#void talk

[stiffyck]

(For sending an ask word) extemporaneous

answered by @nullvoidface

#asks #void talk #goodtimeswithscar #limited life #gtws

[spinyfruit]

the demonic urge to write a smutty oneshot instead of working on any of my ongoing wips is back

#i’m sorry to anyone who actually follows me for writing #idk what’s wrong with me these days #void talk

[crypticnightmaress]

This is based on a conversation I had with @aaa-wyvern-called-zesty

and @beastkaiju yesterday :3

#void talk #void art #monster hunter #monster hunter world #nargacuga #Ah yes #taking your small nargacuga to the vet #I can't see anything going wrong with this

[sequentialprophet]

MY GUY GETTING TO RAP WE'RE BACK BABY

#void talk #AEW #Collision

[writtenonreceipts]

Would love people to do their jobs and take responsibility for their mistakes.

#void talk

[shanethvarosa]

Does anyone even really care?

#trying not to be emo and weird about this but #I generally kind of feel like people in my life don’t really care whether I have a good time or not #and then when I do they make fun of me for it or mock things I did #and it makes me not want to do anything or be seen or say anything because it’s just going to end up being mocked #or the other thing is by me doing something exciting for myself it somehow makes others feel like I’m neglecting them or bailing on them #idk just whining #void talk

[bluedancingkittykat]

not to be That Person, but i low key high key hate it when people will shit on not-queer people for not being queer. like seriously? even minuscule things like being "oh youre straight? lame!" seriously? seriously??? don't you remember thinking to yourself 'im sorry i can't change who i am.' do you not remember being bullied because you were different?

#i had more typed out but i couldn't coherently translate it from brain to page #void talk

[erminecore]

So like. I did get the new pikmin. And I'm kind of, vibrating as I wait for it to come in.

#void talk #text #I kept watching people play and thinking that I wanted to see more #but that I wanted to do my own thing with it too... #and then I saw the stuff about dandori mindset being actually helpful and said what the hell #I was already interested in the series and if it gives me a mental tool then fuck it #I've always wanted to play a pikmin game though #I love these little weirdoes and their designs

[hawks-man]

I hate that I feel so trapped and alone. I just want to have some romantic love, some emotional care, and to get some sex. Like I don't feel it's a lot to ask and yet...

#ignore me #void talk #depressed and tired

[stiffyck]

Could we get cat skizz or impulse with zoomies? Maybe even both? <3

HELP HELP HELP HEEEEELP HELP

answered by @nullvoidface

#asks #void talk

[spinyfruit]

two chapters done, eight to go

#i need to get to chapter five or else i will die #this is all for the ~scene~ #void talk

[crypticnightmaress]

"Everyone should be a bit more insane" Honey, you cannot handle people with mental illness who act insane DUE to said mental illness, sit the fuck down

#not directed at anyone #just me getting my salt out lmao #void talk

[hikikowhorie]

little blondie on the farm

[tw]

little blondie in the barn

she's never seen it before

always in the house with Tom and jerry

eating moms old fashioned roast

little blondie in the barn

she's never seen it before

daddy promised it would happen-

nothing he could control

he'd loved her so dearly,

she was resting in his soul

but his heart grew too big

burst right through his chest-

he was just feeding the pigs

and blondie found him cold

but momma didn't cry at the funeral

kept strong, like she was told

and there his bags lay, out on the road

while the new man showed her around

our little blondie on the barn

to see the pigs and the cows

look how big they are

see how small you are.

have a gander, he said

little blondie on the farm

wanders into the chicken coup

and spots a nested hen

runs right over to do a carry

holds the bird and stops right then

five little eggs, in a pocket of safety

the man pops on in

and asks what she's found

a mother hen she tells him

but the father's not around

not to worry

he touches an egg

reaching past blondie

in the crowded chicken house

she made them on her own

mother Mary!

little blondie in the chicken coup

holding the hen close

sure he says

but there is no baby

with the flick of his finger the shell of an egg cracks

and little blondie cries

and she cries

and she cries

her little hands gripping the mother mary

asking why he'd do that

he tries to explain

she doesn't understand

it is too late

and he is afraid

his hand is on her mouth

and mary has been dropped

the eggs will be crushed

as the coup disrupts

fear has led to power

and things are going south

power is intoxicating

when you've been foaming at the mouth

waiting for control

little blondie on the farm

she'd never been there before

eating chicken for dinner

she'd never been there before

a/n and more blondie

this is a story about the shift in life that sexual assault causes. hopefully reading this will have made you feel it, and hopefully it wasn't too bad for you, hopefully it got some feelings out, and hopefully you understand what I'm saying.

I want to say that this is a story. the symbolism in it, however, is incredibly tied into my life and my psychotic symbolism things and considering this is void talk, I'd like to dissect some the poem. don't care none of you know me and nobody has a tumblr. i wanna talk about it, because I never get to. you can ignore this, or oggle at me like I'm a zoo animal honestly idc I'm into that shit

this is shorter and more interesting so I'll do this first

the butchering was purposefully ignored simply because it was not relevant. i wanted the reader to believe that it would have a classic play on the butchering narrative to symbolize loss of innocence or whatever, only to have that part of the learning experience completely ripped from the main character. for her to continue to eat meat, and to never question its whereabouts represents a part of her life that has now been glazed and will be absent. in the metaphoric sense, it is relatable to the viewer (maybe) and author, but in the literal sense, my personal story was different, and death was quite a big part of my life, for a few reasons, ive experienced my apathy, however blondie is completely unaware and apathetic the entire time. she never witnessed the killings before the new man and I didn't include this because I thought it would be too obvious, or too much. but her father did the killings while she was at school, keeping her away from them. she hears them at night now. but she doesn't really. she is apathetic, and gone. she is a shell. she never got to learn the process of death.

and that is where we differ in this story. the absence of death and the overwhelming presence of it happen simultaneously for her, without her even realizing it. and that is something that a lot of young children face. dealing with life or death scenarios before understanding it, or the part of your brain breaking at a young age from csa or cocsa.

you are dying without even knowing the meaning of the word

:)

religious symbolism is common, I know that. I rarely understand what these things mean to me so here i go

Im terrified of religion, like most of us, and have been since I was very young. I have a history of hearing voices that I truly didnt and still don't know what they were. sometimes I had convinced myself they were the devil or his demons. I was so fearful I would pray and pray and they would not leave. so loud. nowadays I believe it represents itself in chatter. but it was so real and frightening when I was young. cowering from the demons my pastor yells about every Sunday, trying to corrupt me, punishing me for dressing my barbie dolls.

mother Mary is the only pillar I believe

mother Mary is above all else

see the lord is not real

God is not real

they taught me one is dark and one is light but I present to you the existence of gray

God is not good

if god is all things good how can he not be all things evil? he is all. he is the man, and he is no malevolent god.

and i didn't know how to take that growing up, and idk if it was that hard for anyone else but it fucked with me. because I was too small to be freaking out about that. the fact that nothing. happens.

a woman creating life without the essence of lust, without impurifying herself. that is a godly being. that is the mother.

the thought of being held by purity herself, the ultimate comfort of a mother, like bathing in holy water as a newborn. warm water in the cold touched by God's hands. mother mary.

and in that moment you are baby jesus

the innocent act of blondie picking up the mother mary, is the ignorance of your purity. not necessarily in a negative sense, but blissful is too positive.

to see the mother mary through a child's eyes, not through the word of the Bible, even so in the form of a hen. it is a brief and rushing moment of comfort, of relief, of haven.

there was a moment, and I was there. I was there. just before everything was doomed, just after I could be my own small person.

and I don't quite remember

but for a second everything was perfect

I wish I had relished in that second

blondie is the egg that mother mary laid. the goddess has been thrown, disrespected, the destroyed shells of her children prevent the necessary possibilities of life. taken by the Man. not the industry dude man sorry the godman. the man who made eve from the rib of his likeness so she would lay for said likeness. what a creep.

a fleeting moment. back when it was perfect. how quickly it was gone. you feel guilty that you dropped her. I hope this makes sense. probb idk

the barn is representative of my home life. I did not live on a farm. but I've witnessed mercy killings, and inhumane environments. nothing like a farm. quite. the opposit.e but I wish it was. and I think I liked to think it had been when I was young. a farm. or a zoo. a sanctuary. it was supposed to be. that hurts

this helped me feel better.

also blondies mom killed her dad to marry the new man and he was evil. this was a twisted fucking way of looking at my personal situation.

#ptsd #cptsd #tw #tw csa #poetry #vent tag #trauma dump #tw sa #void talk

[warmspice]

GIRL HELP

#REALIATION WHY I WAS SLIGHTLY ATTRACTED TO THIS GUY AT MY CLUB-looks like a butch lesbian #Aheidbekebkwbdje hhh? #Void talk #Explodes explodes explodes #So many feelings and emotions at boardgames club that I don't know what to do w or how to handle. #Void talks

[voidsbane]

anyone got any sterek drawing requests? :o

#void talk #teen wolf #sterek #done with school and have more time to draw now #no guarantees but i wanna see if prompts spark anything lol

[sequentialprophet]

I think the fundamental difference between Nick and Matt is Nick is a we would like to be excluded from this narrative type and Matt is a what the fuck why are we excluded from this narrative type.

#void talk #thinking a lot about the young bucks recently #mostly because they keep appearing on my dash #and how they tick both individually and as a unit