#I haven’t even been drawing for myself

[jocelynships]

I totally didn’t cry over the fact the X-Men aren’t real last night before bed haha who does that

It’s me. I do that.

#in my defense this has been such a shit week at work #and I’m like. barely hanging on with everything rn #I gotta get through today but idk if I have the strength #and I just want my family rn #rewatching WAXTM and then X-Men 97 finally coming out just. reminded me how much I love these guys #and god infucking missed them #however it just reminds me how much it hurts that they aren’t real tho #anyways I was gonna go hang out in the parks tomorrow but uh #out of state spring breakers are coming #so it’s probably gonna be too busy #and I’m just physically and mentally exhausted #I think I’m just gonna stay home and work on commissions #to the people I owe art I promise it’s coming I’m working on things a lot slower than I’d like #and I feel terrible about it tbh #work has just been sucking me dry and I have no energy #I haven’t even been drawing for myself #anyways. I promise I’m working on stuff I just need actual energy and not to sleep all fucking day

[bonemeal12]

What a loser /pos

Close ups under the cut!

#been absolutely exhausted lately I haven’t been able to make a full piece just for myself in 1000 years #I only have the energy to doodle if I’m drawing for myself these days #also don’t even ask me about the red robin costume ok I don’t get it either #it has a look somewhere in my brain I just don’t have the energy to draw it #my art #doodle #tim drake #red robin #dc #what does zesti look like?? I don’t know #can’t be bothered to search hard enough to find a ref #he would put orange juice in his cereal unironically cause I said so #he would have bat themed socks #he would wear his ex’s superhero merch

[theswedishpajas]

[Mii Maker Music]

!!Find the palette in this thread!!

#my art stuff #beetlejuice #cartoon #toonjuice #digital art #bugs #emoji #I made my own brush for the bugs so I can use them in the future #I’m trying to make art more enjoyable for myself and that means making it much less complicated and take less time #so I’m hoping to use this brush more in the future when drawing beej #or things in general #I’m getting better at lightning the weight I put on myself with my art #but it’s an upphills battle and I am STRUGGLING #I’ve been using this eene inker randomly for a while now and it’s making art so much easier to do for me somehow #but it looks so disgusting in my art. not cus it’s an ugly brush. I think it’s really nice-looking actually #but I have such a strong need for all my art to look clean and for every line to be intentionally put where it is #I have a tendancy to go in and fix singular pixels in EVERYTHING when I draw. even if just to make it intentionally look unintentional #but this brush does it on it’s own and I haven’t felt this relaxed while making digital art in MANY years and it’s STRESSING ME OUT #but it’s good that I can relax. That’s the goal. I want to be able to rnjoy drawing again. #The biggest hurdle is my autism hating change but once I’m past that I know I’ll be right as rain #in the meantime I hope people can still enjoy what little stuff I mannage to crank out randomly #also don’t ask me what the style is. my hand just went off with the “whatever just get it down real quick” mentality #I really need to draw the sweetheart more… I say when he is all I draw besides myself anymore-

[nartothelar]

why do you hand-letter all of your dialogue, is there something wrong with you?

efficiency and developments in technology scare me

#regular added text doesn’t look with my artstyle to me and I KNOW I can make my own font but my executive dysfunction won’t allow me to #like it would take 20 minutes tops but I haven’t been able to make my own font bc I have to find a website for it and maybe pay and do #like 3 other things #IT WOULD BE SOOO EASY!!!! #and writing all the dialogue myself takes forever like even when I do a fully digital piece I like add the text low opacity and draw the #dialogue over it by hand #it’s literally so inefficient and annoying but I do it!!! WHY!!! WHY!!!! #ask

[ra-vio]

Hi. Its been awhile

#nier #brother nier #nier replicant #i dont know if I mentioned this but i dont draw nier cause of hiss yee yee ass hair cut #I haven’t drawn him since july even tho im like NIER MONDAY! every monday #im going through the usual as usual: screaming at math #i told my classmate i (might) have a math learning disorder and he was like you are in the wrong major lmao #it took me 19 years to realize i’ve always been shit at math I just hid it really well from everyone including myself #the test anxiety is new tho. its fucking me up more than the math tbh

[rosesradio]

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#sorry i haven’t/will not be as active or not fully myself #school started and even though it’s only been a week it’s taking a terrible toll on me #i’m having to relearn that maybe i shouldn’t try to do an entire class’s work in a week & then break down when i can’t do the advanced— #assignments for a coding language i quite literally did the equivalent of hello world in two days prior #one of my classes has a garbage website and the prof wants to be helpful & i appreciate it but i had her last semester & her hopping on— #a zoom and yelling/ordering me around/stressing me out isn’t going to fix the errors the site itself has #also i don’t want to draw attention to myself lest anyone find out i don’t really know shit about coding and have been cheating— #the whole time #but yeah. im too stressed to sleep for no reason even though i have work #and i feel guilty for relaxing whenever i know i have schoolwork even if im entirely exhausted #What’s wrong with me #anyways #rose.txt #tw vent

[shokupankoart]

Fogged mind (´∀`)

#art #painting #comic #original character #oc art #oc #beatrix #procreate #honestly I’ve been hella depressed and art just unmotivated #I find myself hating the things I once loved more and more these days #since I’ve been been feeling lost sad in the dark lonely etc etc I decided to try to draw out those feelings #kinda like… there’s beautiful and happiness all around me- but because my head is so clouded I haven’t even noticed it #some things my therapist said are also sticking with me #for example they said (you spent so many years protecting everyone else but you forgot to protect yourself) #really hurt to hear but it only hurt becaus it’s true #anyway enough rambling basically I’m trying to express my emotions through art and HOPEFULLY someone understand what I’m trying to say???

[toxapex-zone]

Sorry that the rest of the mutual requests are taking a while - the UK is going through a pretty bad heatwave atm, which is making it very uncomfortable to actually sit down and draw. Fortunately it should be cooling down soon, so I’m hoping to get them done in a few days time!

#the only time it’s been possible to draw is in the dead of night. and even then I had to periodically splash ice cold water on myself to #stop myself from overheating. #But yeah! This is just me saying I haven’t forgotten about them - I’m actually quite excited to finish them off since I have a couple of #cool ideas imo!! But it’s literally been too hot to sit down and draw

[pipcoded]

gayass

#sry i haven’t been drawing like at all lately ive been rly depressed and it’s hard to even convince myself that #drawing is worth my time anymore which hurts a lot #but doodling the funnysilly cult leader made me feel a little better

[ranger-kellyn]

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#it really does feel like I was on the genuine edge of really starting to get better finally #but then I unpacked all that old trauma with my mom and it’s like I was knocked back to rock fucking bottom and I haven’t been able to pull #myself out of that pit ever since #I’m so fucking tired all the time I never get to actually enjoy any of my hobbies anymore #I hate everything I write I hate even more anything I’ve tried to draw #feel so absolutely lifeless and listless #I feel like a genuine waste of space #I’m so fucking tired of being fucking tired #negative

[thebumblecee]

Okay okay I’m caught up on art WIPs. Time to try catch up on writing WIPs.

How are you all doing anyway? It’s been a minute.

#cee speaks #i haven’t been online much or even really at all #and I’ve not got much to share #I’m mid painting /decorating #and trying not to exhaust myself too much in the mean time #but my fucking hand hurts after that last drawing so I need a break from arm #*art

[quokki]

idk when / if I’ll be making more content (maybe not for this era) but I just wanted to say that I adore my lil hanji

#idk if it matters but yeah I haven’t been active here in general and ummm I’m not even drawing anything tbh #idk seems really pointless atm #I’ve been going through a lot and I’m trying to focus just on myself now #and hopefully I’m making (very) slow progress #so yeah idk what this post is sorry #I will TRY to queue things at some point before my queue runs out #p #dl #not skz

[flippedorbit]

god i wish i was somewhere else

#i am trying so god damn hard to make it to my 18th birthday. just 22 more days. and being in this house is making it fucking difficult. #i’m treated like my feelings are nonexistent by my sister. i’m constantly referred to incorrectly. i haven’t been able to hang out with #any of my irl friends since fucking graduation day. not even drawing is fucking helping boost my mood. maybe i just need a shower. #i’ve eaten recently today so that isn’t the problem. god i just need basic physical human interaction outside of family members. i need to #be around people who see me for me rather than who i was raised to be. i’m a living person with feelings that fucking matter. #i have not been taking very good care of myself for the past week. it hasn’t even been two full weeks since i graduated and my life is #already going down the drain. god i just want to be happy and feel like a person. its days like this where i find it extra hard to believe #there is truly a god out there. because why would they allow any human to suffer. if there is a god out there then they’re a heartless #bastard who doesn’t care for humanity. anyway i’m upset and i’m going to go shower to see if that fixes me. i’ll be back in like 20 minutes

[princesscallyie]

I wonder what Scorch and Calypso’s would look like.

Did you mean to put kid? Cause I still have the concept art of their son Callixtus. Still need to work on these characters, but I honestly drawing/creating content takes a lot of my energy nowadays.

#and then when I do have some energy I usually need to work on a commission #so let’s see what happens when I’m done with those #yeahhhh I don’t see me doing commissions for a long time #haven’t even been too interested in drawing for myself lately #just not in the mood for it some days #it’s mostly cause I’ve been working 34+ hours a week at my job which I greatly dislike and don’t care about now #working at a job that is miserable to you is soooo draining lol #future au

[silentgrim]

your art has been so cute and it's so sweet of you to do too! i keep looking forward to seeing whoever you end up drawing next :)

aaa thank you!!! 😭 i’ve been really insecure about it,,, tho i’m glad you like it! you just gave me a confidence boost so thank u! 🤍

#i have a long list of sims to draw #just need to fight for some time i’ve been really busy these days #luckily today i have the day off 🙏 #so we’ll see! #i do feel like i’m improving #which is a big plus! definitely my goal of this drawing adventure #considering i haven’t drawn anything since middle school…so like 10 years or so #my art teacher form that time was a HUGE asshole #she really bullied and degraded lots of kids #she got fired eventually #right when i entered highschool tho #but she had caused enough damaged to lots of kids myself included #so yeah #it’s been a huge step showing my art on social media! even tho i want to choke myself after posting it #anyway #much love to you anon!! 🤍 #thank you!!! #ask #anon

[stellarish]

Oh also while I’m artposting, here’s some Greg sketches from the other day

#1st one was my 1st real shot at drawing him #2nd one is a screenshot redraw done after some more practice #forcing myself to learn to draw real people’s faces has been really helpful #even though I haven’t *quite* exactly nailed it yet #I inadvertently stumbled into the solution to an anatomy problem I’d been having #stellart #succession #gregory hirsch #cousin Greg