#yes i'm wasting my life

[dayurno]

my advice for anyone whos growing more and more frustrated with the state of aftg and fandom at large is that arguing is fun but you need to be happy. ok. you need to. its hard when bad faith takes are dropped to your doorstep but you need to be happy and enjoy yourself and have fun or there's no point in anything at all ever. ok. fandom is not real and nothing is worth more than your enjoyment. i love you please make sure to have fun and reach out to a friend today. for me

#this goes doubly for fans of color if i'm honest #i say this bc a lot of my mutuals either currently or in the past have been very upset about how the fandom acts #and ive Done My Rounds with that ok #ive survived great wars even. and they did not make me happy #yes i was right and yes i should have said it but ultimately there was no material harm to choosing to have fun instead #lifes hard as it is in the real world where real things happen why would you waste your precious fun time on fighting crusades #and trust me i understand deeply the wish to fight crusades. Ive Fought Them. it got me hate mail and #an overall loss of passion for something i held sincerely in my heart #theres nothing more worthy than your enjoyment im serious. none of this is real and the world is hard out there #you need to get a good thing while u can #i dont remember a single time where ive actually felt vindicated by arguing with people online about. anything really but even more so aftg #but i remember in perfect and fond detail every time the (now defunct) kandreil discord server came up with an au #or even just normal casual conversation #i remember asks i got years ago about kevin day hcs that i hardly even agree with now but still love #trust me you will Not remember these squabbles what you will remember is what you loved and if youre lucky thats a lot of memories #so have fun ok. for me #txt

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 736: The night of the training camp

Pag 1

2: Who is it? Someone is there....

3: …. rain

At the training camp.....

4: An umbrella....

Pag 2

1: Yo, Onoda

3: …. Te

…. ah..... Te

Pag 3

1: Teshima-san!!

Have you been well?

It's been a while, we haven't seen each other since my graduation

Pag 4

1: Waa- Teshi- Teshima-san! Di you come here on puropose to see ho-how things are going!?

Have you- have you been woll too, Teshima-san!?

Yeah, as usual – woll? (haha)

2: So-sorry this is so sudden and I'm so surprised! Co-come in!!

You do seem very surprised

3: You can put your shoes here, and your umbrealla here

Yeah, I know. I've had the training camp here for three years, too, after all

4: Ahh... but, it started to rain so suddenly

Good thing I had a spare umbrella in the car

5: Sorry I came here so suddenly

Pag 5

1: I thought you guys would have “prepared” if I had contacted you beforehand

2: Training camp is busy, you can't waste even one minute of these four days. I know how busy you are

When a senpai comes in the middle of that, it makes you waste too much time

3: … Teshima-san

4: Bu.... but, it's not a waste

Uhm- ah- we really owe you so much, Teshima-san! 5: And alos, at last year's Inter High.... uhm

6: I think we could win thanks to you, Teshima-san!!

Pag 6

1: Thank you

When you say it with such earnest eyes, I'm happy to think you really mean it

2: No no, I mean, it's true!! On the mountain during the first day... and of course the mountain stage on the third day...

Ahh, I did win that

Yeah well, it's beacause of that....

3: Ah- uhm, dammit I forgot to offer you some tea.... is the tea from the vending machine okay?

Ehi ehi, it's okay. You choose

Huh!?

4: I came all the way here, let me be your senpai

Pag 7

2: Teshima.... san

3: Than-

4: yo-

Waa- Onoda!!

5: My- my bad

So- sorry, this kind of things....

You're really not good at them... I forgot....

Pag 8

1: I see, so Danchiku.... and Sugimoto, too....

2: Yes

3: Well, you have no choice but to watch over them

Yes

6: That's what I intend to do!!

Pag 9

1: You got the “face of a third year”, Onoda

You change like that, when others count on you as a “third year”, your face....

2: Taking good care of the others isn't the only role of a third year

Sometimes, turning them down, or turning your back to them is also important

Just like Makishima-san once did

3: with you

6: Even so, you chased Makishima-san's back and admired him

Pag 10

1: Kohai watch their senpai's back and grow!!

2: If you slack off, they slack off

3: If you work hard, they imitate you

Pag 11

1: If you smile, they smile

2: Who's that guy, teh

He's talking with senpai.... here in the back

How can I know!!

But, he's smirking and has long hair, he's suspicious

4: Earlier, you said that last year's Inter High was thanks to me- what about this year's Inter High?

Thanks to whom will they work hard this year?

6: You

Pag 12

1: This time, it's your turn to become the object of their admiration

Pag 13

1: Onoda

3: That's what brings Sohoku together!!

4: That guy his Onoda-san!!

Do you think we should go there and help him, teh!?

No, wait, now he's stroking his neck!?

5: Honestly, choosing the members is hard

You trouble yourself, pace around, and still you'll have no answer

Ah-

6: But the important thing isn't how it was decided but “who you decided”

Pag 14

1: If you find the answer to “who” after worrying about it a lot, everyone will accept it and move forward

2: …. Teshima-san....

3: Uhm... how did you know that that's what I was worrying about....

I'm the former captain, am I not? Also, it's written on your face

Ah-

4: He wants to strangle him ike that!? That guy with shaggy hair!!

Ahh- this is bad, teh, we have to protect Back-gate-slope-san!!

5: Let's go!! Don't hesitate, Rokudai!!

Yeah, teh....!!

6: Eh!?

Huh?

Pag 15

2: Huh!?

Senpai, let's get away

3: Who are you!? Back-gate-slope-sa.... What do you want to do to Onoda-san!!

Pag 16

5: In the confusion I called him by his real name, “Onoda-san”, teh!! Sorry!!

6: Unathorized people shouldn't be able to enter, it's reserved!!

Right!! Shaggy-hair!!

Rokudai-kun!? Kinaka-kun!?

7:  N-no, you two got it wrong-

8: Onoda....

Pag 17

1: You're really protecting your team members with all your strength

2: Eh-

3: Since you're protecting them, they're protecting you, too

4: What's your name

Yessir, my name is Rokudai Renta- no wait, that's not right!!

5: Huh

6: Since I'm protecting them.... with all my strength.....!!

Pag 18

2: Rokudai, if

Huh!? What

If you clear this training camp and get chosen as a member for the Inter High

Huh!?

3:  Protect Onoda like this with all your strength

Pag 19

1: Huh

…. yes

2: Idiot, Rokudai, don't let your guard down just because of those sweet words!!

Ah!! That's right, teh!!

I'll introduce you: this is Teshima Junta-san

You have some goos first years!

He graduated last year and is now an university student, but

3: He's the former Sohoku captain

4: Cap....

I was nominated captain by Teshima-san

5: ta....in?

Pag 20

1: We- we- we're so sorry!!

It's nothing

2: We did that, teh....!!

To- to such an important senpai!!

3: Ah.... uh... thank you for your work!! What brings such an important senpai like you here?

He came to encourage us

4: Ah also, I brought

6: some new pedals for Onoda!!

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal manga #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #yowamushi pedal translations #ride 736 #THIS IS THE BEST CHAPTER EVER OH MY GOD ASDSDHFJKADSGJDGF #I'M!!!! ASDDFHSDGFK I SWEAR IVE BEEN YELLING SINCE YESTERDAY WHEN I FIRST READ IT #THANK YOU WATANABE FOR MY LIFE AND MY HAPPINESS #first: Junta my boy my love IVE MISSED HIM SO MUCH i needed him back so bad and this chapter healed me okay #the way he says right away something that diminishes his important and onoda is ready to tell him that NO YOURE IMPORTANT ITS #ITS NOT A WASTE OF TIME DEDICATING TIME TO YOU WE LOVE YOU TESHIMA-SAN YOURE AMAZING #yes onoda you tell him #i love how junta appears just right when onoda needs him and i love that we finally have junta giving him advice as captain #and the whole talk he gives onoda is so :') #i love the kind of team sohoku is #the whole ' you have to turn your back to your kohai sometimes so they can follow your back' is so ;^; #junta my wise boy #and then AND THEN #KINAKA AND ROKUDAI MY DUMB IDIOT SPECIAL BABIES DSAGHFKHGasf #how is it that the first thing they think about is that junta wants to harm onoda saAFSDAFSD like WHY #they're so RIDICULOUS #the way the jump up and rokudai puts himself between onoda and junta #and theyre both ready to fight for onoda #PLEASE THAT THE MOST WHOLESOME THING EVER AND ALSO THE MOST RIDICULOUS I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #onoda is so mortified lmap #and junta is just like 'yeah clearly youre doing well they love you and would die for you'LMAO #also at this point roku-chan IH member confirmed #(i mean it was obvious already for me but at this point is sure af)

[buttercup-barf]

Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #that's it that's the only tags i am putting this in. maybe someday i will have the balls to do more but for now that's about it #while i have the chance - and since posts with more of my yapping in the tags don't pop in people's feeds much - i might as well ramble- #-about these guys here. self-inserts or not i'm projecting only half of my bullshit on each one of them. creativity 👍 #backup is tall and pale and has sharp canines and more of a dull brown hair colour with tired grey eyes. no amount of babyface or soft- #-hands can really help a motherfucker when he's grimacing so much because he just Hates being around half the people on the team. #cleaner meanwhile is on the shorter side and has constantly flushed skin and brighter colours and whatnot. you can't see it because of the- #-mask most of the time but they do smile a lot more and have a more cheery disposition towards life and see the whole team as their friends! #backup transitioned fully (albeit not very legally lmao) and is scared shitless of not being seen as a man although the last time that ever- #-came up was years ago. he holds onto his last name as part of the heritage he loves and loathes at the same time - attached to his culture- #-and religion and bloodline while also resentful of his family and the regime he knows someone else on the team suffered under. #cleaner just kinda binds and calls it a day. he only does it to confuse the team because while he doesn't identify with being a girl he- #-loves the confused looks his epic gender reveal moment gets. they do not remember their family name or where they grew up or what even got- #-them to this kind of mental state. and he's chill with it he values the here and now way more than some dark edgy backstory. #backup despite trying to be an honest man is afraid of vulnerability as well. he stubbornly refuses to express love towards certain people- #-lest they feel disgusted and turn away. he's afraid of consequences afraid of losing the people he loves afraid of his ''interests'' being- #-what drives them away. it doesn't by the way and he just wasted time being a cold indecisive loser for several months lmao #cleaner wears a suit that hides all of them yes but they pretty much never lie. he is always his truest self and he can always just burn- #-people who don't like him enough to make it a problem. they are a lot more comfortable indulging in their interests - be they innocent- #-and juvenile or violent and dangerous. he is quite open with his affection and his fascinations that backup would rather keep secret. #i want to establish that these two can only exist in separate universes because they both have feelings towards the funny assistant lady- #-and the funny inventor guy (selfshipping for the winnn) and would fight over those two. cleaner would win by the way #it's also a really funny point of comparison. cleaner is objectively more fucked up than backup and still managed to be more normal about- #-their feelings and live as a healthier and happier person than that guy. comedic gold honestly #OKAY I'M DONE if you read up to here you get uhhh a cookie :-)

[thelastspeecher]

apparently one of my cousins was just accepted into a master's writing program at an Ivy League school

and that's why I almost never go on Facebook 🙃

#look. do I even think I could handle a master's in writing at an Ivy League? #.....I mean. I think so. I managed a master's in geoscience at one of the top geology schools in the nation. #(....''managed'' is doing some VERY heavy lifting there lnjasdknf) #but do I want to do that? no. #do I still feel weird and like I'm wasting my life and everyone else is more accomplished than me? yes. #it does help a bit that the cousin in question has outright told me her success is in large part from her father pushing her v hard #(he did the same thing to her siblings) #and that she kinda fucking hates how she was pushed to succeed so much #like I don't wish that on anyone but it does help me to put into context her success. it comes at a cost. like everything else. #and to be frank it's not a cost I'm willing to pay at this point in my life. #I still feel weird and uhhhhh incompetent I guess would be the best word tho #also like I'm wondering why she's going to an Ivy League when she's already at one of the top writing schools #maybe distance from her family....in which case. godspeed cuz. #ANYWAYS I have a v accomplished family that I at times feel inferior to despite my own accomplishments #and no that has no influence on my OC Angie's own similar feelings why would you think that #(my family would be upset if they knew I felt inferior btw no one makes me feel bad other than my own brain) #(I have a v loving and supportive family and am v blessed to have them~) #whine whine whine

[birdantlers]

can people stop fuckin bricking amazon for the tiktok water bottle I'm not a consumerist trendygirl I just live in texas.

#i only want the damn thing bc it's giant and leakproof #and doesn't just have a big hole that sloshes it all over your face when you try to quickly inhale water between customers in the summer #just take the stupid stanleys im fighting for my life here #skit yells #the weather is getting warmer and my seasonal depression is nigh #when the days get longer my mental state hits the fuckin dirt the sun was not meant to set past 7pm #cruel cruel world #fun fact i didnt even know it was a tiktok thing hdjchdjd #i had never even heard of it and i was like ooo new secret goated water bottle? 👁️ bc i saw some tweet comment about it #and then everyone on the planet was trying to buy one ffs #yes i realize this is silly I'm just sitting in the target parking lot mad bc i wasted the gas bdnfhdkjd

[lil-grem-draws]

Before I forget, a small unplanned collab with my dear @_Koffeey_ on twitter, Modern au, Will and his bf Aiden having a maid day 🤭😌

#hogwarts legacy mc #William #Aiden Harris #I've been drawing so much #Vent below #It's so nice to be on an art spree #Yes it eats up my rp time #But how else can I equally dedicate myself to all of my hobbies #If I'm really close to getting another job? #Stupid office work #Couldn't find anything to justify 8 years worth of wasted time on my degrees #So I'm taking a job I could've gotten straight out of school #Amazing #Well those are vent tags now #I hate my life #Hate wasting it #Need to get as much art and rp as I can now cause this new job will kill my free time

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: March 26

"Songs About Rain" by Gary Allan

#song of the day #you might think that this is the opposite of 'Groovy Little Summer Song' but nope! closer to same because (drumroll) #they are one of the very best categories of thing: Country Songs About Country Songs #I love them. I adore them #'Songs About Rain' is one of the strongest and best examples of type I have (also 'Cheatin Songs' by Midland. impeccable) #'and it sure ain't easin my pain / all these songs like / Rainy Night in Georgia / Kentucky Rain #Here Comes That Rainy Day Feelin Again / Blues Eyes Cryin in the Early Mornin Rain #they go on and on and there's no two the same / oh it would be easy to blame / all these songs about rain' #what a gift. what a delight. legitimately hard to sing this song in a mournful voice because it makes me so damn happy #anyway as you might glean from how this is posting at 3 pm my time: my sleep schedule is /fucked/ #I did have part of the bad conversation with my boss on Monday (immediately followed by garden times #which so overtook me that I spoke only about the garden and good spring feeling in my song post. what a blessing the garden is) #but mostly what happened is I said 'hey it is technically possible for me to make this but it will not help it will not do anything useful' #and my boss said 'but you can make it' and I said 'yes but we shouldn't. it will be a waste of time' and she said 'make it by Thursday' #and I said 'I absolutely cannot make it by Thursday. if I finish instead this better thing I've already been working on--' #and she said 'no we don't care about that thing. make part of the useless thing. by Thursday morning' #and I said 'if I bring you part of the useless thing and part of the good thing and I directly compare them in front of you--' #and she said 'we'll look at whatever you have Thursday morning but it's the useless thing we care about' #so the meeting is scheduled and I'm going to plead for the life of my better thing and probably the best I'll get is permission to do both #which is. I mean the useless thing is going to be a time-waster for sure but at least it won't be actively detrimental to anything? #it'll be fine I'll make it be fine. the inherent problems of when your boss doesn't actually know what you do for them I guess :/ #(also maybe. maybe if it comes down to it. maybe I'll just make the good thing for myself and use it to make my own life better #and someday maybe they'll ask for a project that works and then I'll be able to dramatically unveil it but either way I'll benefit from it #hmm maybe yeah)

[thundergrace]

I did it! 😊

#yes one mile and I'm already in a little pain #really a shame my breathing was good #i felt good #every part of my body but you know... my feet and legs felt like i could've done the 5k #and you know what #just three months or so ago #i could've #life comes at you fast #don't waste your health #you never know what's gonna fail on you and when #especially after 30 lol

[tardis--dreams]

After over 3 weeks of unsuccessfully checking several department stores that promised to have one, i Finally managed to find a body shop around here AND it had the banana conditioner i wanted so so badly. Life is good sometimes

#like i cannot tell you how Frustrating this was #i have no idea where they hide them but the 5 malls and department stores i checked before definitely hid them too well #i even went to lush instead which i never tried before and the shampoo and conditioner definitely don't smell as good #but they did their job well enough #but damn I'm so happy rn because I've had given up on ever finding one #(and yes. I'm drunk again because they only sold those makgeolli bottles in sets of two at that supermarket #so i had to drink the other one too obviously #I'm doing great ) #i really need to find something to do with my life here though #i should develop a routine or something #start the day with yoga or pilates or something like that and then work on my papers #and then do xyz ... #rn i just waste my days #also the weather has been more bearable temperature wise lately #so i should start running soon #rn it's raining a lot though so i hope that'll stop soon #I'll check out some routes tomorrow though #i need to get more exercise #my room is too small to do anything strenuous so I have to get out of my comfort zone and work out/run outside #sorry I'm rambling #gotta shut up now. i have like 2 weeks left to write my 1st term paper so i need to find a topic tomorrow and message my lecturer #he'll judge me for messaging him so late but idc. I've never written anything in more than a week so this is fine #after that I'll write my other paper and then I'll be free until January #sorry got carried away #void screams

[statementlou]

.

#I have so many MP thoughts #lots!! #but I just realized one thing suddenly #you guys don't think it's a happy ending do you?! #is that what i'm seeing? #he just had a stroke he's still all there #they can be happy #his life is not over #that wasn't a goodbye kiss #and if you think it is #thats fucking ableism #and ageism #I think Harry thought it was a happy ending #I think this is harry being in the romcom of his dreams #my policeman spoilers #I mean the wasted time is fucking heartbreaking YES #and other things #but #still #that ending could have been very different and very much less hopeful

[highwaydiamonds]

As someone who hates the sisyphean task of cleaning, how dare my mental health prefer a clean room.

#like come on brain - you could have made this one easier on the rest of me but ( as usual) NO You didn't #did i think about this as i sit in my tidy bedroom where everything just looks a lot cheerier and cozy and happy now that it's clean? yes #did it literally take me DAYS to get it this clean - and by this clean i still have laundry and stuff to do - so it's not perfect #but it looks like it p much is #and while my skin has not been cleared no my depression cured - it certainly is a boost to feel like this is a refuge #i actually want to spend time in her and feel like it's a nice room to be in - awaaaaaaaay from the other people i live with #and lbr - i need a plce to get awaaaaaaaay from them (and ok fine vice versa most likely) #but still - it would be a lot simpler if my brain liked a messy room more- my lazy parts would prefer that- but no #depression brain says -BITCH CLEAN UP - you will be happier and capable of doing some of the things if it's clean #also - you will feel LESS OF THE BAD HORRORS if it is clean #so UGH - FINE i will have to work to keep it clean - I GUESS. #i should reread camus's myth of sisyphus because iirc he didn't talk about dishes or laundry or room cleaning in that #he probably talked about death - been too many years since i read it - i don't remember - probs death and suicide #but not cleaning - he should have talked about cleaning. or wanting to die when you realized living means more cleaning #that would have been way relatable - but anyway - here we are- i'm not dead - and not planning on being so any time soon hopefully #partly because there is shit i still wanna do - but also partly because this room looks p decent and i'm not gonna make it messy #especially not by dying in here when it takes forever to get it clean #moral of the story: cleaning makes you feel like you wanna die but when it's done for the moment you'll be like i'll do that another day #because now the room is clean and dying in there would be a waste of the efforts of cleaning. just appreciate the space - vibe w/ it #and then you realize - ok life is maybe okay - and there's art and books and flowers and sex and chocolate and cute animals #so even if there are sisyphean tasks - and there are many - well do em anyway - brain will like it and then get back to the good stuff #thus endeth the tag saga after a short text post #welcome to how shit is around here sometimes

[lifesizehysteria]

My lit professor brought in the director of the school's current play to talk with us today. The content of the play is relevant to the course subject but not relevant to the actual course. This is literally just a talk and I just don't care because I haven't seen it and have no context and feel like I'm getting cheated out of an actual class period, so I'm ignoring them talk while doing other school work LOL Teenage, and even young adult me would NEVER! But as a non-theater person, I don't care about the ins and outs of putting together a stage production and I have other, more important things to do with my time.

#my life #getting schooled #she asked if we were okay with doing this instead of our regular material for today #and everyone said yes so i wasn't going to be like NO IT'S A WASTE #but it's a waste for me so i'm taking advantage

[stardustedknuckles]

You know, all of this eye strain and tension headache and migraine stuff ramped up when I finally ran out of my old regular contacts and started using the toric lens my eye doctor prescribed for my left eye. I have my glasses on today because it was getting so bad and my left eye is extremely annoyed with me. I keep feeling like it's refusing to focus until I manually "find" the muscle and force it to. I told her I didn't want astigmatism correction because I have the lowest possible astigmatism you can have and I have never had it compensated for. I didn't think anything of the toric lenses because it was six months before I ran out of regulars (don't ask how long I wear them for all of our sakes, it's way too long because they're fucking expensive) but damn if all this headache and light sensitivity shit didn't start after I gave in and wore the damn toric on my left eye.

And if that's the case it means my glasses are also pretty much non-viable long term because again, she put the astigmatism correction in the left eye and it kind of hurts. The whole point of the glasses was to have a place to relax my eyes away from the contacts, but I haven't yet managed to wear them longer than three days. I just get to feeling lightheaded and strange. I'd go without either but I literally cannot see, so.

#I keep meaning to use another right eye lens on my left eye and see if it helps #it's just that if it doesn't I wasted a lens and those shits are expensive #but my whole contact life I have worn the same script in both eyes with no astigmatism correction #even though I have had astigmatism the entire time #I'm sure this eye doctor thought she was being helpful #but I am slightly in hell and I think she might be partially to blame #today I felt the back of my scalp tighten slowly like a drawstring being pulled #which is apparently 'just' a tension headache #anyway torics are built to conform to a weird eye shape and that means they have to sit specifically correct on an eye #or they fuck you over instead #i am feeling very fucked over yes everything is uncomfortable in my head and nothing helps #it's like a raccoon mask of ow #personal #i just needed to make words about it that's all

[robotsprinkles]

I have. an assignment. due tonight.

why am I reading articles and papers (which I do not have the prerequisite knowledge to properly understand) on quantum computing and photonic molecules and Rydberg matter and theoretical explanations of ball lightning to figure out potential explanations for how Cybertronian sparks could work

#trying to create an ''encyclopedia cybertronia'' was a mistake #I'm still going to do it but it's absolutely going to consume my life and be a complete waste of time #I'm also fully aware that trying to come up with any kind of plausible explanation for how anything in transformers works is stupid #and I'm also pretty sure every side of the fanbase will hate some aspect of what I'm doing #(this is mostly for my own personal canon but it's combining a lot of stuff from idw2005 and aligned. #plus a lot of stuff from the other continuities. as an example I'm taking trans-scanning and rapid dynamic self-reformatting from bayverse #also yes I know people have done stuff like this before. At least I think so

[teethcore]

.

#you're never gonna believe this. #sh venting below. #>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> #so i have a coworker who is a psychologist with a MASTER'S DEGREE. #as in her last day is in like 9 days bc she's off to a counseling job. #and she saw my arm and was like omg what happened. #and because i'm a super nice person i was obviously really polite. #i was like ''oh i was in a freak accident that left me with several perfectly parallel wounds.- #[name] what do you think happened? you're a psychologist.'' #and she was like ''oh. i'm sorry. ... you okay?'' #NO???? #anyways. #that was yesterday so today will be interesting. #like i can't wait to see if this is a got reported to HR thing or not. #so many times in my life i have had to have ''no i am not actively suicidal. yes i self mutilated. no really i have no intention to kill- #-myself. like. really. hand on the bible. 911 would in fact make this one hundred million times worse. i will just leave the premises- #if you call 911. this is not an emergency. do not waste your time my time and the officials' time. can i go back to work now.'' #—peter

[labetalol]

Bruh

#the way . I am crying over a pizza delivery driver dumping my pharmD ass #he was sooooo stinky i miss him 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i knew he was going to end it i knew he would #be the one to end things I was head over heels but he was like 🧍 #I want him to bleed lowkey but i'm normal. He was a good guy just immature at times and i think he saw i'm a #cold stone bitch with her life together making 4x he does. so he was like Ok ur future is bright i dont #want to waste your time im not good enough. but its whatever I'm pretty cool and normal #Just been crying a lot #Its cool though. seriously. #I mightve posted about him once or twice Yes i hated him at first bc i was scared once i realized he isnt #scared of me being a bitch to him i was like Ok he seems to actually want to break down my emotional barriers Ok and i #fell in love... then he's like Nah. and Ii'm like Oh Yayyyyy #I serioisly dont know how anyone handles anything #it was literally only 5 months i met him via bumble and we just dated since then but like. Bruh if #it was 12 mknths? 2 years? 10 years? I would actually kill myself no joke #anyway Fuck my life i'm good tho I'll continue slinging norco and percocet and adderall XR and #he'll keep slinging out those amazing fuckimg breadsticks witht he homemade ranch 🥲🥲🥲🥲 I will miss the #pizza from.his job where he'd get 50% off for me equally as much as i will miss him Fr FR.