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beautifulpersonpeach · 1 year

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Hey BPP! I hope you’re doing well 😊

I was wondering which artists’ work are you looking forward to in 2023? Aside from the remaining BTS’ members’ solos.

Ask 2: BPP I don’t consider myself a New Jeans fan as their music hasn’t grabbed my attention yet but you sparked my interest in them so I’ve been keeping my eye out as an outsider. Holy shit their numbers are amazing considering this is their 1st comeback?? They will definitely be dominating SK this year as the Korean GP seems to like them and are paying attention to what they’re putting out. Hype Boy did amazing in the US too even though it was hardly promoted over there. Maybe this is a little too early to predict but I feel like in a year or too they will start dominating the GG scene and maybe even give BP competition internationally if their still active by then???

Ask 3: Seeing Hybe’s trajectory is crazy. From a struggling company barely able to support their artist to now having not just the biggest band in the world BTS but also New Jeans who has been a sprinting since debut, getting the 2nd fastest song to debut in Melon 100 after BTS. I’m not a fan of NJ but damn Hybe is killing the game. In just a few years they’ve established a pretty great roster of artists in Korea not even counting BTS’ global dominance and now they’re also slowly building up their artists base in Japan too. Hybe’s name carries a lot of clout now (ofc thanks in a large part to BTS) to be able to sign Techi and snatch famous former Prod48 artists. They hav stumbled a lot especially last year with LSF and trainee a but it still hasn’t changed the fact that they’re growing at a fast rate. No wonder kpop stans hate the company. I know armys joke a lot about how BH planned BTS’ career hundreds of years ago by the way that they plan albums and concepts months even years in advance but seeing the company slowly reveal their plans and acquisitions is surprising, I remember how shocked everyone was when they acquired Ithaca. It will be exciting to look back in a few years to see what they turn into and how they influence the industry.

Ask 4: I'm a little in awe about your insight into kpop. You were the first Army blogger I saw talk about NewJeans, supporting them in spite of the controversy and everything you said is what has happened. Forgive me for asking but do you work in the industry?

Ask 5: Now I see why you said NewJeans reminds you of rookie BTS. They are monster rookieing like nobody else rn

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Hi Anon(s),

Anon in Ask 1, aside from BTS members, the artists I'm most looking forward to in 2023, are NewJeans and Esperanza Spalding. Since NewJeans is likely more relevant for my readers in this space, I'll explain why I'm excited about more music from them this year, and I'll be using comments in all your asks as touchpoints.

"Now I see why you said NewJeans reminds you of rookie BTS."

They aren't directly comparable of course, but there are parallels. Three things made me notice BTS when they debuted in 2013:

Their music

The cohesiveness of their storyline/concept

The reaction of wider k-pop fandom/industry to the group

All three bulletpoints for BTS also hold true for me with NewJeans, and is the reason I've been into them since July 22, 2022, and why I'm excited for them in 2023. I'll work my way from bottom to top.

The Reaction of Wider K-pop Fandom / Industry to the Group

Some people think BTS weren't well known and loved in Korea until their breakout in 2016, but the reality is the reaction to BTS from nearly everyone was overwhelmingly positive. Comments from an old forum:

(this particular user was still active on the forum until 2019)

"They will definitely be dominating SK this year as the Korean GP seems to like them and are paying attention to what they’re putting out. "

BTS were the definition of monster rookies, they won the rookie awards etc, and most everyone (peers, gp, and industry leaders), took notice of them and loved them. People talked about how they had a different sound, more engaging performances, and an interesting take on the school concept with songs that appealed to their age group and others. But if there's one thing to never forget about k-pop, it's how insanely hyper-competitive it is, and we all know what happened to BTS between 2013 and 2018 at the hands of k-pop stans who at BTS' debut had loved them. The stakes are higher for k-pop stans in 2023 than it was in 2013, so for anyone reading this who genuinely loves NewJeans, just be prepared. You've all already seen that NMIXX, IVE, Classy, Lapillus, etc all debuted in 2021/22 with members aged 13 - 15 under the management of a 'creepy/pedo' CEO (and ad infinitum for groups debuting in previous years), but no group has gotten more controversy for it than NewJeans, curiously only starting after their debut album pre-order numbers were released. K-pop stans are predictable because of the incentives that drive them, so for the girls' sake and your own peace of mind, try as much as possible to engage only positively in the fandom and with others.

Don't engage with the noise, which will only be amplified after YG debuts their new girl group this year. Just keep receipts. Believe me you'll have a lot of it before the year is over. And you'll need it.

The Cohesiveness and Execution of Their Storyline / Concept

(this section includes spoilers)

The biggest clue to whatever NewJeans is, is their icon: the white rabbit.

It's everywhere - in their MVs, in their outfits, in their lore and concepts, their fandom name, and in their sound which is notably both dreamy and bouncy/groovy. The way NewJeans expresses this motif in every single thing they do is easily one of the most brilliant things I've seen in k-pop. And this is partly because of how both subtle and obvious it is, and how they've taken an old tale and modernized it so it feels familiar but also self-aware.

What is this concept I'm talking about?

It's Alice in Wonderland.

Doing a full analysis of their discography so far would make this post too long and analysis isn't my forte anyway, but if NewJeans' summer release introduced fans to their sound, gifting bunnies a 'Cookie', then in their winter release NewJeans are inviting people to follow the white rabbit into their maddening, dreamlike universe. The wonderland of NewJeans is one of eternal youth and good vibes, and not necessarily Y2K as is widely believed. In my opinion.

Every group from debut Itzy to Red Velvet to XG to Triple S has tried a Y2K aesthetic and not one of them feel as nostalgic or youthful as NewJeans. Why?

From the straight unadorned long black hair, to the inclusion of Black and queer characters into central storylines about young love, to using the bunny as a metaphor for playfulness and awareness, the expression of youth and fantasy in NewJeans is so subtle and yet pervasive to me, it's obvious it has come from the mind of someone obsessed with the idea, someone who has studied what makes someone youthful beyond the temporal sense.

Much has been said at this point about the end scene in OMG and how that is Min Heejin clapping back at her detractors (lol, k-pop stans make me laugh on a daily basis y'all), but for anyone who has actually watched the MV, it's clear that everyone (including the doctors) is said to be mad or a little insane or inside this 'dream-like reality'. Everyone, including the viewer. In Ditto and OMG, NewJeans' not only break the 4th wall, they demolish it completely. You're left wondering what is real and what is an illusion. And that's the point. With that final scene in OMG with Minji bringing the hater with her into the insane asylum, and the final scene in Ditto where an Inception-like flip happens when Ban Heeseo watches her old tapes (Heeso being a representation of their fans), the creative team at Ador has brilliantly conveyed the reality of para-social relationships fans develop with their idols, as well as enclosing their fans in their own universe and memories. Not even their haters are exempt.

It's genius.

And the really exciting thing about NewJeans is they're only getting started.

I've said before that HYBE is best at storytelling, and nowhere is this more evident than in NewJeans and BTS.

Their Music

One way I like to describe NewJeans' sound is: a return to basics.

Like BTS, NewJeans' debut style in music and choreography is primarily influenced by old school (or 90s) hiphop. The primary difference between the two groups in terms of music is that NewJeans also incorporates the mirror sound (R&B) more than BTS did at debut (BTS leaned more into R&B in 2014 and 2018), and without unnecessary rap verses typical of k-pop girl groups. In other words, NewJeans is more Aaliyah (lol) than they are Janet Jackson, but the effect of listening to their music is the same.

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For example, I heard OMG and immediately thought of Paradise by BTS, a song considered by a lot of ARMYs to be the tannies' best song (it's not lol, that title belongs to UGH, or HOME if you hate the sound of gunshots). OMG has a UK Garage type beat, and Paradise is the trap + lofi expression of the same idea. For the nerds like me, Paradise's producer recently did a breakdown of how he made that song and it's worth watching.

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Neither 250 nor Jinsu Park have done a similar breakdown of their process for NewJeans but I'll post it here soon as they do. :)

"I’m not a fan of NJ but damn Hybe is killing the game. In just a few years they’ve established a pretty great roster of artists in Korea not even counting BTS’ global dominance and now they’re also slowly building up their artists base in Japan too."

I don't think there's anybody who disagrees with you Anon. The company has had time to prepare for BTS' enlistment and it shows. What I've always enjoyed about how BigHit manages BTS and TXT, is how they seem to prioritize music production and go in the opposite direction of where their peers are heading in terms of music/styling/concepts, and even the few times there's directional overlap, it still feels 'different'. A lot of groups will be returning in 2023: the entire SM roster, Zico, Stray Kids, etc, and I'm curious to see how HYBE will differentiate themselves without BTS.

Anon in Ask 4, no I don't work in the industry.

Updated song ranking:

Hurt

Ditto

OMG

Hype Boy

Attention.

#newjeans #new jeans #kpop #fandom behaviour #hybe #kpop music #old school hiphop #ditto #omg #bts #kpop fandom #bunnies

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btsqualityy · 1 year

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So I was studying a blackpink Dance practice trying to figure out what the hype was. And here are my observations.

1. They dont dance they sway. Its a lot of armography and hairography. Which is great if you have bad knees like me. But its not dancing.

2. The camera is always moving which makes the performance seem more dynamic then it is.

3. They dont write their own lyrics and its eveident in the disconnect from what they are saying to the way they perform it. They are often dead behind the eyes and going through the motions.

4. In comparison to a group Like Mamamoo that has the same amount of members, (they dont dance hard but they sing the house the house down boots.) there is no chemistry. If you watch a Mamamoo dance practice, especially Dinga or the relay dances, they smile at each other and laugh together. Not something I see with BP. They come off as workplace proximity associates and not friends.

5. BP performs as 4 solo artists in one performance. No one is spectacular. They are just alright. They are barely ever in sync and they barely look at the other in performances.

I will say, I like the songs Kill this love and Shut Down. But that has more to do with the beat.

In spite of my personal opinions of black pink, I will say that the hype they got during their early days was definitely deserved! They did come out swinging (and Whistle and playing with Fire are still songs that I love 😭) but I think them having more than a year between comebacks soured the entire thing for them.

I also truly think a lot of bp fans are holding onto nostalgia from 2019 and prior to justify still stanning them now. They’re a group that I really won’t be surprised when they end up disbanding

#btsqualityy asks

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cb97chanbahng · 2 months

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Can you give your opinions on blackpink's discography? Don't include remixes and Japanese versions of songs.

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Tis the year 2016, where future global sensation BLACKPINK released its single album “Square One” with Whistle and Boombayah

These songs are a banger, they always were iconic, and will continue to be iconic. In my respected opinion, I liked Whistle a bit more than Boombayah, maybe that's because whistle was a bit more of the calmer counterpart of Boombayah.

Then in november of the same year, “Square Two” was released, with the tracks “STAY” and “Playing with fire” which, kinda had a mixed feeling from a few BLINK’s

Some BLINK’s said that STAY was a bad song for a group like BLACKPINK, but I beg to disagree. STAY was just an experimental song for the girls, which was a sucess, in my opinion. To keep it simpler, if BLINK’s can like Tally and The Happiest Girl then STAY isn’t an exception.

We all know how well Playing With Fire did, so it’s pretty self explanatory. But my humble opinion is STAY & Playing With Fire were my typa songs fr. (That was before the Album came out)

Now we have moved onto the year of 2017, where our girls released the single “As if it’s your last”

As if it’s your last felt like a sequel to Boombayah, in terms of Song style and MV making. But nontheless a great song. I liked the highschool typa outfits the girls wore, and Rose’ s red hair was bomb, and you can’t deny that.

2018, where things slowly started to change for the girls as “SQUARE UP” was released (hey, if BLACKPINK were to teach maths, I’m pretty sure all the students would get A1 honors)

Now, SQUARE UP consisted of 4 songs

DDU-DU DDU-DU - The modern musical masterpiece that they released. I liked the slightly more rock beats in this song, and the MV making felt so luxury compared to their tomboy style MV’s.

Forever Young - This song started the famous BP Tagline “BLACKPINK IS THE REVOLUTION” so this was 1 of the game changing songs for the girls and for the BLINK’s.

Really - This is more of a hip-hop kinda song, embedded with that BLACKPINK style that we all really love.

See U later - My personal fav. No changing that. Jisoo’s vocals in this are insane.

2019, AKA “THE YEAR OF THE REVOLUTION” for BLACKPINK, as they headlined Coachella.

Now this year has given us an ep (but I kinda wanted more…) but a good EP.

Kill this Love contains

Kill This Love - First post breakup get together typa song from the girls, so a different typa sound.

Don’t Know What to Do - I feel like its a song most teenagers would like alot in terms of the beats and lyrics, as it shows that teenage phase of life where we all have that 1 guy we like and obsess over.

Kick It - A more calmer post breakup in denial song like Kill this love. I wish it had an MV tho.

Hope Not - It’s kinda giving Rose’s HTL, but a group version, as the concept of both the songs is really similar, only the song style is different.

2020, where the covid pandemic began to rise, and our girls rose with their 1st studio album “THE ALBUM” which went viral for the title track, HYLT

The Studio Album consists of

How You Like That - Another Post Breakup song, but this time, its about how the girl gets up and out from it.

Ice Cream - That 1 flirty song featuring Selena Gomez. I liked the style of it as it was really different from whistle and boombayah, and didn’t feel as experimental as STAY was.

Pretty Savage - Now this is an interesting song as it kinda reflects on a more personal story of the girls. It’s like a diss track to their antis about the assumptions their antis have about them.

Bet U Wanna -This is more like another flirty song, I’m happy were seeing flirty songs from the girls as it shows they know both positives and negatives of a relashionship.

Lovesick Girls - This song are about girls who had one-sided loves and ended up being killed by it. Jennie passes in a car crash, Rose in a tub of BLACK ink, and Lisa from a building. Jisoo was the only one who didn’t have a lover, but she was unable to save the other girls, thus attempting to drown herself, but failed.

Crazy Over You - This song talks about a girl who obsessed with the guy she likes, but the guy is kinda chill w her, which makes the girl obsess over her more.

Love to Hate Me - Again, a one-sided love in which the guy hates the girl & the girl finally sees it.

You Never Know - This is also a personal song for the girls, as it reflects the true environment of what goes on behind the screens of the k-pop world.

2022 shortly after covid decreased by alot, things were getting better for everyone, and BLACKPINK came out with second studio album BORN PINK, before going on their second world tour.

The second studio album consists of

Pink Venom : The MV for this I loved, as it was a continuation to lovesick girls, where Jisoo uses dark magic to bring back her deceased friends. Jennie comes back in a much bigger, stronger car, Lisa on the ground floor of the building she fell from, Rose’ in black ink. But the song however didn’t feel like a usual BLACKPINK song, and didn’t really hit the mark for some people. It wasn’t bad, but compared to their other songs, it wasn’t as great.

Shut Down - This was a song that showed how far the girls have come on their journey w YG entertainment, as it has references to their old mv scenes, and the BLACKPINK in your area, was finally brought back.

Typa Girl - This was a song that showcased the girls standards when it comes to having a relationship, and I liked this song alot.

Yeah Yeah Yeah - This song talks about how a silly meetup lead to a happy relationship from both sides, which is a new song style from the girls.

Hard To Love - This song talks about the insecurities a girl has when it comes to one-sided relationships, which I have only seen in english songs.

The Happiest Girl - This song revolves around another post breakup, showcasing the fact that 1 breakup isn’t the end of the world, and that they can always try again.

Tally - This is again another diss track towards their antis, showing that from this point on, they’ll do whatever, whenever and with whoever, being IDGAF to their antis.

Ready For Love - A post-breakup glowup song, in which the girl has become ready to find a new love and to write a new story.

Overall, I’d rate BLACKPINK’s discography a 7/10. The reason is because while they release good songs, having only 2 full albums in a span of 7 years is pretty low for a group as big as BLACKPINK, which I feel the error falls on YG Ent. for not managing the girls properly. The girls not renewing their solo contract is complete proof of that. They got much more solo activities after being free from YG Ent, so I hope the amount of group releases increase at a steady rate, and lots of love for the girls future endeavors!

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#kpop blackpink #blackpink #lalisa manobal #blackpink jisoo #jennie #rose blackpink #blackpink is the revolution

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sleepycap · 1 year

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I think I’m gonna do a media thread for this year and just make it #mediathread2023 or something

01. Surkin - Next of Kin (2008) 02. This Place Rules (2022) 03. Puss in Boots: The Last Wish (2022) 04. Mere Notilde - Love Is Gonna Getcha (2022) 05. DJ Shadow - The Private Press (2002) 06. Enter the Wu-Tang (36 Chambers) (1993) 07. Blade Runner: Director’s Cut (1992) 08. Cure (1997) 09. HEALTH - VOL. 4 :: SLAVES OF FEAR (2019) 10. Yakuza 3 Remastered (2021) 11. OutKast - Aquemini (1998) 12. Titanic (1997) 13. Sun Ra - Strange Celestial Road (1980) 14. Herbie Hancock - Head Hunters (1973) 15. Hanayo - Gift (2000) 16. Gustavo Cerati - Boscanada (1999) 17. The Prodigy - The Day is my Enemy (2015) 18. Various Artists - Ed Rec Vol. 3 (2008) 19. Memories of Murder (2003) 20. Gorillaz - Cracker Island (2023) 21. The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild (2017) 22. Beck - Odelay (1996) 23. TDJ - TDJ-182 (2021) 24. Cassius - Au Rêve 25. Cassius - 15 Again (2006) 26. The Man Who Knew Too Little (1997) 27. BP - ゴールデンBP. (Golden BP.) (1997) 28. Blow Out (1981) 29. Pearl Jam - Ten (1991) 30. JPEGMAFIA & Danny Brown - SCARING THE HOES (2023) 31. Radiohead - The Bends (1995) 32. Steven Universe Future (2019) 33. The Super Mario Bros. Movie (2023) 34. J Dilla - Jay Stay Paid (2009) 35. My Bloody Valentine - Loveless 36. RRR (2022) 37. Madreblu - Necessità (1999) 38. Run the Jewels - Run the Jewels (2013) 39. The Mask (1994) 40. Resident Evil 4 (2023) 41. Resident Evil 4 (2023) (2nd playthrough) 42. Unbreakable (2000) 43. The Chemical Brothers - Surrender (1999) 44. No Country For Old Men (2007) 45. Goodfellas (1990) 46. Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003) 47. The Departed (2006) 48. Swans - White Light from the Mouth of Infinity (1991) 49. Jamiroquai - Synkronized (1999) 50. Yakuza 4 Remastered (2021) 51. The Godfather Part II (1974) 52. Dog Day Afternoon (1975) 53. Beastie Boys - Ill Communication (1994) 54. Fugazi - Repeater (1990) 55. Cortex - Troupeau Bleu (1975) 56. Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse (2023) 57. Get Out (2017) 58. Interstellar (2014) 59. Fatboy Slim - You’ve Come A Long Way, Baby (1998) 60. The Venture Bros.: Radiant is the Blood of the Baboon Heart (2023) 61. Django Unchained (2012) 62. The Transformers: The Movie (1986) 63. Batman: Year One (1987) 64. Paths of Glory (1957) 65. Apocalypse Now (1979) 66. Heart of Darkness: A Filmmaker’s Apocalypse (1991) 67. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) 68. Hypnospace Outlaw (2019) 69. Portal With RTX (2022) 70. Resident Evil 6 [Leon & Helena] (2012) 71. Quake II (1997) 72. Mad Max 2: The Road Warrior (1981) 73. Stalker (1979) 74. Twin Peaks: Into the Night Demo (2023) 75. An American Werewolf in London (1981) 76. Splatoon 3 (2022) 77. Chinatown (1974) 78. Slumdog Millionaire (2008) 79. The Deer Hunter (1979) 80. 100 gecs - 10,000 gecs (2023) 81. Jeff Rosenstock - HELLMODE (2023)

#mediathread2023

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hyeinfection · 5 years

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After a sweet Hi there's always a bitter bye

#blackpink #femaleidol #my edits #my gifs #kill this love #jennie #kpop #gg #girl group #girl power #k-pop female #2019 #BP #blink

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softsichenghours · 5 years

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{6:37 pm} taeyong laughs at you and joins in when he walks in on you dancing to kill this love.

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love4yoon-blog · 5 years

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fav se for usar 🔪💔

#blackpink #kill this love #icons #icon #pack #kpop #2019 #mv #aesthetic #pink #pretty #bp #teaser

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roses-lily · 5 years

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ready for comeback!

#BLACKPINK 'KILL THIS LOVE' D-1

2019.04.05 0AM (KST)

TITLE SONG : Kill This Love

SUB TITLE SONG : Don’t Know What To Do

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jjmorelikeotp · 5 years

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Blackpink - KILL THIS LOVE (2019)

#bp #blink #blackpink #comeback #yg #meme #kpop #salute #kill this love #blackpink 2019 #jennie #lisa #rosé #jisoo #funny

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aliveandfullofjoy · 3 years

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So I was reading about the first Oscars ceremony, and it had a division between Outstanding Picture and Best Unique & Artistic Film, where Unique & Artistic was apparently meant to be an equal to Outstanding Picture but dedicated more for prestige artistic works. The next year, the two categories became one from then on, and Outstanding Picture was the only top prize. (If any of that is wrong, blame wikipedia.)

If the split had remained, and there was a more commercial-y movie top prize and a prestige art top prize, what are some notable movies that suddenly pick up wins?

okay wait........ this is a brilliant question and i am ashamed to say i’ve never really given it much thought until now.

idk if you’ve seen wings and sunrise but they’re both pretty great and they do represent wildly different kinds of filmmaking. while it’s safe to say Wings is the more commercial film, it has great craftsmanship behind it and it very clearly created the template for accessible, capital-i Important, and well-made best picture winners to come.

and, full transparency, sunrise is one of my, like, top 15 favorite movies, so i’m hella biased, but that movie is a gorgeous and strange and thrilling piece of work. the title “unique and artistic film” is impossibly vague, but watching sunrise makes it very, very clear that it fits that bill for that category. and while we’ll, of course, never know what might have happened if that category had continued, it’s tempting to think that all the winners in unique and artistic film would be of sunrise’s calibre, but knowing the oscars... that’s clearly a fantasy, lol. while sunrise is a wildly inventive and artistic film, it’s important to remember that it was fully on the academy’s radar -- janet gaynor won best actress in part for her performance in the film, and it also won best cinematography. so while it’s tempting to think the academy would always recognize a truly unique and artistic achievement every year, in all likelihood, they probably wouldn’t stray too far from the movies that were already on their radar.

so for this thought experiment!!

it’s probably safe to assume every best picture winner has to go in one of the two categories. there are only a handful of winners that stick out as maybe missing out on the big win in this new system, but only a handful.

so uh. this is way more than you asked but i got hooked. here’s what i think might have happened if the two best picture categories had stuck around. as i was working through the years, it became clear to me that, unfortunately, in a lot of years, the unique and artistic film would likely end up going to the more overtly “prestigious” films, such as the song of bernadette or the life of emile zola, while their far better and more commercially viable rivals (casablanca for bernadette, the awful truth for zola) would win outstanding picture. the actual best picture winners have an asterisk next to them. what’s also interesting to consider is the importance of the best director category: most of the time, a split in picture and director will tell you what’s clearly the runner-up. those years, usually, give you a good sense of how the two awards would shake out.

Outstanding Picture / Unique and Artistic Film

1929: The Broadway Melody*; The Divine Lady

1930: The Big House; All Quiet on the Western Front*

1931: Cimarron*; Morocco

1932: Grand Hotel*; Bad Girl

1933: Little Women; Cavalcade*

1934: It Happened One Night*; One Night of Love

1935: The Informer; A Midsummer Night’s Dream (** this is one of the few years i think the actual BP winner, Mutiny on the Bounty, would miss out; The Informer was clearly the runner-up for BP with wins in director, actor, and screenplay, while Midsummer was seen as THE artistic triumph of the year, and with its historic write-in cinematography win, there was clearly a lot of passion for it)

1936: Mr. Deeds Goes to Town; The Great Ziegfeld*

1937: The Awful Truth; The Life of Emile Zola*

1938: You Can’t Take It With You*; Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs or Grand Illusion (** this one’s tough... Grand Illusion made history as the first non-english movie nominated for BP, and it clearly had a lot of support, but Snow White was such a monumental moment in Hollywood, and the academy clearly acknowledged that with its honorary award)

1939: Gone with the Wind*; The Wizard of Oz (** this is one of the first years with a clear runaway favorite for best picture, which makes guessing the way the other award would go very difficult! i’m leaning towards Oz purely because of its technical achievements, but i’m not confident about that choice at all.)

1940: Rebecca*; The Grapes of Wrath

1941: How Green Was My Valley*; Citizen Kane

1942: Yankee Doodle Dandy; Mrs. Miniver*

1943: Casablanca*; The Song of Bernadette

1944: Going My Way*; Wilson

1945: The Bells of St. Mary’s; The Lost Weekend*

1946: The Best Years of Our Lives*; Henry V

1947: Gentleman’s Agreement*; A Double Life

1948: The Treasure of the Sierra Madre; Hamlet*

1949: All the King’s Men*; The Heiress

1950: All About Eve*; Sunset Boulevard

1951: A Place in the Sun; An American in Paris*

1952: The Greatest Show on Earth*; The Quiet Man

1953: Roman Holiday; From Here to Eternity*

1954: The Country Girl; On the Waterfront*

1955: Marty*; Picnic

1956: Around the World in 80 Days*; Giant

1957: Peyton Place; The Bridge on the River Kwai

1958: The Defiant Ones; Gigi*

1959: The Diary of Anne Frank; Ben-Hur*

1960: Elmer Gantry; The Apartment*

1961: West Side Story*; Judgment at Nuremberg

1962: To Kill a Mockingbird; Lawrence of Arabia*

1963: Tom Jones*; 8½

1964: Mary Poppins; My Fair Lady*

1965: The Sound of Music*; Doctor Zhivago

1966: A Man for All Seasons*; Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf?

1967: In the Heat of the Night*; The Graduate

1968: Oliver!*; 2001: A Space Odyssey

1969: Midnight Cowboy; Z

1970: Airport; Patton*

1971: The French Connection*; The Last Picture Show

1972: The Godfather; Cabaret

1973: The Sting*; The Exorcist

1974: Chinatown; The Godfather, Part II

1975: Jaws; One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest*

1976: Rocky*; Network

1977: Star Wars; Annie Hall*

1978: Coming Home; The Deer Hunter*

1979: Kramer vs. Kramer*; All That Jazz

1980: Ordinary People*; Raging Bull

1981: Chariots of Fire*; Reds

1982: E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial; Gandhi*

1983: Terms of Endearment*; Fanny and Alexander

1984: Amadeus*; The Killing Fields

1985: Out of Africa*; Ran

1986: Platoon*; Blue Velvet

1987: Moonstruck; The Last Emperor*

1988: Rain Man*; Who Framed Roger Rabbit

1989: Driving Miss Daisy*; Born on the Fourth of July

1990: Ghost; Dances with Wolves*

1991: The Silence of the Lambs*; JFK

1992: Unforgiven*; Howards End

1993: Schindler’s List*; The Piano

1994: Forrest Gump*; Three Colors: Red

1995: Braveheart*; Toy Story

1996: Jerry Maguire; The English Patient*

1997: Titanic*; L.A. Confidential

1998: Shakespeare in Love*; Saving Private Ryan

1999: The Cider House Rules; American Beauty*

2000: Traffic; Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (** this is another year where i think the actual BP winner, Gladiator, might have missed out. it was a tight three-way race going into oscar night, and if there were two BP awards, i think this consensus might have settled, leaving Gladiator to go home with just actor and some tech awards.)

2001: A Beautiful Mind*; Mulholland Drive

2002: Chicago*; The Pianist

2003: Mystic River; The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King*

2004: Million Dollar Baby*; The Aviator

2005: Crash*; Brokeback Mountain

2006: The Departed*; Babel

2007: No Country for Old Men*; The Diving Bell and the Butterfly

2008: The Dark Knight; Slumdog Millionaire*

2009: The Hurt Locker*; Avatar

2010: The King’s Speech*; The Social Network

2011: The Artist*; The Tree of Life

2012: Argo*; Life of Pi

2013: 12 Years a Slave*; Gravity

2014: Birdman*; Boyhood

2015: Spotlight*; The Revenant

2016: La La Land; Moonlight*

2017: Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri; The Shape of Water*

2018: Black Panther; Roma (** again, i think Green Book gets bumped out in this scenario, i think Black Panther is precisely the kind of movie that benefits from an award that’s seemingly more ~populist~ while Roma easily snags the unique & artistic prize)

2019: 1917; Parasite*

2020: The Father; Nomadland*

but of course i have no idea at all, and most of these are just my gut reactions lol. what a fun question!

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fu-yao · 3 years

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tagged by @leonzhng thanks for making me dig through my most embarrassing crushes 😭✋

i’ll tag @highwarlockkareena @yibobibo @lan-xichens @purplexedhuman @aheartfullofjolllly @lanzhansmiles @nyx4 i feel like i tag you guys in everything i am so sorry please ignore this if u don’t wanna do it !!

putting this under a read more for reasons

MEN 2010 – 2016

literally nothing more embarrassing than falling on the same type of white man over and over again (with the exception of minho from shinee bless his heart)

tommy joe ratliff → he was the bass player for adam lambert during his glamnation era (think of songs like for your entertainment and if i had you) idk why exactly i liked him so much but i just did.... however i searched him up again quite recently and found out he’s one of those republicans that says the dumbest shit on twitter so Big Yikes

harry styles → “baby you light up my world like nobody else, the way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed, and when you smile at the ground it ain’t hard to tell...” and BOOM 13-year-old me was sold for well over two years

louis tomlinson → basically i liked harry most until around 2013 when for some reason i started to like him a little less, and i got more focused on louis tomlinson, and although i didn’t like one direction anymore louis tomlinson always had a special place in my heart

ashton irwin → so ashton is 5sos’ drummer, i discovered 5sos through one direction & i stanned them until late 2014

harries twins → the harries twins (jack & finn) are basically the reason i started spending a lot of time on youtube, they were funny and pretty and they just had good videos in general, so for almost two years i’d watch their content regularly

choi minho → my first steps into kpop happened bc i was watching videos on youtube (most probably the harries twins) and suddenly i saw the sherlock mv in my recommended videos so i clicked on it and then 14-year-old me proceeded to fall for minho like an idiot

brooks twins → still youtubers, the brooks twins were 3/5 of the janoskians (jai & luke brooks, beau brooks, daniel sahyounie, & james yammouni), an australian youtube comedy group that was active from 2011-2018 though i was only around from 2012-2014 (when jai brooks was dating ariana grande)

jc caylen → surprise! another youtuber! jc caylen was part of o2l (our2ndlife) a youtube collaboration channel on which each of the 6 members posted videos on a certain day in the week (mondays with connor, tuesdays with ricky, wednesdays with sam, thursdays with jc, fridays with trevi (my 2nd favorite member bc she participated on the x factor), saturdays with ricardo, and then they had surprise sundays every week) and i remember how much joy jc & the others always brought me with their silly videos

misha collins → up next, you might know him as the gay angel that was sent to superhell after confessing his love to the homophobic hunter on supernatural, it’s misha collins! basically misha was a huge source of comfort for me, and i even went around calling myself emmisha for almost two full years (cringe)

henrik holm → he played even bech naesheim in skam and my crush on him reached that level of ridiculousness where i actually tried my hand at learning norwegian (i can only remember how to introduce myself and some curse words i would make a great first impression on him)

MEN 2016 – 2021

min yoongi → okay so my baby steps into kpop happened through shinee’s sherlock, but i only got really invested when yoongi dropped agust d 1 because Holy Fuck y’know??

kim namjoon → oh man i remember thinking namjoon was cute and a very good leader and then BAM he dressed like THAT at the 2016 mma’s and i fell in love. hard

park seojoon → i started liking park seojoon whilst i was watching hwarang (you guessed it, i watched it bc of taehyung), although he wasn’t my favorite character by far, but he was very silly off camera & i liked that (i’m not that into him anymore tho </3)

kim seokjin → OH BOY LET ME TELL U i liked seokjin from the very beginning (i got to know bts in late 2014) and i always liked seeing him perform and be himself and god once i realized i had a crush on him it just hit me like a mf truck, and he’s still one of my favorite people to this day

jung hoseok → god fake love era hoseok really hits different.... also yes i know i have all of bts’ hyung line on my list BUT bts was a really big part of my life for almost 6 years soooo honestly they deserve it i still think they’re great guys

choi san → when ateez made their debut in 2018 i immediately fell in love with san, he was such an amazing dancer and he captivated me right from the very beginning, to this day he’s still my bias in ateez uwu

xiao zhan → AND THEN, OCTOBER OF 2019 HAPPENS AND I WATCH CQL AND... i fall in love with xiao zhan, something i’d never expected would happen bc when i watched cql for the first time i wasn’t as invested in the story, but i really really really liked xiao zhan and one thing led to another and now here i am as a xfx

wang yibo → the thing is, i’ve known yibo since eoeo except i didn’t know cql yibo was uniq yibo (bc i’d forgotten his name) and when i looked it up i can tell you my jaw dropped to the floor bc holy shit????? also he is very silly and i love him loads ok

lee minho → ah, the man who has been my skz bias since 2018, not only is minho my bias i also kin him (there’s a lot of aspects of myself that i see in minho and vice versa) and he’s very comforting to me

bang chan → honestly, it was only a matter of time before i’d fall for bang chan, i knew the moment i got into skz again that i’d start biasing him and, well, here i am, double biasing chan & minho

WOMEN

this list is shorter bc i’ve in general always had less crushes on women than on men??? blame society forcing me into thinking i was straight for a LONG time

ariana grande → remember the 2011 layout of twitter?? where u could not only have an icon and a header, but also a background and ur twitter page was smack in the center of ur screen with the big ugly menu bar at the top??? yeah ariana grande was always my background for my l*rr* st*l*n*s*n layouts

perrie edwards → this was right around the time she was dating zayn & little mix was breaking out into the spotlight, yeah i just really loved her

andrea russett → okay so remember o2l?? andrea russett was kian’s girlfriend for a pretty long time and they always did videos together and i always thought she was super pretty

lily collins → maybe i don’t like clary in tmi all that much but i sure liked the way lily collins looked

alona tal → MY BISEXUAL AWAKENING, it’s only when i saw alona tal in spn that i realized, fuck i might be gay

park jihyo → i discovered twice (my 2nd jype group after day6) through the like ooh-ahh mv and red-haired jihyo really did something to my heart (i just rewatched it and god zombie bang chan is so mf cute)

kim jisoo → when bp made their square two comeback i was immediately smitten for red-haired jisoo in playing with fire, it’s also when i realized she was my bias out of the four members

shin ryujin → the reason that i have blue hair is partially bc of ryujin and her amazing intro in wannabe :D

xuan lu → her portrayal of jiang yanli was SO ON POINT and she’s just such a kindhearted wonderful person wow i want her hand in marriage

lee yoobin → god i’ve known dreamcatcher from back when they were still called minx and ever since i’ve always looked at dami that bit more than the rest, i was also able to see dreamcatcher live in october of 2019 and the whole experience was just so amazing !!

FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

there’s a whole lot more than just these 10 but i wanted to fit the evolution into one (1) slide as best as i could lmao

peter pan → this movie came out in 2003 (?) and he’s honestly the first fictional character i remember ever having a crush on

legolas → i was really doubting between placing haldir or legolas here but i only really got a vague haldir obsession when i was like 14

zuko → LOOK. ZUKO IN ATLA? HOT. ZUKO IN LOK? HOT EVEN IF HE’S AN OLD MAN.

will turner → man was annoying sometimes but i really liked him and his relationship with elizabeth was cute

jo harvelle → gosh i can’t believe she’s the only female character in here???? yeah she was one of my two spn faves and i’ll never forgive the screenwriters for the way they killed her off

castiel → does your fave ever get sent to super hell for being gay? no? well. mine did

kili → fili and kili’s storyline tore my heart out, spit on it, and then laughed straight in my face, KILI WAS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE DWARF

howl → i only watched this movie for the first time in 2020 so i kinda fucked up the tl cause i watched cql in 2019 but shh, anyways howl with his blonde hair was good looking but howl with his black hair just hits differently. i want a howl

lan jingyi → MY BABY BOY, TINIE LITTLE BABIE WHOMST I MUST PROTECT ok no but seriously this kid. i love him a lot

mu qing → BARK BARK. that’s all (that’s not all i love him a whole lot and it hurts me to see so many people misunderstand his character and only see the bad parts of him when they can forgive others for fucking up (eg. xie lian himself & feng xin) but bc mu qing doesn’t deal well with emotions suddenly he’s the bad guy??? i s2g if ppl are gonna do to him what they did to jiang cheng in the tgcf la i will RIOT)

#thanks for the tag hanyi my hands hurt now </3 #tag game

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vtforpedro · 3 years

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LONG POST, medical update. ptsd, suicide TW: I’m really tired. I feel like I’ve been saying that for a year but I am exhausted. mind, body and soul exhausted my head got better after I lost the water weight my chemo pill was packing on (I was 15lbs lighter than the three weeks previously. so it was pretty bad lol) but now it’s getting bad again. it never gets to the point of relief, but it gets manageable and now it’s becoming unmanageable again. it’s not water weight but it might be cause I’ve put on a couple pounds over the holidays (just barely a couple pounds, I’m eating much lighter in general) anyway I don’t see the point of being scared to name what it is my neurosurgeon and I believe this is anymore. my psychiatrist thinks it makes sense, my pcp, even the ER doctor I saw on dec. 2nd lol but I am 99.9% sure this is what I have and it does makes sense but every fucking time I think about it for a while it makes me so angry. so so so angry y’all. I wish I could sit every single medical professional I interacted with over the last year or so who didn’t believe me and tell them it’s all been real, they failed me to such a degree I have ptsd and anger problems that I’m going to need therapy for, and tell them to learn how to be better providers. blegh so I saw my neurosurgeon (one of the best in the country) for the first time in april. his thoughts? anxiety with muscle tension in my back and neck that led to tension in my head. as in the muscles around my bones, not inside of my skull. didn’t listen to me or believe me, thought all my crazy symptoms were just anxiety and possibly the chiari malformation but there’s no treatment for that beyond surgery and mine is so mild no one wants to go that route (me most of all lmao) I put off seeing him again because I saw different neurologists and my PCP over the months who basically all said the same thing. like my PCP believed me and gave me referrals to the neuros, but one told me to ‘stop worrying about this and just enjoy life’ and the other sat with me for an hour, the first half of which she was all on board the ‘anxiety is fucking with you, none of this is real’ train until I had to tell her to LISTEN TO MY SYMPTOMS firmly enough that she did. she went the opposite way then and said yeah ok something ‘mechanical’ is happening, you need to go back to a neurosurgeon. turned out she loves the neurosurgeon I saw in april (worship the ground he walks on, were her words) but told me maybe I still needed a second opinion. she did also mention that I’ve been living with this for so long that I’m ‘married to it now’ which still implies I’m making it worse than it actually is but :) whatever, she couldn’t think of what it could be decided to just go back to that neurosurgeon and tell him the physical therapy he prescribed in april I had to stop because it made things worse. his PA tried to prescribe me more PT on the phone before I firmly told her I needed to SPEAK with him face to face because my quality of life is gone, because I get close to killing myself weekly because of how bad this is and nothing has improved since april. only gotten worse. so I had my appt with him in late October I think? I explained all of my symptoms (again) and told him how nothing has changed, things have gotten worse, when I do x y z I have an episode, etc etc. he said he still doesn’t think it’s the chiari but he said it *might* be IIH idiopathic intracranial hypertension first time I’ve ever heard of it and even though it was over 11 months into this, it might just save my life now that I have idiopathic = we don’t fucking know why this happens, intracranial = HAPPENING IN MY SKULL AND BRAIN, hypertension = technically high blood pressure, but for here just high pressure cause my BP is good it is rare, it is unknown why people get it and why others don’t, it is most common in women of child bearing age who are obese. the thought is that the weight on the body causes the brain to very slightly inflate, decreasing spinal fluid flow and increasing pressure in the brain, sometimes CAUSING a chiari malformation to appear, which can cause other symptoms on top of IIH it used to be called pseudotumor cerebri because IIH makes the brain behave like it has a tumor while no tumor is actually present (which means normal MRI/CT scans and the main reason everyone told me I was faking it) I gained 80lbs in less than two years due to severe depression and ptsd. I’ve been at the same weight for almost two years now and was at that weight in Feb 2019 before things started happening in Dec 2019. sometimes it does just come on one day. it can be chronic, it can randomly go into remission and come back, and they have no idea why it even happens. it’s rare enough that no neurologist I saw could even think of it. rare enough that one of the best neurosurgeons in the country didn’t think of it until he decided he believed me lol he leans even more heavily into this because I gained weight so quickly (one of the hallmarks of getting IIH) and I had not a single symptom like it before the weight gain I don’t trust anything or anyone right now and I am extremely pessimistic and have no hope. but the one thing that’s given me a little hope, that’s made me believe this is what I have, is the fucking wikipedia page on IIH. it lists one specific symptom that I’ve seen nowhere else (and is EXTREMELY specific lmao) that I have and that everyone thought I was crazy explaining. beyond destroying your quality of life, the one thing IIH can do is cause permanent blindness. I’ve had a fuck ton of problems with my vision since this all started happening. one of the worst is that if I’m in the middle of an episode and I look up or to the left, it makes it h u r t and makes the episode worse. which is on the wikipedia page! which explains why I couldn’t fucking do EMDR therapy which involves rapid eye movement from side to side :) :) :) even my therapist was thinking this was all in my head and I was just letting my anxiety tell me EMDR would send my head into an episode instead of it actually happening lmaaaao god I am so angry y’all my mom and my uncle The Doctor wanted to commit me in March/April. I had an entire ER nurses station mock me for ten minutes for coming in repeatedly and having bizarre symptoms that, because they were unexplained, they thought I was faking. they belittled me when talking to me. one put the tv remote (no tv in the room) instead of the call button in my hand when I was too out of it to notice. the ER doctor that day told me I was making up a story, none of this was real, and to continue seeing my psychiatrist. I went home that day, told my mom I was fine for her to go back to work (she was angry with me and wanted me to go to a psychiatric hospital), took a shower and planned on swallowing a bottle of pills. I was in agony, utter agony, every single day multiple times a day I thought I was going to die, and it was being made clear to me that no one, not even my mom, believed me. I told my best friend and she talked me out of it, but I came very close and I will forever be heartbroken and angry beyond belief about this (my mom came around not long after this after seeing that this wasn’t going away and has thoroughly apologized for wanting to commit me. she has been helping me every single day since this started even tho she thought it was anxiety. I’m angry but I don’t hold it against her, not after the incredible sacrifices she’s made for me for a year) so yeah. every bizarre symptom, every agonizing thing I go through, the weird discomfort, pain and burning, vision problems, etc etc, all explained by IIH. the very specific ‘looking in a certain direction makes it worse’ has been there since day one. it’s because pressure has increased on the nerve behind my eyes so looking in a certain way aggravates the affected nerve further gaining all that water weight and having my head get so so so severe, enough to send me to the ER again, made me also think this was a real possibility and the ER doc agreed that the fluid retention was making pressure in my brain even more severe and it did ease quite a lot once that was all gone, another reason I believe this is IIH if you read up on IIH or read stories by people with it, it is life altering, debilitating, and agonizing to live with. most people will also have the same story of doctors not believing them and saying it was anxiety before getting this diagnosis the good thing? there’s a cure and while some people may need additional help later on, it works for most people. and it is, very simply, losing weight. 10-20% of body weight (some places say relief can start at just 3%) seems to completely cure it for most people because the brain is no longer inflated and because of that, any chiari malformation (cerebral tonsils sitting in the spinal cord opening) will actually go away, because it makes room in the skull for the tonsils to go back to their normal place I have some trouble knowing that I am partially at fault for gaining weight like I did, but my mom keeps telling me it’s so rare and how could I have possibly known and it was after severe trauma so. trying to deal with that too lol but yeah! weight loss journey. my chemo pill, if you read my last update, completely fucked me up for a while (including the fuckin weight gain despite a low calorie, low fat diet since like nov 1st) so it’s made it hard to lose weight. but now that I’m off of that pill, I’m down 7lbs and I will continue to lose. I have never been more motivated in my life to lose weight lmao and I’ve successfully done it before! I can’t exercise but my neurosurgeon said as the weight comes off and my symptoms start getting better, I will probably be able to incorporate more movement in my life. I can’t even walk around my apt for too long right now cause it builds pressure in my brain. it fucking sucks because this is something they don’t understand, it’s really only diagnosed if everything else has been ruled out (and with a lumbar puncture, but I am too fucking traumatized to have that done. but if I showed high pressure with no reason for it, it would be an ‘official’ IIH diagnosis). but I’m choosing not to do the LP because if I start to have my symptoms relieved as I lose weight, it’s pretty obvious that’s what this has been from the start my brain thinks it has a brain tumor and is going absolutely batshit insane and no matter how much I tried to get people to believe me, it took 11 months to get there. I will carry this with me for the rest of my life and once covid eases, I’m finding a good trauma therapist and working through this if my symptoms DON’T ease, we’ll talk brain surgery. but I think this is what I have and I think I’ll be okay when I lose enough weight (and I’ll feel better all around lol) anyway I’ve had an extremely bad couple of months and I wanted to get this off my chest, sorry it’s so long. if you can please, please, please cross your fingers for me and wish me luck that this is what it is and that over the next handful of months I lose the weight and get my life back, I will appreciate it more than I can say I’m going to thank all of you ahead of time because I lack spoons to reply right now and I also want to thank you all for your support over this last year and never doubting me. for always offering me words of encouragement and for being angry on my behalf. thank you thank you thank you I love you all <3

#personal #medical #health update #tw suicide #long post

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momoringminari · 3 years

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Blackpink Rosé - KILL THIS LOVE [2019] 💕 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #blackpink #bp #jennie #rose #jisoo #lisa #yeri #blink #blackpinkcollection #collector (en Santiago, Chile) https://www.instagram.com/p/CT5dRc_Jzop/?utm_medium=tumblr

#blackpink #bp #jennie #rose #jisoo #lisa #yeri #blink #blackpinkcollection #collector

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schneegloeckchen · 4 years

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Hello, there!🤗 Thank you for visiting this blog. This is my first time using tumblr, so I'm very new here and don't know what I'm doing. Also, I'm just using my phone. So please be gentle.😄

*Introductions*

My nickname is Dia (yes, that's an actual nickname of my name). I'm a female '95 liner and, as you could have guessed by the title of this blog, I'm from Germany, so english isn't my first language. (Sorry in advance, for any spelling mistakes.) I also have the tendency to ramble, so chances are, my posts are gonna be pretty long winded.😅 Please bear with me.

My hobbies include music, anime, gaming, reading (fanfiction since 2013) and botany (nearly finished with my biology major 😆🌻).

I started this blog mainly because of BTS. Since I don't have any other social media, keeping updated and interacting with other army has been a struggle (read non-existant). I don't know anyone personally, who even listens to kpop. It was pretty lonely just lurking around. So I finally caved and started this account.

*How I became ARMY*

I found BTS early 2019, because BPs Kill this Love was playing on the radio and they hyped up the MV. So I looked for it on yt and re-ignited my little flame for K-Pop. And as you would expect BTS was recommended again and again and again. Everywhere. So I eventually started to wonder what the hype was about and clicked on a video of them. You can imagine what happend next.

They were such hilarious, lovable crack heads and their relationships with each other seemed so genuin. So I wanted to learn more about them. It didn't help that I'm a sucker for shonen (esp. Sports), so their story really hit home. And that they were all around my age (RM is closest, so I really am smack in the middle). It was inspiring to see what they could accomplish in the same time I have been alive. And I was just blown away by their dancing! 🤩

I really love (to watch😅) dancing no matter what kind, but formation dances are my favorite. I love the synchronity and the images they create together, all warking together to create something more beautiful then any could do on their own. And the first time I watched their spring day dance practice, I was moved to tears.😢 I didn't know anything about the song, not the lyrics or its background, but at the end of the video I started crying because of the feelings they conveyd. Esp. Jimin. Every move of him screamed loss and sorrow, but was so beautiful and graceful.

I should have realized at the time that he was going to be my bias, if I had one, but I was in denial for nearly a year. Because I got the wrong impression of him after BST and a few introduction videos. I don't like the in-your-face overly sexual types and he came across as the "sexappeal" focused in the group. I guess that is still true, in a way. But after watching more of their content and getting to know more of his charakter and were he came from, I realized that he does this for army, not because he is narcistic. That he tries harder than anyone else to make us happy. And he has my utmost respect for that.

I also couldn't get used to his voice in the beginning.😖 His voice was the first I could recognize 10/10, but not in a positive way. That changed after I saw the #1 Muster performance of Just one day. I fell in love with his voice and am now so proud of his improvement in every new song they release. I was shook after Stay Gold and Your eyes tell were released this year (though Your eyes tell hit differently on so many levels...😭). And once you JimIN, well...

They all love army so much. Their love and humblness astonished me since I found out about their history. That they really credited their fandom for every accomplishment and always talked so sincierly and lovingly to army was amazing. For over a year I didn't dare call myself an army, because I was intimidated by this relationship. Like, how could I still be an army after all these years and all the hard times they went through with their army.

It didn't feel right to just insert myself into that bond without really knowing anything about them. So I got to know more about them by starting to watch their content from the very beginning and listening to all their music and eventually getting vlive. I still have a lot of catching up to do, but I feel secure and comfortable now calling myself an army.

Anyway this post is getting really long so I should propably wrap it up and continue at another time. And I didn't even get to the main part.😂 This is way more cartaric than I could have imagined.☺️ A bit like writing a diary entry.🤭

Tl.dr: I'm 25 years old, ARMY since April 2019, and Jimin biased. I love ot7 and absolutly adore their dancing and the genuiness of their interactions with army and each other. Please take good care of me.

Thank you for reading this far and listening to my story. Stay happy and stay safe.

Borahae!💜💜💜

Dia

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