#idk. idk. fuckin tired of it

[cryptojuice]

take this with a grain of extremely drunk but at this point I'm my journey? now? I'm like literally the idealest person in the world and I think everyone else has something wrong with them

#is it autism? is that why people don't just fuckin communicate with me? #my autistic superpower is im TOO GOOD at communicating and everyone else is behind me. #im already in the 'so how do we meet our needs' stage when other people are in the avoidance stage or the self awareness stage #idk. idk. fuckin tired of it #tired of games tired of excuses tired of IMMATURITY #tired of being more grown than people in their mid 30s. tired of being more grown than my parents in their mid 50s #tired of being the ONLY person i know ACTIVELY working on their flaws and making progress #maybe others are just working on things i dont notice and maybe others dont notice what im doing. but idk. people have seemed to notice. #is it because im becoming buddhist? am i like more fucking enlightened or something? #i would hope that wouldn't be the only thing causing such a disconnect cause that sounds fucking pretentious #im drunk cause i was upset. remember yhis if you're reading these tags #im not upset anymore cause i got drunk. and made a really good omelette #but yeah i feel so different from other people. so much better and also so much worse. hashtag paradox #best communicator deepest thinker most compassionate soul. also most horrible awful sinner #↑obsessed with the concept of sin in a fascinating way for someone who doesn't Believe in it #yes im a sinner yes im a real sex demon from hell no hell doesnt exist yes reincarnation is real yes i am buddhist yes i believe in ghosts. #i contain multitudes #anyways #i was supposed to *** ** ***** *** today and i didn't so I got grumpy i guess #i really need to practice the principles of detachment #I've gotten a lot better at patience and calm and meditation but i still care so much about inconsequential shit. enough to drink it away i #i should sleep i was trying to fix my sleep schedule the last two nights #but i don't want to. i want to drink and have fun and maybe cry #we'll see #doubt anyone is gonna read this it's mostly for me #gonna tag this #therapy #so i can find it if i need it #i just miss my girlfriend man. but she stood me up again without a word and it's disrespectful #and i know I'm gonna forgive her

[thottybrucewayne]

I think what I want to get into with the "Anyone can do harm." thing that I keep beating yall over the head with is that literally anyone, anyone at all can do harm it's not "in your DNA" to be an abuser or written in the stars that you'll be a predator. Whatever image you have of an abuser in your head, drop it and replace it with your favorite person in the world and you'll probably be closer to the truth than you realize. It's easy to address harm when it's coming from someone you already hate. I see it happen all the time. Someone you couldn't stand for no real reason does something heinous then all of a sudden here comes the avalanche of "I always knew they were a fucked up individual." No, you didn't. There is no possible way you could have known, you just already didn't fuck with them before they started doing something you could use to justify your hatred of them. I'm guilty of it too! I'm petty, mean, vindictive, and yes! I'm way quicker to believe something bad about someone I hate versus someone I love because I'm human. Still, y all gotta learn to move past that initial "Well, they were always nice to me!" gut feeling and understand that nobody truly knows anyone and anyone can be capable of anything. Even victims. Even you.

#thotty speaks #thotty rants #I was thinking about that Christine chan post and its like yeah yall really don't know how bad it got for her before she did what she did #It reminded me of that thing on tiktok where people take 'cringy' cosplayers videos (most of whom are literal children) and put racist or #bigoted text over it then reupload it to call them out then the og creator gets a flood of harassment mostly from people who hated them for #the crime of being weird on the internet but now they can use 'oh but they're a bigot!' as an excuse to tear them down until they come out #and say 'hey i didn't say this someone stole my shit' and nobody takes their vids down nor apologizes because they didn't fuck with them #anyway so wash rinse repeat #idk I just wish that people had the same smoke for people they actually like #mostly cause I'm tired of being accused of 'switching up' every time I cut people off or stop fuckin with an artist #like this is what we should be doing!!!! ACG ANYBODY CAN GET IT! #It should be smoke for ANYONE who does harm every your fave people! #otherwise you create this world where taking people to task for the harm they've done is less about the harm #and more about justifying our own actions #anyway keep that same energy across the board that's all I'm saying #cause if it comes out tomorrow that somebody close to me did some fucked up shit I'm out of there period #aint no talkin bout shit and that's on me growing up as a child told that certain grown folks can't be alone with me #but they allowed in my house... #Idk about yall but i'm ending that generational curse with me

[cynicallyneutral]

sasuke wants his new year's kiss :kissing_heart:

#sasunaru #narusasu #naruto #sasuke #my art #my comic #round fox baby #naruto's boyfriend #JKHAJDFKASDFADF FUCKING HELL IM SO TIRED #ASDHAHAHAHAHA I BEEN WORKING ON THIS FO #WHAT??? 10 GODDAMN HOURS IM SO DONE IM SO TIRED #ok tbh its my fault for starting late i literally had 3 days off #AND I DID NOTHING ASJKDFHAHSDFADSF FUCKKK #it took an extra hour bC SASUKE #IDK HOW TO DRAW HIS FUCKIN HAIR #NOR HIS FACE WHYS HE SO HARD TO DRAW IM GONNA CRY #anyway hahaha HAPPY NEW YEAR BABES HAHAHAHAHA FUCK

[superbellsubways]

the star of the show

#i wanted to redraw this shot so bad you dont even know. it broke me. #this is so goofy honestly but idc #i needed to get it outof my system #clippy #virtual assistants #gijinka #object head #the truman show #doodle #and yes the clouds are from That :) #man the implications here. bro almost fuckin died right before this #could i make this into a full on AU? possibly. but idk #ignore the wonkiness im tired #webcore #digital art #i forgor something but idomt care actually

[dontworryihaveyourblorbos]

I don’t really know how to say this in a better way so imma just say it

If you think John Dory is a bad character then respectfully, you have no idea what being an oldest sibling is like.

He didn’t abandon his brothers. He was pushed to a point of having to be responsible for four younger brothers, ranging from baby to teenager, trying to coordinate and pull off good if not perfect shows, trying to help Rosiepuff raise both them and himself while also dealing with trollstice and the troll tree while also struggling with an ever growing *need* to be perfect. It doesn’t matter how much you love your siblings- if you’re stressed enough, you’re going to snap and you’re going to snap at them. And you know what? He probably hated himself for that too. And for the fact that he couldn’t be perfect. Any oldest sibling knows the guilt of not being good enough and presumably tearing down their younger siblings in the process…it’s awful. No fuckin wonder he walked away, bro was what, 17?? 18??? He shouldn’t have had to do that. And he didn’t just abandon his brothers knowing what was gonna happen to Branch. From his perspective, he walked away knowing full well Spruce and Clay could step up, and that Rosiepuff would still be there. He had no way of knowing Branch would end up alone and gray, because if he did, he never would have left.

John Dory is not a bad character. He loves his brothers.

Edit: some people are saying he didn’t come back until he needed something. He came back to an empty troll tree- he thought his brothers were dead. He probably only left for a few months or so! He didn’t abandon them. He had every intention to come back and did. His family was just gone.

#idk if this is a vent or an analysis #I’m just so tired of people making him out to be an unloving brother #guys #he thought they were dead #he was *so* excited to see all of them and they wouldn’t even give him a hug #being an older/oldest sibling is fuckin hard #I’m the second oldest of a bunch of kids in similar age ranges to Brozone #when I tell you #I would snap way sooner than he did #it’s just not fair to him or his character to say he abandoned them on purpose #or that he brazenly made them be something they didn’t want to be for the band with no regrets #I guarantee you #it kept him up at night when he fought with his brothers #he probably hated himself for making his brothers unhappy #but what else could he do #he was stressed out and desperate #John Dory is not a bad character #he’s an oldest brother who didn’t get a chance to finish his own childhood. #trolls #trolls band together #dreamworks trolls #trolls John Dory #trolls jd #realizations #rambles #brozone

[slocumjoe]

Concept for if Bethesda loved the other Companions same as old tricky dick

Gage; a dlc that doesn't kinda suck actually, but also properly explores what being a raider entails, and what kind of people end up as one. I don't think you could actually redeem him, but I'd like that idea to be directly confronted, as least. I've talked about this before but it's wasted potential that you can't make the Nuka Gang confront the fact that Oh Shit The Farmers Are Now Dangerous

Deacon: I don't think he needs his own side quest or even DLC, but I'd like him to have side quests attached to him, a la Nick's detective cases sidequests. He's a spy. Pls let us do spy shit

Piper: Same as Deacon, but I think she actively needs a sidequest. Her character gimmick, her plot purpose, and her actual affinity talks are so unrelated it's painful. Let her journalism actually be content, not just a bit of trivia about her. A set of side quests + a personal quest that addresses Diamond City's Problems with a capital P. Lots of societal issues in that little space and we do nothing with any of it.

Preston: just fix the Minutemen and give this man a goddamn break. The Minutemen just need a rehaul, so as to not have him be the quest giver. And give him other stuff to do! I wanna actually fight the Gunners! Bring up and address the failures of the old Minutemen!!! Please!!!

X6-88: give the bitch something oh my God. Much like Gage, I don't think you can convince him to let go of the Institute, but give us a CHANCE. Emil just seems so scared to ask hard questions and use interesting concepts.

Danse; finish his arc you thots (also I think Fallout 4 really lacks some humanizing/soft moments in the world and I think Danse would be a good. Subject? For them. Like a shelter dog getting to play with ducklings. Idk but I have a vision)

MacCready: they forgot that his whole point was having a whole ass baby. Give him his child wtf.

Strong; delete

Codsworth; stronger plot presence. This robot raised that old bitch let him throw hands. Also, if you wanted to put quests in Sanctuary that spawn up as the town develops, Codsworth would be a great quest giver and tagalong as you try and keep the piece and set up some kind of society.

Curie; I've said it before. I'm saying again. Curies whole deal should have been a major plot point. She's a robot that becomes human and develops human feelings with human biology. This is not important to any faction leader. What on earth.

Cait; yall fuckin know how I feel about Cait but honestly, her personal quest sucks so much I'd rather they didn't. Just give her more and better affinity talks. She needs more time to open up and develop, and 4 conversations is not enough.

Hancock; I have quite a few nitpicks about Hancock but the fact that Micky D getting ganked and being revealed to be a synth DOESNT MATTER is insane. Macdonough's last interaction with Hancock was crucial to his character arc and not letting that circle around is so, so miserable. Also, I want politically-charged quests. Campaigning! Discussions on economy! He's a mayor of this weird little anarchy town, let us play in that space.

#i cannot believe nick got his own dlc #like. i KNEW. i KNOW. but like #WOW. #THE FAVORITISM. #HE WAS THE MOST DEVELOPED ONE ALREADY GUYS #THATS NOT SAYING MUCH BUT HE STILL HAD A LOT MORE LEGWORK PUT IN #SPARE A CRUMB OF DEVELOPMENT PLS #im pretty neutral to nick but i actively like him less #knowing that hes the golden child #the one that gets pizza hut after football practice but the others get papa johns #idk im so fuckin tired #i have a three day weekend and all i wanna do is get back to work #i am NOT a downtime person

[gobstoppr]

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE

NEW NAME

transmaskmetaknight -> GOBSTOPPR

wanted a change of pace. the word gobstopper has been bouncing around in my head lately

#text #transmaskmetaknight #need a new pfp... and my phones home screen i wanna change it too.. n maybe redecorate the blog while im at it... #ive been tired and angry lately. its my hater arc etc etc #ugh idk. ive been trying to be more honest with my feelings #but that means my annoyance gets magnifyied like 10fold #ive been impatient about a lot of stuff that doesnt amuse me. ive hated the boop shit today bc the word is so. dumb. childish. #ugh i feel like one of those nerds with the minors dni in their fuckin bio at age 19 #but its how i feel!! im tired of settling for things i find not very satisfying. i want art that feels real. i want fandom to shut up. #i want to watch shows that are not Cartoons for Babies. i want to feel something Real. #i need to go Deeper. i have to chase this

[yarnacle]

its too late at night im having too many gay thoughts about these idiots so. here we are i guess.

It's Ian. No one else is going to fucking caress him. For all the informality of the company's content and general atmosphere, with this video concept especially, he's still their boss. And no one is going to want to, or have the guts to just fucking stroke his face like that. Even as he laughs and asks 'What is this?' he knows what's happening, knows who those hands belong to.

Two fingers drag down the right side of his face, and he feels the chalk that's left behind. It's going to stay for the rest of the video, and there's something to be said about that, he thinks. Something symbolic, something romantic, or even something funny, the last thought being slapped into his head when Ian's hand collides with his face.

It doesn't hurt that much, and immediately after he cracks a joke.

"This person thinks they're hilarious."

And they are, he wants to add. They're ridiculously funny, with a dark, somewhat skewed sense of humour to match his own, and they're brilliant and kind and so many other things, but right now they're making it easy for him.

"Who would caress my face and slap me outta nowhere?"

He, and everyone else in the room, and everyone who's going to watch the video, knows.

"Feels like an Ian move to me- Did you just boop me?"

Ian's locking it in, making sure that it's clear that, yeah, in case you couldn't figure it out already, it's me motherfucker.

"That's the only one you truly needed to get right."

Anthony laughs. He's not wrong - It wouldn't matter if he got everyone else dead wrong [even Angela, after hearing her speak and feeling her entire cast]. So long as he got Ian right, then it would be fine. There's probably also something to be said about how sweet that would be, but after having all the fucking braincells knocked out of his skull from the second person, he's not very poetic.

All that matters is that he guessed Ian correctly, and can still feel the two stripes of chalk on his cheek. [All that matters is that now there's a phantom warmth ghosting across his face, a replication of the gentle, almost loving strokes a distraction from the slight sting from everyone else's hands.]

#i actually have no idea if this makes sense and if its coherent. im too tired to reread it so. here we are! 1st rpf w/ fully stolen dialogue #smosh #anthony padilla #ian hecox #ianthony #implied??? idk they implied it p heavily enough themselves w/ that fuckin 'my boyfriend' title so idk anymore lolsies #fanfiction #smosh fanfiction #rpf #very veyr reluctantly #my writing #i can do better i promise [mostly lying almost all my writing is done unedited and at ungodly hours] #sighs. if any of my irls or ppl from my main blog find this its over for me the bullying will never cease. #thanks for listening to my tags ramble ill be going to bed now im too mentally ill to also be physically ill

[lurkiestvoid]

I mostly just reblog shit and don't often talk about anything, but sometimes I just gotta.

I have a lot of opinions that I keep to myself, and there's a huge rant behind this that isn't worth going into, so at the risk of getting water-filtered as a dirty liberal I'm just gonna put this out there:

It's not about lEsSeR oF tWO eViLs it's about whether we wanna fully and permanently destroy the brakes on the runaway fascism train, so go ahead and block me if you're actively discouraging others from voting blue in 2024 and/or deliberately bullying people out of it by throwing around social justice buzzwords, blanket generalizations, emotionally charged accusations, and outright character assassination for wrongthink.

Thanks!

#it's the US it's always been evil #if you're surprised by that idk what to tell you #“oh no the genocide country is supporting genocide again #so we might as well let them round up the queers and criminalize divorce“ #lol #lmao even #us politics #2024 elections #voting is one (1) tool in the toolbox #its not the most important but we have never been so close to losing it entirely #and y'all act like one ballot is supposed to bring the revolution #and throw tantrums when it doesn't #im fuckin tired #free palestine

[grimstrawberry]

Hc that trolls have sensitive ears. Unfortunately, Rose and Dave play their music way too fucking loud.

#karkat is sick and tired of listening to fat joe and fuckin.. TI #Rose calls Kanaya a poser goth bc she doesn't like The Cure #She has no fucking idea what The Cure is #Homestuck #Rose Lalonde #Kanaya Maryam #RoseMary #RoseKan #Dave Strider #Karkat Vantas #DaveKat #My Art #also if you know who silencer are first of all #im so fucking sorry for your mental health #and second of all theyre like on the cusp of being funny but also kinda scary idk #they work for when im In A Mood and doing gory trad paintings

[ajdrawshq]

so like. ive played pmd sky dozens of times over a majority of my life right. i have never seen a map like this

thats just a weird hallway. what is this

#like. huh #ironically Riku got the all terrain hiker iq thing so he can just walk over the void areas which makes this dungeon SO much better #i love chasm caves music but the dungeon is hell to traverse #pmd #also i picked up like. 6 or so legendaries at crystal crossing #that place was fuckin packed!! idk why everyone was there but i got like. ho-oh celebi shaymin deoxys.. n a few more im forgetting #the celebi was shiny .. i cant remember if u can recruit non shiny celebi in sky or not tbh #kinda funny seeing them not in the future #edit. just found a dialga in here. got tired of dusknoirs failures lmao

[cynicallyneutral]

who’s got you blushing like that?

(hint: it’s sasuke)

#naruto #uzumaki naruto #naruto fanart #sasunaru #i tagged bc well #u gotta know he’s blushing bc of sasuke and no one se #good lord idk shit abt animating #i just got possessed today bc im insane abt naruto ok #like i just…im normal #my art #my animation #animation #fuckin hell i have a companion sasuke clip here #i just dont know if i have the strength to make another one #what the hell im so tired #but still i want a sasuke companion clip just so #bc its gonna be cute idk ahahahahaha fcukdkfkdf #prolly gonna flop but idc i just want it out of my system

[autisticshadowthehedgehog]

fleetway super sonic headcanon: aural. he chooses the name “aural the hedgehog.” it doesn’t sound like sonic, does it? doesn’t have any of the same letters. not even the same letters as super. it’s different. it’s completely different. so he’s not that person anymore. he’s not the monster that destroyed so much. he’s not uncontrollable, he’s not evil, he’s not chaos. he’s himself.

except aural and sonic are synonyms. they mean the same thing. relating to sound. they don’t sound the same. relating to sound. it’s completely different. every letter changed. but it’s still the same amount of letters. still the same meaning. you can’t escape. you can’t get out.

#idk dudes im tired out and still cant sleep. fuckin insomnia amirite #fleetway supersonic #fleetway super sonic #sonic the comic #stc #mine

[everloste]

him again i guess

#mine #sketch #jthm #i dont remember the name of the song so youll have to google the lyrics if you care sorry #this image is actually inverted on my canvas so all the words are backwards idk why i did that #i hate summer theres too much day time i feel like i do nothing for hours and then sleep #its only fuckin NOON RIGHT NOW ARE YOU KIDDING ME #its been 85 years since the sun last set #my eyes are Tired

[stuckinapril]

As a bi woman, I get crushes on women so easily!!! I need tO CALM DOWN!! BUT how do i do that??? Like i just met this girl and I already think she's hella cute and wondering if she's bi or something.. God, help me!!!

the answer is u don’t. u dont calm down. women are wonderful and (i’m genuinely saying this with a straight face, full chest) i wish i were attracted to them like that every fucking day.

#i’m not saying this to be quirky funny cute etc like i actually am FATIGUED from dealing w guys #idk what it’s like batting for the other team but hopefully better than this bullshit #i’m tired and easily disgusted by these clowns now :/ so many girls in my life id love to date if only i were fuckin bi #unfortunately i do not think i am. or if i am no girl rly evoked that type of attention from me yet #ask

[ltsmoving]

I'm a bit of a basic bitch for this but like damn I wanna grab someone by the jaw and just force them against my abdomen, making damn sure they hear all of that raucous growling begging for them.

Just getting flooded with not only that yawning thunder, bellowing deep from within the cavernous hollow of an organ, but the angry oceanic rippling only a sound so violent could cause. They don't know when the last time I ate something was, but it might as well be weeks ago from how vigorously the chamber vibrates and wails, pleading for them.

Because it is calling for them, like a siren might some poor, lost sailor- fate inevitable, but still fighting. I know it; they know it. There's a caustic ocean awaiting their arrival just below the skin- its waves crash and moan in the cove, waiting to liquefy them, to become inseparable from the sea foam.

idk get in my mouth or something

#i like sea metaphors can you tell #eddie wrote this #thats the writing tag now ig #idk just a ramble cause im fuckin tired #v ore #v.ore #unwilling prey #fatal vore #digestion #hunger kink #hunger