#which sucks for its own reasons but

[michaeljoncarter]

i really don't mean to sound like a dick, but the more i see people trying to talk about "nuclear/traditional families" vs "non-traditional/chosen families," the more it really seems like a lot of people have absolutely no idea what the hell they're talking about or what these "chosen families" that defy the traditional family structure they claim to like so much even really look like

sorry, but "what if there was no mom" is not some crazy, groundbreaking unconventional dynamic. yes, the dictionary definition of a nuclear family is "het couple + kids," but also it's not 1956 anymore. single parent families are basically just nuclear family lite at this point. there's really nothing all that mold-breaking about an only-technically-non-nuclear-family where the only real difference is that you deleted the woman lol

#do u know what i mean. do u #i don't mean to sound mean but jesus god #it's just likee.. i grew up in one of these Weird families and none of these characters are relatable anymore lol #it's just 2.5 kids/picket fence life with a different coat of paint #adopted children & nontraditional family units are NOT the same thing #and conflating them is imo kinda fucked up in implying the relationship btwn adopted parents/kids is inherently different somehow #current batfam is about as traditional as you could possibly get. he's treated as unquestionably their father & they're his kids #& referred to as siblings #there's nothing norm-breaking about that. they're literally just treated as adopted kids #which sucks for its own reasons but #just wack to me to see people claiming the batfam are the weird ones more than the superfam on these grounds #'the superfam is more like a normal family the bats are the weird ones' you can literally only be referring to modern comics with that #and the only thing they have going for them over the bats re: 'normality' rn is that they're blood related where the bats are adopted kids #you know what i mean?????????!? #like i know people don't MEAN it that way but ekngljfvn

[spearxwind]

been thinking about for a long time how i really missing doing creative projects with others but at the same time its always blown up in my face so i think im not going to do it anymore

#its great when it works but when it doesnt (always for me) it just sucks real bad and at this point i think id just rather do my own thing #thunderclap #on the flipside i miss discussing oc stuff with friends but i havent been able to do that for a long time for various reasons #esp. just bouncing ideas off of each other which is how i used to do worldbuilding or at least getting some feedback and i think thats #why recently i have stagnated so so so much in terms of worldbuilding i dont really have anything going on with anyone #art is a collaborative between you and the world but what do you do when no one around you really cares? #i know venting about it on my blog wont fix it by any means but its my god given right to complain about it <3

[ganondoodle]

reminder that my totk rants are me just rambling about my thoughts, ideas and complaints, im not trying to analyze anything, be smart, be right, debate or convince anyone who likes it that its bad just bc i think its bad or simply dont like the choices made, im literally just spilling out my brain so it doesnt keep haunting me

if you think something makes sense that i think doesnt i, and forgive me for being so blunt about it, do not care why you think it works, my opinion of this game will not change and i am okay with that

you are free to disagree with anything i say of course but i really dont care why, sorry

(sth i said only in the tags before but added now in this edit bc i think its important: its not bc i dont want to hear other peoples opinions and live in ignorance or something, but bc im tired and i PROMISE you i have seen 99.9% of those arguments already)

im not trying to be mean, aggressive or dismissive, but again, these rants are just me rambling with no intention of arguing with anyone, the only reason im still posting whenever i think of something thats bothering me (even if it might be dumb or be disproven in game bc i am not all-knowing and might be possibly misremembering something), and letting those posts be rebloggable/interactable is bc i have been told by quite a few people that they like reading them or that they feel validated in their own disappointment

thats it.

#ganondoodles talks #i usually seek/like interacting with people on my posts but not really in the case for the rants #like if you also have stuff to complain about or agree yeah go right ahead #but if you are trying to take down every one of my thoughts with arguments as to why im wrong or being unfair #i dont care #and thats not bc i want to live in my own little world and never hear of other peoples opinions #but bc i PROMISE you i have seen those arguments already #alot even #too much even #and i dont care that you love the story #im sorry but i dont #i think its shit #so i will say why i think it sucks #and im not looking to be proven otherwise #bc people are biased and will always like different things #and thats okay #its okay to read soemthing you dont like and then move on and forget it ever happened #if i see a post i dont like i MIGHT go and ramble on my own without saying which one it was bc i just have thoughts that need to get out #but im not looking to argue nor bother OP with it #if i dont like something for dumb reasons i think thats just as valid as liking soemthing for equally dumb reasons

[cousticks]

the real question we should be asking is why verlaine was trusting intel from some random 16 year old. yeah dazai was mori's right hand man but dude was also living in a shipping container and clearly a little fucking unhinged. verlaine buddy i know you don't exactly have a great frame of reference for people behaving normal but you should have seen that something was horribly wrong with dazai and that should have raised some fucking red flags

#bsd stormbringer #bsd verlaine #white hill road #apocalypse is on its way #if verlaine did his own research then shirase would probably be dead too #since the real reason chuuya was in the mafia guaranteed was protecting the sheep #other than the whole pledging his loyalty thing #so like #i guess we kept shirase alive #but at the expense of the flags which fucking sucks

[scalproie]

and the worst thing is that vergil DOES sucks. genuinely

#BUT its in the same that dante sucks. that nero sucks. that dmc as a whole is kinda cringe #but it is also extremely genuine. which cancels the cringe factor entirely. #as STUPID as the characters are theyre ALWAYS treated with respect in the story's theyre in. or if they arent its not at their expense #its cool. its just cool. as its core dmc is cool even if its inherently so fucking stupid #anyway this has been my ''you have to ENGAGE with the story. YES the character's actions are stupid NO theyre NOT a loser.'' #as for vergil: hes never been a master planner nor a mastermind. hes just reserved in his words and (shut up) self-motivated #vergil doesnt want to change the world or society. he *doesnt fucking care*. he just wants power for deeply personal reasons #HES ALSO BEEN SHOWN TO BE WRONG IN THE TWO (2) GAMES HES BEEN IN. BC DANTE WON. AND LATER NERO #also hes wrong but NOT a villain. hes legit just dante under different circumstances and with different tastes. THEY ADRESSED THIS IN DMC5 #''but dam he needs to atone for the two cities'' nobody cares about the humans in dmc. theyre plot points #theyre not cool enough to be focused on on their own. if they do they need to be as off the balls bonker as the half demons #as far as dmc is concerned. vergil's only crime is being wrong. #and hes so fucking strong. hes sooo strong. hes good looking. he has a well written story and character arc imo. hes extremely iconic #and I love him very much. anyway this has been dam ''vergil is my favorite character of all time'' scalproie thank you all #im gonna go listen to bury the light #tagging later

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

Currently thinking about Sparrow dooming an entire world to suffer and die to "protect his family". ya know, the family where he forced his daughter when she was very young to murder animals with her bare hands, his son who was a unwanted pregnancy and ended up hating because he was too unapologetically himself/not easy to control and his brother who fucked his wife for years and knowingly hurt him. And finally his father who he has never respected or liked and has felt neglected and made helpless by.

What happened with the flesh monster Normal released was obviously incredibly bad. But considering that it was in containment already, they clearly have beaten it before already. This wasn't some hopeless fight where Sparrow had no choice by to enact Code Purple. He just didn't want to have to put the hard and painful work of fixing his and brother's mistake.

It's why Lark never told anyone what The Doodler really was, it's why Hero was born, it's why they betrayed Nicky and it's why Sparrow committed genocide. Because it's easy. If they knew that The Doodler was just a scared child that desperately needed help then that means We Have To Help It and that's more complicated then killing it. Hero was born as a copout so the twins wouldn't have to fix this themselves and could just sacrifice their daughter instead. Nicky and Code Purple was just their way of shoving all this responsibility under the rug and getting to pretend that if they can't see it then it's not real anymore.

None of this was ever about Family or protection. It was always Lark and Sparrow trying to find a way to make this no longer their problem. The twins have always been selfish and violent. At at the end of they day they were both adults when they made all these choices and as painful and unfair as it is when you've been through trauma, you have to fix that shit yourself. You can't keep blaming your childhood or parents, you can't keep the cycle going and going on forever just because you're family didn't break it first.

#im willing to hear lark out cuz he literally seems nicer and more reasonable #but the twins are awful #i love them the way i love glenn which is u suck but god are u interesting #shoutout to the twins for going out of their way to hang out with Willy and Glenn on the Worst Dad Ever throne #maybe its my own trauma speaking but like sparrow's whole thing rings so hollow #he was protecting his family?? he just wanted normal to be normal and okay??? #i don't believe that at all #he wanted to control and use his kids and Normal didn't fit into that #sparrow showing off his severely traumatized daughter as the golden child but tries to hide his developmentally appropriate weird kid #all because that kid wasn't a good shot or couldn't murder on command #dungeons and daddies s2 #dnddads s2 spoilers #dnddads s2 #sparrow oak #hero oak #normal oak

[ihhfhonao3]

Correct me if I'm wrong but I don't see the big issue with the Ace Attorney anime. I started officially watching it a couple of days ago and I'm like. Shit bro this is funny as fuck. This is exactly what I signed up for coming into this fandom. Delicious.

#ace attorney #ace attorney anime #anime #maybe its another “you have to have played the games to understand” thing #in which no i do not understand because i have not played the games #shhh dont tell the gatekeepers. theyll hate on me for no reason #or maybe i havent watched enough anime in general? idfk #all i know is that gatekeepers suck. the end <3 #trying to convince me into thinking my own opinions are wrong. theyre called opinions for a reason #and i can have opinions no matter what my understanding of the series is. i may not have a full picture but that doesnt mean #that i cant have personal thoughts about it. am i supposed to not have any opinions on the series #until ive played all the games and finished the anime orrrrrrr #rant over

[dreamlogic]

quietly getting more & more annoyed at my housemate & her bf as the evening goes on. thought they were at his house this weekend but they showed up unexpectedly to have loud sex here, left for a little bit, came back in the middle of a fight, and are now watching tv really loudly in between continuing to totally-not-fight-everything's-FINE.

#ctxt #shit chat #they're both rly nice people who genuinely love each other a lot & have been together like 7 years #but in the time i've known them they just keep playing out the same maladaptive patterns together and it's painful to watch #one of them will be irritable for some reason and snap at the other; other responds by airing a deep-seated grievance they've been sittin on #and instead of just. having a conflict about it to its conclusion to resolve the issue they just both fall over themselves apologizing #and spend several hours being really touchy & reactive to little things but overwhelmingly gentle/reassuring/affectionate #person A: *snaps* im sorry baby i didn't mean it i'm just stressed i love you so much can i do anything for you? #person B: no no my love you're fine i'm not mad i understand can i do anything for YOU you're so special i care about you so much #*make out in the kitchen about it a bit. swap roles rinse & repeat* #like i know turning towards a loved one after conflict instead of giving them the cold shoulder is a sign of emotional maturity #and is generally a healthy communication habit #but like. you gotta actually HAVE the conflict first instead of glossing over it the minute difficult emotions come up??? #and when they get in these loops i really think they should just. agree on a mutual time out to do their own thing for a day #calm down sort themselves out and then come back together to mend things #instead of just reflexively drawing closer together immediately to try and smother discontent #which just results in them still being upset and now tripping over each other bumping elbows exacerbating things #while being obnoxiously saccharine to cover it up #i mean. 7 yrs is nothing to sneeze at but imo this is. not a sustainable way of relating & building a life together #and it sucks to watch it play out. reminds me of my parents who were blissfully incompatible in a similar way for like 30 years #before it finally blew up spectacularly with a lot of collateral damage earlier this year.

[beneaththegildedmoon]

My partner is a truly lovely man who keeps trying to talk to me and engage with me during the day and I am in such a state of overwhelm rn that it is all I can do not to scream at him to fuck off bc my pda is getting set off by him comstantly interrupting me listening to podcasts or watching videos or playing games to talk to me, so I am pretty monosyllabic in my replies due to the whole focusing-on-not-flipping-out thing, but then he assumes that means I'm mad at him and wants me to comfort him and reassure him that I'm not mad, so now I have to deal with being hugged and heavily masking my facial expressions on top of being talked to when literally all I wanted was to sit by myself in silence for 20 mins so I can attempt to regulate myself enough to eat some food

#its been a rough day #but i cant tell him that without upsetting him #so now i have to choose between prioritising my own emotional regulation or his #which sucks bc he's already dealing with a lot rn for unrelated reasons #so i feel like i have to push my own stuff down for now so i can support him through all this other stuff #i feel like im going to explode #being in a small flat doesnt help bc theres literally nowhere i can go in our home to be properly by myself for a while #he will always come find me #and telling him to give me space feels like kicking a puppy

[yuridovewing]

Speaking of Longtail, he's one of those first arc cats where I'm just set on him spawning out of nowhere. He does not have named parents. Who knows what happened to them or who they are. I don't. He just materialized in there with the name Longtail.

... Okay in all seriousness, I'm pondering the idea that he and Sandstorm are siblings and he's her older brother. He moved to ThunderClan as a young warrior when Sandkit was placed there and wasn't going to move back. This is a point of insecurity for him, which is why he lashes out at Rusty so harshly when he's introduced to the clan.

#also on the website he has EIGHT siblings good lord. yeah its just best if i wrench out that entire family and rework it #especially since brindleface was retconned into dustpelts brother via some website. which sucks. kill it. its bad and it sucks #anyways though. SO fond of my hc that longtail is really good with kids. like aside from firepaw #he dotes on swiftpaw and sandkit/paw a lot #... another idea is that he and sandkit are related to tallstar somehow (she takes after grandpa sandgorse and he had the tail) #dunno what's happening with tallstar's family here though. and im torn for a few reasons #like why wouldnt tallstar fight to keep his kin in his own clan when hes a family oriented person #why would one of his family members be named sandkit when sandgorse is acknowledged to have been abusive in this universe #and ofc where the hell would they have come from. cause they obviously cant be his kids with jake #and if im keeping onestar as his nephew through his half siblings then i gotta tread lightly if sandstorms also gonna be his niece #but eh their parents will probably just be unnamed background characters who die and give them no one else #echoed voice #razorverse #mayyybe sandkit going to thunderclan was meant to be temporary but she wanted to stay and longtail stayed with her #cause he couldnt bear his little sister being all alone in there. and tallstar just had to learn to let them go...

[pl4n]

#my art #ive been so jsvgjsnsndjbdjks #just a big ol jumble of kahsjdbskdhi #and i wanna draw more but im so uninspired aahhaah #i kinda wanna do some studies or smth but ahhhh idk i also just wanna lie in bed when i can #i so tire #but being lazy and bored is also so exhausting haha it feeds itself #so yeah itd be good to try to push myself a bit in my free time to do smth kinda fun chill engaging #its crazy bc theres so much that i could be doing but i have such a hard time being self motivated... #so outside motivation like work or friends is the only reason i do literally anything #which sucks bc i have a lot of things id like to be able to do on my own but yeah. idk why its so hard to do things for myself #that being said if anyone sees this and wants to do lil drawing challenges or trades or smth together that might be niceee #im sort of painfully shy online haha tho im not so much irl #i think the thing abt it for me is the feeling of creating these lil digital footprints #like if i send a message or make a post its just preserved like that... forever.. actually i recently looked at emails from my childhood #and its really cool to see a slice of the past like that but still. idk why it bothers me tbh. i just never got used to it #memories fade and warp over time right? so it really feels like existing in the world and talking to people is just a passing moment #it doesnt really feel that way w the internet. as small and insignificant these small imprints might be #and im really just being neurotic but yeah. maybe i dont like the feeling of taking up space and slowly widening it with every little step #yea thats neurotic fr LOLL #anyways im really rambling away in these tags haha but if ima post this art anyway its such a good excuse to ramble into a void :D #and a good way to practice existing on the internet. im sure ill get used to it

[thefakerachelray]

If the Chicago-Miami Amtrak line they’re considering starting already existed, I could be on a train to Florida right now instead of dreading having to fly there later today

#flying is never a fun experience. it’s just not. #going through TSA. feeling your ears pop. having to sit by strangers if you fly alone. the BOREDOM. #and the only other option is driving which sucks for its own separate set of reasons #on trains at least you don’t have to deal with airport security and you can use the internet

[smile-files]

aaaugh matpat why must you monopolize internet theory-crafting... i bet whatever welcome home theory he comes up with (no matter its quality) will be immediately absorbed into the heads of his tons of viewers who are only seeing the story for the first time in his video and all of the nuances of everything will be drained out from the general public's perception of the arg :(

#melonposting #matpat. augh #like he might come up with a genius theory. i don't know #but he's a big internet guy with a huge following #unless he says something obviously stupid and ridiculous his fans are probably gonna accept whatever theory he proposes #which isn't bad in its own right but everything with welcome home up until now has felt very... local? #like all of the different theories are being posed by smaller internet figures? so you can more readily form your own view? #but now here comes matpat with clickbaity internet mascot horror theory video number 513 #and you know these kid viewers would not be finding welcome home on their own accord. they'd be finding it through matpat #and they're gonna watch his video and be imprinted with this theory and never be able to form their own perspective #i don't know it just sucks for me. like for folks like night mind it's nice because it's just conveying the information to viewers #and encouraging them to look for more themselves #and to make their own theories!!!!!! #but for matpat. i dunno. i just saw a gtlive video on welcome home pop up in my recommended and it really bothered me for some reason :'D

[the-acid-pear]

Honestly the place where mascot horror fails is that they think all they have to do is sell toys, but in reality to sell toys you need a fandom. And how do you get a fandom? Easy. Give them characters to ship. It's an infallible technique.

#luly talks #sorry i was thinking of jeff the killer yaoi agian #but honestly like my train of thought is super twisted but like #mascot horror and creepypasta truly arent that different if not for one big foe: capitalism #WHICH IRONICALLY ENOUGH IS THE SAME REASON WHY CREEPYPASTAS CAN BE LIKE THEY WERE ANYMORE #BC THE CREATORS WANT CREDIT AND MONEY AND ETC which is fair but also creepypastas didnt use to be like taht yknow? #kids looove when theres a fucked up guy who then they can see not being fucked up is very enriching #creepypastas literally were the mascot horror of the communists no one owned anything it was our group project we all did fuck all #only thing like that we have is literally scp #and you know why the backrooms doesnt work this same way? #because backrooms stablished IN ITS ORIGIN a specific theme #so if you dont stick to that theme then it feels like it stands out and its yucky #creepypasta and scp are a bunch of little worlds in a same universe who can exist all on their own OR NOT! #also backrooms sucks bc the point of the backrooms was that you ddidnt know wtf was there but whateverrrrrrrrrrr <- hater supreme

[ladynicte]

Really wanna write fics but also it's kinda hard when I know I won't really get any interaction back from the months of hard work it will surely take

#like i know this is my own fault because i come from writing to a very big very active fandom and on a pretty popular pairing as well #so i was used to a lot of constant readers and comments and just feedback as a general #which in turn got me constantly writing at my best for literal years #so now when i dont automatically get that or really just get that as a general i get pretty demotivated pretty quickly #but still #it sucks a little when you publish like 5k of one chapter and it has zero comments hurts the soul a little bit is all #so yeah convincing myself to write fics for this fandom became pretty hard after i wrote that super big first fic and felt like yelling #into the void #i hate saying this kinda stuff because i feel like it comes off as entitled i know i dont just deserve and theres no reason i should just #get whatever thing i want #but its just a feeling and that's how i feel #either way i still wanna write so i will because thats my first most important motive to write #just it will be harder for sure #Luna's fics talks

[maschotch]

hi again!

i am naturally ever so soft for emily prentiss but oh my GOODNESS that beautiful character study?

“there was always a sickening layer of sin over her skin” — my God. How painfully true. And she knows it too, the look on her face at the end of Demonology as she gazes up at the church with that little bit of blood trickling out her nose says it all. 😭

and is there anything more heartbreakingly accurate to described Hotch than “A calculated tenderness.” 🥺💛

i loved it 💛

- 🦢

ahhh this is so nice!!

i really don’t write emily as much as i should but it’s hard to convey her energy… soo much of her character is dependent on pg’s mouth movements delivery, and it’s hard to hit that sweet spot between free-spirited and caring

akhdksh i really didnt intend that sin part to be a reference.. i was actually a little reluctant bc im rarely willing to casually slip in some religious-type word, but “she felt icky” didnt seem to cover itskdjskhx but i like the parallel! i probably have more to say on emily and religion but i couldnt think of any other way to describe just how ingrained her regret is and how everythings shes done feels like a permanent stain that she can never wash off

“calculated tenderness” WAS intentional bc i feel like it really does encapsulate his behavior. hotch being reserved yet unabashed in his kindness is such a weird contradiction (which again id like to give credit to the actor for) but it suits him so well. he’s either afraid to feel or express his love, but he can’t help it. and i think each member of the team comes to realize the depth of his affection in their own time.. emily just happens to be incredibly observant, so i think she notices it the fastest (especially bc she witnessed it before she experienced it for herself). i could really talk ab this all day skdhskd

#ok see the reason i dont write character studies that often is because i can talk for sooooo long ab them #and i love talking about it so i love that you sent this ask—i just have to stop myself from writing an essay in response #it fucking sucks bc it seems like sometimes the team just… forgets that hotch cares and they have to relearn that all over again #which is some fucking bullshit #garcia does it the most—which is kinda odd tbh bc she tends to look on the bright side #she’s so brave and open about who she is but for some reason she’s insecure when it comes to hotch #even tho he’s never reprimanded her.. she thinks she’s constsntly disappointing him #reid forgets ab how much hotch cares pretty often but tbh its somethin he unintentionally does w everyone #he can get stuck in his own little bubble sometimes and i think he just? forgets that other people experience emotion? #(when i talk ab reid being emotionally immature this is always what im talking about) #derek forgets in his own way… like… he always knows that hotch cares for the team #he just forgets that that includes HIM #akdhskhd idk how it happens but its like he doesnt realize that he’s loved as an individual #emily does something similar… she recognizes that hotch cares ab the team (including her) #but she feels guilty about it #she subconsciously distances herself from the rest but its too late: hotch cares about her too #and i dont think hotch can stop caring once he starts #asks #n e ways. skipping the update today akdhsk i’ll either post two tomorrow or three on friday #ive got two exams tmrw so obviously instead of studying or writing i had to obsess over mob psycho #priorities