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grassyhorizon45 · 27 days

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Remus Lupin x DiD!Reader :D The marauders meet Y/n properly for the first time and she switches out mid-convo :(

Warnings: Jilly, uhh nothing else I don't think :>

Word count: 552

a/n: feel free to rename Y/n's other personality ya

(edit: part 2)

“Met the new kid today, absolute weirdo,” James shrugged. Lily elbowed him in the ribs, gaining an exaggerated “ow!!” from him. “If I judged you that way I wouldn't be here, you fudgehead.”

Sirius chuckled. “Lily's right Prongs. What's so weird about this new girl anyways?”

Remus listened intently.

“She's super quiet, jittery…..And the weirdest bit is the rumors circulating about her–”

Remus perked up, “You mean that she never had a sorting ceremony?”

“I heard one moment she's Slytherin, and the next she's rocking our red and gold uniform,” James added.

“Is that even possible?” Sirius wondered. Lily shrugged, “Maybe, if Dumbledore had something to do with it.”

Sirius whistled all of a sudden, drawing their attention to him. “Speaking of which…” He mumbled in a hushed voice, eyes diverting to the small sized girl that had just entered the common room.

Remus stood up, his mind was on autopilot, focused on greeting this beautiful new girl.

She really wanted to make friends, something the rest of the system disagreed with. She sighed, wondering why Dumbledore had made her uniform ‘change houses’ everytime they switched causing so many rumors about them to circulate. Sure it made them feel like they could each be their very own person, but technically speaking they weren't, and they never will be.

A guy approached her when she entered the Gryffindor common room. He had lovely brown eyes and a scar on his face.

“Hi. You’re new here right?” He extended his hand to her. She shook it timidly, nodding.

He smiled warmly, “I'm Remus, Remus Lupin. And you are?”

She heard his friends snickering from a couch near the fireplace. She hesitated, “I- I’m Y/n.”

“Nice to meet you, Y/n. Welcome to Gryffindor.”

She smiled back. This guy was nice.

The both of them stood there awkwardly.

“Er… Would you like to hang out with us?” Remus offered.

This caught her off guard a bit. “S-Sure! Only if your friends are okay with it though…”

He laughed, “They'll be fine.”

“Guys, this is Y/n. Y/n, meet–” He inhaled, “Potter, Evans, Black and Pettigrew.”

I don’t think I can remember all that—

“Hi…” She smiled shyly.

In an instant, Y/n felt herself get pulled away, her vision blurred and her thoughts got all fuzzy……

She was dissociating.

Remus knew it seemed a bit rude but when Y/n flinched and then zoned out all of a sudden in the weirdest way possible, Remus found himself waving a hand in front of her eyes.

“You all good?” Lily asked, voicing everyone’s concern.

She gained awareness and muttered, “Yeah. Great… Who the heck are you people again?”

The Marauders exchanged quick glances before Sirius spoke up, “Remus just introduced us. D’ you have short term memory loss, Y/n?”

She put a hand behind her neck. “Amnesia, something like that.”

Qi didn’t like these people already. Y/n was making friends, sure… That didn’t mean she had to like it…… or them.

She got up and stretched. “I’m gonna go,” she paused. “The name’s Qi by the way. Not Y/n.”

“Told you she’s a weirdo,” James mumbled after she’d left. Lily sighed at her boyfriend’s crazy remarks.

Remus on the other hand couldn’t wait to talk to the curious girl again.

#its James again hahahahaha #jilly #james x lily #the marauders #marauders #hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry #fanfic #james potter #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders era #lily evans #remus x reader #remus x you #remus x y/n #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd #did system #did alter

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loveofastarvingdog · 5 months

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thinking through an oil spill — timothy l.l.s.h.

my poetry tag list (ask to be added or removed @gracekisses @callcenterkilljoy @icantleave @hauntedpearl @chaosnatural @raytoroinmybackpack @carveredlund @pinknatural @deanwinchestersfloralwallpaper @obsessionofspn @destielgaysex @faithdeans @heartshapedcas @howldean @redwinesupernova @cosmosinfinity23 @impala67-aka-baby @samsrowena @aturnoftheearth @themichaelvan @casbeeminestiel @notreallyaroad @heartshapedvows @frogstiel @magdaclaire @agonynatural @superhell @saintedcastiel @honkytonkdyke @how-the-feathers-have-fallen @pitgirlsummer @dyketank @raspberryfemme @patchesofwork @wolfinmyribcage

also, i'm not sure about the screen-reader friendliness of my image description. if anyone knows whether or not i should remove the extra spacing and paragraphs, please let me know

#timothy's txts.#poetim #timothy l.l.s.h.#this one is about. brain fog and dissociation and how it's so hard to think sometimes #but it doesn't always show up as a mud wall you're trying to walk through #sometimes it's all glitter #using my little break from school to finally post this one. it's a favourite of mine especially 'cause it's not my usual style #also w the balloon animal twisting itself... i guess i have a theme 😔✌️#tw emoji

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huntingsys · 1 year

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waking up and realising i’m the one who has to front for school

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minimallycreative · 1 year

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reading old shitty poetry from middle school is so funny because half of them are about "i don't know who i am" and "i am not a person" and shit like that.

the audacity that i had to be surprised to discover the system.

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c-0-yote-teeth · 9 months

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I know my posts on here are mostly mental health related or memes or both but I just gotta get this out. My daughter is six years old. Her open house for kindergarten is today. My mom died in November last year, and every time I think I'm doing better, I end up in a situation that makes me think "I need to call my mom." And every single time I have the earth shattering realization, again, that I can't do that anymore.

It's just... I thought she would still be around for all this. I thought I'd be able to send her pictures of the first day of school, and graduations, and plays and performances and.... I don't know. It just... Hurts.

#actually dissociative #did #dissociation #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #osdd #did system #traumagenic did #traumagenic osdd #trauma #tw dead parent #parental death tw #parenting #mental health #school #open house

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grymmdark · 2 months

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i need to get the fuck outta highschool so badly but i still got like half a year leftttttt and a fucking summer class

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #i just need to survive until like halfway thru july #but it's really fuckin hard #especially when i have cptsd caused by school which usually just means im mildly dissociating but sometimes can be full on meltdowns

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aftgficrec · 7 months

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Hey! I love your page and getting fic recs! Do you have any fics where Neil goes or agrees to go to therapy? I’m good with Bee or someone else as the therapist too. It can be canon or an au. Thanks so much! :))

I was pleasantly surprised by how much we found for you! -A

previous recs:

‘another life to live’ here

‘Oakland’ here (completed)

‘you’ve been locked in here forever (and you just can’t say goodbye)’ here (updated)

‘If it means protecting you (I’ll pay my dues)’ here (updated)

‘Interlaced’ here (updated)

‘Regrowth,’ ‘To Be Close With You Is To Be Close With Myself,’ ‘I took a breath and took the knife,’ and ‘flashes of intimacy’ ch 4 here

‘call me in the afternoon’ here

‘The Wild Fox Den’ and ‘Roses Grow Between Bone’ here

‘(My Heart) Pierced By a Pin’ here (completed)

‘The Sun Still Rises’ here (updated)

‘day by day’ here

‘the shuffling of cards’ here

‘Ain’t it fun’ here

‘Breathe, idiot’ here

‘Healing’ series part 1 here, part 3 here (completed)

‘The Fear of Being Known’ here

‘That one party’ series and ‘keep telling me that it gets better (does it ever?)’ here

‘Affection can be shown in so many ways’ here

‘Ghost of You’ here

‘Make This Leap (Geronimo)’ here

‘Tenuous’ here

‘There is Nothing You Can Say’ here (completed)

‘of ice blue eyes & twisted veins’ here

‘don't break the glass’ (completed) here

‘Bad Apple’ here

‘Phantom Pains’ here

‘Therapy’ here

‘Birds of a Feather’ here (updated)

‘In which Neil had Aspergers and Andrew finds out.’ here

‘For You I'd Bleed Myself Dry’ here (updated)

‘I Wanna Get Better’ here

‘on the tip of my tongue (say something)’ parts 6 & 8 here

and more:

‘Ember’ here (completed)

‘leave the room (with a little dignity)’ here

‘Art Hoe’ here

‘Blame It On My Youth’ here (updated)

‘Black as is the Raven, He’ll Get a Partner’ (here)

‘Our body’ series, part 1 here, part 3 here, part 5 here

‘and all the roads will disappear’ here

‘crossed out’ here

‘Double Trouble’ series here

‘i had a dream (where you couldn't hear me screaming)’ and ‘hold me close, in fact bury me’ here

‘Just closed eyes with nothing behind’ here

‘doubt thou the stars be fire’ here

‘SCAR TISSUE’ here

‘Lighter Fluid’ here

you may also like:

‘The Sound’ here

historians by cielalune [Rated M, 21508 Words, Complete, 2023]

He remembers when she didn’t smell of ash, but perfume. The times they’d play the radio to fill the quiet of the car, and she’d hum along. How she never missed a single exy practice, and cheered for him each time. She wasn’t all too different from Cass in the end. Just because she was dead didn’t mean she was buried. Five times Neil tries to come to closure about the person Mary Hatford was, and the one time he accepts who she came to be.

tw: heavily referenced child abuse, tw: heavily referenced rape/noncon, tw: heavily referenced csa, tw: heavily referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: sleep paralysis, tw: depressive episode, tw: flashbacks with blood & gore, tw: panic attacks, tw: dissociation, tw: victim blaming

Mommy Dearest by chronically_peach [Rated G, 915 Words, Complete, 2022]

Neil doesn’t talk about his mother much but Andrew knows it’s a touchy subject for the redhead. After a session with Betsy Neil admits he’s been thinking about his mother and allows Andrew a glimpse into who Mary Hatford really was.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse

Pain of a Forgotten Face series by Rose_vine [Collection, 2 complete works, Updated 2021]

Part 1: Pain of a Forgotten Face [M, 3086 Words] Neil Josten is awoken by a face in his nightmares from twelve years ago, a face he barely remembers. When he tries to brush it off and go to practice, he realizes too late that some memories refuse to let themselves be forgotten.

tw: ptsd, tw: panic attacks, tw: nightmares, tw: hallucinations, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced murder, tw: blood/gore

Part 2: A Hand to Hold Me Back From The Cliff [Not Rated, 2132 Words] After Neil collapses on the court from a flashback from when he was younger, Andrew convinces him to go to therapy. This is his first session with Bee, and it is only Andrew at his side that gives him the strength to walk through the door.

tw: ptsd, tw: implied/referenced child abuse

After the Beep by kanekei [Rated T, 1030 Words, Incomplete, Updated Sept 2023]

Neil works through his relationship with his dead mother by leaving her voice messages that she'll never hear. It’s healthy, Bee says. He can’t help but think having the Minyards as patients has skewed her perception of what that word means. The number you have reached is not available. Please leave your message after the beep.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced murder, tw: implied/referenced violence

The Foxes by akaashisramen [Not Rated, 3386 Words, Incomplete, Updated July 2023]

Trans Neil is on the run from his father and goes to his uncles house. His uncle promises him protection and allows him to play Exy as long as he goes to group therapy to process his mothers death.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: graphic nightmares, tw: implied/referenced torture

someday, we'll grow by nopunintended [Rated G, 2078 Words, Complete, 2021]

Andrew and Neil see Betsy for a couple's therapy session per Andrew's request.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse

Couples Therapy by P0tatonoah [Rated T, 2014 Words, Complete 2020]

I got a lot of comments (like 3 or 4) on my breakup fic asking for a part 2 where Neil and Andrew patch things up and live happily ever after… This is not it. But you can read it as an alternative ending if you want.

tw: implied/referenced nonconsensual touch, tw: implied/referenced violence

NB: find P0tatonoah’s andreil break up fic ‘Home...?’ here

They sicken of the calm, they who know the storm by EdgySpaghetti [Not Rated, 3162 Words, Complete, 2023]

After storm there always comes the sun. People born into the storm, who growing up sees only black clouds and lightnings striking everywhere, just learn how to live with it, how to protect themselves from cold, wind and rain. They recognize the pattern, know that lightning will struck sooner or later and are prepared for it. What are those people to do when there is no more dark clouds? They don't know how to live in this environment, how to dress to not get too hot and how to prevent potential sunburnt. They never had to do that before. They're still expecting the lightnings.

tw: ptsd, tw: anxiety, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: anger issues

Can I finally stop running now? by gracefromspace [Rated T, 12110 Words, Complete, 2023]

Neil is intrigued by a blonde baker with piercings, two therapy cats and strong arms.

tw: heavily referenced torture, tw: flashbacks with blood/gore, tw: implied/referenced murder, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: anxiety, tw: negative self image

can't blame it on my youth by PoolToast22 [Rated G, 2650 Words, Complete, 2022]

The one where Neil Josten is Fine TM. But he's also in therapy. And today Bee decided to ask him that question.

hold on to happiness by minyarday [Rated T, 551 Words, Complete, 2020]

"self esteem had never been something Neil cared about. when you are a runaway that don't even have a place to call home, you learn to prioritize certain things and forget others" only that now he has the time to think about it

I'll Come Back To You by mostly_maudlin [Rated T, 6900 Words, Complete, 2022]

Some of the things he’s learned today feel like stories about someone else: Neil switched to playing striker at a tiny high school in Arizona. Aaron lives in Chicago with his wife. Andrew’s cousin calls Neil every Tuesday, because Andrew is too stubborn to pick up the phone himself. But other things are clear truths, even if they’re more abstract: Neil’s mother died. Andrew is safe. Neil was supposed to stay, but part of him is gone. - - - - It's about dreams, reality, trust, patience, and determination. It's about making promises and keeping them. You'll figure out the rest.

tw: car accidents, tw: major character injury, tw: implied/referenced violence

I will help you swim by unojonex [Rated E, 11699 Words, Incomplete, Updated Oct 2022]

He’s slowed down, stayed in one place for more than a few months and it's all caught up with him. In his sleep, ghosts of his past haunt him. And they have no mercy. Dreams and imagination swirl together in a confusing mix of nightmares that don't go away, even when he's awake. -- basically Neil and Andrew getting together while also dealing with a lot of trauma

tw: ptsd, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: implied/refererenced torture, tw: heavily referenced child abuse, tw: suicide ideation, tw: graphic nightmares with blood/gore, tw: dissociation, tw: hallucinations, tw: panic attacks

But Touch My Tears with Your Lips by transjorts [Rated M, 4070 Words, Complete, AFTG Mixtape Exchange 2022]

Andrew is sitting across from him, expression neutral, fork in hand. He’d dragged the tinnes across the plate—purposefully, if Neil had to guess. Andrew has already cut the burrito up into tiny pieces and spears one morsel on the fork, lifting it to his mouth. “Hi,” Neil says. Andrew chews, very deliberately. “Do you feel better?” Neil frowns. “What?” Andrew eats another bite. “Did all that running make you feel better?” Neil sighs and glances down, noticing that his water has been refilled. He takes a sip. “No.”

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced sexual assault, tw: nightmares, tw: dissociation

let's just sit awhile by artiest [Rated M, 17291 Words, Complete. 2022]

Neil and Andrew don't have to keep fighting for their survival. They can settle now. It's hard, but they're trying. OR: During Neil's second year in Palmetto State, him and Andrew learn to take care of each other.

tw: severe mental health issues, tw: ptsd, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: nightmares with blood/gore, tw: flashbacks, tw: dissociation, tw: violence, tw: homophobia, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: vomit, tw: alcohol abuse/alcholism

I could never give you peace by freshtaylorswiftduck [Rated T, 3407 Words, Complete. 2022]

Neil has both bad and good days. Today is a bad day.

tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: panic attacks

10 tips to stress less, without the tips by lumos_max [Rated T, 5404 Words, Complete, AFTG Exchange Fall 2020]

A lonely Neil lets his therapist bully him into checking out the clinic's support group without too much fuss, but little did he know he wouldn't be checking out the group that day, instead meeting a dramatic hunk of a man who drives a fancy car and forgets to wipe the cream off the corner of his lip. It's only fair that Neil tries to do it for him, right?

tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: implied/referenced child abuse

“God, I have my father’s eyes.” by perks_of_being_a_writer [Rated T, 673 Words, Complete, 2022]

This is based on Family Line by Conan Gray. In this short story, Neil is at a therapy appointment where he and Betsy dive into his parental issues. This covers Neil’s abuse from both parents (because, yes, Mary was abusive and a bad mother). This is Neil learning that it's not his fault his parents hurt him and accepting that he is loved.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse

"There's blood on my/your hands." by markonasurface (idwir) [Rated T, 4667 Words, Complete, 2018]

The year after his 19th birthday, the other team decides to recreate the bloody locker scene complete with a ‘Happy Birthday, Jr.’ Instead of stuffing everything down, Neil has a complete freak out and sinks into a depression.

tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: blood, tw: panic attacks, tw: ptsd, tw: major depressive episode, tw: homophobia, tw: disordered eating, tw: vomit

Nothing is Safe series by hismiley16 [Rated T/M/E, Collection, 7 complete works, Updated July 2023]

Parts 3 and 7 recced here

Part 4: Written On His Skin [Not Rated, 11344 Words] The Foxes face the Ravens for the first time since Riko's death and things go as well as expected. Andrew is mildly injured on the court and isn't there to protect Neil when the new Evermore captain comes for him after the game. The team sees more than Neil ever wanted them to, including the ghost of Nathaniel he thought he'd buried in Baltimore.

tw: vomit, tw: bullying, tw: nonconsensual touch/assault tw: dissociation, tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: blood, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced murder, tw: implied/referenced animal death, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon

The Josten Anxiety Method by orphan_account [Rated M, 1721 Words, Complete, 2022]

Neil talks to Bee about his anxiety.

tw: anxiety, tw: hallucinations, tw: dissociation, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced abuse

Looking in the Mirror Never Felt so Good by Trimorphia [Rated T, 8693 Words, Complete, 2023]

Neil Josten's journey to becoming a real person.

tw: nightmares, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced abuse

Achilles Come Down by infernalstars [Rated M, 5017 Words, Complete, 2020]

Neil Josten was a liar before he was anything else. In the nest, sometimes his choices were between lying and dying. He’d had a decent amount of self preservation that he’d chosen the former. But now, being free, the world felt so heavy. He wished he’d chosen dying.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: graphic suicide attempt, tw: self harm, tw: blood, tw: eating disorders focus, tw: ptsd, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: vomit, tw: depression

prompt: Neil x therapy bullet fic by @sadboyayeron [Tumblr, 2020]

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strawberryvent9 · 5 months

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Not dead, just gone. Never awake

My mind covers my ears, my eyes, I cannot feel my fingers.

I move on my own, I'm still not here.

And as I walk back home after a long day, my body still feels unreal.

I shout and cry, I cower away, I hide,

I never stay

...I'll never heal.

#vent post #depressao #depressão #desabafo #personal vent #poem #(?)#tw self destructive thoughts #dissociation #dissociating at school #school sucks #school vent

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cherrysnax · 15 days

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havin the weirdest crisis of my life

#this is like. did related so im gonna sound completely uh #what’s the word. odd and shit for a sec okay? okay #so I’ve been here. hi im cheri silver yknow me for about 20 years total but jay used to front for years when we were in middle school #im not the. original host I guess but I’ve been around since #we were in the early single digits and never left #so im the host right? I existed to go thru the Trauma #but. it’s been my life for so long. my parents don’t know Her #they’ve only known me #but like. we’re finally starting to let go of that trauma #errr not let go but make peace with it. and we’ve been holding onto it for so long. I’ve been holding on to it for so long #but.. who am I without it? like yes that’s my trauma but also. is my purpose over?? is that why we haven’t been able to draw?#I’ve been the host for 20 years this is my life #my friends my gf my life my hobbies it’s mine not anyone else’s #I let others take the wheel when I can’t (or they forcibly do it for me) and jays been gone for like 3 years he only came back because I’ve #been being traumatized everyday recently. but like. will I have to go too??#reintergration is not really our goal. never has been but like #if we do. will I be here or will She come back? we’ve had false alarms before but it’s mostly been decided that it’s my front my life #maybe im just triggered all the time and that’s why I feel extra out of it #less myself #New Traumas are happening to us everyday #but yeah. I dont talk abt this aspect of my life much but it’s so scary to think about #I’ll talk to Chevy when they get off of work tomorrow abt it if it’s still like. freaking me out #I am me. we are a bunch of niggas but I am me.#did niggas when the identity disorder makes them dissociate smh #😫

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phosphophylight-of-my-life · 2 years

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omniscient reader really said "his superpower is dissociating 24/7"

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #when i reached the part w his high school bully and he became useless for a while bc it suddenly hit him that it was reality #i was just like. oh god. his superpower is dissociating. dissociation being useful.#tbf its an apocalypse so that's to be expected #amazing how he still has the drive to go on tho. he has so much more motivation than most people?

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fqirycollective · 2 years

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Tips for School as a System

With school time rolling around again (in about a month for us), we've decided it'd be a good idea to offer tips that help us to keep our grades up in school. Obviously every school and system is different, but these things definitely helped us last school year!

1. Before school even starts, we try to get gender neutral colored notebooks, as well as a variety of textures for pencils. The neutral colors may come in handy if a little fronts and has an issue with "gendered" things and the pencil textures help when dissociating. We've also recently been trying to decide a name to go by and pronouns to use, but since our host came out as nonbinary on our personal account for everyone to see, it seems like they chose for us. /lh Some suggestions would be your collective pronouns (aux pronouns if possible if you use neopronouns, as the school may not be accepting) and the collective name you use.

2. Try to get your schedule beforehand and try to familiarize yourself with your classes and where they are. If your school offers an open house, this could be a perfect opprutunity. Our school does this, but they also keep all the similar classes in the same hallways, which means if we know anything about where our classes were last year, we could figure out where our classes are based on subject. We also tend to have a second nature thing where we go to where our next class is naturally, which could be something others experience. We try to use this natural memory for remembering where classes are, and for our music classes because our rhythms are all the same.

3. We keep our phone in our laptop case with a sensory item, pencils, and other important things like led and earbuds. Things like notebooks, calculators, folders, etc. go into our big binder in case an alter fronts and doesn't know where our locker is/the combination but knows where our next class is (due to the reasons I previously said). This way we can keep what is definitely needed with us.

4. Speaking of supplies, we carry a waterbottle around with us. When we get too dissociated but can't go to the bathroom for cold water, we pour a little on our hands then rub them together to create the friction and an even bigger temperature difference. We also keep things like a rubber band on our wrist for the pain aspect mentioned in the dissociation help post as well as a sour candy in our locker/laptop case in case we need extra help and need to bring another sense back to help ground.

5. Most of our teachers allow(ed) us to use notes during quizzes and tests. Because they didn't see these notes, we took as many as we could and translated them into easier to read handwriting at home while filtering out what was and wasn't needed. Especially in things like our science and math subjects, we included examples of what to do and common mistakes that were made.

6. However not all our teachers allowed us to do that. Instead, we'd still take all the notes we could and translate them, but we'd spend hours reviewing them and hope that for quizzes and tests, the knowledge becomes like a second nature. Luckily we only had two classes like that: Choir (we have an alter specifically for those tests who somehow knows all our music) and Spanish (which we already know quite a bit of but aren't fluent in, so it's not as bad).

7. Unfortunately, triggers at school do exist. We try to avoid them as much as we can, but that's not always possible, especially in classes like English and history where triggering things are a part of everday conversations. To combat this, we've decided that if we know about the lesson plan in advance (most of our teachers tell us at the beginning of the week), we can try to plan a switch for alters more capable of handling it. It doesn't always work, especially since we don't have amazing communication, but it does to an extent.

8. We keep a planner. This helps us keep on top of projects, assignments, appointments, etc. which is hard enough with ADHD, but even harder when you don't even remember being told about it. We also have a color system for if things get done. If they're done, they get crossed off. If they're started but not done, they get orange highlighter. And if they haven't been started (for whatever reason), they get pink highlighter. This helps us know what the most urgent things that need to be done are.

#did system #osdd system #osdd #did alter #did osdd #dissociative system #osdd community #osdd support #osdd things #dissociation #dissociative alters #school #school tips #school time

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grassyhorizon45 · 25 days

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Huh??

Part 2 of Who? as per @peachesgaeass's request :D

Remus x DiD!Reader microfic where Y/n has DiD and Remus develops feelings for her :>

Warnings: none :3

Word count: 674

He never got a wave back whenever waved to her in the halls, nor reply when saying hi as she passed. Sirius looked at Remus with pity. He felt bad for him, Remy was just trying to be friendly.

Remus was walking to class one day when someone tapped his shoulder from behind. He turned to face the very person that had ignored him the past few days.

“Hi! Remember me?” She smiled brightly at him

“Hi… Qi,” Remus mumbled, not wanting to give himself false hope.

“I'm not Qi… It's me, Y/n,” Y/n stuck out her tongue adorably awkwardly.

He really felt like asking her about the weird name switching but he couldn't bring himself to do it.

“Oh. Sorry Y/n… I uh–”

“Could you possibly show me the way to potions class? You see, I tend to get lost easily……”

Wasn't Y/n at potions class yesterday? Maybe…Maybe she did have amnesia.

Y/n tilted her head at him, “You okay Remus?”

“H-Huh, yeah– I zoned out, sorry…”

She giggled, “Happens to me all the time. No worries.”

The two talked for a bit as they walked, getting to know each other better. Then the question came out of nowhere……

“Y/n, would you like to go on a date with me?” Remus asked, feeling blush creep up to his ears.

“A date?”

“Y-Yeah,” he fidgeted with the hem of his robe, avoiding eye contact. “Th-Think about it, yeah?” He added as the door to the potions classroom opened for them.

Y/n just stood there, processing what Remus had just said.

Remus hurried into class and sat down next to the others round back, escaping the awkward moment he'd caused.

“What took you Moons? Slughorn's ‘bout to start,” said James who was smirking at him.

“Lost track of time is all…” Remus muttered, staring at his potions book as if it was the most important thing in the world.

“Riiiiight,” Sirius said, putting an arm around Remus’ shoulders. “Then why all this blushing Moony? Hmm??”

Remus knew he couldn't hide his little crush from them for long, so he was grateful when Sirius somehow let the topic slide.

Not long after Professor Slughorn started his lecture, the door opened and Y/n entered. Wait, that can't be Y/n right? Why's she suddenly wearing Slytherin robes?? Wasn't she with me a second ago? I could've sworn she was wearing red……

The professor stopped his lecture. “Qi! Just the person I was thinking about. Come here. Could you please tell us what this potion here is—”

Remus watched as she answered every question with flying colors and wondered how he'd plucked up the courage to ask someone as smart and lovely as Y/n– (Qi?) out. Well, that's if she says yes of course…

“Whatcha starin’ at Rem?” James’ voice cut through his long winded thoughts.

“Amortentia,” Remus lied. “Wondering what I'll smell.”

Sirius gave him a glare, one he couldn't really decipher. James didn't spot the lie and went on about what he thought Lily would smell like but Remus, though relieved, couldn't shake the look Sirius had given him from his mind.

“You really like her?”

Sirius had taken him aside after class. Remus gulped, “I-I do.”

“R-Right, okay,” Sirius sighed. “Just take care of yourself okay? I don't want your feelings getting played.”

He nodded, “I won't. Thanks Pads.”

Remus was deep in thought as he walked towards his next class of the day…

“Remus! Hi- Hi…”

“Huh?” He turned to face whoever had called him. “Y/n? Why are you in Gryffindor robes– Didn't I see you wearing Slytherin ones in class?” Remus blurted, not wanting to leave this mystery for his brain to solve.

“Er– Right, you must’ve saw someone else— Oh! I would love to go on that with you by the way,” she beamed.

“Really?” Remus smiled back, the uniform thing slipping his mind.

“Mhm.”

“G-Great!” He felt himself fill up with joy, “Meet you in the astronomy tower at seven?”

“Okies.”

a/n: Is Sirius jealous? :>

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