#who probably dont even deserve

[ruralcat]

am i jaded or do men really just fucking suck

#so unbelieveably tired of men claiming their love for me when they do not. even. fucking. know me. #they do not even know me #leave me alone #i hate you #why do the women in their lives need to be their Sunshine or their Soulmate or their Caretaker why cant women just be fucked up gross humans #who probably dont even deserve #.. or want!!! #your attention #women can not exist without them being a character or a doll in a mans life #women can never be individuals #without being lusted or loved after

[popdrop]

I STILL CAN'T GET OVER HOW IN THE BEGINNING, CALE PUSHED EVERYONE AWAY. You may say it's because of how "dangerous" and "trouble packed" their journey will be in the story later on— BUT. I JUST CANT HELP BUT FEEL LIKE MAYBE , JUST MAYBE. He didn't want them to be affected by his "curse" (side effect of WS) whether he knew about it or not. Just consider the fact that he KNOWS what will happen to them and how they'll be fighting for a better world and it'd be MUCH better if he's not there. Just in case he worsens whatever will happen.

He's such an unreliable narrator <3 the Worst Kind Ever.

#cale henituse #you will always be famous #TCF #trash of the count's family #and you might say OH he probably doesnt really /know/ about the side effect but i raise you this #this b//tch was able to rise up to be a commander and an absolute BEAST of a team leader. #with a 0% LETHAL RATE (probably. actually need to fact check that but its somewhere along those lines) #poor b//stard was tired of everyone leaving him and if he can help it #no one will suffer. even if it is at his expense #my point is: he's a smart ass he probably figured out something was wrong with him when people doesnt really get Close yo him and anyone- #who DID f//ckin DIED #he deserves the world and more #though he'd probably pass out if was given a world #'I DONT WANT TO RULE A WORLD! GIVE ME MY SLACKER LIFE!!' he'd say

[oceanwithouthermoon]

ehh um ummm.. hairo+kuboyasu+saiki polycule..

saiki being really into muscular guys is just so silly to me.. i think he would just enjoy knowing that even though he's technically the stronger one, his partner is very much capable of taking care of him even if he doesnt need it

all three of them have very low self preservation skills and a very high need to protect others before themselves(yea yea saiki too, he refuses to admit it but literally reread it if you dont think its true), so their dynamic would be really fun and silly and theyd be really protective of each other..

#let them ALL carry each other interchangeably #you could honestly add anyone to this polycule and itd work #teruhashi ? these r the three guys that r the most respectful toward her #nendo ? haisai is already popular and practically canon and nensai is well-liked too! and he would fit very well with the dynamic #aiura ? she loves strong men too lmao #mera ? i think she has some of her best interactions with aren+kusuo #kaido ? they would literally become his protection squad and let him pretend like hes the leader #yumehara ? also probably shockingly strong and also i just think she deserves to have caring loving boyfriends #saiko ? i dont know why but i like this one a lot lmao youve got the two big hunks and their two tsunderes #i think i named literally everyone but toristuka but i cant think of how he would fit into this dynamic #these are the three people who would totally reel tori in though.. that could work #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #hairo kineshi #kuboyasu aren #haisai #kubosai #do aren and kineshi even have a ship name #definitely not #what would it be ? haiyasu ? kinaren ? no. #meows post

[eerna]

I just think that............. *gestures wildly to how Harrow experiences attraction* you know??????

#as you could probably tell by my fanart today i am having a Night #this funky repressed nun chose the object of her worship to double as her imaginary gf #she cuddles her she calls her beloved she tries to make a move on her #all completely imaginary of course. she doesn't feel any of that but likes to imagine she can feel it. #the object of her worship is also the death of god the monster he defeated once but couldnt defeat twice who resides in a tom under her home #a tomb harrow herself was conceived at the price of 200 innocent children to keep shut #she is the symbol of harrow's power as a necromancer she is the proof harrow deserves to live even if the price was so horrible #and then there's ianthe who is also a brilliant necromancer. who understands attraction at the level harrow does and uses it against harrow #how the only two times harrow even considered giving in to ianthe was when she was either at the end of her rope and insanely powerless #or when she felt at the top of her game like the powerful necromancer she is supposed to be and somehow isn't anymore #their touching is always threatening and uncomfortable and makes her feel on edge #and then there's gideon who just. has nothing to do with any of that. gideon exists on a completely different level. #she reduces alecto to ''ice lolly bimbo'' and ''big slut'' and ''bullshit dead girlfriend'' without breaking a sweat #she forgives harrow everything. things harrow had no part in and things she had. it doesn't matter she forgives it all #she holds harrow's hand she hugs her she kisses her she is REAL and the FIRST PERSON TO EVER PROPERLY TOUCH HER WITH AFFECTION #and it stuns harrow so much she is incapable of even processing it. she completely shuts down every time. we dont know how she feels aboutit #just. harrow and attraction and desire. holy shit #tlt liveblog

[sonknuxadow]

genuinely i dont think there needs to be a big extended sonic movie universe. i think 3 movies and a spinoff miniseries are enough. we do not need a bunch of sequels and spinoffs introducing all the characters and adapting every game . to be clear this wasnt prompted by any specific news i was just thinking about it

#and i say this as someone who LIKES the sonic movies btw #theyre not perfect theres some parts that i dont care for (like. the stuff with cops. sonic and friends dont like cops what are you DOING) #but i do for the most part find them to be a fun watch #however . we dont need a 4th one . please #i dont even get the point of adapting the entire game series like the games already exist just go play those #do people think that live action adaptations are an inherent improvement deserving of more respect or something ? #also just look at the mcu. its a mess thats literally impossible for the average viewer or casual marvel fans to keep up with #id hate to see the sonic movies turn into that even if im a dedicated sonic fan that would be able to keep up with it #now that i said this the third movie is probably gonna have a post credits scene #thats jusr silver showing up and going ITS NO USE !!!!!!!!!!!!! or some shit teasing a 4th movie

[phoebeejeebies]

I’m gonna be strange in ur askbox …

Pheobe and Melody thoughts!! uh mm m

pheobe knows that she’ll never see Melody again. At least not for a while.

But she’ll talk to her. Even if she can’t hear her.

“Uh.. if you can hear me in the fabric of the universe, I miss you.”

And she’ll ramble on and on about what’s going on in her life. Maybe she’ll cry a little. Maybe she’ll cry a LOT.

can melody hear her from the other side? Maybe . Pheobe hopes she can.

Melody can hear her and listens to every word. Melody memorizes all of what Pheobe says. Melody will memorize what Pheobe says beat for beat and play the melody (get it?) in her head over and over again when she misses that damn ghostbuster.

Melody wishes she stayed, sometimes.

Melody wishes she didn’t let go, sometimes.

It gnaws at her spirit - it gnaws at the peace she feels in passing on.

But Pheobe is reminded of Melody’s weaving into the fabric of the universe when it’s the perfect temperature outside, when she gets a rush of adrenaline, when nights are quiet and she can work in peace.

Melody sprinkles little things into the world, just for her Pheobe.

The stars shine a little brighter and maybe for a little bit , Pheobe feels whole again.

you make me sick. thank you for sharing. im ill. (all /pos) UUGHAAHNFGG you GET IT. PHOEBE AND MELODY are THEEEE doomed yuri. the way that this relationship will irreparably affect her for the rest of her life. moving on is hard enough, but knowing that you were in love with a GHOST GIRL and you see her in EVERYTHING you do. phoebe takes doomed yuri and ramps it up a little 😭😭😭

i read something that was similar recently. i forgot where. but phoebe would talk about her feelings when she things no one is listening but secretly hope melody is listening. it helps her move on, even if she knows logically melody is gone. but is she really? she's in everything. she was everything. tells her about her day, about her family. how things get better, get easier, get worse sometimes. healing has never been a linear process after all :')

and then on the other side, melody :''') manifesting good things for phoebe. partially because of the tiny tugging guilt melody has for her lack of honesty - because phoebe had grown on her. she goes out of her way to just make the world a little bit lighter, a little bit kinder, more beautiful. phoebe grows a fondness for the moon, for the stars in the sky. for the warm evenings and cloudy mornings, for the busy-ness of new york city.

phoebe makes an effort to go to melody's diner routinely. she becomes a regular. she just misses her. so much.

(i accidentally KEPT rambling in the tags. i didnt mean to T_T)

#and i dont blame her #some of my most soulcrushing relationships happened when i was 15-16 and even as an adult i carry that with me now #it gets easier because you learn to move on #but she's not quite there yet #she's still learning to love and learn how to be alive #melody helps her learn to feel alive again #honestly phoebe probably falls into a state of depression after frozen empire #the guilt from her feelings overcoming her rational and accidentally almost causing the end of the world #and then knowing she's been used by a girl she Really Liked #and then feeling surrounded by this girl. all the time. im sure sometimes she doesnt even feel like she deserves to be a ghostbuster #her family help #podcast helps #but i think ray helps the most and tells her about stories the ghostbusters used to do #and she learns about her grandpa who also did silly things sometimes #and she will be okay :') she will learn #things will get easier - better even #phoebe and melody #ghostbusters #ghostbusting #ghostbusters frozen empire #phoebe spengler #melody ghostbusters #mangobango #checkmatch #phelody

[lesbianfakir]

Everyone shut up about toxic yaoi, nothing you write about will ever be HALF as insane as what Walter White and Jesse Pinkman had going on.

The world’s most toxic codependent relationship has already been written and it involves a man destroying everything his surrogate son figure holds dear to maintain his psychological grip on him. Walt did everything in his power to break Jesse just to get to keep him at the end of the day. He chose to let Jesse’s girlfriend die and then held him and comforted him through the grief. He risked his life to save Jesse’s and then used that as leverage to manipulate him into becoming a killer. He berates and lies to and abuses Jesse but in the quiet moments you realize he loves Jesse. Jesse is family, and Walt would do anything for his family. He despises Jesse but he loves him as a son. He’ll ruin Jesse’s life and then put his own on the line to save it. They try to kill each other but they can’t live without one another. And in the end Walt succeeded! Jesse will never be free of Walt’s shadow for as long as he lives. CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME WHY ARENT WE TALKING ABOUT THIS

#going insaneeeeeee because in his twisted fucking way Walt loved Jesse #he’d do anything for his family and despite it all jesse was family #like Walt letting Jane who jesse loved more than anything die and then comforting Jesse through his grief! insane!!!! #talking about him as a son with Janes father #and then letting Jane die moments later #insane!!!!!!!!! #saving Jesse from the guys who killed Tomas even knowing it would probably be his death!!!!!! #and the. manipulating Jesse into killing gale #begging gus for his and Jesse’s lives in the box cutter scene #WHY DONT WE TALK ABOUT THOS #I just #AAAAAA #lea talks #lea off topic tag #anyways I fucking despise Walter white skylar deserved to gut him like a fish

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[medi-bee]

just learned that the entire Creatures series is on steam and it feels like there's an alien about to explode out of my chest

if you don't know what these are, they were one of the first life simulators ever. You hatch and raise these various little ai beasts called Norns in their funky spaceship and teach them everything they know and keep them safe, and they have emotions and personalities and families and can breed and have mutations and get sick, and there's medicine and chemicals and so much more brainy nonsense if you care to get into it, and it all goes SO IN-DEPTH... IT'S INSANE THAT THIS SERIES WAS FIRST RELEASED IN 1998!!!

and as far as i know there's still a semi-active modding community! LIKE THEY JUST RELEASED A NEW DLC SPECIFICALLY FOR MODDERS LESS THAN A DAY AGO ARE YOU KIDDING. HUH?? i didn't even know that until 2 minutes ago sorry that is my live reaction. what. 20+ year old game just got a new dlc 12 hours ago coincidentally just when i rediscover the series. okay. im being so normal right now👍

#medi bee talking #coming back from the dead specifically to be abnormal about a 20 year old game series #my fucking childhood game(s) #the first games i ever played in my pathetic life right next to putt-putt #spore came later but it still deserves an award for childhood game i think. but this isnt about her #this is the quickest ive ever bought something in my life #the emotions that shot through me when i opened up the steam page and heard their little norn noises and the sounds of the spaceship #i've kept the discs for 1 and 3 (i never had 2) all these years and would occasionally go through the trouble of installing them #for that sweet succulent nostalgia hit #but paying a few dollars to have them safe and soundly digital on my steam account is worth so fucking much to me #even if im probably going to have to fiddle with the settings to get the albian years games to work on my modern computer #nobody talk to me im reliving my childhood (PLEASE tell me im not the only one who played these games PLEASE) #my insane bias wants to recommend this game to everyone in the world #sadly im not sure the younger generation would get it. whatever i dont even care (cares a lot)

[ghostly-omens]

The reason I do not post much about HermitCraft is because I would not be able to stop myself from bullying Xisuma. And not in a nice way.

#im not an xisumavoid anti i do not *hate* him or even strongly dislike him #and he doesnt deserve to be the subject of hate in his own fandom and xisuma fans in the hermitcraft fandom should nit be made to feel bad #or see that #but hes a conservative 'centrist' type who voted for brexit #remember that time a child said 'there should be more women on hermitcraft thatd be cool' #and x said 'there should be more good creators and they may or may not be women but we shouldnt add women to meet a quota' #when pearl and gem got added at the same time i made a joke about how xisuma probably had to be dragged kicking and screaming into agreeing #that was a joke i dont actually think that #but its not a nice kind of thing to say about a creator in their own fandom #so i refrain

[docterzerocare]

had more thoughts on the Qsmp Au i came up with last night:

- Juanaflippa shooting Cucurucho with her gun. it's just a funny mental image to me.

- i had this. idea about Tilin witnessing q!Quackity getting kidnapped. Tilin seeing ElQuackity, who's pretending to be Quackity, and going "You're not my dad. Where is my dad? What did you do to him?"

- Tilin, just in general, refusing to go along with ElQuackity's BS because That's not my father. Stop trying to pretend you're him you're not why did you take my dad away why why why bring him back Please-

- listen. from what i've heard, Maxo is Going Through It, so he deserves to still have a living child. just in general, no more grieving parents. everyone is at least somewhat happier because they've still got their children.

- i have absolutely zero fucking clue how Gegg comes into existence, but here we are.

- the other misc. eggs (A1, the other egg that got found too late) get homes and parents too. for whatever reason, i'm getting the names Arin and Bluebell respectively.

- Arin's accessory would either be a little bandaid on the side of their face or a little yellow flower on their head (a dandelion :]), maybe both, and Bluebell gets a flower crown of forget-me-nots.

- Arin, Tilin, and Juanaflippa (because of Tilin mostly) have formed the "FUCK ElQuackity, All My Homies HATE ElQuackity" Club. good for them <3

- also like. what if the Federation just erased Q's memories anyway, so he comes back and doesn't recognize Tilin anymore. so just. Tilin being so happy that he's finally back only to realize that he doesn't remember them. This Severely Fucks Them Up For Several Reasons.

- i also realized that Tilin is receiving so much angst. i didn't intend for this to happen i swear.

- i've decided that the times that the eggs Would Have died canonically were just really close calls in this au. example, Maxo got to Trump in time, Flippa and Tilin got medical attention in time and were only physically (and mentally) scarred, Arin managed to run away, Bluebell was discovered by Cellbit in time, etc.

- upon realizing that Tilin had no other parent besides Quackity, Slime and Mariana decided that they would also help. Tilin and Flippa were already hanging out so much that they were practically like siblings (and. also pretty much were, but shh), so why not just help with Tilin too?

...well, Slime and Mariana were pretty dysfunctional, but uh. as far as Quackity's concerned, it's the thought that counts, right?

Doc i'm not even entirely into the qsmp but i've gotten attached to these lil eggs help

Oughhigh i love this

Arin and bluebell omg <3

#you are so right maxo deserves happiness #gegg is either some goop charlie somehow turned into a kid (insert joke about mariana and charlie) #or charlie just agere sometimes #tilin leading the war on elq as she should lmao #luzu and probably the brazilians would help with tilin too #i think it was luzu who was supposed to be partered up with q? i havent kept track of him that well aside from a lil bit of the ai stuff #idk why but tubbo n trumpet re a duo in my brain now #i dont even know much about trumpet lmao #and i dont know if max and tubbo have interacted #but tubbo is on a lot and is attached to the eggs so i bestow the boy who needs a lot of love on him #also maxos daughter is restored pls n ty #im temp calling this the copium au in my head btw #qsmp eggs #<3

[espectres]

so tempted to add npcs. extensive ramble in the tags.

#I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN. the urge is just worse now #ofc i had to be thinking abt smthing like this at the start of my FINALS MONTH. HHHHH #but anyway this will happen. probably. eventually #Shou's lackeys have too much of an influence on him idk why but i want this fact TO SHINE AND BLIND EVERYONE #becuz im constantly screaming this kid was not raised by parents he's raised by ppl #and it's the sole reason why he's so down to earth and so aware and so human unlike his tyrant of a father #but that doesn't mean that it was all entirely good #BUT SHOU IS A GOOD KID!!!! HE HAS A GOOD HEART !!!!!! and that's all thanks to experiences and advices and all sorts of #wackey nonsense he's been thru while being a part of claw #and it wouldn't have been the same without his team who weren't really different from him #just a bunch of ppl forced into a really bad place. even if it was a choice at the start for some of them #but that doesnt mean they dont deserve a chance at change and a better life away from the nightmare called claw #god.... goddddd #its just shou & his ppl & the horrors beyond ur comprehension that they faced everyday #and after all is said and done they ALL have to deal with it. HAVE TO LiVE WITH IT. on their own. no longer together.. #ショウ ; i realized that youth is grey. / headcanon.

[semercury]

Can't go shopping by myself or I'll end up donating $450. Got it.

#stuff sarah says #i never know what to do in those situations #i dont keep cash on me for that reason #but if you come up to me and ask me to buy your cart im not allowed to say no #i thought it would be around $100. not $450. #my ears are such im not good at understanding broken english and i have no spine #and i would have been a bad person if i said no #im probably still a bad person bc his wife asked me to buy MORE and i was like no. i work a part time job #and the super fucked up thing? this wont even hurt that bad for me #i pinch every penny and have a good cushion and savings #i dont deserve any of it. what am i going to use it for? school? #like i deserve that happiness #i should die. i deserve to die. im not good for anything and then my money can go to people who deserve it more

[sonknuxadow]

sorry to post about things nobody gives a shit about but mattel has lost their minds if they think that this is worth 90 dollars . what

#i dont even buy the collector monster high dolls though so my opinion probably doesnt matter #well actually my main reason for not buying them is because most are overpriced for what they are so maybe it does matter #that and i just dont really care for some of them. like this one for example #rochelle you deserved so much better bestie #i feel like they just price things however they want regardless of if its reasonable or not #because they know fans who only like g1 will eat up any g1 content they put out #it honestly feels kinda random too? like theyre just throwing darts at the wall to decide how much every new doll should cost

[blogalreadydoesntexist]

lesbians/fem bisexuals/etc etc girl girl likers who dont count trans women are so funny because youll open up their page to block them and BOOM purple lesser known nazi symbol or 'gender identities are dense' is their title but they have an infinity train, nimona, or steven universe pfp.

You hate yourself and got some internalized shit or what?

just as a side note, because ive seen a couple saying to go vote for him to get 'rid' of trans people, nazis didnt kill just jewish people, and neither will desantis kill just trans people.

We're all gonna be dead eventually if we don't stand up and you dont stop being such a fucking pussy, the leopards will never starve, and you will always have a face <3

Gay and trans people are in the same inflatable boat, and gay transphobes/homophobes and trans homophobes/transphobes are hammering nails and wood through it to fix it.

#al's general discourse tag #imagine facing hate for what you look like and who you love then hating people for what they look like and who they love #'longsword lesbians' or whatever their jkr asses are called if i remember right #probably not right but #thats a cool name and so is battleaxe bi what the fuck. fucking homophobes and transphobes stg #nazis deserve death as always #even 'gay nazis' or 'trans nazis' because a nazi is a nazi is a nazi #''everyone is entitled to an opinion'' they said trans people should be raped; nuh uh. they dont get SHIT. #cw #tw #cw sa mention #abuse cw #cw homophobia #cw death #cw violence #cw politics #tw abuse #tw death #tw violence #tw ab*se #tw politics

[homophyte]

it is interesting to me that ive seen lately (n yknow this is subjective and likely not any real social force just what ive seen) many queer people simultaneously talking about taking back and embodying unpalatable and ‘unmarketable’ queerness (the recent return to the terms faggot and transsexual come to mind) which i think is pretty evidently shaped by the conservative moment were in of demonizing queer ppl and especially gnc and trans people as predators--it reads as a return to queer isolationism in the face of external hostility, imo--while at the same time ive seen a lot of rallying around the “original” 6 stripe rainbow flag as opposed to any of the purportedly ‘factional’ flags of different queer identities, with the assumption being different identity flags divide us while the rainbow flag encompasses everyone and its kinda fascinating to me bc the rainbow flag is probably the single most marketable and palatable and uncontroversial symbols of queerness which has been seamlessly uptaken by those who wish to sell it back to us as gets pointed out every pride month with all the cringey pride merch.... i dunno you could maybe take that as a point of hypocrisy and claim the queer community is itself in a conservative moment rn where its returning to a sense of history and historical continuity (perhaps even out of that sense of external threat) or even that the queer community has for some time been in a conservative moment given the like, decade of identity discourse and lashing out at any people deemed to not have a sufficiently established history or however we should categorize the bihets/ace discourse/transtrender-tucute discourse/pan discourse/bi lesbians discourse (because lets be frank its essentially all the same discourse just keeping up its momentum by leapfroging from one target to the next) which i think is, like, SOMEWHAT true but not entirely? its more interesting to me, in any case, as an expression of a conflict the queer community is facing given that current state of affairs RE antitransness and that very recent history. like, the simultaneous need to retreat to a safe sense of community which is welcoming to the very things the outer world is demonizing ie mutable gender, complex or contradictory experiences of gender, gender expression which is hostile to the cis binary, but also the ways in which it has to grapple with those discourses which have largely defined the community infighting for again the past decade. its queer people begging the question ‘how can we make the queer community welcoming to the girlfags and genderfucks and tboys who are being threatened when we have spent so much time making the queer community a hostile place for anyone with a non-conventional or not easily (or even just palatably) sortable sense of queer identity’. and the answer it seems to be grappling with at the moment is like, welcoming all that diversity of experience but being absolutely averse to naming it. yes we love all the fuckery with gender and sexuality never be marketable but like, ew, why are you calling yourself [insert microlabel here]. you can be genderweird but you cant call yourself genderweird. you can only exist as queer in the broadest possible way (the all-inclusive gay pride flag!) but if you try to name the specifics or use those identity labels weve been fighting over for years youre doing it wrong (the progress pride flag is now ugly and cringey and ‘too much’). i think theres something also to the way (at least on this site) transmisogynistic discourses have really taken hold as legitimate (though yknow i wont downplay how much a problem transmisogyny has like. always been in queer spaces no matter what) in the name of protecting n defending trans people. like its just regurgitated transmisogyny but its being mobilized supposedly in the service of helping trans people. idk its definitely getting a little late for me to string this together fully coherently but theres a throughline there, in the ways certain ideas are being consolidated and reified as ‘yes were more progressive now!’ when i think theres definitely something to question there in terms of like...are we? are we actually? are we doing better by the people were trying to help or are we setting strict standards and forcing ppl to adhere to them again?

#myposts #this is long and honestly probably Nothing #i dont even really have a way of proving its the same group of people saying both things except fro anecdotally seeing it #and even thats not proof either is a real social force with like power. i could be entirely wrong on every count here #but i do think theres something to the idea that like #as ive seen said #yknow 'ace discourse never ended you all just accepted ace people didnt deserve support and then moved on w those views internalized' #i think thats more broadly true for like. all those discourses i mentioned. and for the transmisogyny i alluded to #but honestly i dont even want to name the specific phenomenon im talking abt there bc those people. scare me. #but yknow ill say it ive felt way more pressure lately to not call myself pan than i did at the height of pan discourse #before it became cringe to care about it and instead of actively shitting on pan ppl we moved on to passively doing it #ive largely started just. calling myself bi to avoid the arguement. which i predicted i would have to do years ago #and now look at me doing it! not really a fluke that its happening now. i think #which isnt to say were moving 'backwards' per se but that these ideas are not now and never have been really challenged #so weve just internalized their logics--reactionary logics--and its having an interesting effect now that we need a progressive community #for our safety. #now we cant say anything about it because to bring it up is jeopardizing everything weve built and the people were keeping safe! #cause we dont count as people deserving of safety were disruptors who only belong when we dont make noise. idk. or thats how i feel #again i dont really know if this is true at all im more just...thinking through it i think #basically like what im seeing--i think--comes from simultaneously that need to be unmarketable in the face of hostility #coming into conflict with a decade of momentum to make queers solely marketable. and i think thats producing some interesting--but sucky #--discourses in the current moment #last disclaimer that i might and am likely totally wrong! okay lauren out. post send *nervous sweating*