#i 100% want to do this when i come out

[transannabeth]

btw if you borrow dvds or cds from library you can rip them onto your own blanks or onto your hard drive or whatever. librarians don’t care and they won’t know if you do it or not

#not pjo #chitter chatter #library tag #when I was training as a page one librarian was showing us the music section #and was like people come in and take out a bunch of cds and rip them onto their phones and return them the next day #it’s materials moving in and out baby that’s all that matters #get yourself a library card #(not all libraries have a music and dvd/bluray section but it’s worth checking!) #(and get a library card even if you don’t use it) #(but check out your local library to see what they do offer bc there’s lots of programs and other things too) #(not every public library is perfect but you can help influence it to make it the space you want) #100

[mimimar]

finally completed my comic based on the song ivy by taylor swift!✿ please zoom in to read the text and see the details~

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you can get the digital zine pdf here! it includes extras like character profiles, costume design, more art of willow and ivy, zine-exclusive sketches and an illustrated guide to the symbolism of all the flowers in this comic.

you can also get prints of individual pages here!

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#ivy comic #it's finally complete!!!♡ this was the longest project ever but i really wanted to do my best on every spread #i also worked really hard on the extra pages for the zine. i hope you like those as well if you decide to get it! #i've been wanting to make this comic since evermore came out in 2020 and i listened to ivy for the first time #i posted the first sketches from this comic on my patreon in 2022 and released the first page last year in 2023 #so it's been a loooong time coming working on this in between other art #i was always disappointed that i got a hand injury back when i was making my dorothea/'tis the damn season comic #so i couldn't give my 100% on every page of that one. that's part of why i wanted to go all out for my ivy comic #and it has a happy ending this time!♡ #thank you for sticking around if you've been reading since page 1 #and thank you also if you just read it for the first time today! #also i didn't plan it but i coincidentally finished this comic exactly on lesbian visibility week. love that #ivy comic mimimar #oc #ivy #willow #taylor swift #taylor swift ivy #ivy taylor swift #evermore #illustration #illo #comic #lesbian #wlw #sapphic #lesbian visibility week #lesbian art #wlw art #sapphic art

[afewproblems]

Give me Steve, Eddie, and Robin at a bar on a Friday night.

They've had a few drinks, and a shot or two when a song comes on, and Steve immediately jumps to his feet with an, "Oh shit!!"

It's Madonna's Get Into the Groove and for a moment Robin and Eddie think Steve is in pain, that he hates the song as is going to ask the DJ to change it.

Except Steve waltzes onto the dance floor, right into the center.

There aren't too many others dancing, it's early still, barely nine in the evening but the spot lights are on and the DJ flicks on the multicolor strobe as Steve parks himself on the dance floor.

Robin laughs and wishes she had brought the disposable camera instead of leaving it in her junk drawer at home.

Eddie meanwhile rolls his eyes, and pretends not to notice the tightness of Steve's jeans or how the light catches the flecks of gold in his hair and eyes.

He's been attempting to hide his pathetic little crush for awhile now, complaining to Robin every chance he gets when Steve does something particularly charming or handsome.

She tells him, as sagely as she can muster, to grow a pair and do something about it already.

But how can he, Steve was, well, Steve...lovely caring, hot as hell, Steve.

What chance did Eddie have?

So he sits there, miserable, nursing his beer, letting his eyes trail after Steve while Robin giggles beside him.

They've never seen him dance, it's bar, they're drunk, the worst that could happen is he makes an ass out of himself and they all go home with a great new story to tell the party later.

God Robin really wishes she brought her camera with her.

But then Steve is moving and he's fluid, never missing a beat. It's some kind of choreography, intentional and practiced movements that wouldn't be out of place in a music video. Eddie and Robin look at each other because, what the fuck, where did this come from??

And people are cheering and whooping, strangers scattered here and there sitting off of the dance floor. There's a sense of comradery, like they're all witness to something and being allowed to share and indulge in this little impromptu performance, but all too soon the song is over and Steve heads back to his seat with a small round of applause and a blinding smile pulling at his flushed cheeks.

"Steve, what the fuck was that??" Robin blurts out before Steve can even sit. Eddie nods, a little dazed, beside her and tears at the paper label on his beer bottle, maybe if he can keep his hands occupied he can keep them to himself.

"What was what?" Steve breathes out as he hops onto the stool beside them, Robin in the middle.

Robin's mouth falls open as her face scrunches into something exasperated but fond, "What was--that! The dancing!"

"Oh, that," Steve huffs with a lazy smile, he leans his elbow on the sticky wood bar and waves at the bartender to signal for another gin and tonic, "I used to help Carol with her choreography for cheer".

Eddie pinches his thigh below the bartop and chews the inside of his cheek as the image of Steve in the Hawkins High cheer uniform begins to solidify in his minds eye, fuck.

Robin elbows Eddie without looking, somehow reading his mind, and throws her hands out, beckoning Steve to continue because that isn't nearly enough information.

"Yeah, she'd come up with routines and you know, they are meant to be done with more than one person, and I mean she and I were friends before Tommy so," he shrugs and smiles at the bartender as they pass him the drink, "I dunno, it was fun, and I remember that one the most".

"Plus," he says with a smirk, "Carol always said the best thing about dance is that you can tell who appreciates the performance and who appreciates the person doing it," he winks as Robin scoffs and calls him gross, but Steve isn't looking at Robin.

Eddie swallows as molten heat creeps up his neck and over his ears, the urge to hide his face, run for the door, melt into the floor, is immense.

But Steve doesn't move his gaze, he smiles softly at Eddie and winks again over Robin's head which she promptly drops into her hands.

"I'm surrounded by horny idiots," she grumbles but the words are muffled in the din of the bar and her own hands as Steve tips his head back to the dance floor and holds out his hand for Eddie to take.

#im pretending this song came out in 1981 or 82 when they were still friends #dont come for me #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #steve x eddie #robin is fed up with all this pining #i 100% want steve and carol to be the childhood besties #tommy came after and he and steve were good friends but maybe tommy is the reason why they stopped being so close #i just like the idea of steve and carol doing fun silly things like this #steve and eddie absolutely go home together after this #they have a short talk and then a long night #and then a longer talk in the morning

[witchspeka]

I dont think Mob is naive as much as he's socially unaware, like the reason why he trusts Reigen so blindly is a bit more complex than just him being naive

Cause Mob reached out to Reigen because he was desperate to find someone like him, someone who understood his psychic specific issues, someone that could truly know what he's feeling and going through and give him guidance and support

Post incident Mob's thinking process was something along the lines of my powers hurt people -> my powers are bad -> my powers (my emotions, my instincts, myself) cannot be trusted

So he lost all confidence and trust in his own actions, resigning to being as passive as possible to avoid any further damage to anyone else, thus he started doubting his own perception of reality too

He's a kid already struggling with being ostracised for being socially inept, who just got traumatised and all of his insecurity increased by the tenfold, he doesn't know how to process what he's going through. He needs help.

And here comes Reigen, seemingly reliable, a responsible adult in a child's eyes, someone who claims he can understand him

Even tho Reigen doesnt. But it doesn't matter, because Mob finds comfort in his words and takes them to heart

Even if Reigen doesn't fully get it, even if he doesn't see the bigger picture, even if his advice isn't always the best

Eventually, Mob grows up, realises Reigen isn't as honest as he seemed through his 11 year old perspective, but like most things, he refuses to acknowledge it on a deeper level

Mob knows, but never tells Reigen, never thinks about what all those lies mean to him (ofc until he forces himself to face those doubts regarding Reigen, to properly acknowledge both of their flaws and accept them as they are, I should scream into the void about Confession Arc more God)

Due to his lack of trust in himself, Mob has relied on Reigen for years now to shape his moral compass, his thoughts, his decisions

Because well, Reigen lies, sure, but he isnt a bad person. When he hurts Mob, it isn't intentional or with ill intent, he still wants the best for him, what's the issue?

Except that it stunts Mob's growth. He doesn't develop as a person, doesn't have goals or wishes or ambitions, can't make choices on his own, he doesn't even let himself acknowledge his own emotions, he refuses to let himself exist

But Mob realises in time that he wants more than that, he wants to become better and be independent and feel again

Still, he puts the acknowledgement of the lies on hold for as long as he can, unwilling to question the way things are

This can make him feel a little naive, he constantly relies on Reigen and trusts his decisions and raises questions rarely until separation arc when he finally puts his foot down

And I do think that moment is the most resounding proof we have that Mob knows and allows himself to be used by Reigen, not wanting to shake the status quo, until he gets fed up

I mentioned the social ineptitude at the beggining but idk if I should even elaborate on that, you've watched the show, you know what I mean

He's blunt and can't read social cues or tonality that well and can't speak in front of crowds and is overall pretty awkward and I do think some people conflate that with naivety

Mob is still a child, he doesnt fully understand how the world works at the ripe age of 14 years old, but some folks take that as him being inherently naive/innocent/whatever which I don't find true

#ppl do a similar thing with seri but for different reasons but i do think in his case its worse cause thats a whole ass adult #anyway. i dont think im saying anything new i just wanted to ramble <3 #i missed mobposting what can i say #ik i saw somebody talk about this in a more eloquent way but i doubt i could find the post cause i dont think i rbed it so rip #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #kageyama shigeo #that ova needs to come out already im going insane #cine te a intrebat #also hope i didnt come off as too negative towards reigen or smth #but like. my favourite part of confession is him saying (i didnt know!) LIKE YEAH. U DIDNT. LMAO. #ppl treat him as a bit too reliable sometimes and dont give him a lot of room to grow like Reigen isnt even 30 yet!! he aint that old!! #he still needs to get HIS own shit tgt before giving out advice just saying. also he totally doesnt understand mob fully. how can he?? #he never mentions the incident with ritsu and considering mobs inclination of never telling anyone anything unless prompted #i doubt he knows... like reigen genuinely doesnt know the extent of mobs trauma!! when he said I Didnt Know he meant that shit!!!!!! #which is like. fine. cause to me whats important is how he always wants to protect mob and support him and help him #even if he doesnt always know how. even if advice backfires. hes always there and hes always trying and hes just as human and flawed as mob #himself #ig what im getting at is just that im bothered by the Flavour of reliable adult fandom is giving him. hes a lil pathetic and #fucks up sometimes and thats fiiiiiine. i feel like i talked shit about reigen but i do think hes a good guy and IS reliable just not in the #gives great advice way. but in the Knows How To Talk And Bullshit His Way Through Everything and Has Genuinely Good Intentions (usually) #and will throw away all of his self preservation if the situation requires him to. his advice is good but can be vague idk ONE rlly managed #to balance his pathetic side with his helpful reliable side and i dont think i articulated it the best way but like.... hes simultaneously #pathetic and sad but also the most sane and reliable adult in this show. rant over see u next time byeeee

[kennimu]

I got bored and decided to mix my biggest hyper fixations together and created this

They're very much inspired by Young Justice '98. I was stuck between who in varigo would be Robin but then I realized that Hugo would never be a Super and that settled that. Also I feel like Hugo's Robin would be what Lonnie's Robin could've been.

#Nuru is my favourite out of everyone here #i love the way I drew her face I think she looks beautiful #also she deserves two suits #i didn't want to take the Impulse name for Yong #so I chose Bolt because I wached the movie recently and thought it'd be funny #already coming up for a traumatic past for Varian including Raps #Heavy inspiration from Kon for Varian also because he's the most interesting super fight me #it will also be interesting to see a super lead the team instead #this is such a self indulgent au but no one can stop me from making more of it #hugo 100% came from crime alley #idk what to do with his past yet though #i tried my best to add red to Hugo's suit but trustvme when I say it was not working #vat7k #hugo vat7k #varian tangled #tts varian #nuru vat7k #yong vat7k #varian and the 7 kingdoms #varian and the seven kingdoms #varigo #varian vat7k #vat7k au #vat7k fanart #vat7k hugo #vat7k nuru #vat7k yong #kenni art #kenni doodles

[amarriageoftrueminds]

(another) Thing that annoys me about the Cap movies: 

We never got to see the scene where Steve & Co found out about the torture and mind-control used on Bucky. 

Because that should’ve been super important!

It would have vindicated Steve’s faith in him, proved Bucky’s victimhood and innocence, and turned Nat and Sam 100% around on whether or not Bucky was worth helping (whether or not it was worth them apparently wasting years of their lives helping Steve to find him). 

They’re supposed to have been: 

A) hunting down the remains of Hydra for years, 

B) familiarising themselves with all the Hydra info Nat dumped at the end of of CATWS, and 

C) hunting for Bucky-related information specifically amongst all that. 

Meaning they absolutely cannot have avoided finding, for example, all the places Bucky was tortured in, the specialised enhanced torture equipment (impossible to mistake for that used on a non-supersoldier), cells he was held in, all the specialised physical restraints, tailored for an enhanced person with a cyborg arm, documentation of his torture, witness testimony from surviving Hydra mooks at the Triskelion, etc., and seeing it firsthand. 

And for some of that time, they know Hydra had access to a magic mind-control stick, courtesy of Loki, and an enhanced person who can control minds (Wanda). 

So even if Steve didn’t find evidence of Bucky’s mind-control early on in his search, he and Natasha definitely do know that mind-control is possible (especially Natasha, given her roots in the Red Room and the fact that her bff was mind-controlled.)

Even if you ignored Nat and Sam’s personal backstories, which preclude both of them from being dismissive of a victim (a veteran who suffered a fall, a mind-controlled Russian ���assassin’), it doesn’t make sense for Nat and Sam to still be trying to suggest Steve step back from helping Bucky, the way they do in CW. 

They cannot still be ignorant of what was done to Bucky, when they have been specifically investigating what was done to Bucky, and all that information has to have been impossible for them to avoid! 

Instead of which, the movie just skips right over the reveal to Steve and Sam of the mind control (going straight from ‘scene of mind-control’ to ‘scene of Steve being skeptical (which he shouldn’t and wouldn’t be)’ to ‘scene of talking about trigger words already’). Casually implying that either Steve and Sam already knew about it, or that Bucky has just explained it to them... 

But only off-camera. 

And yet, Sam is still salty and scornful of Bucky’s innocence (even when they have just seen mind-control happening, Bucky is suffering amnesia of WS acts in front of him, apparently just told him about mind-control, and then proves that he has his pre-war memories). 

So they imply the content of skipped scenes but then have characters act in ways that are... irrational, given the skipped content?? 

Makes no damn sense! 

#long post #bucky barnes #bucky meta #meta #mcu #mcu critical #cacw meta #cacw critical #mcu meta #cacw #they want to make out like steve is taking some kind of Stance by standing by bucky when he's just protecting the innocent #and realistically nat and sam should have the intell to PROVE that bucky is innocent and be 100% on board with helping him #cuz otherwise why tf are they still there with steve?? #also steve isn't the man to have people on his team if they're reluctant AND not going to defend the innocent #the whole movie is very clear on that point #and yet when it comes to bucky... #it's so palpably because they wanted to villainize bucky and they can't do that if he's explaining his mind-control in the movie #🤬🤬🤬 #disclaimer I am SLEEP DEPRIVED and nightblogging so pls forgive any mistakes #yet each man queues the thing he loves

[fisheito]

If you tracked my eye activity on that bliss promo pic with the tops it would be something like this

Making a major stop at topper

Before crashing into a ditch (yakuya corner)

#i'm having a moment. the only time i'll ever see these two standing next to each other is in a promotional pic for the sfw game version #FOR SERIOUS i was weirded out by this combination of characters in one pic when i first saw it #i was like oh?? they doing a random assortment now? i mean sure! yeah! i guess! spice it up they look great!! #then someone pointed out that this was Tops Only #then showed me the corresponding picture of Bottoms Only #and i felt my eyebrow raise sharply #OOOH.... i didn't even consider... right.... top bottom segregation #(reality does not occur to me. i see them all through switch-coloured lenses and thus ignore information inconvenient to my preference) #then i started thinking more about the . idea of it. that the tops are in a bar's hidden back room with mafia boss dante #and the bottoms are hanging out in the airy beautiful atrium of pure white snow and lilting piano music #tops are like WELCOME TO THE LIONS DEN and bottoms are like HEY COME INTO THE AVIARY AND SIT WITH US 🥰 #i dwelt on the fact that i was weirded out by yakumo in this group #and it made me think about how..... yakumo would be scared of all the other tops #all of them are INTIMIDATION 100 to hiim #so i imagine after you get him to pose for this shot with everyone. and the business is done #yakumo will quickly retreat to the room with the bottoms (where all his friends are) #blade being the adaptable little creature he is will be like OH COOL ARE YOU GOING TO SEE THE OTHERS?? #I WANT TO SEE THE OTHERS TOO!! MORE FRIENDS!! LET'S GO TOGETHER n_n *links arms* *DRAGS everyone else out of the room* #imagining yaku being first ushered into this dark room with kuya dante and quincy #and he's just nervously glancing at topper for reassurance that there's no danger #just trembling and thinking about how he wants his emotional support wolf/vice captain/priest/earring twin senpai #no yakumo. i wanted you to mingle. and you shall mingle #wear matching outfits with your fellow Tops and (topp) until you build trust and reduce their Intimidation Factors #nu carnival dante #nu carnival blade #nu carnival quincy #nu carnival kuya #nu carnival yakumo

[will-pilled]

Just saw someone post "an article debunking all viv allegations" and it was shit hardly anyone is mad about anymore and they were like "oh it was a long time ago so it's fine."

#A lot of critics of her are extremely unfair but the racism claim 100% stands and THAT is what I have against her #that and her justifying weird shit her buddies do and people coming out saying she is abusive #and when someone says theyre being abused I fucking belive them. #she is 100% racist and so are a shit ton of her fans its genuinely an issue that is STILL going on. not just “a long time ago.” #Not sure about the trnasphobia because I dont know how long ago that was and people change #i myself was the transphobic republican to trans man pipeline. #But lets be fr for a second #anti vivziepop #vivziepop critical #vivziepop criticism #I really want to like her so bad bc shes so my childhood. I genuinely try to hard to defend her but some shit I cannot defend #hazbin critical #helluva critical

[stormyoceans]

100 JIMMYSEA SERIES

3. kindergarten teacher x single parent

title: love in little steps

main cast: jimmy jitaraphol, sea tawinan, chun pachchun, jamie juthapich, piploy kanyarat

pairings: jimmysea, jamiepiploy

summary: sea and jaime had been high school sweethearts. after an unplanned pregnancy during their first year of college, they went against their families by deciding to get married and keep the baby, but as they grew older, they realized that they were also growing apart: jamie still dreamed of becoming a successful lawyer, while sea was happy to put away his past aspirations and live a more simple yet still fulfilling life. they tried their best to salvage their marriage for the sake of their son, chun, but ultimately decided to divorce and part ways amicably, leaving chun in sea’s care.

navigating life as a newly single father wasn’t easy though. chun had always been a happy and outgoing kid, but he was having trouble adjusting to all the changes in his life: he missed having his parents together, and on top of that he had been reassigned from piploy’s class in kindergarten to one with a new teacher, jimmy. chun started to act out, both at home and at school, until one day sea was called in by the principal because chun got into a fight with another kid. at a loss on what to do to help his son, sea found an unexpected help in jimmy, whose patient and understanding nature was eventually able to make chun smile again.

following the principal's advice, sea also decided to be more active in his son's school life, and between festivals, fundraising events, and school trips, little chun wasn't the only one growing fonder of jimmy with each passing day.

#i suddenly forgot what tenses are so this is a mess #in my defense my brain is in full depression mode so i can barely do anything #and it was also hard to come up with a summary for this one because my notes literally were: #jimmysea are cute with kids and fall in love. jamie and piploy are there and also fall in love. that's it. that's the plot. #also i know a lot of people want this kind of plot with hia gang but consider this: sapphics #anyway i don't really like how this came out but i needed to do something to help me feel better #i have one more kid plot thanks to anon but idk when i'll be able to get to it #100 jimmysea series #jimmysea #m: txt

[chirpsythismorning]

Thinking about that interview where Millie made a big deal about shipping Max/Dustin instead of Max/Lucas, and the cast sat beside her awkwardly in silence bc they all knew Max/Lucas ended up together at the end of the season (s2). And how Millie just kept the joke going while they tried to change the subject… and how this is oddly familiar…

#byler #stranger things #here’s the thing #millie is a comedian u guys #like she’s super sarcastic and it comes of serious to everyone when really she’s being entirely unserious #like i remember watching this and thinking… why is she dragging out this headcanon when everyone seems confused… #i think she thinks that she’s being mysterious and confusing in a way that avoids spoilers #i think this is something shes always done #but more recently I think she’s been adviced to do this with milkvan #the main’s 100% get adviced what to say/not say #and she’s the last thing holding milkvan together bc they intended it that way #a major reason ppl still ship milkvan is bc of Millie and bc they assume El still wants to be with Mike #once s5 promo roles around and finally drops and she’s changed her tune entirely as a number 1 byler… #wtf is the ga gonna do?? #nothing. they’re gonna look dumb rooting for something none of the characters/actors are rooting for anymore #🤣🤣🤣🤣

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

I think it would be funny if Alastor met Octavia at some point

Al can't beat Lucifer or Stolas in a fight but goddamn it he can steal their daughters

#alastor lost in the sauce that his girls with daddy issues #hell's greatesr dad indeed #if angel was a women he would've loved him #this guy is kidnapping kids like pokemon cards #look out von eldridge's he's coming for ur daughters #charlie is an adult women and 100+ years other then al and i under no circumstances believe him when he said he views her like his kid #he's a lying liar who wants attention #octavia is like a teen tho so i think al would be a bit more genuine about wanting to manipulate her in a parental way #rather then radiobelle Evil Workplace Relationship kinda way #but also he thinks beating ur kids is ok so maybe we should just send her to live with her mom #ever since they changed the lyrics and ruined paranoid's song i haven't had much faith in the goetia family plotline #i genuinely think the way stolas treats his kid would be a HUGE ick for blitz #i love u stella u could've been so much more but i do appreciate ur brocon tendencies #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor the radio demon #hazbin hotel lucifer #helluva boss #helluva boss stolas #stolas goetia #octavia goetia #charlie morningstar #vivziepop #helluverse

[oceanic-sunsets]

i'm tired of pretending i don't want to read a fic with a time-period-accurate portrayal of the party's reaction to will and mike coming out/dating. i do i want to read it so badly

[Disclaimer: no i do NOT mean i wan't to read the party being homophobic outright. I mean confused, curious, unaware, and ignorant reactions. A natural journey of learning how to support your friends and not make it weird, with some mistakes along the way.]

#byler #will byers #mike wheeler #the party #if someone actually knows a fic like this PLEASE send it to me #i feel like most people expect writers to portray their reactions in a perfect way as if the show was set in 2023 #and i do NOT mean people shouldnt write this portrayal! #i get why it exists and it's okay if people dont want to read about tone-deaf reactions to coming out. i respect that and support u 100% #but also how do i explain to some of u that sometimes #when u grow up in a homophobic environment with friends who always made anything gay weird and acted like very “don't ask dont tell” #it can be COMFORTING to read about GOOD characters going through the journey of LEARNING how to do/be better. because i didn't have that.

[vrmxlho]

how it feels writing abt gokurakugai when nobody on tumblr cares 😭😭

#ik there are some ppl out there who do enjoy gokurakugai #however i am severely demotivated when i don’t get notes cuz i have an obsession with validation #and it’s 100% my fault/issue però è sempre un problema #io provo a scrivere cmq quando ritorno a casa e puoi vediamo … #ho un sacco di idee però come sempre non le finisco mai 😭😭 #anyway what i wanted to say is that i’ll be back soon but no promises and i probably won’t have time for a while sawry #se ritorno con non-bllk content sarà sul mio altro account perché bllk non mi interessa più è sto pensando di abbandonare sto account di mer #di merda ❤️‍🔥 #grazie per tutto cmq #love you <3

[writingjourney]

Btw I see your anon requests and while I cannot make any promises that I will get to them because my executive dysfunction is doing the dysfunctioning very well atm I have it on my radar. Just a little note, if you do not specify I will default to a gn!reader and it'll be a short sweet thing bc I have too many WIPs already :))

#just fyi #i don't really do requests unless i specify but when i get something i will at least rotate it in my brain for a bit #and see what comes out #if you absolutely 100% want something written i recommend taking it to writers who do commissions ♡ #like idk maybe we can talk about HC requests at some point #maybe that's more doable

[running-in-the-dark]

and I'm having thoughts again

so I've been watching that John Larroquette interview that I reblogged on repeat for half an hour now and I'm just. man I am so very....... okay I'm trying not to say that I'm stupid anymore but god what else is there to say. it's making me feel like my brain just turns off and all there is is static and [insert very high frequency screaming sound].

like I would love to be able to have actual thoughts about this shit but I am not. I just love love love people who think about shit and face their issues and work on getting better. and talk about it. like it's just a thing that happened. because it is. it's not 'oh you did bad shit in your past so you're fucked forever now'. it's 'bad shit happened, I did bad things, I confronted it, I made different choices' and that's it. I just. man I'm feeling really emotional and am probably gonna have a good long cry about this now.

#one thought that I had when my brain stopped just loudly screaming at me was #oh I totally always think I wouldn't ever end up in a cult. because it's not something that would appeal to me and shit. I'm suspicious of #anything like that. one person claiming to know everything and all that #and it just hit me like. DUDE. you would absolutely 100% end up in a cult if the right guy was leading it #like if he had a cult that I could join right now? oh dude I'd be so in. kinda joking but also like. come on I am so fucking obsessive I #would absolutely fall for that #(and lets not even get into the whole thing of actually getting attention from the person I'd be obsessed with. oh it'd be bad. it'd fuck #me up. I'd be so easy to convince if we're being honest....) #but anyway I just. I don't know #honestly though? I just love studying one person at a time from afar like. hi I would immediately explode if I ever met this man I could not #handle it. but I can absolutely find out everything I can about him and study him like. something that normal people would study idk I'm #insane. #anyway man that was a weird tangent #true tho. #I don't want to make light of actual addictions like alcoholism. I'm not. addicted I guess. but I'm absolutely fucking obsessive about shit #and I absolutely know it cannot be healthy to keep doing this #like dude you have no life because all you do is watch other people live theirs. why am I studying this man's life like it matters. it's not #making anything better. knowing every damn thing he did in the 80s will not make up for the fact that I don't have. anything. #fuck now I'm really crying oh well this really took a weird turn #fuuuuck. #personal

[edge-oftheworld]

HEY! HEY! don't hide all of your pain, don't keep

#100% sure that i did hear those lyrics right rn if i get it wrong when it comes out i'll do something embarrassing #i already love this SO MUCH I genuinely can't think of a more ashton thing to say where he's at rn #i love how 2010s poprock it sounds. slsp full circle #and is it weird i want this to be a 5sos song?? like it probably isn't but damn when was the last time they had a happy anthem? #like it was probably she looks so perfect. A DECADE #self titled vibe. sgfg message. youngblood boppiness. 5sos5 maturity. can't think of anything that screams calm to me #but you get michael writing some bits on this and it will slap i know it. it already will if it's just ash but give it a luke verse and a #calum verse and a michael bridge w ash on chorus? YES #ashton irwin #5sos #5 seconds of summer #michael clifford #calum hood #luke hemmings