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2 years later and here i am a year and a half post top surgery

It gets better

escapril 2022

3. limbs

two extra, protruding from my chest—

listless, limp, lifeless

i thought humans were born with only four limbs?

i suppose the definition

doesnt quite fit—

perhaps rather,

extremity? appendage? protuberance?

how almost like a gall;

despite the lack of hymenoptera

they are parasitic in and of themselves—

two swollen, aching oak apples.

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#ijeoma umebinyuo #be gentle with yourself #healing

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The Hαnged Man

Commissioned illustration for a tarot card deck (by Wyrmwood Gaming).

Prints here!

#the hanged man #tarot

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𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘴,

𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪 𝘥𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘩𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘮 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘯

- 𝘤𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘯 𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦

#christy ann martine

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Mostly for friends, but my personal is @tyranno-wrex if ppl wanna follow over there 🛒

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Jane Kenyon, September Garden Party

#september #september garden party #jane kenyon #quotes #summer is ending

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from march 24 2022

[Text ID: weren't you once a daughter with a hunting rifle? is it the blood that makes you a man? /End ID]

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#separation #in the flesh #w s merlin #Spotify

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best part of the archives being uploaded is knowing that kafka drew some little guys watching a boat on his papers at work…

#franz kafka #kafka #kafka archives #boats

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escapril 2022

3. limbs

two extra, protruding from my chest—

listless, limp, lifeless

i thought humans were born with only four limbs?

i suppose the definition

doesnt quite fit—

perhaps rather,

extremity? appendage? protuberance?

how almost like a gall;

despite the lack of hymenoptera

they are parasitic in and of themselves—

two swollen, aching oak apples.

#yes ik i am 2 weeks late #life gets in the way but i am sloly catching up #escapril 2022 #escapril day 3 #limbs #transmasc #trans #chest dysphoria

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putting a dab of testosterone gel behind my ear like it's cologne

#testosterone

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Anyway at the end of les mis when it's revealed that God is not a man or a strict set of laws but is in fact found in the giving and recieving of love. That salvation is not achieved through absence or presence of percieved "sin", but through the act of loving other people and accepting their love in return. That really fucks huh.

#thinking about this again #les miserables #les mis #do you hear the people sing #victor hugo

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#cows #beautiful cows at the national gallery #i love cows

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2. separation

An octopus

lives in my gut,

but still i feel empty.

Its legs tangled

up inside me,

twisting my organs.

Its suckers squeeze

warmth out of me,

leaving me cold and numb.

Entwined inside;

suffocating

me as i try to breathe.

escapril 2022

When i open my eyes

and the pillows smelled of you —

turned away

still seized by slumbers'

cruel clutches.

fractured colours

through fractured glass,

dancing across duvet covers,

prancing across pillow cases;

slink and shy along

loose strands of hair;

tendrils woven, tightly wound,

locking the locket —

the chest of deep,

deep within mine own

#escapril #escapril 2022 #poetry #my own poetry #my own writing #day 2 #escapril day 2 #separation #i wrote this one about my grief losing my godfather

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escapril 2022

When i open my eyes

and the pillows smelled of you —

turned away

still seized by slumbers'

cruel clutches.

fractured colours

through fractured glass,

dancing across duvet covers,

prancing across pillow cases;

slink and shy along

loose strands of hair;

tendrils woven, tightly wound,

locking the locket —

the chest of deep,

deep within mine own

#escapril #escapril 2022 #poetry #my own poetry #my own writing #day 1 #escapril day 1 #when i open my eyes

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https://evelionheart.medium.com/on-the-intimacy-of-the-mundane-863f9efb3c39

#a person can be revealed in these seemingly tiny and insignificant occurrences #on the intimacy of the mundane #intimacy #small intimacies #peeling oranges

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Catherine Lacey, “Cut” / Robin McKinley, Deerskin / Bruce Springsteen intro to “I’m on Fire” / Mary Ruefle, “Woodtangle” / Dick Lourie, “How Do We Forgive Our Fathers?”

#i acc have a therapy appointment in 2 days woop woop #parental trauma #paternal #catherine lacey #robin mckinley #bruce springsteen #mary ruefle #dick lourie #how do we forgive our fathers?