#what do yall think i should do i feel genuinely insane
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besties i'm in a Situation and idk what to do
#salisha speaks#lets start by saying that my and my gf broke up#the long distance shit was just Not working#i hate hate hate it i miss her but it is what it is#i was lonely and feeling insane so i downloaded a dating app and i was confused abt my sexuality#so i also put it on men and i matched with a guy#and it was like fun and shit but then i got stressed so i told him im a lesbian and he ghosted me#then in the meantime i deleted and redownloaded the dating app bc im just crazy like that x#and then we matched again 😭 and now were talking again#and he explained why he didnt reply and like i get it#but now im just so confused bc like i kind of like him but also i dont and idk if bi or a lesbian and im so SICK OF ITTTT#and all my friends are telling me to drop him bc im like. gay gay 😭 and like yah but also idk#im so CONFUSEDDDD#on the one hand i wanna block him and never think about him again#but then again why dont i just try it out and see what happens...#what do yall think i should do i feel genuinely insane
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## BOOTHILL x READER ★
🤍 ﹒ HEADCANONS ! ! . .
－ notes ̽ ۪⠀written before his release + gn reader huhu. yall i swear ill get to the lcb requests but im brainrotting too fucking much right now boothill is colonizing my mind so enjoy these thoughts i had and will throw into the tags
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He's a little spoon and NOBODY can convince me otherwise period.
We know damn well hes touch starved. So ofcourse he'd wanna be nuzzled up inbetween your chest and chin
Will teach you how to ride a horse. He definitely has a favourite (his name is Sebastian 🌚🌚)
Very protective over him though. You will not ride on that horse until you are months into the relationship
He gave you another horse to practice riding on and an extra horse incase the other "knocks your socks off" ... Whatever that means
You named them Yee and Haw and he was so conflicted with his emotions that he considered getting a routine check up on his body
Will tease you if you completely fuck up immediately.
He grabs your hands to gesture on things you should be wary about while being on the back of a horse, knowing it'll mess your brain up and lead you to not pay attention to a single thing coming out of his mouth
On the other hand if you're able to handle it in a short amount of time, he'll start flirting with you
"I'm doing it, Boo!" "Nice work, honeybunch. Think ya can manage ridin' somethin' else?" "Dude"
It's one or the other. You will not escape the Boothill down bad programm
Boothill also acts like a himbo to mess around with you.
On another note, you called him Bootyhill once and he's still shook up. Whether /pos or /neg is up to interpretation
While we're on the topic of nick/pet names, he calls you things you've never heard of before .
Or even if you did, they're things you expected never to be called 😭
What the fuck is a doodlebug Boothill
Type of man to get flustered when you flirt back. He just starts bugging out
Will play it cool though, but the faint blue on his cheeks says otherwise
Also a fan of headpats. No, he's not ashamed. No, he will not tell you.
Expanding on the no shame, Boothill takes it to the extreme
No filter, no mask, no nothing. Touchy EVERYWHERE you go
Even if he can't really feel it, he just feels more at ease when you both are near eachother or touch one another. Man wants to protect his partner, after all
It dosen't matter if you're able to protect yourself, the gesture just makes him feel more comfortable and calm
Also has a hair pulling kink woah. Let's keep it sfw everybody
Forehead kisses ❤️ or just kisses anywhere on his head in general. Kiss behind his ears and he will overheat
He let's you play with his hair<3 It's one of his favourite passtimes with you
Braid it, tie it in a ponytail, give him buns, pigtails, curl them, decorate them with hairpins, clip bows in his strands it don't matter PLAY WITH HIS HAIR ⁉️
He relaxes SO MUCH it's insane. Genuinely just one finger goes into that hair of his and he melts
This plays into the little spoon factor
You'd tease him about it but he takes pride in it 😭
Has a weird obsession with biting. If you complain that it hurts he goes "What, want me to smooch the pain away?" and he does this fuckass face :3 while you're just staring at him dead in the eye (you say yes btw)
If you're ticklish, he's hell for you
Tickles you in the most random times possible.
And you know it's even WORSE with those cold ass metalic hands
You're cuddling? The sides of your torso are not safe. You're currently occupied with an activity involving your hands? Your armpits are not safe either. He's laying on your bare stomache face down? He starts blowing raspberries.
You know damn well he uses the feathers of his hat 😭
Sticks it up your nose to make you sneeze too. Usually to wake you up or some shit
You could have the most volcano eruption alert level 5 sneeze and he'd still say "Aww, ya sneeze like a kitten!"
One last note this man is a whiney loser bottom not sorry
the word ill is in boothill for a reason the way im laying in bed all sweaty ANYway 🌚😵😵😵😵
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#boothill x reader#bruh#i feel so insane#and normal#normaling#ok wer e done. im out. goodbye hsr community thisll be my only contribution#proof reading and looking at the eidolon i used for the header why nobody draw him with those glasses yet🧐🧐
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2023 creative year in review! 💦💦
The most stand-out thing to mention was this was arguably my most active and productive cosplay year...maybe ever? its incredibly uncommon that I can handmake 9 costumes in a year, but on top of that, 7 of the 9 were also custom designs, which is pretty wild.
costume-wise, i learned a stupid amount of skills and really pushed what i was comfortable with. IMO the best from the year are the collector, knives, pupet, and nekomancer at least just from a craftsmanship perspective. I try not to brag or be an ass, but I am genuinely very proud of those. they posed fun creative challenges that kept me engaged, and I'm happy with how they turned out!
the other side of the coin is although last year was my most dormant cosplay year, other crafts were super active....and the reverse happened this year _(:3」∠)_ i didnt really draw much at all other than making cosplay designs, and other physical media didnt get much time to shine either. I made some plushies, but they were lackluster, and I think I made maybe one unfinished figure lol. but I did try BJD making and loved it!! I made 4 this year and have plans to do more haha.
thats the upbeat overview, the readmore is going to be a more negative perspective so proceed with caution haha.
More than anything I wish i had more time to do art and build up Stitch in The Ditch/more OC work, but honestly this year was also objectively insane in the non-creative front. like i hit the worst patch of chronic pain i've ever had/found out my abdominals have been ripping themselves apart and bleeding for the past 10 years lol/had to go to the hospital like THREE!!!! goddamn times and now i'm dealing with the news i'm going to need abdominal surgery, got a teaching promotion/award, got my physics masters, utterly INSANE family happenings, had gastroparesis for 2 months and couldnt eat more than 200 cal a day in that time which caused all my blood levels to crash and i'm still reeling from it, and of course, have just been Cashually working goddamn 60-80 hours a week in an experimental physics lab in the background during all of this which is driving me to the point of madness- suffice to say i hit my limit like months ago lmao.
like looking back i know i should be happy and proud i did so much but i cant help but feel disappointed and wishing i had done better quality stuff. honestly, i know i goof about how hard work is, but its really really getting to me. i've always been happy with my ability to juggle so many things and preserve my ability to have a cool job, make cool things, and independently take care of myself, but work is month-by-month morphing into more of a monster thats just been suffocating everything else out. I really dont know what next year will look like, as i've been wearing thinner and thinner i'm noticing a trend where I just dont have the energy that I used to to do anything outside of my job.
I bring this up because on paper I should be happy with what I made, but I still feel like im in a stand-still. I made a lot of costumes, but tbh they were low quality/lackluster. like the number went up, but the quality didnt and I couldnt do much of any other art things. I couldve, and shoulve, been able to make much better work this year than I did, but it didnt happen as a combo of being snuffed out by my job physically and mentally.
in 2023 I got a head start/built up momentum from the beginning of the year that carried me through when things got insane in spring/summer/currently, but I'm already starting 2024 from a low point. yall. im so tired. im so goddamn tired. like its funny to goof about how much I do but its catching up fast and i think this is going to be the year when I just cant keep up anymore. Its hard to talk about since the "being crushed to death by your job" topic isnt one people want to engage with, and unless you're experiencing it first hand its hard to understand what living like that really means.
for 2024, i know theres no way I will be able to match this same number of costumes, but my goal is no matter what I want to start making things that are more solid on a construction level. fewer projects, more polish. also doing more non-cosplay stuff like world building and dolls would also be awesome. will that happen??? lord only knows. honestly usually these predictions/goals go haywire but this is also more of a response to external things outside of my control so ???? ??????? we'll see lads
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Y'all the Instagram kdrama fans are so insane and so are some of you on here cuz like wdym Namsoon is worse than Ryu Si-o. I GET IT YALL LOVE A HOT VILLAIN YOU THINK HE HAD A SAD PAST YOU THINK HE SHOULDVE BEEN WITH NAM SOON. But be so fr. He's hurt her brother, her mother, her friends and lots of people both directly or indirectly. Innocent people. He does this with pleasure. Why would she like him no matter how well he treats her? That's literally everything she goes against as a person. What do you mean Namsoon now deserves to die or lose cuz she's a bad person😭😭😭. She knew he was bad and that he needed to be stopped. That's all there is to it. The actor plays this character well if he's likable to you but yall have zero character analysis skills or anything beyond a one dimensional surface level understanding of what a person should be if your justification for the big bad guy to win is "He's hot and he had genuine feelings for her." How will a tumblr person ever eat the rich and powerful when the tumblr person folds the second the rich and powerful are attractive😭😭😭. Keep your "I can fix him" a little more wrapped up babe cuz some of you are a little too serious about it.
Don't even get me started on how yall treat the actor playing the male lead. You don't have to like him, or the main couple but Jesus the way some of you treat him😭😭😭. Also like "Ryu Si-O should date Namsoon instead of Gang Hee-Sik" LET THE GIRLY DECIDE HER TYPE THAT BOY WITH THE SOFT SMILE AND ACTUALLY GOOD HEART IS HER TYPE.
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who's lila yammerings (i should be asleep
thinking about Who's Lila again and i really do love how the three layers of the mystery as broken down by Flaw Peacock includes kindof commentary to the "all interpretations are equally valid/correct" writing copout that isn't just the opposite statement or a rebuke of it, but also something that ties it all in with the rest of the game's infohazard/memetic properties themes. like yes, broke = all interps are valid + woke = there IS a correct answer as this is a mystery, but also bespoke = the correct interpretation comes from the unconscious mind of all people, a zeitgeist, et cetera.
it can be equally as much of a copout- because break it down, what tf does that imply? that the interpretation that takes us at large is the most correct? so the most popular theories, and that the most widely accepted aspects of the game, are what is true? whichever red herring that turns out to be when it is handed to the public? it can totally be a copout. not for lack of effort or intelligence or artistry, as FP's video is nearly 8 hours for a reason, but also it can be copout. a REALLY COOL copout though. i can't picture of any other story that i know that does this, nor could i think of a better story to do it.
because it's all about the cultural zeitgeist and memetic properties. beliefs and feelings and ideas and superstitions that trend. Lila is the mystery but she is also a demon, she is also a trauma, she is also a metaphor, she is also a delusion, she is all of these things, but above all else she is what YOU hear she is. the most popular, most widely accepted interpretations are what get shared, and spread the furthest. unrelated people hear about it, maybe give these opinions the time of day for a quick read, and Lila has fully cemented herself in those people's brains as that interpretation, even if alllll that information they just took in winds up being dead noise that the brain scraps entirely with time. she WAS there, however fleeting, as is her abiding by her, or the, laws of memetics
and to me, this is the interpretation. but that doesn't change how people at large are viewing her and i certainly wouldn't know better as i haven't bothered looking into it. idk yall im not gonna ask. regardless she is whatever we first thought she was, and unless you dig deeper and find out more, she's infected you thus. just like how the Dada Dog was originally just some guy's silly drawing, but evolved into an alt-right symbol of actual genuine murderers. somebody took the Dada Dog and maybe unintentionally recontexutalised it when putting it next to their personal dangerous rhetoric, and their ilk ate it up like flies to the point that there was nothing left of the Dog but the picked clean, bare bones of its lineart and sombre expression
my best guess are that there are three layers to the current zeitgeist of Lila as well. 1. the unknowing crowd, who have maybe seen a few pictures at most and maybe a little bit of the game, assuming she's a trauma metaphor characterised as a paranormal thing possessing dear William. 2. the initiated, knowing a little more and who may lean towards her being a demon taking advantage of kids with issues. and 3. whoever was insane enough to dig this deep and grasp that she is exactly what we think she is
Conclusion: Poor William
#ikildaman shut the fuck up#who's lila#infohazard#unreality#i dont know if this needs any more tags but the game is very egodeathy mindfucky by design#if people are freakt out by allat stay away from that game and probably this post as well#i say that last paragraph as someone who has REWATCHED flaw peacock's WL video multiple times#and i get a better grasp of what Lila is each time#not bc im studying it or am a megafan of WL either i just really REALLY like this video idk. idk dont look at me#also yeah i know william is just as much of a killer as he is not a killer but idc. im on his side#he did not deserve none of that none of those kids deserved that#justice for william. justice for wheeliam#i should draw them all alive and happy and as friends and it will be just as canon and real to me as everything else
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Sometimes I think about my Starlight Express song opinions so here they are:
(PLEASE NOTE THAT I AM AMERICAN SO I CAN ONLY WORK WITH SO MUCH)
Rolling Stock makes me feel manly- something about it makes me wanna pump some fucking iron
Call Me Rusty is adorable and is a better introduction to Rusty than Crazy. Call Me Rusty points out his stubbornness and willpower to win, while also showing that the coaches show genuine concern to his condition and don't just go "man this kid is fuckin insane"
If you think I Got Me is "too empowering," You're weird. I understand thinking it's a little odd for setting up Dinah's character, but there's a difference between that and "oh the women are too independent." I think my biggest problem with I Got Me is that there are not coach intros.
I like Lotta Locomotion for what its worth. It's just a cute lil intro song
Whole Lotta Locomotion- wheeeew- it's certainly... a song! It tries so hard to be girlboss-y but fails lyricwise and makes them even more dependent on men- but Im not gonna lie and say I hate it because Jesus it's catchy-
FREIGHT IS GOOD, YALL ARE JUST MEAN- I specifically like the one version from London 1992 where the coaches ARE BRUTAL FOR NO REASON- Also, versions without CB suck ass
AC/DC is at its best when Electra is an over-the-top diva and the components MUST eat it up.
Pumping Iron makes me feel so ungodly feminine (I wonder which part I sing) AND I LOVE IT. I LOVE FEELING FEMININE. I especially love when Greaseball is super snarky and flirtatious.
He'll Whistle At Me puts me to sleep. Make Up My Heart is beautiful. He Whistled At Me is terrible narrative-wise but MAN OH MAN DOES IT MAKE ME FEEL GIRLY
Coda of Freight is REALLY REALLY GOOD????
There's Me is adorbs and I. MISS. IT.
Poppa's Blues is a banger, yall are just haters. Also, hot take, but Poppa should NEVER be white.
Belle may not have much of a purpose in terms of the story, but jeez, her voice is beautiful. I love Belle so much.
I am a Rap enthusiast, so I have to give you my opinions on all of them. Hey You is a classic and it was my first Rap. It sounds so silly and Electra makes me giggle every time. Check It Out is so stupid but WOW IS ELECTRA GAY- I love the beat too. What Time Is It is so extremely CAMPY but I have a soft spot for it- The only version of Own It, Nail it that I have is the 2017 London workshop, and that one was almost a carbon copy of Check It Out. BORING.
UNCOUPLED is always such a sweet song. I HAVE A GRIPE WITH PEOPLE WHO MAKE DINAH SO MF SOUTHERN. Like, I get it, but don't give her a HUGE accent. See Jane Krakowski.
Girls Rolling Stock makes me feel so girlboss.
CB (or Wide Smile) is a mf bop and a masterpiece
Right Place, Right Time makes me jam out hard
The beginning of He Whistled At Me Reprise makes me so sad- DUSTIN QUIT CRYIN BOY!
Dinahs Disco is so slay and Electra is such a prissy princess-
"CB! CB! YOU GOTTA HELP ME IN THE FINAL SEEECTIOOOON"
One Rock N Roll Too Many makes me lowkey sad- but my god is it funny-
Only He is a masterpiece. BUT... NEXT TIME YOU FALL IN LOOOOOOOVE IT BETTER BE WITH ME THE WAY IT USED TO BE BACK THEN WAS WHEN WE TOUCHED THE STARLIIIIGHT-
Next Time You Fall In Love makes no sense to me lyric-wise but the song slaps
"I love it when romance occurs on the railroad"
The Megamix my beloved
So, tell me what you think! Do you agree? Disagree?
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Multiple hot takes in this one:
I think people who keep up with wags are weird especially those who make fan pages and defend them like they know them especially for the wags who literally never interact with people so you don’t even know their personalities. I think it’s also weird when you see a photo of a driver with their partner ie Oscar and lily and people go oh she’s Barbie and he’s there I guess like you can compliment her but putting down a person to compliment another is crazy to me. It’s just icky because if someone said that to my partner or about them I’d be upset. It’s just weird 😰 obviously there are exceptions for if they’re in their own field and you genuinely like their work then that’s okay. Like Alex’s gf lily who’s a pro golfer, but only liking their stuff when it’s attached to said driver and them being a wag is the weird bit.
Speaking of Oscar, this is more Charles fans, I love Charles a lot but those Charles fans who come out of the woodwork to use Oscar to put lando down is insane. Lando will have a bad stop and Oscar will do a good thing and I just see all these Charles fans saying Oscar finally showing lando he’s washed or I bet landos pissed Oscar won before him, which has been proven wrong on many occasions he’s proud of Oscar and does everything to bring it up knowing Oscar won’t really brag about it . Like you guys should be more worried about what war Ferrari is brewing over there instead of trying to make it seem like lando and Oscar hate eachother.
Which brings me to my third take, I love c2 content it’s great but people who are deluding themselves into thinking they’re besties is crazy. It’s okay they can just be teammates no one’s gonna die. I feel like people use the excuse oh well would you laugh with someone you hated? Uh yes especially if I have to work with them, you can also have good times with someone you don’t like. Plus they get paid for this so obviously theyre gonna laugh and do whatever to secure their seats. I’m not saying they hate eachother either I’m just saying they’re coworkers atleast and at most friends but those type of friends you make in certain classes so it makes time go faster ya know.
Also Carlos needs to muzzle his mother because lord I would not let my family members have twter accounts or social media accounts. The way you could literally lose your seat over something a family member likes is crazy. Like why was she beefing with Ferraris long standing driver you’d think she’d want her son to keep his chair especially since Carlos’ sponsor backing is leaving the team. I’d be all up on twter liking c2 content and even some Charles posts congratulating him on doing good like cmon. Shit talking your competitor isn’t gonna work with Carlos like it did his dad in rallying but that’s neither here nor there
One last thing which might be so controversial but like I gotta say it. Checo hate is ridiculous, Yes he made the woman should be in the kitchen statement but you have to understand that was a long time ago and after that incident he apologized profusely and he even has an organization to help young women in motorsports and always mentions the women who work in motorsports. Yes he shouldn’t have said it in the first place but he has learned and grown and showed that he grew from that. It’s a lot more than some of the current drivers who have said or laughed at jokes at women’s expenses and never apologize. hate him for cheating, like honestly there’s a few drivers I don’t like because of cheating that’s just a moral thing on my end but I think the unnecessary hate is unneeded.
This just came to me while rereading this but also those people who compared Bianca being ableist to lando moaning in stream are mad weird. So obsessed too like yall are missing the whole point of why everyone’s upset just so you can whine about how you don’t like lando like he’s not a 25 year old man who can do what he wants. Lando being silly and horny on stream is not the same as using autism as a derogatory word towards another driver who is doing your dream job ((finishing 27th in your championship while your teammates all finished 1-2-3 is embarrassing) (don’t even get me started on her exploiting her brother))
Anyways just wanted to get that off my chests sorry for the essay 🤞😺
girlie pop this is an ESSAY, and im glad you decided to get it off your chest on my blog fr. though i will say that i do not have it in me to respond to every point to great detail so, sorry.
keeping up with wags -> i've been saying this and i agree. wag obsessed people are fucking weird i could go into heavy detail and i have.
oscar -> i didn't think charles fans were doing that thought it was just people who had a general distaste for lando. i've seen the discourse about how lando is probably hurt/salty/angry but people like to make something out of nothing. theyre bored.
c2 -> my personal take is theyre strictly work friends. like neither of them would go out of their way to try and hangout beyond the track, but they get along fine when they need to. i dont think there are any ill feelings there btjm
carlos's mom -> yeah don't know what to say about this except she's a mom being a mom, and not realizing that her likes are public. can't speak to reyes and her ways, as i've said before i try not to pay too much attention to watch goes on outside of carlos really.
checo hate -> i know it exists but i havent come across it to get into detail. but wild loud hate on any driver i think is fucking ridiculous. like the haters who are loud and proud and harassing the driver?? theyre gross and pathetic.
bianca discourse -> didn't know people were comparing??? girlie idk what side of social media you're on but it sounds like a weird and scary place. and people who are doing that are just trying to find a way to diminish her and validate their burning desire to just hate on her.
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Strade in a Shock Collar Part 2 (BTD Ficlet)
A continuation of the last fic for July ficfest! I double in a day, I hope yall enjoy them both!
Contains: Strade, Gender Neutral MC, MC POV, Lobotomy, Canon typical violence.
It had been a real struggle getting Strade strapped down against the work table he had held you against so many times before. Even woozy from constant jolts of electricity he was a force to be reckoned with.
But now he was down, the thick leather straps you'd ordered the other day strained as he thrashed but held. The shock collar around his neck was a bit tight, you had to admit. Maybe that had something to do with his attitude problem...
But after this, hopefully you could do away with it! You just had to be careful, this was a really tricky procedure... Even trickier if he kept moving like this, shaking his head, screaming insults at you.
"Strade... Do you know why you're down here?" you asked, a simple question. Strade grit his teeth as he stared into your eyes, pools of molten gold smoldering, threatening to burn the flesh off your bones.
"You're fucking insane, you traitorous bitch-" you didn't hold back and slapped him across the face, which only earned you another yell from him. He really didn't respond to pain in a way you'd like.
"It's because you aren't being good... I only did all of this for both of us... I worked so hard..." You could feel tears welling up in your eyes, your face burning as they dripped down your face. Usually Strade loved to see you cry.
It didn't affect him now though, he just continued to glower up at you. He really had changed.
"I tried so hard... I just want us both to be happy you know." You whispered, your voice choked. You needed to control yourself. You reached over to the basement counter and picked up the only tool you'd need for this job.
"I was planning on getting you drunk first you know... But I don't think you earned it." You waved the icepick over his face. Strade looked pissed off still, then confused, then... genuine fear over his face. Seeing his expression contort in such a way caused a shiver to run up your spine. Knowing how much power you held over him... It felt better than sex, it was definitely a feeling you could get addicted too.
"W-Wait, Schatzi" He was bringing out the old nicknames now. "Please... I'll... I'll be good." His voice was shaking, his eyes trained on the pick as it danced in front of his gaze.
"I gave you so many chances to be good before, why should I believe you now?" As much as you wanted to throw the pick aside and dive into his arms, content with his promise... You had to remain strong. Or else you'd appear weak.
"I promise! I won't-NO" he jerked his head to the side as you began to lower the ice pick towards his face. You frowned.
"You promised to be good, Strade. So, Stay. Still." you enunciated the last two words, a command. A command he disobeyed immediately, returning to his thrashing.
You set down the pick, letting out a growl of frustration in spite of yourself. This wasn't going to work. You dug around, finding the last of the leather straps.
Since most of him was already tied down, this proved to be very easy, strapping his head to the table. He still strained, but he was still. Just what you needed.
And he was crying now, as the point of the tool got closer to his eye. Whimpering even, hyperventilating. You didn't respond to these things at all, you needed to concentrate.
As the pick slid under the eye, he let out a howl. It was hard to tell if it was from pain or fear. A trickle of blood came from his eye, and you went to work quickly, swiping the tool from left to right, hoping to god you hadn't gone to far in.
When he stopped begging, his words becoming slurred, you stopped. You flicked the tool of the matter left on it, listening to it splatter against the floor.
"There, that wasn't so bad, was it?" you asked, your voice cheerful again.
"Ungh..." Was the only response. Of course, he would be tired after that. His gaze was on you still, but rather than pools of molten gold, they were more like yellowing dead leaves. You grinned, unstrapping him and immediately laying on top of him. He didn't fight back, you could hug him as much as you wanted now.
"I think things are gonna work out a lot better like this, Strade."
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Hookay oh my god I'm writing this post to put in my drafts so if this ever sees the light of day that means I've had enough of this very stupid argument. Atm I just need a way to get my thoughts and feelings out of me.
This is an insanely stupid thing to say. It's also extremely offensive. Oh and it's wrong.
Because I'm white passing irl, I've done mole work. (Getting into alt right social media groups, getting their info, and passing it along to other people who work to counter them.) It's an extremely exhausting job. But, no, generally, they don't. I can't really think of any video game "nazis" love.
And let's talk about the usage of that word. This is never an okay word to use lightly. Alt right =/= nazi. Nazism is a very specific AND ANTISEMITIC ideology. Someone who's alt right or far right might not necessarily ascribe to nazi philosophy.
If you truly, genuinely think that skyrim is nazi propaganda, then don't play it. Don't play it, don't talk about it, and leave the rest of the fandom alone about it. If you are SO convinced that the stormcloaks are nazis (and to be clear they very much aren't. They aren't even fascist which is another word yall use too lightly), then don't play the game. Otherwise, you are supporting what you perceive to be nazi propaganda.
This is an insane and extreme thing to say. As someone who does activism, real activism, irl, has had encounters with neonazis, and generally has fought these kinds of folk, you can't just use these words lightly. Nazism is a dangerous and inherently violent ideology.
It's also deeply, deeply antisemitic. Reducing the real and awful harm that nazism has done to the same level as You Don't Like A Video Game is disgusting. I happen to be Jewish (by blood, not by faith) as well as a person of color. Not that it should matter, honestly, but whenever this shit comes up people can and do just assume I'm white.
You people are out of your fucking minds. And you need to calm down and stop using extremely serious terms and words for a goddamn eleven year old video game.
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im so curious as someone who has never written fic or really made anything creative in a fandom- how does it feel after you post a fic, especially something huge like iwks?? whats it like to hear the response?????
okay so. honestly its SO fucking insane to me still to this very moment. like???? people are reading something i wrote???? and like analyzing it and asking me questions??? im Gobsmacked. genuinely every time i get a comment on ao3 talking ab how i should get published or anons in my inbox picking up on something SO minute i thought i was gonna be the only person to notice it......... truly it is just so fucking mindblowing. i say it all the time but i really mean it when i say i am just a clown and i am shocked people are buying tickets to the circus. not to mention it makes me so insanely happy bc writing is like. what i wanna do. end of the day, my whole life is creating stories. so when people not only read them but enjoy them??? oh my god. my heart feels so full. i've cried like three times today (/pos!!!!) bc im just so overwhelmed and grateful. (i cry a lot sorry yall <3)
but it also... i think due to the nature of this fandom and the nature of tumblr itself, it also feels like im talking with my friends if that makes sense? like im just some guy and yall are all just some guys and we are hanging out reading something i wrote and throwing forks at the screen. you know? like everyone here is my buddy. every mutual and every anon is a personal friend of mine. its just crazy that we chose to put up MY work on the screen to throw forks at you know. (maybe this is nonsensical i honestly cant tell!)
i know that i'm doing this (writing silly little fics) purely for my own enjoyment (i mean i wrote a catholic school soccer au for crying out loud im lucky ANYONE read it) and that this all, in the grand scheme of things, is such a small thing to get such joy out of. BUT. the reception HAS had a super huge impact on my life regardless, and i love you all so. yeah.
tl;dr: head empty, heart full <3
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In The End
Noble six x reader
Faint sounds of fire crackling filled up the once was mainly empty cave which was now more of a hide away for yn and noble six, until some rescue group is sent or they found a way to leave. Ever since Reach was glassed com signal has been nothing but shit. It was noble sixes first glassing but somewhat the opposite for yn, if you count them bein on alpha nine under bucks Command and witnessing the start of New Mombasa glassing otherwise it could be they're first. After the lost of Rookie it was hard for everyone in alpha nine, eventually after a while the team went separate ways, but once in a while will meet up for a simple dinner. After a good few weeks for yn they eventually became a squad leader themselves for they're own team. Hard at first, settling in as a leader while still recovering from rookies death, it eventually became easy after a while. Awkward in the very beginning but eventually yn came up with a way to slowly break the ice which worked, became close, real close, as a family at that, but In The End, all good things end. While on Reach with Noble Team not only witnessing the deaths of sixes teammates but you're own. Oh the guilt... what a bitch. The flashbacks, everything. Looking over at the 1000 lb spartan who was sitting across from you now next to you, aware of how you're clearly feeling. It was interesting, all Civilians, Higher Command Staff, ODST, ONI even believed in the stereotypical stuff around Spartans being nothing but superhuman,merciless, Killing machines with no emotions, but six has shown otherwise. Despite his past of being a Lone wolf, which noble team managed to help him slowly break the mindset of, has shown how he cares for his own teammates, how close he is with them and how much his teammates death took a drastic impact on him. You knew he was afraid of Loosing you, and you wouldn't blame him. Too much has happened that if you lost either or, the other would more in likely go insane on a full rampage. His silence reminded you of Rookie in a way, how silent he was but put his genuine feelings in actions, funny how he didn't talk much but you both were always found with one another, though six can and will talk, he was still a more of putting his genuine emotions through his actions guy which you didn't mind. Spacing off at the entrance of the cave as you sat there and thought to yourself.. how were y'all gonna leave.. what is going to happen when you do.. what if there's no way to leave.. your mind kept racing slowly making you have a headache before a gloved hand reached and held one of you're's. "You know thinking is good but there should be a limit." He spoke tiredly. You wouldn't blame him, the firefight with back to back waves of Covenant and trying to survive took a drastic impact of energy. "I know.. but" being cut off as he place one of his fingers over your lips to make it clear for you to be quiet. "Shh, here eat this and rest. We can plan something when we have enough energy to go and explore Reach after the glassing for any luck on anything" handing you an MRE before opening one himself, "will do Leiutenant" emphasizing heavily on the Leiutenant before looking at him making yall both laugh, before he shooked his head. "Honestly, the only reason why I'm sane right now is because you're here. Otherwise I would've been gone mentally." He admitted, making you smile at his words, though at other times he could be cheesy, with you he didn't hesitate to talk, not even one bit. "I could say the same" you replied as you looked out the cave entrance, evident is night as you waited for the main entree of the MRE to finish heating up. Maybe In The End not everything is gonna be a giant pill of shit, but you weren't gonna jinx it.. who knows maybe he could taken from you in the blink of your eye, looking at the spartan who was struggling due his gloves you couldn't help but snicker some before offering to help him open a small packet....
Hi there, I'm B-312-MIA! Must say this is my first fanfic in a long while and I'm still learning more about Noble Team due to me being more of an ODST halo person. I hope yall enjoy this little one shot we can call it I suppose. But do if you ever have a suggestion I should write please share, I don't mind writing anything though smut would take a bit longer due to me not writing those much. But I won't waste any more of y'alls time and let y'all have at it. :))
#halo reach x reader#halo reach noble six#noble six x reader#noble team x reader#six x reader#spartan b312 x reader#spartan-b312#noble six#halo x reader#halo reach#halo spartan#halo#noble team#fanfic
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for sleepover saturday (time isn’t real) 4, 5, 9, and for florence 22, 25, and 30 🥰🥰
time isnt real!!! its nearly saturday again so lets just pretend this is sleepover saturday!!!
4. What's your favorite part of DMing?
i find it all so incredibly enjoyable but i think the best part is making things that are so Targeted for pcs / players and then they go crazy over it <333 like wow i get to be telling stories that are specifically for my friends!!!! and like yalls level of investment has been sooooo rewarding it makes me more emo & feel more loved than i can say <333 ive been a creative all my life but nothing has felt as good to make as lost township
5. Do you have a favorite NPC? Or type of NPC?
evil question ,,,, and like genuinely i really enjoy most of the npcs. like i find something to like or be interested in with all of them or else why would i hand them off to yall. ive definitely spent the most time with lizzie just bc of player engagement (yall know who you are)(she did not even have a character sheet in arc 1) but i think its unfortunately obvious my favorite archetype is dyke paladin with religious trauma and many things wrong with her. and i wont apologize for that.
9. What's your favorite thing your players do?
interact with the world and the plot in ways that are less about moving the plot forward and more about really inhabiting the characters. like arc 1 was very much a contained murder mystery and i think yall still did a great job with yalls characters but were very focused on Solving The Plot and i feel like in arc 2 yall have really stretched your wings and let your characters loose in a way thats just so so fun. has it taken forever to get to plot reveals Yes but its so worth it when yalls little guys are just being insane on screen for hours at a time
for florence:
22. How do they feel about the rest of the party?
ough,,,
cass: so intimidated. but also curious? quiet middle aged woman with some sort of strange foreign magic florence doesnt recognize and i think florence Wants to talk to her but will not approach first. shes clearly going through something but has mostly been keeping to herself and florence is not gonna be the one to break that
divine: she wants to be in divines good graces so bad,,, shes a wittle scared of divine but in the like. outcast girl vs popular cheerleader type of way and she definitely thinks of divine as the leader of the group. as wolf vs deer shes trying really hard not to scare divine but is maybe showing her belly a little too much. she thinks that if divine doesnt like her the rest of the party will follow suit. just feels kind of dumb and tongue tied around her
onion: shes so fuckin scared to talk to onion now. she already just really didnt know what the vibe was and then found out onion was fey and was like cool fairies are real i guess and then onion went into the First flashback and she snapped him out of it and onion immediately changed the subject to talk to her about lizzie and let her know lizzie is okay which she appreciated but is feeling very mixed up about, especially rolling so high on onion to get ,,,, A Vibe with onionlizzie. AND THEN THE SECOND FLASHBACK HAPPENED BECAUSE SHE WAS TRYING TO BE NICE TO HIM and now onion seems Unhappy and is Booking It and florence is like okay !! i fucked up !! dunno what to do now !! so shes probably just not gonna try to talk to them again unless they approach her first and she has a very clear direction for how the conversation should go. she feels sooooo bad but is also. Worried. not a good thing to get triggered by babyboy!!
tenny: she has no fucking idea how to feel about tenny. she knows tenny isnt human and tenny seems to have some sort of connection to animals / monsters and she knows tenny was being held captive in the blasting company so theres clearly Something going on there. but tenny is really keeping to her little squad and i think again its like. florence will talk to her if tenny approaches her first but shes not going to make first contact because her role in this group feels so tenuous already
will: shes autism imprinted on him. i think will is the only one in the group she actually just feels comfortable around and shes wondering why he's so different from oliver. she had definitely heard of him before while in silvermoon and then actually meets him and hes just very kind and caring and reassuring and shes definitely going to stick as close by him as she can. shes nervous or unsure or intimidated by everyone else there but will tried to calm and reassure her after she triggered onion and seems to be the person trying to take care of everyone on the trip. dog bonded to that sad old man. shes also hoping that if shes good with will maybe oliver will be less scary at her
25. Do they believe in love?
fucked up question. i think she thinks that love is duty & work & effort & loyalty and that its not meant to be easy or always fair but you just stick it out anyway and put more elbow grease in until it works. i think shes very used to being the one putting more of the work into relationships and does not necessarily see that pattern or that its a problem. shes dated and shes had flings but shes never had romantic love and she does not think its in the cards for her. she has her sisters back and she thinks she just needs to be grateful for that and not ask for more
30. What are their thoughts on justice?
interesting ... i think florence thinks justice is like. a nice ideal to keep in your head when youre making decisions but ultimately not a force thats like. Real. in the world. shes seen too many bad people be celebrated and too many innocent people suffer to think that justice is something that actually has any power in the world. the wolf pack is much more about Balance than any sort of actual goodness or fairness so even her temple never really purported itself as having justice as an ideal. the closest to that in wolfsden is sidewinder and florence has seen firsthand that his domain is not really enforced in any way
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5- New chapter, same old story
Completed, 30 chapters, “Grey” Fezco O’Neill x black fem reader
You expected the morning after McKay's party to be much more awkward. There were so many factors that should have made it that way, but no, instead it was oddly calm. You were woken up by the smell of breakfast being made in the kitchen and the sound of Ashtray’s light snoring beside you. A small smile grows on your face at the sight of the happily sleeping boy. Being one of the few people who could or even would ever see him in this softer light reminded you of how long you’d known him.
Most, practically all of his life. Still remembering the day you went to Fezco’s house after school and found him on the way to the bathroom. It was before you knew what he and his grandmother really did for a living, before she passed. And before, you and Fezco were open about your romantic feelings. It felt like ages ago, mostly because it was, but still it was insane to think about how so much had changed in just a few years.
Being forced out of bed by hunger, you made your way to the kitchen to find Fezco finishing up his cooking. The table was set with three plates, three cups and a knife and fork for each. Not wanting to sneak up on him, you took a seat at the table and waited for him to be done. Unaware that he was being watched, Fezco hummed along to a song playing in his mind as he scrambled the eggs.
You wondered how long you could stay like this, quietly watching Fezco, so out of his element. So familiar and so different at the same time. A twinge of guilt hits you, knowing that this sweet moment wouldn't last long. Soon it would be crushed by the heavy weight of the conversation. A necessary conversation, of course, but heavy nonetheless.
“Good morning.” A just woken up, Ash tells you before giving you a quick side hug.
“Good morning.” You tell him fully, taking in his embrace.
“Oh shit, yall coulda told me yall was up. Eggs are just about done.”
“Bout time we got some real food in here.” Ash complaints, taking the set across from you. Leaving the one next to you open for Fezco. “Tired of eating cereal.”
“All you ever eat is cereal.”
“Because it's all we ever have. Thank god you came over, so he had some reason to feed me something good.”
The guilt returns for a second at the thought or, well, reality of Fezco only cooking breakfast because of you. Quickly, you push it away and laugh off Ashtray’s comment. The three of you eat breakfast in silence, no one feeling the need to speak and fill the empty space. Instead, the three of you rather just enjoy each other being there. When everyone is done eating, Fezco collects the plates and takes them to the sink.
“You staying the whole day?” Ashtray asks genuinely.
“Nah, I gotta get some stuff ready for school.” He frowns at your answer and gets up from the table to go to his room. “But.” He stops. “I was thinking that we could go do something.”
It's a vague response not promise, but a strong possibility. Ash accepts it with a small smile and nod. He leaves the room and Fezco returns to the table, and it's almost impossible to not notice, feel the shift in the atmosphere. He starts to speak, and truthfully you weren't really listening, more so hearing him and taking it in.
Putting all the scattered pieces you'd collected in your mind together with everything he was saying. Fezco knew Rue was interested in drugs, that's why he smoked with her and Lexi. To make sure if she was doing anything, she was doing it in safety. This you knew, but him selling her pills you always suspected but now knew for sure.
“I knew bout Rue thing for a lil bit, but I ain't think it was a real problem ya know. Just a kid trying something new, but after a while it was getting too much.” Struggling to keep his voice even, he gives you a moment to internalize. “I thought if we kept dating and Rue and I kept being friends, she was only gon get worse. It wasn't my business to tell, so I ain't tell you and just stopped talkin’ to you.” He pauses and regains control of his emotion.“I’m sorry.”
It was an odd relief, having the answers you were once desperate for. You could see partially where Fezco was coming from, but he definitely could have done things differently. Ultimately, him distancing himself from you and Rue didn't stop her addiction and eventual overdose.
You came home with a sense of hope you hadn't had in a long time. Not just for you and Fezco or even you and Ash, but for you and Rue. This of course didn't last very long because the next time you went to Fezco’s house you and your sister very caught in the middle of a hostile drug deal. You had no way of knowing if Rue took the drugs from Mouse by choice, but in your delirious state you could still tell that she was enjoying being high far more than you were. Regardless of the situation, the two of you were just in. It made you wonder how committed Rue really was to her sobriety and how willing she was to accept danger if it meant she could be high.
Next chapter ;)
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Silvio chapter 14-15
THEY ARE FINALLY CAUGHT UP WITH THE PLOT INSTEAD OF 10 STEPS BEHIND thanks chev, for bringing us up to plot but also, what the hell do you mean the king of benitoite AND THE OBSIDIAN EMPEROR is gonna be involved in this??? *cold sweats*
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 RIO I LOVE YOU AND WE'RE GONNA, GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER
FUXK OFF
HOW FUCKING DARE YOU KIDNAP MY MAN
Oh but at least MC knows they're brothers now but silvio got some kinda reason to not tell him anything about himself. It might even be one we already know but i forgot cuz I've obviously haven't been paying attention to the right things... I've been paying attention to the.... Pretty things instead. 👀
There's only ONE revolting creep around here and I'm looking at him.
....
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Oh my god did he just make me defend Chev?????
Also he tells me never to talk alone with gilbert again cuz I suck at lying, which is true, fine, i can't say otherwise. That would be the smart thing to do (good thing I'm either stupid or insane)
Hm... I think could chug on that cool aid, if i didn't get MORE of a kick out of surprising him.
Oh no darling, mc, you didn't underestimate gil exactly! He was always gonna be worse than you can possibly imagine!! So of course trying to imagine it was pretty pointless! (Says woman with a unique tag for my gilbert overthinking and theories)
"In a way that's worse than solving things with violence"
It is?.... Oh shit yeah, that's right it is... BAD. very bad. Very bad for us....But i don't think I could say it's WORSE than the senseless violence of war, it's just taking the field over to the mental realm instead of just the physical one. I have no idea what this dude does with a country once he conquers it and, realistically, i don't really wanna fuck around and find out about that for sure. .. But choosing to do things diplomatically, so as to minimize damage on your citizen and your army when your country is known for getting into a bunch of wars sounds damn near revolutionary by their standards.
*to myself* stay STRONG violet, stay STRONG...
Holy fuckinh shit they finally wrote an avatar story (normal mind you) that doesn't disgust me! (How is this... This route's biggest achievement so far??) It's just MC unintentionally giving silvio some strength cuz she genuinely can't imagine him bowing down whatever whim the king has if he doesn't agree to it and apparently that was too gosh darn cute of her not to merit a hug and then they're both blushing
If
If only rio wasn't at the door to see that 😭
And Gilbert two steps behind him for part two of his mansplain gasslight manipulate session
Gggggggggghhh yalls don't know how much I'm eating up how the foil to being able to manipulte people like that is to have a surprising amount of empathy. Again. What fucked you up like this????
Also YOU AND YOUR STUPID POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW LOOK. NO. YA AIN'T GETTING THE BEST OF ME
🙃if you force it upon people then it's not kindness *bonks him* (I'll have a jester's death, thanks)
SILVIO I'M NOT SURE AND I DON'T WANNA JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS BUT I GET A FEELING LIKE MAYBE IT WOULDN'T HAVE WENT LIKE THIS IF YOU TOLD RIO ABOUT HIS MEMORIES IDK MAN
K so after this... I'm not sure if gil got what he wanted (... I should probably assume yes gil always gets what he wants...) But rio started making up excuses so MC doesn't go see silvio and when she asks what Thats about rio just asks her to stay away so he doesn't hurt her, HE'S LITERALLY BEGGING ME HOW HE NEVER HAS BEFORE GAME HOW TF AM SUPPOSED TO DO THAT TO HIM????
Oh and silvio's sulking about missing (won't admit it tho) and getting drunk with keith and complaining about women
And keith's like "dude that's NOT all women. How do you have luck so terrible with women??" And we know the answer is mommy issues with a side of "this is just what being rich and a prince is like" except it isn't cuz I've seen the women that confess to valerio. They fall in love with him cuz he's considerate, kind, attentive (altho he only ever did anything for himself and according to him it wasn't "real kindness" but he was never needlessly cruel either) anyways, silvio and his stupid dumbass think mc's gonna show her true colors that she's nasty like all women so yeah his, denial and bias issues are still going strong
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hi listen idk if yall watch lucky hank but like these two have been on my mind for the past like 4 hours i genuinely cant stop
LIKE THEY HAVE SO MUCH POTENTIAL ANGST OMFG LIKE TELL ME IM NOT INSANE AND YALL SEE WHAT IM SEEING
its the dynamic of like "two ppl who admire eachothers work dearly but do not know how to properly convey it to eachother" or in this case one of them doesnt
AND THE FACT THAT GEORGE IS SO COMPLETELY FUCKING HONEST AND GENUINE ABT HIS FEELINGS WHILE HANK IS A PETTY ASSHOLE WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE WITH HIS BEST FRIEND WHO HE HASNT SEEN IN 30 YEARS
THIS BIT THIS BIT THIS BIT YOU FUCKERS HAVE NO IDEA GOD
MIND YOU THIS ISNT GETTING INTO HANKS SEVERE INSECURITY ABT NEVER ACTUALLY LIVING UP TO HIS DADS IMAGE AS A PROLIFIC AND RESPECTED WRITER AND HOW ITS THEN AMPLIFIED WHEN GEORGE (A MAN HES BEEN FRIENDS WITH FOR YEARS) IS SOMEHOW DOING BETTER THAN HIMSJSBWJSJSB
AND THAT LAST LINE HE SHARES WITH LILY I AM SCREAMING.
this show isnt even that good but i am thinking abt so many aspects of it and THESE TWO ARE JUST ARUWHWBJQJSAAHSB
i should start reading the book again i havent picked it up in a while 😭😭
#at the time of writing this i am sick and its like 3 am#i probably shouldnt post this but i am cringe and i am free#lucky hank#bob odenkirk#william henry devereaux#hank devereaux#george saunders#lucky hank spoilers#i have the shittiest migraine i should be asleep#im gonna regret posting this later i know it lol
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I feel like yall should have had more aggressively inclusive and normalized sex ed because some people are genuinely scared of sex/puberty/etc. or even talking about it-- and some people that I even know personally don't know very basic facts about anatomy, sexual development, etc. It is baffling and tragic. I've met people who didn't know what a period was before theirs started. Can you fucking imagine how scary that is-- not knowing what's happening when there is *blood* coming out of your vagina. Not even knowing the *word* vagina-- let alone vulva, clitoris, penis, testes. Yes, I'm going to be explicit with anatomical terminology on this blog when I talk about the importance of teaching people about their bodies. Some people get their period as early as 7 or 8. They need to know what's happening. Boys in the throes of puberty can develop a fucking *guilt complex* over completely normal feelings towards girls or other boys in their class because they have *no idea that this is a normal part of growing up.*
I'm going to scream words like menstruation and pubic hair and masturbation and attraction and semen and all of that from the rooftops. I cannot imagine how scared I would've been if I hadn't been lucky enough to find an admittedly very basic book about puberty young. How confused.
I don't want anyone to feel scared or disgusted with their body or new and changing feelings. I don't want to have to explain puberty and sexuality to sometimes grownass adults. I'm always happy to, of course. I think to a point it's my responsibility to share knowledge I have that someone else doesn't. But it's not something I should have to do. Because it's something people should already know.
Idk. All I'm saying is. Don't forget about our education system. Don't forget about kids, about people in hyper religious/conservative communities, about people who grew up isolated for other reasons, for example, homeschooling due to a disability. I talk a lot about kink and the importance of acceptance and educational resources. But I don't think anyone talks enough about sex ed and the insanely important value of teaching about puberty, contraception, basic sexuality, etc.
#sex education#important#rant#also I'm still hella proud of myself for helping people complete sex ed assignments back when i was in school#by actually re-explaining bc the teachers explanation was incomplete and almost everyone was giggling like every class#adults: be that person for other adults and your kids-- explain to them what they need to know but don't know#kids: pay attention during health class. ask questions. talk to your parents or another trusted adult.#people in general: you should carry more pads and condoms. maybe even a plan b if you or your friends are sexually active#also: get tested for stis regularly if you have an active sex life with any partners that havent been tested and proven clean#stay safe stay educated dont be scared of SEX
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