#we take it too far sometimes

[spacedlexi]

trying to keep all my clemviminnie thoughts contained until i get to episode 3 but

its hard

#telltale was CRAZY for this btw!! the drama of it all ALWAYS gets me #violet blaming herself for her gf/minnies death. clem helps her open up again. starts dating clem. finds out minnie is still alive? #saved violet telling clem she has nothing to worry about and she'll fight minnie if she has to to keep clem and her loved ones safe #kidnapped violet getting brain poisoned by minnie into turning against clem after feeling betrayed and abandoned by her #saved vi shooting minnie to save clem!!!!!!!!! but cant leave minnie behind because she already left her once and she cant do it again #vi begging minnie to stop trying to fucking kill them but shes too far gone. the 3 of them fight to the DEATH!!! #now add all that to the parallels and dark mirrors going on between clem and minnie in the A plot like the tension is off the charts #plus the parallels you can draw between clem and vi but those are less “you are my dark mirror” and more “we are the same i understand you” #HOW are the girlies not still talking about this #you know what i partially blame myself i dont talk about it enough either. i forget how many things ive left in my wips folder sometimes #UGH its all so good violets route just ads so much Flavor to the clem/minnie plotline its Delicious i couldnt imagine it Not being there #i neeeeeeeed to draw them fighting and being gay and maybe bloody even #if u cant tell i really want to get back to that wip i posted a few weeks ago but im Trying to Restrain Myself #i love forcing myself to take things slow sometimes really makes the brain shift into overdrive #twdg #violentine #it speaks

[wonder-worker]

"[Alice Perrers] requested that she be buried in the parish church of Upminster, St Laurence, before the altar of the Virgin Mary. Alice seems to have had an affinity with Mary through her life; a seal of hers from c. 1374 shows an image of the Virgin Mary and child, her tabernacle seized in 1377 had an image of the Virgin Mary on it, and now she wished to be buried before Mary’s altar."

-Gemma Hollman, "The Queen and the Mistress: The Women of Edward III"

#historicwomendaily #alice perrers #my post #I didn't know about this but it's so very intriguing #I wonder if Alice associated herself with Mary to try and assert her own 'quasi-queenship' #(ie: the most powerful woman in the country at the side of a king) #as Mary was obviously important element of queenly iconography in late medieval England #though on the flip side I suspect it would have also raised hackles that Alice - a commoner and royal mistress - was attempting #to present herself in such a way #it's especially interesting to consider in the context of Tompkins' argument that Alice was perceived as 'inverting queenship' (slay) #also this book was ... complicated. #It's very understanding and sympathetic and raised some very good points #but also tried to...massively soften Alice's actions and downplay her role and power in the process #(ie: defending her by diminishing her) #also there's this gem: #'Edward had been markedly restrained with the gifts and favour he had bestowed upon Alice' girl that is a flat-out lie #no other royal mistress of medieval England was ever given so much or honored in such a way. #yes we should emphasize Alice's own proactive role and intelligence in building up her vast estates #but even if that hypothetically hadn't happened #Edward's grants and gifts would have still made her extremely wealthy and powerful regardless #and was also weirdly obsessed with romanticizing Edward III and it got kinda questionable #like yes obviously I think we should ascribe more nuanced motivations and emotions to *Alice* than 'ambitious gold-digger #taking advantage of an aging king' #but I'm not fond of it veering too far on the other side either #I think sometimes we should simply be comfortable admitting when we simply don't know something

[bigkickguy]

wip - trying to doodle my rarepair on the beach and i can't stop trying to make emo ideas happen so im spitting out here to get it out of my head eustace and isaac could be cute !! just let them have their peace and quiet!! I'm starting to rotating them in my mind !!

#kickdraw #granblue fantasy #isaac gbf #esutace gbf #what do i even call this pairing - who cares im the only one out here on this boat ive seen post so far (join me hahaaaa) #eusaac #istace #??? - no idea lmao #reading isaac's fate ep made me so emo knowing how his parents treated him and grace - im glad he got her out of there cause oooouuuggghhh #anyway hear me out on them (I have almost nothing here yet lmao) #we take the 2 sorta solitary dudes on the team and we shove them together : ) #they barely interact before HSM - but yaknow im having my fun out here rotating them lol #just 2 dudes with their lives dedicated to a mission forced on them from childhood both ending their mission and moving on at the same time #guys who would relate to each other maybe if they ever spoke to each other but are too solitary probably - oops oops #grand zeta fate ep says isaac is now working for society fixing up the weapons and needs to work on ranged weaponry next : ) #eustace is the most stoic dude vs isaac being the most visibly nervous dude in the plotline - anyway i think they should kiss #could probably compare their characters more here but i'll just do it in a separate post sometime lol #edit - I FORGOT im eternally emo over how isaac got his arm eaten lmao #im want to draw 500 references to it cause it was really metal

[a-s-levynn]

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#i'm resisting the impulsive urge to vent proper because i don't want to go there especially this tired but #not everything is literal #not everything is serious #not everything is a joke #if you are unsure about something just ask #also #they are not our friends #they are grown men who can and do take care of themselfs and most people in the fandom understand that #so we can clown around over stupid shit while also not forgetting that #the two things can and do coexsist #but also let's not forget that they are simply human and can be tired or make a conscious decision to do or not do something #without any big conspiracy in the background #there is a line too far just as with everything #sometimes it isn't a bad idea to stop and look which side of it we are on #and i am myself are prone to at least dance on it so i'm not here to be smart i'm mostly just ckecking on myself #but some peeps also could use a moment to objectively see stuff #sorry this is fairly vague and half of it doesn't make sense #that's why it's in the tags #and almost certainly gonna get deleted in a few hours #i just needed to think #g'night y'all #see ya tomorrow #hopefully

[variousqueerthings]

it’s a problem that hawkeye looks like this: 

while talking about this: 

sir:

sir I know this is an entire scene’s worth of “pretending to be a homosexual who’s in love with frank” but you make it come out so sincerely that I have to overanalyse it just because and headcanon you’re talking about trapper by proxy (and you get away with it, because it’s a “joke” and juuust removed enough to be taken as such)

#hawkeye pierce #im rewatching MASH #MASH #he really does say things sometimes doesn't he..... #his hair really was black in the first season #and then..... #he's got kind of a classic moviestar look going on here #which is good because the classic moviestars were overwhelmingly gay #this scene really is several minutes long #were you like this back in america? #was your dad like *we can't let my son venture too far or he'll get hatecrimed* because honestly.... #this is the early 50s sir!!!! #(and he was an adult in the 40s already it's not like it's actually 1970-something and even THEN! this is the guy who made america #fall in love with him huh -- guess you really can get away with a lot if it's cloaked in comedy) #you remember the episode where he crashes in his jeep and monologues for 20mins and one of the things he talks about #is this one guy who beat him up whose shoes he vomited on back in highschool and who was apparently *a great guy* #yeah i'll overanalyse that anecdote too #you're not very good at pretending to be someone you're not (if you ever really were) #shielding yourself through comedy so nobody takes the truth seriously is a tried and ture tactic #true* #and of course... not like this is a single scene in which this happens... this is... one of many... many #many many many #we end our rambles here

[yaoianime]

Soon im rly gonna do it

#🕸️ #sui mention #< in the tags tho cuz it feels nicer to talk abt this in tags than in the post itself cuz to me posts are like talking normally but tags are #like whispering? talking you can tune out if you want but whispering is rather more voluntary to say it doesnt matter however #every single year passes and i wish i didnt live in each and every one of them i feel disconnected dissatisfied empty disappointed every day #it can be a small part of a day or a bigger but its still there clenching onto me like and never letting go im tired of it theres always a #wall between me and otyer ppl im unsure if i put it there or was it put there by other ppl but its there and even if anyone tries to reach #into it do i understand how even if close are we really far away it makes me understand just how much of an abnormality i am and how much i #cant ever be like them no matter how much i try and climb and crawl until i bleed its exhausting its maddening #almost everything i do is shaped by spite i wear one bracelet for years out of spite i dont smoke out of spite i dont shave my hands not #only because im normal abt body hair but also out of spite the more i know ppl the spiteful i get only way for me to truly like someone is #to keep them at a lenght outside that wall if they get in then theres only two choices for them to dislike me or even hate my entire being #or me to shove them back out without ever letting them get in #coworkers say im a nice kind person but im not its all just a facade to make my life easier and to suit myself im hateful but i dont believe #its entirely my fault after all they will to my face make fun of. laugh at. and hate everything of me they would see in other ppl that dont #hide it deep within like i do and then it rly hits me how different abnormal foul disgusting and unnatural i am #im hit with his every talk that goes on too long every word that keeps going every touch every expression every comment made on my behalf #its exhausting to live this way i fear im near my limit i havent reached it but who knows when i will #i sometimes dream of doing it and leaving behind a note wishing nothing but painful suffering to everyone i ever knew irl but i dont want to #do that to my best friends and my dog but who knows how long its left before the thread breaks #thats all like comment and subscribe if you personally would do me a favor by taking me out back and shooting me

[howthesleeplesswander]

MORALITY CHALLENGE.

bold all the things your muse has done (will / would do is in italics, bolded italics means they’ve done it before and will probably do it again)

murder / manslaughter / assault / robbery / breaking & entering / theft / embezzlement / money-laundering / kidnapping / torture / blackmail / arson / trespassing / treason / libel or slander / obstruction of justice / lying to law enforcement / creation of a weapon / espionage / riot / escape from lawful custody / contempt of court / public intoxication / conspiracy / accessory to a crime / harboring a fugitive / bribery / perjury under oath / resisting arrest / identity theft / corporate fraud / tax fraud / document forgery / destruction of evidence / assassination / counterfeiting / sale of a controlled substance / purchase of a controlled substance / failure to pay child support / hacking crimes / threat / pick-pocketing / shoplifting

Tagged by: I stole it off the dash :3c

Tagging: @greedbent | @hiisfire | @yaroudomos | @erabundus | @bitbrumal (for Dottore!) | @grislyintentions (for Zhongli!) | @drolliic (for Scaramouche!) | and anyone else who wants to! >3</

#《⭒✩⭒ || dash games 》 #《⭒✩⭒ || hc: mortally coiled (baizhu) 》 #me casually googling some of these to make sure I know what they actually mean #only for baizhu to be like “oH YEAH psht i've definitely done that” asdjfkd #the violent ones are only when he has no other choice 8') #and also sometimes in self-defense...which he takes too far as we see in his demo aslfskd #here's the proof everyone: baizhu looks like babygirl but dON'T LET THAT FOOL YOU #also me bolding/italicizing “accessory to a crime” and “harboring a fugitive” while looking pointedly at my bae over @ greedbent 👀👀😎👌 #this was fun I'll have to do this for kaeya sometime too B3c

[somethingwittythiswaycomes]

Friends, wish me luck

we're moving, we found a place last sunday by coincidence and after a bunch of scrambling around put in an offer and it was accepted

i'm not sure when i became the type of person with a realtor and a lawyer, but apparently after being an adult for 12 years you can just end up with these things?

#i'm really excited but also stressed out #bc we need to sell our current house in order to buy the new one #which means i have 12 years of adhd brain mess to clean out of my current place first #also it's so fucking galling that the stupid cleaning projects my brain weasels insisted were 'too hard' or would 'take too long' took like #2 hours tops so far? maybe 3? #i've cleaned the soap scum out of the tub in like 10 minutes #apparently you just need the right product #and the microwave looks like new now and it took 10 minutes? #i swear i've tried to clean it before and it didn't work #but now i've got an external pressure forcing me to find solutions #but i've also declared that we are making room in the budget to hire a cleaning service to come bi weekly to the new place #bc i swear i need help and im in a place now where i can afford it #sometimes the cheapest way to pay for something is with money #theana shhhh

[the-innefable-idiot]

breaking news: the mafia show about people who beat up and kill innocent people for money is Problematic® and not Wholesome™

#kinnporsche #i mean *gestures vaguely around* #we all know what kp is about right? #if it was an easy show to digest why would it take years to air? #sometimes shows simply aren't for us and that's ok too #tumblr and twitter complainings about it reminds me of those ao3 comments where people complain about things clearly stated in the tags #my sibling in christ youve read the sinopsis and watched the trailers and decided to watch this show #listen when i said 'bad buddy fixed me but kinnporsche was gonna make me worse' I was so serious yall have no idea #sometimes we gotta turn out brains off and just enjoy the fucked lil vibes from the fucked up lil fictional men #and if it's too fucked up for your enjoyment you can just........ not watch it. or skip the parts that make you uncomfortable #we have 10 more episodes to go this is just the tip of the iceberg as far as i know things will get so much worse ❤️

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#theres this feeling i get sometimes. i find it very hard to articulate. its part despair and part awe. dispair at how beautiful the world is #all those intricate little process coming together to organize the chaos. i dont kno y i feel it so deeply or y it hurts so much #because its just. no matters what horrible things r going on in the world. ur body is this miraculous collection of chemicals and reactions #mobile containers of water with a history that spirals back billions of years. and you can hear and see and experience and reflect #and when you die the world goes on spinning without you. if we as humans destroyed this planet past the part of our ability to inhabit it #it wouldnt even matter. there would be continued life past humanity. cosmically we r tiny and insignificant and we dont matter #but were beautiful and wonderful and infinity complex and knowing that leaves me in agony. because i want to kno everything right now but #mind is too small and i walk around with the disorientation of someone whos just been hit in thr face ans i cant focus enough to read #cant make the words make sense and i cant justify the time it would take to try. so i sit on my deck. in the sun. crying as i think about #how the light hit the grass in my front yard the last time i was home. how the cliffs in the backyard are ringed with red lines of iron #separated out as the water leached through the sandstone. how every avaliable surface is stained green as organisms reach upward toward #the sun. and its beautiful and i dont kno y im crying. maybe its bc i cant just throw everything aside and chase that feeling. im not #allowed to feel it. im not allowed to talk abt it in the way i want. bc im afraid no one cares as much as me in the same way. bc when i #talk abt what i study its obscure and academic and so far from what most ppl think abt that they get intimidated and dont try to understand #so i just try not to talk abt it. or maybe im just afraid. bc i have my 1st TA meeting tomorrow and i meet with my new advisor friday #and im worried and im afraid i wont b able to do this in a way that doesnt make me feel like im dying. bc i like to b busy and i like having #a strict schedule but if u throw me that knife im going to stab myself with it bc i dont kno how wield it as a tool without hurting myself #sure ill get the job done. but at what cost? whatever. ill try to b better this time. try to hold tight to the wonder. but that feels like #reaching out into forever. knowing ill never make contact. not knowing what im reaching for. #the closest approximation to the feeling i can find is that scene in the terror. where go0dsir is asking if god is there. any god. and it #doesnt matter bc he can see god in the landscape. in an environment that's so harsh and barren that its killing him slowly in the worst of #ways and its beautiful. its still beautiful to him. there is wonder here. and im wasting my time laying in a dark room crying bc i put #myself into a container so constrictive that the surface snaps and i come spilling out as an angry liquid. smearing away into nothing #unrelated

[killerchickadee]

Every time I see that post about bids for attention, or whatever it is, I think about my mom.

I don't really talk to anyone in my family, and I hate that and don't know how to reconnect.

My mom is also into birds so last summer when I saw the whooping crane I texted her a shitty excited picture and like all caps, "I saw a whooping crane!!!"

Her response was "lol". That's it. No follow up or chit chat, just a shut down of my attempts to connect with her.

The other week I sent her a link to the crane cam and told her to check in on it at sunrise and sunset (which is when the cranes are there, though lately they've been hanging out later in the day) and her response was "Cool!"

That's it! Again, completely shut me down. If I died tomorrow the last thing my mom said to me was "Cool".

#last message from my sister was two weeks ago #last text from my dad was january 16th #and we don't talk on the phone #like last time i talked to anyone on the phone was a year and 1/2 ago when my grandma died #i don't know what's wrong with all of us and I don't know how to fix it #i have two people i talk to outside of work #and we don't hang out because we're busy and/or live too far apart #anyway GUESS I'M LONELY AND FEELING PRETTY BAD ABOUT IT TODAY #mostly I'm like cool to do shit on my own #but sometimes it's like... i don't have a choice anyway #at work when I'm like well I'm gonna have to drag my cat on a 1200 mile round trip cause i don't have another choice #people are like you really don't have ANYONE who could watch him? #i don't know what part of “i have only one friend in milwaukee and i don't have a family” people don't understand #sorry i know no one reads this shit who the fuck am i apologizing to #i want to take a Big Trip for my 42nd year but even if i find the money am i going to travel alone? #like all the way to alaska or scotland or fucking somewhere alone? #road tripping alone is fine cause at least i have my car #ok anyway shut up sarah no one cares

[snekdood]

the cringe nihilistic "personal impact means nothing so why even try" vs the chad "or i could be one of the only people in my apartment complex that grows native plants and lets native animals live in them in what is otherwise a desolate hellscape of grass"

#sometimes personal impact does actually matter #sometimes YOU'RE the only one who gives a shit #but it starts with you. and then other people catch on. #by seeing you have a good time w plants and native wildlife other ppl wanna start doing it too #the experience is too rewarding not to want to. its also really meditative taking care of a garden. #so far ive seen bats hummingbirds i had a wasp nest up here and they never stung me we like just *got* eachother yknow #i literally had to reach over them to water plants and they still never stung me. ive had mason bees. ive obviously had honey bees and #bumble bees. i even saw a fuckin tree frog. its so fun. theres always birds on my balcony. theres a bird on my blacony rn w eggs #im making my own lil micro habitat over here sdjfsjvhgd

[nostalgia-tblr]

did i mention here the SHOCK REALISATION that sylki fic is often about Loki emotionally supporting Sylvie and lokius fic is often about Mobius supporting Loki, so if you combine those it seems fandom has an overall heirarchy of How Fucked Up Everyone Is and it goes:

Mobius >> Loki >> Sylvie

There are a few conclusions we could draw from this, mine is that I feel so very sorry for the hypothetical character that fandom would consider fucked up enough to need to be emotionally supported by Sylvie D: THAT POOR BLORBO D: D:

#been squicked out more than once by Loki mansplaining Sylvie's emotions to her in fic tbh :'( #“oh sylvie that is An Emotion you are feeling! i shall protect you from it! you silly goose who doesn't understand her own feelings!” #i think it's mostly just fandom taking “he protecc!!!” a bit too far? #also the common desire to put sylki love confessions in fic but canonically they both suck at that sort of thing so writers go “????” #and she's the MORE closed-off one so it starts there and ends up with Loki mansplaining thc concept of love to her sometimes? #fair enough it's hard to work with “bit cold innit? umm. blanket??? we share blanket?? oh shit what now??????” #also Mobius keeps calling Loki “kitten” in fic who started that and how common is it actually do i just keep happening on it by chance? #sylkius fic where mobius calls them “kitten” and “...weird angry spitting creature i found in a bin??” #also as usual let me complain about the Class Issues or lack of them. it's practically gift-wrapped! and yet! #(suspect a few fic writers may be getting off on those a bit though maybe? just - again - i am occasionally squicked there) #(i know at least one of MY fic-writing Issues is I am on the less sympathetic-about-Loki's-angsty-pain end of the spectrum) #(“YASSSSSSSS belittle the poshboy a bit!! make him cry!!!!”) #loki series

[oswaldddavis]

(They think the other is a idiot)

#asktotag #sonic exe #xhouse #((No idea how to explain we have like way too many interpretations and spoofs of the guy)) #((Like I could ramble about the ''Master File & Distributions'' or ''Spoof'' variants but honestly talk so much I end up saying nonsense?)) #((Main reason why my art seems to have no context is because I literally voice chat and ramble for 4-6 hours)) #((Essentially about the newest hyperfixated multiverse we've created-)) #((-for our far to energetic ideas for us to narrow down & ''choose'' one because there's no singular correct interpretation of art)) #((There's far too many variables to consider one universe as the most canon so obviously we have to branch from every possible angle-)) #((-and end up with at least 30 of the same character but in different flavours)) #((NOT ACCOUNTING FOR THE FACT THAT IT'S ADDICTING TO MAKE SPOOFS FROM JUST ONE INTERACTION TO SEE WHERE THEY GO)) #((Like. There's so much potential in the morality and development of a character based off of one or more events-)) #((-that derail from their original situations! ENVIRONMENTS & SITUATIONS SHAPE SO MUCH FOR A PERSON & I HAVE TO SEE EVERY POSSIBLE ANGLE.)) #((Sorry for the rant/ramble here-)) #((-I never usually have the confidence to express how much I love making things.)) #((I tend to bury my thoughts and say so little cause I usually think no one would be interested or would think I'm annoying for it)) #((Sometimes you hear voices say the most stupid take & feel so enraged by its obsurdity that you temporarily lose your social anxiety)) #((It'll probably return eventually because the moment I post this I can guarantee it will cause it's happened before. I am not immune.)) #((Unrelated but I like having a variety of papers to draw on again. I can't share much yet due to conceptuals but Soon!!))

[deancoded-deangirl]

hello can nick and i get married yet just asking for a friend

#he's the weirdest dude but he's so fucking patient with me #i need someone patient and stable to ride the emotional waves with me until i get better at self regulating #so far i'm getting really good at telling him that i need a minute or i'm going to be mean and passive aggressive #so then he gives me a minute and i regroup and then can speak rationally #which is GREAT for me who was once so brutally cruel instinctively #anyway by patient and stable i didn't mean he's my punching bag #i just meant that he doesn't match my extreme emotions (he will match excitement and happiness) and thus provides a baseline #like he stays steady so when i'm upset or mad he'll ask why and i break it down and by the time it's broken down i'm like... okay #so there was no reason to be upset #and we talk about impact vs intent all the time like sometimes he a lil weird in talking so it comes off bad #but yeah he's just really stable and so it's easy to bring myself back if no one is hyping me up #and whenever i'm irritated with him i'll still call his ass and put myself on mute and fall asleep with him on the phone #he's very good at calling me out too (he's also great at taking accountability if he does something) #like one time he showed me a video and i only watched a sec before jumping down his throat #and he called me out and i apologized and redirected and all #one time he had an attitude (when I was upset) and i was like dude what's with the tone #he's also good at like... idk what to call it #but he told me during one of those times when i was upset that it wasn't fair to him to say no but then expect him to do it anyway #because how was he supposed to know when to listen to me and when to not? it was a no win for him and it wasn't fair #and you know what? he was so correct and true for it #i apologized for that too #anyway. when can i marry him. #nick