousands at least) in lost income opportunities because of how disabling being a survivor is. I can't work a regular full time job and will probably never be able to. I've been "working" (read: pimped out by my own parents) since I was a little kid but the skills of a child sex worker aren't exactly transferable to the normie world, y'know?

I get by with a lot of help from some understanding roommates and friends that I'm lucky, VERY lucky, to have. This is to say nothing about the *quality* of that life (not great) beyond what capitalism or money cares about, because of course I'm constantly Experiencing Symptoms. On account of all of the trauma.

I can't even go to the bathroom like a normal person because of how much the constant rape fucked everything up downstairs. There is no fixing this. I will deal with many of the medical and mental complications for the rest of my life and this is just one of them. (Does it still sound like a fun thing to roleplay?)

The first ~20 years of my life were a living hell beyond what most of you can even imagine. My life is also statistically likely to be much shorter than the average person's. What kind of price can I even put on all those lost years? I can't. But you could pay me enough to not have to work for all the years remaining to me. If you want to pay me, say.... $100k a year for the rest of my life so that I can live what little is left to me in peace, then I would be happy to consider you an honorary RAMCOA survivor. I'll even write you a nice little certificate you can frame. I'll give you regular updates on how my therapy is going, so you can (sort of, not really though, you could never understand if you haven't lived it) experience this mAgIcAL hEaLiNg jOuRneY vicariously through me.

Go on, then. You want to be us so bad? Find a REAL survivor, and pay up. Otherwise get the fuck out of my community and stay out. Surviving RAMCOA is not a fun little identity label for you to play around with, it's REAL shit that ruins the lives of REAL people every day. I live with this, EVERY day. It's not a fun little game I can stop when I get tired of playing. This is my LIFE.

So pay up, or fuck off.

#ramcoa #transramcoa tw #tw transramcoa #not posting in your tags because we're better people than you are. <3 you're welcome. #clown on this post and get blocked. I don't want to hear it. #I'm old and I'm tired and. really? I survived all that sick bullshit just to struggle and scrape by? #in a world where people pretend to be someone like us for sick twisted 'fun'? #where is the justice? WHERE IS THE JUSTICE? #alter: rania #mostly

[transramcoa]

— ✧ Trans-Alpha Program

Definition: Trans-Alpha Program is a subset of transprogrammed where one wishes to go through, or internally believes they were meant to go through, alpha programming in terms of RAMCOA.

ᶻz ⨟ Alpha Program : this is a base program, one of the very first implemented. it is designed to train the victim's mind to accept every order given by handlers willingly.

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Created by : flag was created by @transramcoa & term was created by @\transhcdid , this is a recoin!

Requested by : anon

Date : 04 / 08 / 2024

✦ ︵ blog information ! <3 dni anti-radqueer

#radqueer #radqueer coining #radqueer community #pro radqueer #pro transid #transid #transtrauma #transharmful #transharmed #transramcoa #transtbmc #transprogrammed #tw ramcoa mention #tw ramcoa

[syscourse-spillway]

Dear "transRAMCOA" freaks and their supporters:

Our experiences aren't yours to claim. Claiming experiences that don't belong to you trivializes the suffering of actual survivors. If you actually understood what this was, you wouldn't want it. You wouldn't have lasted a day in our shoes. Shame on you for participating in this. Go get a real hobby and get the fuck out of my tags.

Also, you now owe $500 to every survivor who's had to witness your bullshit. Pay up or die <3

#ramcoa #ramcoa tw #transramcoa #transramcoa tw #arguing will get you blocked. don't bother.

[shining-star-system]

Tw syscourse heavy, transRAMCOA & RAMCOA mentions, transCSA mentions, transProgrammer/transProgrammed mentions. Again HEAVY syscourse. Not happy about all of this so it’ll probably come out strong (I don’t mean it strongly just in annoyance).

Every time I pop up and just look through Tumblr, the horror stories of endos and whatever other non-traumatized “system” really irks me. That and these “transRAMCOA” assholes.

The endos first. All endos want to say is that they’re invalid to claim they have a trauma disorder without trauma. That literally goes against itself in a single statement. “I have a trauma disorder but I have no trauma.” You are quite literally contradicting yourself in the same sentence.

“But what if they don’t remember their trauma?!” If they aren’t sure of being plural and won’t do genuine research and say, “hey, my symptoms line up with this and I realize that this term isn’t what I am” then that’s a big iffy. I know some people always want anti endos to be “endo neutral” but nah. Fuck that. I’ve seen so many other blogs comment about how endogenics send them anonymous asks to say rude and mean things completely.

“But why do you believe those?” Because the ones that aren’t truly being victimized will always go and hound someone’s ass because they’ve been called out. I’ve never seen one person that was truly dealing with OSDDID comment to someone else wanting them to go harm themselves because they got called fake and invalid, I’ve seen a majority breakdown. Ourselves included.

I’m surprised with my standing about not receiving any anonymous messages telling us things, but I feel like the last time we said anything about it, we did say we’d post the ask any way and just mock. Hell, we enjoy vicious mockery (heavy D&D need).

But on the topic of transRAMCOA, transProgrammer, transProgrammed, transCSA.

All of you are twats. Complete and utter assholes. And I’ll stand by that. True survivors have a very little space to be able to go to and to find a community. And I thought here would be fine but no.

You REALLY don’t want genuine torture to happen to you. I don’t want to get into the parts of it that we can comment on. But what the fuck? Why must all of you say shit like “I want this to happen to me!” “I want to do this to people!” “I want to be this!” “I should have experienced this!”

What does that do to genuine survivors? Endogenics and their supporters are already making it hard for genuine systems to get a diagnosis and not a lot of licensed professionals are following the dissociative disorders due to TikTok trends. What do you think you’re all doing to genuine RAMCOA/OEA survivors? You’re taking away the little things we genuinely have and that’s messed the fuck up.

No one should have to go through shit like that, let alone children. It’s completely and utterly mad that adults and children want to wish this something like that happened. And if you’re a minor, please stay safe. Stop saying shit like that before you genuinely do get hurt because it will happen. The internet is fucking crazy. It’s not a bad thing to practice internet safety before it’s too late.

I know we spill our guts here on this blog but I’d rather someone be able to relate to the things I spew than have to out themselves and have a target on their back.

But this whole tirade of bullshit like this (it is bullshit), I can’t support anyone who says something like that.

Sure, they might not remember their trauma, but they’re associating with a term against our dni. And I won’t support them with that term anywhere.

That’s just our thoughts on the matter. And I’m not happy about the things I’ve seen recently. Stop being jealous and romanticizing someone else’s trauma. It’s disgusting.

#syscourse #heavy syscourse #tw syscourse #tw ramcoa mention #tw transRAMCOA mention #tw transCSA mention #tw transProgrammed/transProgrammer mention #mainly just a whole tw post #dni endos #endos dni #proendos dni #dni proendos #dni transramcoa #transramcoa dni #dni transid

[luci-st4r]

Ramcoa / sorta romanticizing my own trauma under cut

It's the hours of wanting to get a friend who I can explain what I know of my programming to so they can (with safewords n shit) work on reinforcing it or just mess with it like yes please I can even mess with your programs if you have them and want me to ⁉️ like it's literally bestie behavior ⁉️⁉️

#random ducks #tw #transharmful #transharmed #transid community #transid please interact #transseverity #transramcoa

[therquniverse]

TransHarmed OC~

Welcome Delilah to the family! She's a transfemboy, transtrender (Gender identity), pansexual biromantic transharmed! She uses she/her pronouns!

She's transdeath / transdead, desires to be in an abusive relationship and oppressed by some form of religion, and is 22 years old!

She wears makeup that looks like bruises and cuts, and works as a banker! She's normally only on phone calls all day, so she can look however she pleases!

She is currently looking for a partner through rq sites, and strives to be a perfect victim!

Her parents learned about her transids and she was cut off by her family, which was both upsetting and euphoric for her, as she now relies on her friends online!

Maybe she'll meet her one true abuser someday!

#tw abuse #tw abuse mention #abuse mention #tw death #tw violence #tw oppression #radqueers please interact #rq please interact #rqc🌈🍓 #pro rq 🌈🍓 #radqueer #rq #radqueer safe #rq community #rq safe #rq 🌈🍓 #transid #transharmful #pro radq #pro transharmed #transharmed safe #transramcoa #transharmed #transid safe #transid community #pro transid #transid please interact #pro transx #transx #transx safe

[transid-cultureis]

transramcoa culture is going through the ramcoa tag on the daily to make yourself dissociate to make it feel more real

Transramcoa culture is...

#transid culture #transid safe #transid community #pro transid #transid #tw ramcoa #transramcoa

[lutetherqworshipper]

•This Lute supports Radqueers and transdeities•

Sup! You've probably seen me in asks with the sign off tag of Lute🗡️. Well that's me alright, I'm here to post about things, mostly about the fult around my headmate or even about fults and transdeities in general but I'll post other things as well.

I'm a fictive in a transpluralgenic(first host was transplural, I've no complaints though obviously) system, so my time here will vary a lot. I use she/they pronouns, my orientation shall remain unknown by those that aren't in the system.

My asks are open, and if you're a transdeity in need of comfort and support, let me know and I'll drop in your inbox(on anon, because I have to send asks via another headmates blog which is what I and other headmates like and follow from henceforth anon and they don't know there are some of us that are RQ) or DMs with some positivity! As helping transdeities is my goal while here. Those that aren't transdeities are welcome here as well and free to do the same for positivity!

No DNI because we know antis don't really care if they're on someone's DNI list. If you got questions feel free to ask.

#pro rq 🌈🍓 #rq community #rq safe #transramcoa #transcult #fultist #fult leader #tw fult #rq #pro radqueer

[radwere]

I identified as transtrauma for a year or more before finding out about my ramcoa history.

I tried to transition, I tried to make my trauma worst by seeking out groomers. I made flags and terms, I found community saying I had ramcoa trauma. Until I found out that I did.

I don’t care about things like transage or transspevies at all. But it is wrong to identify as things that hurt and kill people, or at least severely diminish people’s quality of life. Identifying as having trauma that you don’t have, disorders/disabilities you don’t have, etc hurts people. It bleeds into those peoples safe spaces. It makes an aesthetic out of their pain.

It isn’t like terf or transmed ideology. Gender is something that is inherently a social construct. Not being able to walk without a wheelchair isn’t, being abused and having ptsd isn’t.

if ur gonna try and convert me to being an anti at least make ur story hot like the others??? jeez this one is just kinda pathetic

#/hj #but i do kinda wish i was getting trauma dumped on again 😔 #antis dni #tw antis #transramcoa #transharmed

[transillusionisms]

my brain has straight-up invented a trauma response today. i can't be touched without warning, if someone's around i need to know where they are, and i haven't been hungry all day. i genuinely don't know if i started the kettle or not, but i must have, because it was hot when i poured it into my cup. when i was about to ask my sibling to get up, instead of "hey could you tell me to go make my tea" what almost came out of my mouth was "hey can you snap two times" and then i just sat there with my mouth open for a second. sibling put on a belt that was laying on the couch and i couldn't take my eyes off it until it was hidden by her shirt again.

i'm not gonna say this feels like conditioning but,, you know the deathgrippers in httyd? whatever was up with them is currently up with me

#sauro don't look #pine speaks #i don't know how to tag this im sorry #vent tw #uh. ask to tag?? #like i KNOW nothing caused this. but my brain has given me it anyway #transramcoa #< - brain has decided to forcibly transition me /hj

[shining-star-system]

Tw for vent + programming talk

Its becoming overwhelming with how often we’ve been experiencing our programs being struck up recently.

In light of stress, things have been going downhill and it feels like the progress we’ve made is pretty good but it’s still being drug back

Our beta and epsilon programs keep been triggered and we don’t know what’s triggering g them anymore

I don’t know if it’s something physical, someone in-sys (higher suspicions of this one and I can’t tell who), or if there’s something g else going on

It’s causing me so many issues

We want to run and hide and we’re non-verbal but wanting to breakdown at the same time and yet there’s nothing we can do in the back of a car

I hate this I hate this I hate this

Make it stop

And it all reminds us of what we’ve been through and we want to go back so badly but I don’t at the same time, I want it to stop, it feels like this is going to tear our relationships apart and I’m so tired

I don’t know what to do anymore

I’m so tired

#tw ramcoa #tw programming #tw programming mention #tw ramcoa mention #tw beta programming mention #tw epsilon programming mention #ramcoa system #ramcoa survivor #tbmc survivor #dni endos #endos dni #dni transramcoa #transramcoa dni #I want it to stop make it stop please #tw vent #tw personal vent #personal vent

[cdd-problematics]

Welcome !¡

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This is safe space for problematic alters / problematic systems. You can talk about your experiences or just vent about something.

TWs for the entire account: RAMCOA / OEA, pedophilia, incest, torture, CSA, SA, abuse, hypersexuality, self-harm, death, violence, blood, etc.

This is an anti-endo space. If you're neutral or don't wanna deal with syscourse you're okay, as long as you're traumagenic. If you support endos or are one, I'll ask you to kindly leave.

⚠ TW for blood in layout ⚠

About the people here

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Mod Gore:

We are a C-DID / polyfrag, OEA system, you can use any pronouns with us, we are 21. We have a lot of problematic alters, alters that hold paraphilias, etc. We are mostly here to talk about our alters from problematic sources and other stuff.

Mod Rockheart:

We are a DID system, we use she/her and he/him pronouns, we are 21. We have alters from several problematic sources, and a few that can be considered bad people (headmates that hold bad stuff like internalized homophobia, transphobia, etc. others with no morals, and more). We want to talk about our problematic sources and also spread some positivity.

DNI & BYF

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dni if you are...

Pro-endos, endos, tulpas, multigenic, any non-traumagenic system and supporters

Basic dni criteria

Terfs, transmeds, etc

Syscourse blogs

Believe in narc abuse or any cluster b abuse

Anti-neopronouns or anti-xenogenders

TransID / supporters, transRAMCOA and similar shit

Pro-shippers and any other term they use

Pro-contact / anti-recovery paraphilias

Singlets

byf...

You can claim a sign off if you wish to

We will reserve the right to block anyone who make us uncomfortable

Feel free to ask any question about us or our alters

What can you do here?

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Rant

Vent

Infodump

Request any post related to the blog

Ask questions

Talk about your experiences

Talk about OEA experiences

Ask Rules

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Put proper TW and CW, we are people behind a screen, not robots.

Don't use typing quirks or if you do provide a translation.

Please try not to bring discourse / syscourse here (unless it's important for the topic you're touchin)

Taken anons: 🎸, 🐋

Other blogs:

System terms: @cdd-system-terms

System help: @cdd-system-help

Credits:

dividers: @/cafekitsune

acc layout: @/deertism

This blog is inspired by @/problematic-alters-unsilenced

#problematic alter #ramcoa #hc did #anti endo #tbmc #did system #actually did #dissociative identity disorder #polyfrag system #programmed system #system #traumagenic system #endos dni #actually traumagenic #actually dissociative #programmed did #programmed alter #oea #oea survivor #ramcoa survivor #hc did system #tbmc survivor #tw ramcoa #tw programming #tw oea

[transid-cultureis]

transslashprogrammed culture is reading through the programs list and it feeling familiar. (to the tune of the beginning of Verse 1 of never gonna give you up) Somethings wrong i can feel it

Transslashprogrammed culture is...

#transid culture #transid safe #transid community #pro transid #transid #transramcoa #transprogrammed #tw programming #tw ramcoa