#unless theyre my parents

[flareboi]

what if purple never calls him dad

#what if the word ‘dad’ is something purple doesn’t like. #what if it carries a bad connotation for them and a bitter reminder for mango. #family doesnt always have to look like one thing yknow? i dont think those two would have a traditional dynamic in that way #maybe purple does consider him their parent. they just dont call him ‘dad’ unless its in third person #and theyre fine with that and so is he #king is his father figure yes but he’s also a mom. a big brother. a sister. their dynamic just isnt captured in purple calling him ‘dad’ #maybe his name is the best way they can say it. the best way they can appreciate him #because for purple a father is someone who hurts you. someone who leaves you #i think ‘purple calls him dad on accident’ is a cute idea #but honestly it would make more sense if they called him mom on accident instead. or if it happened when they were afraid. not comfortable #(this is presuming orchid is his mother and navy his father based on the pronouns used in the react vids iirc) #because why would purple refer to someone he sees as a parent with the title of the one that presumably did not raise them? #and on mangos end #i think u can kinda tell who in this fandom has never lost a loved one in how they characterize him #guys. grief doesnt leave. it never leaves. #you just learn to live with it!!! #mango is not okay just because he has a new kid to take care of. i would know this my bio mom passed and i have a stepmother!!! #she does not fill that void and i do not expect her to because it cannot be filled. but she brings a lot new to ease the pain and is a #wonderful part of my life #the same thing here #mango will never ever just .. go back to how he was #he will never be the same since gold died. and thats okay #purple will not change that. they will merely add something new #their dynamic can be beautiful and nontraditional and a showing of how grief can change you #it doesnt have to be ‘replacement dad and replacement son’ #its so much more #oke. tag rant over #fett rambles #ava #uhh should i tag the chars

[toastsnaffler]

in a hilarious turn of events my flatmate didn't even know I use any pronouns....

#i thought when she was talking abt how her parents thought i was gonna come out as trans and kept checking my name/pronouns- #that the joke was that im ALREADY trans but in ways they dont know abt.... but nope she genuinely didnt know 🤭 #to be fair. i dont rly let anyone in on my gender business unless we're close enough to be dating or its an anonymous online space #like im legally cis and thats fine. idc abt ppl using my name + she/her bc thats not my gender identity its just AN identity that i use- #to navigate the world without ppl being fucking nosy bc i pass as + am sociopolitically treated as a woman (if butch lol) #to ppl who are friends ill joke that my gender is dyke (true) and to friends whose gender falls on a similar spectrum- #or who are transmasc ill talk a little more honestly abt it bc theyre usually able to understand better than anyone else #other butch dykes w a weird gender going on are the only motherfuckers who actually Get It but theyre hard to come by tbh #to be frank i dont fucking know whats going on w my gender. and i dont rly care enough to do the introspection to figure it out rn #i have so many other problems in my life and im lucky that most of my beef w gender can be solved by presenting butch + binding #and using any pronouns around other queer ppl. its actually incredibly funny to me when ppl she/her me bc its like tch. this chump hasnt #unlocked my level of gender yet. pronouns and names in general are so far disconnected from the way i exist in the world... #its just smth thats fun for me to play around with + makes me feel weird sometimes but in ways i havent distilled yet yknow #and this has been my approach to gender for like?? 4-5 years now??? and likely will continue to be for a long while.. #anyway. its not actually that surprising my flatmate doesnt know bc shes cis so ive never felt compelled to have a deeper conversation #abt gender with her. but also i could sweeaaar its been mentioned bc almost all our other friends are trans lol #and also ive been introducing myself at queer sports socials w any pronouns and i swear i talked abt that w her..... whatever #and my pronouns are on discord and shes def seen my tumblr before but maybe i didnt have them in my bio at the time... i digress #i kind of prefer cis ppl she/hering me tbh. theyre not able to they them or he him or whatever else me in a way that matters..... #altho i do find it fascinating when she or other ppl elect to use neutral or masculine terms for me. raising an eyebrow and taking notes #like when she got a job and joked abt me being her househusband.. pulling up the fem/masc tally chart and chalking a line up #a la nona the ninth.... ive been trying to figure out whos inhabiting this body my entire fucking life with no luck girl #ANYWAY just smth to think abt. im so tired i think my brain is gonna start seeping out my eyeballs #im gonna watch some more pluto and read and then -> 🛌 #another 6:30 start tomorrow woohoo #.diaries #zzzzz

[kogglyuffs]

the cat faves

#digital art #my art #fanart #cookie run #cookie run fanart #cookie run art #SORBET LIKES CATS CANON #IT WAS MY HC AND NOW ITS REAL #IM A PROPHET #cr ovenbreak #crob #crob fanart #crob art #sorbet shark cookie #roguefort cookie #despite everything.. i want both to get along #not only bc theyre my faves tho #they would create a cool dynamic too #rogue and cinna being sorbet's adoptive parents CoUGHCOUGHCOUGHOCUGHCOUFHSH #hahahaha jk..... unless????? #cat day #cat day 2023

[drbtinglecannon]

Me, externally: Manifesting canon Dadrius lol

Me, internally: Ok but the way the narrative used part of its v e r y limited time left to include

Hunter & Darius having an amicable rapport that was both a clear progression from how they previously acted towards each other and ended as positive character growth for both of them

Darius being the one to give Hunter a scroll, his only means to finally communicate with others outside the coven with the important point of it being another high-ranking member of Belos' inner court to do so, and furthered it by having Darius actively encourage such behavior

building off the ultimately failed first attempts of reaching out by Luz & Amity but done in a way that doesn't leave Hunter feeling worse, instead it's a small step encouraged by someone that actually knows what it's like being around & "loyal" to Belos, not by someone that openly opposes Belos

making that moment be such a positive experience for Hunter it gave him renewed confidence (even if only temporarily) AND having it happen back when Darius still appeared to be a full fledged antagonist

throwing in brief details that Darius was the student of the previous Golden Guard, how important he was to him, and that he now thinks Hunter is a worthy successor, and Hunter noticing in the "memory" of his promotion that Darius looked sad -- all important details given the overarching themes in TOH of found family, student-mentor relationships, and adults overcoming their own toxic/solitary habits to be better role models for the younger generations

and then finally paralleling Darius' frantic concern for Hunter to Raine's composed-but-just-as-deep-concern for Eda & her kids, a relationship that is set up to be the narrative conclusion for one of the main characters (Raeda will be married by the end without a doubt 💖)

Given all of this, I can't see how Darius won't end up as Hunter's main guardian, if not one of them. Every one of the moments between Darius & Hunter happened in S2-B after the crew knew the show got cancelled and they had to rewrite a bunch of stuff, if they wanted to write Darius as "actually he's cool lol" all they needed to do was reveal he was secretly a rebel too, they didn't need to throw in any backstory details or build a connection between him and Hunter (who has already had like 5+ other major connections built for him since his introduction), but they actively chose to keep those details.

So yeah, manifesting canon Dadrius lol.

#toh hunter #toh darius #the owl house #toh meta #toh theory #long post #LISTEN. THE SCENES ARENT MANY BUT THEYRE IMPORTANT TO BOTH CHARS. JUST LIKE THE HUNTLOW MOMENTS THE DADRIUS #MOMENTS ARE RECENT & IMPACTFUL WHICH MEANS WE'RE SUPPOSED TO CARE ABOUT THEM #im on my hands & knees begging toh make this sassy loveable middle-aged bastard a dad ok? i just love that shit ;__; #also hunter deserves many parents & siblings/friends -- which he'll get. but i think hes also needs space to grow into that so like #immediately moving in with the owl fam might overwhelm him at first. unless they make the house bigger. oh i hope they move back in the end #alright im done im just a sad adult that has so many feels for this fucking cartoon #toh #tc posts

[calpalsworld]

A family 😄

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#me @ my youngest sister at 6.30 this morning: yooooooo can u draw me a fishy so i can get it tattooed on me? #i drew her some flowers so i want a paralell tattoo with her initials bc she has my initials on her #but i literally have not spoken to her since like may bc i do not talk to my sisters unless we r in the same room. no hate we just dont hav #a lot in common. it makes me a lil sad tho bc im curious abt them. my youngest sister is at least nice to me 😭 #ive been thinking abt asking her for ages and last night i was asked abt my sisters so i was like. the time is now #while im still a bit elevated #which has been to my advantage bc i was able to stay v chatty and energetic while talking to ppl. and i think i made some friends #we bonded over fic reading. so theyre a bit. ya kno. girls gays and theys of science #we make the world go round. but its so interesting to hear them talk abt coming to school here bc they both liked where they were and r #leaving their support systems. and im like bruh if i didn't leave the southwest i was gonna die. im so happy to b here #support system? whats that. i talk to my parents once a month and that's it lol. but im gonna try to establish one here #and try to actually make actual friends. this school is way better abt making grad students interact #my last school was not at all like that. but anyway i had fun #and i mean im only at the start of the semester. and im in a good mood. and i kno things will get stressful #but im just really happy i got accepted here #and the longer im here the more clearly i can see how much i was suffering #the funny thing is tho that i wrote this last night and only hours later i was squirming in frustration bc the fact that im back in therapy #means i feel a greater obligation to not b actively self destructive. evil coping mechanisms my beloved #this is y my mum wanted me back in therapy bc im a goodie 2 shoes and when my counselor is like: did u do X the next time i see her. ill b #honest and itll b annoying >:-[ ugh #its just hard for me to b around ppl a lot bc i get stuck in mental loops bc ocd. which is exhausting. and i want it to stop #and i want to do bad things to make it stop but i wont bc im trying to b better #its just funny to me that ill go from everythings awful to everythings great i shoukd talk to my sisters and make friends and do this and #this and this. to oh god i cant do this anymore in such short time frames with certainty that how im feeling is how ive always felt #ive also noticed that my peaks of high energy do come before stressful events. which does make me worry for future stressful events. like #defending. i mean ive never gone fully off the tracks but its a lil alarming when it feels like the train is going at a million miles an hr #unrelated #meanwhile my other sister is apparently in Colorado but when i saw the pics is was like: YOU BITCH #R U CLOSE TO ME RN??? but no. Colorado is far away

[stupid-dyke]

stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying

I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.

#it's really sad I'll skip the meds sometimes to try to sleep and it doesn't even help. I just feel worse while awake. #The real reason i can't sleep is because im screwing myself over by doing no work and im terrified im going to fail my fucking classes #and theyre all going to say im crazy if I fail my classes. theyre going to say im crazy and I self sabotaged on purpose #bc i dont want to succeed. Dad says that every day #Dad loves telling me everytjhing wrong with me multiple times a day every day so i never ever forget #hes so helpful. He's trying so hard to help. If i dont answer the phone he starts worrying ive committed suicide #again i was suicidal one week in 2019. Get the fuck over it. You've literally threatened to kill yourself multiple times. Fucking hypocrite #a bunch of my friends are going to graduate this semester and best case scenario i graudate next semester and then I'll lose touch with eve #ybody #and then the good times are over and life is boring and hell forever and ill get more disabled every year until I can't work and then I'll #run out of money and die #you know when I talked to my genetics professor about the alzheimer's results he said somethign will kill you eventually and it #wont be that unless you live to old age which will be good! #so true bestie. so ture #Guys lets be real here. Why the fuck. Do we live. why. It is so goddamn hard. Maybe it;s easy when u get sleep . But that hasn't happened t #me for a while #all my classes end next week and i havent done most assignments since spring break #also over spring break my parents met w a lawyer to revise their will adn afterwards dad told me im executor and explained to me what will #happen after each person in my family dies. #the assumption is that I will outlive everyone. they don't think my sister will live to old age adn they are already old #the lawyer apparently has clients with the same disability as me and all of them had the same thing happen. Once they get another disabilit #and get older it becomes impossible to manage IH and they cant work til retirement age #i just spent an hour typing this shit instead of sleeping. 4am-730am sleep lets go. I should kill myself #i hate my parents fucking advicce bc they;; be like well when i was ur age I was married it sure must suck to be single!!!! fuck you guys f

[rararasputins-dick-mind-control]

top ten funny ford escape moments

1. that time it just completely died after a 20 minute trip out of town but was completely fine the next morning (last summer)

2. that time i woke up to find a huge dent in my car and someones shattered tail light beneath it (last winter)

3. that time it had an engine misfire and it was scary (also last winter)

4. that time the radio decided to change stations and turn its volume all the way up of its own volition (last winter and continuing, frequency of these events seems to be determined by humidity???)

5. that time the drivers side door wouldnt close unless you locked the door but then the lock stopped working so i had to drive to the shop with one hand tightly gripping the door handle so it wouldnt swing open on every right turn (this winter)

6. that time i thiught i had another misfire because my car was shaking more than usual and the engine light was flashing but when i turned the car on and off again everything was apparently fine (today)

7. that time my car was actually not fine because i get back into town and discover that my car is accelerating on its own (today)

8. my car was ACCELERATING ON ITS OWN I WAS NOT TOUCHING THE GAS PEDAL

9. it WOULD NOT STOP and when i put it in park it made some terrifying, expensive sounding noises (cause it was still trying to fucking drive for some reason!!!!) and i immediately turned off the car fuck that fuck that fuck that

10. also my power steering fluid is leaking but all of todays car moments are somehow unrelated according to my dad and his friend who are both way more experienced woth cars than me but could not identify the other liquid that was leaking out of my poor car

#apparently theres been like 7 recalls for this car #i think 3-4 of them are related to the problems ive been having in the almost 2 years ive owned this car #anyway today was fucking terrifying i was just gonna go to my dads to hang out and eat some tacos and nachos but then halfway there #funny moment number 6 happened #and then everything else #thank fucking god i have good fucking parents oh my god #thank god theyre willing to help me out with my 20 year old car that cant keep itself together for even a few months #especially since i know fuck all about cars like what the fuck do you do when you car refuses to come to a stop #i got so fucking lucky there too cause that didnt happen until like right after a stop sign #and that was the last stopsign before you get to my dads house too #this is a warning for the ford escape 2003 fandom #ford escape 2003 #if u have one just get a new fucking car #unless ur like me and ur poor as shit #or just sentimental

[todayisafridaynight]

STOP I OVERPLAYED ODE TO JOY WHILE LEARNING PIANO 😭😭😭😭😭

However! I am happy to share and am so glad you see the vision. Sorry In Advance to you and all your followers for the spam but here is a (mostly corrupted) office tour (please note the "Mine Power"-brand gym equipment):

P.S. I recall really liking The Wings of the Kirin, please enjoy!

EVERYONE OVERPLAYED ODE TO JOY GROWING UP IT CAME WITH YOUR PARENTS FORCING YOU TO LEARN THE PIANO LERKJALEKJ

BUT OH MY GOD NO DON'T APOLOGIZE THIS IS LITERALLY PERFECT I thank you again for my life this is so important to me you have no idea

#fave #snap chats #'parents' more like my mom. #BUT YEAH I PLAYED ODE TO JOY ALL THE TIME GROWING UP TOO ITS WHY I HAD A STROKE AT THE END OF Y7 VLKALVJLK #getting the sims just to make mines apartment brb. fr tho why the fuck dont i have the sims thats Architecture Simulator #but more importantly i have a sick obsession with having the layout to buildings #i havent posted any of them but i have a bunch of sketches of various rooms/buildings in the RGG series #i dont imagine many people would want to see those so thats why i have them hoarded #obvi i ref them when drawing stuff but theyre also just fun to draw.... #THIS type of stuff is BEYOND valuable to me tho this is my crack. my cocaine even. i live for shit like this #my dad used to be involved with architecture and real estate so i'm gonna blame him for that #BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY im saving all of these theyre so so so important to me i cant thank you enough #im sure others will greatly appreciate these as well #even if it's a bit 'corrupted' i can definitely DEFINITELY salvage these #im going to laugh if he has his own gym equipment brand. is that what his company's done this entire time #was his 'research' just gettin fuckin yolked Cant Believe This #i wonder if mine has a bedroom somewhere though i cant imagine it being in the same room as the piano. unless rich people do that. #theres just so much dead space in that area aside from the piano and it looks like to be a pretty sizeable room.. PURELY just The Piano Roo #like its fuckin luigis mansion over here. not impossible i guess. very strange thing to have. esp if its connected to the GYM #its not even in connected to the main part of the office where you can realistically be like 'lets go into the next room for piano' #you gotta cut through the gym first bro what the fuck is this #but what are those closet-esque bits behind the piano? unless im blind. what purpose would you have to put a closet in a piano room #if its sheet music you keep that under the chair or something #even through the mesh it still looks like those lead to a skinny hallway... idk im rambling #ill study these more in depth later BUT THANK YOU AGAIN #OH BUT i'm about halfway through the movie so far and im def enjoyin it ! #i always like it in crime shows/movies where the answer seems Obvious at first but then as the case goes on its like #Oh God Wait. Hold On Let's Double Check #again i'm halfway through the movie but i always love it when i feel uncertain about the situation ☠️☠️ #it's just fun watching all the pieces come together so yeah im def enjoyin !

[toytulini]

getting real fucking fed up with hulu :)))))))))))))

#toy txt post #piece of shit ass stupid fucking broken fucking website #the captions will be working! perfectly fine! and then the opening credits play and it skips the ad break #and the captions are way too fast and completely desynced with the audio #and turning off the advlocker doesnt even help it just makes it worse??? cos then the captions juat #just* #PLAY THROUGH THE FUCKING ADS #but i cant fucking even contact hulu about this cos theyre prolly gonna be like #oh well we cant help u unless u turn off all adblockers and use chrome or some shit #and thats more of a fucking hassle for me personally than just turning the captions off and volume up and struggling through it #but it doesnt mean its not fucking enraging every fucking time #restarting the browser and computer sometimes works.........but then see it hits that ad break after the opening credits and does it #all fucking over again #im so fucking tired of it #and like what else am i supposed to do. not use the streaming service my parents pay for and instead risk fucking viruses #on some shady ass website i dont know for the gamble of #the captions might work or might not? at least hulu is probably not going to risk giving me a virus i HOPE?? #im just so fucking tired #and it just keeps getting worse and more broken

[colorisbyshe]

i know y’all love to be like ‘growing up with siblings is what makes you [x type of person]’ or like ‘heee i’m a child of divorce that made me craAAAaaAAazy’ but growing up with a dead parent truly is insane

like not even from  grief standpoint like there are just so many weird things that happen with a dead parent that just don’t happen otherwise. it’s not just like “uwu fathers day makes me sad” it’s shit like helping your surviving parent deal with their own grief or like realizing how serious genetic health problems are when you’re 12 and perfectly healthy. or like having to deal with ADULTS who don’t know what to do when a kid tells them their parent is dead so YOU have to navigate the adult through it.

especially because most of the time if you’re a kid and your parent is dead that means your parent died fairly young. like the MIND GAMES of it all.

anyways we should make ‘i have a dead dad/mom’ a personality trait the way y’all act like Eldest Sibling is a personality trait and a sign that you’ve died on the cross many times

#i had to google my dad's obituary #cause i'll be real i do NOT know that mans birth OR death day #and did the math he was only 44 #and his parents died young #i am NOT meant ot be on this planet for half a century!!!!!! #anyways this post is ot an invite to tell me stories about your dead parents in my ask box #UNLESS THEYRE FUNY #i love funny dead parent stories

[lokh]

does this look like something to be worried about

tw under cut: my dogs ear lmao it's kinda like. crusty and yellow??? but there's no discharge or anything slimy

#its not a great photo and also i dont think its actually that bad (to warrant a warning) but just to be safe #whether or not he goes to the vet is subject to the whims of my parents cos i dont fucking drive #and unless i can say hey it looks like x then theyre gonna dig their heels in on going to the vet. #could be swimmers ear...... idk

[friendlessclown]

why are ppl so fuckign scaryyy :(((

#im scared of 11 year olds in starbucks and idk whyy #i think it might be bc i dont have any irl friends so i only rlly go out with my parents #and then i see other teenagers out together and the little social anxiety guy in my brain is like oh no they will think u are NOT COOL #anyways a middle aged woman complimented me on my boots today which was nice :•)) #also ive figured out that im mostly scared of people closer to my age #like anyone thats like 30+ im perfectly fine around aside from my usual social anxiety #unless theyre older men who sit too close to me and make too much eye contact #but even then its like;;more just being uncomfortable less outright fear #also i can talk to other ppl my age online okay for whatever reason???? #which is nice bc now i have friendss #but irl teenagers are still scary :((

[shrimplicitly]

the corporate world adopting the idea of customers as "guests" is first off insidious but also like. fucking annoying

#im not a guest im a customer #im not in ur home im in a target parking lot #the parents who bring their kids to swim lessons arent guests theyre rich parents who are bringing their kids. to swim lessons #its just. ugh the over familiarity of capitalism fucjing sucks #unless its a hotel or a b&b customers are CUSTOMERS not guests #its like calling ur work force family like no i already have a family this is my work place and these are my coworkers

[timeisacephalopod]

My favorite brand of American politics is Republicans Loosing It Over Things Other Countries Already Have as if those policies Will End The World- like when all them Americans threatened to move to Canada because they thought the sky would fall if gays could get married only to have Canadians tell them we'd had legalized same sex marriage for ten years at that point lmao. Every time an American repub whines about policies Canada already has and no one died here about it I get a good giggle and then feel bad for Americans with functioning brain cells.

#winters ramblings #'theyre gunna sell weed in corner stores itll RUIN America!!!' meanwhile in canada we have weed stores everywhere #and the worst to happen was parents claiming people were giving out weed gummies to kids on Halloween #only to have weed lovers en masse tell them they aint giving no kids THEIR hard earned drugs so i think we're good #and healthcare like canadas sucks no question but the us acting like socialized healthcare is communism #is fkat out absurd when ONLY they have a healthcare system like that and it SUCKS #how the hell is paying 10K for a bandaide worse then waiting a couple months for an appointment? #and by the by if its URGENT you dont actually wait for the appointment unlike what American propaganda says #never in my life OR my cancer ridden fathers life have i EVER seen someone denied urgent care in favor of forcing them to wait months #for a drs appointment it doesnt happen unless maybe you live on a reserve or up north and then the problem is racism or poor infrastructure #but seriously listening to American politicians whine like amole evidence for the polcies they oppose arent just Out There #is hilarious. sure you can try and convince your citizens youre right but if they LOOK AROUND theyll notice you lied lmfao like #bruh just because YOURE too stupid to yoink your head out if your ass doesnt mean the whole country is #so baffling to listen to Americans scream about workd ending policy living in a country WITHthat policy and finding said policy helpful #thisis why i could never live in the us despite the countrys beauty

[lunariarts]

I've been so nervous the last few days that my gpu wouldn't arrive in time but it looks like we're all good I'm so excited to upgrade my setup!! Maybe I'll even stream more often lol

#im having everything sent to my parents house instead of my apartment #private couriers cant use our postal boxes so it would either get left in our lobby or id have trek out to their centers #and then bus back with expensive fragile stuff and that doesnt sound very fun #thankfully it lined up that im going to be in my hometown anyways! im seeing my doctor to get hrt stuff started finally pog!! #no promises on the streaming more #theyre just for fun and i dont even link them here just big vibing #ougghhh and the fightstick!! #im getting one of those too im pumped to slap big buttons!!! #and books #more junji ito for my burgeoning collection #i think i have all his hardcovers now?? unless he has some rarer prints i dont know about #oh god... rambled a lot in the tags oops #does anyone even read these?? lol oh well it feels better spilling my guts in here because at least you have to click to see em all