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fitia · 8 months

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Farnese pre-monastery is Griffith-immune because she already has a person she puts on a pedestal as a quasi-God figure and it's her dad, and she just can't imagine two of those kinds of people existing. Especially since she doesn't view any power Griffith gets as legitimate.

#fitiaposting #Farnese would be so ''what if the King of Midland's relatives who hate the Band of the Hawks subplot was actually fun and interesting''#were she to meet them herself

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sourscratched · 2 months

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the hand that feeds

#dimension 20 #my art #acoc #trw #many thoughts about them that im unable to articulate #just thinking a lot about how they were probably around the same age during the events of trw #and i think a lot about karna as far as i know not knowing any other warlocks of the hungry one besides herself #the scene in the inn when she looks in the mirror at the rot growing hits me so hard #something about being so young and all alone with the dread you feel about your own body #who can you tell who would get it #who can you tell that it wouldn’t feel like giving them something to use against you #idk i just think about these two a lot #wonder what it would’ve been like if they could have met each other #(do i have a fic where they meet that ive been procrastinating on uploading to ao3 for months. Maybe)#(i don’t write like Ever and i haven’t had the confidence to share it yet. anyway)#this whole post is just me talking to a wall lmao don’t mind me everyone #a crown of candy #the ravening war

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waitineedaname · 4 months

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To Greed's surprise, Mei became more than comfortable with him – she actually started seeking him out. Not just when he happened to be the one piloting Ling’s body, but actively asking for him. She’d call him over to show off a new alkahestry technique she’d learned, knowing he’d gleefully cheer her on, or she’d tug on his sleeve to whisper a joke that matched his sense of humor more than Ling’s during formal meetings, or on the rare occasions when she’d bring them gifts from home, she’d make sure to bring two – one for Ling, and one for him. Despite all that, he was still surprised when she first referred to him as her brother.

I am pushing my "Greed is Mei's favorite brother" agenda, please enjoy

#fma #fmab #greed fma #mei chang #may chang #my writing #they are FAMILY!!!#if ling and greed are like brothers. and ling is mei's brother. then by transitive property greed is her brother too.#I think greed deserves the opportunity to be a big brother to siblings that aren't absolute nightmares #he had four younger siblings but hated at least half of them and was like. ambivalent at best about the other two.#mei gives him a new opportunity to have a little sibling he thinks the world of #because she 1) she is extremely cool and I think he'd enjoy how badass she is #and 2) no one can resist her adorable charm. every adult that meets her wants to adopt her and greed is no different #and mei on the other hand deserves older brothers that will hype her up and stick up for her #considering most of her half siblings were trying to kill her or each other #greed (and ling) are a nice change of pace because they will instead kill For her #not that she needs it. she can handle herself. but it's the thought that counts #anyway enjoy this fic!

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luck-of-the-drawings · 4 months

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(OLD OC SKETCHES) Meet Sunnabelle Von Sunnoviche, final daughter of the Sunnoviche family. Peeking from behind a window, she witnessed a wizards final spell, one that reduced the world to a wasteland. Her noble blood damned her to [HELL], but unwanting to suffer with her family, she made a deal with the devil. She now hunts in his name. The top of her head was taken by the blast on that day. The fires of her spirit have boiled her blood into a super-heated plasma.

#luckys original content #GRAAHH MY OCS OCS IM SORRY MY OCS I NEVER FUCKIN DRAWW YYAALLL #i was cleanin stuff on my pc again n found a buncha stray doodles of her that i made like. 1 or 2 yrs ago. so i cooked em into smth edible #shes a gunslinger rogue i think! mechanically aasimar bc plasma blood #played her once for a very teeny tiny improved oneshot me n some buddies did forever ago #would love to play as her again... someday a cowboy themed game will find me.. n she will live again...#SUNNABELLE VON SUNNOVICHE! the last name was sposed to sound like 'son of a bitch' ehehehe #bc she is ONE HELL ofa son ofa bitch. shes mean shes short tempered she takes NO SHIT #and she loses her mmIIIIND when she meets a delightfully stupid pretty person #i didnt play her for long so her personality hasnt evolved that far. thats the fun thing abt playing characters! u meet them when u play em #SUNNABELLE FUNFACTS: she is the 6th child of 11 siblings. middlest a middle child can be. bc o this she was often overlooked or ignored #she grew up in a family of obnoxiously rich nobles. all the other siblings were trained and focused on to be the best a sunnoviche can be #meanwhile. sunnabelle often stuck to herself. drawing and creating little fantasy worlds. was always a fan of wild wests n cowboys n guns #she was the only one that saw the WIZARD coming. she was peering over a window when the blast went off. taking the top of her head #GUHH IM ACTULY SO PROUDA HER DESIGN SHE LOOKS SO COOL.. LIKE WHATS WITH THE PLASMA HOW DID I DRAW THAT SO WELL. IM SO PROUD.#I lov all the sun symbolism.. its so fun.. what a fun character ive made.. hell yeah.... anyway hope u guys like her too.#if u got questions ive got ANSWERS!!! my askbox is always open. im pretty sure.

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hella1975 · 5 months

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there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room)#it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :)#hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

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oneirataxia-girl · 2 months

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this is the second part to @supermarine-silvally's ask, found here! they asked for quite a few questions for my One Piece ships, Kenji x Killer & Law x Mari x Kid, Keller's answers can be found here, while this post is all for Midlaw. so let us begin! tagging the other anime girlie @auxiliarydetective as well

1. How did they meet and what were their first impressions of each other?

Mari knew of Kid and Law long before the three crews landed on Sabaody, she's intrigued by Law's abilities, but thinks Kid is a senseless, bloodthirsty idiot. but it's KidLaw that met first on Sabaody, it's dislike at first sight <3 Kid thinks Law is a stuck-up "I'm better than you" kinda guy and is itching to beat him up in the new world, while Law thinks Kid is unnecessarily destructive and overall not someone he wants to associate with

KidLaw see Mari for the first time at the auction house, where she gets the collars and chains off the other prisoners with the keys Franky got; Kid thinks that his assumption that she's the weakest out of the Strawhats (for context, Mari consistently has the second-lowest bounty, second only to Chopper) was right, while Law is slightly unnerved by the fact that she seems to pop out of nowhere, but also thinks she's not that dangerous

2. What kind of dynamic do they have with each other?

black cat x orange cat x black cat, rival crews to tentative allies to unmarried divorced throuple to 'if I don't see my gf & bf/bfs in the next five seconds I will bring down this building', "we're going our separate ways." "... yeah?" "it's for the best that we don't meet again soon." "agreed."

3. What do others think of them?

the Heart pirates are the captains of the Lari ship the second Law introduces Mari to them, but after Wano Bepo, Shachi, and Penguin are thrown off because they get the feeling that their captain doesn't hate Captain Eustass like he claims; the Kid pirates board it after watching Kid trying to subtly show off in front of Mari & Law (neither of them is impressed, but neither of them would admit that it was a bit flustering to be scooped up with one arm so that's that); and the Strawhats (namely Brook, Franky, Chopper, and Robin after a bit) are on board as soon as they work it out, Nami got a bag of berry from Kenji from betting that Mari would fall for Law, but she and Kenji both lost money to Robin because she's the only one to bet that their crewmate would like both Law and Kid, Zoro could not care less who Mari likes as long as it's not harming the crew, but he's subjected to both Kenji and Sanji's lamenting so he drags Jimbei and Usopp in to argue that it's not their business, meanwhile Luffy has no idea about any of this and is just wondering why Mari's more mopey than usual

5. Is their joint future bright or bleak?

ideally yes, Idc if I have to trample canon I WILL give them a happy ending and there's nothing Oda can do to stop me

7. Do they have a desire to protect each other?

normally, no -- actually, Kid & Law did think Mari would need to have someone watching her back, but after seeing her on Wano, both of them know Mari would not appreciate them fighting for her. similarly, Mari isn't too fussed about their safety because she knows Law and Kid can handle themselves. but if one of them goes down, you can bet the other two are going to go full demon on whoever did that

10. Who would win in a fight?

okay this one deserves its own dissertation post, so I won't elaborate much here. it depends on where the fight is and if the three of them are at their fullest abilities or not, but it's probably ending in a tie or a surprise takedown after two of them are exhausted

12. Who is a better caregiver?

Mari. Law has no sleeping schedule and survives on onigiri with black coffee and probably has no idea how to show that he cares for people, Kid is a freak of nature and probably would've died long before he set sail if it wasn't for Killer and also has no idea how to show affection other than be less mean towards them. it's not a hard competition when one of them has oldest daughter syndrome and middle child syndrome at the same time

15. Who has better fashion sense?

it's a tie between Mari and Law. sorry Kid but I can't look past those pants 😭

20. What's the worst thing about them teaming up?

to be on the receiving end of their blows. think Kidlaw fighting Big Mom, then add in a phantom that always strikes to incapacitate (or kill, depending on the situation) at the worst possible times for the receiver, which just so happens to hit the weakest spots every single time. if Mari adds in her dust bombs and puts her devil fruit to active combat, then it's just overkill if they're not fighting someone Yonko level

21. What's the best thing about them teaming up?

to be on the same side as them, especially if you're not a good fighter, you can just sit back and watch Law dice up people and Kid disarming (sometimes literally) the other side, while Mari pops out of nowhere to string up some poor terrified guys then gives a quick report about what's ahead then vanishes again (this is ghostwritten by Kenji, Usopp, Nami, and Chopper)

36. What is a gift one would give to the other?

Kid makes metal flowers for both Mari and Law, as well as some other practical bits and bobs. Mari and Law I can't really see getting gifts (I hc Law prefers to give quality time and Mari acts of service) but Mari makes matching necklaces for the three of them when they tie the knot

39. What's an inside joke they'd have together?

how long will it take for Kenji to accept that his sister is hopelessly in love and has no intentions of leaving her boyfriends (he's actually happy and relieved that someone wants Mari, but he pretends to dislike them to keep them on their toes); what insane thing will Luffy do today and which one of them is the unlucky recipient of a rubber hug; Kid can't do housework at ALL

45. If one of them was in trouble, what would the others do?

hunt down the people responsible and show them exactly why people don't mess with what's theirs

48. If they swapped bodies, how would they handle it?

okay this will probably also require a long explanation and this is long enough as it is, so I'll answer this some other time with doodles to show the scene in my head ;)

give me a number + relationship and I'll tell you something about that relationship!

#i feel like midlaw is also not fleshed out enough #objectively speaking it shouldn't be allowed for them to decimate people so easily in a fight #so i'm going to reconsider some of these answers too #also if anyone has hcs of law/kid love languages pls hmu #i am suspish of my own hcs #i am of the belief that lawkid talked after defeated kuma on sabaody and they were toeing that line between shit-talking and flirting #they get so close to each other and agree that they're gonna fight the next time they meet #then law sees mari for the first time after timeskip and he's like #why are you prettier than i remember. stop it. i can't fight if you're distracting me. also why can't i sense you #kid watching on broadcast is like #wait is that??? the strawhat?? she still looks weak af. why is she with trafalgar. scratch that why is mugiwara with trafalgar??#and mari's like #maybe you two aren’t as bad as i thought. i think i can grow to like you guys- wait. no. fuck am i falling in love??!#and shuts herself off #these tags are stupidly long again #alvita's answers #ship: midlaw #otp: the metal strings of death #hadley my beloved

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empty-blog-for-lurking · 7 months

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I'm thinkn.. what does ps8 Kuron and Lance's relationship look like after lance wakes up? of course Kuron is Lance's Little Guy TM but also they never really got the chance to truly bond and become friends, and now Kuron is. y'know. being Kuron.. and lance is full of grief and trauma and also The Horrors

i feel like at first its gonna ba at least a little awkward lol

It'll be really fucking awkward for both of them indeed!! But not nearly as awkward. The timeline and the story ideas are not clear but like i feel like there is some shit going on during Lance wakes up and he takes a long time (maybe i'll bring my quintessence ideas for this? Maybe) and when he wakes up he isnt exactly There at first. So like by the time Lance wakes up, Kuron has already had a lot of his character development

And yeah Lance and Kuron is a bit complicated relationship cause like i have said Kuron is grateful for Lance for actually saving him, but also he's a bit angry and most importantly confused cause just why? Why all this? Why now? How did you? What happened to you? And just this confusion that is plaguing since he got his new body.

Meanwhile Lance genuinely cares about Kuron but also is y'know. Busy. Not to mention Lance kinda expected Kuron to be like he was 'used' to be, or rather the rosy eyed version that was Kuron was 'a sweet sensitive guy who can do no wrong and Did Not deserve That' (which isnt wrong but also) (also same with Allura)

But this is something that can be talked out, and it might take some time and development for both of them but by the end i think it's just hugs and a big healing moment for both of them and it would be like a promise to bond and stuff

That being said this isnt exactly final, cause like i said i am still trying to figure out the timeline and story plot and everything so this is very much going to change

#To be honest i kinda imagine Lance waking up at the end of the story??#Like if it were a series the first scene would be Kuron opening his eyes and waking up in a bathup filled with liquid quintessence #There is a scene where Allura wakes up in a desert as some kind strangers find her #And the final scene of the series is Lance waking up in his hospital bed. Because 🌟✨️Parallels✨️🌟#One idea i had that they do meet Lance in his mindscape that is also linked to astral plane #Or more specifically Allura (cause she can magic) and Kuron (cause living in mindscape for years taught him how to navigate them)#It goes horribly. Lance's head is filled with Horrors and so is the astral plane with attempts to recreate misremembered nostalgia #post s8 au #empty answers #Like big thing about Lance's arc is that things are never going back to Way they were.#He's giving way pieces of himself hating how it is changing him just for an ideal past that was never there to begin with #Again this is something that i would most likely change if i have a better idea #Right now it is corkboard of scenes and ideas linked together with red string #I also had the idea of the Horrors being the universe/multiverse itself. Alive and sentient #You know that Allura nebula at end when she sacrifices herself? That is not her but a representation of the universe/multiverse taking her #And it is pissed about galra empire/Haggar thing and is corrupted by that purple quintessence but also likes staring at living beings.#And is very interested in the guy who stared back #But again these are just some ideas #Thanks for asking!!!!#If you got any ideas and want to share please do!!

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softquietsteadylove · 11 months

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Hello there, beautiful ✨

I've got this wonderful Reunion idea!

What if Thena, Makkari and Druig (and bitching around Eros, unfortunately) were able to rescue the others but the way back to the Domo is blocked by at least a dozen of Gilgameshs. And Arishem is like:"I'll let you leave the World Forge IF you're able to choose the right Gilgamesh, the one who walked earth with you." But of course all of those fake versions got the same memories downloaded, and now it's on Thena to find HER sweet sweet Gilgamesh.

Hugs and much love 🖤✨

Gilgamesh--dozens of him. Looking around, looking at each other, looking at them.

Thena blinked, stumbling back a step as gold flickered under her skin.

"Easy," Druig murmured only loud enough for her. He put a hand on her back to keep her from turning and running. "Easy, T."

"What the hell is this?" Kingo said aloud, taking the sight of copies of his brother--his brother whom he saw murdered not even a year ago.

"Thena?"

"Thena!"

"Thena, what's going on?"

Arishem had told them what it was for. He intended to discover if the Eternals were really capable of retaining pieces of their past lives, or if it was nothing but a flaw in his programming. Was Mahd Wy'ry a feature or a bug?

"T, come on," Phastos gestured from a little further back in the pack. His rings were practically rattling on his hands. "For all you know, none of them are-"

"No," she gulped, eyes still wide and glued to the small battalion in front of them. "He's here."

Kingo moved forward, intent on...something. Perhaps he thought this was the kind of burden he could take on for his sister. But he looked down as Makkari tugged at his sleeve, shaking her head.

"This is nonsense," the newest one of the group - Eros - drawled, utterly bored now that their quarry had been retrieved. "I can make swift work of-"

"No!"

Thena walked forward. None of them were listening to her anyway. All of the Gilgameshs looked at her as she approached. Not even one of them raised a fist. She glanced over her shoulder at Eros, "you touch even one of them and you'll face me next."

That was about as serious a threat that could exist.

She walked closer to the mass of Gilgamesh. It was surreal, and maybe a bit horrific. Her mind desperately screamed at her that this wasn't right. That she was finally, truly Mahd and that none of this was real.

"Thena?"

She closed her eyes, inhaling, trying to pull together her mind as she had been getting better at doing. Times when Druig would help by keeping her wild thoughts contained. Times when she would just stand there, crying for someone who was still there in her mind. Times when she would tremble and Gil would be there to hold her hand.

Her Gilgamesh.

She took in a deep breath again. They all smelled like the World Forge. None of them smelled like their home in Australia. One of them walked Earth with her for years--for centuries and millennia. The rest only thought they did.

She looked around at them, all of them meeting her eye with the same intent and recognition. Arishem really was a deity who new neither love nor cruelty. This was merely an experiment with his little pets.

Ajak was many things, but she never toyed with them like this.

Thena looked each in the eye one at a time. They reacted the way one might expect. They all had gentle expressions and soft smiles. But none of them were right, yet. She would know.

She could doubt many things about her life, and herself, but she had no doubts about this.

She looked each of them over. Their eyes would meet but then nothing would happen. She would know it wasn't really him. Someone who thought himself Gilgamesh, maybe. But she would move on. Something was missing.

She took a breath again. Her Cosmic Energy was buzzing in her veins, overstimulated from the sheer volume of Eternals present. But that wasn't right. She closed her eyes again.

There was a direction in which it was pulling. One that promised calm, and peace. She took a few steps, focusing entirely within as the power in her body guided her.

"What is she doing?" The interloper was wary of her letting her guard down around the enemy.

"Let her," Sersi was the one to silence him. She was their new Prime, after all.

Thena opened her eyes. Not at the back of the group, but far from the front. This one. She looked at his eyes, soft and warm, rich brown. He looked exactly like the others but...different.

The way he stood was different. His shoulders were a little more relaxed, a little heavier. The others weren't defensive but they weren't exactly dormant. He was at ease with her in front of him.

She raised her hand up to his cheek and he leaned into it, closing his eyes like she was a soothing balm to an open wound. She put her other hand on his chest. His heartbeat was strong, and it fell on the same rhythm as hers.

"This one."

Arishem's voice thundered both around them and in their skulls. "You are certain?"

Thena smiled, and was awarded with a smile in return. Gil turned his head to kiss her palm and reached out for her. Her body didn't flinch, her Cosmic Energy didn't reflexively gather in her palms. Her most instilled survival instinct - her inability to relax - was dormant. She sighed as his hand found the small of her back. This was him. "This is my Gil."

He beamed at her, touching his forehead to hers, careful of the tiara of her armour. This was him.

The other Eternals watched on anxiously. Thena was as certain as the Energy they all shared, but they could still have their own doubts. Sersi was the only one who already looked relieved.

Thena kept her eyes closed as the other Gilgameshs went quiet, sentinels robbed of movement. She didn't want to see him still and lifeless again, in any form. She whispered to her Gilgamesh, "let's go."

He nodded, leading her away and into the Domo, not even looking back at the rest of his family. He kept his hand at her waist, leading her gently, "I'm right here."

He was right here, with her, safe. This was him.

"Thena?" Young - genuinely young - Sprite ran out from the console room, stopping short at the sight. She eyed the 'Gilgamesh' with her. "Th-Thena?"

"It's okay, Sprite," she whispered, not releasing Gil from being within arm's reach. She nodded, "it's him."

Sprite accepted it, although she didn't exactly run over with open arms. She leaned to look around them as the rest finally followed, filing into the Domo. She widened her eyes and shook her head slightly.

Kingo mirrored the expression and shrugged; he didn't know either! He moved to her side quickly, though, "come on, let's get outta here."

Phastos took up the helm. Eros stood at the threshold while the family whose ship this really was easily fell into their respective roles again. He was still eyeing Gilgamesh.

"Don't let Thena catch you."

He looked beside him at the Elemental Eternal--the replacement Prime, as he knew her. That was until they got their recovered Prime online again.

"It's him," Sersi confirmed, looking at her sister, gazing at Gilgamesh without a care as to who saw. "If Thena's that sure, then so am I."

"You can afford to be so certain?" Eros felt free to ask her. He nodded his head at the Warrior Eternal, lavishing in the presence of her love. "You don't think maybe she wants it to be him badly enough to convince her mind of it? A mind, which, may I add-"

"Has nothing to do with you," Sersi cut him off decisively. She drifted closer to the rest of her family, "I have known these two for thousands of years. The love they have has always escaped my full understanding. But...you know it when you see it."

Maybe Eros wasn't used to seeing such display of emotion. It wasn't something Eternals were prone to--not supposed to be prone to, at least. They were androids--inorganic and created for a purpose. They didn't mate for life.

But then, Thena wasn't a perfect Eternal. She had a bug, or a feature, rather.

"Are they gonna just stand there like that," Phastos muttered, with Kingo's agreement over watching their sister's canoodling.

"Leave 'em be," Druig muttered behind both of them, Makkari tucked into his side. In the absence of the rest of their brothers and sisters, Druig had become the presence most looming and protective of the Warrior Eternal's peace of mind.

Thena opened her eyes again, finding, indeed, her Gilgamesh. She smiled at him, and he smiled back. That was him. "Hey."

He both melted and burst, his smile warming the entire room of their cold mothership. He ducked his head closer, their noses brushing, "hey."

She sighed, settling herself in the crook of his neck like she belonged there. "You're here."

"I'm here."

"It's you," she found his hands, winding them together. They fit just right.

"It's me," he confirmed, pressing his palm to his like he had millions of times before.

This was him.

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 4 months

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”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”

Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.

#exjw #ex cult #I woke up and he was venting about it to my mom very loudly so I just went “fuck that”#I could’ve went somewhere in the house to eat but I specifically chose the 20 degrees F screen room so that both of them know #I’d rather freeze than hear one more second of his venting knowing that he is still refusing to get help #Mom wants to watch the convention? Glorious. I’m not leaving my room until he’s done talking. I will not be her deus ex machina #I will not be her excuse to end the conversation so she can watch the convention with me #She can sit there and listen to it; and maybe she’ll grow some reasoning ability and realize #the religion she so piously subscribes herself to is splitting us apart and killing her husband #and maybe she’ll begin to take his triggers seriously and not make passive-aggressive remarks about how she wants to listen #to all the comments and not mute it when an elder who sexually harassed him begins speaking #and maybe my dad will grow some common sense and realize that continuing to go to meetings will ensure he is in a state of trauma #for all eternity #and maybe — just maybe — they will realize that everything they read in my diaries was right #and that they were absolutely positively 100% in the wrong for screaming at me about their contents #and apologize for what they’ve done to each other and to me #But that’s wishful thinking because [first name] “I’m more stubborn than you” [last name] will hold out until it kills him #and my mom is ex-Catholic and convinced the JWs are entirely truthful just because she prefers the possibility of death over hellfire #You can’t make this shit up #I live in a madhouse with crazy people

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cowboyhorsegirl · 6 months

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Steve is most likely to end up in a lavender marriage and Tony's most likely to end up in a “married for tax/immigration/inheritance fraud” reasons.

They meet as married men and pine for each other hardcore and are also trying not to read too much into how their interest seems reciprocated and oh nooooo both Immigration/the IRS and the the Church/in-laws/DADT era army dudes or whatever are snooping around at the same time at each of their marriages and they have to be so good at being married at the people they are married to oh noooooo and they other guy doesn’t know why they are suddenly being iced out and maybe they were just imagining things? maybe it’s for the best with all these eyes around on them…

#not to get too real but i love queer people. we see each other and we save each other #i wish i could talk in depth about this lgbtq history panel i went to tonight without doxxing myself #but basically all of these panelists were older gay ppl & one of them won a very monumental court case in the state #and right after introductions one of the other panelists turned to her and thanked her so profusely for the sacrifices she had made #and the work she did to win that case #and that by achieving that win for herself she paved the way for this other panelist to have her own family recognized legally by the state #i don't know i'm not explaining it well but something about knowing and seeing that gratitude in real time. understanding so viscerally tha #so much of our history has happened within one or two lifetimes. to the point that many of the champions of our current rights are alive #today for us to learn from and listen to and THANK #i met two nb ppl through school last year and have since become very close to them #they are the only two ppl on this planet who use my pronouns the way i want them to be used. they switch it up every time and i love them #a little bit more each time i hear them talk about me. it's magical #my childhood best friend told me he liked boys and girls like a month after we first met each other in the fourth grade #he told me there's a word for that; he's bisexual #i think abt how incredible that was a lot. how brave he was to say that and to own that and how long it might have taken me to figure #out that i was the same had he not said it.#anyway all this to say that yes absolutely i love this #steve and tony meet at a military gala. steve's being recognized for his service and tony and his wife were invited by some higher-up who #imagined he could use the event as a way to cozy up to him and earn some good favor before negotiations start on SI's contract renewal #their eyes meet while steve's up on stage. he hates these things. hates being dragged into the spotlight. he feels naked and bare and #vulnerable every time. trapped in enemy territory with no cover. but he sucks it up he kisses his wife on the cheek and she smiles #big and beautiful; perfect like they've run their lines 1000 times over. like they could recite each other's parts by heart #he makes his way to the podium. breathes deep to center himself before he launches into his thankless thank-yous. steve's a terrible liar #but somehow he's made it this far in his career. he can manage for one more night. except #right as he lifts his eyes to speak he sees him. bright eyes burning into his from a shadowed table in the corner. the brass speaking at hi #on his left and a lovely woman who's bored and unimpressed on his right. and him looking directly back at steve #steve's breath catches and he chokes on air. trips on his lines. forgets himself and loses the beat of the scene #he looks down at his notes and ignores them. raises his face to the light and plays himself to be seen by an audience of one.#anon #signed sealed delivered

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slightlytoastedbagel · 1 month

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Yuka Shiraishi. btw.

#she has 20 lines at most but i love her #i'd really like for an 5 to have more yuka content... especially since ken is training vbs #ken is working them rough which for people surrounding vivid street (or at least vbs) would seem tough but understandable #but yuka is an outsider. yuka is a caring mother who still supports her daughter and her friends despite not growing up in vivid street #yuka would possibly consider this too much for the moment and try to get them to relax #and. i really want the current vbs arc to end with them relaxing a little #i don't think they'll go straight from “we're surpassing rad weekend and carrying nagi's wish”#to “we're tying ourselves down to this one event when we could go even further”#but they could definitely recognise “we're still kids we have time”#and yuka could be the one to bring that up. radder were all adults when rad weekend happened. vbs are in their second year of high school #and they're talented. so incredibly talented. kohane showed that at crawl green. akito finally realises his growth in his 4th event #toya has just came to terms with his classical music background and draws from it to write songs for the group #and an has had years of experience singing. except she also holds herself back in her want to be line nagi #which i'm almost certain will be addressed in her 5th event. and with yuka being the one who comforted an during lutf (in her card)#well. i think it would be nice for her to come back #especially as she is - again - an outsider to vivid street. she could represent how vbs can go beyond vivid street #another possibility is kohane's father. he sort of just disappeared after sdsc (at least i recall akito and an mentioning meeting him?)#and considering the impact he has on kohane (photography and his doubts regarding her sudden change in early game)#it could be nice seeing him again since with kohane/akito/toya seemingly reaching the end of a current arc in the last year #(ie the kohane and taiga plot/akito no longer feeling like he's behind the others/toya and classical music)#the next step in the group's story could be happening #half of this has nothing to do with yuka fjrjdiejd. i just like the concept of her being the group's link to going outside of vivid street #or going beyond is suppose. beyond the way...#bagel's rambles #i'm on break. watch me draw yuka design

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absensia-archived · 8 months

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1.1 WHAT HORROR TROPE ARE YOU?

THE SACRIFICE. A knife to your back is your first memory – it will also be your last. You cannot help but let things into your heart, such is your nature. Time and time again, however, they hurt you and leave you to rot. But your heart remains open, and you continue to let more in. Is it kindness, at that point, OR IS IT SACRIFICE?

1.2 WHAT TRAGIC DEATH WOULD YOU SUFFER?

THE BETRAYAL. You die at the hands of the person you love most. Maybe there are tears in their eyes as they drive the sword into your chest, maybe there is none. There are certainly tears in yours. Your mouth will open to ask "WHY" only to spit blood instead. You will die never knowing if they loved you at all, wondering if you could've done something to prevent this, or if it was always going to end this way.

#our dearest and most damnable charlotte #Oh. /Oh./#Honestly I didn't see this one coming - but obviously this quizmaker knows even better than me...#Thinking about Char's deaths and endings... and final ending.#Thinking about how she could technically go on forever and ever... as long as she keeps to her purpose.#Thinking about how then... if she were to meet her end... that would mean that she was willing enough to let someone in that deeply...#That was finally willing to sacrifice eternity for love and a knife in the back. That she likely knows that that someone is going to end he #For Good. And let's them anyways...#What would it take... what would it take...#But also - Char herself being The Void's sacrifice by default. Sent out here to do this admittedly thankless work.#At her own expense and autonomy most of the time!#Answer: it's never kindness - no. A line is always drawn right before kindness when it comes to Char and chaos.#She can be helpful loving loyal protective supportive attentive and even merciful but kind? Truly kind? ...Rarely.

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skhardwarevers1 · 3 months

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spent two hours studying and I’m STILL thinking about Cassie

#For a lot of reasons…like it’s interesting to know that she knew (and was married to!!)the person who kinda fucked up a lot of peoples lives #And also I’m just thinking like how’d they meet #Like Koeia always has been a science girly and I love her for that.#But how’d you end up with like the most superstitious definitely believes in the supernatural paranormal girl to ever exist #(And technically she is justified in believing that since some of it IS true…but some of it isn’t or are misconceptions)#(Which once she does find out more about she thinks is really cool. She would dedicate herself to studying these things I swear)#Like Koeia you literally created Moon and you married someone who believes In horoscopes #(Nothing wrong with that really…I just think they’re kinda stupid if you whole heartedly believe and follow horoscopes and astrology)#(Like you won’t hang out with people because of their signs kinda astrology crazy)#(Cassie is very mild with it like she’s THE girl to go too for that type of stuff cuz she knows a lot but doesn’t follow it like a religion #(Like I said she doesn’t follow anything in specific she just does things)#Anyways I feel like at some point everyone who knew them was like “you’re telling me they’re getting married??? Those two???”#Cuz they’re completely different!!! Like not even beliefs and morals wise personality wise too #Idk it’s crazy to me that like. They worked out so well for so long. Like I wanna say probably around 20 years?#I don’t ever confirm exact ages of my characters ever so I’m just estimating based on an age range I think they are now #And an age range I think they were when they got married #S.K brain dumps

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gideonisms · 1 year

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sometimes it's wild watching 2 people you used to know from within the same group of online friends get radicalized in 2 wildly different directions

#not really sure what to do about it either. i was close with one of these people so i have like. had a conversation with her about it #in fact even back then she would sometimes say some stuff i'd disagree with & i'd push back on it but never to this point u know?#it's to the point where it's really unpleasant for me to be seeing some of this stuff on my dash #but like i care about her! we were friends #i don't want to cut her off bc isolating herself from people with different viewpoints who are still kind to her is probably #how she got there in the first place #and i have pretty extensive experience in being deradicalized from shitty viewpoints. like #i was southern us christian & deeply religious for the first 18 years of my life i know how they get you #the way out of that is meeting friends who aren't enmeshed in the same stuff #but that also feels close to the same old deal of wanting to be an influence in someone's life but not really. actually.#wanting to interact with them #it's just like i will never do evangelism again. idc what it's about. idc if i'm more at peace with my beliefs now. it isn't happening #it's complicated idk #i might just unfollow and stop trying to interact. it just feels bad bc i wish there was something else i could do

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cynocardia · 5 months

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morgan was definitely the kind of kid who would have bragged about how all his teachers think he's a prodigy but he like, grew up

he will correct you on stuff, like if you say a simile is a metaphor, but that's not arrogance that's just autism. he doesn't feel like it's impolite. likewise, sasha can't stand people calling their crutch a cane, because it's not. but because they're such a people pleaser they'll also call it a cane sometimes