#Recovery Month

[ghostennit]

September is National Recovery Month! 

I planned to do my first lineup of charity streams this month but ended up not doing so due to… a lot of reasons. But I still wanted to talk about it because awareness, education, and destigmatization of substance abuse disorders means a lot to me! This, along with mental health awareness (since both often go hand-in-hand), are things that I’d someday like to build my whole online presence around. 

These topics are often taken lightly and I think it’s something that should be handled with a lot more care because you never know who in your communities are fighting with what. Like me.

I’m a recovering drug addict and the day I made my first tweet as a vtuber was the day I decided to clean up. If it were not for Tree, Rue, and Aoka, I would not be here. If it weren’t for all of you, I would not be here. If I had not connected so hard with streaming, I would not be here. I know exactly where I would be… and it’s far, far, far from glamorous.

This is very scary to type out and admit. I’m scared of what you all will think. But I want to be honest with you. I feel like I owe it. And I’m excited for some of the plans I hope will come to fruition. I hope this works the way I hope. I hope you think differently about those who suffer from substance abuse. We don’t choose this. It finds us, digs into our souls, takes away our greatest fears, gives us exactly what we want… but all at a very high price. A price we don’t understand the first time we try it. 

We think we’re invincible. We think we’re in control. We think it will be okay. But it’s not. 

Substance Abuse Disorders (a way of thinking about it that I want you all to get comfortable with) is often a symptom of other mental health disorders. Despite struggling with the hard shit for years, I actually did not know this. And this is where I’ll lead into my second topic…

I am bipolar. I have been presenting symptoms of bipolar disorder since about 17 years old but I did not even consider that I had it until I was about 28 when I approached my PCP about potentially being ADHD. He gave me a very informal “well, actually…” after several assessments. I thought I was just depressed, anxious, and maybe a little distracted. I thought the rest of my symptoms were normal and I just sucked at managing them. This was during the peak of covid, where getting a psych appointment was impossible. After several months of trying, I gave up. As many of you might know, it was only recently that I finally got my appointment and was officially diagnosed. I’ve been on meds for the first time for a little over a month now and it’s been extremely difficult. The side effects have been horrible, and as some of you might have realized… I’ve been a little all over the place lately. 

I’ve beaten myself up to the stars and back about ever fucking with hard drugs. Finding out that addiction is a side effect of Bipolar was very comforting. Finding out that Substance Abuse Disorder was a real thing was eye-opening. Maybe I’m not a fuck up. 

And this is just the tip of the iceberg of what I go through. This is just a little part of why I feel like education and destigmatization is incredibly important. Until informally diagnosed, I had a lot of misconceptions of what exactly the disease entails. Most people assume it’s constant mood changing. One minute you’re happy, the next you’re sad. That’s partly true. Instead it’s minutes, It’s days. It’s weeks. It’s months. It’s months of not being able to get out of bed. It’s months not being able to brush your teeth. It’s months of performing so poorly at your job that you’re lucky you still have it. It’s months of feeling worthless.

Then all of a sudden (but sometimes slowly), you’re the best. You’re the greatest. Everyone likes you. You’re doing amazing at work. Your social life is booming. You’re making art. Everyone loves you. You don’t need to sleep. You’re special. You’re too good for it. You’re powerful. You’re clever and exceptional. You can read minds and you’re smarter than everyone else because you know nothing is real and nothing can hurt you. You’re on to them. You’re on to them.

And that’s only some of it.

Anyway, like some of you might have realized from reading this… or following me on twitter recently… I’m manic as fuck right now. I could monologue about this for hours. So I’ll wrap this up.

I’m about 9 months sober now. That’s painful to admit if you do the math and consider when I started streaming. I feel like that admission will let some people down. But relapse, while ugly, is a normal part of recovery. I’m proud of where I am. Prior to streaming, I hadn’t gone more than a month for a few years. I’m proud of me. No matter what, I’m proud as fuck. 

So anyway, yeah. Let me tie this up because it’s long as shit. I love you so much if you’ve read this entire thing. I love you so much if you’ve ever supported me. I’m picking up the pieces of who I used to be and I actually feel like I have help doing so.

The plans I have to implement all of this into my streams will be small at first. You probably won't even notice some of it.

I'm going to be very honest. I think it’s important that you see the ugly sides of all of this. I want you to know the signs, the symptoms, and understand. I want you to be able to help a friend or be able to help yourself. I want you to think twice when you haven’t heard from that one pal in months. I want you to think twice when you see someone walking down the street who is clearly out of sorts. I want you to change the way you think about both mental disorders and drug use.

Thank you. Big fucking thank you.

#super personal long fucking post #i'm scared as fuck #be nice #recovery month #mental health #drug addiction #bipolar disorder #vtuber #envtuber #ennitxt #ennitxtsrs

[patriciafortunato]

I wrote about some personally meaningful topics here and here.

Thank you to wonderful colleagues and friends.

#Recovery Month #Recovery #End The Stigma #End Stigma #Treat Addiction Save Lives #Medication For Addiction Treatment #MAT #Medication For Opioid Use Disorder #MOUD #Harm Reduction #Naloxone #Overdose Prevention #Addiction Medicine #Addiction #Suicide Prevention Month #Suicide Prevention #Mental Health #Mental Health Awareness #Mental Health Matters #Mental Wellbeing #Mental Wellness #Mental Health Equity #Recovery Equity #Recovery Is Possible #Recovery Journey #Recovery Community #DEI #Patricia Fortunato #Personal

[hkandiu]

#recovery month #samhsa #mental health awareness month

[deelitefuljewelry]

Recovery Halloween shirt

100% airlume cotton, available in so many colors!

https://deelitefuljewelry.etsy.com/listing/1556333782

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PS… what do you think of my AI mock-ups?

#RecoveryMonth #EtsyStarSeller #narcoticsanonymous #alcoholicsanonymous #wedorecover #meetingmakersmakeit #12steps

#recovery #recovery month #addiction recovery #narcotics anonymous #12 steps #alcoholics anonymous #sobriety #etsy seller #we do recover #alanon #one day at a time #12 step recovery #clean living #recoverylife #recoverygifts #recoverystrong

[credentialingguru]

Recovery Month help is on the way

Do you suffer from depression, anxiety, PTSD, addictions, grief but don't really know how to go about getting help or you want to be anonymous... maybe you cant afford therapy ( $$$$) ?

I hear this from so many people. Including myself. I have been in a grief cycle for almost 2 years now and have been very resistant to talking about it. Until yesterday - I discovered a FREE app... I know this sounds like an ad. No. Just sharing the wealth of information to those that need it.

WHITE FLAG

A FREE app - Johnny McCoy started it after his own experience with PTSD. Just download the WhiteFlag App, create your anonymous account, and start getting the help you need now, whenever you need it. WhiteFlag has already helped over 100,000 users take control of their mental health, one day and one issue at a time. WhiteFlag is more than an app. It's a mental health movement, with thousands more joining it every day. And it all came about because one man refused to give in to his abusers. Thank you, Jonny. Thank you for staying here with us, and thank you for everything you do.

Google for android https://t.co/pBCmArLj4V

Apple for IPhone https://t.co/jF5o1pV5lV

#credentialing #payerenrollment #therapy #credentialingguru insurancefightclub #recovery month #mentalhealth #ptsd #addiction mentalhealth treatment therapy credentialingguru insurancefightclub revenuecycle

[probablyhuntersmom]

The healing and lasting love of a mom

#for Mother's Day 2023 #camila noceda #hunter noceda #toh hunter #older hunter #toh waffles #the owl house #toh edits #loz's edits #loz's art #he's her lil' wolf cub forever #in the last pic he's fetching her to go for dinner at Dell and Gwen's house #like listen: she would've played a huge role in his recovery. after the Collector Palace scene he would've sunk into the darkest depression #in the weeks and many months to follow #she'd check his therapy progress. accompany him to therapy at times and fetch him from therapy too #he needed her warmth and guiding light as foundational building blocks. to be who he was after the timeskip #they'd both always remember that night where he drowned and she pulled him out of the water #she'd make sure he had the best possible Grom Night #and he'd be eternally grateful. they'd also work together throughout the years to follow since her expertise and his can overlap nicely #he keeps visiting the Human Realm now and then. to have movie nights..dinners..road trips etc with her and Luz and Vee #1k #2k #3k #4k #5k #8k #9k #10k #15k #20k

[whumpacabra]

Sometimes you look something up for medical accuracy, understand the topic entirely, and then choose to ignore everything you just learned.

For the ✨drama ✨

#not whump #beans speaks #personal #listen I see you guys who love and respect the recovery timeline for concussions and dislocations and stabbings. much love to y’all. #maybe I’m a bad whump writer cause like. immediate acute injury? hell yea. long term chronic results of injury? hell yea. #injury that impairs for a month or two with ‘rest’ and ‘no strenuous activity’ being the recommended treatment during that time? #ehhhhh not my cupa. have fun tho you guys are awesome and way stronger than me I don’t have the patience for mid term recovery writing.

[hoaxghost]

Viscera

#file recovery #angel #angel oc #my ocs #demon #blood #veins #i needed to draw something edgy tbh #its been. a bad week #a bad month #a bad year

[whumpingandsmilinglikeanidiot]

Whumpee thinks Caretaker is their new master. Good trope, right? But check this out;

Caretaker doesn't notice.

Because the morning after the day they were rescued, all Whumpee did was get Caretaker a cup of coffee. It was only after then that Whumpee realized new master new rules, and Caretaker might not like coffee at all. So after an hour or so of a panic attack, Whumpee decides to stay put and not do anything.

But Caretaker didn't say anything about that coffee, so Whumpee should probably keep doing that?

And so, every morning, Caretaker gets a cup of coffee, says thank you, that's a nice gesture, and gets done with the day, while Whumpee tries to stay as quiet and unnoticed as possible. Not angering Caretaker is their top priority. Caretaker notices Whumpee is really, really quiet, but hey, they might just like it quiet. They do seem a little scared, but they've been putting off well, so Caretaker is positive that they'll get better with time.

Then Caretaker hears Whumper liked a cup of coffee every morning.

That's.. a strange coincidence.

I hope that's a coincidence.

And they finally try to talk to Whumpee about it, and Whumpee breaks into tears and Caretaker realizes what a mess this is,

#and I don't know how to end this post #this has been sitting in my saves for around three months #whump #whumpee #whump prompts #whump idea #whumper #whump prompt #whump ideas #caretaker #recovery whump #whump tropes #caretaker new master #bad caretaker #caretaker new whumper

[coffee-cait]

quickly popping in while i'm feeling well enough today to post a lil something for Gaming's debut!

im also screaming they really did give him canon canto psychic damage... he's like me fr fr

and in case i'm not well enough on the day of, early happy lunar new year everyone!! 恭禧發財!!

#fanart #genshin impact #gaming genshin #dont wanna make a post about it here since i use this as an archive/portfolio for event applications but ... #it's been mentioned on my other socials im still in recovery from getting sick 2 months ago hence the 'feeling well' and my absence #hope the new year is treating yall well #man chai #yip gaming

[javelinbk]

The Beatles recreate Paul McCartney’s ‘collapse’, as reported in newspapers, including the Daily Mail. Plymouth, 13th November 1963 - part 3 (part 1, part 2, part 4, part 5) (x)

#what a miraculous recovery #not that he likes the attention or anything #or that the others like slapping him in the face #it was sixty years ago today #november 1963 was just the best month #november 1963 #paul mccartney #john lennon #george harrison #ringo starr #john and paul #the beatles #javelin's gifs

[kurgy]

been having a serious physical health problem for many years that is recently very quickly getting worse and as I undergo more tests and procedures while the problem actively gets worse, I got stuck having a serious talk about "purchasing at home accommodations" while they figure out whats wrong with my stomach and work out a treatment plan, because the costs of hospitalizing me for further testing/treatment instead for the unforeseeable futurewould ruin me, so I'm looking up some of the things she suggested, pricing shit out, and god half of this stuff was already out of the question because I am still displaced and man, and this is still technically cheaper than hospital bills, but I simply cannot save up/raise the money to get any of this in a timely manner

#girl help my options are rack up thousands of dollars of hospital bills #somehow find a few hundred to drop on recovery items when my paycheck does not last the month #WHILE im job hunting and saving up anything i can for when apartments become adfordable #or just suffer #:) #i hate it here

[therapyforblackgirls]

In observance of Minority Mental Health Month, Therapy for Black Girls and The Holding Space Foundation are teaming up to host a series of online events to explore the ways in which Black women of various generations connect, foster friendships, and evolve together through the campaign, Generations of Sisterhood.

TBG is excited to partner with Tumblr, streaming this event live just for you! Join Dr. Joy Harden Bradford and Dr. Lakeysha (Key) Hallmon, July 26th @ 7PM EST for a powerful keynote event conversation on the power of Sisterhood.

Grab Your FREE Registration Link Here : therapyforblackgirls.com/gos

#therapy for black girls #therapyforblackgirls #minority mental health month #black mental health matters #mental health #therapy #positivity #mental health recovery #emotional health #mental health support #black tumblr #blk tumblr

[hkandiu]

#recovery month #recovery

[deelitefuljewelry]

Recovery Halloween shirt

100% airlume cotton, available in so many colors!

https://deelitefuljewelry.etsy.com/listing/1556333782

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PS… what do you think of my AI mock-ups?

#RecoveryMonth #EtsyStarSeller #narcoticsanonymous #alcoholicsanonymous #wedorecover #meetingmakersmakeit #12steps

#recovery #recovery month #addiction recovery #narcotics anonymous #12 steps #alcoholics anonymous #sobriety #etsy seller #we do recover #alanon #one day at a time #12 step recovery #clean living #recoverylife #recoverygifts #recoverystrong

[akindplace]

I hope the next months bring you the courage to do something you have been dreading to do, that you recover a bit, that you can feel less pain and more love, that you can find some solutions to your problems, and find new opportunities to grow and live a better life according to your own needs and desires. I hope you develop beautiful friendships and that the relationships you already have keep improving. I hope you get to try new things you have dreamed of. I hope you feel more safe and secure. I hope you feel more confident in your own abilities. I have hope. I will try. Please have hope. Please try.

#original writing #next month #self-acceptance #recovery #new month #positivity blog #encouragement #motivational #reassurance #healing #hope