#but also its my own fault these hands dont just create it

[amberartspng]

the lack of ronan and blue being friends content is driving me up the wall

#but also its my own fault these hands dont just create it #trc #they are criminally funny together #i think blue would help reel in ronans more dangerous behavior #and ronan provides an outlet for her rage through mischief and tomfoolery #ronan becomes more passive aggressively petty instead of violent and blue gets a little more bold when she has a partner in crime #the raven cycle #ronan lynch #blue sargent #im just blabbing here

[lemmetreatya]

nude model!gojo who honestly became a nude modeller for fun. the man already had a successful career as a cat walker, cataloguer and a social media influencer but it just wasn’t doing anything for him.

“satoru, i just dont think it’s worth the indecency to move down that career pathe. plus it’s just tacky.”

safe to say, that personal assistant was sacked! that was nude model!gojo’s trigger to pull away from the agency life and is now a freelancing nude model — yippee!

but unfortunately, nude model!gojo found out the hard way that freelancing wasn’t easy and that maybe he kinda underestimated the power of a pa scouting all those gigs for him. not very yippee at all. but not to threat! nude model!gojo has connections of his own — friends who owe him favours, models who looked up to him, fans who revered him! luckily, the first person nude model!gojo could think to turn to was his trusty best friend who also happened to be an excellent networker.

“you want me to find you a nude gig, right?”

your face glowers blue from the light of your laptop. your eyes peer over the top to watch at nude model!gojo who appeared to have no concern for a couch that wasn’t his own.

“yes. nothing catwalky or social media-y. that shit actually acquires work.” nude model!gojo groans.

“i hear it…” you continue tapping at your laptop but after a few minutes youre shaking your head.

“no luck?” nude model!gojo mumbles.

“there’s barely anything paid for this typa stuff. at this point you’re better off creating the content yourself to build a portfolio.” with a shrug you close your laptop screen.

sitting up, nude model!gojo suddenly has an enthusiastic spirit. something in you tells you that’s a bad reaction.

“then why don’t we make a portfolio now?!”

you sigh, because you somehow knew he’d suggest something along those lines, but anything to help a creative in need you guess.

backdrop out, lamp lights on and nude model!gojos walking around butt naked in your living room turned-studio.

“gojo, you can’t be bricked up for this typa shit.” you half sigh as you try and avert your eyes. now that you think about it, this was your first time seeing nude model!gojo in this light and youd be lying if you said you weren’t impressed.

with a huff, nude model!gojo sits down on the chair propped up between the lamplights and backdrop, manspreading as if he was fully clothed.

“hows that my fault?”

he grumbles but theres a glint in his blue pupils once he sees your wandering eyes that always seem to watch back at his curved cock. with a sly smile, nude model!gojo holds his member at the base and languidly strokes a hand up it as he watches your wanton reaction.

“well?!” he teases at you to gauge your attention. when your eyes meet his, he knows you’re both on the same page. “its not gonna go down on its own now, is it?”

nude model!gojo moans with his head backwards at the feeling of your mouth indulging around his cock. the soft wetness of your tongue and hollowed cheeks are so addictingly sweet that he cant help but buck upwards into you.

“oh…my love, you’re just perfect.”

nude model!gojo is even more enamoured once he realises that you dont even let your gag reflexes stop you from spatting up onto his cock, your saliva bubbly white and phlegmish as you the continue to fist the rest of his length.

“dont need no gig…” he moans as he ends up fucking your face. “you’re enough” is what he ends up garbling before he’s spilling down the length of your throat.

hes so pleased. so so pleased at your performance. nude model!gojo almost jokes that you should probably start a channel with him — give the audience something they dont even know they want yet.

“let’s focus on getting your portfolio done first.” you croak, as you wipe your lips with your palms but when you look up at nude model!gojo from your position on the floor, shivers run down your back.

“problem hasn’t been solved yet though.” nude model!gojo says as he sweetly taps his once again semi hard cock against the dip of your lips.

#gojo x reader #jjk gojo #gojo saturo #gojo x black reader #gojo smut #gojou satoru x reader #jujutsu gojo #jujustu kaisen #jjk

[dynsdiary]

honestly i had no idea what you’re saying cause i dont speak portuguese but — i did translated it, and sorry if its not accurate but totally not my fault lol.

“not writing about fanfics in a specific app for specific fans will not end a war”

that’s where you are wrong. what is happening right now is not a war but a GENOCIDE. do you know what a genocide is?

genocide is the deliberate killing of a large number of people from a particular nation or ethnic group with the aim of destroying that nation or group.

israel are killing palestinian brutally for the land that is NOT belong to them.

“Making posts about it, creating hashtags, making videos, warning and boycotting totally irrelevant things unfortunately will not make any difference”

not make any difference? have you not seen any news saying starbucks / mcdonalds boycotting affect their sales? it’s totally working and we should continue boycotting !!

also, by posting videos and pictures about what is happening right now in palestine does help!! it opens people eyes about the genocide that is going on rn and helps others to educate themselves.

“This war is something we can't control, l'm just a Brazilian worker who is trying to survive, l'm not going to end a war living on the other side of the world and I'm certainly not making people stop suffering because I don't read fanfics. As soon as possible they understand that we can't do absolutely anything, less complicated will be our lives.“

you’re right, you cant control it but you sure can do something about it by talking about it, boycotting brands that are supporting israel, share links, donate (if you can), and many more.

no one asks you to stop reading fanfics or stop writing about it, but we’re in the middle of global strike which is to talk and speak up about palestine and to stop posting about unnecessary things for A WEEK.

“less complicated will be our lives” youre saying as if what all of the palestinians going through right now is not bad enough.

no one should go through whatever they’ve been through and we should use our voice for them.

“We can be outraged, because I know that I will never have a house of m own or a good job. But we have to have a foot on the ground, we are nothing compared to the governments that are in the middle of it. Fortunately our Lula president is against this war so much that he called Israel a genocide, but the war is not over, because it is not in our hands but of powerful people”

ISRAEL IS DOING A GENOCIDE!!!!!! what else you called it then? a war? bc it’s NOT A WAR!!!!

it is not in our hands BUT we can still do something about it!!!!!

daily click everybody 🇵🇸 🍉

#free palestine #ellie williams x reader #abby anderson x reader #joel miller x reader

[cawcawbeech]

SIX OF CROWS AND KISSING !!

(Welcome to this silly but intricate guide nobody asked for)

Just so everybody knows and is fully aware, I literally never kissed anybody in my whole damn life. I dont much care to try (for now) unless your name is Amita fucking Suman (jkjk, or not), but that doesnt mean I didnt do some very extensive research on the topic just so I can write what are hopefully non-generic scenes where all of my favorite characters make out till the following sunrise without a single other thought plaguing their empty little minds (exception being if the said thought is used to deepen 'the plot').

Before I say much else, I would like to note that THIS is just a very detailed bullet point list on kissing for all of my boys and girls separate of their partners assigned to them in canon or by the fandom. We will get to how it would actually go in different scenarios with different ships a bit later on if I decide it wont be a waste of my time. PS: No, not every kiss / kisser has to be extraordinary or unique or have whatever traits I ended up slapping on these characters here, Im just extra like that. And its not like anybody can stop me. Deal with it and simply enjoy (whatever this may be)!

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JESPER LLEWELLYN FAHEY

Jesper has had his fair share of practice in this particular field, we all know it. That is no reason to say that he is a perfect kisser, there are many who have done way more, constantly brag about it, and yet still leave you disappointed. But, this is Jesper we are talking about. Kuwei has said that he is a great kisser too, I choose to trust him on that. That joke he made to cheer up Wylan at Olendaal, the one about kissing Nina / Matthias 'with tongue', it doesnt have to mean anything, but I like to think he is a tongue kind of guy. I also like to think that he is adaptable to any type of person though, he aims to please through-and-through. It saddens me to look deeper, to think about how that may be a result of his low self-esteem, but in moments like these, it makes him happy most of the time, and it is all I could hope for when it comes to my boy.

The first relationship he had been a witness to, the one his mother and father shared before her death, had been a very healthy one. I wouldnt call Colm the perfect father, certainly not after his wife was gone, albeit he is significantly better compared to the hands the rest of our favourite characters have been dealth with, but he was good to Aditi. Most kids, including myself, were the type to be grossed out by PDA, especially when its between their parents, and while thats not in any way a bad thing, we can clearly see that Jesper was not of that type.

Despite his many faults, he was raised fairly well. He knows how to make a comfortable environment, to recognize a clear invitation, what to ask and what not to ask, what is acceptable and what he shouldnt do without a more in-depth discussion. He knows how to create and opportunity where one could deny him if they so wished. I wouldnt say its some overly high bar to jump over, if anything it is the most basic standard any and all should hold themselves to, but I call Jesper 'the consent king' for a reason.

Its said in the book that his mind empties when he kisses the right person, that thinking of methaphors clearly means something is wrong, but hes still pretty descriptive in his POVs if you ask me. Its also very clear that he likes to kiss deep, slow, and involve other sensations throughout which is the part where Id like to include some of my very own hcs (slight temperature / texture play where he drags his rings over skin, hair pulling is a given but I can see him also liking to touch peoples ears a lot, talking in between and whispering during the few subtly initiated pauses, etc). Jespers favourite type of kiss would probably be those he iniciates as soon as he wakes up in the morning. It rains often in Ketterdam, its normal, so he would also probably be one of the rare creatures among the regular Kerch citizens who finds kissing in the rain romantic.

KAZ BREKKER (RIETVELD)

Kaz will have to go through some major healing first, no doubts about that, but Id say he would probably be one of the elite members of the 'Im keeping my eyes open for this' club (until he isnt). I doubt he does much analyzing during, mentally he is on another planet thats probably many lightyears away as he tends to do with a lot of other even remotely intimate things, but theres lots of squinting, eyelid fluttering... Kaz is basically a personafication of that cliche 'when did I close them' quote. In my own experience, I can barely hold eye contact when talking, but I dont really see this as a bad trait. I also dont see it as a trauma response either like some would assume it would be for Kaz, I think its just a him thing. If this man didnt want to kiss somebody, you would not be kissing him, end of.

He likes to focus on teeth, whether by unconsciously (or consciously) biting his partner, having your teeth bump into each other, or licking his own after youre done. Theres lots of shuddering, youll feel him there more than youll hear him, but he is not completely silent either. I dont think he would like beeing cornered, picked up or lifted in any way except on very rare occasions. Just like the pulse thing where he feels for it on the wrist (or neck once he is more comfortable), feeling his weight including the pain of his leg serves to ground him. Perhaps he might also like feeling of you breathing through your nose on his face for the same reasons? He doesnt like leaving things unfinished, even if its just a peck, he will make sure it feels 'complete', I dont know how else to put it. If anybody could overuse the words "Again?", it would be Kaz motherfucking Brekker.

Im in no way saying he will be good, in fact, theres lots of traits here that many wouldnt like, but he tries when he wants to (and again, you would not be kissing this man if he didnt want it), he will learn and he will remember the smallest of details (so that he can ponder over them later). The only thing we hear about Kazs appearance related to his mouth is that there is a scar running through his upper lip. I never got it when people talked about kisses having a taste, but Kaz seems to often call people light-weight, so clearly, he handles his alcohol well, perhaps having developed such a habit to settle down his own supposedly non-existent nerves. It might not be the main reason, we heard about him being on the receiving end of many fights that in certain circumstances and with the ways they are handled lead to similar results, but liquor does leave one dehydrated and with chapped lips.

WYLAN VAN ECK (HENDRIKS)

Unless he is particulary fired up, Wylan likes to start slow and chaste no matter if you are the first, the thousanth person he has kissed or just a person he has kissed a thousand times. Unlike Kaz, he has some experience, sheltered kids know how to have fun in secret (and Im the last person who would ignore that 'lie' about him being kicked out for bedding the tutor, theres some truth to everything), but he is also nowhere near the level of Jesper or Nina or Matthias. We know he likes when his partner feels calm and like they are actually in their body before he goes in for the kill, we saw it with Jesper, but we also see that he isnt the type who needs to ask every time and will just do it when 'the time feels right'. Look out, he just might squeeze into your shirt while youre wearing it and do a makeshift 'surprise attack' from there if he is determined enough for it.

From that, we could say he might have some other habits, including but not limited to the familiar one of guiding his partner through breathing patterns. Maybe sometimes he likes to hold onto your forearms more tightly than necessary (not forcefully though), have your knees touch and bump into one another, straighten his own / your items of clothing, compare hand sizes while making weirdly-intense eye contact, use his thumb to subtly rub at a random tensed muscle, touch foreheads if he is tall enough or rub his face along the side of your neck, anything that would focus your attention to him and the moment... Ironically, as a follow up to the last point and as the kiss drags on, he forgets that he is an actual person who has a weight to them and has to lean back against something with the help of his partner before he falls down and cracks his goddamn skull open.

He likes to leave an effect on whoever he is kissing, but he also likes to 'clean up after himself' as much as possible after its done, which once again serves to bring both of you back down. So yeah, he would probably do something like twirling a stay peace of hair around his finger before neatly tucking it back in place, running that same finger across a brow, down the nose or along the jawline, nudging you playfully with his shoulder, hips or elbows, swaying a bit to slowly return the atmosphere back to relaxed as he secretely links your pinky fingers together. Lips would be his main focus, and he especially likes the soothing effect it has when he is sleepy, but he could also grow to like eyelid, nose, tummy or thigh kisses when it comes to placement.

INEJ GHAFA

Inej has had many men kiss her throughout her life, and unfortunately, theres no need to debate whether she truly enjoyed any of them. Oh how I would love to say that every shitty person is also shit at every other skill they try to master, however, that doesnt have to be the case. The fact that she was a brothel girl doesnt have to mean all of her kisses were bad (to specify, that refers to the technique). That being said, I think she would appreciate the message more than the way its done. It also might result in her not exactly caring about the placement of a kiss, palm, knuckles, hair, cheek, neck, lips, any of them would be equally as intimate to her, platonic or otherwise. Its somewhat similar to what Wylan also likes, but very different too once you look further.

As is with Kaz, you would not be kissing the Inej we know now unless she didnt want you to. I probably should have said this earlier, no, I dont mean that any of the other Crows would enjoy a kiss that was not what they wanted, they wouldnt ignore the signs and will fight the person off if needed, but I hope you understand why Im emphasizing it for these two in particular. I think her kisses would be short, but sweet, a petite little package that can deliver a punch under a right set of conditions, just like she can, the same going for her ship. Physically, we know her lips have an upturn to their shape. As is true with alcohol, salt water has the same drying effect that is only made worse by licking.

One other feature that might make Inejs kisses unique is a possibility of her aquiring more jewellery during her travels. I always imagined that the Suli find piercings to be very meaningful. Perhaps she had some since a very young age, perhaps they were taken from her too during her time at the Menagerie, maybe the holes closed naturally over the long months, maybe she got more whilst working for Kaz, and although it was not put there for such a reason, a lip ring (just as an example) has quite a pleasing effect for either side.

She holds a special appreciation for people who remember their first kiss, or at least remember their first kiss with her, a courtesy she will offer in return as well. It takes special kind of brave to get close (she knows better than most) and never lets the feat of overcoming fear go unappreciated. For some reason, I can see her counting the seconds, not for any reason at all. I wouldnt say its something particulary good nor bad, but Inej doesnt give me the 'let me kiss your words away' signals no matter the situation. The phrases that would fit more would be "We will get through this", "Stay strong, for you", "Lets face it together" or "We shall see each other once more". She seems like the type to keep her affairs secret, but at the end of the day, I also dont think she would mind PDA all that much.

KUWEI YUL-BO

I know the fandom likes to joke that Kuwei is the bad kisser between the two, seeing as to how Jesper was left 'disappointed' even before knowing the truth behind who he was actually kissing... But I dont think that had to do much with the kiss itself. We were told that Jesper liked Kuweis body plenty enough, but even if it were really Wylan (both in shape and spirit), Jesper wasnt in the right space, and Kuweis silence and mannerisms didnt do much to help.

Now, this is a personal headcanon, but one of the habits I think he might pick up in the Little Palace would be scratching his nose or covering his mouth before he goes in for a kiss. Or well, I like to imagine that being his tell among all the snarky comebacks, vicious flirting and sly glances. And seeing as to how playful he is with his powers and how much he grows to use them for mischief and otherwise in KOS, I like to think that his face is always warm to the touch as Kuwei himself is constantly touching it. Random instert, this man unironically likes lemons and you will without a doubt taste quite an assortment of teas while with him.

Some people care about the emotional setting, some like keeping it casual, and some like having that perfect mix of both. Kuwei might acknowledge that in different ways and act accordingly, but I also think he might care more about the physical setting and connect good actions with places rather than specific people or mutual feelings. This man is a certified tease, unless you pull him towards you which is exactly what he wants, he is 100%, absolutely ready to keep a partner on the edge of their seat, kiss the corner of their mouth, or maybe with the lips barely touching. Instead of licking his own lips out of habit or to seduce, he would lick yours. Kuwei being a tease might also be a way for him to set up walls? In a sense that hes reminding both himself and the person hes kissing that this is just a kiss and it doesnt mean anything. And when hes kissed by someone he loves and trusts, hes downright pathetic, super soft and annoyingly sweet about it.

I dont know where else to put it so it will have to be here, but I like to think he chewed on his lips a lot as a child and whilst in captivity, leaving him with barely visible indents once he reached adulthood. When it comes to the type, Id say he could end up enjoying goodnight kisses next to the fireplace or lit by the flame in his own hand more than he would like doing anything in the early morning. Kuwei tends to get frustrated and bored easily so that might lead to certain effects as well, more specifically the speed, angle and desperation. He has hid for long enough and doesnt much care about who sees what, only whether they got a nice view from wherever they were standing at the time.

NINA ZENIK

Nina has practiced CPR from a very young age (I wouldnt call any of those a true kiss by any means, but it will make slightly more sense in just a moment), we see her perform one on Kaz in the books without hesitation, so I doubt her first 'kiss' was particularly enjoyable or wholly consentual or that she even remembers it. Perhaps from that, her kisses would grow to be particulary breathy in the future, although that doesnt mean its some kind of rule or that its not just a result of her personality being put into how she goes about it. We already know temple kisses are her thing among some other stuff, but she also doesnt seem to have a similar kind of bond with any other type that is not at neck level or above. Shes fine with them, but always seems to go to certain spots herself when she has a choice, singing and laughing through all of it. As Matthias tends to say a lot, the chase is a game to her, whether on top or beneath, she still wins.

Her skin is said to be soft, and supposedly so are her lips, plus the girl is a Heartrender and that surely results in many privileges. Surprisingly enough, I wouldnt say she is particularly experienced in the world of romance, even if her talent at sweet-talking might suggest otherwise. Perhaps shes had flings, one or two, maybe even a relationship at some point, but I dont see much more in my visions of her backstory. "Dont you want to play with me?" and "Cant you handle it?" are some of the repeating phrases in her vocabulary, but oh, it only gets worse once she feels well and truly romanced, swept off her feet as one might say, and that takes lots of effort. Its a good thing we know Nina has some high expectations, that way all of us can be her personal wingmen.

If anybody could obtain the famous movie achievement of leaving a string of saliva to connect her lips with her partners for just a few more moments, it would be Nina. Speaking of such things, she may also be the only one for who the 'let me kiss you against this wall so that they dont spot us' scenario might actually work (in theory), or at least give her enough time to incapacitate them during their confusion since she tends to be quite loud appearance wise. Likes being attended to and coddled, and no kiss has a chance without a firm grab or two. Will die if you do a tango dip with her in your arms. She is one of the biggest fans of mistletoes and finds it extremely romantic. Sometimes, when she is invited to watch a play or show, she will turn around and kiss her partner whenever the actors do. "Consider me madly in love. With the kisses, not you. ... But maybe also you if you did it again."

MATTHIAS BENEDIK HELVAR

And finally, we have our romantic-at-heart of the group, Matthias. Now, his and Ninas romance is the most obvious and out-in-the-open throughout the whole duology, and frankly he is the one I had the most trouble with writing, but the difference between seeing their first kiss from Ninas perspective and the one of Matthias is that theirs was his first kiss ever. All of his actions leading up to it, as well as those after, are a promise in some way or another, and Im not only talking about his vow to her. Nothing could have prepared me for when he lifted Nina straight off her feet and held her there as he kissed her, yet it was also the most in-character thing he ever could have done.

Matthias will absolutely, every time, start an hour long conversation on what led him to this moment, if it is the right time, the right place, the right everything... He will continue up until he himself is basically internally shouting at his own mouth to shut itself (he has very low patience despite everything mentioned above) or his partner takes the initiative themselves. The second option is prefered by both parties and a 5-star whine is the expected plus-one to excellent service. He is the type to gulp when you get too close. Will go mad if you can tell when he is holding on by a thread despite his lack of many facial expressions, especially if told something along the lines of "Just lose control, love".

He is particularly sensitive for textures. All humans are to some extent, the lips have more nerve endings in them than fingertips, but Matthias is the one who is fullfilled by it the most and frequently says stuff related to it like "Are you wearing chapstick?" or "I can feel the dip of your scar". Often acknowledges indirect kisses. Matthias has once said that kissing isnt about romance, that it should be proper and only done as a follow up to a conventional Fjerdan courtship, and while lots about him has changed during his canonical relationship with Nina, I think he might still enjoy going through at least some of these with somebody who might appreciate his efforts. Matthias is still highly religious even if he is now seeing the world from another perspective and there are some cultural things that for him go deeper than just tradition. In a very specific headcanon of mine, he has grown up fantasizing about having to lift up your chin to do it, and so now he does so even with taller partners who can reach his mouth just fine.

He would 100% take the 'Will you love me if I was a worm' jokes way too seriously. "How am I supposed to handle a worm? I could hold a butterfly, maybe kiss you if you were a wolf (but thats after a very extensive inspection of your molars)". Kisses the back of your neck after putting on a necklace. Pretends that lipstick stains dont turn him on to the highest setting.

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#six of crows #grishaverse #jesper fahey #kaz brekker #wylan van eck #inej ghafa #kuwei yul bo #nina zenik #matthias helvar #kisses #character analysis #*screams into the void* #hope you enjoy #feel free to share your thoughts #💚🖤🧡💜💛💙❤️ #fandom ships #writers on tumblr #fanfiction

[marunalu]

Hi! MHA 406 is almost bad for my taste because of Bakugou. But One thing!

AFO facial expression!!! Please analyze this!!! Please!!!

From now on I will just ignore EVERYTHING related to bakugou because it makes no sense any longer to get angry about it. Bakugou is horis pet character and the only character who truly matters to him. At this point bakugou is just the most horrible written gary stu character in shonen history and its clear that hori doesnt care about how shitty his writing of him is. Most of the mha fandom kisses bakugous ass anyway so the horrible writing about bakugous fake "death", his even more horrible written resurrecction and now in this chapter bakugous pain somehow making him able to create bigger explosions and making him faster just shows that hori can write whatever he wants about bakugou and the fandom will still eat this shit out of his hands! Like... I dont care anymore. So I will just do my best and from now on ignore this character as good as I can. If it will be suscessful is the other question, because horis writing of bakugou is just SO bad 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Anyway lets look at the actuall only intetesting part in this chapter. FINALLY we get a little bit more of afos and yoichis backstory and FINALLY we know 2ths name, because I was sick of calling him 2th all the time. My question is now is kudou his first or his last name? Because I think it would be weird if afo calls him by his first name. The only way this would make sense is if kudou once worked for afo and they were friends. Also interesting that we get 2ths name reveal before 3ths 🤔

Now I have the hope that we will soon get a little flashback "arc" or at least a few chapters dedicated about afos and yoichis past. Now about afos expression. Well LOOK AT MY MAN!!!

I LOVE how vulnerable he looks here. And its a smart move of hori to only show afos eyes (which for once dont look dead) again while the rest is in shadows. He doesnt want to reveal yet the utter despair on afos face when he realizes that his brother is DEAD! But you can clearly see in the way afos eyes and eyebrows are drawn how devasted he is. He is crying! To see the great demon lord and most dangerous super villain who ever lived with such an human expression is actually quite heartbreaking. It shows and confirms that deep down his demon lord facade is simply just a mask to hide his own human heart! Its nothing but an act to look strong and untouchable, so nobody could hurt him! Hori is showing us that, yes, this horrible bastard who did so many evil things to others is still a human deep down with feelings and emotional pain and who actually suffers. Thats how hori writes his villains and to me it was always pretty obvious that he would go the same route with his main villain. Afos demon lord facade is nothing but a coping mechanism to excuss his own evil actions and trying to distance himself from his own humanity.

This chapter confirms without a doubt HOW MUCH afo loved his brother. His only family! And the most interesting part is that afo wasnt even aware that HE killed yoichi. He was SEARCHING for him. He believed him to be ALIVE! Its his enemy who gives him the news that he murdered his own brother, but afo seems to be completly taken by surprise by this! There is just no way that afo actually REALLY tried to kill yoichi with full intent and backs up my theory that yoichis death was an accident or that yoichi sacreficed himself for someone else afo wanted to kill (like kudou and 3th) and then kudou took an injured yoichi to an other place where he died shortly after. Afo believed yoichi to be fine, he had NO IDEA his brother was dead! And it explains so much why afo is so obsessed with the ofa quirk. Its his only way to get yoichi back. The only thing that is left of him. His only way to make amends with yoichi and MAYBE even telling him that he is sorry for what he did!

He clearly still believes everything is kudous fault (what he is telling himself) like I mentioned already a few times in other posts. Kudou freed yoichi from the vault, filled his head with even more heroic ideas which in return made yoichi eventually even more reckless and putting himself in harms way. In yoichis eyes kudou and 3th are his heroes. What is the opposite of the hero? The villain! Lets remember that afo never called himself a villain while yoichi was still alive and even tried to put the blame on his followers when they did something horrible to others ("they did it on their own. I never told them to do it.") He was trying to keep his hands clean. But now Afo WANTS to be a villain, because in his mind its the heroes fault that his brother is dead! And maybe its not just that he wants to be a villain, but also that he believes he cant go back anymore. He crossed the line with yoichis death so to speak. He lost the only person that mattered to him. Why should he care for anyone else now? The world took everything away from him and thats the reason why he wants to destroy everyones happiness and future in return.

And if dfo is canon it could mean that inko and izuku were the first thing after 200 years afo cared about or even loved and saw as his last chance to leave his villain life behind him (him mentioning that he wants to retire). But then all might happend and izuku got ofa. Now there is most likely really no going back anymore.

#bnha #bnha spoiler #bnha all for one #bnha dad for one #yoichi shigaraki #kudou 2th ofa user #anti bakugou

[roseworth]

do you think jason was fridged? i see a lot of people talk about it and i wanna know what you think

the boring answer is no, he was not fridged because the term was created in reference to female characters and jason isnt a female character

but that answer sucks. so lets look more into it!!! (trigger warning for screenshots of alex dewitt & barbara gordon's respective fridgings under the cut, also screenshots from death in the family but none of the graphic ones)

i make jokes about jason getting fridged all the time bc there is definitely an argument for it but i think my answer is. no but with feeling

i can definitely see where people who think he was fridged are coming from. jasons death was entirely used to further bruce's grief and joker killed robin just to get back at batman, not to mention starlin was writing jason out of character so he could have an excuse to kill him. then ofc after jasons death there was the glass case & the fact that he was only brought up with things like "jason died because he didnt take it seriously" or whatever so the case for fridging is there

but the reason i dont consider it fridging is that he had a good amount of agency in death in the family. the story was ABOUT him, and he made choices in the story that led to his death in the way that other fridged characters didnt

ofc we have to look to Miss Refrigerator herself alex dewitt <3

alex was attacked because of kyle, she didnt do anything to cause major force to attack her, she was a character that was killed just so kyle could be upset about it. she had no agency in the story, and he killed her so hard they had to make a new word for it

then ofc there was the same thing with barbara

the only agency she had in this moment was that she chose to answer the door and. thats it. she wasnt even shot for being batgirl, she was shot because she was jim's daughter and it was entirely intended as a way for joker to use her injury to hurt jim

jason on the other hand! the story was about him (as much as it could be for a side character) and before i get into this i want to clarify that i am NOT saying that he deserved it because of his choices. that is not at all true. all im saying is that he had agency in the story and it was about him in a way that it wasnt about alex or babs

in death in the family, jason had plenty of agency. his death was about finding his mom and saving her. he died after he chose to protect her instead of listening to bruce

also?? bruce isnt mentioned once in the scene where joker beats jason until its already done and joker doesnt want batman to find out

so overall its not really a fridging!! he has a lot to do and a lot of focus within the story, and he was killed during his effort to save someone :( once again thats not to say his death was his fault, but he had a lot to do in the context of his death that it was still about him up until he died

his death was because of bruce because joker wouldnt have gone after him if it werent to get back at batman, but jason still had a lot to do in the story and it kinda goes against the whole point of the fridging trope. fridging isnt "side characters getting killed is bad" its "established characters getting no agency in their own death is bad (especially when said characters are women or minorities)"

#im sorry fridge truthers </3 i understand your argument but alas i dont agree #i hope this all makes sense i am so fucking awful at putting thoughts into words #jason todd #dc

[forlorn-crows]

Just wanted to say I absolutely LOVE Lady of the Lake and I've reread it so many times that I should be lowkey ashamed haha BUT

I'm also very curious about Nyneve's interactions with other ghouls like Delta or Dew. How did Dew find her?

You can absolutely take this as an opportunity to ramble about it if you want :)

okay so. i admit that technically the ghoul i call Water in my fic i guess is Delta? im terribly bad at tracking who's who in the water ghoul 'lore'. but Terzo called his bass player before Mist 'Water' so thats what i went with. so please call him whatever you'd like lmao.

for anyone who needs a refresher, this is sort of all i've established about Nyneve's past interactions w/ghouls or otherwise:

Uh, how long has it been? Since you’ve met a ghoul, I mean. Rain isn’t sure what to do with himself—what to do with his hands, his limbs, any of it. He dangles in front of her like a worm on a lure, and he supposes he is one, in a way. A slice of life outside the murky waters she inhabits. But he knows he’d be her catch of the day, not the other way around. 

Many years, Nyvene says wistfully. I can sense those who venture into the water at any depth, as well as those close to the shore. But the ones who seem most closely aligned to you have never traveled as far as yourself. They were surface dwellers. Rain gives her a confused look. Not all are drawn to the depths, and that is perfectly fine for a being such as myself. But I did begin to wonder who would come next.

Dew had been telling the truth, then. Who was before me?

His name was simply Water. He was quite robust in his search, perhaps a little impatient. But he was kind to me. So I cannot fault him too much. She seems wistful, reminiscent. Rain realizes he doesn’t know much about the water ghouls before him and Dewdrop, let alone any of the ghouls that came before their current pack. 

How many before him?

Many, she says simply.

Rain swallows, more bubbles escaping his gills. How, uh—how old are you, exactly?

Hm, age is a funny thing. That can’t be good. I have existed for a long time, longer than your congregation. 

So, we didn’t, um, create you?

No, my child. Though, the dark magick running more frequently through these lands has been . . . refreshing, to put it simply.

You’ve always been here? In this lake, I mean. 

Well, as long as I can remember, yes. She chuckles.

so, you'll notice, and as a gentle reminder, Dew and Mist did not interact with her. to me, they are not a deep-water alignment as Rain is. that's not to say Dew never meets her. because he does. but he didn't interact with her prior to Rain.

i think water ghouls, and ghouls/demons in general, have more specified alignments within the elements they are 'made' of/from. just water itself can be saltwater, freshwater, deep sea, rivers/streams, storms, ice, and things of the like.

so not all of them will have desired to go to the bottom of the lake (i think its pretty deep, think some of the deeper american great lakes depth despite its overall size). the elder ghouls may have passed down the knowledge about her, and some, like Water i think, dont. maybe theyre a little selfish about her, feel like theyve been 'chosen' and that everyone else should have to discover her too. with Water (again, Delta, w/e), it was turbulent with the new summonings, the changing of ghouls and even elements. there simply wasnt time to be like 'oh yeah also theres a big tentacle lady in the lake if you want to have a fun time' you know? not his fault.

so Nyneve's def had a relationship with many a ghoul, but it hasnt been linear. it hasnt all been water ghouls either, but i think the interaction of other elements has come and gone throughout time. i havent decided if any of the 'more recent' ghouls beyond the others mentioned have met her, or just know of her.

certainly there'd be urban legends passed around amongst humans that live in the surrounding areas, so they may have heard about something in passing. esp if any of those humans happened to become siblings of the church. but humans that do know of her have never truly known who she is, and mainly just call her varelse, creature. a monster.

the poem at the end you may have noticed uses her real name, Nyneve. so we can assume someone more personally familiar with her wrote it. scribbled it in some tome somewhere about local myths and legends, or historical drafts about the abbey itself.

she's very mysterious and not even i know everything about her, haha! dark magick gone rougue, some creature that crawled up from the depths, or something created by some long forgotten god.

all this to say, Rain had to introduce Dew to Nyneve. once he got over the fact that he'd have to tell everyone else about her, considering hed come home with sucker marks all over with no real logical explanation. i think Mountain is the first one he tells, but Dew is the first one he introduces.

i really appreciate that you enjoy LOTL so much; apologies for taking a little bit to answer this, but thanks for stopping by xx

if you havent already read about Nyneve and Rain, and this sparks your interest, you can do so here:

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#ask #anon #lady of the lake #rain ghoul #water ghoul #delta ghoul #dewdrop ghoul #ghoul ocs #(not really but thats my general tag so far)

[hanasnx]

no yeah i need more of the indy x beef love story!! add a cut if you have to (jokey joke i'm not trying to nag) i've got a cup of ice water and a bowl of popcorn beside me (also a joke. the popcorn, not the ice water. it is toasty rn) i'm invested, i'm seated, i'm tuned in!! much love xoxo

part one sorry this took so long

i had this sense of belonging with him. i was already comfortable with him even though we'd only had a handful of conversations. this was a big step for me seeing as how i'd only ever been with people that gave me that thrill in my stomach especially if i was doing something wrong. in this case, that thrill was completely gone, replaced with a sense of safety i'd never felt before besides a friendship that was very dear to me. so i thought i needed to be his friend. i wanted to hang out with him.

i think i decided this when i went out walking late at night because its my favorite thing to do and it started pouring rain so i went to the little mailbox garage to keep my phone/earbuds dry otherwise i wouldnt have minded the rain. but i was sitting there and i found myself wanting to run into him. i was wishing he'd, for some reason, come check his mail so that we could talk more.

now that its decided that i knew i wanted to be closer to him, i did not have a game plan. instead, i applied the logic i usually would apply to this situation: if it's meant to be it'll come back. because i was too scared to make a move when he came in for coffee in the morning. we said our usual hellos etc but i did not give him my number. i was disappointed, even though it was my own fault, because its rare that i see him twice in one day. so the "if it's meant to be it'll come back" was kind a way out for me, 1) i wouldnt have to do the thing i was dreading, creating a sense of relief 2) but that would mean i dont get to do the thing i wanted to do, creating a sense of disappointment.

i was working all day and my boss left early, which means that when i went home for lunch, i put on non-corporate dress code socks because my feet were cold. ones that her micro-managing ass would've noticed and told me to take off. but i was behind the desk, it was nearing the end of the day, no one would notice my crazy socks. my coworker that knew i liked this guy was sitting next to me, and my head maintenance guy who didnt know and could not know. we were all talking when beef came in.

like i said before, it was rare to see him twice in one day, so my stomach did a flip. it meant i had to give him my number, i made that commitment. i wrote it down on a sticky note, waiting for my chance. but my maintenance guy wouldnt leave, and beef was making his coffee. i was running out of time. i didnt know how to find a situation to give it to him in which my maintenance guy wouldnt see it because i knew his ass would report me or hold it over my head. and beef left before i could figure it out.

crestfallen, i hadnt fulfilled my commitment. i was really upset with myself, it was perfect. he came back just like he was supposed to, just like the mantra. if it's meant to be it will come back.

i was beating myself up for it tbh. "you always do this shit, indy, you always do this shit." which is so rare considering how kind i am to myself, which goes to show just how upset i was at myself for not manning up about it.

some time passed and it was probably the last thirty minutes of the day, so i was gonna go put the golf cart back. i was walking out when something told me to go back to my desk, so i went back, and i grabbed the sticky note with my number on it. to this day i have no idea why i did that. something came over me that i went back to my desk and grabbed the sticky note with my number on it to shove into my pocket to take with me. maybe it was because i didnt want other people to see it on my desk, but i couldve just thrown it away.

i drive around and i go the longways because i usually did that. its about evening time, the sky is orange, im still upset over earlier.

and i see in the distance a familiar silhouette. one i've seen a thousand times. it was beef roller blading alongside his running dog. i cant believe my eyes it was like magic. i was genuinely, to my core, shocked. a third time. a third time in one day.

he goes to the sidewalk to let me pass, but i turn in to a parking spot like a mad man. i am determined to get this over with. a third time in the same day, ive never seen him three times in one day, this had to be it. i have to give him the number and miraculously i brought the fucking note with me. i march up, i say "hi (name), hi (dogs name)" quick asf. "dont look at my socks" i tell him because im still wearing the crazy socks that dont go with my shoes or outfit and the first thing he fucking does is look down at my socks. he laughs at them. i hand him the note "call me if you wanna hangout sometime." i say and get back in the cart to take it to the garage.

an hour later he texts. "hi :) this is (name)" and we text for hours. paragraphs about our pasts and shows we like and what we do for fun, everything. at one point he texts that he feels like he needs to say that hes "not ready for a relationship, and hes happy being friends" and i said "thats fine because thats why i gave you my number. to hang out" which is true. i asked him if he wanted to go around the community yard sale on thursday with me, and he said yes.

around 11 o clock that day, we meet up, and i remember he looked me up and down. he gave me that scan. it was subtle but i was like oh?

we walked around together and i got a bunch of stuff for my roommates cats and a lemon soap dispenser for my roommate who loves lemons etc. beef hasnt gotten anything, but he helps me carry my stuff :) he had insisted on it. at one point we come across a collection of framed paintings, and he looks particularly taken with a small portrait of a snowy landscape with a man in furs. he sets it back down. i check the price, its $5 so i buy it for him. he looks touched.

we text a little for the next week, but he says hes really busy with work and has to focus on that so i give him that space. at one point i subtly try to hang out with him late at night using the excuse of putting our crystals out for the full moon, and he says that he'd love to but can't, and i had to backtrack and act like i wasnt trying to hang out 💀

towards the end of that week, i had started texted with an ex-best-friend of mine we'll call her EBF. ebf invited me to a kava bar, then asked if her boyfriend could come, i said no that makes me uncomfortable bcos i dont know her boyfriend, she says "oh then i cant go", im like wow i wonderrr why we stopped being friends u pos but whateverrr so i said "if you get to bring someone, i get to bring someone" and invited beef. i said "hey i know its short notice but im going out tonight at a kava bar you should come" he says "great! give me the address ill be there" so i do. while im getting ready, EBF texts to cancel last minute. fucking dick n balls, right? so i had to text beef to be like "hey man so sorry but my friend cancelled. do you still wanna go just us?" and he says yea :)

he picks me up and at one point i pay a compliment to myself, i say i've got nice curves. he looks at me while hes got a spare moment driving and gives me a little once over again... and says "yeah, you do have nice curves" i couldve died

we talk about anything and everything on the way here, at the kava bar, and then when we take a walk. we walk up and down that strip for like an hour and a half. we drive back to the community and we take another walk. when i look at my phone after all this walking and talking it realize its 2am and we started hanging out at 7pm. so i have to run back home bcos ive gotta get ready for work in 6 hours.

the next day my roommates rly wanna meet him, so invite him over to hang with them. after that, i walk him home, and spent a bit of time with him there. i tell him im cold, and he says "heres my favorite hoodie". i go home and spend a few hours apart at my place. we keep texting, and he says "let me know if you wanna play some games tonight" as in like online, but i was like "im literally packing up my ps3 to bring over rn" bcos he had mentioned he wanted to play black ops 2 and i was feeling spontaneous. around midnight im back at his place and we play games until way later, and im feeling too tired to keep playing so we put on a movie and we "cuddle" which was kind of spooning but he kept his crotch away from my ass. (he tells me later that the reason he did that was because he got a boner laying down with me)

we fall asleep watching rio, our first sleepover. he had set an alarm for me so that i wouldnt miss work and i didnt even ask.

the next day he asked me to come over again. he cooks me dinner. we have another sleepover. i got to work, and then i go right back to his place. that night we're sitting and facing one another in the dark, that invisible string is pulling us together. he's murmuring, "i don't wanna be friends. i wanna be your boyfriend." and we kiss. its soft and slow, and it marks may 7th our anniversary.

since our first sleepover, i did not sleep again at my own place, which means that before we were officially dating, we were technically living together first.

#🥩 beef tings #indy lore #indy shoots the shit #thanks for the msg!! #anon

[morguemaw]

Lustale/Lusttale?

Okay, so i kinda cooked up abit of a lore idea id want for the au, some is loosely taken from what i roughly remember of the og au, since i do want to create this au in the sense of my own, im calling it Lusttale/Lustale (can be spelt either way just the extra 'T' makes it look cluttered)

I will make it clear that the au will be 16+ instead of 18+, only due to the topics at hand!! i dont own the original concept of Underlust, reason why im calling Lustale and saying its my au instead of a 100% variant, is because im gonna be putting alot of my own lore, personalities, ect into these guys!! Think like how theres alot of Swapfells with their own plot/idea <33 Tho keep in mind suggestive stuff will be a thing in it I will also make it very clear that just because the AU itself is a revamp of Underlust, Frisk is asexual like the original, and Chara is aromatic! They are more disgusted in the world around them then wanting to be involved, and i will age range them between 17-19 so they are mentally mature to avoid issues within the au!! Chara keeps Frisk safe and in my spin, Chara only causes genocide when they deem fit Onto the lore i have so far

- Toriel either couldn't or didnt want children - At some point though, Asgore and Toriel tried for a child after falling inlove, but they couldnt create one - They decided to try and create a artificial monster soul, that was a combination of their own souls, or atleast abit of them (think how Alphys made artificial determination) to create a soul to place into something? ( or to try and create a child within Toriel, via absorbing somehow ) - The soul one day ended up breaking/dying, which broke Toriel and Asgores' heart, they sprinkled the soul bits into a flower field, which created Flowey (may keep that he is a rose ), this was also the cause of the breakup since they decided its best to split then to argue on if its one or the others fault for why the soul broke (in reality, its because of it being artificial ) - However, when a human fell, their soul was instead Passion (thinking that maybe Passion replaces Perseverance ) - Passion affected the underground, this is only because at the time Alphys wanted to try and mess with this soul, and tried to create a artificial version of this as well, because Passion to everyone was some romantic peaceful thing - However, while doing this, it corrupted the substance. Turning it from Passion, to desire/lust. And that pretty much concludes the beginning!! The AU itself wont be focused on the rout of how Undertale or even how Underlust went, its more of just a au that ill use for fun!!! if you have questions or are curious on how ill do headcanons feel free to ask :)

#meatygutsy au #utmv #lustale #my au

[sistervirtue]

i wanna hear about your playlists!

ok so most specifically i wanna talk about my hinata one like. wait ok this is long

The Chamber Music of Orleans: This song tells about a fictionalized version of the joan of arc tale, but it applies in a much looser sense to Hinata-- it's about a woman with strong morals being led astray by a demon who she believes to be god, and i think that the like, this theme of feeling like what youre doing is holy while also knowing deep down that it's bloodshed for the sake of bloodshed is really fitting, especially with the last lines "Nah, we' dyed our hands with blood of our own volition."

The Chattering Lack of Common Sense: I think this one really highlights the isolation and just...cognitive dissonence that hinata fought with the entire duration of her life

The Fox's Wedding: ok yeah this one's just vibes. sue me

Galleria: THIS ONE IS JUST. IT FITS SO WELL. THE DESIRE TO JUST LIVE A NORMAL LIFE WHEN THATS ROBBED FROM HER BY HER PARTNER AND HOW IT WAS /SUPPOSED/ TO BE DIFFERENT BUT SHE HAS NO CHOICE...

A Splendid Conclusion: Admittedly, I've considered taking this one off because it doesn't fit perfectly, but I think it just reiterates this theme of a sickening connection and corruption

Vocalo-Colosseum: i thought it would be unfair to leave out songs relating to battle (since fighting's what she's made for), most of it is nonsense, but the lyrics are about fighting until there's nothing left, through desperation and without support.

Possibly in Michigan/Animal Cannibal: A lot of Hinata's arc is like, slowly prying into this horror of how she's had to become a monster to try and contain something much worse, and I think the strange, stalker-ish obsession Robara has with her fits what the lyrics describe, as well as her violent outbursts in response to the strain "i bite at the hand that feeds me, slap at the face that eats me"

Franken-X: THIS ONE IS SO MUCH. frankenstein complex: the fear of being destroyed by something you created. hinata feels SO responsible for the monster robara became (even though its not her fault) and how she plays both a mothering role and spousal role to him, and the song's constant undercurrents of love and obsession...a sense of servitude to the thing and then breaking free

Fushigi-Chan "hail him, the antinomic creator of all things"...i think this song is very fitting both in tone with how tense and high-energy it is, but in the lyrics, talking about dinner parties with hyenas, the past being corpses (we dont know what happened to her family...), and this strange fixation on "him", as well as a desire to escape this reality into a new one and a loss of self identity

Shadow Shadow Will Stetson English Cover: once again circling back to the theme of isolation and selling your soul to something

#hinata #kemoji #ok sorry for being cringe on main #ty anon :)

[hydrostorm]

richter

How I feel about this character: 

hands down favorite character of all time literally me and the most compelling narrative that's ever been wrapped around my brain. god bless

All the people I ship romantically with this character: 

annette and alucard, for my own made up canon i like the idea of a vague romantic feeling for the human form of the succubus (during disappearance) motivating why richter allowed herself to become possessed, but i dont think it would be requited in any way. i also like the idea of the succubus in her human form secretly feeling guilty of doing it because of vague romantic feelings she also developed but again i think Unrequited is crucial so its not really a ship just a plot device i guess. LOL

My non-romantic OTP for this character: 

MARIAAA and alurichter why not cause they dont HAVE to kiss theyre just important friends. anyway tho maria and richter are so chefs kiss my favorite sibling dynamic is younger sibling who has it together more than the older sibling. i think marias rationality goes WELL with richters chaotic nature and it doesn't clash but instead works together.. the found family is real

My unpopular opinion about this character:

butch lesbian, revenge against the church was the true motivation for sotn, annette is crucial to the events of sotn, richter changed forever after sotn, sotn was in fact partially richters fault, and she also did in fact want the fall of the belmonts to happen

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

i would KILL for the games to expand on richters motivations because theyre not clear. i see the storytelling in sotn so maybe they tried but either way i really would kill to see actual explanation. although maybe i just prefer to make it up myself

my OTP:

alurichternette. they just all round each other out perfectly especially after the loads of narrative development that i made up

my cross over ship:

maybe richter/yuria from hokuto no ken because she is basically annette and (rondo) richter is basically kenshiro?

a headcanon fact:

tourettes autism bipolar cptsd. i think the belmonts are a family of hereditary neurodivergence and that coupled with religious trauma spanning generations creates one hell of a neurotype!!! maybe its just me who believes the horror genre is intrinsically linked to psychological suffering, probably because i myself suffer psychologically so that's what i enjoy from the genre. but anyway richters situation is more likely than you think and the behavior richter exhibits during the possession is basically a glorified manic episode with tics and castlevania magic. this is a fact

#castlevania #symphony of the night #rondo of blood #richter belmont #castlevania thoughts

[zrspace]

So… alot of shit happened recently. Topic at hand revolves around ghosting. Long story short, I hate ghosting, a group of friends of mine ghosted me and abandoned me, and a close friend of mine from school ghosted me too because she sensed that I might have feelings for her (which I did). Me and her talked it out because she found out from another friend (a friend that I confided about the ghosting situation and I told him that I felt extremely hurt by their actions) that her actions had affected me deeply and hurt me badly.

Her reasoning for ghosting me was mainly because she thought I had feelings for her (even tho I tried my best to hide it lol) and she didnt know how to confront it or deal with it, so she ghosted me. Obviously, i started to notice this behaviour of her ghosting me and ignoring my messages in the past. I got confused, hurt and abandoned by her, and over time, I started to resent her. Even if she didnt liked me, I thought she at least wouldnt mind us being friends. I was confused and hurt

I relayed these emotions to her, and I told her that it was also partially my fault and that I did liked her in the past. She was like “damn I was right”. Obviously, now I dont know how to feel about her. I liked her for her caring and loving nature, and how easy it is to talk to her and even be quiet around her. But at the same time, I have felt hurt by her actions that lasted for 2 years…

When she apologised for hurting me and acknowledging that her actions had hurt me, I started to cry. I dont know why I did, but I started tearing up in front of her. We stayed together for a few minutes before going back to work.

Moral of the story: ghosting fucking sucks. You’re a coward if you think ghosting is the right decision. I dont care if its whats “best for myself.” Speak up like an adult and communicate openly.

Now, we’re close friends, and we talk to each other. I definitely feel closer to her now, now that the repressed issue has been talked about and resolved. I definitely do like her, but whether I see her as a partner remains to be seen. After dealing with that pain for 2 years, I’m just happy being friends with her again, for now… If things do develop in the future, that would be nice. If not, I’m not going to be… sad… I think 😕 Okay fine. I kinda like it if we did get together, but I’m not going to force it. If its meant to be, it will be. If not, I’m cool with that too

Regarding the group of friends that ghosted me, I honestly dgaf about them anymore. We had went out together in the past, but over time, created their own groupchat and went out without me (or my other friend, who was also abandoned but didnt give a damn about it lol). Obviously I was hurt, and I grew to hate them when they go out together. But ya. If they die tomorrow, I wouldnt shed a single tear. Just saying

#me #personal #wanted to let out my thoughts here #dont reblog please

[chaosmenu]

more thoughts on boneyard aka fearmonger that im kind of struggling to word. but i really appreciate that the album manages to balance speaking from the perspective of an unreliable narrator with a clear sense of purpose. which is usually like.... writing 101, but obviously a lot of songwriters arent really thinking about that sort of thing? especially not when the album is viewed within its full context. but like. the contrast between "everybodys dead" and "saltfields (theres nothing we can do!)" shows this very plainly. like, in "everybody's dead," the narrator shifts between talking about their own self-absorbed guilt complex where they believe every political issue is Their Fault and also their relationship problems with someone else whos very self-absorbed. which is a great way to craft dramatic irony. but then saltfields inverts this by saying "oh, sure, everything sucks and i, individually, am not a huge deal, but also theres nothing i can do about the state of the world and we should all just give up :)", and then the song slowly like... destroys itself from there. i like how violent it sounds, like theres such a huge gap between the joyful apathy of the narrator and how fucking angry the song is at them by the end

to use an example of an album that deals with similar themes and is Not as self-aware as boneyard, hypochondriac by brakence. which i love dgmw. its hands-down my most listened to album Ever which is kind of incredible considering it came out this year. but it also talks about environmental & political anxieties among specifically youth living in the imperial core, but it doesnt have anything interesting to say and feels obnoxiously self-centered. and i feel comfortable saying that here considering brakence will never see this. but like. ok lets take this line from uhh. i think it was 5g iirc?

when i die i hope im buried in a forest, that is if any of its left, this shit is torrid

like. ok aside from the fact that "torrid" is a really random word to use here and was obviously just used to fit the rhyme. this is the literary equivalent of a tedtalk. the artist is just straight up telling you their thoughts with no creativity or anything. its boring, okay?

at risk of sounding repetitive (i need to get back on subject somehow, sorry), boneyard manages to avoid the very easy trap of "tell, dont show" through the satirical implementation of an unreliable narrator and a clear arc throughout the album. there are some lines that feel too expository, but theyre sparing and they have a clear purpose. i think i just love underscores bc their ability to make fun of a specific Kind Of Person while also creating an interesting character (ie all of fishmonger) is so good. i love you underscores

#op #i wanted to write all of my thoughts on the hashtag Themes of boneyard here #but its already like. way too long of a post #so ill just summarize it #the entire album is about a deconstruction of the white suburban upper middle class #and discusses 1) self-absorbed guilt about & alienation from lower classes #2) cisheteronormativity and performance #and 3) political ambivalence as a form of harm #you'll have to figure out the rest sorry

[mdzscontent]

Crossposting from my twitter:

That one scene in supergirl where Kara confronts a hologram of her mom but make it Jin Ling using a talisman (created by Wei Wuxian for him to talk to his parents) to confront Jin GuangShan (or Jin GuangYao not sure which) about the reasons Wei Wuxian was out of the burial mounds.

Him and the other juniors along with WangXian are on a night hunt and Wei Wuxian is surveying they area they are staying in and Sizhui shares some of the things he remembers about the burial mounds with the other 3. He brings up how he thought he felt when he knew his family Wouldn’t return especially his Xian-gege and Jin Ling makes an off-handed remark about his fathers death and Wei Wuxian about that time even if he knows what happened it still sometimes bugs him.

Lan WangJi in spite responds “it was because of your 100 day celebration he was out Of the burial mounds and away from safety.” Jin Ling in a fit of denial and frustration stomps away with talisman paper and cinnabar to make the talisman to confront Jin GuangShen (or GuangYao Yao). As soon as he saw one of them he pounced before the hologram could great him.

“Did you Use me to get Wuxian framed.”

The hologram responds, “hello a-Ling”

“dont say my name right now, did you use me to draw Wuxian out of hiding?”

“Yes”

Jin Ling gasps as he is told, “how could you do that” Disbelief in his voice noticeable.

“you where the only person he wanted to meet. It was necessary”

“could he have saved them?” He asked staring at the hologram. He thinks of his friend Sizhui, young a child who lost his parents and then lost a care taking figure and his family because of his own clan and the corrupt cultivation society.

“He was a criminal” it responded blankly.

“But was he right?!”

He yelled in frustration the hologram responds with “I am not made to give you that information” because Wei Was still thinks it Of it as his fault so he didn’t include anything about it.

Jin Ling gets more frustrated and yells, “tell me!”

The hologram repeated itself, “I’m sorry, I am not programmed to give you that information. Tears are falling at this point and Jin Ling finally just breaks and yells at it Meanwhile Wei Wuxian heard the commotion and went to check on Jin Ling and decided this is something that he should figure out on his own (he also didn’t hear the first part).

“You let everyone that I love die, you left me...” his tears are falling faster than he can stop them.

“You left me alone, you sent me away” he says speaking of the times he felt alone without his parents and going to lotus pier surrounded by deciples who mine as well been the same as the ones in LanLing.

“How could you do that?!” He yells and Wei Wuxian decided maybe it’s time to To step in as the hologram repeats itself, “I’m not programmed to give you that information.” Suihua sensing its users anger and frustration unsheathes and rushes towards the source. The talisman is quickly destroyed and Wei Wuxian rushes over to comfort his nephew.

“Hey, hey It’s not really him.” He says pulling Jin Ling into a hug. Sure he hadn’t seen the whole thing but he can guess some of what happened. He would have to ask the rest of the juniors and his husband what fully happened for his nephew to be out by himself.

“They lied to me.” Is all His nephew says. Really it doesn’t help much but at least he’s figured out that it has to do with the many lies within the Jin clan. They stay like that for awhile until Jin Ling is sniffling and pretending like he hadn’t just cried until he couldn’t breath, Wei Wuxian used to it Seen as Jiang Cheng did the same when they where younger he lets the younger gather his thoughts and asks about it. Jin Ling can’t help the feelings of guilt he knows Wei Wuxian wouldn’t want him to feel he knows how much guilt the older holds but he is the only one who told him About the things he wants to know about his parents and he can see he holds back some of the biased things about his father. He tells them of the conversation with the others, the things Huanguang-jun said and how he wished he had known. He is crying again but he doesn’t mind now. They stay for a little longer, Wei Wuxian uses the extra paper and cinnabar to created holograms of the peacock and his Shijie. After awhile they go back to the others. He tells them what he found out, he also pulls his two Lan’s aside, scolds his husband but hugs both. In the end after finishing the hunt he and Jin Ling spend awhile and Lan WangJi (reluctantly) apologized for what he said even if he didn’t mean it (I totally 100% believe he would be spiteful towards Jin Ling as well even if he had no provable part in Wei Wuxian’s death man’s probably still made at Jin Ling for stabbing Wei Wuxian).

If you’ve seen my twitter thread of this it’s still up but if not I think this is something that’s been in my head for ages and I had just heard the audio when I made thread, obviously I changed bits to match the scene and characters in my head to this better.

#mdzs wwx #mdzs jin ling #post canon #mdzs

[itsallavengers]

Some of y'all are very mean to Steve in PWGI :/

#i cant believe im going to defend a character in my own fanfic BUT #listen yall obie wasnt playing on his lack of trust in tony when he gave steve the chip okay #he was playing on steves inhererent and profound desire to help as many people as he could #and some of yall dont seem to understand that #steve knew(thought) that tony was innocent when he took it home with him #but he ALSO knew how dangerous it would be to just assume anything ESPECIALLY when that many lives hung in the balance okay #hed promised natasha if he saw anythingf suspicious that hed flag it up. and this is about as suspicious as you can get #and lets be honest here what obie said to him was HELLA damn suspicious #steve has been trained to pick up on that stuff #also remember that he isnt actually being paid for this any more. he said so himself. this was purely for the people that tony had killed #and the evidence was OVERWHELMING that tony was the one behind it all okay like? when youre given that much information in one fell swoop #youre not going to turn around and think 'oh but the person who gave it to me was lowkey shifty so it MUST be fake' #the evidence was..overwhelming lmao i couldnt have WRITTEN it as any more obviously tonys fault so why? #are you all? saying it was steves fault for not realizing? lmao #yes steve fucked up but god its understandable okay he just got handed evidence that the love of his life deals weapons to terrorists #the team of avengers dont 'suck at gathering information' listen the inforMATION WAS OVERWHELMING IN ITS SOLIDITY LIKE THIS WAS SOLID PROOF #also this is the first time theyve made a mistake with their evidence amd u know why? cuz theyre good at their jobs and also i created this #and i said so #anyway look i know tony is hurt and yall reaction is to take a pitchfork to steves lungs bUT #have faith in him!!!! hes a good if slightly morally gray boy!!! trying to do whats right for the people!!!!! and hes gonna do everything #he can to fix it!!!! #also while im at this rant can yall pls stop commentong every plot hole u find #jfjdjd i know yall are getting enthusiastic and i!! rlly appreciate that!! but it is kinda disheartening to see 'x plot is unfeasible and- #i call bullshit' #or in one particular comment 'who the fuck thought this would be a good idea #like guys. .... hfbfjdk i worked rlly rlly hard on this! i know its not perfect but i am! trying my best lol #suspend your disbelief a little okay SOMETIMES SHIT JUST HAPPENS BC I WAVE MY AUTHORS WAND DHSKAHDK #anyway rant over! #pwgi

[xiaq]

Hi, I have a question re:sex and Christianity. Small background: I still go to church, and I still live with my parents even though I'm not much younger than you, because housing is very very expensive where I live (pretty common here, I would say about 2/3 of my friends live with their parents and we are decently privileged kids)

Anyway. How does one get over purity culture? To be clear, I've never been told in church not to have sex, I've never gotten the gendered lessons that you got. But I am terrified of having sex. My first real, multi-year relationship just ended and while there was hand stuff etc, there was never any p in v sex (lol I feel 12). But I still had insane anxiety about being pregnant despite being on bc. And I think its because I know my parents would be so disappointed if I had sex. And if I was pregnant I could imagine all the gossip. And honestly I think im from a pretty open church, b/c one of our previous ministers kids recently got married at 8 months pregnant and lots of church people were at the wedding and supportive and her parents were there and everything.

I dont even think I particularly like sex, i might be on the ace spectrum, but how do I remove it from all the anxiety that's tied to it so I can even give myself the chance to find out???

(Asking because it seems like you've been pretty open about purity culture/removing yourself from it)

CW for sex talk (again)

How does one get over purity culture?

Oh man. That really is the million-dollar question, huh? Obviously, I can only answer re my personal experiences, and this is something you should talk to a therapist about, but I can tell you how I’ve tackled it with my therapist at least.

Purity culture is, at its core, an ideology that is perpetuated by shame. If you’re indoctrinated into purity culture when you’re a kid, the concepts become baked into the way you construct your identity, your perception of self, and your perception of your sexuality. It’s practically intrinsic, by the time you’re an adult, to feel shame any time you’re reminded you have a body, much less a sexuality.

According to the chapels I sat through every week as a kid, a girl's body could be 3 things: an intentional stumbling block for men, an accidental stumbling block for men, or unnoticeable. Women were to strive for the third option so as to keep their (and their male friends/authority figures) purity intact. After all, if a boy, or even your male teacher, had impure thoughts about you, it was your fault for tempting them (which, holy shit. I still can’t believe that was a thing I bought into for so long. If my 45 yr old grown-ass teacher had impure thoughts because he could see my 12 yr old collarbone, that sure as hell wasn’t my fault. But I digress.) The Only time a woman’s body can be something else, is when she gives it to her husband, at which point she must suddenly flip the switch in her brain that she is now allowed to be a Sexual Being and she must perform Sexual Duties despite living in outright fear of her own body and sexuality for years (decades?) up until this point. Jesus take the wheel.

Purity culture isn’t a thing you can just decide to walk away from if you’ve grown up in it. Because its ideology is insidious and internalized. So first you need to submit to the fact that you’re going to be fucked up about sex. It sounds like you’re there. Second, you need to interrogate what you believe. If you’re leaving religion behind entirely, you’ll approach removing yourself from purity culture differently than if you still identify as a Christian. It sounds like you might be the latter, which meant, for me, separating what’s actually biblical and what’s shitty, contrived, doctrine that I was told is biblical but is actually more political than spiritual. This helps you address the shame issue.

You need to throw away I Kissed Dating Goodbye and Lady in Waiting and all those ridiculous books you read and reread in the hopes of somehow obtaining impossible marriage perfection and look into actual scripture interpreted within its historical context. I could write a book on this, but the TL;DR is that the text of the Bible was written, translated, curated, and changed multiple times over thousands of years by human beings with human biases and, often, personal and/or political agendas. It contradicts itself! Reading it as it is—a flawed historical document—rather than some sort of God-breathed perfect document—is incredibly freeing. When you do, you’ll probably realize that purity culture is bullshit on a spiritual level. Which is a good start, if that matters to you. Because any time you start to feel shame or guilt you can ask yourself: does God actually care if I wear a bikini or touch a dick I’m not married to? Probably not. Wear the bikini. Touch the dick.

The most important therapy session for me was when my therapist asked what I would do if I got to heaven and God was actually the God I’d been raised to fear. What would I do if he condemned me for being bisexual and having premarital sex and becoming educated, for arguing with men, and failing to isolate while menstruating, and wearing mixed fabrics? If Montero had come out at the point, I probably would have said I’d pole dance down to hell. Instead, I said I would spit on heaven’s gates. If a god that cruel and that pointlessly demeaning really exists—a god who would create in me condemned desire—I won't worship him. The good news is, I’m 99% sure he doesn’t exist. At the very least, he isn’t supported by scripture.

Okay. The final thing you need to do is figure out what you actually want, sexually speaking. This bit is probably the hardest. I’m still in the early stages of this myself. You say: “I dont even think I particularly like sex, i might be on the ace spectrum, but how do I remove it from all the anxiety that's tied to it so I can even give myself the chance to find out???” Bro, I wish I had an easy answer for you. For me, whenever I’m feeling anxious about Sex Things, I tell myself: 1. My God does not equate my worth to my sexual habits. 2. My partner does not equate my worth to my sexual habits. 3. I do not equate my worth to my sexual habits. It seems silly, but reminding myself of those three things is massively helpful. If, after I’ve sorted through those, I’m still anxious or uncomfortable, I stop doing the thing. I evaluate. Am I overwhelmed and I need to try again some other time? Do I just not like the thing? Sometimes it’s hard to tell. Sometimes you change your mind. Sometimes you just don’t know. That’s why having a partner who you trust and who’s willing to patiently explore your interests (and respect your disinterests) is so important. Half the battle, for me, was having a partner who told me they’d be ok with no sex at all. Because that took the pressure off me. If the bare minimum they need is nothing, then anything more than that is a bonus! Hooray! This is maybe TMI, but let me tell you. I thought I was asexual* right up until I was able to have moderately non-anxious sex. Never in my life did I think I would initiate a sexual situation but… I do now. It’s a fun thing to do with a person I love and, holy shit. I am furious that I nearly missed out on it.

Finally, re birth control: I don’t know how you can approach that fear in a way that works for you. If you don’t want to ever have penetrative sex, that’s fine! If that’s a point of anxiety you can’t get rid of, then don't push yourself to do it. If you find out you like other sex things, do the other sex things! If you don't like doing any sex things, don't do any sex things! Also, have you considered sleeping with people who can’t get you pregnant? Always an option if it’s an option you want to consider. ;)

Okay. I hope this was even a little bit helpful. Sorry if it’s a little convoluted, I typed it up in bursts during my work breaks.

*This is not at all to say that asexuality can be “fixed." Rather, it’s to say that things like purity culture can drastically confuse your sexuality in general. If you’re asexual, then this process is still important to discover what you like/dislike. Then you can be explicit about those necesities and find a partner who’s a good fit (if you want a partner at all, that is).

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