#when we got home they were gone

[wampabampa]

I’ve been sitting here for 3 hours about to be 4..

#sorry its blurry I took it off my iPad cause my phones dead #but Jesus Christ #I didn’t know the game was this massive #like all I knew was that It was fun and dnd #which I’ve been meaning to get into #im learning but due to work school and medical I’ve been too drained to actually sit down and LEARN #the most I know is what my Freind goon 2 has told me and what TikTok has said #😭😭😭 #pls baldurs gate 3 #be faster #its almost 2am #espy #but not eepy enough #also strangest thing today #while me and my dad were at Home Depot we got an alert from our ring camera that there was activity outside our house #and we also got a text from mom saying that there was fire people and ambulance people just standing outside our house pointing at it #and all talking in a big circle #which #??? #what? #why are you here? #we originally thought it was for someone on our street but they literally stood there for 30 mins just staring at our house pointing #and talking #so we thought maybe someone called them on us but there would literally be no reason to #esp cause they never actually came up #and when my bro got home from work they didn’t say anything either #so like?? #when we got home they were gone #🤷 #weird

[moveslikekeithrichards]

its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost

#tiddytaco #b #thinking about it rn bc today while i was driving my mom home from pt #she saw someone she knew from years ago driving & was like FOLLOW THAT CAR & we met them in a parking lot #& the conversation turned to 'hey what the hell happened to your parents' pretty quickly bc our families hadnt been in touch #& it was a long conversation in the hobby lobby parking lot #& idk if itll ever Stop being fresh in my mind but now its Extra fresh in my mind #that whole time period was just so insane & awful #bc it was like Ok we're caring for both grandparents #& then my grandpa died #& all our pets at the time were very old #& when he died it occurred to me that we could easily lose both grandparents and all 3 pets within the year #it turned out to be like a long drawn-out year & a half from the first to the last #& looking back it seems impossible that is was that short a time period bc it felt like an eternity #we got off easy with grandpa bc he died before it got too bad but with grandma it just kept getting Worse #& the climax of the caring experience was traveling to take her to my uncle bc he wanted to take his shift caring for her #& that was so . So bad. SO bad #like it literally could not have gone more smoothly and it was SO bad #just thinking about it i feel like im there again i get so stressed out

[vynnyal]

A little something like this, right?

#From memory for the most part #I've drawn these characters more times than I expected 😂 #I cheated and fixed a few things when I went to pick colors (and then didn't even use them) #Idk I felt nostalgic and decided to crank out a few bugs #Lesse... What stories do I got. It's been a while so I have quite the selection #Oh jdbdjvskhff my dog died from cancer of all things. Like seriously what the heck #While we were recovering I jokingly mentioned something about getting another rescue dog #Within the WEEK we had a pomeranian in our house. A pomeranian. 16 pounds. Pomeranian. #See the reason I mentioned it at all was to give our other dog- Tiger the 11(?) yr old maltipoo- company in his twilight years. #You know. Maybe another old pooch like Lucky that was chill and kind #And now we have Rudy aka SPITFIRE #He's fun though! I like him. He's always smiling and it warms my heart. I swear I can walk out of the house for an hour #and he'll greet my like I've been gone for years every single time #What else. Oh lol so I'm taking care of my neighbor's house for two weeks #A wwwk in and the cat decides to RUN OFF. In the middle of a THUNDERSTORM. #36 hrs later and I'm like aight this isn't great #After posting notices online etc I was sitting around and thought to myself something kinda dumb #See he likes listening to me play on their grand piano. They never use it but I do and the cat always lays at my feet while I jam #So I thought... what if I pied piper the cat home. So I threw open all the doors #And played for oh idk 20 min? #CAT WALKS IN. SITS ON THE FLOOR BESIDES ME #Cats. I stg #Eh that's all for now I'm sleeby #hollow knight #art tag #See ya!

[spacedlexi]

sooo glad we live in the universe where twdgs4 was rewritten to be about saving the school instead of the original lis2-esque on the road each-episode-is-a-new-location plot. really dodged a bullet there

dont know if it was due to the cuts and collapsing work environment (no budget for all the assets needed) or what but the school plot is just like the perfect setting for her to end her story. and we really almost got a plot about her.... just trying to make it back to her original house? oof

#my biggest problem with lis2 is that being on the road made a lot of your choices essentially meaningless #like wheres the threat of consequence when you know youll be gone by the next episode anyway? #the kids were originally gonna kick them out permanently.......Nightmare Scenario #the plot of her trying to get back 'home' is so silly honestly like its Just nostalgia/fan bait. convince me otherwise you cant #it makes no sense....she lived right outside a major city... that place is Not safe anymore #it wasnt even safe when she left it 8 years ago girl why would you go back #her finding a place to MAKE a new home and having to fight for it? with a community of her peers who love and respect her? so much better #shes a community leader now :) of a bunch of kids living secretly in the woods just trying to make a safe home for themselves #in a hostile world that wants them dead #love that for her #shes been managing adults since she was 11 and even before that tried to be a voice of reason. at 8 years old. community leader makes sense #s4 is just so narratively sound to me for clems character that i cant believe there was ever any other direction they wanted to go in #every time im thinking about how good s4 is i remember what it almost was......... and i am so grateful we got what we did #not only do we live in the universe where s4 is about the school but we Also live in the universe where s4 was un-cancelled :) yay #shit makes me so happy man. i remember clem is living happily at ericsons and my day is Immediately improved #these little fictional bitches in my head giving me free serotonin on command #it speaks #twdg

[lonely--seeker]

I went out looking for my dog (who's been missing for FIVE days and is now safely home, although he is still a bastard) and because I was told he was seen in an area I was even more worried about actually spotting him. I was so focused that I walked into a post and broke my glasses and now have a huge ass bump on my face.

Also, while looking around for him people spent more time criticizing his name instead of helping. Shout-out to that one lady that said "No le podían poner un nombre más bonito? Osito" his second name is now Osito, I fucking hate it

#i spent like the last three hours with a headache and walking circles around the whole neighborhood #the bastard was ONE BLOCK AWAY from home #he didn't even recognize him when i found him. i bet he's tired and hungry but boyyyy this is not making me feel better i might cry #gave him food and water and now he's sleeping next to me #people were like oh i just saw him on that street. and when we got there he was gone. bastard

[perenlop]

i remember when people were saying mewtwos inclusion in the genesect movie felt random and pandering to the gen 1 crowd that was uncommitted bc this wasnt even movie 1 mewtwo, and i dont think anyone says that now but wow i think they were wayyyy off the mark there lol. mewtwos the perfect choice for them that couldve existed at the time and she made for perfectly good xy teasing too

#i remember the mewthree ppl freaking out when we first saw that form and didnt know what mega evolution was #but yeah mewtwo being someone who was forced into existence and had a terrifying beginning to her life and despised humans #and was initially so much more hostile but has come to accept her place in the world and made peace with other pokemon #while the genesect as basically in the same position she was- and even worse bc theyre revived fossils #they died- were brought back to life- and now theyre in new bodies made for destruction #and one of them is a CHILD one of them is a baby that doesn’t understand whats happening and just wants to go home but they cant go home #bc its all gone. they should be gone. they shouldnt be here none of them should #mewtwo is a GREAT character to use for them to help them through that #bc shes grown past what happened- even if shes still got her trauma and distrust to work through #and she can help them see the beauty in and make the most of what they have now #fuck dude this movie is so underrated #echoed voice

[timeisacephalopod]

This winter (the season not the me) has been unseasonably and terrifyingly warm, like it's 10 degrees (Celsius sorry Americans) out today and I'm reminded of an article I read in the news a couple years ago about how Canada was baking at twice the rate as the rest of the world and go 👁️👄👁️. In my youth snow where I live would be probably a foot high in the lowest snow areas of snow drifts and up to my waist (in adult height) in the high parts, and every year I see less and less snow ☠️☠️☠️

On one hand despite my namesake I actually loathe the season winter, I'm extremely sensitive to the cold and getting brain freeze because the wind is blowing against the direction you're walking in sucks booty hole. But like NO snow is extremely bad. VERY bad. Do not like living out the consequences of climate change because uh. Canada just does not seem to have winters like it used to and hasn't in years. It's like watching all the corn crops stop growing like they used to because the summers are so much dryer and hotter with the exception of last summer, which was almost wet enough to kill the corn with that. But they survived and grew bushy like they used to and it was kind of terrifying to acknowledge I hadn't seen a crop that good in years.

#winters ramblings #on one hand it genuinely is SO NICE to not deal with snow seriously it is SO inconvenient #beautiful to look at for sure REALLY stunning when its not literally blinding you but omG snow on roads #in the cities where i live leave HUGE slush puddles and the snow is so MUSHY and WET from cars #pulverizing it to a fine icy slush ready to SOAK your feet in freezing water. shit is inconvenience powder #but the environment is in NEED of the snow that is how this country works environmentally NORMALLY #but no now we have consistently spring weather and ever less snowy winters #although we did have a shitty winter a couple years ago but thats not exacy indicive of much when it goes against prior patterns #and also that shitty winter STILL wasnt the winters of my childhood. the snow was ABSURD then #and yes its because drifts were the size of ME but even the massive piles of snow plowed from side walks are so much smaller #IF theres snow pules at all weve BARELY got snow this year and none of it stuck!! #like damn its been gone long enough ill miss it exactly until i have to walk to a bus stop in it #when i was 13 ill never forget my parents making me return a movie in a snow storm and it took me FORTY MINUTES #to complete this task because the snow NO JOKE was up to my wasit the whole way and i was my full 5'6 then #the snow was HORRIBLE. and for reference how long it USUALLY takes me to walk uptown and back? #roughly 15 minutes round trip so it took longer to walk ONE WAY than it took me to do a round trip no snow #and thats the last time i remember having a REALLY bad winter on account of walking to school was ALSO hell if the sidewalk #wasnt already plowed and usually only the main streets got that and i was Middle Street so id be done when id be going HOME #but not when i was going TO school. that winter blew ASS butlike it was normal bring them back 😭😭

[rosaacicularis]

which was more culturally significant, the renaissance or hermitgang

#it all started when grian touched my redstone he played himself like a xylophone set on automatic doc monster is a savage with technical #skills and crazy vocal acrobatics i’m a legend of the nho with etho beef and double o docmc is coming for you seven fold i got rendog and #other firemen to douce the flames that you shoot at this leviathan iskall can try again you think i’m in hiding i’m just biding my time #putting pen to paper coming up with rhymes were the star studded group got together just to crush you once we start something you know were #going to see it through i’m the knight the soldier who brings the fight at first light y’all had to incite so now i gotta indict you’re #guilty of getting murdered with words y’all are outgunned go home nerds hermitgangx16 if you think you can stop the symmetry that’s false #gteam is dialling for help but i’m in ignoring their calls and when their bodies dissolve you know that false’s on a killing spree try to #stop my pvp and perish painfully i’m the queen of hearts heads and body parts your diamond armour can’t compare to my martial arts i’ll #send a poison dart to make you breath your final breath gteams name will be the only thing left caffeinated animated redstone innovator my #behaviour’s crazy can’t phase me impulse is never lazy tango why would you betray now my scope is aiming better run from cover from all the #ghast balls that i be taming without a sound without no hesitation my creations are amazing better watch your step or the gteam will end up #blazing whos the better team there is no controversy but before it’s said and done y’all be begging us for mercy hermitgangx16 x gone give #it to ya i’m gone give it to ya x gone give it to ya what lyrical boxing dropping blows on all my foes and the gteam they’re looking #unclean needing some sunscreen burnt by words this herd of nerds it’s ubsurd how my rhymes got them injured danger danger i got lasers to #cut them up like razors it’s flexing season and i got flavour their weak defenses like trenches and fences that these dense heads are #presenting they’re presenting them alright they’re not very good i could walk over them i could jump over them i could use an ender pearl i #could use my elytra come one gteam geez hermitgangx16 now i’m back and i got some things i wanna say what’s the letter that starts the #alphabet a ladies get it line the diggity be on the way cleo don’t know who she freaking with all the signs say to notify her next of kin #this digitty dog be dropping bombs nothing but hits spit that line again brrr cause the message is i could mumble rap and still be the best #there is hermitgangx16 oh you wanted me to do a verse i’ll have to check with gteam i mean i’ll have to check my schedule to see if i can #see if i’m able to do that sort of thing busy guy lots of things to do oh do averse bananas do a verse bananas i just don’t know if it’s a #good idea for me to a part of this song really #i just typed all of that out from memory im a little bit insane i think

[dov6doll]

#image I took with my camcorder I thought Tumblr might appreciate although I am not tagging it (yet?) bc I can't be bothered #Context: invited a close friend over to give her some books and makeup & my shopping addicted ass immediately started showing off new shoes #I got these in January apparently. Anyways the moment I brought these into the room she said she started feeling ill and said that she #felt a really negative energy so naturally I got out my giant bag of candles and incense and tried to code word: tried to cleanse them #it didn't work obviously so we wanted to take them to a priest to bless them so we went to church but alas we were too late since all #of the priests had already gone home so we left. Previously to that and still we also want to take them to a - now bare with me I forgot the #exact English word for this but it's бајачка something akin to a fortune teller - to cleanse them however we don't know any in our country #Also another thing is apparently right before coming over she had a strong feeling an urgency even to bring her tarot deck with her to my #place although she had no idea why since none of the plans we made involved a tarot deck or anything similar #and when she saw the boots she said something along the lines of “this must've been why (I felt the urge to bring my tarot deck)”

[astro-inthestars]

Hi guess who feels like he just experienced 8 consecutive days in a matter of 2?

#rennikorambles #holy fuHUCK I AM SO EXHAUSTED. I AM LITERALLY EXHAUSTED #I WOULDNT BE SURPRISED IF I SAY THIS MIGHT BE THE MOST EXHAUSTING TWO DAYS OF MY FUCKING EXISTENCE... #yesterday in class our very first subject was our advisory one and since the cheer dance has been crucial we just went down to practice #great straining start to the day! (i do like our cheer dance though i think we'll beat the other sections but MAN IS IT TIRING.) #and then i had to go over to the avr to get prized and shit for winning 1st place on the spelling bee(it was nothing dont even care abt it) #and then after that immediately had to go down (since this was the end of class) and practice AGAIN for 2 more hours #good god and thats friday for you #and im pretty sure this was when i discovered that my brother (who usually goes home at 4 and my practice ended then) #had left me behind and gone home already. and like usually whenever i have practice and end at 4 we just go home w #*together #but. yeah. that didnt have me feeling good but it was okay #and when i was ready to pass out hoHOH NOO NONO #my aunt decided hey! we should celebrate your wonderful high grades by going out together (me my brother and my cousin) and h #have a sleepover! and we were just. sure ok. so we had to pack IMMEDIATELY and get on going #more stuff and more waiting in traffic happened and shit and more shit #and then we got to the street mall and hogh boy MORE WALKING. but i love the place so i didnt mind (still walking though. haugh) #and then ate at a place ive never eaten at. i liked the food really! but then my stomach decided death for me #(apparently eating dinner 9 hours after lunch isnt good..?) so the rest of the time my stomach was squeezing and i felt like throwing up #but it was fine i didnt throw up! AND THEN ALSO I FAILED TO MENTION. My class paid to reserve 4 hours at a court to practice #which was at 10 am the next day. so i had to sleep early which i did! woke up at 7 <3 watched enola holmes.... #bUT I STILL GOT SO FUCKING LATE I ARRIVED AT 11. didnt even get to savor the sleepover haugh..... and then practice OH practice. sufferings #after a whole problem with a bunch of idiots at the court that barged in we decided to cut the practice at 12:30 #i got picked up by my parents then we went home! .BUT ITS NOT OVER YET. WE HAD TO BRING OUR HOUSEHELP TO HER HOUSE #and they said it'd be quick. just a quick drop off to help her. #bUT NOOOOO WE WENT TO THE FILIPINO EQUIVALENT OF COSTCO AND THEN AN AMUSEMENT PARK #WHICH WAS SO COOL OH MY FUCK BUT ALSO HOLY SHIT. #first of all i got to finally try the Vikings ride and a roller coaster! good news i can handle roller coasters! #bad news i cannot handle vikings. theyre.... overwhelming- i couldnt even SCREAM from how scared i was #anyways i roamed phil costco it was so fun. but my poor feet. i have sustained 5 different kinds of body pain.

[wetbananapeel]

First gourd (and radish) I carved in my life 31 October 2019

#the drawing I class i was in in undergrad had a pumpkin carving day that year #i decided to be rebellious and buy a pumpkin to carve for the first time but when i went to the store there were no more pumpkins :') #so i got a gourd and a little skeleton for inside caude i wanted a scene #it was the first time i had carved anything for Halloween ever and i remember feeling so sinful at the time #there was this one person Maddie who was also giving tarot card readings and they were one of my major events(?) to realize i was gay #i didnt get a reading from them cause i was scared that was going too far and I would be too far gone messing with the 'occult' #and they made me nervous but i wanted more and couldnt figure out why (i chalked it up to them being 'cool' and wanting to be their friend) #anyways maddie gave me the radish cause they also didnt bring a pumpkin and had two radishes (cause they were buy 1 get 1) from Winn Dixie #i still think about maddie now and we talk sporadically i told them if they're ever in Chicago to come and visit me but they live in Canada #their art inspires me and i believe they could design a fantasy game or novel because of their work (i own a weird little dog of theirs) #i never mentioned anything to them at the time about being infatuated with them in class and i doubt i would now bc our life goals dont mesh #but i consider them to play a important role in my life and i appreciated the radish and wish i got the readings done #its wild how much growth can happen in just a few years -- i bought a mini pumpkin in September because i wanted to celebrate early #back then when i got home the gourd and radish was forcibly thrown away (and i didn't dare tell of my encounters in class with the lesbian!) #(i hold that memory in my heart & think of it fondly cause i hadnt realized yet i have much compassion for younger me who was never sinful) #now in grad school there is a new Maddie 🍈 who told me she didnt know why she keeps looking at my face in class and i think i know why #but she has yet to get there <3

[girlwithfish]

2day was a lot i feel like im doing my best and i hope its ok but its also just work so wjo cares. and i feel bad when i mess up or dont lnow something but im new and they put me w an even newer girl w 15 2 yr olds it was not a good dau

#they eventuwlly moved the new girl nd put a diff teacher w me #i shouldnt have gone on lunch first ig (one goes on lunch then when they get back the other coteacher goes) #cuz the new girl was having a hard time w all the kids during naptime and by the tjme i got back nearly all were awake #and she had called for help😭 #it was too crazy and everyones belongings were everywhere bc every kids things had to be taken home bc of tje lice etc #and its hard keeping track of whose is whose and bc it was water day they had an extra change of clothes to change into #after tjey play in the water so its even more like chaos etc #Idk #Nd then some parents didnt bring in their kids sheets so some kids didnt have sheets and naptime was hell bc of it + we had 3 toddlers from #the younger classroom etc who were all pretty distraught at times #anyway they moved the new girl nd put a diff teacher w me and i felt kinda bad cuz like i couldnt handle the classroom by myself ig :/ nd #i was forgetting to log some stuff in the ipad cuz it was so chaotic i was constantly busy nd #sometimes the new coworker wasnt helping much etc #soo chaotic #but i did my best and i also took out the staff lounge trash even tho i didnt have to im employee of the month #nd i neber even go in the staff lounge or use the trash there but i lugged 3 heavy trash bags in the hot sun to the dumpster 👍 #cuz i was already taking my classroom trash out lol. why am i going so hard for a j*b #but yeah. tired. exhausted even

[bunnyb34r]

Really wish this brain fog would pass bc I have a shitload of posts in my drafts i saved bc i wanted to read them but my brain said no. And it's tax season so I'm getting important papers in the mail and I cant fucking read them. Well I can read them but it's just words. Nothing is connecting up there. Thank god mom is here to help read that shit and translate but fuck do I hate this shit

Why can't my brain fucking WORK

#it feels like when i kept getting concussions in 9th grade (had 4) and i couldnt fucking focus and my reaction time dropped significantly #like we were doing a basic reaction time experiment in science and i said oh lets not use mine when we submit it (group of 3 pick best #result) and my friends were like pfft whatever go. and i did and they got real quiet and were like oh... #bc they didnt realize i was concussed concussed like bitch my ability to vaguely see in the dark is GONE i cannot see my rt is SLOWED #my brain cannot WORK RIGHT #it's recovered since then (yay neuroplasticity) but i still have bad brain fog from fibro and it's like god at least when I was concussed i #could easily be like listen i had 4 concussions i need help. no problem. but with brain fog it feels like give me a min im stupid today #i hate it!! i hate feeling broken i hate feeling like my brain is half working! it sucks!! #i got insurance shit the other day and had to ask my mom to make sure it was just a basic 'yeah youre covered heres more access' and not #something i needed to act on and it was so frustrating #marquilla #and whats worse is sometimes ill be talking or typing and think im making sense and then ill look back at it later or someone will ask me ab #it and its like oh... im sorry my brain is not working atm and i cannot get out what im trying to and what is getting out is jumbled #the absolute worst is when it hits when im driving and it's like hey you're 2 hours away from home snd now LOST get home bitch :) #luckily it only happened when i was 40 min from home and in a familiar enough area but my brain couldnt find the right 'path' #sucked but i actually knew i was actually on the right path when i saw this house with a lesbian flag sgsgdgdgdgdgdgd like oh! here!!

[cannot-copia]

this year so far

#tw death #once again saying things into the void on here bc i dont know where else to say it #went on a trip for a couple days for my moms birthday a couple weeks ago now #they called to tell us my dads dialysis had pretty much stopped working shortly after we were got there #insurance gave us 4 days notice to find somewhere for him to go (2 of which we were 1200 miles from home) #also was told by the place I work at i am not needed until further notice the same day #so I have no source of income until they get the necessary machine fixed and even then I am skeptical they will say to come back #since dialysis stopped working he had to be moved to hospice #which was a week ago now #so he has very little time left #my half brother and his wife came to visit him a couple days ago #now his brother is here from another state #and we took them to eat at the place they’ve always gone when they are here for as long as I can remember #on the way there we were told my grandmother was taken to the hospital in an ambulance #they don’t know what is wrong with her yet but she is 94 so her being not ok either is very plausible #we are only like 3 weeks into the year and I’ve already been soft laid off my grandmother could be dying and my dad is dying #I feel like I have been seconds away from having a complete panic attack for a week #packing up and cleaning out the assisted living (he only ended up being at 3 months) felt so wrong #it was his coffee mug and green cup of all things that got to me most #he always had them #and knowing he would never use them again #I bought his dog a new name tag today #so it has a tag when we give it to them to put in the casket with him #and i almost cried in a fucking petsmart #and now I’m here over sharing on the internet about it bc if I do not keep myself distracted I will just get more nauseous and cry more #delete later

[hella1975]

hella I keep getting edits with some sort of original version of waiting room?? on my fyp and I'm gonna be honest waiting room wasn't a song that did me in quite as badly as the rest of you but this version I keep hearing literally rips my heart straight open😭😭 like I've been planning on fixing the no waiting room on spotify issue by taking it into my own hands🏴‍☠️ but now I know it's gonna have to be this version I'm not even bothering with lost ark waiting room. it's just gonna be waiting room og bc what the fuck?? "I never grew up with you, and you're not my waiting room" what the fuck??? with the haunting background noises literally WHAT THE FUCK????????

OMG IVE SEEN THAT ONE everyone keeps going on about the vocals of 'and you're not my waiting room' but i really cant get over 'i never grew up with you' like what??? WHAT??????

#for some reason i rlly connected this song to a childhood friend of mine that im pretty sure ive at least vaguely mentioned on here before #but basically we were INSEPERABLE for years of my childhood and he was about 2 years older than me #so i think i was 5 and he was 7 when we met and we stayed friends until i went up to secondary school so SIX YEARS #and we literally spent all day together we'd play in the gardens and run about the place and we were both really outdoorsy #and obvs it was before proper tech really started coming in so it was when kids literally just got shoved outside for the day #and left to their own devices and it was GREAT like i remember him and that time so fondly #but he was also really messed up like he'd come from a lot of foster homes and he'd had every kind of abuse #and he'd finally been adopted by the couple on my street who just couldn't handle him bc their answer to his issues #was to spoil him and give him what he wanted so he just got worse bc he had a real violent streak in him #and obvs if you let that grow in a boy they're not gonna wake up one day and it'll be gone like. it's going to get malicious #and low and behold he started getting like actually dangerous like he choked his sister once and he got kicked out of school #bc he threated to BEHEAD A GIRL WITH AN AXE like really fucked up shit #but i was in a pick me moment bc he was always really nice and respectful to me until he wasnt #and even then ive never ever blamed him for it bc we were both young and he was so traumatised #and sooner or later we stopped hanging out and my mum was relieved bc that's how bad he was getting #and ive literally never spoken to him again. but he's just one of those people i think about all the time???? #like idk if it's bc of what went down or bc of the age i was but he was a HUGE deal to me and my development #and for some evil fucking reason i think of him when i listen to waiting room especially the 'i know it's for the better' #bc i KNOW it's for the better i got away from him before he got really bad but still i so desperately wish i couldve helped him yk? #especially now i understand what abuse actually means and what he'd suffered which i had no idea about at the time #SO TO ADD 'I NEVER GREW UP WITH YOU' WHEN I FEEL LIKE I ABANDONED HIM AS CHILDREN?? STOPPPP #PHOEBE PLEASEEEE #anyway unnecessary rant over rori pls pirate this song for the masses pls pls the world needs you #ask

[tuhbanbuv]

Jeez, if you people like photos of my cat so much then I guess I'll post more photos of Juniper then.

#I have more incentive to anyways since she's getting up there in years #it's been almost a year since her brother died so cat death is a sorta touchy subject for me rn #juniper's like 10-12 and has helped me with so much so the idea of her being gone hurts me #she's also pretty much my first pet that I've been taking care of 100% all my life #when we first got her I didn't even think I'd get a kitten we were just out to get kittens for my aunt #who's sweet lil old man cat died that year #and she just said “do you want that cat? ok let's bring her home” #and I've had her ever since