#what im saying is that in the meantime

[inkskinned]

i both firmly believe that self-diagnosing saved my life and i think that the way tiktok and instagram have recently been spreading misinformation about mental illness/neurodivergence is incredibly harmful.

people who are looking for answers are already people who are in a vulnerable situation.

much of the misinformation appears logically sound; and is presented as definitive fact (prefaced with claims such as "research shows"). it's imperative we remember correlation does not prove causation. it is incredibly dangerous to make definitive statements like "if X happened in your childhood, you now Z as an adult." real scientists will almost always use may or other less-definitive terms. similarly, equating one behavior/experience with any single condition is also unsafe. many conditions have overlapping symptoms; and many people "mask" their key symptoms, even to themselves.

we cannot discern from a singular data point any conclusion. in official diagnosis, for a behavior/experience to be considered a symptom, it must significantly influence your life. many people enjoy an organized space. that is a preference. disrupting your daily life even at personal cost in order to prioritize organization is more likely a symptom.

again, a single data point is not an effective diagnostic tool. it is necessary and important work to catalogue and consider all unwanted/distressing behaviors in order to understand a complete picture of the person.

i will see creators in paid partnerships make generalized behavioral/emotional claims that apply to a large portion of a community, and then they will suggest that the "solution" to that behavior is through their paid partner/through their personal support. "follow for more psych tips/facts" is an incredibly evil marketing tactic. i very rarely see unpartnered/unbranded content on how to aid/comfort those behaviors and feelings.

much of the misinformation employs a subtle technique (called confirmation bias) of setting up a conclusion before "proving" the conclusion. "you know you have X when you experience A,B, and C." no person's experience of their conditions/behaviors will look exactly the same as another's. while knowing certain things might be a sign/symptom of a condition, it is irresponsible to consider it definitive.

confirmation bias is unfortunately extremely effective on tiktok specifically. the algorithm will notice that you interacted longer with the video that "proves" (through a singular video) that you "have" a condition. it will continue to feed you related videos that further confirm what you believe.

this is dangerous because we are, unfortunately, not good at knowing ourselves. i did not know it was unusual to vividly nightmare every night; i didn't consider it a symptom. i was similarly dismissive also of any other signs of my PTSD - i incorrectly assigned them to anxiety/adhd. on the small scale, this can mean a longer journey to healing. on the larger scale, it can mean people with extremely difficult situations are unable to get the help they need.

please, if you can, and you're looking to self-diagnose: be careful about what you assume about yourself. try to keep an honest journal of what you're thinking/feeling/doing for a few days.

do not go in with an assumption. try to keep an open mind. i think we all "suspect" we have something - but like i said, i completely missed my own PTSD symptoms, because i suspected the ADHD the most, and only "saw" those symptoms.

do your own research. if the tiktok says "research shows", google that research. figure out who paid for that research. do further research related to that study - has it ever been repeated? is it peer reviewed? do other researchers seem to accept it as conclusive?

if you feel you really resonate with the materials of one person's experience with a condition, find other examples. see if you relate to other creators who identify similarly.

and please - please do not stop once you come to a conclusion. i fully believe that the diagnostic process should be seen as a first step, not a destination. by knowing what you might be struggling with, you gain an incredibly powerful tool on how to gain peace with that condition.

if you feel yourself emotionally respond to a tiktok/etc that suggests something that might be true about yourself, i'm glad you had that experience. but it's also important to not relax into the "easy" answer. interrogate it. start googling what else that could mean; what ways you could work on healing that wound.

healing does not "belong" to any one condition. i want you to begin to look into healing no matter if you have "proven" you have a condition or not. it is never selfish to practice responsible self-care. even if you don't relate to having adhd, you are not harming me by using adhd-inspired study tips. it is not making my condition worse for you to seek peace by asking for more time on tests. even if it was - the fault would be with the system, not in your need of something the system makes inaccessible.

remind yourself that everything you experience is real. and because it is real, it is complicated. while things might be related - even sometimes clearly related - a stranger on the internet cannot make that discernment for you. you as a person deserve the work, attention, and care that goes into the process of unravelling the harm that has been done to you.

it makes me very, very upset to see how popular these videos have become, because they're so irresponsible. and they clearly are targeting a vulnerable group. for example, making generalized claims about children of unloving caretakers is targeting those who have experienced neglect. there is no way to use 30 second videos to correctly analyze what that neglect might have caused in your adult life. i'm sorry, but it's snake oil.

i know it is so powerful soothing to recognize that you aren't broken. that others exist like you out there. i want every person looking for answers to find their answer. i want you to feel seen and heard and understood. i want you to find your community.

i just want it to happen safely.

#every time i write this im like #i just want to say a short thing about this #and every time it ends up being 12 pages long #but since it keeps happening #and i keep seeing shit like this... #this isn't even everything i feel about this #i hope this is clear like #what im saying is #NOT ''you don't have it if u selfdiagnose'' #it's instead.... #you might!!! just don't let 1 or 2 videos confirm it!! #also!!! don't assume that symptom A belongs to condition X!! #even as someone who did eventually get diagnosed like #i still find myself being like - oh that's my adhd #only to figure out 12 hours later. nope that was a panic attack #also none of those videos are about how to HELP the behavior #also this doesn't talk about getting a therapist eventually but please get professional help if you can #it took me fucking forever tho #what im saying is that in the meantime #u can heal now #this is too long im posting it on a sunday so nobody reads it

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OOH YEAH BABY! PARTY TIME BABY! MUSIC! DRINKS! SOCIAL PRESSURE & A PSYCHEDELIC BREAK DOWN! WELCOME TO VAMPIRE SOCIETY MOTHERFUCKER! ARE YOU SCARED? DO YOU UNDERSTAND YET? ITS OKAY IF NOT. FIRE DISSOLVED IT! ITS ALL GONE NOW. HAVE FUN!

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #RRAAHH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW SOOO GOODDAMN MUCH!! each o these characters has STOLEN my HEART!!! #LIKE EMIZEEELLL i love emizel so much.. runnin around announcing that HE isa PRINCE while shiloh FINALLY quietly clicks the pieces together #nathan hanover you MADMAN!!! that slow dramatic guitar riff as emizel makes that announcement was so fuckin COOL UGHHHH #MR HANOVER DOES IT AGAIN just creating tracks that absoultely WORM into my MIND and HHEAARRT UUGHHGHH #emizel is so cool and so funny and so adorable UUGHH ill gush abt him more when i finally post my emizel n soda doodle page #ARTHUR FUCKING BENNET. i totally get why grizz has a hard time playing him. hes cool and stoic n its not easy to play a man o little words #BUT BBOOOY DOES HE DO IT WELL!! arthur DOES come off as so stoic n cool & it just makes his lil misfortunes all the more charming #like falling into the red fear or confrontin edward twilight or accidentally doing lsd. I LOVE THATS HES THE BAD LUCK GUY. #okay uhhu uhh i have limited room here what else should i say uhh. THE NPCS. MY GOD THE NPCS. CHARLIE U WONDERFUL MADMAN #edward twilight is SUCH a funny fucking antagonist. and supposedly his magic stuff is super scary?? SO EXCITED TO SEE MORE OF THAT #ill ramble abt mr deacon keller later eheh i have a. uh. a doodle page in the works. so in the meantime DAYBRINGER SOLOMON!! #“HERE COMES THE SUN MOTHERFUCKER!” “ILL SEE YOU IN HELL. NOT. IM GOING TO HEAVEN. BITCH.” like come on now. oh my god. i need him #BIG POWERFUL BEAST AND EVERY WORD HE SAYS HAS ME CRACKING UP. THE MUFFLED VOICE IN THE DARK BROKEN BY “LIGHT!” #TRULY HILARIOUS AND YET TRULY HORRIFYING. I FUCKIN LOVE CHARLIE NPCS SO MUCH. I HOPE WE SEE HIM AGAIN OHH MY GOOOODDD #OKAYokay. im normal now. ill talk abt the piece. if u read my tags this far then u get special secret knowledge abt the artistic process #IM VERY HAPPY WITH MY COLORS! i know they were hallucinating on drugs so i just recalled the times i did drugs & used that as my influence #REMEMBER KIDS! acid is totally fine if ur safe and responsible about it. do acid and then stare at my art for a bit trrruuust me. IT MOVES! #anyway i think thats all my thoughts here. thank you for looking at my art n thanku if ur one o the ppl that says nice things in the tags #U are LITERLY my life blood i pick up each of u n kiss u so sweetly on the head. remember to try acid!!!!

[tomaturtles]

I've beaten Frontiers twice and it's still not enough

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic #koco #sonic frontiers #sth #toma draws #that's saying a lot bc i don't usually replay a whole game so soon. im SO obsessed with this game im rotating it on my mind at all times #i love playing it i love its story+characterization i love its music i love its voice acting i love the foundation it lays for future games #i love the positive reception it's been getting i LOVE what it means for this franchise that means the world to me #thank you sonic team for this fun wonderful delightful experience 😭💖💖 this is THE goty in my heart #here's hoping it wins player's voice!!!! #anyway HI long time no post!! I haven't been drawing a whole lot the past few months between being busy and out of art juice #but it seems to be returning now that frontiers has been marinating in my brain so we'll see 👁 #i Did make a couple traditional oc stuff in the meantime tho. ill try to remember to post those sometime #also i'm glad i can still draw sonic it's been So long

[mxwhore]

mutuals! I must build a portfolio

#ive been thinking about what i want to do after college and i realized that #academia isnt really for me #i dont have the strength of mind really BUT #ive enjoyed tremendously doing figures for my thesis presentation #explaining the infection processes and the metabolic routes affected in a way that isnt mind numbing #and my colleagues say im really good at it too!! #so ive been looking into getting a masters in scientific illustration and its looking really cool!! #i have to work for a few years before i can afford it but in the meantime i can build a pretty sick portfolio... uehehe #idk if you have any tips lmk!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a snapshot of the result of spending a solid hour trying to find/create a suitable joke

#i can't find any really good short ones #like im trying to scribble a laughingstock thing where howdy makes barnaby laugh #but what joke do you tell a comedian who's ~heard it all~ #like in my mind it is Really difficult to make barnaby legit laugh #but what joke... what (short) joke indeed... #THE BEACON OF AMON DIN IS LIT aka guys 🥺 can i get some suggestions 🥺 team effort moment Mayhaps #i have read so many 'article' joke compilations and reddit threads and joke sites #agh. none of them Fit #absolutely unprompted #blinking at my computer screen with giant oversized i mean Garishly Horrific sparkly anime eyelashes #yall are so smart and so funny i know at least one of you has the perfect one. #an absolute banger yk yk #something howdy would say to get barns to laugh his ass off #in the meantime im gonna make lunch bc ive once again forgotten that food is a thing that exists #if there are no suggestions when i come back.... well nothing will happen but those brackets are Staying In The Mini Comic Thing

[pojebalo]

how are we feeling käärijä nation personally im losing my mind

#käärijä #now i just need to wait for the translation of what he was saying between songs. in the meantime i will be rewatching this show until my #eyes bleed #and the CROWD. im genuinely genuinely losing my mind

[orcelito]

minor details, but in chapter 68 of trimax we do see this bit:

the items that vash kept in his coat.

a "funbari doll" (which i cant find anything definite online about what that is with just a cursory look, so im going to run under the assumption that theyre some kind of collectable in-universe) & it's a red one, which is apparently rare. he still has the same pen radio that connects to his earring that's used waaay back on the sandsteamer. a swiss army knife, a random key, a used tissue (?), and...

a lighter? blow torch? i still cant tell what that last bar thing is tho. & i guess he had some kind of (normal) coin too? but Only One.

love the characterization implications for this lol. definitely the kind of pocket contents i'd expect from a silly immortal with a big coat

#speculation nation #fanny reads trigun #fanny's trigun analysis #trigun #just. hm. for Fic Purposes this is pretty useful. #it's cute that he has the doll. very vash. #overall tho it's very utility-driven. swiss army knive + blow torch. Yeah those would be useful to just have. #gotta wonder what that key is to. maybe i'll keep my eyes peeled in my official reread to see if it's mentioned. #otherwise i might have to just accept it as an unknown. & perhaps make smth up for Fic Purposes lol #he got the pen back from Kaite. which is a very interesting detail. not exactly useful for my fic bc he does not have that pen anymore lol #unsure if the coin is currency or some other thing. if it Is currency then lmfao @ vash being flat broke before all of this. #but THEN AGAIN early on he does say a lot of money gets in his way traveling east to west (i think it was) so What's The Truth Vash? #anyways im still looking for a new icon. got a few possibilities but im still undecided. #in the meantime U guys can have this lol. im fascinated by all the little details that are put in like this. #i really do love that he carries a swiss army knife & a blow torch. would they still call it a swiss army knife? #he does refer to the french language so obvs he knows about old earth stuff. for ease's sake id probably just call it a swiss army knife lo #bc yes now that i know he carries a swiss army knife it will Possibly come up in my fic. this is a tool i can use for my Purposes heheh

[gh-woah-st-v1]

girl why does coding have to make absolutely no fucking sense

#i wish i was still learning python #i see the stupid ass coffee mug of java and start seething with rage #love it when i work out how to do an assignment though its like a little bit of confetti goes off in my brain #but in the meantime? #i want to abolish java #and i cant even say that computers should be smart enough to understand what im wanting them to do by now #because you know how computers become that smart? #FUCKING CODING THEM TO BE #how tf do i tag this now #computer science #java #python #ap cs #(which lowkey i should drop out of) #(not really but sometimes it can be tempting) #comp sci #coding #ap comp sci

[jutsuuu]

shinkami..save me…

shinkami

save me shinkami…

#somebody #come tell me what you like about them. im trying to respark enough passion to finish my fic #someone commented the other day that they love it even though it’s been almost a year since I updated #I feel so bad… that bitch was meant to be finished by now #i have the rest of it planned out but I need that je ne sais quoi to actually write the words #I would just use the shinkami tag but there’s so many pornbots I truly don’t have the energy for that #maybe I need to read TML again. or is that a separate urge because I miss it #I’m gonna schedule this for when people are awake to maybe answer and go read that in the meantime. save me Oregon girls…

[taakosleftshoe]

Here is why the McElroys should consider hiring me if they were ever to adapt Ethersea:

I love Ethersea a lot. Like I'm crazy about it. I'm actively making tables on the wiki and going back and doing episode summaries. I take really detailed notes (I had 22 pages from just the five prologue set ups). I keep track of shit. I have a compilation of all the transcripts in one pdf open at all times.

I have a Vision. The framing, the pacing, the composition, what to keep or cut or add onto, design details. All of it.

While I would not even dare to shoot for the position of illustrator on this ambitious a project (in which I have no professional training so I would be shit at formatting), I do have a creative background in illustration, which would prove useful when communicating with the artist.

I know people! I am your eyes and ears within the Ethersea community. You need a heads up on how something would be received -- well, I've seen how it might! Character choices that matter, relationships that people want to see expanded on, the favorite goofs-- I know them! Your favorite artists who draw scenes from Ethersea? I follow them, I talk to some of them. One of them is my Dungeon Master!! You want to see concepts for this setting? Oh I know a guy! I am like an eel weaving between rocks, you cannot stop me. I find every ethersea post eventually.

I have a diverse array of interests and skills. I may not be a marine biologist but I would drive down to Monterey to talk to one. You need an analytical look at the narrative, to pull apart its themes? Let me just... move this AP Literature score of 5 out of the way so I can start telling you why Ethersea is an incredible piece of fiction with compelling characters and a world that is alive, and how it can function as an allegory to our own relationship with our world. You need someone to do meticulous copy edits? I already have a style guide open in another tab-- being the editor for yearbook trained me for this. I do not only succeed in the technical writing department, but I also have a deep love for science, especially the natural world. My proximity to the pacific ocean means learning a lot about marine ecology even just in passing, and I really love chasing that curiosity.

I have a lot of thoughts about brinarr and their designs. I began working on a speculative biology project about Brinarr but have yet to return to it-- but I learned a Lot about corals and other marine species in that time. I worked on this at the same time as I was taking an anatomy and physiology class (which I have kept my notes from for future reference), and combining these two understandings into one has been one of the more difficult but rewarding creative tasks I've pursued. Because of my variety and versatility of skills and interests, bringing multiple things together to create something new is something I enjoy and comes easily to me.

I am an excellent note taker! I take notes by my very nature. Twice I went to a college tour with a notepad and pen only to find I was alone in that. I have 44 pages of notes from D&D when we only had 5 sessions. I had an organized document for APUSH that was dreadfully long but extremely navigable. I keep my documents in folders. I keep my PLAYLISTS in folders. You will absolutely be able to find the correct document that you're looking for.

I may not have any degrees, or expertise in publishing, but I do have an intense passion for Ethersea and strong motivation to learn and adapt. While this is an absolutely futile endeavor on my end, I am shouting it into the void in the hopes that it is heard.

#sierra speaks #taz ethersea #the adventure zone #who am i what am i doing #i didnt mean for it to become this #i do just think they should hire me to talk with clint and co about ethersea! and how to translate it to a visual medium! goddamnit! #in the meantime back to the wiki life #this was also not meant to be super brag heavy but that did happen. that is a side effect of listing your credentials #anyways this is like in an extremely normal way i must say. mhm #the five in AP lit is not because im some pinacle of a student it is because i am that dude in front of the red strings waving his hands

[giverofempathy]

besties i'm in a Situation and idk what to do

#salisha speaks #lets start by saying that my and my gf broke up #the long distance shit was just Not working #i hate hate hate it i miss her but it is what it is #i was lonely and feeling insane so i downloaded a dating app and i was confused abt my sexuality #so i also put it on men and i matched with a guy #and it was like fun and shit but then i got stressed so i told him im a lesbian and he ghosted me #then in the meantime i deleted and redownloaded the dating app bc im just crazy like that x #and then we matched again 😭 and now were talking again #and he explained why he didnt reply and like i get it #but now im just so confused bc like i kind of like him but also i dont and idk if bi or a lesbian and im so SICK OF ITTTT #and all my friends are telling me to drop him bc im like. gay gay 😭 and like yah but also idk #im so CONFUSEDDDD #on the one hand i wanna block him and never think about him again #but then again why dont i just try it out and see what happens... #what do yall think i should do i feel genuinely insane

[oaky-dokey]

it's been over week and my labs haven't come back and i now realize i might literally run out of goop before i know if i can change my dose. especially when they close for christmas

#like i guess i should get my refill request in but? #what do i even say #hi your lab people are taking too long and im sure you dont want me to be no hormones mcgee in the meantime right? #but if i have to order goop twice in quick succession my insurance might not be happy

[moonlit-imagines]

eeeeee my new apartment is so cute im so happy

#delete later #im working on unpacking n all that but in the meantime #if ur reading this tell me what ur fave fic of mine is or ask me about an original idea from back in the day #idk i’ll say some cute shit or tell u about it or write something similar im just bored and reading no country for old men and i want to #engage with yall and the blog a little

[soldier-poet-king]

in the saga of fran taking five billion years to finish cr2 because she’s afraid of endings. i watched another portion of the finale today. trent fight over. break reached. im just. too weak for this. i TRULY cannot bear saying goodbye to the m9. im disproportionately inconsolable

#i have been dragging out the finale for LITERALLY TWO YEARS #i have spread out the aeor arc literally that long #IT'S INSANE PERSON BEHAVIOUR #BUT ALSO IF I HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE TO THE M9 IM GOING TO FKIN. #i have grown so much in that time and it's like. saying goodbye to the piece of myself that grew there too #the not...not really hope. but the grim determination #the maybe we are both damned but maybe we can try #of caleb (and essek's) arc. even a traitor may mend. i have known one who did #of molly's leave it better than you found it #of cad. darling dearest cad. and the. one day someone will pray to the gods and you showing up will be the answer #how startling that a silly dnd campaign full of dick jokes somehow reflects this core little part of me #the ethos of what i am trying to do and be and live and exist as #walk gentle and do good and maybe we never forget the weight of my sins and the weight of my doubt and desperation #but in the meantime. roll up the sleeves. there are books to read and things to learn and good to do #franposting

[larnax]

i was gonna make a joke about it but uhhh yeah my dad lost his job. my stepmoms covering our utilities but i no longer have any kind of insurance so all my ongoing medical stuff is either gonna get cut off in a month or is already cut off. including stuff like HRT & sleep meds. so thats bad.

#c.paradisi #i have an appt with my endo tomorrow so we'll see what i can do about the HRT nbut yeahhh uhhhhhhhhhhhh #im trying to get on medicaid off my job but idek if thatll cover my psych meds #i still have an open wound that says my insurance is expired so im not getting Any treatment for that #which is cool bc it probably cant heal without medical intervention so thats just gonna get worse again #YEAH uhhhh this is really super bad. itll be at least a week before i can even figure out how fucked i am #and in the meantime im completely fucked #ill probably be able to keep getting therapy. probably

[post-modern-prometheus]

"you're not the monster" oh boy that line is coming back isnt it

#stranger things #aw wait what if- #no i had an elmike thought that was borderline mlvn i will not say #OKAY NO I WILL #WHAT IF AFTER EL'S LAB TRAUMA N STUFF SHE HAS TO SAVE THE SBPG FROM SMTH/SOMEONE/MILITARY/LAB GUYS #OR AT LEAST MIKE AND LATER SHES LIKE IM THE MONSTER #AND HES LIKE NO YOU SAVED ME AND US AND EVERYONE LOADS OF TIMES #AND THEN WE GET ANOTHER GROUP HUG #where they all pile down first mike then will then jon then finally argyle (in a what will be an mcu humor way where it's haha looks hes hu #gging too) and el's just sobbing bc she's finally freeeeeee but had a real not good time in the meantime #anyway sorry