#one of the longest ever WHY

[mathcs]

🌟 SRW Jude leggo

🌟 Drop one of my characters’ names in my inbox and I’ll tell you 10 facts about them / aka this turned into facts from srw!jude's side, really REALLY long version. PART I: turbulence

the dbd occurrence. in the cockpit, jude wakes up in a cold sweat, shocked over one sudden fact: i'm still alive. he quickly realizes that he doesn't know where he is (briefly wondering if it's somewhere on earth for some reason). but right before he's about to remember more, the forces of zanscare and neo zeon suddenly ambush him, completely catching him off guard. to jude's own surprise, his survival and newtype instincts take over. when the murasame activates, he realizes: this machine... it's mine? in his weakened and barely conscious state, he struggles during the battle- when the pilots of the dreisstrager fly in to save him, they're not a moment too soon. jude is even more shocked, and seeing the vessel briefly reminds him of the "yamato", though he isn't sure what that is. as the assist draws the battle to a close, he tries to thank one of the pilots, and faints. however, jude is still alive thanks to them, and unbeknownst to anyone (soon to include himself), he's just escaped death… again.

aboard the dreisstrager. jude finds himself in a hospital bed, and remembers being saved by the pilots. however, the stress of all that's occurred is too much, and he's unable to recall his earlier shock of being alive, including what he was doing before the ambush (a blocked memory due to traumatic stress and the mysterious nature of the dbd occurrence itself). unsettled, jude strains himself to remember everything, but a sudden nausea and bad feeling overpower him. as it passes, he manages to recall his own name. after jude physically recovers and stabilizes, the crew of the dreisstrager are able to formally welcome him at the hangar, and he thanks them properly this time while introducing himself, despite feeling a deep discomfort at the location. due to that feeling, he calmly excuses himself for a moment, looking guilty.

meeting law. jude hears law before he sees him. mixed among others, law's lively voice stands out. suddenly, a deep emotional pain and longing overwhelm jude, and he freezes. everything feels inexplicable until the moment he sees law's face. as he does, jude finally realizes who law is when all memories of his friend come back in an instant, namely— law's death a year ago. and yet law is in front of him now. in a disbelieved daze, jude walks towards him as everyone watches in confusion, and hugs law in a desperate stagger. unable to say or explain anything to the befuddled law, jude can only apologize to him, and begs him to let them stay like this for a little longer, afraid of everything being a dream— until law gently pats his head. the surprise and warmth of it calms jude down as law introduces him to the others. after a long moment, jude slowly releases his friend, taking a polite step back while staring at the ground. when jude lifts his head, law and the others only see an awkward smile. with a laugh, jude says, "sorry about that. the truth is... i just had the worst dream earlier."

closeness and anxiety. the happiness from seeing law again and his presence anchors jude for a while, and he stops worrying about the rest of his forgotten memories. still, time passes as jude grows more accustomed to being on the ship, though missions come easier to him compared to off-duty days. having remembered law and given enough time to process the unthinkable (that law is somehow alive and well), jude begins to struggles emotionally as he recalls and compares the turbulent law that died because of him, and the carefree law he’s able to see every day now. jude knows that the latter law is from a different world (a world with an alternative phase outcome: where law is alive), but doesn’t mind, as law’s cheerfulness reminds jude of how the two of them were years ago. he remembers their shared dorm room from when they were students, and wonders if they could be that way here, too. despite that, jude continues to live alone in his quarters, deciding against asking law. in the meantime, jude spends time with law whenever he can, hoping to make up for the “lost time” with the law he remembers. he thinks about how this law's hairstyle is the way it once was, still wearing his mother's beads, unlike the law who cut his hair. unsettling questions form in jude's mind: why is law still alive? does he come from a 'safe' point in his timeline, before the day that he's 'supposed' to die? if law returns to his own world, will it happen? or here? however, jude is unable to tell this law the truth of 'his' death (and even another “copy” of law who met a similar fate), and instead asks about law's dbd occurrence, and other things about him during their every day conversations. however as the days go by even without change, jude’s silent and growing fear of losing law a third time gradually overshadows their days together.

growing suspicions, destiny’s showdown. more of jude’s memories and nightmares return to him, but he still decides not to tell anyone anything. he starts to miss haro as well, who hasn’t been with him since he first awoke to the dbd occurrence. one night as jude lies in bed alone, he wonders how he and law are supposed to return to their worlds. he suddenly realizes that he doesn’t want that, and that he’s afraid of his missing memories. eventually, jude insists on accompanying law whenever law sorties. meanwhile, jude begins seeing law less, and instead keeps watch over him in secret, often eavesdropping on law’s conversations with others, and slipping out of sight. jude’s actions leads to the rumour, “the ghost of dreisstrager” and also cause morale issues for the crew, with law’s friends noticing the change. among them is kamille, who takes matters into his own hands. his attempt to reason with jude escalates into a confrontation, as jude wants to “save” law no matter what. kamille, seeing the severity of jude’s emotional state and needing to know the whole truth, challenges him to a fight. he knows that jude is in no condition to protect law in the upcoming mission, and due to that, will likely endanger for law, himself, and everyone if he sortiesー or worse. kamille refuses to let the self fulfilling prophecy come true. during the fight, jude loses control, kamille learns the truth about law, and the relationship between him and jude. as jude's attacks become more desperate, his repressed feelings continue to overflow, reaching a breaking point. he screams that law was everything, explaining how law befriended him when they were kids, even though jude felt himself to be so uninteresting and lonely, with his parents always away and working. yet, he then cries out in anger, "so why did it turn out like this? why did he leave after? why'd he have to die for me when he hated me so much?! and i'll never, ever know...!!" still, jude confesses that he can't ever forget about law, and that he still needs him, no matter what happens.

PART II: forwards

beginning of realization. as the dust settles, jude is in complete disbelief, having lost. as his fighting strength leaves him, he’s stunned into silence, only able to utter "… take care of law. please." after kamille reassures him and leaves. alone, jude takes time to reflect on everything he’s been doing. tiredly placing a hand on his face, he can only hope for the best. as the adrenaline wears off, jude barely stops himself from collapsing. as he sees his hand shake, he realizes how weak he is, and how he can't help law if he doesn't change.

newfound trust. jude is relieved when law, kamille, and the others return safely. however, his gratitude is mixed with guilt and realizations. shortly afterwards, he apologizes to kamille and uso alone for his actions. jude confesses that he still hasn't told law the truth because he doesn't want to burden him with any worries or fears since the beginning, taking them on alone because, "those were my mistakes, not anyone else's." jude sees it as a way to atone for law's death, already failing to save him twice. he says that didn't want to get kamille or anyone else involved when he first lied to everyone, out of fear of them getting hurt, as well as being envious of them and their bonds with law as jude struggled to genuinely open up to anyone. however, all this time, law has remained concerned for jude's well being without even knowing why. jude says that he understands that it's unfair to still keep the truth from law, and confesses that he's afraid that law will see him differently and reject him 'again' if he tells him the truth now. however, hearing what uso has to say, jude takes a long moment to think, and decides that he does needs to talk with law. jude thanks uso and kamille for their help, realizing that he should have opened up to everyone much sooner.

confession. jude talks with law, and after apologizing for everything, sombrely tells him the truth. law is understandably shocked at this revelation, never expecting 'himself' to have died... twice, and how different he was in jude's world. law asks for space to gather his thoughts. feeling anxiety well up inside him, jude gently nods, saying that it's okay. as he and law leave in opposite directions, jude turns around to stare at law's back with a forlorn expression. when jude begins walking again with both fear and relief in his chest, he decides to confide in kamille and uso again, as well as to tell them that he's now told law. later, the two tell jude to have more faith in law, and jude chooses to believe.

"you were wrong, i've always believed in you." later, jude and law meet up again, and have a heart-to-heart. at some point in the conversation, jude tells law that he couldn't hear the last words of the law he knew before he died, to due static. jude says he still doesn't understand what law was trying to say to him. but, when law answers with 'his' last words, jude realizes that law didn't hate him until the end, and that law died to save him- this was the real truth, all along. suddenly, jude realizes that he did know this fact once, but forgot it when he arrived in this world. overcome with emotions, the rest of his memories return, and he thanks law. jude remembers that he has to return home, everyone counting on him there, and the reason he has to fight. surprising jude, law gives him a crafted metal bead as proof of their friendship, and as a memento for the other law. jude accepts, promising that he'll keep it forever. with a smile, he then tells law that he's happy to 'meet' him and is looking forward to being friends again, finally seeing law as his own person.

bonds, resuming. jude's change feels awkward at first, having left a unsettling and bad impression most recently. somehow, this occasionally results in comical misunderstandings, as many are surprised by the more affable, docile, surprised, and smiling jude. still, jude hardly minds, and even talks with amuro about everything that's transpired. with the dreisstrager still having missions and tasks to complete, jude works together with everyone, meanwhile helping with off-duty tasks and lending an ear to anyone that needs it. his attitude is reminiscent of his positive time aboard the yamato one year ago, but with newfound confidence. meanwhile, jude makes friends with kamille, uso, amuro, and even quattro, who causes jude to reflect on buer. amazed by their skills, jude decides to learn from them all, wanting to improve his own skills as pilot. jude and law also create a special attack together, powered by their friendship, jude's changed heart, and the metal bead. meanwhile, as the day for them to return to their own worlds draws closer, jude prepares himself emotionally, even though he knows that returningー and parting from law is the right thing to do. on the night before jude leaves, he wonders where he'll wake up again in his world, and that thought pushes him to have one last conversation with law, who also has to leave the next day. jude decides to tell law as much as he can about the current threats he and ludger are facing, and what law should watch out for when he goes back, and in the near future. jude says that he's counting on law to take care of himself, and to say hello to the other jude of law's world. despite jude doing his best to be calm, law still senses his friend's worries, taking his story to heart, and knows that jude wants to help and warn him. as jude tries to remark casually, "i can't go with you, but, i... wanted to tell you that." his sadness begins to show. sensing that, law suddenly says he has a feeling that he and jude (and the other pilots) will meet here again one day, surprising him. grinning, law explains, "yep! it's happened tons of times before, actually. so, you'd better believe i'll stay alive for next time. you think i'd wanna miss out on all this again? same goes for you!" jude feels embarrassed, and says that law should've told him that way earlier, which makes both of them laugh. law tells jude to stop losing sleep over him already, especially since tomorrow is the day. smiling, jude agrees. the next day, when the moment arrives, jude holds the metal bead to his chestー then, he and law fist bump, smiling. jude confidently tells him, "well... i'll see you later." with those words, he leaves. when jude returns to his world, he wakes up gently, remembering everything.

#mail . #ervaurem #long post #one of the longest ever WHY #hoOOHOHO boy 🤣💀 'facts' huh. welp. this turned into the whole package i guess #and a bonus scene near the end :''') i hope its ok. it wrote itself- #and for anyone else reading LMAOO this is g.undam verse!jude but like... 40 episodes later- appearing in a crossover mecha video game's dlc #and he needs therapy (bc he almost ded before this arc but law is also ded but now law suddenly isn't ded but he MIGHT ded) #these are actual words that make sense i promise you

[mimimar]

finally completed my comic based on the song ivy by taylor swift!✿ please zoom in to read the text and see the details~

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you can get the digital zine pdf here! it includes extras like character profiles, costume design, more art of willow and ivy, zine-exclusive sketches and an illustrated guide to the symbolism of all the flowers in this comic.

you can also get prints of individual pages here!

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#ivy comic #it's finally complete!!!♡ this was the longest project ever but i really wanted to do my best on every spread #i also worked really hard on the extra pages for the zine. i hope you like those as well if you decide to get it! #i've been wanting to make this comic since evermore came out in 2020 and i listened to ivy for the first time #i posted the first sketches from this comic on my patreon in 2022 and released the first page last year in 2023 #so it's been a loooong time coming working on this in between other art #i was always disappointed that i got a hand injury back when i was making my dorothea/'tis the damn season comic #so i couldn't give my 100% on every page of that one. that's part of why i wanted to go all out for my ivy comic #and it has a happy ending this time!♡ #thank you for sticking around if you've been reading since page 1 #and thank you also if you just read it for the first time today! #also i didn't plan it but i coincidentally finished this comic exactly on lesbian visibility week. love that #ivy comic mimimar #oc #ivy #willow #taylor swift #taylor swift ivy #ivy taylor swift #evermore #illustration #illo #comic #lesbian #wlw #sapphic #lesbian visibility week #lesbian art #wlw art #sapphic art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Thank you. I'm sorry.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jin guangyao #lan wangij #jin ling #LWJ shifting into fight mode was so damn cool. He is always ready to start throwing hands. #It's in a way that befits someone with a bit more bloodlust that his calm demeanor lets on - but nearly always in defense of someone. #What a great synergy with his personal philosophies! see that he is a Genuinely Noble Guy time and time again! #Is is also way more hilarious and unhinged than most people give him credit for? Also yes. #Nothing and no one ever said he did not or would not rip off JGY's hat mid-fight. I think LWJ needs to snatch more wigs LITERALLY. #Yes I'm delaying the part where I have to address the emotional turmoil of Jin Ling stabbing wwx. It gutted me terribly. #What is worse that realizing that someone you respected has done horrible things #than discovering someone who did horrible things being a kind and trustworthy person? #What is more horrifying that realizing other people are extremely complex and cannot be categorized into black and white? #When people hurt us or our loved ones we very much want to make them out to be irredeemable monsters. But they are not. #It is not actually such a terrible fate to just be a person. To be forgiven and forgive is possible. To change is possible. #This lesson is hard. It is something you have to actively challenge yourself to do. Black and white is the innate path to go down. #And its *why* I love Jin Ling so much. He is the character who fights the longest and hardest to challenge social and personal beliefs #He gets a pass for stabbing wwx for being so deliciously conflicted and tormented by it. #And with wrists THAT limp I can't imagine the wound was particularly deep

[cravingforsweetsbooksandpurpose]

Currently thinking of an Angel AU where Sanji is one of Cupid's angels for the past 800 years. He makes people fall in love. And for angels of love to ascend, reincarnate or reborn they're given specific clients that he needs to fall in love.

But he has a problem. A mold problem. He only has one client left that he needs to fall in love. And it's the lone wandering swordsman with an odd memorable green hair. And no matter what Sanji does. No matter who he matches the swordsman with as every new lifetime pass, the man just never falls.

And so, as Sanji begrudgingly stands on the swordsman's grave alone, he swore that on the man's next life (11th) he will make him fall in love by hook or by crook.

#sanji #roronoa zoro #vinsmoke sanji #zoro x sanji #one piece #zosan #black leg sanji #this is slight angst yall #sanji gave up concealing himself and showed up in front of zoro in the 11th life #his last resort was to annoy zoro to death about opening up and falling in love #zoro still finds love stupid #but falls i love with sanji anyways #sanji doesn't know because angels doesn't “fall” #zoro doesn't want to admit it because he knows once he does sanji will disappear/be gone. his mission will be over. #so he tries so hard to keep his feelings and he knows its impossible. crazy even to love someone that's transcendental #because he had been following Zoro's soul for the longest time he knows he was hiding something but can't make up what it is #zoro thinks all is well until sanji had been weakening. they didn't know why. until they went to an oracle that told sanji had sinned #his wings had started to shed and he grows weaker and weaker. Sanji's sin was Zoro fell in love him and sanji was starting to love him back #to save sanji. zoro was willing to rip & offer his heart up. but doing would remove his feelings but also he can never feel love #or fall in love ever again. zoro says its okay. he didn't want to fall in love with someone that isn't sanji #sanji still doesn't want to bc its the first time zoro felt love in centuries he'd known him. he didn't want to take it away from him. #sanji “dies” but since he was able to make zoro fall in love he passed his rebirth. cupid was moved by their love #so sanji was reborn in the current lifetime with his memories with zoro intact. they met each other after 2 years he “died” #they reunited. zoro met the strawhats during the 2 years. #the end #omg that was pretty long

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Transcript:

Who hell do you think you are? You’re any kind of artist? Anybody knows who you are?

Maybe everybody else wants to enjoy the peace and quiet. This is one of the most important places in North America, and who are you? Who are you? You miserable, presumptuous, no talent- you’re no artist. An artist respects the silence. It serves the foundation of creativity. 

You obviously don’t have the talent. You don’t have enough respect for yourself or other people to know what it means to respect yourself, in music or any form of creativity, and I’m an NYU film school graduate. Sucker. And the school of visual arts in the academy of art university in San Francisco.

You suck. You’re a no talent. If you really have talent go practice and then get yourself a gig instead of ruining the day for everybody down here. You disgrace. You are everything that’s gone wrong in this world. You’re a self consumed, no talent, mediocre piece of shit. And I’ve earned my right to say it, okay? In 1975, I walked Bob Dylan up on stage. Who the fuck are you? I knew the Grateful Dead from 1966.

Who the fuck are you?

You’re nothing. You are nothing. And you will never be anything. Never. How dare you? You miserable mediocre nothing. Shame on you. You crack a stupid little smile, you little pimp. Go learn to play. You’re flat. You can’t even carry a fucking note. I don’t care about your little horn lip, it doesn’t mean you know how to play. You’re flat. I’ve trained classically, I’ve trained contemporaneously, and

you suck. 

Audio source

Original video that's being referenced

#ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #this one was so good it deserved a little effort. not too much though. you cant trick me into drawing that easily #pls dont ask why the style changes 3 times its just funnier that way (lie. i was testing brushes) #i need you to know that i go through these streams at work. and hearing this audio with 0 context almost killed me #filth was picked to be bullied because most enemies dont have mouths. filth also has no arms. which. makes it better tbh #no arms. no lips. worst trumpet player ever. asked to leave hell. #he doesn’t really do long requests so this one is probably the longest clip that will ever end up on here #voice post

[atomicpirateperson]

so I realized that around this time of the year is already past my 1 year anniversary of being hyperfixated on Rob?? time flies

this is the timeline of how it happened according to some vague memories:

1. i happen to see some random video of The Rerun on like, YouTube I think

2. me: hmm i think that one eyed guy is giving some real gender envy– wait. oh no. its happening. he's the new Chosen One, isn't he

3. im not hyperfixated im not hyperfixated im not–

4. I AM SO FUCKING HYPERFIXATED I LOVE ROB FROM TAWOG HE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!!!

5. rob is a major part of my life and my headspace now. i couldn't stop if I tried, because some part of my brain views him as an actual close friend, and therefore abandoning this hyperfixation would feel extremely cruel. i would never do that to him and therefore he will be my imaginary bestie/adoptive son forever. i will never grow out of it. i am perfectly okay with that

#its always been gender envy that gets me hyperfixated on a character. like i dont think its ever been anything else lmao #and by his gender i mean the fact hes kinda just a Funky Creature Thing Whose Species We Cannot Quite Identify. that is the gender #this actually might be the longest character hyperfixation ive had so far... he really is the Chosen One #i used to watch this show when i was in elementary school but i didnt have access to every episode #so maybe thats why i have no memory of him from when i was that young? #or maybe seeing him in that video unknowingly gave me deja vu which is another reason why he initially caught my attention? #5 or 6 years later... the irrelevant forgettable side character from that one weird cartoon crawls out of the deep recesses of my brain #and ends up living in my head rent free #for over a year #and he shows no signs of moving out anytime soon #top 5 comebacks of this past decade-and-a-half (my life) #this is so weirdly poetic in a kinda fucked up but also funny way #wow this whole post is basically just me screaming “I HAVE AUTISM” over and over #rob tawog #tawog #the amazing world of gumball #tawog rob #dr wrecker

[zukkaoru]

sorry i'm thinking abt megumi's incessant desire to be the first to die vs. the narrative keeping him alive despite and how the most tragic ending for him is not actually dying, but being left behind. for megumi, the worst fate is living a long life

#megumi growing up assuming he will be the first to die out of those he loves #bc gojo is the Strongest and tsumiki is a non-sorcerer so they should both be Safe while megumi is just. megumi #vs megumi at 15 having lost tsumiki gojo nobara nanami etc etc and knowing it's only a matter of time before he loses yuuji too #megumi not knowing how to be the survivor because he never thought he'd live long enough to have to say goodbye #also sometimes i think abt that post that was like... remember in thg how katniss' motivation for Everything is saving prim? #and then prim still died at the end because the world they lived in could not allow someone so good to live? it could not allow #katniss the One thing she wanted most #yeah so like. everything megumi is doing and has done has been for tsumiki. it's all been for her #but the world they live in is cruel and tsumiki is too good of a person #and when has megumi ever been granted anything he's wanted? why should the world allow him his one biggest desire of tsumiki's safety? #and what is megumi supposed to do when he outlives the one person who has been by his side - the one person he wanted most to save #how is he supposed to live a long life when everyone he cares about is gone? how is he supposed to care about new people? #what's that one quote that's like. a son or a husband can be replaced but who can grow me a new brother #no one can replace tsumiki. megumi cannot find a new sister #yes losing gojo and yuuji would be devastating. but at the end of the day megumi has known yuuji for only a few months #and gojo was already a replacement for his father #tsumiki has been with him longest and she's always been megumi's main motivation #she's the reason he didn't go to the zenin clan. she's the reason he was trained by gojo. she's the reason they're all in the culling games #trying to fix it from the inside and running on a time limit #and what happens if he CAN'T save her. what happens if. like katniss and prim. despite EVERYTHING. tsumiki still has to die #THIS IS ALL BECAUSE OF TSUMIKI #BECAUSE MEGUMI WANTS TO SAVE HER #DO YOU UNDERSTAND!!!!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE TRAGEDY IN BEING ALIVE WHEN EVERYONE ELSE IS GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #sorry i'm not normal about fictional sibling dynamics. btw if you even care #hello grace here #jjk spoilers #update i just realized it's not even 7am. as you can tell i'm having a great time today

[dazais-guardian-angel]

Dazai truly has become Oda in every way imaginable now. :’ ) the final words he gives to Sigma are the exact same words Oda gives to Dazai in the original scene Asagiri wrote for the end of the Dark Era stage play, 後は頼んだよ, “I will leave the rest to you.”

And I really love the progression of the way his eyes look in this chapter, and how Sigma is allowed to have this moment of questioning and rebelling against all the faith Dazai had naturally been leading him to place in him up to this point, which is what I hoped would happen. He’s been confused ever since Dazai first chose him, and everything he’s ever known about how everyone sees/treats him turned upside down by Dazai’s words and actions, and just when he’s finally started to feel like he’s found some hope and lowered his guard, Dazai pulls him back underwater, instantly reinforcing all of Sigma’s trust issues and reinforcing that he should never believe in anyone, because (he thinks) everyone lives to manipulate other people. Dazai’s dark eyes here reinforce that, too, and the other panels around this point where they look white and hollow and demonic, all like Fyodor’s. He appears like an evil, looming force pulling him back under, trying to kill him, when Sigma is so close to the freedom of the air he desperately wants (aka free from pain, which is what he’s been seeking his whole life).

But then Dazai makes this face, and the first one I posted above, and Sigma understands, even without words, that Dazai doesn’t have evil intent: on the contrary, he actually is bound and determined to save his life -- and the light in his eyes comes out through this determination and kindness, arguably the most light we’ve ever seen his eyes have in the entire manga (in the “I leave the rest to you” panel too). The “No” could be Dazai wordlessly telling him to not leave the water, but my first assumption was that it was Sigma telling himself no, stopping his own train of thought about Dazai being the same as Fyodor and someone he shouldn’t have trusted -- he soon realizes why Dazai stopped him, and that he’s still going to try to save him, that he wasn’t wrong about him, and it’s all because Dazai’s earnest expressions get through to him.

And it’s just so heartwarming to see how far Dazai has come. :’ ) He tried so hard to save Sigma (doing the most physical action we’ve ever seen him do, really), did his best to be reassuring and comforting to him afterwards, and then reaffirmed his promise to ensure he escaped Meursault alive, his final words to Sigma echoing Oda’s and his last action being to save an orphan, just like Oda did in his last moments. Obviously Dazai isn’t actually going to die, he’ll be saved somehow, but I do think as of right now he really does think this is the end for him, and that he didn’t foresee the elevator dropping -- he was examining the wires a few chapters ago because he thought he might need to know how to open the doors in case Fyodor pulled an uno reverse, hence why he looks more annoyed than shocked when the water starts, but here, when the drop collision sequence is initiated, he looks genuinely shook in comparison. There’d be no reason for him to give the thumbs up if he knew more danger was on the way, either; that’d just be cruel. No, I don’t think he saw this coming, and it’s important that that turns out to be the case: it’s important that he spent what he believes to have been his last moments saving someone like Oda wanted for him, and doing what Oda would have done in the same situation. That doesn’t mean that it’s okay that Dazai throws his life away so easily, and cares so little for his own safety; he still has a long way to go in that regard. But it’s still so beautiful to see how much he’s changed, and how much he’s truly begun to embody Oda and his legacy; the fact that he messed up and miscalculated, because Dazai isn’t infallible, but in turn didn’t hesitate to use his last moments to save Sigma. Oda would be so proud for everything he did here. :’ ) 💖

There are a lot of options for how Dazai will be saved, and by who, but personally I hope (and I kind of expect) that Sigma chooses to not give up on him and ultimately plays a role in saving his life, to return the favor and repay him for his kindness. Not only would it be a beautiful way to initiate Sigma’s ADA entrance exam as people have said, but it would bring the Dazai > Atsushi > Sigma chain full circle: Dazai saved Atsushi at the start of the series, allowing him to (spiritually) save Sigma at sky casino thanks to the growth fostered in him by Dazai, and now finally, Sigma could potentially save Dazai thanks to Atsushi kickstarting his own growth (and Dazai continuing it). Fyodor is overly cocky right now and so tunnel-visioned on killing Dazai, it’s possible that he has no idea that Sigma managed to escape the elevator and is now a wild card; even if Sigma doesn’t go as far as killing Fyodor himself (which I don’t want, tbh; that’s endgame stuff arcs down the line and imo Nikolai and Dazai should be the ones involved with that), he could throw a wrench in the jailbreak duel, and help Dazai and Chuuya get out alive. It would be poetic, and only fitting, for Fyodor to underestimate and be outdone by the kind of person Dazai told him is the strongest in chapter 77 -- a self-proclaimed “ordinary man” -- who could only have the strength to take such action thanks to the chain of kindness that Oda originally started. 💖

#bungou stray dogs #bsd 106.5 #meta #this chapter was literally everything i could have wanted i am SO EMOTIONAL #I WILL NEVER BE OVER IT #ASAGIRI GIVING ME LITERALLY EVERYTHING I EVER COULD HAVE WANTED #DAZAI HAS GROWN SOOOO MUCH HE'S BECOME SO MUCH LIKE ODA I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD 😭😭😭💖💖💖 #as soon as i saw that big panel of his face i was like........ he looks like oda......... ASAGIRI I SEE YOUUUUUU #AND THE FINAL WORDS #I SEE YOUUUUUUUUUU #ISTG IF DAZAI THINKS ABOUT ODA WHEN HE THINKS HE'S GONNA DIE BEFORE HE GETS SAVED I WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST #ASAGIRI PLEASE THIS IS THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY I WILL CRYYYYYYY 😭🥺🥹💖 #Dazai was so much like Oda here and Sigma looked just like Atsushi in that one panel DONT TOUCH MEEEE #THIS WHOLE CHAPTER WAS SO PERFECT #I NEED SIGMA TO SAVE HIM NOW #the longest chapter we've gotten in AGES and it was a banger god bless #tbh i really needed this after season 4 lmao i needed a reminder of why i love this series so much :''''') something to soothe my rage #asagiri saw my bitterness at anime sigma and was like 'here u go babe i got your sigma and dazai and oda feast' #probably means next month will be short again and a pov change lmao 🥲💔 #gonna enjoy this while it lasts #anyway i was really happy to see that moment of Sigma getting mad even if it didn't last long (and for a beautiful reason) #because he Deserved that #(because that's what i wrote in my fic and i feel vindicated now even if that wasn't the main focus of this chapter looool oops-)

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Arthur: Without ugly, there would be no beauty in this world.

Theodorus: Thank you for your sacrifice, Arthur.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp incorrect quotes #ikevamp arthur #ikevamp theodorus #ikevamp theo #ikevamp dazai #(if you squint) #honestly this one speaks for itself #every time i see them together in the game im just like 'the girls are fighting!!!!' #vincent erasing the number and replacing it with a zero on a board that reads #'it has been __ days since theo dumped beer on arthur's head at the bar' #longest he's ever gone is 14 days #on the flipside why can i see theo like 'finally useful for smth' at the prospect of vincent shining all the brighter #in accordance with the analogy #and arthur's just sobbing about his troubles to the cpr mannekin/skeleton #he was talking to dazai but we all know dazai and his commitment to the bit #that open window be speaking volumes #source: incorrect quote generator

[vix2section]

#gackt #my scans #aka why is this one of the longest features ever in the whole world jesus christ

[autumngracy]

Not me creeping up to the wordcount of the fourth longest book ever written

#A Reflection of Starlight #AROS #valvert #fanfic #writing #Hey I switched back to LibreOffice again after setting up my new computer #(RIP my old computer's installation of MS Office 2009) #And also my old computer in general as it is now giving me the blue screen of death upon boot #but ANYWAY #does anybody know how to make LibreOffice stop highlighting formatted areas? BC with Dark Mode it's highlighting white text #which makes it impossible to read my footnote and page numbers #Also I CANNOT believe this program was coded to be so that 'Ignore' and 'Ignore All' options only do so for the CURRENT SESSION ONLY #Like what in god's name??? #I spent 3-4 hours reformatting AROS after converting it only to learn that all the 'errors' I told it to ignore just popped back #the second I reopened the document like jesus christ #Why even offer those options if it doesn't do it permanently for that document file #HHHHHHHhhhhhhHHHHHH #I then spent another several hours being forced to change the language formatting to French for all the French bits #JUST so it would stop underlining all of them in red #And there's no way for me to get rid of the underlining on things like cut off bits of dialogue #bc they are NOT proper words and I refuse to add them to my Dictionary (thus polluting it) just to get rid of them #Ugh #So anyway remember years ago how I joked about what if I accidentally wrote a fanfic longer than the source material itself #That being one of the longest books ever written (technically THE longest book ever written #if we're counting the FRENCH version of it and not the English translation #And yeah I know I technically split AROS into 3 books but that was only for reader convenience #It's still one book in my heart #And also because I think it would be REALLY funny to surpass Hugo's wordcount #Which is entirely plausible bc in English it was only about 531k so I only a little over 100k off and I think I can easily make that #with the material I have left to write but is already mostly plotted out

[hecatesbroom]

In tonight's edition of Alys writes a short piece of fluff:

(At least half of this is decidedly not fluff)

#i'm not sure why my brain decided to become functional again for the first time in *2 weeks* in the middle of the night #but i figured i might as well take advantage of it if i can't sleep anyway lol #alys.txt #my writing #(update: i checked and the document has a total of 13 pages now. it's turning into my longest one-shot ever sjkdfj)

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous #and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep #I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :') #way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip #I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home #(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh) #my best friend and I were having a conversation today #and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?' #and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too #BUT I also get what she meant #not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy' #and fun fact #a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!! #which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like #the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!! #and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes #(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me) #'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever #same with my mom's hallucinations as well #and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again #which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that' #fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything #like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds #and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well #which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up #I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today #didn't eat #took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all #had too much caffeine #stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking

[themyscirah]

Thinking about current continuity Vanessa and just getting pissed off again

Like one, LET HER REST oh my god dc you ruin her FUCKING life like an asshole only to bring her back as a villain after she finally got out oh my god-

But also like its just so bad. This is a whole other woman with her name like why are we doing this. Like first you kill her mom (JULIA NOOO) and erase her YEARS of history growing up around diana (the thing that actually made her villain turn [if you can call it that w the level of manipulation involved] interesting and fucking heartbreaking) for some shitty "oh I saved you we were friends" run of the mill whatever. Then to use that and say Nessie had a crush on her OWN SISTER (Diana, so like informally adopted, but still 😡) now????

And then they took away her curls and made her a redhead but not even the realistic kind. DC SHE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT

It just makes me so mad. Freaking guys. They could have used another name like oh my god. She's not even the first silver swan why the fuck would they do that if they're not going to explore her history w diana (which she no longer has!!!!) or how intensely fucked up everything got for her. What is even the fucking point of this then other to drag a main character of the ww supporting cast through the mud again for genuinely no reason. They could have easily had her be Valerie Beaudry (sorry Val) instead or just MADE UP ANOTHER NAME because it's obvious that no one actually cared about her as a character they just wanted the wondy villain back so like !!!!!!!!!! Why even bother

#her entire treatment just makes me so angry #like in general it makes me mad and sad and a million other emotions #but the fucking robinson version just makes me enraged. beyond pissed off. because theres no fucking reason for it its bullshit and its the #one in current continuity right now. so i get to see tom king ww panels put on my dash that have this stupid fake vanessa and its so #infuriating. like thats NOT her!!!!!!! oh my freaking god people #her hair is BROWN and CURLY and shes dianas BABY SISTER who she lived with for YEARS like she was a MAJOR supporting ww character for the #longest time. like shes got about 100 appearances (just checked) preboot this is not a minor character #so freaking frustrating #blah #ALSO. FUCKING ALSO. THE FACT THAT THE WHOLE CURRENT VANESSA TURNED EVIL BC SHE REALIZED SHE WASNT SPECIAL TO DIANA BS. FUCK YOU THERE LIKE #OH MY GODDDDD “isnt special to diana” im going to fucking kill you. what do you mean she doesnt care about her specially. thats her FUCKING #BABY SISTER. not to sound like vanessa herself a la silver swan but those clowns at dc would never say that shit about cassie oh my god #not special my FUCKING ass. nessie and her mom were literally the first people invited to themyscira in post coie continuity #like yes diana trevor and steve trevor and even baby julia kapetelis washing ashore but like the kapetelises (and you could even say just #nessie bc again her mom had been there before) were the FIRST ones invited there like you cannot say diana didnt care about them more than #the average joe dc i fucking despise you. #this girl has been through so much why is dc incapable of throwing her a bone ever. nessie i am so sorry they did that to you sweetie. #gonna tag it bc her tag deserves the traffic #vanessa kapatelis #just makes me so mad #doing all that to the normal teen girl character in a wonder woman comic is so fucked actually like dc comics i should not have to explain #that to you. what message do you think you are sending here be serious

[graciousdragon]

first day back at college updates: class 1 was virtual due to inclement weather, class 2 was still in person but my car and driveway are both covered in ice so my ass is not driving over there (and neither are 90% of the rest of my classmates), and i wrote a public class discussion post about a fanfiction i read that was longer than any of the other posts there

#rys.txt #truly one of the first days of school ever #the fucking discussion post tho. man. i said i would be cringe and free and i fucking did it i guess #i felt a little less bad reading some of the other posts tho because someone wrote about bendy and the ink machine #and someone else wrote about a colleen hoover book #but like. it was actually twice as long as the longest one there 💀 i did a short little plot summary which i don't think anyone else did #so thats probably why #i'm passionate man. what can i say

[lovekenney]

i have yet to find that fic for gallavich. like i have one for my other fav ship but like i havent found a gallavich fic that left me starstruck like everyone talks abt. i do have a favorite one that i love but it hasnt like affected me to a level people talk abt when talking abt their favs. i think i might of found the one but i still need to finish it lmao

#i have my rafebarry one omg its so good #it takes au to a diff level #cause why are we on a pirate ship?? #but idc i still love it more than any other fic ive ever read its also prob the longest #its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good and i love the author they are really cool #ive re read it to many times because it literally takes me hours to read #like when i say hours i mean hours #how does one write smth that good and that long??? #the gallavich one i said is my fav i cant find. i cannot find it. ive looked so hard. (kinda) #it was cute and fluffy #and stuff #like #and the one i still needa finish is like a deaf fic #mickeys deaf #i love it sm #cause debbie is a major character in the fic and they dont make her ooc or hate on her