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thevelvetgoldmine · 9 months
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TO WONG FOO, THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! JULIE NEWMAR (1995) dir. Beeban Kidron
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papermint-airplane · 29 days
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Ngl besties depression is kicking my ass rn. I'm gonna whine a little bit under the cut so nobody has to see this, I just need to get it off my chest.
* I am experiencing the worst eczema flare up of my entire life. I have rashes all over my body: chin, lips, neck, wrists, backside, labia, scalp, and feet. They're swelling and causing so much pain. Sometimes when I move, my skin rips open and bleeds. I am basically covered in open wounds right now.
* I keep having dreams about my abusers (parents). I know this is stemming from the Christmas card they sent me in December. I never gave my parents my address when I moved but my mother cyberstalked me to find it and then sent me a letter to gloat about how she did it immediately after. She's been sending me unsolicited things in the mail ever since. I never reply but she never stops. I literally havd left that Christmas card in the mailbox since December because I don't even want to touch anything she's touched but I accidentally brought it into my car the other day and I feel like my space has been invaded. I don't know what to do about it.
* Work is horrible and getting worse by the day. Sometimes I feel like I'm being punished for being a horrible child like I was always told I was. Like maybe I'm already dead and this is my personal Hell which is why I'll never be allowed to leave.
* I am exhausted all the time. I have so many things I want to do but I pass out the second I get home and don't wake up till it's time to get ready for work again. I can't even play my game. And it doesn't matter how much I sleep, I never get any less exhausted.
* I'm lonely but all I want to do is isolate myself. I wonder if anyone will notice if I do.
* I want to update my story but I feel like nobody really gives a shit about it. I got 3 times more notes when I posted a zero effort picture of a Sim dog than I do on story posts I work on for hours. I feel like just giving up. Nobody will ever want to read my shit. Nobody cares about my OCs. I am fundamentally untalented and uncreative.
* I want to cry but if I do, I won't stop for hours, and I just don't have the energy
* My therapist is on vacation this week so I just have to carry this around with me until next Monday.
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msfcatlover · 10 months
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IWCTW!Damian having to relearn how to suppress his stims, because his grandfather doesn’t like it, after nearly 20yrs of learning how to feel comfortable with expressing himself. 
(Clark catching Damian stimming, only for Damian to immediately try to bluff his way out of it, because it’s been months back with the League and Damian’s relearned that stimming is dangerous. Clark starts showing up with potential stim-toys, being super-casual and even framing some of them as requests. Like, “I’ve been thinking about giving something like this to my son, can you test it and make sure it both works and is safe please? Oh no, you can keep that one. I’ll get Jon another.”)
#iwctw (time travel)#cw: abuse mention#cw: child abuse#autistic damian wayne#autistic damian al ghul#damian wayne#damian al ghul#(Damian Brown in this verse—nope I’m still emotional about that)#superman#clark kent#superbatfam#superdad#my writing#mine#//#Clark accidentally buying Damian one of the same toys his family gave him and Damian just… shutting down.#He only gets more upset when Clark says Damian doesn’t need to keep it if he doesn’t want it#He wants it! It’s his now you can’t have it back!#(I mean Damian's words are more like ''It's not a big deal; I'll take care of it.'' But the casualness is a bluff to hide how desperate he#is to have that thing. Clark knows Damian well enough by this point to recognize the difference.)#Clark wondering where the hell Damian is stashing those particular gifts because Clark never sees them again after handing them over.#(Damian covets anything that reminds him of his past life; it's the closest he thinks he'll ever be to those people again.)#((When the truth comes out and they all come clean; Clark being approached by a frighteningly serious Dick & 3 kids Clark barely knows#over the course of like a couple weeks; all of whom call him ''Uncle Clark'' and want to thank him for looking after their baby brother.#They were so worried about Damian; about what he might be enduring; about what they couldn't save him from.#Damian's already come so far; sure some of it is the extra memories but a lot of it is care & support.#They really couldn't have asked for anyone better.))
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crybaby-writings · 4 months
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i don't think many of y'all have come to the realization that taiju is also a victim. taiju was also abused and mistreated. "but he hit his siblings, that's child abuse!" first of all, he was a child, he's STILL a child when we first meet him in the manga/anime.
children are not born and do not grow up thinking that the only way to react when someone does something "wrong" is to be physically violent to them unless someone was physically violent to them first.
does that mean him hitting his siblings is okay? no, but it does mean that you can't strictly blame his actions on him. often, older siblings are recruited by parents to engage in abuse so that they learn to "punish" their siblings and feel trapped as an extension because they have had an active hand in the mistreatment of their siblings- almost always against their will.
taiju was also neglected by their parent(s) and was forced into a role where he had to act as an adult and behave in a grown-up manner without knowing how to do that because he wasn't a grownup. he was a little boy. does that mean his siblings have to forgive him? of course not. does that mean him trying to redeem himself is futile and he doesn't deserve forgiveness at all? also no.
by trying to redeem himself he's trying to make up for the way he treated his siblings AND the treatment of himself that got them to that stage to begin with. again, that doesn't make what he did right, but it also means that both you as the reader and the characters have to realize and understand the abuse and mistreatment that lead taiju to react that way was not his fault.
you don't have to like him, but you can't blame him for being neglected, abused and mistreated the same as his siblings. you also can't blame him for essentially being groomed into being in charge of physically "punishing" his siblings by being shown that's the only way to "resolve" conflict.
this post was made by a victim of physical, emotional and sexual child abuse 👍
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leafie-draws · 6 months
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♬Don't swallow the cap- The National I think I mentioned this before but a big reason why I am the way I am today is because I wasn't allowed to have any autonomy as a child. I wasn't allowed to have toys, or a favorite color, my own clothes/hairstyle, friends or anything and if I ever spoke up for myself I got punished. I was physically abused by my mom until I started attending school and then I was psychologically/emotionally abused until I ran away as a teenager. I was stalked, harrassed and neglected by my mom, she would shove pills down my throat, she also worked for the school I went to so she was always around. I was constantly in a state of fight or flight mode and I struggled with anxiety, depression and self-harm for most of my life. when I ran away from home it was my last ditch attempt at survival, I had planned it for years, I memorized the routes I would take, what my backup plan was if I got caught and how I'd end my life if I failed. I didn't want to die but I knew I would if I stayed with my mother any longer. I'm eternally thankful for my friends at the time who helped me escape, even though we don't talk anymore I'll always be grateful. I don't think I'd be alive today if it weren't for them and their family supporting and sheltering me back then. I ran away on the night of my 18th birthday so every year I try to reflect on it and see how far I've come: I've since spent the last 15 years discovering myself and figuring out who I am and what I want to be. the healing process has been a long, difficult one and some days are worse than others. I still have a lot of trust issues and holidays are particularly difficult but I'm getting there. I have a nice collection of toys and figurines now, I own over 50 books (most of them I haven't read yet) I'm a full-time artist and working on my 2nd game, I like to cut and dye my hair (green is my go-to) animal crossing gnc is still my favorite game and my list of special interests grows more everyday. phthalo green is my favorite color. my favorite band right now is brad sucks. ghibli movies still make me cry. me and my cat live with my boyfriend in a small apartment, it's cute and I have my own space for my plants and art. his family adores me and they have my art framed in their livingroom. I still miss grandma everyday. dad says he's proud of me. my dream is to visit Japan one day. I'm optimistic about the future.
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rotten-dog-teeth · 9 months
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I'm absolutely brainrotting over how horrific humans are
• We are not bipedal. We are quadrupedal. We forced our bodies out of shape just for the sake of going against god. Our legs are bent out of shape, our hip joints have been forced outwards at unusual angles, our spines - necks and backs - have been contorted into flimsey spring-like structures to support our poorly distributed amalgamation of flesh and bone, pur extremities have been elongated, compressed and re-framed to fit our new whims.
• We manipulated everything. Will said in that episode about the woman abducting yhe kids to try to make a family that as a survival instict, we have to bond with our captors otherwise we're breakfast. That's what we did to literally fucking everything. Animals are naturally scared of us. We think that animals are scared because they are ignorant, but they are scared because they are smarter than us because they see us for what we really are: abominations and monsters. They either get docile and cozy with us to become our companions so we dont kill them or they try to avoid us or hell even fight us but if they havent been domesticated then they're fucking dead meat. And cozying up to us is not a sure fire way of survival. We pick and choose who we domesticate. Dogs and cats, yeah. Rats and pigeons, we kill them or at the very least banish them. And even being domesticated is not a sure fire way of survival. We forcibly change their biology to be dependent on us and then routinely abuse or neglect them, or pit them against eachother, or ignore them, or "accidentally" let them loose to take another domestic's life. We are manipulators. We don't train animals, we manipulate them. We trick them into thinking we're safe, and don't let them realise until it's too late. Humans aren't the top of the foodchain. We're not the apex predator. We're humans. We're fucking horrors. And nothing we could ever come up with in any book, film, show, etc could ever come close to the horrific god-killing creation that is a human "being".
• We have such a comprehensive specrum and magnitude scale of emotion that our brains try to self-destruct to quell it. We feel too much love or care? Our instict is to crush/squeeze it to death. We feel too sad? Our instict is to tear ourselves apart piece by piece or just outright blunt force ourselves into peace.
• We are so fucked up that our brains actively come up with ways to supress, control or just outright kill us. On a high place? Our instict is to jump. See something sharp or hot? Our instict is to grab/touch it. Our brains fabricate fake threats to scare us into submission - phobias, anxiety, etc.
• Our bodies are so viscerally unnatural that we are alienated from every other living thing that we know of. Not one creature has a remotely similar body to us. Our joints are bent in freakish ways, we move unlike any other thing to exist, we communicate in a million different ways in a noise that nothing else can make. We are fucking disgusting.
• Our bodies try to self-destruct to prevent us from continuing to exist. We cannot successfully give birth most of the time without lots of medical help or even being fully split open and physically separated from the foetus by other humans due to our hip to head size ratio. We are the only creature capable of choking because of the development of speech.
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hydesjackiespuddinpop · 2 months
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I love Fiona and Marisol’s friendship. But Katie and Fiona are not friends and I’m glad haha.
Fiona would never be friends with an abuser after her own experience with Bobby. (I see rape as a form of abuse).
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that-ineffable-devil · 3 months
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I...need some input, guys (gn). Some outside perspective.
My mother's husband is in liver failure. Like "added to the transplant list as an emergency" failure. Considering his track record, I don't know how he's making it on the list, but regardless there are rising medical bills.
Now for some VERY simplified backstory:
The Husband: my mother married this man after I was a full grown adult with a kid of my own and I've spent very little time with him. What time I HAVE spent with him has alternated between genial/amusing to "I blocked his prejudiced ass so he'd leave me alone." I haven't spoken to him in over 5 years and generally can't stand him. But I don't want him to die.
The Mother: I only spent the first 7 or 8 years of my life with my mother, and most of those memories are repressed under a thick haze of trauma. We're talking "even the memories I do have aren't in any chronological order and I can't remember how old I was when they happened" kind of repression. My most vivid memories of my mother that don't include physical trauma are when she'd call me (when I was a kid) in the middle of the night, drunk, to either apologize/explain that she wasn't that bad of a mom or yell at me for being spoiled and abandoning her. She claims not to remember these events.
We've tried a few times in my adult life to reconnect, but it always goes sour quite quickly. When I came out to her as trans, she immediately rejected the idea and started sending me "transition regret" videos from YouTube and calling my grandmother to yell at her for supporting me.
I told her off and she stopped that. Ever since, she's pretended like nothing happened and started sending me funny videos as if to bridge the gap she created decades ago, while I've been pushing further away because, at this point, I don't want her in my life at all. I don't want to put in the effort when I know I'll only end up hurt in the end.
But then her husband got sick. And just like when I was a little kid, I feel obligated to be there for her. To hold her hand and support her because, I guess, I don't hate her. I don't like her. I don't even know if I really love her. But I don't hate her, and I DO hate when people are hurting.
Then yesterday, she messages me out of the blue asking me to create a GoFundMe for her husband's medical bills. I haven't read the whole message because I don't know how I'm going to respond yet, but I'm feeling really gross about it. She makes very little money, I know, and I don't think he's worked the entire time they've been married, and I know he doesn't have insurance. Maybe it's a moot point, because I feel like if my grandmother finds out, she'll pressure me into doing it, too, and I have an even harder time telling her no.
So, I guess, tl;dr: My transphobic and emotionally manipulative parent wants me to create a GoFundMe for her dying husband's medical bills for reasons, and I'm not sure I want to since I'm trying to go no contact, but I feel obligated to help her because the man is dying and she's suffering. What do I do here? Am I a horrible person for even hesitating?
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shieldbcund · 6 months
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𝐂𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐲
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lokiinmediasideblog · 8 months
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I used to think the people who call Sylvie "abusive" to Loki over the fact that she's occasionally rude or mean to him were just annoying, but after the D*pp Vs H*ard trial I actively hate them and want to punch them in the face. It's this watering down of what abuse means, that ignores key factors like power imbalances, coercive control, and the honeymoon cycle, that made D*pp trick the entire world into thinking he was the real victim with just a handful of out of context audios of Amber snapping back at him, even though she held no power over him whatsoever. It's this misinformartion about the nature of abuse, that reduces it to aggression in and of itself without contextual factors, that got people on his side, and when someone calls a female character abusive to a male character just for being rude to him THEY'RE HELPING SPREAD THIS KIND OF DISINFORMATION.
If anyone is a long-time follower of mine, you all would know I fucking hate JD for what he did to AH. The trial fucked me up so much and put me into a terrible mental state where and I could not avoid it. I feel like I constantly mention it in some rants. Those annoying as bitches need to shut the fuck up and learn what abuse actually is!
It pisses me off so much when Sylvie gets called abusive over:
Calling Loki "A clown" when they're both under duress and in a shaky alliance. He also broke the Tempad, which could have gotten both of them killed.
Kissing him and them pushing him through a portal because she didn't want him killed and to get him out of the way. This is not "playing with his feelings". Sylvie, like Loki, had goals for revenge for who knows how long! So, I am the kind of person that thinks Loki was justified in killing Laufey, and I also think Sylvie was justified in killing Kang. She should be allowed to have revenge too! I also think that her kiss was sincere on some level, and that her pushing him through the portal shows that she cares about him because she didn't want him harmed.
BECAUSE SHE TELLS HIM TO SHUT UP WHEN SHE IS SCARED AND NERVOUS OVER POTENTIALLY ENCOUNTERING HER NEMESIS. She's scared, ok? She's about to meet the person/being responsible for ruining her entire life! Of course she's going to say mean shit! ! People lash out over smaller things like being stuck in traffic.
None of this is abuse. They were two people under severe duress that had just met. One being threatened/coerced by the TVA into helping them, and the other had been running from the TVA since childhood. They started out on opposing sides just trying to ensure their own survival. Fighting when in opposing sides or shaky alliances is not abuse! It's self-defense and self-preservation! Yet they managed to care about each other in the end.
Loki HAS been abused (or heavily implied) by other characters either emotionally/psychologically or physically e.g. Odin, the Black Order, and the TVA (especially by another VERY popular character he gets shipped with and it gets ignored). I will elaborate if asked to do so.
But NOT by Sylvie. Unsurprisingly, I have seen Sylvie get more flack than Loki's actual abusers.
The same people that think a police interrogation is "therapy" will claim Sylvie's abusive for calling Loki a clown. And it does worry and enrage me sometimes...
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ninamodaffari · 1 year
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He is so tragic I love him; are you opposed to questions in bulk?
How does Yuri feel about being a tiefling now? And/or what types of relationships did he have with the rest of the Doomed Orphans? Does he miss any of them?
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First off: the Doomed Orphans! There were over forty members, but these four were the ones Yuri knew the most.
There was the bugbear Lena who was mostly aloof, not extremely mean to Yuri but hated when he cried. She lost her parents at four to Yuri's seven and felt as though she has it worse.
There was Nikolas, Ismo's muscle. His parents aren't actually dead, he was just given to the Orphanage because they didn't want him, claiming him too violent.
Boris was a sycophant, through and through. Conniving and flamboyant, he would be the Director's eyes and ears to any hint of betrayal, and would often feed Ismo's paranoia. He hated Yuri because Ismo hated Yuri, but mostly kept distance.
Then there was Marcin. Yuri actually got along with him, as Marcin was often bullied for his soft voice and stutter. He would always try and avoid participating in any group punishment leveled on Yuri, and would secretly put extra rations in his pockets. Of all the Orphans, Yuri missed him the most.
Which is good because now he's his aasimar friend's boyfriend!
As for being a tiefling, Yuri LOVES it. He loves the horns he has and the cute red pigmentation, and can't wait until he gets a tail. 👹
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turtle-paced · 1 year
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How much did court know about Cersei and Roberts marriage? The abuse was private, as was the incest, but how much did people know their marriage was awful? Or they didn’t like one another?
I think the lack of closeness and mutual dislike was quite apparent by the time we hit AGoT.
The queen had begun to protest. They had been riding since dawn, everyone was tired and cold, surely they should refresh themselves first. The dead would wait. She had said no more than that; Robert had looked at her, and her twin brother Jaime had taken her quietly by the arm, and she had said no more.
Eddard I, AGoT
The queen raised her voice. "A hundred golden dragons to the man who brings me its skin!"
"A costly pelt," Robert grumbled. "I want no part of this, woman. You can damn well buy your furs with Lannister gold."
The queen regarded him coolly. "I had not thought you so niggardly. The king I'd thought to wed would have laid a wolfskin across my bed before the sun went down."
Robert's face darkened with anger. 
Eddard III, AGoT
Sansa was shocked to see the king on his feet, red of face, reeling. He had a goblet of wine in one hand, and he was drunk as a man could be. "You do not tell me what to do, woman," he screamed at Queen Cersei. "I am king here, do you understand? I rule here, and if I say that I will fight tomorrow, I will fight!"
Sansa II, AGoT
None of this is in private. None of it seems to be a new development. And none of it is going to lead the court to think that these people are at all happy being married to each other.
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msfcatlover · 1 year
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Reverse!Robins Jason wondering what it says about him, that he still wants to look up to Steph even after the Tower fight. That even if Steph is that bad now, Jason still wants to believe his hero is in there somewhere, that she isn’t lost for good, that there’s still something worth saving. Oh, Jason will posture, he’ll bicker, he’ll fight, he’ll give as good as he gets and then some. And at least to the other members of the family, who have worked so hard to make Jason feel safe & supported, Jason can admit RH!Steph scares him, just a little. Just a lot.
But Jason’s not stupid; Steph’s insults & rejection wouldn’t hurt nearly this bad if he didn’t want her to like him. He still wants her to like him.
Jason glowering at himself in the mirror and reminding himself that Jason still loved his birth dad, despite everything the man did. It never made Willis any better either. It never made a difference. Jason wondering if he’s broken or just stupid, to care so much about the people who hurt him. (Jason is very, very wrong on this point, I want to say, but I feel like that’s how he would see it, y’know? Robin!Jason is not any less prone to self-blame as a form of control than anyone else in this family.)
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dmagedgoods · 6 months
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👾? (one for each, or whoever volunteers 💕)
Each ... the main 3, I assume? 😁 Salvadore: Then I'm going to pick his "theme song" this time: Natural by Imagine Dragons. "Nothing ever comes without a consequence or cost, tell me Will the stars align? Will heaven step in? Will it save us from our sin, will it? 'Cause this house of mine stands strong" Struggling with mistakes he made and still staying true to what he believes in. "That's the price you pay Leave behind your heart and cast away Just another product of today Rather be the hunter than the prey" Eneas teachings, and, Salvadore definitely is a hunter, hunting his goals, hunting power, and sometimes people if they are worth it. "'Cause you're a natural A beating heart of stone You gotta be so cold To make it in this world Yeah, you're a natural [...] Took an oath by the blood on my hand, won't break it I can taste it, the end is upon us, I swear Gonna make it I'm gonna make it" Not accepting any fate but changing the world. ~ Eneas:
If I burn by Emilie Autumn It perfectly fits Eneas' teenage years, when the abused, tortured, powerless boy swore revenge while still not being able to free himself from his situation yet. "I could beg a thousand times I could explain I could use rhymes And rhythms meant to catch your eye But I know you won't see I could cry a thousand tears I could appease your secret fears But the louder that I scream The harder your machines close over me [...] I could bargain but I'd lose You'll sell the parts that you don't use Yes, I could beg you to be merciful and set me free I could threaten you with Hell Or I could promise not to tell But the softer I become The harder your machines close over me But I don't care Maybe I'm afraid, but still I swear You could take my life with conscience clear But you should still hear That if I burn You will see the fire in your mind when you sleep And if I rise up in smoke around your eyes you'll know it's me And the rain won't wash away the ashes underneath your nails today Doesn't matter where you go or what you do Cause if I burn, so will you" ~ Rowley: Guns for Hire by Woodkid Especially fitting in my original universe but I don't want to say too much. "Resting on a knife, you heavy souls With all this weight buckling down on you now Don't you drown and float away Not a good time to lose control Right as your marionettes cut their strings and run away You're out of time, make your move Live or die while the fuse is lit and there's no turning back Kiss your perfect day goodbye Because the world is on fire Tuck your innocence goodnight You sold your friends like guns for hire Go play with your blocks And now you'll pay when these walls come tumbling down Oh, they're tumbling down" But it strongly fits his views in any case, his cynicism and bitterness after he lost his brother and how he makes those pay who are responsible and sets their world on fire.
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a-student-out-of-time · 9 months
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Anon doesn't think you're "biased" at all. In fact, anon is beginning to hate that word. There should be MORE people like you, who actually call a spade a spade, or in this case a manipulator a manipulator. Fandom culture is absolutely flooded with people who make excuses for every kind of terrible behavior under the sun. The Once Upon a Time fandom keeps making excuses for Regina outright RAPING a man, for example. There should be more people like you willing to Tell People the Truth.
//Timeline Anon and I recently watched a review about Colleen Hoover's November 9. It's the story of Fallon, a girl who had to retire from acting because she was in a house fire, and Ben, an amateur writer who decides he wants to date her on the day they meet, but she's moving to New York. Thus, they decide to meet up every Nov. 9 for the next 5 years.
//Fallon's an okay character for most of the book, while Ben is a neckbeard incel "M'lady"-type creeper who keeps invading her privacy and talking about her panties as if it's supposed to be charming. He's essentially one of those anime perverts played completely straight.
//And it turns out, not only was Ben the one responsible for the fire that scarred Fallon- an act of revenge arson because he thought Fallon's father was the reason his mother died- but he's known about this for years and she doesn't find out until year five. She gets a restraining order as soon as she does.
//Then he sends her a manuscript that explains his backstory, though it's more of a confession/desperate sob story to try and get her to take him back. And what does Fallon do after receiving this confirmation about the guy that physically and emotionally scarred her for life, is creepily obsessed with her despite barely knowing her and has made her life much harder than it needed to be?
//Oh, she takes him back and apologizes for leaving him, since his life was sad and that's what really matters. A moment that actually made me scream with anger when I heard it.
//This, Twilight, 50 Shades, and especially Anna Todd's After, all are the worst examples of this kind of glorification and apologism toward abusers, manipulators, and actual criminals. Their terrible behavior is always excused and their actions are never their fault because they had hard childhoods. You know, never mind all the trauma they put other people through.
//I absolutely hate these books and the messages they push, which I'm honestly sure are unintentional because these are framed either as heartfelt romances or dramas you're meant to get invested in. Except I don't care because everyone involved is a terrible person, and the people involved cannot tell compelling stories to save their lives
//I have no patience for these stories or any others that carelessly utilize incredibly toxic behavior for the sake of drama with no consequence or repercussions. I have less patience for people who do this shit IRL.
//No amount of past trauma or sob stories will ever make hurting people okay.
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loganwritesprobably · 3 months
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MCU Fanfic
Genre: Fluff? I guess? Character: Loki Laufeyson Reader: Non-binary, they/them, queer
Request?: Yes Prompt: "I've seen scary and you sir are not it. You don't have his smile."
Warnings: Implications of past abuse to reader
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