#like as a person with adhd like you can totally see that he probably isn't

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I think my biggest problem with RR is that I love the idea he has but not the execution.

Like, nice ADHD guy who uses humor as a coping mechanism. Nice, war between Greeks and Romans. Nice, Poseidon and Athena children couple. Nice, gender fluid badass character. Nice,

Then you realize the ADHD guy doesn't get much deeper than that. That, the war was caused by some flat ass character with no personality aside from killing panda plushies and superiority complex. That the A and P's relationship was kinda forced and toxic. That the said badass character is only gender fluid bc of her mom.

#rick riordan #percy Jackson #alex fierro #percabeth #leo valdez #octavian pjo #anti rick riordan #and all that adhd meds are bad kiddos #dont use them bc the teachers are actually want to get rid of your differently abled shit #like fuck you man #like as a person with adhd like you can totally see that he probably isn't #like the characters symptoms are used as comical relief #that they barely experience #besides like what was that shit of battle skills bc of adhd #like dude im pretty sure I wouldn't hyperfocus on battling a random ass monster #like ok my life depends on it #but i cant even process fast to hearing people talk #or catch a ball on PE #you think I would react fast enough to not die #im editing this like crazy but here we go #i went search for like where did rr's hate for meds come from #apparently his son (harley) tried ritalin #which sucked for him as it did for me #I have a few posts on this im just not in the mood to elaborate #and like Rr just dropped it and like gave up on trying meds?? like??????? #idk if its true ok just saying some random things that appeared on google

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Y'know, I don't actually think Taliesin is presenting Kingsley as more competent than Fjord, Kingsley is simply much more confident. (And in the reverse, Travis isn't presenting Fjord as less competent, just more self-doubting.) The difference between them is how they see themselves and how that affects how they work, and their views of themselves heavily filters how we're seeing them here.

The entire thing is that Fjord is suffering a massive crisis of confidence and is struggling under the weight of self-doubt. Jester remarks to him that he needs to be confident, Fjord is so paralyzed by a simple question that he desperately asks the answer from Melora (then freezes mid-attempt to interpret it), he second-guesses his correct assessment into an incorrect one, he nervously seeks constant assurance from someone else on whether an idea is a sensible or good one.

Fjord is trying to transition into a new period of his life, and it's slammed him with an incredible amount of imposter syndrome. It seems that the lack of clear end goals and sudden lack of structure is making this difficult. (We've all joked Fjord has ADHD, well, lmfao.) He is openly displaying the intense self-doubt he's experiencing, which in turn is not inspiring confidence in those around him, which viciously cycles. That pervasive self-doubt is actively disrupting his ability to do, well, literally anything. It's like trying to make your hands stop shaking, so now they shake worse, making you totally incapable of that simple task that you normally can manage, even excel at.

Kingsley is nothing but confidence. He probably has never had enough personal setback nor enough life experience to fear failure. He's even so confident that he razzes Caleb about teleporting off-target. A not insignificant chunk of Kingsley's commentary is simply nonconstructive criticism, nitpicking, telling Fjord to do something Fjord was about to do or already did, snark for the sake of looking clever, or missing that Fjord is debilitatingly dissociative—so it tends to sound more put together, and criticism is easy where doing is hard, possibly just all sound and fury as they say, remains to be seen. Kingsley is untested in the role but he talks fast and big, that much is true.

Taliesin has spoken about how he plays characters who think of themselves in relationship to the world in a very specific, very wrong-headed way, and that extends very much to Kingsley. I think Kingsley has the same problem that Percy did: he believes he is the smartest, most competent, most adult person in the room because he knows approximately four things and is incapable of being anything less than overconfident.

As far as it seems to me so far, the difference is that they are opposites in experience (Fjord sailed for many years, Kingsley for six months) that are inversely proportional to their current levels of confidence (Fjord lost confidence in his ability to make even minor decisions, Kingsley apparently does not doubt himself for any reason). It's a difference, as far as I can tell, specifically born of their perceptions of themselves, and whether that perception affects their ability to work, rather than objective assessment of their relative ability and potential.

We're largely seeing Kingsley and Fjord through the lenses of how they see themselves.

#Critical Role #Kingsley Tealeaf #Fjord #Fjord CR #Fjord Stone #Critical Role things #Critical Role spoilers #CR spoilers #cr meta #Mighty Nein Reunited #posting this at the worst time but that's what morning reblog is for

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If the M6 had any mental disabilities (OCD, Autism, ADHD...) What do you think they would have?

Brainrot's Arcana Essays: M6's mental health conditions

@hewwo-its-floof .... this probably isn't where your ask was heading, but here's an essay! XD I've actually been turning this concept over in my head for several months now, so you'll see what I could see each of them having but you'll also see why I haven't unpacked it much ^.^

(cropped because this is long and addresses each character)

I'm going to be totally honest and say that I'm extremely hesitant to focus on diagnosing fictional characters beyond lighthearted headcanons. From my own experience of having multiple diagnoses at different times, people and characters tend to be fairly complex in the way their nature, nurture, and mental health interact with each other. So while it's really fun and in many ways healing and validating to see our experiences and habits reflected in a loveable character, it's easy to fall into a trap of confining ourselves or a character to the diagnoses we're focusing on.

Asra, Julian, Muriel, and Lucio, for example, all have the kind of lived experiences that you could fully expect would result in CPTSD. Asra's parents disappeared while they were a young child and they experienced the extended trauma of growing up homeless on the streets. Muriel experienced that same abandonment and homelessness, and then that gets layered with his experience in the Coliseum. Julian has clear memories of the trauma of being shipwrecked, losing his parents, and trying to care for his sister as a young boy, plus the apprenticing he did as a teen treating soldiers on active battlefields. Lucio has a similar traumatic background with the amount of time he's spent in combat and the kill-or-be-killed world he grew up in. Portia doesn't have any memories before the grandmothers at Nevivon, but that doesn't erase her body's memory or the chances of second hand trauma from her closeness to her brother. Nadia didn't exactly have an easy childhood, but we aren't aware of any traumatic incidents before adulthood.

All that to say, there's multiple ways to interpret behavior that reflects a mental condition that doesn't match what's considered "normal." Asra can seem ADHD coded - we've seen them fixate on curious puzzles, completely zone out and forget what they're doing, and turn their living space into a cozy state of chaos. That looks a lot like ADHD! But, that could also be the trauma coping mechanisms of someone who likes to live with the luxury of having a space covered in their things without fear of them being removed, or focusing solely on things that make their brain happy in an unpredictable world. Or maybe Asra's just a naturally curious person who finds chaos comforting and spends a lot of time in their own head. Maybe it's a combination of all of the above feeding into each other in different ways!

The same goes for the other three - does Muriel like a more isolated lifestyle because of the trauma from crowds in the Coliseum? Does he like to keep his own heavily guarded space and set routines from living on the streets? Or are those autistic traits, seeking out a space that isn't overstimulating and doesn't require masking? How much of that is natural introversion and a general preference for calm, ordered spaces? He could be a combination of some or all of those things, but he's still himself regardless. If we were to focus on just one, we'd risk leaving the rest to fade into the background.

Julian has one of the stories in which MC plays a very direct role in addressing his mental health. He depends on them heavily to help him find new purpose and a new way to live. You could almost say that MC helps "fix" him, but this doesn't involve losing a lot of the things that make him so messy - it mostly involves helping him dial it back enough so that it's no longer unhealthy. (for example - he drinks as a coping mechanism, but the solution isn't for him to never touch alcohol again. he still drinks and has a fun time, it's his need to self-isolate and self-destruct that really needed to be addressed) He can still be loud and flamboyant and entertaining without having to pin his worth on how much validation he gets from it. Could those super high highs and low lows be signs of bipolar disorder? Maybe, but whether it is or not, Julian's wide range of emotional expression is core to who he is.

Lucio is his own special case (I mean, the story starts out with him as the villain). The plot of his route is his transformation. It could be easy to read narcissism into a lot of his behavior, and if that's a diagnosis his character was built around, it would make sense! It could also be easy to argue that his tendency to idolize himself is a response to growing up in a world where he had no control and felt constantly unsupported and ignored. But the focus isn't on bashing how he sees himself as much as it is on teaching him accountability around what he does with that. Lucio at the end of his story still has a sizeable ego, still sees himself as a protagonist, and has no qualms about being good enough for MC. However, he's gained experience acknowledging his own flaws and mistakes and it's enabled him to seek out a fresh start.

We could unpack Portia and Nadia too - is Portia's super competence and hard working nature born out of the pressure to be strong and steady for her traumatized older brother? Did that cause the hyper responsibility that kept her adventurous spirit in Nevivon way past her childhood? Does her annoyance with her older brother's struggles come out of frustration at never being able to process her own difficulties in favor of playing therapist for everyone else? Are her loudly cheerful attitude, tendency to fill her day with work, and love of escaping into books all masking techniques for chronic depression? Maybe all of that is true, but it's accompanied by a conscious decision to be optimistic and a genuine love of caring for other people.

We could speculate about the source of Nadia's insecurities for hours - what did her old dynamic with Lucio look like? Where did her hesitance to get involved and try to fix a broken system come from? What caused someone with such a focused personality to make firm decisions and express deep doubts at the same time? Does her quest for influence come from a desire to implement improvements or a need for control? Maybe her love of precision, good omens, and controlled environments are a result of OCD, or maybe she's just discovered what it's like to have her confidence shaken and this is what it looks like to move forward.

I've processed my own share of eating and mental disorders, dysphoria, neurodivergence, disability, and trauma. Some of my diagnoses only lasted several months, others took decades to work past, and a few of them I know will be with me for the rest of my life. They help explain a lot of how I function, experience the world, and interact with others as a person. But those conditions and experiences are only part of the amalgamation that makes me who I am, who I've been, and who I'm becoming. I don't care to completely define myself by certain parts when the sum of who I am is what's going to decide my story, and I like extending that mindset to the stories, people, and characters I interact with as well.

I hope that makes sense, and sorry for the unexpected essay!!

Cheers, friend -

brainrot

#ask arcana brainrot #the arcana #the arcana headcanons #the arcana hc #the arcana game #asra the arcana #julian the arcana #nadia the arcana #muriel the arcana #portia the arcana #lucio the arcana #asra alnazar #julian devorak #nadia satrinava #muriel of the kokhuri #portia devorak #lucio morgasson

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Baghera Jones is her own person that can make her own decisions, thank you very much

I wasn't going to post this here because most of this discourse came from the bird app, but I've seen so much posts here (and in my notes) that I need to get this out of my chest. So this post is going to be TW: fandom neg about Baghera treatment by the QSMP community, be warned.

So, where to begin?

I keep seeing post about Q!Baghera being a bad friend to Forever, insulting her, saying she" hate him" and that it would be better if Forever only interact with Brazilians from now on. And I'm tired of this shit

" She will clearly always side with BBH whatever Forever do"

Oh, so we have a woman friend with two men, so of course she needs to take sides. Forbid her to have her personal opinions, it all about choosing the guy she likes the most, isn't it ? How people don't realize hoe misogynistic that way of thinking is !?

She literally connected on the server yesterday, learned that Forever wanted to build a prison to imprison players and that he pass a law that was specifically targeted at one of her other friends. Of course, she said that she will stand by BBH if this continues. She is trying to comfort him because from HER perspective, he's being targeted by unfair laws, and he is still (in lore) experiencing psychological problems. She didn't side with him, she chooses to help him. Because she can make decision with the information she has.

" But she is always against what Forever propose with the government"

I'm sorry, where were you when the election arc happens? Probably insulting Baghera because she dare have opinions and calling them "stupid" and "baseless" to the point she quitted I guess? q!Baghera was ALWAYS anti-federation. She joined the election so she could start a revolution. Even after she accepted to not do that, she always defends the point that having a president was a bad idea and that a council would be better. These ideas aren't new and she didn't stop having them after Forever got elected. It makes sense for her character to oppose to him, because she was never for a president in first place.

Yesterday, she didn't say she thought his idea of vote is stupid. She says that she doesn't agree with HOW it's done right now and that they can make it better. More representative of the people. But when she talked to Forever, he basically ran away when she started saying she didn't like it. Then they got interrupted by Bad. She hadn't the time to explain herself and people are acting like she said the idea(and Forever) was bad when she never says such thing. And even if she was totally against it, she would have the right to. She has the right to have a different opinion than her friends.

" But she is always hiding things!"

Clearly, you haven't watched Baghera's stream in a long time. What does she have to hide, I'm asking you? She never gets lore, and never has any in the past. Every time sometimes mildly exciting happen, she is running to another player just so she could tell them. In the election arc she was even sharing a ton of secrets with Cellbit, a guy she was convince was a dormant agent, just because he was on the server at the same time as her and she needed to share! She is only keeping secrets that other people told her. You know, like a good friend? Also, she sometimes forgot to say things right away, but cc! Baghera has ADHD, so it's not on purpose she sometimes forgets things. CC! Baghera said that canonically, her character trust Forever 100%, and she kept it that way so far. She just has no secrets to share right now because she isn't getting any lore.

" But Forever is always alone these days, and Baghera isn't appreciative of his work!"

Pshhh, I'm going to tell you a secret. You know who's alone 90% of their streams? BAGHERA JONES! She is in her castle alone, building. And why she spends the other 10% with people? Because she goes to people to check on them! Does Forever do that? No. He's in is isolation arc. We have never seen him check on what Baghera was doing or asking to do something together. Several times we've seen the players having fun while he was online, and he didn't join. It's not Baghera's job to go fetch him to play and help him when he isn't asking for it. And she always shows appreciation for what he is doing, just not in his face. Things you would know if y'all were actually watching her POV. She has Portuguese and English subtitle on at all times, you have no excuses. And why these type of comments are always directed toward Baghera and nobody else in the server that are doing stuff aside from Forever? Literally, I've never seen anyone else being call names because they are not tending to someone else need. Truly strange that it's directed at a woman, isn't it?

Baghera said in live recently that she has to take a break from doing lore with some of the streamers with the biggest community because she was getting hate every single time she was interacting with them. She didn't say names, But we all know who she was talking about. And I think it sucks she has to walk on eggshells around Brazilian players because of that. That she try to not be too friendly/teasing with Forever because of that. If you don't see her spending time with him as much, now you know why. They are still friend, but she doesn't want to deal with the community bullshit.

To conclude

She said that she wants her character to be recognized for her own achievement and not just be "Forever and bad third friend". And I'm also tired of this. She has the right to have opinions. She has the right to make decisions that contradict the ones of her friends. Furthermore, she isn't "Forever bad friend" or "BadBoyHalo emotional support woman". She is her own person. Stop acting like she's picking sides. Stop to infantilize her by saying that "she needs to think about the way she's acting". All her decisions make sense in universe. She has the right to defend her friend, she has the right to do her castle in peace, she has the right to not spend time with/help her brother if she doesn't feel like it. SHE has the RIGHT to exist at the SAME LEVEL as BBH and Forever, not as their accessory that is there to break them apart.

We have a lot more women on the server now that Jaiden plays regularly and with the new players. Let threat them like person, not just by the lenses of the men of the QSMP. Go watch their POV. Ask questions to people that watch them on main.

I'm so tired of this, it's being going on for months. I know the biggest part of the community is nice and love her. At least until she does something they don't like. I'm so tired...

#qsmp #q!baghera #q!forever #qsmp fandom #qsmp fandom neg #Also no hate to Forever #He's doing is best and I'm happy that him and BBH are enjoying their discord arc #but I hate how people use it to insult and belittle Bags #I'm going to start blocking people on sight #longpost #Defending women of the qsmp online isn't enough anymore #I need a knife #qsmp discourse

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Yknow. I feel like part of Okuyasu's insistence that he's 'dumb' might be like.......okay so I personally I look at him and see a dude with adhd, almost definitely unmedicated because almost every medication for that was Very Illegal in Japan until very recently. So that almost definitely has an affect on his grades in some way, and being the pragmatic kinda guy he is he probably takes school seriously enough that he's gotten it in his head that his grades are a reflection of his self-worth, if not his intelligence. Does he get better grades than Josuke? Probably. Does it still tear his self-esteem to shreds when he gets his homework back and see that he got so many questions wrong when he remembered to do it in the first place? Also probably. But this is delving into headcanon territory now so. Idk. Okuyasu isn't dumb! He's emotional and loud and maybe a smidge impulsive but he's a teenager and none of that exactly a measure of intelligence is it!!!

EXACTLY!!! And like, without a doubt he's got a pile of anxiety (specifically surrounding making decisions, this is canon to the text) that probably extends to many aspects of his life. He's suffered all kinds of abuse and lack of support for his entire life, and like - re: grades in school, he's shown to get low scores on at least one English test (that Koichi got a VASTLY lower score on, and this is like veryyyyy early in the story when he had only recently gone through everything with losing his brother and all that) but as you said, he's literally a fucking teenager and it's absurd to me that people can take what he's saying about being "dumb" at face value. Totally reads heavy ADHD to me and also due to his delinquent brother's influence I think initially he probably wouldn't have put very high value on day to day schoolwork but pragmatic is a fucking great word to describe him tbh!

#its been so long since I had jojo headcanons in my ask box. this was thrilling #ty for the ask! #jjba #okuyasu nijimura

[radioactivedragonspit]

Back In The Ol' Days [2014] we had the punk/nerd AU... but I have my gripes with the PNAU; it feels outdated to me. In 2014 I ate that shit up, but it's 2024 and the rampant micro-trends have me re-thinkin modern Hijack portrayals...

So here I am to propose a new PNAU: Grunge X Emo.

Hiccup as a cozy grunge kind of guy- basically just classic comfy casual clothes but with earthy tones, ripped up jeans covered in motor oil stains, and loose flannel shirts over worn-out tees.

Jack as a casual emo kind of guy- Skinny jeans with rips (often on the end of the legs cause they annoy them when they're too long), tight band tees, and his classic hoodie he can disappear into the shadowy hood of to sulk.

Elaboration ⬇️

I think it could be fun to explore the way Hiccup has a ton of hand-me-downs and spends a lot of time patching up old clothes, or adding custom painted patches to his bags. Maybe he knows how to sew just from patching/mending. I like that in the movies we see him doing bith heavy work in the forge, and having gentle hands as an artist. I think he'd be good at a ton of different diy skills and put them to practical use with his wardrobe.

In canon, Hiccup does have a lot of leftist and punk ideology; The Edge is literally equal-ownership equal-imput everyone else just decides he runs the show. And he literally changes the dominant mindset of the society he lives in to better the life of both his people and the ones they've been at war with for decades. Hes pretty punk... but I don't see him going so far aesthetically as to be a full Spiky Punk TM. He's always on the move, working on something, or chilling outside with Toothless, so I think a more casual comfortable style suits him. Though I do think he would like jackets with extra straps and buckles on the pockets and stuff, and maybe a good belt bag + leatherman combo. Totally the type to always have a pocket knife. He'd paint himself patches and slap a few of em on his bags, coats, maybe over that burn hole in his jeans that's been annoying him. He'd favor practicality over aesthetic, but he still has a sense of style. As he gets older he probably leans into the edgier style, wearing more black and red combos, more strappy belts/coats/bags, and even gets a few tattoos. But I do see him as a grungey earthy engineering guy with comfy, often oversized silhouettes.

Jack I could see being super impulsive and latching onto pop culture; something emos were notorious for. I, personally, was clamoring for a branded tee shirt the moment I deemed a band good enough to youtube->mp3 to my ipod. I could see Jack doing that kind of thing, and latching onto this misunderstood invisible-yet-visibly-different identity. He probably favors dark blue, brown, and black. Deffinitely the type to get on the colored jeans trend when it hit. Maybe he even doodles little swirling patterns on his clothes when he's bored- an adhd habit I know all too well.

Without being, yanno, dead, Jack's Different Look would probably come just from him wanting to express himself. He feels isolated and finds it hard to make lasting friends because when people *do* notice him, they tend to see him more as a silly little jester than a person worth getting to know. He copes with humor and trying to get attention every now and again but ends up with a closer knit group of oddballs. He's good with kids, of course, and tends to take on a cool-big-brother to anyone in need of one. All of this playing into this casual and easy-going but edgy, kinda emo look. He probably listens to sad emo music while sitting on a roof, staring at the moon, contemplating his purpose in life. He pretty much does that in his movie so it isn't much of a stretch lol.

Anyways, feel free ro give your 2 cents and build onto or off of this as you please, I'm just brainstorming I guess. Thinkin aloud... visually. I tend to like psychoanalyzing characters and it's interesting to me to think of Hic & Jack's canon portrayals and what they would mean in a modern-human AU.

#mad ramblings #grunge/emo AU #hijack #AU ideas i guess #i psychoanalyze pixels #because i love them #frostcup

[dykefaggotry]

not sure how much traction this will get but! I just got top surgery friday and here's a short list of things I either wish I was told or wish was talked about more that might help some others!

you have to be so so so careful with what meds you take in the month/weeks leading up to surgery. I fucked up and got mine delayed by over a month because my adhd mixed up ibuprofen and tylenol. check the packet they give you a million times and if you're unsure about absolutely anything, ask. but in general: tylenol is the only pain med that's okay to take in the week leading up to surgery. be honest about alcohol/drug use because there's specific instructions for those as well.

a lot of insurances will need you to make sure it's coded as gender affirming surgery rather than plastic surgery or they won't cover as much of it. make sure you ask your insurance if there's anything like that that might screw you over later.

if you have a chronic condition like I do (type 1 diabetes) you and your surgeon might find it best if you stay overnight. if not, you'll likely be sent home day of so make sure you have a responsible adult that can drive you to and from your surgery.

if you are fat, that is totally okay and there's plenty of surgeons that will work with you. however, make sure your surgeon/hospital doesn't have a bmi/weight limit. it's bullshit and completely unfair, but you may have to look elsewhere (I'm lucky and my surgeon was amazing about that). besides, they probably aren't very good at their job if they have that and you'll find better care with another surgeon anyway

speaking of being fat and getting top surgery, ofc it's all personal preference, but I'd really recommend considering leaving some fat on your chest. fat cis men have some fat on their chests and it's easy for it to look concave if your surgeon removes all the fat. discuss some options w your surgeon and look up post op pics of other fat people that have had top surgery to find stuff similar to what you're going for!

they are going to put you on strong pain meds after, probably oxycodone. if you have a history of addiction or a family history, be aware of that and talk to your doctor about other options if you would rather not take it. if you've never taken oxy before, nausea is a super common symptom so you can totally ask your doctor to prescribe you an anti nausea medication to take alongside it. it doesn't always 100% help so I would also recommend making sure you don't take it on an empty stomach.

honestly, for me the pain hasn't reached above a 6. everyone is different ofc but it's a very dull achey sort of pain. the worst parts, according to me and others I've known who've gotten top surgery, are: nausea, itching, fatigue, constipation, the drainage tubes tugging (and if you don't have gauze under them like I do, chafing), and for me I've started to get back pain from having to sleep sitting up

have a ton of pillows on hand because you're going to have to sleep sitting almost the entire way up on your back. it sucks.

have easy to open and grab snacks piled up! even if you have someone around to help you, sometimes you won't have an appetite for a whole meal and it's always nice to still be independent

speaking of constipation, invest in some milk of magnesia or ask for medication to be prescribed to help you with it. the anasthesia and oxy are gonna work together to make you miserable on that front.

drink plenty of water! make it fun w packets if you have to but your body just went through major trauma and you're going to need it

every surgeon/hospital has different instructions. I see a lot of these posts and they'll list certain things as total fact that are completely contradictory to what I've been told and what my boyfriend was told when he got his. this isn't to say either one is correct, but in general take these posts with a grain of salt and go with whatever your surgeon/hospital instructs you to do. especially as far as exercise, arm movement, showering, etc is concerned.

#top surgery

[katapotato55]

psychonauts theory/analysis/headcannon: an analogy on neurodivergence?

spoilers for psychonauts, the rhombus of ruin and maybe psychonauts 2 these games are amazing please play at least the first game. the first game is only like 10 USD on steam and it is often on sale for waaay less. it is a very good underrated game. also TW: mentions of childhood abuse and personal experiences. you have been warned.

I will mostly talk about the first game. Yes i am aware i am probably overthinking it. I think we all know the first game isn't the most accurate to mental illnesses. The original game came out 18 years ago and was meant to be a dark comedy game rather than a sensitive depiction of mental health. I am not going to go into that aspect because time have changed since it released and I think it is redundant, but if you want my opinion I thought most of the jokes were hilarious. the first game wasn't meant to be a good depiction, so i take it for what it is and laugh along with it. I think the fact I relate to some of the characters makes it funnier personally.

but no, today I want to bring up a head cannon/theory thing: being a psychonaut is a metaphor for being nerodivergent. bear with me, here is my reasoning.

1- Raz's opening speech in the first game. "you were born with a special gift, but the people around you treat it like a curse. your mother is afraid of you, and your father looks at you with shame in his eyes" "back home your powers make you a loner, an outcast, a circus freak, but in this dojo, in this psychic dojo, they make you a hero." no explanation needed, this speech touched me in a way even if it is a bit corny. This bit here establishes that being psychic is still very taboo in this universe, as if being psychic is seen as something wrong with you rather than just an aspect you were born with. In this point in the games timeline, being psychic is slowly becoming less taboo and more of a valuable asset to society.

2- Raz's family a little bit ago i made a list about how much i hated the interns from the second game and how Agent Forsythe's actions against Raz felt a tad forced. I do not feel the same way about Raz's family. why ? well for one Raz has known them his whole life, and that "psychics are bad" came from SOMEWHERE. It is also implied that a lot of the biggotry came from his mother more than his father oddly enough. i am about to say something that is not for the faint of heart. please be advised. are you ready ? Are you sure you are ready ? meat circus. OK good now take a minute to calm down from your traumatic flashback from reading those words and then continue. The end level of the first game depicted Raz's struggle with his father. Raz was constantly under the impression that he was hated because of how his parents talked about being psychic. then Raz's father told him what he REALLY felt about his son and what was really happening. this hit me hard. some nerodivergent disorders are genetic, like in my case ADHD. and when a genetic disability exists and the family does not know they have it, then often times it is harder to get help due to prejustice. it is the "oh we are normal! i acted just like you when i was your age!" mentality. my whole life i have been told that "you are not [slur for disabled that starts with R]! you just need to get better at school! stop being lazy!", and then later i would learn one of my parents was just like me and hid it for their own safety. i can totally see "fortune teller" as a kind of slur for psychics truth be told. imagine being told as a child you are not a "fortune teller" and that "fortune tellers" are bad, and you being told that makes you feel like something is wrong with you. You feel like no one in your family loves you. It could be that Raz's father hid his psychic abilities from Raz's mother so he wouldent be scrutinized, while also hurting about what happened to his family in the past. It was the "fortune tellers" fault he was like this, so how could he love himself for being one? A headcannon I have was that Raz's mother already had pretty problematic thoughts about psychics, so when Raz's father discovered he was psychic he hid it away due to how it hurt his family and how they could react. It is established that psychics can find out they are psychics way later in life, such as mila's memory of the orphanage burning down and her suddenly being able to hear the voices of the dying children. This is somewhat accurate to adult diagnosis in my opinion.

3- Whispering rock could possibly be a special needs camp note: there is a difference between programs that teach you how to cope with your disability, and programs that basically abuse kids. Fuck autism speaks, fuck ABA programs, and a big fat special middle finger to Judge Rotenberg Educational Centre (don't google it unless you want to be angry). this bit here is a little obvious, but i thought i should point out that in the end of psy 2, agent forsythe mentioned teaching raz's family how to use their abilities safely. as I mentioned, some people find out they are psychic later in life, which is pretty common with nerodivergent disorders. It could be that whispering rock is a way to teach kids how to cope early in life so they don't struggle with it worse later on. this one is a bit of a stretch i will admit, but i got something way stronger next up:

4- Dr Loboto Dr loboto came from an emotionally neglectful home. His parents would remove toys from him and he would use his psychic abilities consistently to act out. this is normal for an emotionally neglected kid. his parents did not want a child, they wanted a perfect "doll" to do as they wanted. they loved the idea of a perfect ideal family and not actually having a child. and so they lobotomized him. Lobotomization was very common in the 50s. It was seen as a cure-all for all mental issues. housewife acting out? being her in to get snipped. child acting out? ice pick procedure. 9 times out of 10 it would end up making existing issues worse, or cause said patient to turn into a vegetable, or even death. If you want a famous case, see president JFK's sister. This hits me hard personally in multiple ways. I can see this as being a reflection of how people would "cure" their autistic kids by getting them lobotomized, or how in the modern day we still try to "cure" kids by abusing them and hurting them. Sometimes it wasn't even nerodivergent kids, just acting out is enough for people to do this! One of the reasons why i was diagnosed as an adult was the fear of doctors and teachers wanting to dope kids up to keep them quiet, god forbid an 8 year old is a little energetic, adhd or not. dr loboto is a traumatized broken man that was forcibly given brain damage because his parents loved the idea of a child rather than the child they made. I am lowkey kinda proud that he became a dentist to spite his father.

overall, i have heard people mention that psychonauts is a metaphor for being LGBT. I can see it, but honestly i feel as though the metaphor for nerodivergence is more strong. truth be told: we have a very similar history of bigotry, gaslighting, and abuse. we are siblings you and I, and our brotherhood will last generations. We are brothers and sisters and neithers in our pain. anyways that is my theory, let me know what yall think! I know i can come off as a little aggro but i genuinely would love to hear your thoughts!

#psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #razputin aquato #dr loboto #nerodiversity #nerodivergent #adhd #adhd tag #adhd stuff #adhd culture #adhd feels #autism #neurodiversity #neurodivergence #my adhd #actuallyautistic #autism spectrum #asd #child abuse #abuse mention #child neglect #emotional abuse #emotional neglect #neurodivergent #headcanon #headcannons #theory #analysis #theories #speculation

[am-i-interrupting]

Requesting a Hazbin Hotel Matchup!

I would prefer a male character! (Despite that, I am an ace lesbian. I just wanna indulge my comphet fictional crushes iykwim + i prefer more of the male cast in hazbin. I totally understand if you'd prefer to match me up with a female character) I use she/they pronouns.

A few personality traits of mine would be hardworking, clumsy, compassionate, and playful. I am a workaholic, and often work myself to the bone. Ironically, to others, I try my best to ensure they don't overwork themselves. I'm a bit of a people pleaser to the point where I jeopardize my mental health, but I'm working on it. I'm decently good at appearing mature and socially adept (if a bit anxious) when around strangers, but around those close to me, I admit I am a bit of a baby, being playful.

I have ADHD, a Depressive Disorder, and strongly believe I have Autism. Some jokes, sarcasm, and flirting goes iver my head, but if I notice, I do like to play along. I like cutesy pastel colored clothing in a sort of streetwear style. Like, cargo pants are great but I also love cute skirts. I'm an artist and a gamer. I like to animate and am working towards developing video games! My love language is definitely physical touch and quality time. Hugs are important to me. I like being close to people I care about, even if we're not doing the same thing. Parallel play is peak to me.

My music taste swings around wildly. I've always been a sucker for vocaloid and musical theatre songs. Lately, I've been listening to Epic The Musical and Calliope Mori. I love to sing and play the violin, so any music that I can vibe to, I like. I like plushies quite a bit, even though it's childish. My sense of humor is nonsensical even to me. I laugh a lot, basically, from dark jokes to antihumor.

I'm unsure of my demon form, to be honest. I'd probably have something to do with video games or art, and my favourite animals are small round birds (like the white-browed tit-warbler), jellyfish, and frogs. Feel free to describe my sinner form however you want! (I am short though)

I hope this isn't too much haha I just realized how much I rambled

I don't really want full NSFW headcanons, but some spiciness/non-explicit stuff is good.

Thank you!

-👾 (so i can find this later)

Your Match Up Is. . .

Lucifer!

You probably met him at the Hotel.

Now, Lucifer wasn’t immediately obsessed with you. No, no, he had his daughter to focus on.

However, you caught his attention soon enough.

It was actually while working on the Hotel rebuilding that you caught his eye.

With you darting around from place to place, making sure everything got done while also making sure everyone else took a break, you made yourself known.

Unfortunately, no one made sure you took a break so he took that role upon himself.

It probably took some convincing but eventually he got you to do it.

Over time you two got closer and closer.

It was one of those things were everyone else realized you were both in deep for each other before either of you did.

This is because neither of you recognized when the other was flirting. . . like at all.

It would probably be Angel or maybe even Charlie saddling up to one of you going, “Soooo, when are you gonna ask them out?”

Immediate denial followed up by very intense analyzation of every single one of your interactions with each other because what are they talki. . . Ooooh, you see it now.

It’d be a while before you two got together.

When you did though, prepare for heaven in hell.

Wow, Lucifer sure is a catch.

He is so sweet and so caring.

He is able to recognize signs that your depression is getting worse because of his own and together you’re able to help each other through the spirals.

You’re also able to give each other advice that actually works with you AuDHD brains because there is no way that man is neurotypical.

Get ready to be able to infodump any time you want to and be listened to with the most attention. He is asking all the questions.

You’re making a game? What genre? What animation style? What’s the main story line? What’s that side character that you made too detailed of a background for? Tell him everything.

You like drawing? He likes making ducks. Can you draw him ducks for him to make when he’s in a funk?

And you have plushes! They can be friends with his ducks.

If he hears you listening to a song from a musical, it’s over. You’re not doing whatever it was you were doing. You are now obligated to reenact the scene from him.

He loves dancing with you.

Sometimes though, he can get a bit in a Gomez Addams-like mood and he’ll just start kissing your arms, then your neck, the one thing leads to another.

This man is big on oral.

Cuddles after. Always.

He is a big cuddler.

This man is so touch starved it’s not even funny.

He intends to make up for it so a hand is almost always on you. He is always in your space.

You are never falling asleep without being cuddled again.

#hazbin hotel matchup #hazbin lucifer x reader #lucifer x reader #hazbin hotel lucifer morningstar x reader #spider Anon #???? #I honestly have no idea what that is #and it won’t let me copy it

[newtonsheffield]

Impostor Syndrome and the feeling of being completely useless is such a real thing and it’s great that Anthony has someone to help him with it and he’s there for his son. As an ADHD person, it’s horrible when we see things that other people are doing without any effort at all and we’re just like “god why can’t I do that. Do I really have a problem or am I just too lazy or too stupid to do it?”

The world is so mean to us, I’ve listened to the most vile things at school, from actual adults, telling me just how I was lazy, I was stupid, I was faking it because I wanted an easy pass, that if I just tried harder I would be able to do the things I could do it because everybody did it and I’d go home and cry because I was trying my damn hardest and I probably was just stupid like people were saying. I had a school classmate tell the entire school they should stay away from me because I was crazy, since I took controlled psychiatric medication when I was 11.

ADHD is so much more than just lack of attention. It messes with the way you feel, the way you Interact with people. The world is not made for people like us and it fucking sucks. It took me YEARS to understand that it was not my fault and accept me l how I am.

I can totally imagine how hard it would be for Anthony, someone who felt it on his skin to have his kid go through the same feeling of helplessness he had to go through.

Can we see some badass protective dad Anthony from ATIM???

Ily, Molly ❤️

Ps: I miss offside lol

Ps2: the new chapter was amazing, I would like to personally murder Baz.

I think obviously this is something Anthony's really sensitive about, it's why he reacted so strongly when Kate implied that he should have known she wanted him to stay over because she offered it. And no, his ADHD isn't the reason he didn't pick up on it, but he felt that prickle of awareness that had been so frequent in his teen and childhood years. The feeling that everyone else knew something he didn't and he hated it. He hates being made to feel stupid.

And of course, once Kate realises this is a huge trigger for him, she'd never say anything like that ever again. In fact Anthony's heart fills with love when Kate gives him for his birthday one year, a recording of her reading his favourite book series. Because she knows how much it meant to him to feel seen when he read those books as a kid, and she's always laughed when Anthony had sighed You've got my favourite voice. And he also loves that Kate will sit down with him and, without blinking talk to him about the new techniques she's been reading about, and she doesn't do it slowly, or as if he's stupid, she talks to him as a professional equal. And he loves the way she loves their children, all of them, but especially the way she loves Miles with the same fierce intensity that she loves him. Crouched in front of Miles, her eyes locked with his while she gives him one clear instruction at a time, her smile so beautiful when she kisses his forehead. Milo, you are doing so well.

And he loves her for how fiercely she shakes her head when they get Miles' diagnosis, and Anthony feels those old insecurities claw at his throat and his wedding ring feels so tight on his hand, and he feels like she's stuck with him.

"Kate, I'm sorry, I'm- we should have- I don't want him to go through this. I don't want him to have to be like me."

Kate cut him off with her arms tight around his chest, tucking his face into her neck. "You are my favourite person, Anthony. If every child we had was just like you I would be so happy. And maybe it'll be hard for him but we are going to love and support him and look at how amazing you are. He'll be just like you."

It stings in his chest when he takes a shuddering breath and his hands still shake but he gets it out. "I love you."

"I love you too."

And yet it still stings when he overhears it. Not from children, who can be so cruel because they don't understand. But from parents who should know better.

"God, imagine being a doctor and having your kid struggling to read."

"The apple rolls away from the tree sometimes I guess." Another woman said before they both burst out laughing and Anthony snapped. But he crouched in front of Miles first.

"Hey, look at me, buddy."

Miles still stared down at his shoes, "Daddy, I'm sorry, I- I try. I'm trying but it's so hard."

"Hey, I know and you never have to be sorry for who you are okay? I love you, and Mummy loves you, and one day this is going to seem stupid but you aren't. Do you understand? Different isn't stupid."Miles nodded slowly, Anthony's heart pounding in his chest when he gave him a tight hug. "Go find Neddy and meet me at the car okay? It's just over there, Mummy's there with Charlotte."

Anthony waited as Miles sprinted off, his backpack jostling before he turned to the women, pretending not to listen a little awkwardly and tried not to let his voice shake.

"He's got dyslexia and ADHD, and even if he didn't want gives you the right to talk about my son like that? He's six years old! And he's struggling enough without people like you weighing him down."

"Well I-"

"It's just ignorant, educate yourself, and do better. You're adults and if you aren't old enough to know better, which I firmly believe you are: You're old enough to learn." He forced a smile on his face before he said "Have a nice weekend."

His heart was still pounding in his chest when he slammed the car door, his pulse hammering as Kate whispered. "I know this isn't the time but protective Papa Bear is your sexiest look to date."

And he can't help but grin when he turns to his wife and says- "Keep it in your pants Dr Sharma."

(Your classmate is a shitty person and I'm so sorry this happened to you. Ignorance is a disease man.)

#all i am (all that i ever was) #kathony #anthony x kate #kate sharma #kate sheffield #anthony bridgerton #molly’s asks and answers

[thewertsearch]

Asks Compilation 20/11 - 1

Young Pupa flies through the window of a fairy girl's respiteblock, falls on the floor, and has trouble getting up like an enormous pansy. The fairy girl then helps him walk again, and in return, he teaches her to fly, even though she probably already knows how to fly. Because she's a fairy. They fly out of her window together, and have magical adventures for many sweeps thereafter. To be honest, you hardly know a damn thing about Pupa Pan. But you do not care.

This is true. Even Vriska seems aware that she's misunderstanding the story - note that she herself points out the contradiction inherent in teaching a fairy to fly.

I guess it's possible that in Pupa Pan, the characters of Wendy and Tinkerbell have been combined - but it's much more likely that Vriska just doesn't give a shit about the lore, since she literally tells us that's the case.

I basically agree with your core point. I think Vriska really does believe that this training will make Tavros stronger. I also believe that she genuinely wants to help him grow.

...but I also think she's fully aware that it's cruel, and is enjoying tormenting him.

I'd need to see a lot more evidence before I'm willing to accept that Vriska actually likes Tavros in any sort of genuine or positive way. It feels much more like black romance to me.

[ This was all around page 2383 - C ]

Vriska loses a lot of points for what she considered doing to Tavros - but she didn't go through with it, and that doesn't mean nothing.

As I said at the time - there are some things even Vriska won't do. Why she considered it, and why she stopped, are complicated questions, and I think I'll be going back to this moment later in her arc.

Yeah, it really implies a lot about blue-bloods, and none of it is good. I know I'm a broken record at this point, but Alternia is absurdly fucked-up.

Jury's out. I think they're mostly human, since Nanna seems had a child with a non-Player - but then again, Dad could have been adopted. Who knows?

I think they'd start with toilets, and then move to progressively heavier and heavier objects, in order to test the limits of the Sburb cursor.

If it packs enough force to toss a bathtub around, what else can it do?

Haha, nice catch.

Let's say 'SS Tier' isn't a tier at all - it's a flag I apply to a single character, designating them as my current favorite. The hypothetical S+, however, would be an actual tier.

I've never seen it! That does explain what the fuck is going on here, though. I thought this might be an in-universe troll celebrity that Tavros idolized.

I'm lucky enough never to have known this type of person - although Vriska's personality does remind me of more than one middle manager I've encountered professionally.

To be honest, it's hard to tell which trolls canonically have disabilities, and which ones Karkat is just being a prick to.

I don't, to my knowledge, have any of the disabilities depicted in the comic, so I don't have much valuable insight to contribute. Hopefully we get an ADHD troll soon?

Hey, good point!

Although, I'm not sure if there's any hard evidence that the troll meteors didn't land in the brooding caverns. I guess the fact that the caverns are underground might present a problem, but the meteors could have fallen into crevices. Sgrub could totally make it happen.

Aradia, for sure - but her metal body would just make it explode.

This particular accidental reference has always been a pretty hard sell for me. Does anyone know for sure whether Hussie had heard about Lord British before the 'glitches' page?

Wait, why apples?

Oh, ok, that makes sense. It was his second ever message!

That's honestly such a cool title. - The WERT blogger.

I like it. I never considered that the positioning of the Kingdoms relative to the rest of the session would be a factor in the outcome of the war, but it makes perfect sense.

When you actually think about it, Derse could win the war on day one simply by annexing the Veil, preventing Prospit from cloning reinforcements. I guess that wouldn't be sporting, though.

This is true. We don't have the computational resources to solve chess - and there's a good chance we never will.

Interestingly, though, chess probably could be solved in the Homestuck universe, via the leveraging of computational resources from alternate timelines.

#asks #full liveblog #act 5 #yep this is comp 1 of 2. I've built up a hell of a backlog lol

[sihtricfedaraaahvicius]

uhh so a little ramble under the cut about my mental state and our boy Arnas (not connected I swear)

first of all; I've been overwhelmed by all your sweet comments and messages about my engagement! Truly, it has been so heartwarming, and the reactions were so unexpected that I barely replied to anyone, but to all of you: thank you so much! it means a lot that many of you not only enjoy my fics, but also seem to genuinely like me for some reason haha!

ahh other than that, I'm having a weird, bad mental day, which is also a big reason why I haven't been responding to many dms/replies, not just here, but also on insta or anywhere else some of you may have me on. it's nothing personal if I read and don't reply, I often forget (hello adhd), but today it's also because I'm just fighting with myself again. however, I'm okay and I know tomorrow will be better. I just gotta let these days happen.

AAANYWAYYY, so, tomorrow! big day, huh? If I'm correct, the first 3 episodes of the Wheel of Time will drop in my country at 2AM (which is in about 3 hours). since we don't know which episodes Arnas will be in, I have no idea if it's worth staying up for, but I want to try to watch at least the first episode when it airs (will probably fall asleep before but ehh) anyway, since my boyf- fiancé?! watches the show with me, I probably won't see the other episodes until later tomorrow afternoon (he found out last night Arnas will be in the second season and he was not happy lmao) BUT, as I want to avoid spoilers; I won't be online much here until I've seen the episodes. I do want to warn that IF Arnas is in the first episodes and I can get some decent stills, I will be sharing them here. I try to keep it spoiler free, but just a heads up. I am considering to not put the taglist in any possible edits because I know/understand not everyone can watch it the first few days. so yeah... there's that. I will be updating as soon as I got something, due to timezones, I will probably be very late with any footage, but it is what it is, isn't it? however; please please show our beloved Lithuanian man some love and go stream those episodes when you can. share it with your friends, share it with their moms and their pets, and with your uncles. it's a big moment and I am so excited and I know he'll make us proud but, not going to lie, due to the lack of content we've seen of him, I am not having high hopes that he's like... super in it. unless they are going to totally surprise us (which I hope), but alas, support this show!

okay well this was a lot no one asked for bye-

#personal #some Masema/WoT warnings

[ladyluscinia]

I've been trying to put my finger on something and I might be getting close.

I think a number of posts about Edward's character and his social relationships have - perhaps inadvertently - gotten a bit caught up in the negative space of what Edward isn't. It's not uncommon to see people start from the premise that Edward has an extremely limited set of traits that actually count as "personal" - like enjoying fashion, being silly... The stuff he bonds with Stede over, pretty much. Plus a dash of childhood trauma and racial / class struggles. Those become both the only truly Edward things that other characters can genuinely like, appreciate, or empathize with about him, and the only meaningful things worth engaging in with others to Edward himself. Everything else is just persona, or work stuff, or keeping up appearances, or otherwise false and shallow.

From that premise, it does logically follow that Stede is his closest person (the system is built off of his standard), and several Revenge crew have had bonding moments (Frenchie at the party, and Lucius helping with the breakup), but overwhelmingly Edward has wholly disappeared behind Blackbeard to nearly everyone who knows him. Izzy and the rest of his crew before Stede obviously didn't know he would enjoying wearing a silk robe in the evenings, and therefore they didn't know the real Edward at all.

Only... That's not really how people work???

Sticking with completely surface level readings for an example, Izzy basically says to Edward's face that he likes and respects him for being brilliant. Point this out, and you get chided that he only likes Blackbeard for being brilliant, not Edward. But... Edward is brilliant? Izzy isn't basing this belief on legends. He's on the human side of the fuckery. He knows that Edward reads weather patterns out of the clouds and uses powder and harnesses to descend out of smoke. Hell, he even sees Edward fuck up more than once. He's not talking about some inhuman power there. He's acknowledging what Edward - purely Edward! - has actually done that Izzy has seen with his own two eyes. And he thinks it was brilliant!

There you go. One actual thing about the real Edward that Izzy likes, and that Edward definitely seems to appreciate getting recognition for. (Stede, btw, likes his brilliance in much the same way.) Just because it's a part of him that he also uses for being Blackbeard doesn't make it a lesser or shallower aspect of Edward.

Edward is so charismatic. I bet his crew thinks he's super funny. He's likely a decent sparring partner and pretty fun and creative with that too. Excellent storyteller. Do we think he cheats at cards or is he just naturally lucky? Or maybe he loses every hand, lol. He's got that "car keys in the fridge" ADHD which can totally be endearing to people who know you, and no way in hell does a man who puts 7 sugars in his tea like a psychopath hide a hell of a sweet tooth for 20 years, ship life or no. I bet he always got so excited about fresh fruit.

There are So Many Things that could have been part of knowing Edward during his decades of piracy that are also authentic 100% Edward things. Some of them he probably worked into his Blackbeard mask, and some of them are the dumb little shit that makes a person themselves. Most probably come up in sailing / piracy stuff because piracy is his life.

Like, the stuff Edward has been repressing is also authentic Edward stuff, and it is clearly meaningful for him to finally be expressing it, but I don't think it makes sense to conflate "being surprised by new facets of Edward (that are coming seemingly out of nowhere during a mid-life crisis)" with "never having known the real Edward and discovering just now you do / don't like him." It's obviously not healthy for him to re-repress, so at some level these traits are not going anywhere, and anyone who likes him will have to accept that (and learn to like all of him) long term. However, learning someone has a side you didn't know about and being a bit thrown by it is not unusual. Especially not when his repression was rooted in childhood trauma, so all that stuff was locked up long before piracy culture.

People will act like you are making bold and unsubstantiated claims if you say Izzy likes Edward as a person not just as Blackbeard, but I find the notion that "Blackbeard" as a human guy you live down the hall from is somehow substantially different / distant enough from the real Edward 24/7 that only liking Blackbeard is plausible to be a very bold claim.

#our flag means death #this has been in my drafts for a while and i'm not sure it's *entirely* what i want to say but i'm tired of poking at it #i know a lot of this debate is just people talking past each other #meaning different things by 'friend' or 'the real ed' or 'intimate relationship' #but like. i find characters putting on an act that takes over their whole life really interesting. but edward just is not that #he's got a rep that he's uncomfortably aware of sometimes but he does not have the crushing strain of being fake *all the time* #blackbeard ofmd #edward teach #ofmd meta #izzy hands ofmd #stede bonnet ofmd #ladyluscinia #my meta

[gkt-tummyaches]

hii, im just kinda curious so sorry if this is kinda annoying 😭 but what are ur thoughts on blossom x boomer?

blossoomer is… fine. i don't have any strong positive opinions on it but it's honestly just cus of the fanon tropes i see for it. 'nerd x idiot' is a dynamic i hate, and the various 'autism x adhd' that's been shoved down my throat is getting a little tiring too.

it's all pretty stigmatizing, and centering a ship entirely around those two facets is enough to just make me lose interest. i don't hate blossoomer, but i've definitely been put off it more than once.

factor in that in [my] headcanon, they don't even share friend groups, so there's not a lot of reason for them to overlap or get together. blossom and boomer are both characters i struggle to really match with anybody romantically, so there's that too.

i don't really have a lot to say about them, though, so this post isn't going to be nearly as in-depth as i try to explore other ships. sorry !

all that being said, i do understand the appeal of blossoomer as well. looking at it without my personal biases against fanon and headcanons, they're kinda cute.

they kind of give me ice cream parlor vibes at first ? like boomer would try to impress blossom with more traditional/classic date locations; the slow-paced ones where you walk around the boardwalk or the park, stop for a coffee or a lunch. inoffensive, not overly romantic or grand gesturing.

he probably is hoping to show blossom that he's able to take things slow. maybe worries about scaring her away.

a total misread of who she is, as by the sixth date, she's probably decided that a monster fight is a way to ramp up the pace a little bit. covered in guts and detritus and questionable fluids by the end of it, a little out of breath, but triumphant and grinning - and if boomer wasn't already smitten, well now he's entirely head over heels because wow.

there's an allure to put-together blossom turning out to be something of a 'dynamite babe' ? you kind of forget she's capable of levelling a cityblock when she spends so much time behaving as a regular, powerless citizen; focusing on her studies, her career path, very normal things that belie just how dangerous she can be.

boomer's a moth to a lamp that way.

the other side of it i think is blossom thinks boomer's just generic retriever boyfriend material at the start. it's not exactly the type of person she'd be satisfied in settling for, so she jumps them into action to see how he'll do.

he's… still kind of a retriever boyfriend. but it seems like after the little spectacle, something's broken down the barrier that kept him passing the boundary into truly engaging. it's like he had kept himself tightly-wound so as not to scare her away - and there's probably history in that, probably been shut down a few times before for being 'too much' - only to spring to life with this newfound reassurance that blossom can take it.

still think they have a healthy dose of respect for their own personal time. they're a couple that, when together, are buzzing with excitement. always in motion. it's surprisingly energetic and social for the both of them given how low-energy and nonplussed they appear to the world independently. seems like it could be fun ! i don't think they'd be equals; lowkey i see blossom kind of envisioning herself as a little above boomer, in multiple aspects. i think if boomer ever caught on, it'd be one of their biggest points of contention: that blossom doesn't see them on the same level. blossoomer also isn't a ship that strikes me as particularly long-lasting because of this. kind of a whirlwind romance ? flying so high until they plummet. messy breakup, etc.

#blossoomer #ppgxrrb #ppg #rrb #powerpuff blossom #rowdyruff boomer #blossom #boomer #ask

[polyhexian]

I'm so used to like. Knowing everything. Any time a doctor tells me I have something im like oh yeah I've done my reading. I know what that is so I can now hold a discussion about it.

This is like... So much different. I've never felt this kind of listless... Floaty... Uncertainty. I've probably been having seizures for twenty years...? And no one noticed. I didn't notice. And hindsight is twenty twenty but now I see so many different times someone should have caught it... And it's not like ADHD where there's shared experiences everyone has I can relate to. Epilepsy causes all kinds of different seizures that look totally different, and everyone has different frequencies and triggers and parts of their brain it affects, and how badly, and how much damage they have... I keep just thinking... What stuff is actually the epilepsy? What's ADHD? What's depression? What's just my personality being weird? I don't know what comes from what. It really explains the very strange way Adderall affected me

When I was younger my mom said I had an "atypical body chemistry" because medication affected me so oddly sometimes... So like. I took Adderall the first time. And if you don't have ADHD and you take Adderall you get fucked up. So you basically know if you have ADHD the first time you take Adderall. Because it fixes you brain a bunch. But when I took it... Nothing really... Happened. I didn't get weird or high. I could feel it working, I could. I think my focus might have been a little better? But my memory was just as bad. I was driving home from a funeral and I remember thinking wow, I am actually like. Paying attention to the road the entire time. Usually when I drive I fall into autopilot a lot. I feel like I'm just doing it without thinking, I'm so used to it. Or I'm not really paying attention, I zone out. But on the Adderall I felt like wow, yeah, I'm not zoning out. That's neat. But it didn't fix my memory or executive function... I still couldn't start things... I couldn't make myself do stuff... It feels like I'm fighting a current to do anything and other people say it makes the current stop but it didn't. And my memory was still fuzzy and dark and it was still hard to remember words all the time. It was... Really strange... That Adderall would do almost nothing. That it didn't make things better but it also didn't make them worse. And that really freaked me out because I didn't know what to even tell my psychiatrist... I'd never heard of that happening and I was so scared he would think I was lying, maybe about all my other symptoms and tell me I didn't have ADHD after all, or something. And now it's like. Well the part of your brain that manages executive functioning and memory doesn't work. Its damaged. Parts of it aren't alive anymore. They're dark and dead and don't work. So even with Adderall, they're still not going to work

And like. I've felt like I was getting worse. But I always thought it was my fault. I was just getting worse like... I was getting lazy, I wasn't paying attention as much as I used to, my memory was never good but it was getting worse... And things were getting harder for me to do... But they probably were. Parts of my brain were dying. But I don't even know how bad it is. How much isn't working? Am I projecting? Maybe it's only a little damaged and I'm seeing what I want to see, what will justify my personality flaws in a way I can brush off as not my fault.

I don't know. It feels really weird. I'm uncomfortable. I want to just like. Read through other people's social media rambles grumbling about their day to day stuff, but I can't really do that. And then apparently bilateral is really uncommon. Most people have this kind of epilepsy in one side or the other but I have it in both. And everyone I've seen talk about their experiences only has it in one side.

And this kind of epilepsy... Is caused by something. You're not born with it. Something had to happen. A head injury or a serious fever. I don't remember anything happening in that time frame... What could it have been? What happened? I don't know.

[futurebird]

No. Nobody is "transing" the tomboys. OMG.

(As a cis woman who is a tomboy and literally screamed "I hate being a girl!" at my mom many times I want to dissect the obnoxious anxiety some women feel when they see trans boys finding out who they are. )

I don't want to link to it, but a TERF group has a video up where a woman talks about how she thinks that if she grew up today she'd "end up" being a trans man.  You see, she was a tomboy, and she's a lesbian and she thinks that growing up today she “end up” being a trans man. Like it’s something that someone can just stumble into easily by mistake.

I don't just want to say "this is nonsense" and leave it at that, because I do think some people have some legitimate confusion and worry about this. But, this is only because you aren't thinking through all the steps required for this to happen. 

Let's walk through it.

Imagine a "tomboy" a young girl with no interest in anything "for girls" she dresses like a boy, does boy stuff. And because sexism exists she isn't looking forward to being treated like a girl or a woman for all her life. "I don't want to be a girl!" she even says.

Let's even imagine that all this makes her parents wonder if she might be trans. What would they do at this point? Probably ask "are you uncomfortable being called 'she/her'? Do you not want to have your girly name anymore? What’s going on?” This changing names, pronouns and how you participate is called "social transitioning.”

For trans kids and tweens its really all they are asking for. Just use different pronouns, recognize the change, let them try it out.  So let's say this girl says "yeah, I want to be Billy not Jane." since she thinks this will address her feelings. This is assuming her parents aren’t able to get to the bottom of her real feelings for some reason. 

Is she now locked in to being a boy forever? 

Will she be dragged to a hospital?

Obviously not. 

So, she tries out the social transitioning.  The name change might not feel off but I'd imagine for a tomboy who's fundamentally mad that girls aren't treated as well as boys ... being called "he" will probably feel... off. 

And this is where, for many reasons some, change their mind. And that's totally fine. The whole damn point is to free people from the constraints of gender rules not to just move people from one restrictive box to another.

But, let's imagine tomboy hides how she feels about this feeling off. So they move on to talking to a psychologist and doctor as she's getting older.  There is a lot of talking and opening up to be done.

"I hate being a girl. The world isn't fair to girls. I wish people would take me seriously even though I'm a girl. I'm a tomboy. If I have to be a guy to get treated right FINE I'll do it."

This isn't what being a trans man sounds like? This is what hating sexism and being a tomboy sounds like. 

"Do you want to have a man's body?"

"Do you want facial hair?"

"Do you want a deep voice?"

The effects of hormones are well documented and explained to anyone who might take them. "tomboys" don't *really* want to be boys. People who take hormones do so because they want the well documented effects. Many trans people don't even take hormones. And it's not like any little girl who likes to play in the mud is going to be fast tracked into this stuff. 

It's not like other medications where parents can sometimes decide their kid needs it. The choice is up to the person taking the hormones.

I think some people imagine that parents could just misread signs of questioning about gender and decide to BAM put their kid on hormones the way that kids are sometimes put on ADHD medicines. We are talking about 17, 18, 19 and up making these decisions-- after YEARS of social transition and talking about what they really feel.

If anything the whole process might be over cautious. I've heard many trans people complain that others think "it's only a phase" which can be really patronizing. 

There is a ton of pressure at every step to not go forward. This isn't something that can be accidental.

Of course this whole discussion omits non binary people.  Part of what makes a "horror" story like this possible is the idea that gender has to be binary. You need to be ALL GIRL or ALL BOY. Even though that's obviously not how people really are.

How much better off so many of us would be if we could grow up with such an understanding! If we could ditch this idea that there is only one right way to be a woman and one right way to be a man.

Not only is this better for trans kids it's better for all of us.

#trans rights