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Siddhartha's tree

i went to the lake to meditate

in the sunset reflecting on the water

i asked over and over again

who am i ?

for a long time

no clear answer arose

but over and over

i let the question rise

and fall over the lakes tides

eventually like a whisper

the answer was there

like an ant surfacing

from under its hill:

I am nature

to my dismay, I didn't balk at this

but joined in:

i am the sun

i am the wind

i am the earth

i am the birds singing

the insects, busy

i am the grass and the water

in the lake

I am nature

and i am perfectly evolved

i am perfectly evolving

as my seasons change with the times

i am nature and i am perfect

and there is nothing i need do

save, what i want

Eventually i realized a very clear message i have been receiving. That i need to do nothing for a time, but receive. That i need to sit on my hands and just be. wait. feel.

that i am like a tree in this dimension.

my purpose is like that of a tree

we give shade from the harshness

of the weather

we offer solace in the heat

we give oxygen for your carbon dioxide

which i receive from your breathe

from conversations

and i am a living record

i am an organic record system.

i am supported by the construct.

i am siddhartha's tree.

#energy work #mindfulness #spirituality #reiki healing #wabisabireiki #aesthetic #divination #aries season #meditation

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The exogenous part of ourselves, or Soma, by contrast, is all about direct, unmediated, nonconceptual experience. It beholds things exactly as they are without any judgment, evaluation, without even any filtering whatsoever. It receives reality as it is in all its diversity, color, and multiplicity without comment. Moreover, it beholds things as wholes, not through the limiting eyes of preconception, hope and fear, or ambition and agenda. It sees people as they are, in all their uniqueness and individuality, and in all their fullness and their totality, with everything included. And what it sees, it loves. It feels the utter sacredness of the earth, of each person, animal, cloud, and star in the sky. It loves and it appreciates. It also sees the connections and the communions that bind us all in one vast cosmic reality. For the Soma, strict and separationist personal boundaries do not exist; what is clear and compelling are our connections with each other, our links and bonds, the natural communion that our deepest self—our Soma—has with everything that is. The Soma’s way of being, it seems, is to see the totality of what is and to love and appreciate it all, simply because it is.

Reginald Ray, a teaching on somatic spirituality

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Human Love

What does that phrase bring up for you?

I was surprised to find that the phrase grossed me out, that it was full of narratives about how awful and messed up people are.

This morning I had a scenario unfold for me that allowed me to witness myself and a long held pattern of mine.

side note: In relation to my own domestic partnership and a lot of the things we have learned in couples therapy I was able to see some of these behaviors objectively. Especially through the intimate knowledge of witnessing my own lover and his core patterns. Without judgement I was able to witness how his pattern unfolds as a blueprint for how mine does.

It is Venus RX after all and the themes of this one have been powerful and dynamic for me.

I am also witnessing the breaking down of a life, as someone within my circle is losing the love of their life... as they are dying.

An awful realization that helped me to pinpoint what the wounds I have incurred around "human love" are.

(I have experienced betrayal most in my mind and in my actions to others, as I've rushed to commit the sin before it could reach me. All the while betraying myself first...)

I have three celestial bodies in my 11th house of the collective and partnerships: Moon, Chiron, and Lilith. Which are all in Gemini.

I used to write these off as repressed expression, abandonment, and rejection. But of course they are so much deeper, wider, and more visceral than that.

*My wounding in Chiron is fear of loving others because we are all going to die. And the nihilist in me cannot understand the sheer suffering I will willfully incur, the work, the pain and all the effort to love someone that will yield in nothingness... And of course that perspective is hollow and painful.

Shifting to the feeling state of "enoughness" and gratitude alters the meaning of the privilege of loving someone. To drop deeply into the nowness of the genuine feeling of giving love freely to someone you feel something for. And how beautiful it is to feel and experience anything but especially love.

*My Lilith wound is the deep anger and resent I've held onto for all of the things I've taken personally. (The core pattern I had revealed to me this morning). I've read the 4 agreements and it did change my life, but the pattern will persist if we are not diligent and creative in transforming it. This wound has made it difficult to receive love, as she looks for all the ways to find the faults and unravel the work love has been building for me. Yet it goes on like busy bees, repairing, and trying over and over again, as it will forever, no matter how many holes she rips into it thinking she's protecting me.

This wound shows me that I have to actively ask myself if I am taking something someone is doing/not doing/ saying- personally? And zoom out to find the ways I am making a story out of people's unawareness. That has nothing to do with me. And how when I do that I become unreceptive to love.

The reason being receptive to love is so important to me is because this has been conditioned into me to "make my purpose". That I be loveable, likeable, wanted.

There is nothing wrong with this but it made me realize I don't even know if I want that anymore...

I thought all I wanted was Love. Ironically all the while I've developed coping strategies keeping love at bay ( from others).

I think what I've actually been wanting and realizing all this while is if it is LOVE that I want, it is to love myself unconditionally. To be able to give and receive the depths of love from self. My human love to my human self. The wounds have externalized projections so that I can see them.

The collective is love. Human love is a journey inward. While the hive goes on about always repairing itself, robotically, no matter how individuals thrash about in fits and fevers of self loathing. In the illusion of separation and fear.

Don't be afraid. You are in everything and everyone around you. Zoom out. You're amazing. Human love is not one person, it's everyone and everything in our known and unknown omniverse.

#spirituality #energy work #astrology #parts work #shadow work #venus retrograde #collective consciousness #humanlove

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Mercury Rx-Virgo Szn

The theme for me energetically right now is an in depth processing of divine relationships.

Meaning both parties have an awareness of their accountability to themselves and how they project/ use their energy to manifest in the container of relationship to/ with the other... and themselves.

Venus RX in Leo has been lazer focused on cutting the seems of identities and masks used to protect myself in my life that no longer serve the longevity of my evolution.

It is to laugh that what I thought I wanted was to be more attractive, rich, famous, and have transcendental sex with my soul mate... when the truth of my heart is that what I want is to unconditionally love and accept myself for all that I am, and am not.

To allow the depth of my selves to express, create, and undulate in ways I have never conceived.

At the end of the day when I go down the line of what the point of divine relationships are ( not just romantic, plutonic and within your family) maybe even with a perfect "stranger"... it is to experience unconditional love and acceptance for what is.

If you have this for something, you're already ahead of the game. To only imagine that everyone was your unconditional beloved....to firstly treat yourself in such a manner. And if you don't, imagine what it's like and pretend. Over and over till the feeling state is familiar.

How do you practice unconditional love?

#energy work #mindfulness #spirituality #wabisabireiki #visualization #astrology #parts work #shadow work #reiki healing #mercury rx #venus rx #midjourney

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New Moon in Leo 8/16- Disruptor

my shadows walk beside me

we prowl in 3's, 6's, and maybe 9's

all my cumulative parts

now undulating

into more assortments

of themselves

(chaos, but functional, like cats standing on each others shoulders in a trench coat, ordering coffee)

tribes gather

set about to some unknown battle

we are amassing

the energy building

till someone whispers

"you aren't here to fight

my warriors -but to build...."

all groan, in anguish and confusion

"but all we know is fighting..."

and here in comes

the tireless struggle to change

evolve, again; in disruption

until it's normal to transform

so many times,

I may finally come to expect it.

#energy work #spirituality #parts work #shadow work #new moon in leo #leo szn #freeform poem #flowing

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Meditation 003- partswork

This morning I got up, did a little yoga and decided to do a little 10 min. guided mediation that popped up after the yoga on youtube.

The meditation was centered around letting go and the narrator took you on a journey of discovering the next version of you that was prepared to let go of you current attachments, hang ups, obstacles, patterns, etc. and step into this embodied version of yourself that was "next level".

My next level being was a giant woman, made of light, who had to turn herself blue so that I could look at her. She was super human, more like an avatar being, radiant, larger than life, alien, and too much for me to comprehend. I finished the meditation confused. The rest of the morning irked me. I felt uneasy and awkward in everything I did.

I decided to sit with my parts

( from IFS and parts work I've established) and ask them how they felt about this experience?

My inner child was terrified of letting go of anything, even though she eventually did. She was entirely confused about what happened. I think she felt rejected and "not good enough".

I talked with her about other parts of the journey that were fun and how the blue woman was smiling and kind in the meditation.

My inner teen scoffed at the otherworldly embodiment avatar at first, and how completely different the embodied self was from my current self. She felt like it was too big of a difference from who/ what I currently am. " That person can't even exist in this world".

I sat and talked with her about expansion, and not looking like that here. Not looking like that, but harnessing something completely new and different in energy. She eventually said" I think it's cool and I'll try it, but I need to process more".

My inner young adult, agreed with inner teen, but she said she understood why it was so different... because it's something entirely new I haven't experienced before. And she gets why its lofty and that the need to process is important.

My inner divine feminine loved the idea of expanding our capacity, ushering in alien/ avatar energy. She said she felt safer and more expansive in this energy for her to express. She expressed confidence and inner support for all the other parts w/ this newfound energetic.

My inner masculine said he was frustrated and agreed with inner teen most at first. " It's an extremely abstract concept", he said it is difficult to be there more and more especially when " we are still in the same body, life, and time space...he understands it's going to be hard to to grasp. "It's becoming so normal for things to not make sense. As long as we are happy and healthy". He is only focused on moving in the direction of wholeness because "that has been what has been the most satisfying in our life so far". He understands we have to usher in " larger than life, alien concepts" to "usher in new faculties, new neural pathways, in order to evolve.... Evolution IS new neural pathways... It's very unsettling, the unknown can be scary".

Suffice it to say, after that I felt a lot better and all of my parts were grateful for the awareness I've developed to untangle my inner dialogues. I can actually feel all of myself get on the same page and my energy coming into alignment. I move, think, breathe and act as one instead of the unconscious aspects of myself doing, thinking and acting in counterproductive, or conflicting ways.

When I got to work I realized I unconsciously wore a dress that was the shade of blue as my blue woman. 🥹💙

#energy work #mindfulness #visualization #shadow work #parts work #reiki healing #ifs #wabisabireiki #meditation #midjourney

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Shadow dance

VenusRX conjunct Lilith& 8/8

" On Lion's Gate, Venus conjuncts Lilith at 23 degrees Leo and a few hours later Venus squares Uranus at 22 degrees Taurus."- Astro Butterfly

Energetics for me have become heavy AF. I wallowed in them all weekend and realized this morning something that felt like a wound healing in my body w/ an achy soreness in my mid back. This morning I realized an old skin was slowly molting off ( spiritually), that this is painful and uncomfortable as I have outgrown it, with some lingering attachments that will rip and scab. Could I have went softer and slower with this process? I wondered but the energetics coming in with Lilith are angry and rageful. I'm rushing to run with it, least I be dragged... Lion's gate will amplify the feelings you are focused on.

There is powerful potential to alchemize your longstanding patterns.

My old body is heavy and wilting still. This morning I alchemized the dark feminine with embodied movements. She wanted to stomp and jump and move the heaviness of her rage. A random song, I have never heard came on with the title of "Lions" came on. I changed my mind about 8/8... I woke up this morning thinking it was bullshit.

I heard in my mind's eye:

"Shadow work is- Getting it out before it let's itself out". ( sideways)

Knowing the truth of yourself, your range, and your expressions in real time and honoring your bodies need to move through it is not only cathartic and healing it is wholeness. Goddess bless my somatic guides, who taught me how to move again.

Black Moon Lilith will bring messages for everyone. She is stirring in your most repressed expression. If you can face her without judgement , 8/8 will transmute beautifully.

🌧️

#energy work #8/8 #mindfulness #astrology #visualization #wabisabireiki #shadow work #leo szn #lionsgate #alchemy #black moon lilith #somatichealing #midjourney

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Jealousy, is a messenger

to where you aren't watering yourself.

Meditation 002

Since a very young age I remember experiencing intense emotions of jealousy. No one ever talked to me about this emotion, the way it made me feel, and what to do with it.

As I've gotten older and worked through a lot of my shadows and the versions of myself that had unprocessed traumas, I can finally hold her in what the fullness of her purpose is: To show me where I desire to be watered by my-self.

( This used to be the sole job of others: care givers, friends, lovers.)

My Longing is: To see my full hearts desire without self judgement.

I had to be triggered again by a reoccurring situation to finally, intentionally sit with this in a meditation session focused on summoning my jealousy:

Jealousy, Jealousy, Jealousy! ( I called)

In the mediation I went into my heart where I could feel an old pain has resided, one that is extremely familiar. Once avoided my whole life and branded as ugly & uncomfortable. She shuffled into the space of a green lit, cave like room. She was hobbled over, creaturesque in a dark hooded robe. We walked over to a raised pool and gazed in. Holograms of the images of who, what, when, and why I am jealous...

I saw that Jealousy is the thing you want, she is you with those attributes only maimed, contorted, abused, neglected, tortured and tormented by the thoughts & beliefs that she isn't, and can't be.

Those injuries have debilitated and transformed her into what she is. The gnawing sensation that you chose to focus on lack. That you chose to hold yourself as less than. That you gave your power to ( your mind's version of) someone else to reflect value and worth to you. Albeit unconsciously, through conditioning and ignorance.

It's painful. But I stayed there. I saw what I had done to her.

Together we went naked into the water. Where we merged and floated deeply into the ocean. Falling/ Sinking so fast it was scary until I remembered I always have me. I trust this.

Mermaid like beings eventually surrounded us and large bubbles encapsulated me. Something like the fish you put in the tank to clean it, went all around me and was "shaving" layers down till I saw the being of myself like a baby glowing in the green light.

Eventually I was catapulted upwards in jets of bubbles, accompanied by dolphins and as I rose the body grew into a full grown woman.

I knew I was aware of her( Jealousy) and how we have transformed. How when I see her, I can choose to continue to harm her & myself or I can invite her to show me where I need to water myself with love.

#energy work #mindfulness #visualization #meditation #jealousy #reiki healing #wabisabireiki #parts work #shadow work #emotional healing #spiritualhealing

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Currently on Earth

I think it's important to be vigilant of what our elders and fellow conditioned humans believe...

Aquarius for me has been a deluge of info and innumerable options for how our time space reality can fluctuate.

The important thing is to have your own back in your belief system. Our ancestors did not know shit about our nervous systems...

Most of our families and friends, teachers, and people we listen to on the news don't know shit about our nervous system either. But people who want to exploit you DO.

Learn about bio hacking from esteemed scientists and doctors. Educate yourself on how the human brain functions. We are a lot like bio machines, programmable, and resilient with proper care. Or programmable and easily manipulated with dis-ease.

Our nervous systems are beautifully designed to keep us alive, but society in the modern era is NOT. Everything from the food, to our water, to the air, to how we take care of ourselves hygienically is rife with misinformation, marketing ploys, and actual poison. That isn't even the worst part. The worst part is that the old way of doing things, or the way "we've always done things" is already severely outdated. The every day ritual of society, government and religion is severely outdated for human evolution.

But this isn't an alarm of fear. That isn't necessary or helpful. I believe a lot of us already know all of that and have been in transition for some time. A lot of us are ready for the shift that will inevitably happen, just like switching on a light. You may wake up one day and find just like when the world shut down due to the pandemic, everything has changed.

Change is neutral, it's not good or bad. Just like life and death and the cycles of nature it is apart of our blueprint. The stories we tell about these things amount to the feelings/ emotions we have about them. But it is in the perception of the individual and the way they are either conscious (responding) or unconscious (reacting) to it that will determine whether it is "good" or "bad".

For me, change is good.

( what if earth is the only place where all vibrations exist simultaneously?)

#energy work #spirituality #mindfulness #wabisabireiki #astrology #visualization #parts work #shadow work #age of aquarius #the future #midjorneyart

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Cat metaphors

Discovering my truth often felt like being in a large courtyard of hundreds of cats. For cat ppl this is great ( for everyone else, not so much). But imagine the courtyard is your body and the cats are aspects of yourself you must become intimately familiar with each one for your own health and safety. If you are familiar with cats, you often find some are very friendly, some come to you, but most will not. Most will watch you curiously as they decipher your intentions. Cats are masters of energy reading. The curious ones are always getting into all kinds of trouble and making a mess. The cautious ones are just as likely to hiss and run away from you never to be seen again if you look at them wrong, or move too quickly.

Each one in this story is a precious part of your soul.

Cats as you may well know just want to feel safe and loved ( imagine). Historically it has been rendered that they domesticated themselves, unlike dogs or other domestic animals.

The point of this feline narrative is to illustrate that your inner world, much like this one full of cats, just want your loving attention. To be seen, greeted lovingly, spoken to lightly with kindness, fed, petted, and generally cared for.

Is your courtyard full of sunning lazy , spoiled cats? Is it empty, where all the cats are hiding from you? Are the cats violently fighting and causing chaos? What are your cats doing?

Cats are a metaphor here for feelings, sensations, and thoughts/narratives within our own body.

The quote here is human evolution.

We all inevitably change, we age, we evolve or devolve. We live and die. We grow and atrophy. Like it or not. Cats are gonna be cats & they have a tendency to do whatever they need to ( much like domesticating themselves) to survive, thrive and evolve. Trying to get rid of them will only hurt us... much like when cats along with witches were killed in droves w/ medieval mindsets that brought on the black plague ( due thereafter to the rampant spread of rats carrying the disease).

You don't have to like it. But change is coming for us all. Personally I enjoy being a cat person, and knowing each one sunning in the courtyard.

🐈 🐈‍⬛

#energy work #spirituality #mindfulness #reiki healing #wabisabireiki #visualization #midjorneyart #shadow work #parts work #the body keeps the score #cats

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Justice in the void

Is it real? relevant? - Aquarius full moon 8/1/23

Of this I must reason as my full moon was full of collective angst, rebellion, and fasting while on my cycle.

An invitation to see the narratives of past, present, and future and whether I will consume them with intent to propagate more of the same?

It's a story about betrayal and power. One where we can't trust our government, parents, friends, or family. In the end it's a story about how we can't trust god, faith, our spirits and mostly ourselves.

That's not where I'm headed anymore. Thankfully I can see how it once was and how my beliefs were bolstered by so many narratives, I didn't choose.

...Here something else stirs for me.

As we've expanded and awakened and the collective consciousness/ awareness grows Im noticing this tendency to focus on using your spiritual and physical gifts to "build a brand".

A copy/ pasting of capitalism mindset and belief of supply and demand. Yes, healing guides are needed but do we all need to be marketing and selling it? And I tried to do it too. But it doesn't feel right for me. At least not in the pipeline of "create your own spiritual business" arena where spiritual coaches are needed to scale your net worth... and you just need their next course, their next carrot that will finally give you the missing piece...to yourself.

*unpopular opinion: spiritual business is very good at hooking the codependent.*

I am conflicted. I would love to support myself with my spiritual gifts without feeling like I need to lean on someone's trauma to buy my help.

( a narrative*)

I am inherently valuable without the monetary aspect of being wanted in this way. I am valuable for existing.

Is that the revolution?

To acknowledge and uphold my value without giving you something to prove it?

Each of our revolutions will look different and probably feel the same. As revolution is usually about liberation.

What liberates me? What liberates you?

#energy work #spirituality #mindfulness #wabisabireiki #astrology #visualization #aquarius #aquafullmoon

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Venus RX in Leo ♌️

( What I thought she would look like)

This one is cruntchy, like a thousand little sharp rocks caught in your shoes, just cutting the shit our of your feet, and you're too busy just trying to survive running away from the actual lion energy that has been set free upon you, to undo you. Yeah, it's like that for some of us. The truth is you've probably been getting little heads up's to this cosmic moment for months now and every time you looked up the lion was just too far away to be worried about and in this day in age,

" WHO GOT TIME FOR DAT".

It's us and nothing but time now, till Sept. 3rd.

For me, I am still tip toeing around what the Venus RX in Leo means and am doing my best now to unravel the thread as the day has been full of dotting i's and crossing t's.

My transit falls in the first house- self, personality, appearance and ego. I think if I had been paying more attention my cycle to want to give more attention to creating and maintaining an alter ego would fall in the month of Leo szn.

Leo rules my first house. Of course the natal ruler of the 1st house is Aries, the pioneer of the zodiac. Aries is also my Midheaven. Which brings us to where my Venus lies as well, in Aries.

For this retrograde to happen in my first house indicates at the retrograde, the review in question is in the house of- my SELF.

With it in Leo, during Leo szn indicates to me I have nowhere to hide. It will be on blast. The Jump from Leo, my house ruler to Aries the Natal house ruler,* also my Midheaven ( the way I project my public self) in Aries, will help me to bridge the gap.

Aries here ( and anywhere) is headstrong, action oriented, does first, thinks later, asks for forgiveness not permission. Goes with gut feelings to jump into the doing, moving, tasking, next step. It feels where it wants to move and does not stop to postulate. If I keep following my hunch that the signs are the fem aspect of the planet- Mars is the masculine counterpart. God of War, strategy and domination. Viewing Aries as feminine reminds me of Athena, the great huntress. Who as all hunters do, must integrate with their instincts and immerse themselves in their environments as ripples in the water.

Leo shadow is egotistical, obsessed with appearance. And although it would select quality over quantity the ego here gets hijacked in the darkness. Authenticity is forsaken for perfection and performance.

Performance is all that matters in Leo's shadow.

Here I am being called to strip away the performance and DO, ACT, BE, without editing.

If I add the Venus in RX to this ,again my Venus in Aries indicates that action over the pattern on overthinking, overediting, overbearing tendency to restrain my expression because it is not perfect, will have to under go a transformation. Not surprising, but very uncomfortable.

There is yet still more threads here, as I've become aware of other aspects of Venus that just aren't to par in my life. Intimacy of all kinds, self expression of all kinds, a robust lust for life fizzling out. Narratives that bare review and revision are on the horizon.

And I know I am going to change again, again, again.

( Vs. What she actually looks like)

#astrology #spirituality #wabisabireiki #energy work #leo szn #venus retrograde #visualization

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Meditation Episode.001- Werewolves

Cancer New Moon had too many recaps to process again. I'll skip it.

Yesterday, I mediated for the first time in a while just free journeying within.

At first I wanted to go straight to my root chakra and it felt like going deep down, within.

Soon I was in a dark corridor, that was cave like. A tunnel walk way that was about 2ft larger than myself.... I noticed the ground starting to get muddy. Squelching as I walked it was getting thicker and deeper, still dark. Now I'm shin deep, wading.

My mind went to some dark places for what this was. Shit, blood, waste, thicker things appearing? Was that a face? Dead things? Keep moving...

Eventually it stopped at a door. I could hear growling and thumping behind the door...The substance was beyond my waist. I went through the door and the water got deeper still, till I was swimming but it was more fluid and the water was red. Opening to a vast like cave underground. Further away there was a red tent on an island in the middle. Natural light shinning from above. I swam towards it.

In the tent at very first was a large shrouded creature. For just a split second, it is now and old woman, then a werewolf, then a young woman, then a child, going on like that. It's hands stayed the same shape and size. It wore a cloak and a kind of headdress , all versions remained clothed, ever morphing.

There was a black crystal ball before them, as they shuffled cards. She said, "we don't have much time"... right as I heard growling and screaming and something violently approaching. She stood up and threw off the garment rushing to the doorway, looking back to yell " look to the stone" and she was a large werewolf again. I watched as her, a black werewolf violently caught entangled with another. Thrashing, biting and slashing away at each other.

When I went to the stone and looked at it I was somewhere else. It was all shadows. I had to feel my way through wherever that was. Some idea of myself as a small child. Wandering around on shaky legs. A sensation I had seen something I wasn't supposed to see. It was not clear. A rushing like water pushing me away softly and safely happened. And I watched the werewolves in slow motion through the stone from the elsewhere.

*The way things are and the way I want them to be are violently averse to each other. *

They both must transform.

#energy work #spirituality #visualization #meditation #parts work #mindfulness #midjorneyart

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Capricorn full moon 🌕 on July 3rd

is still doing it's work.

...What else what you expect from a Capricorn?

Only yesterday in reflection on it with a dear Capricorn (Capi) friend did I think to look on the placement in my chart for my Capricorn energy.

My Capi is in the 6th house in Neptune.

I decided to write it out just now though I've been ruminating on it and had since discovered in my own journey with my chart that I had yet to decipher Neptune in this house.

6th House representing our relationship to our bodies, mental, physical, & spiritual health. Our relationship to work and daily rituals. Natal house ruler being Mercury & Virgo.

In its natural order the god of communication,travel, and quick wit would govern this house of processes with clear boundaries, communication above all and flow. Nothing would be still. Here I imagine Virgo the feminine aspect of Mercury to usher in rituals of bathing, cleansing, and beauty. She would also guide on plans of the day, schedules, appointments, learning, practicing, preparation, training, and restoration. In all aspects both leave no ground uncovered; body, mind, and soul are thoroughly attended.

With Capricorn here for me, on its shadow aspects, it may focus too much on one thing it finds undesirable. Distracted with this one or several things leaving no time for all others causing imbalance. Too harsh, Unemotional, cold, extreme. I can ask for help here with more Virgo energy in balance & planning.

For the other aspect of Neptune being here in the 6th house: Neptune the god of the Sea, the realm of the unconscious and door to the spirit/ dream world. I can see how Pisces would represent its feminine aspects. Other aspects of this planet and sign are immense idealism, grandiose dreams, Powerful emotions, depths, secrets, nightmares, the weight of incredible power, the realm of the subconscious, and access to source.

What do these aspects bring to the 6th house?

Neptune will influence every aspect of this house as it is all consuming like the 🌊 ocean.

So the main aspects of this house as a place of rituals, planning, and preparation are very much like a med spa. Reminding me of the time we went to King Spa, a Korean Spa with meditation sweat rooms, pools, massages, saunas, and relaxation rooms.

At my current age and capacity this makes a lot of sense, but as a child, teen, & young adult, this was very confusing. ( Cancer szn& Cancer axis opposite Capricorn).

Back to why Capricorn is here. Going with my hunch that the signs are the feminine aspects of the planets 🪐; Cap is then fem of Saturn. The god of time.

Capricorn in its medicine will help drive the energy towards the goal/ completion. She will motivate, she will plan, she will make goals, she will get her hands dirty in the process as she leads she will also bare the laborious work. She has been patiently waiting for me to see her.

It is at this point I must realize bath house energy is not for everyone and why when in my presence some wilt like a flower in the heat.

Off to meander more in that thought experiment.

#energy work #mindfulness #spirituality #reiki healing #astrology #cancer szn #capricorn #6th house

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Recently while doing research on an antique Chinese vase for my day job, I came across the Chinese folk tale of the origins of Dragons & their pearls.

The gist of the pearl being their most prized possession and its power to magnify whatever it touches. In the tale whatever the pearl touches multiplied endlessly. When a human got a hold of it they eventually had to try to keep other humans from having it and accidentally swallowed the pearl- turning the man into a Dragon. The Dragon is revered in the culture because it is thought to bring the rains that caused the crops to grow and feed the people. This once a man, now a Dragon benevolently returns to bring rain for his family and friends to live and thrive in abundance. The Dragon is a holy and powerful symbol for the emperors of China for this reason and are thought to descend from these mystical beings.

This concept of the pearl & abundance really peeked my interest in terms of energy dynamics.

During this time I was already playing with feeling states and meditating on principles of vibration as taught by Abraham through Esther; a channeled being who speaks through a woman named Esther.

Aside from the obvious strangeness of that occurrence, I identify truth in their messages, at times.

And they were speaking on a vortex of energy that holds all of our desires ( as individuals).

The tale of King Midas comes to mind and how the allegory taught that he could turn everything to gold but because he didn't specify in his greed he could not eat, or touch his loved ones without turning them/ food to gold.

Something that endlessly multiples requires it's opposite to sustain balance. An endless void.

The Dragon is the void.

I was so excited about this notion. I mentioned the vortex because to me the void and the vortex are one and the same. No recourse from Midas touch, the void endlessly balances all of our too much ness.

The idea I had been playing with during this time was "enoughness ".

The purpose and idea of the Dragon/ pearl ( for me) is to allow us to have just enough. Not too much, drowning in excess and not an empty void.

Dragon Void

After meditation on what I truly am reaching for beneath my shadows is always enoughness. To be enough to have enough.

And when I hold enoughness as who I am and what I am doing and experiencing. I relax. I enjoy. I surrender. And when I was doing this the universe seemed to on cue make things even better. Random things came together like a beautiful plan. This happened frequently. I couldn't even imagine or remember how.

But enoughness came and went w/ my focus. And as weeks have gone by I have found things to pull me out of the vortex and venture on walks where I don't feel enough again.

I meant to write this down weeks ago when I was experiencing it. But now I know why I didn't.... because just like those synchronous occurrences, the universe knew I would need it now.

Perfect timing. I am enough again.🐉

*Read this often - xo Nikki

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People, places & things that have helped me to reflect safety & joy to myself in my body.

It's a beautiful world, a beautiful life; when you create it with unconditional love for yourself.

My reflection on this Sagittarius full moon 🥹

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