#we all living the same lives huh

[arsenicflame]

absolutely delicious flavour of edizzy is where theyre Actually Married but neither of them know it, while also being acutely aware of everything-

they celebrated 25 years of their matelotage. they are having sex on the regular. both of them think the other thinks their contract is purely for financial reasons and the sex is just fun + convenience.

#'hes just having sex with /me/ because he knows im not going to stab him in the back (literally)' #meanwhile theyre having the most tender schmoopy sex known to man because theyre both so fucking in love #(not 2 say anything abt the actual sex theyre having they can be as rough as they want itll still be tender because theyre having FEELINGS) #'of course we have a matlotage it'd be silly to not have a financial agreement when our lives are so entwined. whats mine is his' #and at the same time theyre celebrating anniversaries with blowout bashes and gifts and shit and just #theyre so fucking aware of their marriage but theyre SO STUPID about it #'but what if he doesnt like me like that' about the man whos slept next to him for decades #nyxtalks #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #edizzy #blackhands #anyway it ends when someone else finally points it out #classic steddyhands set up. eds talking about his relationship with izzy and stedes like 'youre married' 'yeah but not like that' #'absolutely yes like that edward- am i the other woman?????' and it takes a few days and a lot of convincing but they talk about it #and realise oh theyve been real actual married all their lives huh #que more fucking schmoopy sex. hand holding and tears and shit and maybe its a little cringe but its their wedding night ok ????????

[spearxwind]

Something I've been thinking a lot recently after becoming a lot more social and going out is like. How different people really LOOK in general. Or rather, I've always seen it but I've been noticing it more. Different body types, different faces, different features.... etc. Everyone is so different looking.

There isn't a way you could possibly gauge how "beautiful" someone is because everyone is so different, and everyone's perception and preferences are different. Someone who you could consider extremely handsome could have deep seated self image issues, and someone who looks unremarkable to you might be someone's ideal.

I feel like being online and constantly exposed to the same types of faces, especially the type of people who become popular online due to the appearance, they always have the same set of features, same set of body types. It's not inherently bad, people do gravitate towards them because there's beauty standards that certain people fit. But in general exposure to people who look all similar rots the brain. It rots your self image. It distances you from your own community as well.

It bleeds into how people handle their relationships, it brings prejudice to people just based on their appearance, and it sucks so much to actually like, fully consciously REALIZE. Everyone is worthy of love, no matter how they look like (this includes you btw!! Yeah you!!! <3) no matter what the media says. It sounds like something sooo obvious but it really is something that grows roots in your brain given the chance and is hard to pull out.

Feeling like you're in an arms race against your peers to "score" someone who you could pass for an instagram model, instead of finding someone who you truly connect with. Having to deeply justify your partners and friendships to your family as being worth it, when they don't look like celebrities on TV and just look like regular people. (This has been my personal experience for a long time, but I feel like theres probably more people who have gone through the same)

"What will other people think? What will my family think?" is something constantly on my mind whenever I make any friends, and im only recently realizing that it really does not matter what they do think what matters is one's own happiness.

Not sure where I am going with this post I just wanted to write it out for a few days now and I finally did it <3 have a swag day

#thunderclap #words #i just think people should live without the constant pressure of appearances both your own and your peers. its literally brainrot #everyone everywhere is so different there are a thousand faces a thousand bodies a thousand features theres eight billion people on earth #its so terrible that we are always focused on the same ones and call them beautiful when theres so much to people in general #does this make any fucking sense? god im so tired but im feeling this a lot recently. man.......... #my own appearance has been both praised and degraded for years years years and its fucked up my way of perceiving people for my whole life #idk... theres so much nuance to this whole conversation ofc i cant fit it all into one (1) post #like... recently realizing my mom is to blame for like 90% of my body image issues has had me reeling. like hello. #dont get me wrong i love her but damn that family can self project their flaws needlessly on the next generation huh

[around-your-throat]

who even cares

#none of you are ready for this take but this is how i know people only hate BU that much because its a trend #oh youre SOOO glad that panic died before wwwy so they wouldnt be invited huh. oh whats that cobras coming back yes pleaseee. come on. #i feel like im living in an alternate world where NO ONE sees the same things i do. we ALL know right? we just dont want to acknowledge it? #you went to his instagram and screenshotted the picture he took with travie and bill and you posted it here? you saw it? on his instagram?? #at least SOME of you saw my and other peoples posts ??? you did right???? #this is not about any one mutual in particular but maybe about everyone in general

[albino-parakeet]

Drew this back when those Acrocanthosaurus tracks were uncovered in Texas when a river dried up in Dinosaur Valley State Park (August 2022)

#Dinosaurs #acrocanthosaurus #Yes the Acro’s markings are based on JWE shhh #I’m not creative enough to think of original markings #Was slightly inspired by the “Two Earthlings” painting by John Brosio #we live on the same Earth they roamed all those years ago #It’s sometimes easy to forget that when you only see them in museums #and then something like that river drying up reminds you #”oh yea they really were just out here living huh?”

[qangelbluebird]

Going from dead/non-updating media to technically-updating-but-games-take-years-to-make media to qsmp is wild. From nothing to “the link is still missing where is missing link<-(it’s been a year)” to “do you remember,,,, QSMP,,,, it’s been decades<-(it has been five days. It is coming back in another five days. You people are fascinating(pos))”

#the link that is missing is kingdom hearts missing link btw. where is she #I am saying all of this affectionately y’all were being fed daily for ages it makes sense you’d miss it even for a bit #the dramatics is just very funny. we have fun here，if this was any other media you people would have starved/j #shout out to qsmp for being that good that people freak out when it’s gone for a few days #just all the fandoms I’ve been in before have been for wildly different types of media. the closest would have been hlvrai and #I got into that after it ended. seeing how fandom works for such an active story with so many different perspectives to watch from and #so many languages all at the same time is so interesting to me. hearing about things happening second hand from people live as they are #happening is wild. the interesting new lore happenings and the mundane yet entertaining chaos of non-lore days #the clips in languages I don’t speak being lovingly translated by people who are excited to share their sides of this story #how this is one story but it is also a thousand other stories each just as interesting and the fact that you people will tell us about #the bits that you focus on that we might have missed in a way that can spark our own interest and just #I love this thing I love it it’s great #this turned into me just talking about how cool qsmp is and the pocket of fans I follow huh. no regrets #blue babbles

[gammija]

ive been trying for 30 mins to write a post about why the Web's plan is still confusing, but I think I should face the truth and admit to myself that it's not that it makes no sense, it's just... so convoluted

#they needed jon to kill jonah cause it seems like only he could call him down #and they couldnt go through with the original plan because.... tbh still not sure on that one. at least not with the reasoning annabelle #gives. assuming that how everything works out now is how they intended it to #which it must be because if jon was ever ever going to consider 'letting anyone else feel that guilt' he sure as hell wasn't now that he #got introduced to the plan while a giant spider dangled his boyfriend above a pit. not conducive to jon cooperation #so originally spidermartin would have driven him to burn the archives and kill jonah. but theyre bond is too strong now so even if martin #would be spiders Jon wouldnt do the plan. .... huh #i just dont get that leap #why does their bond being stronger make jon less willing to burn it all down. so to say #would he want to keep his promise to martin and not become the pupil? but he did! he does! he does even when martin ISNT spiders! aaah #one thing that could make everything more elegant is if Annabelle wasnt telling the whole truth. she says they need to kill 'the pupil' #jon has been described as 'the pupil' as early as s2. and why would the Fears follow his voice on the tapes #and not just stick with his voice in jon the person? #solution; not only does the pupil have to die and the archives burn down at the same time #but jon has to be the pupil when it happens #... except that ALSO doesnt work because according to Jon Annabelle wasnt lying when she said that this would allow them both to 'survive'! #so unless we read the transcript in very bad faith and assume that she was talking about the hypothetical scenario of íf the fears leave; #then youll live; (but for them to leave youll have to die) this solution is out as well #but it would mean theyd need martin unspidered because hed be the only person able to kill jon when hes the pupil because 'it feels right' #(throwback to 178) #tma #tma meta #joos yaps #delete later #a mag a day #tma s5 #one nearly incoherent ramble later..... #if anyone has a good Watsonian solution to tie everything up neatly plz link me to a post

[munamania]

and is there not just generally a certain level of decency that would make you like ease up on a person who's obviously more than a little frazzled i am sorry that i cant process all my feelings and regurgitate them to you in an easily digestible manner while im actively In a situation or have a prepared disclaimer about how im so sorry but im just overwhelmed and need you to leave me alone right now or whatever else maybe i just dont know maybe i cant tell you exactly what im feeling or need and if i have to figure it out and explain that to you my brain is going to explode. but you could read the room. is there not a point where a friend would probably just go oh okay let me not continue pushing this person let me take a moment to reflect on their state and perhaps try to ease that or at least not keep fucking pushing on it. and also maybe not choose these moments to make otherwise innocuous but contextually just kinda meanspirited jabs. ok whatever

#not to be a sensitive little bitch except im not. #i dont want to be rude or too explicitly open about the things i dont really like to talk about #but sometimes. frankly. people need to take on the weight of their own feelings. insecurities. thoughts. etc and then some #some of us grew up with little to no emotional support and in fact took on the weight of their family's issues and the brunt of their #emotional immaturity and sometimes that makes someone feel fundamentally rattled and unsafe in moments like that #some of us had pretty much every big personal emotional. thing. that happened to them minimized and turned into some tragic #family conversation. or had someone reply like huh idk if that could have happened to you i certainly dont remember that #and then you wonder if people were ever looking out for you and if the ones that did just truly didnt care. #um. anyway. this is not just to be like oh im so quirky and different and traumatized lol but im reaching a boiling point when it comes #to people just like. doing this shit. or whatever. im going to start screaming #i shouldnt have to bare my fucking soul to you for you to go oh huh maybe this is a sensitive subject perhaps #frankly we arent the same and we dont relate and aw bummerooni ik im not the only sufferer but good god. #our lives were very different in some ways! #and sometimes all i want is for someone to say its ok kid you did good #again. not to be dramatic. but when ive talked about MY upheaval of feelings or w/e like if thats been impacting #how ive been acting and people start crying at me or get all whatever. oh it makes me wanna be the one to pass the torch #yeah man imagine how tired we are. #ok talking incoherently now so im gonna go do my job i guess. #abby talks #i know no one will save me but maybe sometimes it’d be nice to share the weight regardless

[trabandovidas]

Me: i don't need a waterdown non-binary “representation” or “visibility” being mass-produced for consumption to feel comfortable on my identity or to feel “validated” on its existence

Murga: *makes an 1 hour show entirely about discovering and being non-binary*

Me:

#it's about having something so uruguayan as this #talking about something so personal #without mocking it once #it was not ur Jaja i don't understand what these crazy young people are doing nowadays joke they always make #but a whole show on just. realizing u r non binary and coming to terms to it in the reality and world we live in #(and about abolishing gender at once!! But don't let my father find out about it 😬😶😶‍🌫️) #which yeah lmao same #i never cared for *representation* or *visibility* in that way #but idk i guess i was just not expecting it. and to have a murga !!! out of it all (a!! murga!!! a MUR G A!) do it #just shock me to the core #anyway i didn't cry just bc i had my parents next to me. but i was huh def close to

[benetnvsch]

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#vent in tags #cw: death #I am thinking about him again man #he passed so loved and he was ready and thats what matter but g-d dammit how much I want to be selfish #listened to a song that happened to be about death and reference the place we grew up together and just :'0 #ah yes this is Fine #this and the birthday relvation earlier #idk why it's hitting me so hard #I remember acknowledging huh the age difference between us matches theirs thats v interesting #huh he passed at the same age too ok thats just an interesting coincidence #but the birthday being the same is unreal #it's hard to believe its real and that it has been so long #I don't think ive processed this all right yet #despite that #idk it feels strange to mourn him cuz that means he's really gone #and so I just live vicariously through fictional parallel's ig ?? #like a baby fucking loser #belghhh #sorry for being so down lately ill post nicer things later-

[gothamcityneedsme]

also yes the next comic i wanted to read WAS locked behind dc ultra. how did you know.

#shitpost #a few months ago my dad was talking to me about three jokers and i was like. huh! that sounds interesting! #*looks it up 3 months later* #yes i know piracy exists but when im already paying 8 dollars a month why not just pay 10 dollars a month #if i make more of an effort to focus on reading it will pay off #same goes for my current max subscription which i am also maintaining for dc related things #i just spent 3.5 days at my sisters house and all we did was watch batman stuff lmao #jk actually we also watched superman/shazam and the green lantern movie #the live action one. (which was fine imo. was messy in the third act but was just. like. fine)

[bibiana112]

I think old lady on a bus stop just complained to me about United States ' immigrant crisis '

#honey you know that is we. the immigrants is us it was on the same breath as saying it's good to want to go live and work there?? #said someone she knows immigrated illegally through the mexican border and was like #''why would people nearly get themselves killed if it wasn't all that good?'' like oh god yeah people just do not know huh #propaganda still is all some people consume and accept all they hear about things without checking #it was like about cleaning related jobs too?? she was like oh but you make good money over there and #and when employer doesn't pay what's due over there they actually have no trouble at all getting justice and #like??? #oh god the fantasy land american dream is still alive in people's perception of the world I forgor that is slightly terrifying #what was that interaction

[spearxwind]

feeling solidarity these holidays with everyone not allowed to talk about their partner with the family

#for some reason i too am not allowed to bring him up when my dad is present because he gets really uncomfortable about it #and my mom has to come tell me off about it in private bc he wont say the problem directly to me #thunderclap #i understand the problem but what the hell man im almost 27 years old #its extra annoying cause ive been to his house a lot already and i know his parents and have a good relationship with them #but my parents absolutely REFUSE to let him come here because again itd make my dad uncomfortable to have us (checks notes) #living in the same space?? #my GRANDPARENTS have seen my partner more than my parents have #i just think its annoying as hellll holy shit all i did was bring up miguel sleeptalking and say hes woken me up once or twice saying stuff #and my mom told me off on it after like 'dont bring up you being in bed with your guy in front of your dad' HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!! #HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO INFER THAT AS THE MEANING TO WHAT I SAID... I WAS JUST TELLING A FUNNY ANECDOTE #THAT HAD 100% TO DO WITH THE CONVO WE WERE HAVING (SLEEPWALKING) #ARRGHGGHGHGHGH THIS IS JUST LIKE COSMIC ONLINE REACHING BUT IRL

[hella1975]

my mum will say the nastiest rottenest things to me and then she’ll calm down and be like ‘sorry 😝’ and ill move it on bc it’s not worth getting her angry again but inside im like babygirl maybe u have some anger issues maybe

#at one point she was like ‘do you think im mean?’ and I was MAD mad at this point and both of us mad is never good #bc we’re just trying to hurt each other for no other reason than to know we’ve got through to the other #so I was like ‘YES I think you’re mean’ ‘but only when I’m angry’ ‘that doesn’t justify it’ ‘but you agree only when I’m angry’ #and I didn’t know what she was getting at so I was like ‘yeah?’ #THIS BITCH GOES ‘huh I can live with that’ LMAO??? #anyway I moved out of my uni room today and a year ago when I moved IN me and my mum rowed the entire time #and it’s a real sore point for me bc it was her saying how cold I am and that she basically doesn’t like how I’m turning out #(direct quote) #and me saying how her temper ruins everything and she can’t see sense #and low and behold we effectively had THE EXACT SAME ARGUMENT today a year later #‘your lack of empathy astounds me. I despair of you’ (that’s a new one. 11/10 word choice she didn’t need to go so hard with that) #and me going back with ‘I hate you when your angry’ and very dangerously close to ‘your just like your mother’ territory #shits and giggles! #I’ve just had a nap bc we’ve been up since 4am and she came upstairs #and I fully pretended to be asleep bc I know that means she’s come to apologise #which means she’s actually taken a second to BREATHE and stop being so fucking angry #and low and behold it returns all logic and critical thinking skills to her #and I’ll have to forgive her because I do genuinely hate her when she’s angry #and it’s just not worth holding onto so I’ll take an out if she gives it me #but it’s soooo frustrating and unnecessarily upsetting for BOTH of us #and I hate that we still fucking do this and I’ve got a whole summer of it and I can’t just go back to uni now and yeah #live love etc #delete later #don’t reblog

[arielmagicesi]

ugggghhh ok so I’m reading some books to prep for my student teaching in the fall, the ones that my host teacher knows are likely to be in the curriculum, and first of all why is it a thing that high schoolers are made to read Contemporary Lit Fic that can be summed up as “how many gory explicit descriptions of traumatic abuse can we fit into one book”, like every year it’s just One Standard Shakespeare Play, One Twentieth-Century American Classic, throw in some other shit, and Somebody’s Fucked-Up Memoir From A Decade Or So Ago. Are there any contemporary books that are good but NOT traumatizing? If not, I’m happy to stick to classic lit personally

ANYWAY so I’m reading this book to prep for the fall and I ended up skimming the whole latter 3/4 or so of the book to spoil it for myself so the suspense wouldn’t kill me, and now I’m up late despite being super tired because my brain is just cycling through every horrific thing in the book, plus the reviews I read online, some of which are insanely saying shit like “wah wah, get over it, stop whining, we all had rough times in our childhood” and I’m like... Am I the softest, most naive baby on the planet for reacting to this horrific memoir by feeling bad for the author and thinking that maybe we don’t need to be making high schoolers read this? I’m not saying it’s not well-written- it is well-written, and well-structured, but Jesus Christ.

(also why are we allowed to make students read horrifying memoirs of abuse but god forbid they know that slavery happened in this country, but that’s a different issue altogether)

so yeah I now have managed to make my entire evening about Trying And Failing To Get Some Images Out of My Head, which sucks because I had a LOVELY day and was looking forward to some well-earned sleep, and also I’m gonna have to go back and read the entire book so that I’m able to teach it properly and know all the literary devices in it and shit. Cool cool cool

#this is the same classroom where i did my student observing and their 'holocaust book' was this book called sarah's key #which is also unnecessarily traumatizing but doesn't even have the decency to be written well #and i asked my host teacher like 'hey. do we provide any like... emotional support to the students when they read That Scene' #and she was like 'yeah i have them write a response paper about their emotions reading the scene' #and idk i'm not 100% sure that's enough? #i know high schoolers put on a big song and dance about how edgy they are and how they can handle seeing any fucked-up shit #and some of them really do unfortunately have to live with fucked-up shit for real #but like. they're still humans? who are growing and developing? let's maybe give them breathing room with these things? #i love my host teacher she's great but i'm not confident she's gonna provide a lot of emotional support re: this memoir to the students #she's also way tougher and more resilient than i am. and so are most of the students tbh. i'm a tiny baby kitten and i know this #still i feel like we should probably allow some room for acknowledging Yeah That Was Fucked Up Huh #It's Normal To Feel Sad Now Actually #ANY THE FUCKING WAY. wish i'd gone to sleep early like i planned #at least it's the weekend tomorrow and all i have to do is go prove i don't have tuberculosis. again!!!! #(not that i had tuberculosis before. i just got tested before but it was over 6 months ago so not good enough) #that's also for student teaching! #i feel like my personal posts on this blog are just a psa on why not to become a teacher #i swear i love teaching lol but i love kvetching more #written by me

[nerdie-faerie]

Fun thing about having friends in your twenties is that you're always between things so sometimes they'll say some shit like 'oh yeah might be homeless for a week or two. It's fine, I'll figure it out' like buddy no but also mood

#twenties #Uni pals #Queer gang #when it happens more than once with different friends and youre like oh we all living the same life huh #i also havent sorted out accommodation for next year so while its absolutely ridiculous and unsafe to just be winging your living situation #its also a mood and i cant judge cus i dont currently know whats going on and if im even staying in the same city #anyway your twenties are for coasting sofa surfing and having a breakdown :) its character building or whatever

[britneyshakespeare]

that’s my comfort celebrity scandal

#am i the only one who feels this #text post #the don't worry darling drama has given me a concerning amount of good energy #it's all fucking stupid and inane and largely innocuous #or at least as innocuous as powerful hollywood-type scandals get i suppose #the only person i like involved w the whole thing is chris pine and he does nothing wrong so that's a win for me #im not planning on looking into the whole adam levine thing but im already seeing ppl have this like. schadenfreude #do what you have to do guys i'm not judging you. #i love eating popcorn and watching the lives of ppl superior to me become embroiled in mess #it DOES distract me from my own mess thank you very much #and the best part is when it teaches nobody anything. that's entertainment! #i'm not like a gossip junkie by any means but when i like something i love it so like i said i can't judge. #plus the line between drama/commentary on the internet is very blurred bc it seems we're always talking about serious things these days #ppl will make lighthearted jokey videos about abuse and at the same time make hour-long deep dives on two unrelated friends' falling out #weird era we live in huh? #feel free to rb w your own comfort scandal this is a safe space #tales from diana