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#This lesson is hard. It is something you have to actively challenge yourself to do. Black and white is the innate path to go down.

prettieinpink · 4 months

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Cultivating a Growth Mindset

A growth mindset is the belief that one's skills, qualities, and abilities can be nurtured and enhanced through hard work and learning. Adopting this mindset makes you more open to challenges, embracing the unfamiliar or uncomfortable and willing to experience failure.

However, adopting this growth mindset means we must challenge our limiting self-beliefs that reinforce our fixed mindset. Limiting beliefs is the negative thoughts that hold us back, hindering our journey of self-improvement.

RECOGNISE YOUR FIXED MINDSET. Start to be aware of how your fixed mindset, became your everyday internal dialogue. Fear of failure, procrastination, always being in your comfort zone or being a constant quitter could be why this mindset has been reinforced in your mind.

That being said, you need to start being conscious of what you’re saying to yourself daily. If you struggle with that, try speaking to yourself out loud, as it helps to be more aware of what you’re saying.

REMOVE ANYTHING THAT DOESN’T ALIGN, i’m specifally talking about social media. There are so many self degarding or depreciating content(which are always disgusied as a ‘joke’) and the more you consume it, the more you believe it.

However this can apply to your physical environment as well, such as people, sentimental objects or your actual space.

START TO REDEFINE FAILURE. There are so many ways you can define failure, but my favourite has to be failure is the sacrifice for success. Of course, you can research other ways to redefine it that resonates with you.

However, allow yourself to grieve failures, especially if they had a huge impact on your life. The only way you can apply the lessons from failure in life is to process them.

DO SOMETHING CHALLENGING EACH DAY. Whether it is giving yourself an extra 20 minutes at the gym, or trying to advance yourself in your studies, just do something that pushes you and hopefully, makes you struggle.

Once we allow ourselves to struggle and be challenged, we start to develop the belief that being challenged is okay, not doing it perfect on the first try is okay we can still do tasks without them being perfect + you’re also embracing failure.

APPRECIATE YOUR EFFORT. Something is always better than nothing, not everything that we do has to be perfect to consider ourselves accomplished. Once we acknowledge the value of hard work and see how it impacts our day-to-day life, it enforces the belief that we can expand our skills even just by a little.

The perfect way to appreciate your effort is by celebrating or rewarding yourself. Allow yourself extra screen time, to sleep in, or do any of your favourite ‘unproductive’ activities.

SEEK OUT NEW KNOWLEDGE. Not just reading an article and calling it a day, but actively researching something memorable. This doesn’t have to be a scholarly topic, it could be anything. When we start to desire to learn, which is practically the main thing about a growth mindset, it enforces those beliefs.

BUILD RESILENCE. You’re going to fail, struggle, lose and maybe suffer. While it is important to grieve what happens, you should be able to bounce back after some time. Building this skill is so important in the growth mindset, as it helps you to take control of your emotions and not the other way around.

This applies to constructive criticism as well. People will not always give you praise, but that doesn’t matter, what matters is your ability to act on that criticism. An outside perspective always helps to improve yourself and your abilities.

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unknownfortuna · 1 month

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Your Mom

The moon represents many things in our life- including how we viewed our mom. Below is a list of both evolved and unevolved traits you've seen in the relationship with your mom (or whoever you considered as your mom:)

*If you have this sign in the 4th house these traits may apply as well*

Aries Moon- You seen your mom as a hothead. She could've had a reason to fight (or not) but either way everyone knew how she felt.. which was usually anger first. She was a leader and pioneer in her family. The first to do things like starting a family or challenging views on how women 'should' act. She may have been incredibly athletic or just had an explosive energy and confidence about her. At times you may have felt like you were siblings due to her childlike way of acting out her emotions. As she ages, the fire she carries within her only seems to shine brighter when compared to people to her age group.

Taurus Moon- Material possessions, your appearance, status, and the things you need to be stable were a huge part of your conversations. It may have felt like your mom would put these things before you. An unevolved manifestation of this would be having to go without certain necessities (like a new pair of shoes) at the cost of her wanting something for herself that would bring more stability/status (vacation, car, house). Overall, you were taught the necessities in life and how to acquire them- through slow and steady work.

Gemini Moon- The gift of gab. Knowing when to speak, how to speak, and who to speak to were lessons taught. She was incredibly witty and knew how to steal an audience. Unfortunately, conversations may have felt superficial and a bit lighthearted. It may also be hard to navigate certain conversations. Any conversation can be started but it may not go the way you would like. This may have caused you to realize your emotional wellbeing is something you had to navigate by yourself in private. There may be a delay in your decision-making skills and ability to commit to things because of this.

Cancer moon- The nurturer and the protector were two roles your mom played. You may have felt as if her emotions were something that dictated the way she moved when it came to her decision making. I would also argue that it may have been hard to hide things from her. Cancer is at home in this planet and whether it came in a feeling or a certain look you gave her- the slight inflection in your voice- she knew. Family is incredibly important to her and just like the hearth of the home, your mom is the center of the family.

Leo Moon- Your mom was always in the center of everything. A negative manifestation of this could be never feeling like anything in your life was truly private. Somehow details would be leaked, and you realized it was because of your mom. Having fun and somehow feeling like adventures with her was never ending that you became a huge adult child that continues to express yourself unapologetically is another trait. You understand how to enjoy life and express yourself in some artistic way....Mostly through your clothes and hairstyle.

Virgo Moon- You have stomach issues like your mom. Dieting, health, paranoid convos ('You're in the prime age group for kidnappings!') are normal topics you discuss. She may have been a health nut and caused you to go through an accidental eating disorder or two. Overall, the conversations had to do with routine/ health and how you could improve in some way. Also being overly critical of each other and those around you was a bonding activity:)

Libra moon- You were taught how to negotiate, be the perfect child/person, and charm your way in an ugly situation. I feel like I have seen many libra moon children view their mom as two faced. She had one mask for her home and another for the public. You could never put your finger on why you thought she was fake or why the perception of another person talking about her was so off but there you go. Passive aggressiveness is an unevolved trait with a libra moon but this was a normal form of communication with your mom! it didn't have to be a screaming match in order to understand when your mom was voicing her disapproval... You can read between the lines.

Scorpio moon- Control and power plays. Whether it was because your mom viewed you as something she always wanted or you were her last shot at molding a child into what she wanted, you always felt like she wanted to control you more than she wanted to listen to you. She talked at you and planned things out without your knowledge. Secrets behind who your mom is will constantly reveal themselves to you. There is an intense bond between the two of you that you may never be able to explain to others. Female rage is something you have seen play out by your mom many times. At times it may seem like you only know her true dark side.

Sagittarius Moon- Your connection with your mom can feel almost spiritual. Sometimes you may feel as if you were placed in this world to guide her more than she may guide you. You are a bundle of joy and may have been seen as a jokester to her. An unevolved trait could be your mom not exercising her intellectual capabilities or misusing them for a life of leisure instead. This could also hint at you not being too close with her due to her constantly traveling and leaving you in someone's care or circumstances out of her control which separated the two of you.

Capricorn moon- Your mom may have been seen as an authority figure in your life. Life is hard/unfair the best you can do is learn how to remain calm and collected when things are falling apart. It seems like a huge reason for your mom seeming to be 'cold' is because your father figure was the opposite- a disciplinarian turned temperamental man. With time you start to see your mom more as a human rather than this authority figure who expects you to take on the responsibilities life gives...Whether or not you asked for them. Independence is learned, not taught however, your mistakes will be focused on more than your successes.

Aquarius moon- You could have felt like your mom was a bit odd. She was disciplined about certain things that didn't seem to matter but oddly lenient about others. It felt like the 'rules' were not clear and it got to a point where you started doing your own thing, after all, if you're going to be painted as a rebellious child, why not fit that? Communication through technology could be something used when it comes to your mom. Perhaps she was physically distant from you at times and this was how you continued to keep in touch. She has her own hobbies as well as a taste for the eclectic. While her hobbies may stay in the same realm she just....gets weirder as she ages.

Pisces Moon- The intuition you have of your mom and vice versa is something that is truly divine. You feel her emotions as if they were your own. Your feelings tend to be enmeshed and it's hard to figure out where you truly stand when near her. She could also deal with substance abuse (usually drinking)...Or just running away when problems arise. You may view her as someone who has a tendency to stay the victim of circumstances when the reality is...She's doing it to herself. She could also be lover of art (especially music/poetry). As much as she tries to help others, sometimes you may wish she would help herself first.

'Let divine order pick the perfect place that's meant to be mine. Bring the home that's right for me.'

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gyumazing · 8 months

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Ready?

Genre: Fluff and Smut

Pairings: Jungwon x Female bodied reader

A/N: I was so drained last week at school and I wrote the first part of this ff on my notes as a way to comfort myself. But, somehow, it turned into smut lmao. Anyways, the smut part is written amateurly because idrk how to write smut lol.

MINORS DNI

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You'd had enough of today; everything seemed to be against you, and your life had never felt as miserable as it did today. Upon returning home, all you wanted was to wallow in your room, skip dinner, and call it a rough day. However, your boyfriend had other plans.

"Love?" Worry was etched on your boyfriend's face as he saw your downtrodden expression peeking through your bedroom door. You dragged your backpack behind you and let out a deep sigh as you immediately collapsed onto the bed, groaning as your sore muscles finally began to relax after about 8 hours of tension. You looked up at Jungwon, who was still staring at you intently.

"Sorry, love. I'm so tired," you said with a guilty smile. You could see his worry dissipate into thin air, replaced by sympathy. "Have you eaten yet? How did you get into my room? Does Mom know you're here?" you asked.

"No. Yes, and yes," Jungwon muttered slowly as he made his way towards you on the bed. He wrapped his arms around your waist and then flipped you over, positioning himself on top of your back. For a brief moment, a flicker of alarm crossed your eyes, but it quickly subsided when you felt his warm and delicate palms start to massage your back. He kneaded lightly, almost feather-light, but somehow, you could feel it resonating throughout your entire body. You let out a satisfied groan. "Did you think I was about to do something else?" he teased, continuing to massage you.

"For a second, yes." You answered in all honesty.

Jungwon coughed, obviously taken aback by your answer. "Really?" he asked and you nodded. "Okay. So... Tell me about your day," he changed the topic quickly, humming softly.

You sighed, recalling everything that had happened today.

"Well, for starters, our Physics class was so challenging. I barely managed to grasp today's lesson." You paused briefly, groaning in pleasure. You squirmed slightly under Jungwon's touch and motioned for him to stop because you knew he was tired too, but he nodded reassuringly, letting you know he was more than happy to help you relax even a little. You smiled gratefully. "Next, we had three exams earlier, and I barely slept last night. Plus, tomorrow, we have an oral recitation in Chemistry and a practical exam in Biology. For our Social Science activity, I'm the group leader and for Calculus as well. I'm so tired, love." You were doing your best to hold back a whimper, especially as you felt Jungwon's grip tighten further in worry. You knew it wasn't the end of the world, but it certainly felt that way. Being a straight-A student who wasn't naturally gifted and needed time and doubled effort to actually understand concepts and lessons was both pressuring and hard.

"Do you want some ice cream, Love?" Jungwon cooed, slowly turning you over and leaving a trail of kisses from your forehead down to your jaw. He gazed down at you with his feline-like eyes. He rubbed comforting circles on the back of your hands, pulling your hands closer to his face and affectionately placing them next to his cheeks. "I'm sorry. You're still so young, but you hardly get to enjoy your teenage years."

You suddenly felt a lump in your throat; his words struck you like a sharp knife. It was true. You don't even have any friends, and all you ever did was push yourself to meet expectations. You felt the need to achieve something all the time, or else you'd be deemed worthless.

"At least I have you. I have you, so it's bearable," you uttered weakly, cupping his cheeks with the hand that he had placed next to his face. "I seriously don't know what I would do if you weren't here with me, Won." Tears welled up, and you clutched the hem of your royal blue uniform skirt, feeling warm tears trail down your cheeks. Jungwon held your hands again.

At this point, you didn't even know how to continue. You were so tired, so worn out. Every day felt the same, and every day you felt your identity rapidly fading away.

"I love you." Jungwon carefully wiped away your tears and rested his forehead on yours, humming a comforting tune. You could feel his warm breath on your damp cheeks, the sensation making your stomach churn. "I'm always here for you, Love." he whispered, letting your hands go. But then, his voice cracked in a funny way when you accidentally rested your hands on top of his clothed member.

Your sobs were cut shortly, and your eyes immediately widened as you fumbled to get your sinful hands as far as possible.

You looked at an equally wide-eyed Jungwon, laughing like a maniac at his flustered expression. Jungwon's face turn red in embarrassment. You honestly don't know what to feel right now. You are sad, worried, exhausted, embarrassed, and happy all the same time. It's confusing.

"Why does your voice crack still sound so good, love?" You chuckled, pretending that what had just happened didn't just happen. But, Jungwon's face, down to his neck, was still the same shade as a tomato. He looked so... horrified.

"We were already creating a heart-warming environment." Jungwon groaned, burying his face into his palms. You don't know if he's actually talking to you, or scolding himself for breaking the vibe. He looked up at you for a brief moment and the when your eyes met, his cheeks became even redder. "I'm... I'm...." he trailed, lost for words.

"Sorry, love." You apologized, sniffing from the shortlived crying session you just had. Jungwon's left foot was vigorously shaking up and down uncomfortably, and you could see beads of sweet forming on his forehead. You were about to ask him what's wrong but your eyes vision was immediately caught by the tent like bulge on his denim pants. Oh. That's why. "Wonie... What are we going to do with that." You signalled with your eyes to his bulge that was very visible. Jungwon looked down on his pants and then looked at you guiltily.

"I swear to God, Love. This isn't what it looks like. I wasn't... I wasn't fantasizing about you... It's just that..." Jungwon groaned and rolled away to the furthest point in the bed from you. "God. I know that sounded so weird and it feels like I'm some type of creep. But, I swear, Love. I respect you so much and this..." He stopped midway, almost wailing from embarrassment.

You can't help but snort. He's so cute.

"Really, Jungwon?" You scooted closer to him and on cue, Jungwon scooted further, avoiding you like a plague. He raised his palms in the air indicating that you shouldn't go anywhere nearer, but of course, you didn't budge. "Love, we've been dating for 4 years already. I think it's about time th-"

"You're barely 18." Jungwon immediately cuts you off in horror, not even trying to hear what you were about to say. You were about to utter another word but Jungwon was quick to shush you off. "No." Jungwon stood firmly on his ground.

You shrugged.

"Mom and dad's out of town."

"I know. I asked your mom's permission to stay over for the night and I don't want to break their trust, love." He explained with his puppy eyes.

You can't help but smile at your boyfriend's cuteness.

"I will help you with that," you pointed towards his now pillow covered bulge and of course, his cheeks became red again.

"Love," Jungwon's nose was flaring upwards and the gravity of his glares were sending daggers on your side. "Please stop. I'm already trying my very best to hold myself back."

"Who told you to hold back."

Jungwon groaned. His jaws cleched and his eyes became dark, like a puma lurking to catch its prey.

"No."

"Why?" You asked.

Jungwon shook his head.

You looked at him with pleading eyes. He's always there for you and he comforts you all the time. It's about time that you make him feel loved too.

"Do you really want to do this, love?" He asked in all seriousness.

You nodded. Then, you just blinked and you swiftly felt your back hitting the soft mattress, your body bouncing a little. Jungwon encaged you with his body, kissing you passionately. It happened so fast that you gulped both in nervousness and excitement.

His kiss was filled with hunger. You had shared a couple of pecks and whatnot before. But this, this was different. You don't know precisely how, but you know that it's doing something. It's making you feel... things.

"You okay, love?" Jungwon let go of your lips, staring at you worriedly. You nodded mindlessly, trying to process the fact that your boyfriend is actually so attractive like this. Trying to process the fact that, this was actually happening. "If it's too much, pinch me, okay?" Jungwon instructed as he continued to kiss your jaws, leaving faint trails of his marks as he made his way down to your collarbones.

He skillfully took your school uniform off and you didn't even realize that you were only left with your underwear until he stopped kissing you.

"Won?" You had to shake him lightly when he was staring at your face, doing nothing for a few seconds. "Love?" You pinched him lightly.

Jungwon muttered a quick 'huh' and buried his face on his palms again upon having eye contact with you. You heard him breathing deeply, his shoulder falling and faltering.

"Sorry... It's just that... I'm so happy that you trust me this much, love. I can't believe this is actually happening." He explained, voicing out your own train of thoughts. You gave him a reassuring smile. "I don't know. Somehow, this feels like a monumental event in my life... in our lives. I can't believe this is actually happening now." He added.

You nodded, unbuttoning his shirt too. Now, you guys were left with your underwears only.

"I love you so much, Love." He whispered, taking your underwear off slowly.

...

"Wonie..." You can't help but tug on your boyfriend's hair as you felt him mercilessly eating you out like a starved lion. His breath on your thighs and the way he devoured your soaking core made you feel things you haven't felt before.

Jungwon hummed, the lewd sound coming from your own wetness and the lapping of his tounge filling the air. You rake his luscious hair, letting it glide and pass through the spaces between your fingers as you savoured the pleasure he was making you feel. "Ahh." You threw your head back as Jungwon suddenly pushed his tounge inside you without any warning. You were caught off guard. Ultimately, you were lured even further to the state of daze and you involuntarily closed your thighs with his head still in between you.

You heard him groaning.

"Won? Are you okay?" You rose from the bed frantically, and came to his aid with a hint of concern and guilt imbedded in your tone. You held his chin up for his boba-like eyes to meet yours as you tried to convey your apology. He immediately pecked a kiss on your lips, nodding to signal you that he's alright. "It's okay, love." He kissed you again, now deeper and more passionate. He drew teasing circles around your clit and you could feel a smile forming on his lips. He broke the kiss and laughed at your shuddering state.

"Does my fingers feel good, love? Does it feel better than my tongue?" He teased while still stimulating you down there. Now, it was his turn to prop your chin upwards, making you meet his eye as he mercilessly kneaded your clit. He was observing you like a hawk to its prey. You can't help but feel your blood gushing towards your cheeks. "Speechless?" He teased again. You looked at him in disbelief and amusement. Now, instead of giving in to his antics and letting him dominate over you, you grabbed his hand off your clitoris and you flicked his nose lightly.

You can't help but snicker at his dumfounded expression.

His eyes that were originally round and feline-like became even bigger. The trace of your own juice from earlier, sitting on the tip of his nose, made him look more of a cat that he already is. The sight of your boyfriend looking like this is to die for.

"What's so funny?" Jungwon raised his brows, cutting your thoughts off. His boba eyes glistened as he fluttered his long eyelashes slowly, his lips were formed in a thin line. You know he's trying to intimidate you but you just find his expression endearing. So, you bopped his nose again. "You look so cute." You replied, raising your right hand up to reach for his bare chest. Jungwon groaned upon your touch. You looked up his face searching for his eyes, and you saw it softening as he shook head, trying his very best to act displeased with your choice of word.

Jungwon's warm and feather-light fingers sent a feverish feeling all throughout your entire system as it swiftly made it's way grip your bare hips, pinning you in place. You saw his jaws clenching, eyes turning a shade darker. "Won? What ar—" You immediately yelped as you felt him bucking his hips to grind himself onto your core. "Fuck." You moaned rather loudly, considering Jungwon's satisfied reaction. Then, as if you were left hanging midair, he stopped.

"Love..." You mewled, bucking your hips upwards, craving for more friction. You looked at him in the eye searching for explanation but Jungwon held you down firmly as he smirked. "Now who's cute?" He teased, bucking his hips painfully slow. His bulge was stimulating the heck out of you like there's no tomorrow.

"I need you inside me." You begged, almost cringing at the sound of your own voice. "Now..." your breathing was hitched and the ache you felt earlier is now a lot stronger. You placed both of your hands on the back of Jungwon's neck and you pulled him in to a deep kiss. When he rose, Jungwon shook his head.

"Be patient, love. I don't want to hurt you." His eyes were sincere and his voice was mellow. You could feel his love through his gaze alone. "Since this is our first time, I don't wan—"

"I can take you!" You protested but he shook his head again. So, you, being a stubborn and horny partner, you decided to take matters into your own hands. You grabbed him by the wrist and flipped your positions over. Him being at the bottom and you on the top.

"No! That'll hurt, love." Jungwon immediately grabbed you by the hips when you were about to sink below him. He looked mad and concerned all at the same time. You sighed. You don't even know what's he on about. He's hard as a rock and straight as a baseball bat. He clearly needs this as much as you need it. "Behave, princess." In one milisecond, you found yourself laying in bed with your back again. You let out an audible squeak when you felt Jungwon towering on top of you.

"I get that you're excited," Jungwon started. He grabbed something from his bedside table and you squinted your eyes to figure out what it was. A bottle of lube. He unscrew the cap with his teeth and squeezed lube onto his hands. You breathe in deeply as a cool slimy sensation greeted your core. You felt Jungwon lathering you up with lube gently when suddenly, it's as if something's tearing you apart. He inserted his finger inside you. You felt pain like the once you feel when you get a papercut... but, triple that pain up and make it radiate and throb throughout your entire lower body. "It's a little painful, right?" Jungwon kissed your forehead. You nodded and bit your lower lip to stop yourself from wailing in pain. You asked for this.

"It's painful because you're all tensed up. Relax for me, love. Breathe." He hummed comfortingly as he buried his face on your neck. You did as you were told and you only thought of happy thoughts. "Good job. I'll insert another finger, alright?" And he did.

"Oh god." You moaned as you felt him scissoring you open, moving his middle and index finger inside you in an ungodly rhythm. You were fluttering your eyes, barely keeping them open as you felt something forming inside your stomach. It felt like something's about to break. Jungwon kept on pushing his fingers in an out of you until you felt like you were on the edge, only for him to stop. "Love... Why did you stop?" You whined breathlessly, your thighs shaking so badly.

"I thought you want me inside you?" Jungwon smiled, pulling your body to the edge of the bed as he stood there, preparing to pound your sanity out of you.

You looked up at him and saw his size clearly for the first time. You never really paid attention to its size earlier but now that you did, you felt a little concerned. He was longer than you expected him to be.

"That's gonna fit inside of me, right?"

"I hope so."

Just as you were about to protest and declare that you were ready to take him, you heard your phone ring from the bedside table.

Instinctively, the both of you threw your glance at it. "It's your mom. You should answer it." Jungwon who reached out for your phone said, as he gave it to you.

Now you felt your confidence slowly dissipating. You're already an adult and there's clearly nothing wrong with starting your sexual relationship at this age, especially with someone who's well loved by your family... but somehow, you suddenly felt like you were commiting a crime and your mom caught you.

"Hello, eomma?" You cleared your throat, trying to eliminate any signs of strain due to your moans, shrieks, and gasps earlier, afraid that your mom would know all the deeds that you've done right away.

"Where are you?" You moved your phone away from your face when your mom's voice echoed from the other line.

"At home." You gulped, trying your best to muster your words.

"Is Jungwon with you?" She asks.

"Yes." You bit your lower lip and buried your face closer to your phone, refusing to take a glance at Jungwon's side. You could feel hin snickering.

"Hello, eomonim." Jungwon greeted through the phone.

You heard a contented hum from the other line

"Be sure to lock the doors, okay? Your dad and I will be returning home tomorrow morning." Your mom reminded. "And, Jungwon, thank you for accompanying her." she added to which Jungwon replied with a polite 'no problem'.

As you pressed the hang up button, you felt Jungwon's lingering stares.

"Ready?" He smiled, and the rest was history.

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#jungwon fluff #jungwon x reader #jungwon smut #jungwon scenarios #enhypen scenarios #enhypen #fanfic #jungwon imagines #boyfriend

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el-hawthorne · 1 year

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Halloween Series: Special

Words count : 3,5k

Pairing : Yandere!Yeonjun x female!Reader

Rate : 15+

Genre : Dark romance (?), Strangers to lovers.

Warning : SUGGESTIVE, mentions that reader is a female, Yeonjun is full of himself and delusional (?), harsh words, swearing, please let me know if I should mention anything that I should put as a warning.

synopsis:

Yeonjun is a famous playboy among his peers. He really wanted to make you fall in love with him to prove his friends that he was capable to steal your heart. You were sweet to him, but that doesn't make him a special guy. So it hurt his ego and he was determined to have you all to himself.

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There was no single soul who didn't know how famous Choi Yeonjun is. He was good at sports and his academics. All of the teachers really saw him as all of the students' role in his school.

He was kind and nice to everyone. And also, he knew how to crack funny jokes. Everyone loved his presence.

But nobody is perfect, right? Yeonjun was an ace in his school, he was attractive and desirable. That's why he could play with anybody's feelings to his advantage.

He knew he could get what he wanted. Which could mean everything.

He wanted it, he got it.

That was until his friend asked him an easy challenge. For him. At least Yeonjun thought so, and his friends also thought that Yeonjun could do that.

"Make Y/n fall in love and confess to you."

"Well?" Yeonjun raised one of his brows, "that's it?"

"Yeah, she took advantage of me. I want you to serve what she deserves."

Yeonjun chuckled, "Why can't you serve it by yourself then?"

"You got that player title for a reason. Even though she was hard to get, I knew you could make her fall in love with you in less than a month."

The evident smirk now slowly faded on Yeonjun's face. He knew his friend was now trying to get him. His friends knew that he was taking pride in being loved easily by people.

"Well, what do I get from this?"

"This one?" His friend threw him a key. A cottage key in the exotic beach to be exact.

"Deal."

When Yeonjun suddenly came into your frame, you wouldn't be surprised at all.

He suddenly greeted you when you walked past him through the school gate all of sudden. All eyes now on you. Thanks to him for ruining another peaceful day.

You weren't popular in your school. But many students know who you are. You were actually quite active in the organization and loved by your juniors, because you always stood up for them when one of your seniors bullied them.

Yeonjun has been your classmate ever since your first grade. But now, as if you were in the spotlight, Yeonjun suddenly noticed you.

"I didn't know we were in the same class."

"I know, I just wonder why you suddenly greet me and even ask my chairmate to switch with you. Do you want something?"

"Yeah, your heart," he winked at you.

You scoffed, "Woah, calm down there Mister. My heart is mine, I'm not planning to give it to anyone yet."

"I'm sure I can wait for that," he laughed.

If you didn't know about his reputation of being a casanova, you might find out that his laugh was attractive. Maybe, you would confess to him the next day.

But thanked God, for giving you the ability to see through people's intention and connecting the dots. Aside from being a heartbreaker, you also knew that Yeonjun did revenge for his friends.

Last time you could remember, a guy named Wooyoung—one of Yeonjun's friends—suddenly approached you. He only wanted your connection so he could join your club. And he did.

But what cost? His ex came to you, paid you a big sum of money if you could sell his girlfriends information. Yeah, he had more than one girlfriend. So you did, and let all of his girlfriends give him a lesson.

You knew Wooyoung was the one who asked Yeonjun to seek revenge towards you. You weren't stupid.

So, you decided to have a little fun. Because Yeonjun seemed to make an effort in order to make you fall in love with him.

Every morning, you would find him in front of your house to pick you up at school. Then after school, he would bring you to his favorite cafe and sometimes to have some study dates too.

On weekends, he would ask you to hang out together. He would bring you to his favorite place, like an art museum, amusement park, his apartment, you name it. He even made a romantic dinner just for you as well.

You didn't mind him bringing you chocolate or your favorite dessert or some gifts at your school. Making all of the entire school assumed that both of you were dating each other.

"Y/n?"

When you walked at school's corridor with Yeonjun who had his hands on your waist, you suddenly stopped. You heard a familiar voice called your name.

And you were right. Right after you turned your body, you saw Choi Beomgyu—your old friend and also your old crush.

Well, you and him used to attend the same high school. He was your chairmate back then and you developed a crush on him since that happened.

Who wasn't he was the only one who saw you when everyone didn't. He really cared for you to the point he always asked you to join him for studying together with his friends.

And because of him, you managed to attend the college that you really wanted.

But after graduation, you lost contact with him. He was studying abroad.

"Beomgyu?" Your eyes widened as you gasped.

Nothing really changed about his features. He was still as ethereal as ever. His black hair that used to be short, now became longer with wolf cut style. He looked more mature and insanely attractive.

"I thought I called the wrong person," he chuckled before smiling warmly at you, "turned out I was wrong, looks like you have become—no, you've always been beautiful. But now you know how to look more beautiful. No wonder, you have a boyfriend now."

"A boyfriend?" You realized that Yeonjun's hand was still on your waist, you quickly freed yourself and walked towards Beomgyu.

"Nope, he's just one of my colleagues. Nothing special between him and I," you clarified.

Meanwhile, since your attention was fully on Beomgyu, Yeonjun didn't like the uncomfortable feelings inside his chest. The way you told Beomgyu that he wasn't special pinched his heart.

"Y/n, we have to go. Our class will start soon," Yeonjun poked his cheeks as he crossed his arms on his chest.

You rolled your eyes, "You go first, I still want to catch up with Beomgyu for a little bit."

"Fine!" He huffed before he left you and Beomgyu alone as he felt annoyed.

You didn't give a damn about about Yeonjun and decided to give your attention towards Beomgyu.

For you, men aren't worth it to be loved. But Choi Beomgyu was an exception.

Maybe those unsettling feelings that you left years ago are still there. You didn't really forget him. Especially your heart still longing for him.

"Why are you here? Don't get me wrong, I really like seeing you here now. But, aren't you studying abroad?" You asked him.

"Yeah, but I had a project here. Also, my brother is working here. Just want to know about his workplace. Turns out he's working in a decent place," he answered, "but that's not the main reason why I came here. It's because I want to see you."

You blush like crazy because of his statement, "It's been a long time, right?"

"Yeah," he agreed, "and I want to ask you something."

"Sure."

"You said that man isn't your boyfriend, so are you single or?"

"I've been single since birth," you answered without thinking.

"So I still have my chance now?"

You frowned at his sentence. Not that you didn't know about his obvious intention. You just didn't know how to respond when your crush likes you back. It was your first time. Heck! You even never got into a casual date with someone you genuinely liked.

Beomgyu laughed as he patted your head, "well, are you free after class?"

"I am, but why are you asking?"

"Nothing, just want to ask you for dinner," he grinned.

"Yes, of course."

"And I will pick you up after your class. Now, go to your class and stay pretty—no, forget it. You always look pretty in everything you do," he shuffled your hair before you left him.

Right after you entered your class, you saw Gaeul—your friend greeted you. She already saved your chair.

"The last time I checked, you act like a girl falling in love was years ago because of Beomgyu. And now, are you so desperate that you even fall in love with Yeonjun too? You know he is a jerk, right?"

"Who said I fell in love with Yeonjun? And how do you know I 'act like a girl falling in love'?

"Simple, because you look stupid," she answered without thinking, "but wait, if it's not Yeonjun, then who?"

"I've met Beomgyu earlier," you said with the brightest smile on your face.

Gaeul gasped, "No fucking way."

"Yes way, young lady. And you better help me too," you said as you were biting your lips nervously.

"What for?" Gaeul arched one of her eyebrows.

"Since he asked me for dinner tonight," you whispered.

But you were too excited to notice that someone probably heard what you said.

All of the things he did, Yeonjun never felt this angry before. He was sure that you would fall for his charm in a week when he treated you as a special girl. He gave it all for you and would do anything for you.

But yet, he never got any special treatment from you. He even saw with his own eyes when you greeted that "ordinary" guy. Yeonjun knew that guy was actually less of him. Yet, he saw how you slip those hair behind your ears, how red your cheeks and ears. Then you smile shyly but genuine at the same time.

He never saw you like that when you talked to another, even to himself. Being with you made Yeonjun realize that he observed too much about you. He cared too much for your well-being to the point he no longer didn't care about the prize anymore.

He wanted you. All for himself. You have to be his, and not anyone else. If he couldn't have you, then he would rather see you dead than with somebody else other than him.

***

"Hey Y/n," Yeonjun walked towards you while you were still packing your things inside your bag before you got out of the class.

Your classmate eyed you for a while before you nodded at her and gave her signal to leave you alone with Yeonjun.

Now that you were alone with him, Yeonjun smiled at you, "So, caffe date as usual?"

"Hmm, yeah. And I want to go somewhere, I think I need your help for something too," you said.

Yeonjun's smile couldn't get wider than this as he felt his chest swell because of his pride. You need him. It really fed his ego right now.

"Anything for you baby," Yeonjun said as he patted your head before he placed his hand on your waist as his way to claim you and to show others that you were his.

Different from what Yeonjun's thought, you started to enjoy Yeonjun's company. Despite that Wooyoung asked him to approach you, you could consider him as a good friend.

Yeah, he was fun to be around with. He was cool with everything. He was really smart too and also great with helping you study. No wonder almost everyone fell for him.

Yes, "almost everyone".

Except you, of course. Someone permanently held captive your heart since your high school. And now that you have a chance, you're not gonna let go of that chance easily.

After "the study date" session you had with Yeonjun, more like a study session for you and meanwhile for Yeonjun was still a study date, now you asked Yeonjun to bring you to a cloth store.

"Why do you want to go here?" Yeonjun asked.

"Well, I want to go buy something that might need your opinion since you're a guy and have a really good taste in everything. So the point is, I need your help," you are seriously staring at Yeonjun.

"If you thought I would help you because you just complimented me earlier, well it works. Let's go," Yeonjun got out of his car and opened his car's door for you as if you're a princess.

His princess.

"Thank you, Jun."

The way you called him made the whole butterfly inside his stomach. And it didn't seem to bother Yeonjun at all. No, he liked it.

You entered the store and met some workers that already knew you. Well, you have often gone to this place before. Even the workers treated you as if you were their friends.

"Hi Y/n, it's been a long time. Did you come here with Beomgyu? Gosh you changed so much, I wonder if Beomgyu would change a lot like you or not. Oh wait, did you two are dating now? Because I already knew that both of you had a thing for each other," Hoseok—the owner of the shop greeted you like an old friend.

"Hi Hoseok," you chuckled, "no, I'm with my friend."

"Your friend?" Hoseok frowned when he saw Yeonjun walking behind you and didn't hesitate to place his hand on your waist.

If you thought he was fine, no you were wrong. The fact that you only consider him as a friend? He was pissed, to the point his grip on your waist became more tighter than usual.

Your eyebrows arched as you snapped at Yeonjun, "Yeonjun?"

Of course you were uncomfortable because of him. But you tried to hide it, you didn't want to make Hoseok worried over something small. Even though you clearly felt that something was off from Yeonjun.

"Hmm?" Yeonjun looked at you as his grip loosened up.

The uneasiness came easily inside you from the way Yeonjun stared at you. It was like he was dead inside and there was someone else instead.

"This is Hoseok, he is my old friend and the owner of this shop. Hoseok, this is my classmate, Yeonjun."

"Hi Yeonjun, nice to meet you," Hoseok awkwardly smiled.

Yeonjun stared at Hoseok with his blank face and didn't say anything other than nodded.

You decided not to overthink what you just felt earlier. Maybe you were too tired to the point you started to imagine things.

So you started to choose some dresses that you wanted to buy and some guys clothes.

"Jun!" You called Yeonjun when he was busy with his phone.

But when his nickname you gave rolled from your tongue, he immediately had all his attention on you. He quickly scooted to you.

"What is it?"

"What do you think if someone buys this shirt for you," you showed Yeonjun that guy's shirt towards Yeonjun.

Is she going to give me a present? How cute.

Yeonjun chuckled.

You frowned, "What? My pick isn't literally terrible, you know."

A pout appeared on your face. Yeonjun couldn't help as his hand now reached the top of your head before he messed with your hair.

"Jun!" You ripped his hand from your head by slapped it.

"Sorry babe, it's bad. Actually it is quite the opposite, you clearly have a taste."

Your eyes directly glared at Yeonjun, you couldn't believe him. Maybe he tried to mess with you again. Who knows?

"No, really. If I receive a gift like this, I will be over the moon. Especially if it's from the girl I like—no, I mean the girl I love. Literally going to confess to her right at the moment," he said confidently as he saw that rose cheeks of yours.

Aw—now you're shy. How cute! It must be because of him, wasn't it?

No, you were imagining Beomgyu's reaction when he received a welcoming gift from you. He must be just like what Yeonjun said, and even confessed his feelings for you.

"Hoseok, I want to buy this," you said to Hoseok.

"Oh hey, I actually had a new design for a dress. I think you should have it," he said as he showed a flowery dress that actually looked beautiful.

You were stunned, "It's beautiful."

"I know, a beautiful dress for a beautiful girl, you know?" He teasingly smiled at you.

"Oh Hoseok, I really want this dress, but I don't have much money. But can you keep it? I'm going to buy this after I save up money this month."

"Oh forget it, you don't have to pay. think of this as my welcoming gift for you, and I know what you did girl," he winked at you, "you should wear this, Beomgyu might go crazy over you when he see you in that dress."

"Wa-wait, for real?"

"Yeah, but you have to tell me first when both of you are official."

"Sure!"

"Oh my God! Hoseok, thank you so much!" You happily hugged Hoseok.

***

"Here is the key," Wooyoung threw a key towards Yeonjun who was fond of his phone right now. His eyes were literally attached towards whatever it was inside his phone.

"What are you watching?" San—one of his friends scooted over as he tried to peek, but Yeonjun immediately locked his phone.

"Mind your business," he said as he put himself inside his pocket.

San scoffed, "What's wrong with him?"

Wooyoung shrugged, "I don't know and I don't want to know. All I care about is now I'm happy."

"Happy because Yeonjun rejected that girl, huh?"

"Yeah, and now she is sick because she can't keep up with the reality that Yeonjun is only playing with her feelings," Wooyoung smiled happily.

"Well, you win."

On the other side, Yeonjun heard his friends' conversation. His smirk was visible on his face.

What his friends didn't know was, everything was twisted. And so he was.

Yeonjun took his phone from his pocket and unlocked it. It showed a video of your unconsciously slept on his bed from his real-time cctv inside his mansion. Too tired from crying.

Your tears were still visible on your face as he still remembered how you cried beautifully, wanting to get your freedom.

But no, of course he couldn't do that. You were his and would be forever his.

So he walked to towards his car and drove to his mansion as fast as possible. He couldn't wait to see you as fast as possible.

He really missed you.

And he knew that you also missed him.

If not now, than he was sure in the future you would miss him just like what he felt right now.

You just needed time.

As he arrived at the mansion, he immediately walked inside his bedroom and kissed your lips.

Your eyes slowly opened when you felt something soft touched your lips. Oh, how gross it was. You wish you could wiped that kiss from your mouth.

Vibrant with your reaction, Yeonjun was actually quite the opposite. Those red and glassy eyes glaring at him looked so beautiful for him.

"Hi sleeping beauty, so you have a nice dream, huh?" He chuckled before he kissed you again, but this time was longer than before. Even the tongue involved.

He smiled when he saw that red and swollen lips of your still connected to his by the saliva.

"You gorgeous thing, how can I not notice someone gorgeous like you from the start?" he whispered, but you didn't answered anything other than a few tears came out from your eyes.

"Such a Goddess," he murmured as he licked your tears, "The medicine still didn't wear off yet. So I called the doctor to put an IV on you."

You silently cried. Your tears kept coming out from your eyes.

"Sweetheart, this is just for a while until you behave, okay. You can't do anything on your own now, because you need me. You will always need me."

That fucking bastard.

After you bought Beomgyu a gift, you were supposed to go home with Yeonjun. Even your best friend already waited at your home.

But instead, Yeonjun drugged you by putting something inside your drink that made you fainted. He kept you at his house and confessed that he loves you for a while now.

Of course you rejected him and asked him to free you away. But instead of freed you, he put a syringe inside you with whatever substances inside of it that you actually didn't like it.

You lost your consciousness after that.

That's wrong of you if you thought that substance inside that syringe only made you unconscious. Other than that, your whole body was paralyzed. You even couldn't talk!

And that bastard literally took advantage of it.

"Sweetheart," Yeonjun's sickening voice made you snap back at the shitty reality, "before the doctor came, how about shower? You looked dirty, I will definitely help you to take a shower."

You only stared at him who looked at you as he grinned widely.

"Let me take your clothes off, yeah? Don't worry, you don't have to be shy. I already see everything," he kissed your neck as he slowly removed your clothes from your body, "I promise, I'll be gentle with you."

- end

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"Life isn't just about fun."

Y/n x sk8 the infinity (platonic)

wordcount : 14,587

Type : one-shot

Warnings : mention of hospital accident, school related bad memories (?) swearing/cursing, negative thoughts, and i think that's about it!

Author note : Hi! It's been really long since i posted, i wanted to challenge myself to write something way longer than usual, and i've been pretty down in the dumps so it's hard staying active. I'll get to your requests soon, i'm sorry it always take so many months for me to catch up to them! I hope you'll appreciate it nontheless, it's the first time i write a one-shot so long, don't hesitate to send in a few advices if you want! I hope this isn't too much out of character and that y/n can be relatable. It's not easy writing a relatable y/n. I tried to have a moment for each characters but kinda failed, i hope that's okay and that i can write each of them better overtime! Well, now that's out of the way, i hope you enjoy! ★take care ★

The summer holidays have been good, despites the overwhelming heat making you sweat to your heart content.

You could handle the heat with your friends around you while making sure to stay dehydrated, really, whenever you went to see your friend weither it was to eat at a restaurant, harass shadow, skate around random places, try new tricks, race at S, discuss about skateboards and make skateboards : you could rarely every worry about the heat. It's like the heat never existed in the first place, but of course, as soon as you get home you will inevitably notice a shower is reallly necessary if you don't want to turn into a glue stick human form of thing just by sweating.

Time really does fly by when i'm around my friends.. you think to yourself, the summer holidays are coming to an end very soon..

And every nights i feel it.

This is going to be a long night for you, a very long night.

There is no better feeling than staring at a wall with closed eyes. If that makes senses.

In fact, you couldn't really sleep, you kept waking up every 2 hours, scared of missing your alarms, afterall you'd be bummed out if you were to miss your first day of school. It's not that you enjoy going to school at all, it's just that if you'd miss the first day of school you'd probably get into troubles with your parents, and you'd feel double lost at school, which isn't so cool to be honest.

So you kept trying to sleep, rolling around in your bed to try to find a comfortable position, and… stay here until you stop crying. Because yes, tears were leaving your eyes right at that moment, your eyes were burning and your head was hurting and it was hard to sleep. Breathing was a bit troublesome, it might seem dramatic, but you still felt all of these wandering emotions anyway.

You had some fears concerning school, or a lot of fears. You remembered all the bad years you spent, having to complete your homework in time and stay good enough to your teachers and parents no matter what, forcing yourself to try to even listen to the teachers' lesson and remember it, having to suck up all the weird looks from your classmates whenever you answered something dumb or did something weird from their point of view, while you had to look unaffected whenever the teacher or your classmates said something dumb… School wasn't a place where you could be yourself, it wasn't a place where you could express your opinion, it's not a place in which you're ever good enough, not a place where you feel able to develop any sort of potential if you had any, and it's not a place in which you had fun at, if anything, all the bad years at school were just taking colors away from life, a lot of colors. The endless homework to finish at night wasn't so pleasant aswell, you could remember the allnighter or allnighters to catch up on your homework or lessons. Hours of class felt more like a black hole sucking up all of your energy, what was the use of having energy and going through the day if you're going to do this your whole life? Was something you thought more than once or twice.

What if it happens all over again?

You really hopped to stay in the same class as Reki and Langa this year, but it wasn't for sure, you guys could be picked to be in different classes for all you know, why do you have to even change classes every years? It's a breeze when your class sucks but not when your class is actually somehow not that bad. And what about all the new people?

When you weren't in their class, you could recall zoning out more, dissociating more. Strangely enough, they usually seperate people from their friends so that they focus on the class, but you're more prone to focus if your friends are here, let alone, if they ask for your help with any homework, you feel a kind of responsability and a will to help, so your grades uncounsciously got better so that you could help out Reki who's being late on classes because he's staying up late to skate at S and barely listening at class, so you could also help out Langa who's having struggles taking notes and understanding everything, because even if he spoke japanese, he still had a hard time to adapt. But even if your grades were to be lower or not different, it felt way better when you were willing to work for it not just to not get in troubles, but also to help your friends. Maybe it wasn't entirely for you in that case, but it already felt better.

But whenever you mess up and feel unable to help, it feels bad. You actually had a bad dream once in which messing up continuously during group projects with your friends led them to burst into tears because it was really too much.

There's just, a lot of things to worry about. You have to study about your future, you can't just skate all day long and have fun with your friends, and they'll be fine without you, life isn't like that, it's not just about fun…

Ah…

You stared blankly at your arm.

You absolutely dreaded this day. School for you was like a survival game, you'd play, try not to fail and lose just like you'd go to school everyday and try to keep everything up to just not fall apart.

Well, to be honest, last school year was a bit more manageable with Reki and Langa around, surprisingly enough, they made your days at school usually less boring, and if the all three of you guys were unhappy or not doing good, you could complain together ; About the teacher's teaching methods, the way this or that spoke to you, the way you got caught watching skating videos instead of reading-

You could really cool down a bit with them around, things were way less stressful than they could have been. And somehow you felt more productive with less pressure felt.

So, in the end, maybe it wasn't that bad, you could get to spend more time with Reki and Langa, and you wouldn't have to die to the summer heat.

Or maybe not, maybe you won't end up in the same class, maybe you won't feel brave enough to sneak your phone between your pages to pretend to read anymore, maybe you won't be in a good class, maybe you'll get picked on by your classmates and maybe-

afterall, it is true that you could spend much more time with Reki, Langa AND your other friends outside of school, if they weren't on vacations without you that is. School can be a real seperation factor for friends, and it sucks, it can be very isolating.

But school is important, nontheless.

I think.

Are the all-nighters productive? Are they healthy? The stress, the social fears, just… everything overall that comes from school, except the time you spend with Reki and Langa and the rare lessons where you learn something that is actually helpful for you.

Probably not.

You've tried not to think about it, but really, the more time passes, the less you're able to sleep well or spend your days without worrying as to weither or not you're making the best of the summer holidays, without feeling guilty for doing nothing when the heat is killing you or you're tired. Time is so scary, the meaninfgul times fade away so fast, and you lose so much occasions on making the best of your life, time always gets you.

Finally, the morning came, you could hear the birds sing, the sun was shining through the curtains, making you regret ever opening your eyes who were now burning at the burning source of light, you wanted to hide under your pillow and blankets and never see the light again. Why get up when you can just sleep ? Your alarm rang, it gave you a headache, a headache that'll follow you probably all day long, you had to get up now. Goodbye to the everyday without worrying of what's coming next day. What a life.

I mean, everyone has to work or go to school, it's society, it's just life, there's nothing to complain about, be grateful that you have it easier than some people. Or even, most people.

Besides, you still have Reki and Langa right? It'll be okay, right? Even if you don't end up in the same class, you could look up to every ends of the days to skate together and every mornings to skate together, same for the free time.

That is, if your schedules aren't too different and if you even have the energy to skate and hang with your friends, you could remember days in which as soon as you'd get home, you'd fall to your bed, fall asleep and skip dinner, only to have to catch up on your homework in another stressful morning and find something to eat in the fridge your family emptied the night before.

School is back. Holidays were great, but everything came to an end. Nothing ever last forever, does it ?

You yawned and tried to stretch yourself to wake up but your eyes were shutting tight, your every single thoughts begged you to fall back asleep and rebel agaisnt whatever keeped you awake, before you knew it, 5 minutes already passed. If you wouldn't have put multiple alarms to wake you up every minutes, the amount of time in which you were late would have greatly multiplied, by ten maybe, well, if you were never late because of that ; that's because you skated very fast to school or ran. These alarms really pain you but they still save you, a great plenty of time, you probably would have been late right now without them. On the first day of school, your sleep schedule is not even set on time.

Be grateful.

You sit up and get up, feeling every ounce of your body wanting to fall down and just lie in the ground to sleep, you try your hardest to motivate yourself to get dressed, making a mess out of your wardrobe, you'd have to clean that later and put your clothes in order, or deal with it and have your parents scold you for it until next holidays, but really all the thoughts that came to your head were negative, you didn't even bother to think about your friends yet, you just wanted to sleep it off, sleep it off so much you wanted to cry, get away from reality. As you kept getting lost in your thoughts, your arm hits your wardrobe and furnitures.

Ouch. The hit was a bit brutal, you were stressed and you were scared. Your arm felt like it was burning, why did you have to get that arm hit and not the other? How lucky can you get? Is it a lack of luck or is it just your problem for not sleeping enough?

And before you know it, you already have to leave your house in 5 minutes. 5 fricking minutes, and you just got dressed.

Mornings were really fast, especially if you're as tired as you are right now. You could get up and leave your bed and you already have only 10 minutes left to somehow get dressed, eat, brush your teeth, check that everything is ready, make sure to use the toilets, wash your hands, and happily get out of the house with your skateboard to get to school! How you loved going to school every mornings!

Well, last year you could feel positive going to school most days, it's the year when you met Reki and Langa at, one of the most liveliest years of your life. But now that you know them, you rather spend time with them outside of school.

You were tired, completely tired, your heart was beating fast, so fast and hard it was hurting, like some sort of drums inside you, the bat would dum- dum- slap your heart out just to keep you awake. You could barely keep your eyes open, your hair was a mess, all you wanted to do was hide yourself under your blankets until the school year ends. You only want this to be a dream, it's just a bad dream, school never existed… Is hiding and denying all you're ever good at?

But maybe that's a bit harsh, isn't it ?

What a great start of the year, surely the year wouldn't go well if you kept that up.

You didn't have time to eat breakfast, or else you'd be late, so you started walking out of your room and you fought the stairs. Not literally don't worry, we respect stairs here

As you were about to step out of your house to get to school you receive a message on your phone on a groupchat. A groupchat between you, Reki and Langa.

"Y/n, we're waiting for you at our usual spot, where are you?? :("

You smiled, for a second there, you felt like summer holidays were still going on. You felt as if you had nothing to worry about. Your friends were really important to you, they held a special place in your heart. And they made you look forward to everyday, everyday felt more like a pleasant surprise with them around. Maybe just maybe, you don't have to worry about this school year.

Or maybe you do, maybe you do have to worry about this school year.

The messages having reminded you to take your skateboard, you grabbed your skateboard after turning off your phone, almost forgetting to take your skate, almost forgetting about how you got into skateboarding and almost forgetting the entire last year you've spent with Reki and Langa. Too busy overthinking about the past years before that one.

Maybe it was better to expect the worse to not have your hopes crushed, but would that make you happy?

You put your phone in your backpack, left the house, and pushed to get to your skateboard, trying to be careful of where you're riding despites your attention span being lower, trying to keep your foot well positionned and not accidentally press your back foot against the tail of your skateboard which would make you.. fall off if you press hard.

Skating was a bit harder this morning, the thought of school came back to you very soon and it drew out your motivation fast, very fast.

You were really tired so it was hard, but the thoughts of your friends cheered you up a bit, so you skated to your usual meeting spot, thinking about how Reki and Langa must be waiting for you right now. And soon enough, you recognized a shining red-head and a outstanding blue-head, you surely couldn't miss them by accident even if your vision was blurry, not a lot of people around there has had their hair dyed.

You wondered, would reki's head shine more with no hair or does it shine more with red hair?

They finally noticed you skating towards them, they turned to you, it seems like Reki was staring at his phone while Langa's head was peeking over his shoulder to see the screen. You waved at them and they waved back, you smiled instinctively, until you suddenly fell of your skateboard and rolled down the floor, making sure to protect your head while trying to keep your other arm safe. But you still hurt your arm, which is sadful.

"Ouchhh-" you yelped, usually you'd laugh whenever you fall of your skateboard, it was silly, you fell off because you kept your eyes on your friend and not the floor. You liked them just way too much. But you just didn't feel the energy in you to laugh, something just didn't click inside, you couldn't laugh. Maybe you're just grumpy because it's the morning, maybe you're just not in the mood. Whatever it was, you didn't feel the willpower to laugh it off as you usually do.

"Y/n !" Reki screamed running towards you "Don't be reckless, you hurt yourself at your last race ! " he crouched down to your level "here, let me help you" he took your arm and checked your bandages "did you even change them!? He asked frantically, eyes focused on your bandaged arm, as Langa walked towards you and caught your skateboard for you. —I forgot. you answered, in an honest and tired laugh, it was so hard getting even dressed in the morning that you forgot to check your bandages. —This can't be good.. The redhead sighed and looked at Langa Langa, pass me the bag Langa tossed him his bag over, hitting Reki in the face Ouch ! That wasn't cool Langa ! he complained —Sorry, i didn't mean to, are you hurt ? The blue haired boy panicked —No, i'm fine, anyways… Reki's hand searched for something in the bag Ah there it is ! He got his hands out of the bag and took out a disinfectant and some bandages Now let me check that."

Reki always had this sort of thing ready in his bag, as getting hurt is common when you skate.

He inspected your arm and your wrist, your bandages were getting red, he got rid of them to check your injuries "Oh they're healing faster than i thought, even though they should have already been healed, thank god they're still healing though. But you're bleeding." He smiled, almost motherly to you, making sure that you don't panick, the thought of reki as a mother was very funny to you as it crossed your mind, but the cursed images of reki being pregnant following your thoughts were more cursed than funny "I'm gonna have to use disinfectant, Just tell me if it hurts okay?" he uses the disinfectant carefully, you groaned in pain a bit but it was fine. "There we go." he then proceed to put some new bandages over your arm and wrist, and Langa complained " you never took this much care of me whenever i bled. —You never got really that injured, you only ever bled, it's nothing we all bleed from time to time when we skate. Reki tried to explain himself, still focused on your arm. —You let me faint. —Oh shut up, i panicked and ran to you for the record. —Like a prince in a shining armor ? you asked, randomly, Reki stopped bandaging your arm for a second, only a second, and then he continued bandaging your arm. —I wasn't charmed, I was already uncounscious. Langa argued —Are you falling in love with Reki or something Langa? You wanted to be charmed? You tried to tease him, Reki just finished bandaging your arm and jumped over to turn around and put the stuff back in his backpack, seeming a bit agitated and quick to hide his face, he then spoke —Don't say things like that y/n ! We're bros, nothing like that —I was speaking to Langa, not you. —Oh you get what i meant ! "

You didn't continue trying to tease them, this was largely enough and you enjoyed the way Reki was talking to you but turned away from you and Langa was just staring at the both of you completely zoned out, dumbfounded.

They were really fun to be around with. Your morning was already much less depressing, Reki really cared for you and Langa did too. You reallly hopped to be in the same class as them, even if you felt like a thirdwheel, you don't want classes schedules to disrupt your common routines.

For a moment there, it felt like you guys were already in the same class, but would that be too optimistic? Should you actually hope?

"So… Are you guys, perhaps… excited for school ?" you asked, curiously. They looked like they had much more energy than you, it's as if summer holidays never actually ended. Their face looked so bright, they seemed so happy and careless, as if summer never really ended. Reki and Langa looked at you curiously, finally, Reki spoke ;

"Definitely not. —Eh!? How can you have so much energy then!? I don't get you. —Personally, Langa speaks I'm excited whenever i can spend time with you or Reki, and school is important to me, i need to improve my japanese skills and understand how things work around there. Langa explained, honestly. —Right… Well, as long as i'm not a thirdwheel. —Don't even say that word, it makes me think about my final race with Adam. Reki groaned thinking about it, he acted like he was going to puke, Langa chuckled. —Was that race this bad? You were really good. —It was fun but.. I really don't enjoy skating against Adam and you know that Langa, i don't get you, you almost died when racing him down that crazy path last time ! —Oh, that's true. Langa recalled, having actually forgotten this detail —You really looked like you were falling mindlessly, you weren't even moving and then you suddenly moved and took your skateboard and won the race, what even got into you? You really scared me you know? I was worried. You both are crazy, you got injured last time too y/n Reki spoke, with a genuine troubled expression on his face. —Reki, you get injured much more than i do. You spoke, with a stern voice —The word fun saved me. Langa spoke, out of the blue, with full honesty in his voice —What? You mean the word fun we put on your fixed skateboard?"

Reki turned to Langa with a curious face. You looked at the time, you guys were already going to be late at this rate, you coughed "guys, we're going to be late." your tone was a bit harsh, but you really didn't want to be late.

"Oh crap! Langa, y/n, let's go ! " and there you guys went, skating to school, fast.

Your friends looked very energetic, it killed you that you couldn't be as energetic, honestly, it's been a few days or weeks since your energy drastically dropped to the thought of school, and you couldn't tell if your friends noticed, but you were afraid to be a burden to them. They were shining so bad, and you were starting to feel like you were staying in the dark, maybe you always were in the back afterall, but everytime, it seemed Reki, Langa or Miya found a way to cheer you up or make you feel like you belong.

Reki and Langa did a few ollies and some random tricks while you just cruised. It's crazy how they're late and still able to flex, have fun and pull up some tricks. Well, it was like this last year too.

You met Reki and Langa at school, and met your other friends at S, and these friendships really made your life much more brighter. Could it be constantly the case though? What if they were the one brightening up your days - but you weren't the one brightening up their days ? That thought hit you a bit inside, like a small bullet passing through your body, but slowly, and with barely enough pain, you felt a small wave of negative emotions, it hurts a bit, but you felt a bit empty, in a way.

You felt the air pass through your lungs, burning, as the cold air hits your face, and finally, you reached school. Somehow you made it despites the overwhelming feeling that the air is so heavy it'll crush your bones.

School is back. ~

You slid your skateboard behind your backpack and walked to your assigned classroom after the school announcement concerning the begginning of the year, you were not in the same class as Reki and Langa, of course.

That's not all that mattered though. Your grades mattered too.

You're not going to die by working a little and spend less time with your friends, come on. You could still spend time with them nontheless later.

Before you go, you exchanged a small wave in Reki and Langa's direction, they waved back; these two were in the same class it seemed. Maybe they were better without your grumpy-self though. They seemed much more happier than you were, were you just overthinking and dramatising everything?

You reached your classroom and when the teacher told you to, you sit down, taking the sit at the back, avoiding to talk to anyone. Why bother? Approaching people isn't on your to-do list at the moment.

The class was already loud and obnoxious, just like a circus. You paid no attention to the noises and as to avoid getting bothered by the noises, you stared at your desk and zoned out, thinking about all the times you went skating with your friends. It was the only thing you wanted to think about right now.

Despites your efforts to not be bothered by all these voices, you still heard a few people talk

"The manager of the fruit stand always sat and only sold vegetables —What!? You mean the fruit stand down your street ? —Yes, atleast the vegetables are cheap. So me and my mom always go there the saturday mornings. —I wouldn't buy my vegetables there if it was a fruit stand only selling vegetables…"

This random conversation you heard was completely unrelated to school, you sighed, but who were you to care? It seemed like people knew each other, you were probably going to end up alone this year, is it so bad though?

The teacher coughed and asked for everyone to be quiet, and the class continued talking. Why were you even here? This is supposed to be the first class, usually during the first classes people should be quiet, atleast on the first classes of the year. But who were you to talk? You can't lie, you really wished you could talk to Reki and Langa like this right now, but you guys aren't even in the same class.

Between all the talks you could hear, you heard another one, still completely unrelated to school, there was a brown-haired girl talking to a black haired boy, the girl looks cute you thought, the boy spoke : "Why do you LoOOooOOOoOve me Stanley? —I like your blue eyes. She replied as if it was a sufficient reason to like someone —Why did you only tell me now ? He stared at her with his PieRcIng BlUe EyEs —I didn't want any new girls stealing you away from me. Your classmate declared in full confidence —…Wow so possesive grrr~ He said before the two burst out laughing —You're so stupid the girl chuckled, a smile on her face —Stupid for you ? he asked, playfully "

And there you witnessed a newborn couple that was probably going to last a few days or weeks, on the first day of school.

Everyone didn't look like they cared about the first class. You wished you could not care aswell, but you cared, you cared a plenty lot, this was supposed to be important. You couldn't not care with all these anxious thoughts going on in your head.

Why can't i see? you thought to yourself, wondering why you couldn't see things the way your other classmates did. Everyone else seemed so much more happier than you did. Why do you have to be like this? Why can't you see things the way they see things? Why do you have to mess up so bad on this?

When you finally stopped your thoughts and snapped back to reality, you noticed the new couple stopped talking and were looking at you whispering some things. Shit, you stared too long. You quickly turned to look at your desk.

Finally, after some time the teacher managed to get the class to be silent, he presented himself, talked about how everything works this year, and asked everyone to present themselves one by one, to break the ice… apparently.

A girl on the left front beggined ; "My name is Mallory and i love riding horses on my free time. —You mean men? the boys snickered"

Long after that, it is finally your turn to present yourself.

"Uhm, i'm y/n.. and i love skating with my friends. —You have friends!? Someone random in the class exclamed themselves, even though they barely knew you for even an hour, some people laughed and the teacher told the class to be quiet"

It's crazy how people make assumptions on even people they never talked to and saw for only minutes of their lives. This is gonna be a long class, ice breaker wasn't really working out, was there even ice to break to begin with?

School is back, i guess. ~

The class ended, it's finally free time, you went to sit on your skateboard at the rooftop, the place you, Reki and Langa discussed going to if you were ever seperated at school and wanted to meet up. Eventually, Reki and Langa walked up to you.

The class was long, everyone was loud and judgemental, it was… definitely great.

"Hey, y/n" Langa spoke with a gentle voice "Wanna go skate in the playground ?" he asked and you looked at him, with a frown on your face "we're gonna get in troubles again, and i'm injured, for you to know." Langa insisted "But you still skated this morning despite your injury, and it could be fun, you seem down, come on come with us" he almost pleaded, you couldn't say no to him at this point, reki finally spoke "I mean it's your choice if you don't wanna skate i understand, but you're acting just like you were when we barely knew you, come cheer up a bit with us, won't ya ? If we get in troubles i'll take the blame if that reassures you." you looked at Reki, with a curious look on your face "How can you even take the blame for something like this ? —I don't know, I'll come up with something. Reki shrugged, you looked at the floor, a bit hesitant, but ended up saying —Fine fine. you saw the boys' eyes light up —Let's go then ! "

You stood up and took your skateboard with you.

You guys ended up skating at the corridors before reaching the playground, of course, a teacher was there and you ended up having to run away from a teacher with your skateboard in hands. You guys were caught as always and got in troubles, Reki did his best to put the blame on him but it didn't work out, now you three have to stay after school and help the janitors clean, atleast it's better that it's the three of you guys in troubles than only Reki. Ah, and the teachers took your skateboards, Reki literally groaned and Langa looked like he was going through all the stages of grief at that moment.

"Oops? Reki muttered under his breath when the teacher finally left you guys I hate cleaning He complained innocently —If it's with my friends i think it's okay, i help my mom clean the house most times. Langa said, looking as if he was recalling all the times he helped his mom with the laundry, the cooking and the overall house chores, as her husband died, Reki turned to you and spoke —Sorry, we didn't want to get you in troubles, we just thought you'd cheer up a bit since the first school day doesn't seem to be going well for you- —How was your class guys ? you asked out of nowhere, after having zoned out, cutting reki's speech off as if it was nothing —Huh!? Oh uh, i don't know, i didn't really pay attention, the window was more attractive. Reki answered, taken a bit off guard you didn't pay attention to what i was saying thou- —You mean the reflection of Langa next to you was more attractive? —How did you- i mean, no homo though. Reki scratched the back of his head, a bit embarassed, these two were so obvious, you stared at Langa, he seemed zoned out —Langa ? you called to him, he looked at you and then he said —I'm confused. —What are you even confused about ? Reki asked, with a nervous voice —I'm confused: when people ask me what's up, and I point, they groan."

You facepalmed.

"Dude?! When people ask you what's up they ask you how you are, not what's literally up ! Reki spoke, dumbfounded —Japanese is difficult. Langa remarked, thoughtful, looking at the ground —You mean english is difficult!? Reki retorted, remembering the many times Langa tried to teach him something in English —I guess any language can be difficult for anyone."

You were not participating in this conversation, staring in disbelief at Langa.

you zoned out, thinking about the way your new classmates were staring at you in class, and all the whispers you heard in your direction.

"say y/n, how was your class ? Reki turned to you, curious I mean, you're not in the same class as us and you asked us so.. —It was fine. "

Your answer was short and automatic, you know that tone and voice when you reply automatically and it's technically you talking but it doesn't feel like it's you - like you don't even think the words you say but somehow they leave your mouth as if they were the complete truth ? As if you had to answer this specific answer at all cost to protect yourself and act like it's the truth, so much you replied without thinking ? That's exactly how you felt when you spoke, and you hated it. You couldn't control it though, your brain decided it was best to lie.

And yeah, maybe it was best, Reki and Langa didn't have to know about anything, you didn't want to make them feel akward. I mean, it's always this way, whenever you feel the slightest bit down, everyone is always akward or replying "ah" or "oof" or "Sorry", it's as if what you said bothered them in a way, and you just didn't like it.

You noticed Reki and Langa exchanged a glance, did they notice your weird behaviour and caught on your lie or is it just a gay-type of glance ?

You continued talking, trying to sound convincing "I mean, the class was rather loud but it was pretty funny, there was this newborn couple and the guys joked around a lot-"

The bell rang, it was time to seperate again. Thanks god the bell interrupted you, because you didn't even know what you were saying. Still you didn't want to go back to the classroom, you wanted to stay with your friends.

"What? Already!? Reki complained, looking like he was going to be out of his mind if the bell rang one more time —Please focus this time Reki, instead of staring at me. Langa remarked, blankly, it took Reki off guard —I wasn't staring at you i was staring at me ! He defended himself, he put his arm over Langa's shoulder and tried to coonvince him I was staring at my hair because i thought about getting an haircut, you know ? You noticed sweats appear very fast on Reki's face —Right. Langa spoke, half-convinced You never changed your haircut in over a year, you only ever take your headband off when you're mad at me. —Let's go to class now, i need to tell you something. Reki changed the subject and started walking away, before turning to you and waving See you on the rooftop at lunch y/n ! "

You guys waved at each other, and you went back to your class. It was loud, once again, and you could hear a bunch of random conversations again, unamused.

"My uncle's favorite pastime was building cars out of noodles. —How do you even -"

"You know my favorite song? It kinda goes like this, tired of explaining, as these seasons keep on changing —Is this even Japanese…? —No it isn't."

"Which is greener, purple or red ? —Red is greener than purple, for sure. —Look at that color circle, purple is closer to green than red is ! —Does that even mean anything… Purple is made by blue and red, why wouldn't be red greener ? "

"What do these results on this quiz mean ? —You're like the peanut butter. The creator said so. —Wha- but i wanted to be a cheese! so that i could be cheesy with rome- —You're not always who you want to be."

The teacher eventually got the class to quiet down and called for everyone's names one by one to check weither they were present.

Your name wasn't pronounced, weird. But you paid no attention to it.

The teacher begun with an history lesson, a classmate raised his hand and asked something, he wondered why at 18 he was old enough to go to war, but not old enough to buy cigarettes.

You couldn't focus, your head was heavy, until eventually, you noticed the teacher was looking at you.

"Uhm, excuse me.. he called out to you, not pronouncing your name, he coughed, akwardly —Yes ? you asked, a bit taken off guards, were you going to get in troubles for not listening ? —What's your name ? He asked, a bit unsure of his question, staring at a paper, the class was looking at you —y/n l/n —Hm let me see… no you're not in this list. The teacher remarked Weird… What class are you supposed to be in ? —This class sir, it was written on the paper. you show the paper and the teacher examinates it, he looks embarassed —There must have been a mistake somewhere, maybe this is why Aoi haruka isn't here, let me contact my colleagues."

The class was silent, and after a few minutes, an adult came to the class to pick you up and lead you to your class, when you left the classroom, you could hear whispers in your directions, the adult apologized to you explaining your name got mixed up with someone else.

You walked with the adult, reaching another classroom. They knocked on the other classroom door and explained the situation to the other teacher.

"Please excuse me, we mixed up the names and got two students mixed up, i'm here to put y/n l/n here and take Aoi haruka to her actual class. —Oh uh, it's okay… Aoi haruka, please go, and uh.. y/n l/n, please go sit down"

The teacher looked a bit embarassed by this situation.

You entered the classroom, a bit nervous, everyone was looking at you, you looked at the whole classroom to search for a place to sit at, and saw a girl standing up with her backpack and stuff and leaving the classroom, it must have been Aoi Haruka. You looked at the seat, it was next to Langa.

You were in Reki and Langa's class in the end.

You could feel immense relief when you realized, and went to sit down next to Langa, Langa and Reki looked at you curiously, there's a paper on Langa's desk, there's sentences with a very good japanese writing on it next to bunch of badly written japanese sentences, Reki and Langa were probably passing notes about something, you could read a few words from the distance, but only a few, you managed to read your name and the words mission and lie.

What were they planning? When you think about it, what if they were talking behing your back like the other people who you thought were your classmates probably did ? You decided to shake it off, you were probably going too far. You want to trust Reki and Langa… Don't you? Aren't you a good friend?

…

Yeah.

Reki whispered something to Langa, and Langa then leaned his head towards you to whisper something to you.

"Reki asks what are you doing here —My name got mixed up with someone else, i was apparently supposed to be here"

Langa leaned his head back towards Reki and whispered to him what you said, Reki gave you a thumb up.

You smiled. Maybe you were luckier than you thought.

And maybe they weren't.

the class passed, it was way much better, the other class was kind of funny to be honest, but it was really tiring on the first day and they didn't seem to like you so, it's really better this way, and you get to be next to your friends.

But you need to focus on your school work don't you? You can't always hang out with your friends and have fun, life isn't like that, you need to work and be responsible. Be grateful you have it easier than other people, make the best of your school time because it will be harder once you start having a job.

Ah… right.

The teacher talked and you started taking notes, struggling because your wrist hurt, this is the wrist you usually write with, it's injured since your last race at S. Langa looked at you.

"Do you need any help ? he asked, with a calm expression on his face and a tint of worry —No it's okay, i rather not bother you, besides i can't even understand your writing. you whispered back, a bit harshly at the end, you internally slapped yourself for it. —L/n, is there anything you want to share with us ? The teacher spoke, looking at you, your classmates looked at you, you hated it —Uhm actually sir, their wrist is injured, so i was asking them if they needed help. Langa spoke instead of you —Thank you Langa but I was asking L/n to talk- —I CAN HELP ! reki raised his hand and exclaimed himself —Alright… Thank you for your enthusiasm Reki… the teacher replied, looking like he gave up at this moment —Sit next to me, y/n reki spoke —Ah yes… Langa, could you please exchange your desk with l/n's for the class from now on until their wrist heal ? —Yes. Langa moved and you guys switched desk, it looked like Langa was a bit sad to not be next to Reki anymore, but he was happy to be of help in any way —Thank you, Reki, Langa you mumbled, Reki smiled to you —It's nothing "

You got injured after a race at S a few days ago, you were racing Reki. You weren't doing so bad during the race until you thought that if you got injured maybe you wouldn't have to deal with school, and coincidentally, you lost balance, rolled down to the side, and hurt your arm and wrist. Reki was upset and worried and your skateboard continued rolling until it fell off a cliff and you never saw it ever again, but Reki had a spare skateboard for you, thankfully.

The class passed faster than the last class, Reki helped you and took notes for you, though he was pretending to take his notes about the lesson, his notes were mostly about skateboarding if anything, he looked more focused to help you though. Reki seemed kinder to you than usual, it's not that he's never kind, he's always been kind, but it felt a bit more insistant this time. ~ The bell rang, you put your stuff in your backpack and Reki helped you.

"Y/n" Langa spoke, you turned around to face him "yes ? —My stomach hurt. He said, Reki closed your backpack and walked up to him, concerned, he asked —Did you eat anything weird this morning ? Do you want to go to the infirmary ? —This morning, I ate a sock because people on the Internet told me to. You stared, blankly, trying to process the information, and Reki exclamed, in disbelief —What people on the internet !? Langa you can't listen to everything the people tell you to do, how did you even get yourself to eat a sock!? —It didn't taste good. —No kidding it didn't taste good! Langa look at me, did you swallow the whole sock ? —Yes. —So that's why you were having a hard time skateboarding earlier! "

To be honest, you didn't even notice this, but now you were worried for your friend, Langa. And you let Reki speak to him and explain to him that: no, eating a sock isn't safe.

Langa was really something, he was still skating better than you this morning even though he swallowed a whole sock, how did he not choke? ~ Long story short, he got drived to an hospital. For eating a sock. Because people on the internet told him to. Reki looked mad.

You were sitting on the rooftop with Reki, you both were silently eating.

"Langa really is reckless, he scares me"

Reki broke the silence.

You contested : "I don't think he's scary —That's not what i meant, but i mean, sometimes i literally have nightmares because of him, he can't go on and accept every challenges people offer him, i mean, the race with ADAM and now the sock? What's next is he going to mess with the FBI or something!? —I wouldn't even be surprised at this point.. you sighed —Right? I wonder what goes through his head, i mean, what's fun in eating a sock? —I don't even want to imagine. "

And there's a silence again. Until Reki broke it once again, looking at you with a stern look on his face.

"y/n, you won't be as reckless as him right ? —Huh? —I mean, last time you raced at S you got injured, we were racing, y'know… —Well hey, atleast you won ! You tried to reassure him —I want to skate with you but i don't want you to get injured, you know, and you just fell off so suddenly, it didn't even feel like it was an accident if i was honest You felt yourself internally panick, you didn't even know yourself if you did it on accident or on purpose. —No, don't worry it's just a silly little injury, it could have been worse. you tried to reassure him, Reki shouldn't be too worrieed about this, it's not like he never gets injured, he was injured for half of the memories you have had with him, he needs to think more of himself too. —Oka once told me, it's not bad to take care of yourself sometimes, you know ? his tone became a bit more stern —What do you mean ? —You don't look like you've been even sleeping at all y/n, and for the record, your injury was supposed to be healed by now, but you keep using your injured arm and your body is not getting enough rest, i'm worried that you'll actually make it worse."

You stayed quiet at his words, Reki sighed.

"y/n, please take care of yourself, i really don't want to lose you too"

you remembered him telling you about his old friend, you felt bad for even thinking for a second that maybe Reki didn't care about you, but now you needed to think of a way to reassure Reki, this was your fault for being reckless. You smiled and said "Hey hey, i swear it's going to be okay, i'm not being merely as reckless as you or Langa are sometimes " you joked and added "I never raced ADAM"

Reki looked at you with a silly angry face "Well it doesn't mean you can go around and make your injuries worse! You don't want to have to quit skateboarding do you? —Oh, come on it's just an arm —Just an arm!?"

You finished your lunch, and as you were about to get up while Reki was scolding you relentlessly about your injury, you tried to grab for your skateboard, and cut Reki's scolding off "Let's get our mind off of it and skate- —Our skateboards got taken away, y/n —Right"

You sighed, it felt empty without Langa. You felt silly for asking to skate into the school's grounds when you were the one refusing it this morning when Langa asked.

Did it ever feel this way when you were gone?

It felt empty even though Reki was still as lively as ever. If Langa was there though, you knew you wouldn't have been able to escape Reki's scolding, he's been pretty insistent for you to take care of yourself since that injury.

"Thinking about Langa, I hope he's doing okay…" you thought out loud, Reki nodded

Reki looked more quiet than usual, he was still talkative but less, it seemed he was thinking about something. No wonder why though, one of his bestfriends was in a hospital.

Well, bestfriend, that's understimating what the both of them really are. They have one hell of a bond. Even you can notice; their eyes contacts are everything. Even If they aren't romantic, they are still much more than bestfriends in ways words can't describe.

He got up and smiled "Well If It's Langa we have nothing to worry about, he always gets out of troubles somehow"

you nodded, chuckling a bit. It's true, Langa always get out of troubles.

The bell rang, you walked to your classroom together. You sat next to Reki, feeling weird that the seat next to you was empty, you missed Langa already.

The class passed, and when it ended it looked like Reki has fallen asleep while he was trying to take notes for you, but you were too zoned out to even notice.

A voice snapped you back to reality though.

"Just because the water is red doesn't mean you can't drink it… Langa what are you even talking about"

It was Reki's, you looked at him, confused, he was actually awake? You stood up and put your stuff back in your backpack, ignoring the burning pain in your arm.

"What do you mean? " you asked, before realising he has fallen back asleep. Reki is one to talk in his sleep afterall, he always does, you could still remember the day he woke up, stood up from his desk and screamed for Langa's name loudly in utter panick in front of the whole class when he was worried about his race with ADAM. You could also remember staying up with Langa when you guys were having a sleepover, just to hear what Reki would say in his sleep, there were no boring nights with Reki even when he was asleep, he was full of surprises, just like Langa, in a way.

"Reki?" you put your hand on his shoulder, he jumped and screamed "AH ?!!" you gestured for him to calm down. ~ Finally, the school day ended, more silently. You were in front of the school, Reki told you to wait here, you knew you had to stay one hour after class anyways to help the janitors clean, so it didn't reallly matter much.

"What are we even waiting for Reki? The teachers are waiting for us. —Just wait"

You stayed silent, until you noticed Miya walking up to you "hey slimes, so are we gonna go get the skateboards or what? You better pay me back after that. *You stared, confused, before turning to face Reki. —Reki, what is this about? *Reki sighed* —Long story short y/n… I'll have the two of you conduct a prison break ! —Wait you don't mean- —We're going to get our skateboards back and get away from here ! Reki exclamed himself, proudly —And then he'll become my cat. Miya added, killing Reki's joy in just a sentence —Don't act smug it's just one day ! —Wanna make it two?"

you stared at them, surprised, Miya didn't bring his skateboard.

So you were going to get your skateboards back and Miya was going to take Langa's skateboard back.

And then you could break out of school.

You stared the ground, your face frowned, and you spoke "They'll call our parents for that —Oh don't worry, i've done this plenty of time with Langa, you just never got into that much troubles before —What? But- you whole lots of crazy!- —They always forget! Infact, when i tried to wait for them to give me back my skateboard, they always forgot, so we have to get these back ourselves before they damage our babies ! —Fair enough i guess.."

You didn't want to imagine Reki giving birth to a skateboard, so you just went along with his plan hoping he'd stop using the name "babies" for the skateboards. ~ You were out of school with your skateboard, at the small skatepark you and Langa usually go to, you could remember Langa practicing tic-tacs here.

You were sitting with Miya as Reki was skating around

Miya yelled at his new human pet " drop, you must! —On it!" Reki dropped down the ramp, and failed, miya snickered

"Wow, and i thought i promoted you to a a golem! —You did!? Reki sounded happy Also If i failed, that's Langa's fault! Reki complained, which led Miya to be confused, he asked —How so? —Today I heard something new and unmemorable. Langa literally swallowed a sock because people on the internet told him to, i can't focus! —He did what!? So that's why he couldn't go pick up his skateboard himself!? Miya looked heavily surprised, he stared at the ground, hiding his concern"

Reki started skating again and raised his voice "Yes, he never changes!" Reki was obviously shaking and struggling to keep his balance, he looked tired and stressed, damn, you hated to see him like this. You looked away from him for a bit, and looked at Miya.

"Miya, how was school ? you asked, curious —It was fine i guess, you ? —You know how people get pregnant around their belly? Well i get brain pregnant, it's like i'm giving birth to so many neurons i'm gonna explode"

Miya stared at you and questionned your sanity. You looked back to Reki who was skating, you decided to cheer him on "Never back down never what!? —Never give up! Reki screamed in enthusiasm, before he falls on his balls and scream in more pain —Are you okay!?"

Reki sat up and gave you a thumb up, before standing up, visibly in pain. You started to wonder if you should join him, he seemed to continue skating despite his struggles, and you were just watching him with Miya, not doing an effort at all.

You can be such a burden sometime, you're almost certain being looked at this way while you're struggling must not feel cool. You remember being scared of people's looks when you started skating.

Reki went up to you, and asked you

"Hey, so y/n how are you feelin- —Meow for me, slime. Miya cut him off and Reki meowed, embarassed and annoyed, you laughed That's a good cat. Miya commented before Reki said —Oh shut it Miya, if we have a beef one day i'll make sure you regret that"

You looked at your phone and noticed that you had a message on a groupchat with Reki, Langa, Miya, Joe, Cherry and Shadow.

…You have a lot of groupchats. Like one that excludes Joe just for Cherry, and one to exclude Cherry just for Joe.

Shadow : " I'm racing a rookie tonight ! Watch me blow them off at midnight ! scary laughter "

It's scary how he used the scary laughters seriously as if he was talking to bots and roleplaying

Cherry : "I'll pass"

Reki looked at your screen, before saying "maybe we should go to Joe's… —Hm? you turned your head to face Reki, he seemed thoughtful. He turned to Miya and said —Miya, let's- —Call me master and meow. —Frick you! —It's apart of the deal —Fine- Master, let's go to Joe's meow —There there that's better. Miya pet Reki's hair and Reki looked like he was trying his best to compose himself, you tried not to laugh —Who's paying ? you asked —My cat is paying. —I didn't even- but yes that's true"

a few seconds passed, before Reki screamed

"WAIT I FORGOT I HAD A JOB !"

Your eyes widened, and you all skated to Reki's workplace, Reki apologized and you volunteered to replace Langa since he was unavailable tonight, since he… ate a sock. Miya was playing on his console while you two were working, you were pretty much zoned out and it looked like Reki would talk mostly to Miya anyways, you were zoned out but you could hear him complain whenever Miya told him to act like a cat, some things about this being inadequate at a workplace.

~ Finally, after that, you guys skated to Joe's restaurant, it seemed the restaurant was still open and Joe was waiting for you, Shadow and Cherry were all here, they seemed to know you'd come. Maybe Miya or Reki texted them to come.

You guys ordered some meals, and Shadow tried to steal Joe's kitchen to cook instead and show his great cooking skills, he wanted to cook you waffles or something… somehow, with his secret recipe. For shadow, excitement replaced fear until the final moment where Joe was able to stop him from using the kitchen furthermore.

Waffles are always better without fire ants and fleas, afterall. (This is an Italian restaurant).

It seemed the restaurant was originally closed but Joe made an exception for all of you because Reki convinced him to.

You were sitting near the window next to Miya, facing Reki. You asked : "So, what are we doing here Reki ? —I wanted to pass some quality time with my friends, you know.. eheh He looked like he was hiding something —That is your friend ? Miya pointed to Shadow which Shadow immediately noticed —Hey! I'm not your teacher or anything! Shadow raged, and Miya shrugged —You could have just invited everyone except Shadow on the groupchat excluding Shadow. Miya said, indifferent, playing on his console —WHAT GROUPCHAT?? Shadow yelled, before Joe told him to quiet down"

you stared at the table, a few moments later, Joe handed you guys over a few plates of food, as you guys ordered. Cherry was sitting next to Reki.

Shadow was renting, something along the lines "My dentist tells me that chewing bricks is very bad for your teeth. But no bricks can hurt my teeth behind this mask! I'm a true man!" you couldn't really understand what he was even saying, too zoned out to even try to understand. If Langa was here, he'd have been very happy to eat all of the restaurant's leftovers. You heard miya tells shadow "Well good for you idiot, just tell me if you want me to call a mental hospital for you"

You were happy you were all together, but you couldn't help but think about tomorrow's school day, you were definitely going to be even more tired than you were today tomorrow.

Joe kicked Shadow out of the restaurant for being a menace to his kitchen in the end as Shadow continued to try going back to the kitchen of the restaurant.

The first school day was tiresome, even if you were in Reki and Langa's classroom, you felt a sort of stress concerning your future, you didn't want to mess your life up. Life isn't just about fun…

Miya nudged your shoulder to get you to listen to whatever they're talking about, and he spoke "Thank god Joe was able to get Shadow out of his kitchen, if Joe ever lets Shadow cooks for us, I won't think twice i'll go : bye-bye-bye —This feels familliar you spoke, the way he said the end of his sentence looked like a song, strange.. —What does? Miya asked —Oh- nothing, nothing."

You stared at your plate and ate a bit, you were slow though. Reki was silent, after some time, Cherry spoke.

" Today I discovered something i never knew about carla before. —Which is ? Joe asks —Nothing. —If you want everyone to have a conversation so bad, atleast come up with something more creative."

the room was silent, Joe and Cherry wouldn't even speak, Reki looked at Joe, with pleading eyes, you were confused. Joe sighed and speaked:

"Say y/n, are you going to S tonight? —Uhm… You thought, S was really fun, and you really didn't wanna go to school and all, maybe you could just go to S and call it your life cheatcode- —I don't advice you to If you're still injured. Cherry said, glancing at your arm —I'm fine guys, i swear —You're not going to race anyone though, right ? Reki asked, looking concerned —Well actually i was thinking about it. you admitted, Reki looked at you with a face of despair and Miya spoke —You're so reckless y/n. —Y/n! please don't hurt yourself! Reki pleaded —It's no use Reki, they don't understand you… —What do you mean they don't understand me!?? —They zoned out again" ~ Long story short, the group convinced you not to go to S tonight, and Reki ended up convincing you to sleep at his place tonight for a sleepover so that you wouldn't be alone in skipping S tonight, but also to be sure you don't go there. He already sneaked to S without his friends knowing before, and he doesn't want you to do that too.

You walked out of the restaurant with Reki, Miya already went home, Cherry already left, and Joe had to clean after you. You already texted your parents that you would be on a sleepover with Reki tonight, you also mentionned that Langa would be there so that they wouldn't ask too many questions, even though Langa wasn't here.

"What a long day" Reki stretched, and looked at you "Let's go"

You both started skating, until it started raining, your skateboard wasn't set for rain, shit.

"Shoot! Y/n this way ! " Reki called out to you, skating away, the rain was getting slowly, no, quickly heavier and heavier, and you ended up falling off, you got up and took your skateboard and ran, Reki was already far away.

Big thunder noises

Oh, there's a thunder. ~ You reached Reki's house, panting and barely breathing, covered in mud, barely standing on your own. He panicked and apologized a thousand times when he noticed you got even more hurt, he took you to his house quickly not wanting to let you get even colder, and he checked your injuries once again, this time, in his bathroom, just in case something was missing in his bag, he was sure to find whatever it could be in the bathroom.

The bathroom looked clean, it was a small room but sufficient, you sat on a chair, Reki opened his bag and a drawer, before checking your arm first, your wounds visbly opened again as your bandages were red. How amazing. Reki probably didn't like seeing your bandages being red so often.

"Damn, now this must be my fault this time. Reki mumbled, as he got rid of your bloodied bandages and pulled up a disinfectant Thanks god the wounds aren't that big, you could have ended up in the hospital like Langa, because of me… —Hey, no, we're fine, we didn't predict the weather."

Reki seemed distant as he stared at your arm, he mumbled something inaudible. He was zoning out while lightly using the disinfectant, you didn't like this. So you spoke.

"You're not a god, you know. —And you're not either, so stop being so reckless will ya? He retorted, unhappy —Say the one who was blaming himself a few minutes ago! You didn't want to let this slide, Reki was done changing your bandages, and he spoke while putting back the bandages supplies into their places —I'm not blaming you! I'm just, well, worried for you you know! —There's no reasons to be. You stared at the ground, ready to deny everything, Reki spoke, almost reading your mind —Where else are you hurt? —Nowhere! You tried to stand up but your legs gave up pretty easily Agh- You almost fell but Reki caught you, some of the dirt of your clothes got to him, you both were still dripping wet, and you were covered in mud, it was a bit awkward, but Reki was there for you, he was like a brother to you —Hold into me, where does it hurt? —My knees —Shit "

Reki cursed and slowly had you sitting back in the chair, telling you to not move and not be reckless.

You and Reki held something in common, you both were pretty stubborn when it came to being fine.

Right now, Reki looked lost in thoughts as he checked your knees, and as he suspected, your knees were hurt, but it didn't look too bad yet, he sighed and looked at you in the eyes "We're going to get that checked tomorrow if it doesn't get better, okay? —Okay..? You sounded hesitant, as if it was weird for him to care about you,but it's not supposed to be —So you can't stand? —Actually yes I can! you tried to let go of Reki's grip, but you held into the chair instead, Reki sighed —Alright, uhm, you're covered in mud, do you want to take a bath? I have some spare clothes for you if you want? He politely asked, feeling bad that he let you get hurt like this —I mean, yeah alright you replied, not knowing why you could possibly say no, being covered in mud really wasn't pleasant"

This isn't the first time something like this happened, you smiled, this is why Reki always had spare clothes just in case, because you can recall the three of you getting all muddy so many times, and you guys would usually have sleepovers at Reki's house more than anyone's house. You knew what was going to happen was that you would take a bath, and then Reki would do so too when you leave the bathroom, clean and changed and as you go get your other clothes cleaned.

You might catch a pretty bad cold tomorrow. ~ After you took a bath and put on the spare clothes that were ready for you, you ended up in the living room, desperately holding into whatever you could hold into, you were told to sit down and not exhaust yourself. But to be honest, you uncounsciously wanted to exhaust yourself, so maybe you could ghost through the whole year, was it selfish? It's just the first day…

The family was really loud and lively, even at night, you recalled that it was often like this whenever you had a sleepover with Langa at Reki's house.

It's weird that Langa isn't here… It feels so empty even with all of the noises going on, Reki must be feeling stressed out. Just as he showed at the skatepark earlier, barely able to keep balance on his skateboard.

You heard one of Reki's sibling, try to tell a story to another sibling, something along the lines of "The llama couldn't resist trying the lemonade…", It felt very silly.

The atmosphere was warm, you sure never get lonely in here, this place is full of life. It was such a warm and fuzzy atmosphere, you couldn't help but smile a bit. Though the noises gave you a headache. Surprisingly enough, it still wasn't too late for Reki's siblings to be awake, somehow. Well, it's true that Reki's mother was desperately trying to calm the siblings down and get them to sleep, you were in the living room, your backpack out, you already had homework on the first day of school, and you could barely focus.

After some time, Reki came downstairs, he seemed to have cleaned himself up and changed himself faster than you did, he walked towards you and sat next to you, opening his backpack aswell.

You both tried to focus with the awkward silence going on between you, it was funny because no one could hear the silence as the house was really loud, but you could still feel it.

After some time, Reki scratched his hair, stretched and sighed "Man, I didn't listen to a single word the teachers said today —You didn't? —You did? —Yes, I mean… you hesitated, you mostly remember having negative thoughts about yourself today, you looked down at your paper I don't really remember anything…"

You felt Reki's gaze on you, you didn't know if it was a thoughtful look, a mocking look, a look of disbelief, or a look of concern, you didn't dare to move your head to know, sometimes it's better not to know, so you tried to focus on the printed writing of your paper.

"Is this history? you asked, Reki gulped —I thought it was maths —But there are centuries on the paper —True… But you have to calculate the centuries right? —Reki…"

You sighed, this was getting nowhere, you were barely reading. Mostly reading with your own eyes but not your brain, a simple sentence was like a treasure hint, each simple little words just wouldn't reunite or make sense in your brain. At that exact moment you just wanted to spend time with Reki, you didn't want to work, it was selfish, yes, but you couldn't help it, you didn't want to drag Reki into troubles though. You knew you were tired, but if you slept right now, you knew that you'd still be unable to work the next morning, it stressed you out, you didn't want to mess up on the second day of school aswell. You couldn't let all these bad feelings stop you, you didn't want to make yourself up excuses not to work, you felt like it was your fault, like you were the one who uncounsciously made yourself feel bad to have an excuse to work less and feel better about yourself. Though it was doing the opposite, and maybe you weren't right about this.

Thoughts were spinning around inside your head as your eyes focused on the sheet of paper and your textbook, you were completely zoning out.

How are you going to do this? How are you going to handle all of this? You messed up, all you had to do was not overthink it and here you already tired yourself out for a whole period, and you're dragging Reki into it aren't you? How stupid can you be? This is important, school is important, you can't just ignore that, it's not all just about fun. Why would it be?

"Y/n" *Reki called your name, looking at you "Hey, Y/n" *he insisted, you shook your head as your eyes widened, you stopped your trail of thoughts* "Yes ?" you tried to hold in your tears, but instead, you yawned, which got a few tears out of your eyes anyway, you whipped those tears away: you were just tired, that was all. Why else would have tears left your eyes? You're tired, nothing more. It was just one or two tears, a natural reaction from yawning, isn't it?

That is, before you realized it, the tears didn't stop leaving your eyes, it wasn't caused by just the yawning, you couldn't control yourself and your thoughts right now. Reki panicked, "Woah y/n! Hey please don't cry uhm-" you hid your face. when you realized.

Fuck, this wasn't the time to be dramatic, your other bestfriend was in the hospital, and all you could think about was yourself. How selfish can you be? Why are you ruining everything?

You weren't looking at Reki but even you could hear his panic, you tried to wipe away your tears and to calm down, it wasn't working out. Reki spoke, trying to be reassuring and comforting "hey, hey, it's okay- it's going to be okay, look at me- Well it's okay if you don't want to look at me, do you want to talk about it? What's up? —It's nothing, I'm just tired you said, your voice was shaking, you couldn't even make your voice sound normal, Reki's siblings were staring at you, great, you're making a scene now. —Is this the school stressing you out again? He asked, you stayed silent and your eyes widened a bit as you stared at the ground, Reki put an hesitant hand on your shoulder and spoke —Hey, it's okay, we're in classes of 30 people, they never check our work- —But I can't mess up you cut him off School's important, life isn't about just fun, work exist too Reki stayed silent for a second, before saying —Hey, I have fun at work you know —Huh? But this is a part time job!- —Does it matter? "

You paused, questioning your life's choices, Reki continued

"Hey, let me show you something" He stood up and led you an hand, you got up and he helped you walk, you guys walked toward the place he usually goes to to work on his skateboards in his garden, it seemed it stopped raining a while ago, probably while you were trying to focus on your work.

"Remember this place?" He asked, you nodded. Of course you can't forget, Reki made you multiple skateboards for free here, it was loud hearing the machines sometimes, but you can never forget a place with such fond memories.

Reki walked and grabbed a piece of wood "your skateboard got wet right? It needs to dry, this can last months, so to wait, i can make you another skateboard before this one breaks" he said, taking the usual measurements of the wood and tracing some lines, you were confused, weren't you guys talking about school and work just now? Why is he suddenly talking about skateboards again? I mean, atleast he was really passionate about it…

You stared at him, a bit dumbfounded, as he work, and you asked, before he turns on that godamn machine that had your ears dying on spot.

"Why are you doing this? —Well, because, if i let you skateboardless and dying to the stress of school, what will i think of myself for letting you down like this? —You're never letting me down, and, as I've said, life isn't about just fun anyway- —But it can be. Why torture yourself? He turned on the machine to cut the wood, making sure to follow the lines he traced precisely, communicating would be harder now, you had to raise your voice —It's not that simple! —Pick some trucks and some wheels"

Welp, there it is, Reki was being stubborn again, does he even understand you?

You sighed and stared at the available trucks and wheels, Reki was a bit too nice, he always gave you wheels and trucks for free.

Small wheels are for tricks, big wheels are for cruising on rougher surfaces. You pick out some wheels, and some trucks. When you think about it, Reki could just make you a board and you could replace the trucks and wheels yourself, why was he doing this?

When he was done cutting down the board, he asked "you done picking your trucks and wheels?" you nodded "mhm" he smiled and looked at the wheels and trucks you picked before nodding aswell, not surprised by your choice. He spoke, almost teasing you.

"You know, you really never changed your style of skating. —I don't really want to. You replied, Reki chuckled —You don't have to if this style suits you"

Reki started taking his supplies to color and decorate your board, you looked at him do so, and he asked "The same theme as usual? —Yes, please don't get too silly about it. You said in anticipation of whatever was about to come, Reki can be all but predictable sometimes —Will do!"

Reki got to work after putting a support under the board so that the paint wouldn't go over all the desk, and you just stared at him, feeling useless. He was used to working on this now to no surprises, and he was extremely fast, he surely looked like a professional. To you, he was like the God of skating, and you're sure many other would agree with you.

"Hey, y/n, want to add a touch of your help too? Let's spray some paint together —Can I really? —Yeah, it's your board not mine, as long as you don't spray paint all over my face I'm cool with it."

You smiled, feeling excited, you chose a color, specifically your favorite color. You started trying to draw some lines on the back of your board, not really confident. Reki nudged your shoulders to tease you, so you fought back.

Before you knew it, your board was full of colors and failed drawings, this definitely wasn't your usual board. And you both had full paint on your clothes, and some on your skin. You both were laughing and hardly breathing, when you calmed down, Reki looked at your board and declared "I shall call it the double painted friendship Reki-Y/n creation board, aka the Reki y/n dp friendship board!" you sighed, there he went again with his ridiculous nicknames, but you didn't dislike it either. If anything, Reki's enthusiasm was cheering you up, at this exact moment, you couldn't even bear to think about school, you just wanted to have fun. So what if they say life isn't just about fun?

You turned to face Reki, your eyes widened, and you looked at yourself. This was a catastrophe, you both were full of paint. Reki looked at you and looked at himself and realised the mess you both have done aswell, he had a curious and surprised look on his face for a second, before his smile brightened, and proud of himself he declared "Well looks like we both had a relooking!" you sighed and smiled "this isn't very healthy" he laughed "Don't worry, the paint is offensive once every 10 years"

"Let's let the paint dry for now." Reki said, before turning to look at you "You good?" you paused and thought, before answering "Yeah, i'm fine, why do you ask?" Reki sighed and said "I was scared you'd flood my house back there. —Hey! I'm not that much of a crybaby! —I'd rather have you cry than stay alone though. Joe once told me to never end up on my own."

You paused and stared at the table "Yeah, that's a good advice" you mumbled, before turning your head to face Reki, a curious look on your face "Say, why did you do all of this? You didn't have to let me pick out some new trucks and wheels, we could have just put the ones from the old board on the new board, you know? —Y/n, this is not the first time your trucks got wet, and i'm afraid they're getting rusty —They are? —Even a 4 year old would notice. —Hey! "

You guys laughed, and you asked "what do we do about the paint? —Let's go get it cleaned before it dries on our face, it's not raining anymore so we can go back to my house and to the cabin when it dries"

You were able to stand on your own, but when you took a step, it really hurts a lot, but you felt like you could handle it, things are way much less painful when you're in a better mood, it's crazy.

Once you entered his house again, you saw one of his younger sister, Koyomi, eating an ice cream and directly turning to talk to you "Hey y/n, i've got something for you —You're not sleeping? Reki asked —Nope, couldn't sleep with all the charades our younger relatives put in the house"

Koyomi took some papers and handed them to you "Here, nanaka and chihiro made these for you, they said they hoped it would make you feel better"

You took the drawings, these were drawings made by one of Reki's youngest siblings, a stickman kind of drawing with some hearts. It seemed even they cared about you. you stared at the drawing, while Reki said "Hey Koyomi, don't stay up too late. —You aswell" ~ After you both cleaned the paint off your face and arms, you went back to the place where the paint dried. You already felt much better, you made sure to keep the drawings somewhere in your backpack, these were silly, but you wanted to keep them in your room or something when you'll go back to your house.

Your phone bzzzzed, you turn on your phone and checked the notification, it was a message from Langa on the trio group containing you, Langa and Reki.

"Hey guys! I'm out of the hospital! :) The sock was no problem much, i'm on my way home!" Reki turned to you "Hm, what are you doing y/n? —Hey, look at this, Langa's out of the hospital you said, Reki immediately looked at your phone without any hesitation and said —Wow, so he really got out of troubles huh? —Yup, once again."

You smiled and typed a message on your phone "Hey Langa, I'm at Reki's house right now, I hope you have a good night, see you at school tomorrow!" you sent the message, before you knew it, reki took out his own phone and typed a message "Hey Langa, btw, i made y/n a new board, wanna video call to see it?".

You saw the message appear on the groupchat, and before you knew it, Langa already sent a videocall ask, you refused as Reki already turned on the video call and one was enough.

It seems the paint has dried already.

Reki picked the trucks and wheels you chose to put them and fix them on your board, you only noticed now but these also got colored in the process somehow, it gave your board a new type of look, you couldn't help but smile. When Reki was done, he took care of the grip tape, and when that was done aswell, he looked at you to present the final result while showing Langa through his phone the final result, and proud of himself, he asked, a big genuine smile on his face "Well! What do you think??" you clapped, genuinely amused. Langa praised Reki.

Reki grinned "I know, i'm the best when it comes to making boards —I helped painting the board too! —You sure are an artist y/n l/n."

Reki laughed, and you heard Langa laugh too. You were smiling, you didn't even know what time was it, you didn't really care about the time anymore, though you could notice dark circles under Reki's eyes, you didn't know if you had them too.

After a small moment of silence, Reki talked, in a low soft voice "Hey, y/n —Hm? —You're right, life isn't about just fun. you dropped your composure when he said this —What do you mean? —Life is about being happy, silly! He messed your hair up, leaving the screen on the desk and leaving Langa confused, he smiled you really are an idiot you know? he teased you, not actually meaning it —Hey! Atleast I care about my grades! You defended yourself, Reki grinned —You know, when it comes to school and grades, i'm not really worried, you build yourself a path towards the future by being happy and doing the things you like, don't you? —Well, it's true but… —So why torture yourself? You'll be just fine, a day of not doing homework won't kill you, hey, what makes you happy? —Being with you you blurted out and everyone else you added, Reki seemed a bit caught off guard, he scratched his head and blushed a bit, flattered, he spoke —Well then use your mind a bit more for us and less for school, I promise you you'll figure everything out at your own pace —Can I really? —Do I inspire you? he asked out of the blue, semi-hesitant, semi-confident —Reki! you nudged his shoulder and laughed —What? —Of course you inspire me! —But i'm not good at school and grades, I don't even care about school as much as you do. —Yes, but you're so passionate and good at what you do. I'm not even sure of what i want to do in the future. —All I did was enjoy what i enjoy. He paused and smiled brightly I love skating, the fun is infinite, it never ends!"

You heard Langa's confused voice through the phone, the lonely blue-haired teenage boy spoke "Y'know y/n, when it comes to school and work, i rather see you happy with average grades than stressed out and on edge with good grades, just like we found you were last year"

You felt a bit embarrassed and nervous, so you stared at Reki, internally begging for him to change the topic. He smiled, and said "it might not be easy, but hang in there, i promise everything will be okay, school won't pick your path for you, school will force you to pick a path, of course school is important, but a balance is important aswell, we can't have you so stressed out that you break down on one sheet of paper everytime, what kind of friends would we be if we let you alone to struggle like this? I don't think that would be very fair, you know. Life may not just be about fun, but sometimes it is. What's more important anyway is to be happy anyway isn't it?"

His confident and long monologue was interrupted by a big sneeze.

Oh, you had all that nasty stuff over your face, dear god.

Reki panicked and ran to grab some tissues, you tried not to laugh at the way he ran, welp, this was really worth not going to S for.

You stared at the phone on the desk and Langa saw your face and laughed as you picked the tissue Reki handed to you.

Through the phone, you heard Langa's voice "y/n, you know, I'm happy with you guys too —You better be." ~ You fell asleep in your sleeping bag, and the next morning, you both were completely sick. And you forgot to complete the homework you were supposed to turn in today. You still weren't even sure if it was an History sheet or a Maths one.

But did it really matter? You had so much fun yesterday, and you cheered up, sometimes it's cool to loosen up.

This is the type of memory you won't regret when you'll be at death's door. This is the type of memory that really matters.

Of course school did matter, but when it slowly kills you and you have no idea of what you want to do, what do you do? How do you balance personal life and school?

Life isn't just about fun sure,

It's about appreciating the moment that's happening right now. And right now, you didn't want to think about school.

Rather, you wanted to think about getting some meds, because you both were REALLY a sick mess.

And little did you know the papers you both left on the living room table didn't last long when Reki's siblings woke up.

Oops?

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kquil · 5 months

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FRIENDLY COMPETITION

PAIR. : Sirius Black. x Cassandra (moot)

SUM. : academic rivals' hearts don't race for each other do they? well, apparently sirius' and cassandra's do

TAGS : academic rivals ; modern au ; fluff ; sirius being sirius ; we love him ; cassandra (moot) being adorable ; latin vs french ; author isn't a languages expert in mentioned languages so i apologise for the lack of knowledge and build up there ; his name is sirius for a reason people! ; jealousy jealousy! ; oblivious!cassandra ; jealous sirius ; subtle confession ; slow build up to confession

LENGTH : 1.7k

DEDICATED TO @cassandra-nerezza-black (1k cake request)

EVENT : CLOSED

You walk through the corridors of Hogwarts, your arms laden with weighty books, your mind racing with Latin conjugations and historical dates. The castle is buzzing with the usual pre-class verve and activity, but your focus is unwavering as you weave through the maze of students. That is, until you hear a familiar voice.

"Morning, Cassandra," Sirius Black, the notorious prankster of Hogwarts along with the rest of the Marauders and your academic rival, greets you with his trademark smirk.

You glance up, meeting his mischievous steel-grey eyes, sparkling with an impishness that you are far too familiar with, "Sirius," you acknowledge with little interest, trying to mask the flutter in your chest. His presence always has this effect on you, despite—or maybe because of—your rivalry. How annoying. Even in between lessons he’s scrambling your brain.

He falls into step beside you as you try to out-walk him, however, the length of his legs helps him keep pace and his strides remain easy and confident. There’s no way you’re out-walking him, let alone out-running him, you might as well resign yourself to your fate, "studying hard as usual, I see,” he teases — just the sound of his voice makes the shell of your ears itch, “I'm surprised you don't have a book on how to have fun; that’s the one you need the most,"

You roll your eyes and try to keep a small smile from playing on your lips, "some of us value knowledge, Black," was your kittenish retort, slowly succumbing to his contagious humour.

He chuckles melodically and his hair falls over his eyes in that effortlessly charming way, "Oh, I value knowledge. Especially when it comes to languages. How's your Latin coming along?"

"Better than yours, I'm sure," you quip, feeling a sense of pride swell up in your chest, where you hug your book sources securely. Languages are your domain, your safe haven, and a subject where you excel, even more so than Sirius.

His grin widens, "Is that a challenge, Cassandra? Because you know I can't resist a good competition,"

You shake your head at him, amused despite yourself, "You're on,"

The days that follow are filled with playful banter and academic one-upmanship. You and Sirius find yourselves in a constant battle of wits, each of you fluent in multiple languages, him majoring in French and you, Latin. Debates of his language versus your ‘dead’ language was a common topic between the two of you. But it’s all light-hearted. There’s a thrill that comes with the competition and you find yourself eager to learn and get ahead just from a simple glimpse of him in the distance. He surprises you with his proficiency; he's not just a rebel or a prankster, but a smart one at that. And a terrible romantic – he did choose to major in the language of love, after all.

However, your interactions are tinged with an undercurrent of something more, something neither of you dares to acknowledge. Both due to fear and the want to keep whatever you have currently, going for as long as possible. What you have right now is worth keeping alive. It’s become a sort of highlight to your days in Hogwarts.

More often than not, you catch him looking at you when he thinks you're not aware, his gaze lingering a second too long. And you can't deny the quickening of your pulse whenever he's near. You’ve never had someone gaze upon you so lovingly and with such adoration in their eyes. Or was that just glee from what you two shared? You didn’t want to delude yourself into believing something was there if he didn’t actually feel that way but ugh! He makes it so hard sometimes!

Sirius admires your pretty face, your light, soft skin, and beautiful brown hair. He often imagines what it’s like to feel your dough-soft skin under his lingering touch and the silk of your hair through the comb of his fingers. Guiltily, he keeps his thoughts to himself, living in the fantasy whenever he’s near you and the fictitious reality he’s dreamt up countless times comes as close to reality as it can ever get.

…That’s all it’ll ever remain, however, fictitious and a fantasy. He knows how greedy he can be and constantly has to remind himself to keep from reaching forward to hold your hand or brush a stray hair out of your face. What you two have now is good enough, he wouldn’t dare sabotage it in any way.

It was a Saturday and you were in the courtyard, laughing at something a fellow Ravenclaw said. He's charming, witty, and you enjoy his company. You were especially grateful to be partnered up with him for your latest History project. Admittedly, the two of you have strayed away from the topic at hand but you weren’t too distressed over it; you’ve made some decent progress with the project already so you had the time to spare.

The atmosphere was light and comfortable but as your shoulders shake subtly in a soft giggle, a shadow falls over you. Stopping mid-titter, you look up to find Sirius looming over you with a tight expression, and a deep frown marring his handsome features. The playful glint in his eyes are gone and in their place is a menacing shine, a reflection of an unknown emotion you find hard to place.

"Cassandra, can I have a word?" he asks, voice tense. It isn’t like him to be so straightforward and curt with you; usually, your shared conversations are filled with witty remarks and lighthearted jabs at each other’s flaws — it was always good fun and never too serious.

Did you do something wrong?...

You excuse yourself, curiosity piqued and Sirius leads you away, his strides long and purposeful, you could barely keep up but keep your lips sealed. A budding anxiety grows in the pit of your stomach over what he may want to talk about. Sirius has never been so…serious before…

Once out of earshot, he turns to you and in his eyes, you see an unrecognisable intensity burning that only seems to grow by the second. Slowly, your lips part to break the increasing tension but you’re a little too slow.

"Why are you letting him hang around you like that?" Sirius demands, his voice laced with something peculiar, something uncommon for him… something green? (Jealousy?—No!)

Taken aback, your eyes widen at his query, "he's just a friend, Sirius. Why are you like this?" you ask, eyes softening at the pressure visibly tensing his shoulders, and your voice softens too, “what’s wrong?”

"Nothing–" he starts, then hesitates. He takes a deep breath, running a hand through his hair. "Nothing’s wrong…forget it, I’m sorry, Cass…"

Your heart skips a beat,it never fails to do so when he calls you by that fond nickname, "Sirius, clearly it’s not nothing, come on…" your gentle urging slowly breaks through the cracks no matter how much he wants to deny it, “you’re not a liar, tell me the truth,”

He looks at you, his usual confidence replaced with vulnerability, "all this teasing, this competition... it's not just because I enjoy annoying you,” he struggles to find the words but you need him to say it. Your racing heart needs him to say it and confirm everything, if only to feel like you’re not crazy, “I feel more for you than that… Cassandra," he looks into your eyes, his steel irises shaking from slight terror, “...you feel it too right?” he begins again, voice quieter than ever.

“The heart racing?” He nods, “yeah, I do,”

Your confirmation brings back the light in his eyes, “And the loneliness when you’re away?” he adds and you nod this time. By now, the two of your were mirroring each other’s slowly emerging grins.

“And the butterflies in your stomach when you get close?”

He nods and it’s his turn again, “and the ticklish itch to want to hold your hand?” you two step closer to each other

“And the same ticklish feeling to kiss you?” you both nod and giggle together too.

The confession hangs between you, heavy and significant as you stare into each other’s eyes. Your hearts have been set free. Your mind racing to process the interaction between you two. Sirius Black, the heartthrob of Hogwarts, wants to hold your hand and kiss you. He’s not just a rival anymore, he’s silently begging you to be something more. And you’ll answer him but first…

“Say it…” you whisper, stretching your neck up to move your faces closer together.

“...Can’t I just show you instead?” he counters softly, his hands sliding over your hips and settling over the curve of them as he brings you closer.

“No,” you shake your head and bite your lip in a poor attempt to suppress your grin, “you have to say it first,”

As your hands settle on his shoulders, he arches a brow and the playful sparkle in his eyes are back again, “but it’ll be more romantic if I just show you,”

“Sirius,” your voice is monotone and stern and your eyes give him that ‘don’t play with me’ look. Unable to help himself, he throws his head back and laughs.

“Alright alright,” he relents and smiles when your soft, adoring look returns to your features, “Cassandra,” your name on his lips is music to your ears, so soft, so sweet and so loving, “Cass, I love you,” a wide grin stretches your lips and you squirm in place from how happy you were feeling. You were just about to return the sentiment when– “now it’s your turn,”

“Seriously?”

“My name is Sirius…so…”

You stare at him blankly.

“Any day now, Cass… Take your time but please hurry up,”

His response draws a giggle from you, “I love you too Sirius,”

In that moment, the world around you disappears. It's just you and Sirius, two opposites who somehow found a common language in each other. His smile mirrors yours and he pulls you into a gentle, yet passionate kiss. It's a kiss that speaks of new beginnings, of unexpected love found in the midst of playful rivalry.

A/N : im so sorry this was so late darling! although i really do hope you enjoyed the read,

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jokingmisfit · 2 years

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Yandere Platonic Patton Hc’s

WARNINGS- Murder, Abuse, Unhealthy relationships, Kidnapping, Things related to that.

THIS ISN’T FOR KIDS READ AT YOUR OWN RISK (18+ Please)

Remember when I said he was clingy before, well now if you aren’t doing something where you can’t be held onto for you’re being held. Patton will always be touching you, or hugging you, or having you sit in his lap.

Patton is delusional and a bit clueless. He isn’t quite aware that his emotions shouldn’t be this intense. It’s best not to shatter this reality because he can become very unstable very quickly which will only make him more dangerous to others and you.

He makes you call him Dad, Papa, Dada, or even Father.(Not daddy, no, he learned his lessons with that)

You aren’t allowed to help much with baking with yandere Patton. You can stir food and help shape things, but you are NOT allowed anywhere near the oven or utensils because, “What if you hurt yourself!?”

Yandere Patton is way too over protective. He makes you use little kids utensils, hand feeds you, blows on your food, he’ll help bathe and dress you (it takes a LOT of convincing for him not to, and it’ll only work every once in a while), and he would’ve helped you with going to the bathroom but you fought really hard and had to give up other freedoms for him not to.

The other sides either won’t help because they’re also yandere, or because they don’t have to deal with the over delirious Patton, or because Patton threatened them, or because their convincing did nothing and it’s not like he’s hurting anyone. (pick your favorite reason why)

You aren’t allowed to watch anything too “grownup” or too mature.

Patton will get very upset and confused if you fight him or disobey or do something he doesn’t like. He eventually gets over it and starts giving out punishments.

Patton’s punishments usually involve being spanked, having your favorite items or activities taken away, being scolded (for very small things), or being “grounded” (being locked in a room with nothing but a bed).

Beg enough and be sweet and he’ll give you almost anything you want. He’ll even take you outside, though he’ll have a hold on you the whole time. Patton may even carry you, “so you don’t trip”.

Nicknames are given more often you’ll be called kiddo (obv.), sweetie, sweetheart, my dear girl/boy/child, sunflower, buttercup, little rascal, dreamchild, and other random names that pop into his head

He loves you so very much. Patton is somehow more scary and least scary of the sides as yanderes. Your best option is to let him do what he wants. Too much challenging will make him go crazy, so just let him love you.

If You Escape

If you do possibly find a way to escape he will literally lose his mind. He WILL find you and your escaping causes a huge lapse in his moral compass. Patton lost all self control after you’re taken. He WILL kill the person who helped (unless it was a side because then they’ll just be punished). His morals have crumbled and left a mess of obsession in its wake.

He’ll regret killing them but he has you back an that’s all that matters.

Patton will punish you severely for leaving him. Your best bet is to lie and act your ass off telling him they took you unwillingly. If you convince him Patton won’t punish you, however he has practically lost his mind. He is 10x more overbearing. You aren’t even allowed to sleep alone anymore.

You’ll want to act nicer and be more careful because this “new” Patton is unstable and very dangerous.

Punishments with him after getting you back may include breaking your bones, killing people you love, starving you, and chaining you to bedposts or walls. He hates hurting you but he won’t risk you leaving him again. Even small slip ups can cause him to lose it and punish you.

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peachblossomstudy · 2 years

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now results day has been and i can officially say that i didn’t fail year 13, i thought i’d put together some advice for new year 13s! i’m including a bit of everything so this is a bit of a long one, but i’d recommend giving it a read <3

ucas + personal statements

(these tips are mostly geared towards early applicants seen as this was what i did, but could also apply to non-early applicants)

start a first draft of your personal statement as soon as possible - personal statement deadlines will come thick and fast at the start of the school year, and writing it often takes quite a lot of time, so make sure to start well in advance

try and beat the deadlines - if your teachers have a deadline for handing in order to get feedback, the earlier you hand in your personal statement the quicker you can receive feedback and redraft

this also applies to your actual ucas application - your school has to check and send them, so to make sure you’re not stressing about it getting sent in time, try to submit it well before the final deadline

think about whose feedback matters the most - if you get a lot of feedback from different sources (especially if some is conflicting) then think about whose is likely to be most useful - e.g. the school admissions officer is likely to know more about a good personal statement than your parent

fill out all the sections of your ucas application asap - this is more of me beating you over the head with starting things early, but i can’t say it enough or for too many things

check! every! section! before you submit - i’m talking double, triple and quadruple checking. then you won’t end up like me and accidentally applying to live at home while studying at a university a couple hundred miles away

always ask your school admissions officers if there’s anything about your application that’s confusing. spending extra time double checking is better than submitting things incorrectly

on the subject of checking, do the same with your personal statement - it helps to have someone who’s not staring at it 24/7 read it as it will be easier for them to spot any grammatical error

a couple of oxbridge specific tips (from your local oxbridge reject lol):

if you have an admissions test (esp. for maths) and haven’t already started studying for it then for the love of god please start right now. i don’t mean to alarm, but the maths admissions tests are hard, and not starting early enough was what cost me a chance at a cambridge place

regarding personal statements, oxbridge generally don’t care about your extracurriculars - they would prefer to hear about supercurricular activities, e.g. extra subject reading and your thoughts on it, course relevant work experience

the rest (studying, coursework + misc) is going under the cut to save your dashboards, but please keep reading!

studying + revision

this is a reiteration from the year 12 tips, but is still one of my number 1 tips: if you have them, make good use of your frees. during year 13 there is always something you can being doing - making notes, doing homework, practice questions - and your frees are a perfect time to find a quiet place in school and get some work done

active revision > making notes - i loved making notes to support my later revision and as something reasonably productive to do when i didn’t feel like hardcore studying, active revision should always take precedence over notes. if you get to a point where you only have time to make notes or do active revision, stop making notes and start revising

active revision techniques include: practice questions (and marking them!), flashcards (challenging yourself to remember them rather than just reading them) and explaining concepts to others

spaced revision is one of the most effective ways to retain information, so try and plan out a way to revise as you go along

tied in with the above point is one i’ve always had in these advice posts: revise for your mocks like they’re the real thing! this gets you into the habit of revising, allows you some time to work out what works for you and what doesn’t, and also means you’ll already have a lot of revision of topics under your belt when it comes to your real exams

make a detailed revision plan - i’m planning on doing a separate post on this, but my main advice is to try and schedule each specific topic, rather than just time for each subject. this means you’ll have definitely covered everything you need to know, and you won’t be tempted to skip sessions because you haven’t got a clear plan

your teachers are there to help you - if you don’t understand something in a lesson or while revising, go and ask your teacher about it as soon as you can

coursework

(disclaimer - i only did computer science coursework, so these tips are very much based off that experience, but i’ve tried to keep them pretty general)

here i am sounding like a stuck record, but my top tip is to start as early as you can. i’ve harped on about it enough for you all to know the benefits of this, but it still needs saying

if your coursework requires you to choose an idea/project to pursue, try and spend some time really thinking of a idea you like and can hit all the marking points with - this saves you from changing your idea and having to start again further down the line

talking of marking, find the markscheme for your coursework and treat it like your bible - look at all the marking points for each section in the top band, and make sure your coursework explicitly has all of them

e.g. in computer science the top band requires decisions to be justified in your write up, so use sentences like ‘the justification for this is...’

set yourself intermediate deadlines - break down the large amount of time you have into smaller chunks and set yourself a deadline for each of the sections of your work

e.g. by 2 weeks in i will have settled on my idea, by 4 weeks in i will have done research (strange example, but it illustrates my point)

make sure you hand it in in the right format and with the right file name - ask your teacher to specify this

be prepared for it to get marked down in moderation - sadly the mark your teacher tells you may not actually be what you get, and it’s more common for coursework to be marked down than marked up

miscellaneous

try to stay active as much as you can - exercise is great for shutting your brain off from worrying, and you shouldn’t stop all sport/activity for revision. you may need to cut down on the amount you do, or skip some sessions, but i found that keeping up with at least some rowing while i was revising really helped

it’s likely that you will experience some academic rejection over this year, and it will suck - try and prepare yourself to deal with disappointment, and really celebrate every success you have

year 13 is going to be hard, and busy, and stressful, so please try and be kind to yourself. there will be times when you’re too tired, or ill, or just not in the right headspace for work, and it’s completely ok to take a break and come back to everything when you’re feeling better

as i always say in these posts, but always bears repeating, ask for help if you need it! easier said than done, but we’re simply not made to go through everything alone, and there is no shame in getting help from a friend, a teacher, a parent, professionals or anyone else

if you’ve read this far, thank you so much and i hope this has been useful! my ask box and dms are always open to any questions or suggestions for other posts like this. good luck to all the new year 13s, you’re going to smash this 🥰

#peachblossomstudy #peach.txt #advice for year 13 #studybr #studying #myhoneststudyblr #bulletnotestudies #student #study tips #studyspo #a levels #a level studyblr

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the-northern-oracle · 1 year

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DAILY DEMON ORACLE READING

April 21st, 2023

Welcome to today’s Oracle reading, an important message to you from the Universe! Please choose a card below and then proceed to receive your message.

Today’s demons are:

Naberius (Completion), Sabnock (Discretion), Ipos (Caution)

Let’s begin!

NABERIUS (COMPLETION)

You’ve completed a goal but don’t let your success go to your head. This doesn’t mean that your journey is at an end and you still have a long road ahead of you. You’ve not yet learned everything you need to know, so stay humble. External influences are hard at work to bring in more life lessons and it may start to feel like things are going way too far. You’ve already put in so much effort; how much more can you possibly take? Use the knowledge and insight gained thus far to overcome any future obstacles and take as much time as you need to rest in between. Make sure you are nurturing your mind, body, and soul in a healthy way. Be mindful of delusional thinking that could cause a disruption on your path; the Universe isn’t out to get you and this isn’t bad karma coming back to haunt you, but you do need to make more progress and see more personal growth. View the upcoming challenges as opportunities to advance rather than spiritual setbacks.

SABNOCK (DISCRETION)

You may be eager for something new and looking to bring it about in any way you possibly can, but sometimes it is important not to be too active. Instead, allow the energy to flow and let the changes you seek manifest on their own. Be patient, and the opportunities will arise. In this moment, you are attempting to take too much control rather than relying on the forces of the Universe to guide you. While it is sometimes important to be in command of your own life, it is just as beneficial to recognize when something is beyond your realm of influence. Don’t let your mundane desires lead you to making poor choices. This is not the time to be forceful or demanding. Instead, surrender to the spiritual forces at play and know that doing so will give you greater insight into the world and your own spiritual journey.

IPOS (CAUTION)

It is time to reconsider your life choices and spiritual goals; you’re getting too comfortable with yourself and are taking too much for granted. Transformative action is needed, otherwise you are at risk of facing negative consequences. Spiritual influences are at play that are going to bring about change and challenge your complacency whether you welcome these energies or not, so take the opportunity now to look inward and determine what you need to adjust. Which personality traits can be altered; what new habits can be formed? Critical analysis and inner strength will be crucial to meeting these upcoming obstacles with a clear head. Solutions to your problems can be found, but they’re unlikely to be as simple as you may hope for them to be.

#oracle readings #occult #spiritual #divination #demonolatry #demonology #Neberius #Sabnock #Ipos #pick a card

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reasoningdaily · 6 months

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Cookbook author Klancy Miller’s culinary journey didn’t originally involve food writing. Her story started in Paris, where she attended school to specialize in baking, with dreams of opening a French bakery upon her return to the States. Miller quickly realized, however, that running her own shop wouldn’t be sustainable for her—the work is often thankless, and the hours are long and hard. She described herself as being “slow in the kitchen” and unlikely to fare well in a fast-paced environment like a restaurant. So she transitioned to food writing and recipe development, eventually publishing her first cookbook, Cooking Solo: The Fun of Cooking for Yourself, in 2016.

“Years later, I was approached to do an editorial piece on Black women in food, and it ended up not working out,” Miller told me over the phone. “But I got really interested in it, because I started doing a lot of research and meeting a lot of people doing amazing things that I wasn’t aware of. We work for decades—or, you could say, centuries—yet we aren’t the ones in the spotlight. I didn’t know of many Black women who were my peers or who came before me, so there was kind of a curiosity there. A friend encouraged me to continue that work, which became the beginning of For the Culture, the magazine.”

The magazine answered a clear need in the world of food media, and it quickly became a hit. For the Culture, the book, out this week from Harvest, is an extension of Miller’s previous editorial feat and a road map detailing the journeys and experiences of Black women and femmes in food. It’s a huge topic: Black women have shaped cuisine in America and all over the world, and it’s important that the nuances of their varied histories are presented with care.

A narrative-led cookbook, For the Culture: Phenomenal Black Women and Femmes in Food: Interviews, Inspiration, and Recipes represents a gold mine of Black women and femmes across generations and disciplines that center food and drink. The book begins with glowing profiles of our culinary matriarchs, pioneers such as Leah Chase, Edna Lewis, B. Smith, and Lena Richard—the first Black woman to have her own televised cooking show, predating Julia Child. Each of these women laid the foundation for those who came after them, in various ways.

“I believe representation really does matter,” Miller says. “And I believe when you see someone that looks like you, it opens your eyes to what your options are. When you see someone that looks like you doing amazing work in any field, it expands your conscious set of possibilities. If you’re already in the field—in this case it’s culinary and hospitality—you can be a chef. You can also be a food writer. You can also be a farmer. You can also be a sommelier. You can also be an entrepreneur in other ways in the culinary field, and that’s something that I didn’t know when I went to culinary school.”

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The robust roster of contributors to the book include farmer and educator Leah Penniman; chef, writer, and TV host Sophia Roe; wine consultant and journalist Julia Coney; author and Cook’s Country editor in chief Toni Tipton-Martin; pastry chef and Bakers Against Racism founder Paola Velez; and many, many more active participants and leaders from diverse food disciplines. In For the Culture, we learn about what called them to their work, what challenges them, and what they love to eat and drink. In addition to the recipes they’ve contributed, which range from calypso persimmon baked chicken wings to watermelon poke, they offer honest conversation about mental health, money, and working conditions, all invaluable lessons as they pertain to Black women and femmes in creative fields.

“I’m a Capricorn, so I’m always thinking about money,” Miller says. “I think about other things like humanity, too. But I live in New York City, and I’m constantly like, How is everyone affording things? How is everyone affording life? I don’t think everyone has to talk about their salary all the time, because that information isn't useful to everyone, but it is useful for me as a person who writes cookbooks to share with my colleagues what I got on this deal, or what this magazine paid me to develop recipes.”

She continues: “In terms of mental health, the hospitality industry is pretty brutal. It’s a hard field. You work a lot, and it often doesn’t pay as well as it should. Some people have financially abundant careers in hospitality, but it’s a rough business. The hours are intense, the workplace is sometimes odd or difficult, so I just wanted to know how people take care of themselves, especially Black women.”

For the Culture is a reminder that the histories and contributions of Black women go further back than we might think. It is an homage to our culinary predecessors, a spotlight for our current disruptors, and a rich resource for the next generation of Black women and femmes in the space.

“The world is your oyster,” Miller says. “You can have a vision, and that vision is possible. You can make an imprint on the world through your very specific experience. You can bring that to the world through food.”

For the Culture: Phenomenal Black Women and Femmes in Food: Interviews, Inspiration, and Recipes by Klancy Miller (Harvest, Hardcover)

#A New Cookbook Gives Black Women in Food Their Due #Black Women #Black chefs #Black Food #Black Cookbooks #For the Culture

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highpriestess13 · 6 months

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If you would like to book a reading with me, here’s the link ⬇️. If you’re unable to purchase from my website due to finances, you can message me and we can work out a plan. Please do keep in mind that these messages are for the collective, with that being said, not every message is going to resonate with you, if you’re feeling lost/ confused with a reading then more than likely the message/ reading isn’t for you & that’s alright! Take things with a grain of sugar! 😊

Message from La Santisima Muerte 💀

Our beautiful mother of holy death has a message for her children whether you’re a devotee to her or not. You could be hearing and seeing the words “mother of Earth” lately a lot or Mother Gaia. It’s giving me Empress energy, many of you, male or female, are actively standing in your power, you’re about to birth beauty and love into your world. Some of you could actually be pregnant (don’t have to be) but it is also giving Queen of pentacles energy. Many of you are entering a world of abundance you’re about birth so much in your life but you’re also being given the opportunity to walk away from a present conflict that you’re dealing with at this time. All of the hard work you put into yourself and the world around you, you’re about to be blessed with so much more than what you’ve been giving. Knowledge is power, right now is the perfect time for you to expand yourself in ways like never before. You already have what you’re looking, the key and knowledge is within you and not only that, it’s time to start applying all of the lessons that you’ve learned in your recent past, you’re a highly intuitive being and it’s time for the real you to emerge. Pink, butterflies, pink flowers, deer/stag and stars are you confirmation. La Santa Muerte, is wanting for you to thrive, she knows that you’re more than capable trust in whatever may be happening around you as it is happening for you not to you. It’s time to make space for new and this is going to require that extra little step from. I see you’re facing a lot of obstacles, challenges and conflicting situations right now especially externally. If the outside world is too much to take, you’re required to go within, if they’re people who are making you feel this way, you’re needing to sit aside, go within. Some of you could be needing or wanting a space or this is what you’re currently seeking. It’s okay if you’re wanting to be alone and away from the world especially if it’s going to help with your mental health. I feel like she’s beside you, giving you that push that you’re needing to keep going, to never give up and most importantly for you to follow your desires. The solar plexus is significant. Don’t allow external validation to corrupt you either, if someone is negative… whether it’s how they think, what they say, etc. you’re needing to protect yourself and your energy. You’re the only one who knows what’s best for you so don’t outsiders tell you what’s good for you and YOU should or shouldn’t do, they lived their lives already and now it’s time to live yours. I’m hearing “you’re living proof”. Odd numbers could be significant too. Odd numbers, according to Google, is a sign of good fortune, I’m hearing “lucky numbers” you could be seeing synchronicities of odd numbers like 13 and this is your confirmation that good luck is on your side and that you’re needing to trust it. You’re going to be enlightened with some sort of truth/knowledge as well. Someone could be sending you the evil eye too… you’re needing to protect yourself or find ways that’ll help you to do it but I also feel like she’s protecting you as well, the number 5 is significant or something about a 5 pointed star… a pentagram. You could be seeing pentagrams a lot and do keep in mind that pentagrams are also used for protection so you could be wearing a necklace or you’re needing to get one. But the pentagram is your confirmation that your abundance is protected and safe and so are you. It’s time to take the lead and take charge with authority, a lot of you are coming into balance with your divine feminine and masculine energy! The color green and red apples are your confirmation as well. You’re about to take lead in some aspect of your life, you’re no longing sitting in the back, you’re being placed in the front! Some of you are teachers or are being called to become a spiritual teacher to others… like how Jesus was a teacher. Take care of your own needs, don’t worry about other people especially if these people don’t have the best intentions for you. Star anise is very significant.

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so, @sun-pluto encouraged me to share my thoughts and issues with the law of attraction (aka law of assumption) and while i can’t cover everything, i’m going to cite a few articles that have addressed the same topics so you can read further into it. keep in mind i’m not claiming to know the truth, but i want to create some dialogue so people can come to their own conclusions instead of a “premade” truth.

first and foremost, i want to specify that i don’t have a problem with anyone who believes on these laws on an individual level. it’s important for people to find the things that guide them through life, no matter what it looks or feels like to someone else. my issue is with the concept of these laws themselves and the vast propagation of them (mostly through tiktok & instagram) in a way that minimizes other people’s issues and victim blames them for their own problems.

life is not that simple. while it is tempting to believe that our thoughts shape our reality, a lot of things aren’t under our control. the idea that if you simply believe & think positively will shift everything instantly can be dangerous when you consider the fact that people have their own trauma, mental issues and complex situations they deal with on a daily basis. we don’t always feel, think or believe positive. the truth of the matter is that challenging circumstances come and go. that doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong and attracting them. the belief that people attract what they are or what they believe is really dangerous, because it falls back on what i was talking about: victim blaming.

i see a lot of people on social media selling courses and providing all this advice on manifesting a new job, a six figure salary, the partner of their dreams and how all of it boils down to your “self concept” and your “belief system.” but the truth of the matter is that, if you know that the universe is much bigger and complex than you, then you need to fundamentally understand that it works in its own ways. and life is in itself, chaotic. it doesn’t always make sense. suffering doesn’t necessarily make us better or more mature or more spiritual. sometimes it just hurts - it doesn’t mean we attracted it, or that we’re being taught a lesson. a very interesting article by john beckett has talked about this, as well as his own issues with manifestation.

the principle that has guided me throughout my spirituality is to believe that i don’t need to be in control. in fact, surrendering my thoughts, beliefs and feelings in order to be guided by something greater - whatever you call it - is what makes it so interesting. magic, witchcraft, spirituality and all this package is complex. the world is complex. it’s damaging to preach that all you need is to think and think and think hard enough that you’ll become a multimillionaire. especially when you consider the wealth distribution, the privileges in society and all the unfair structures that we currently face.

even as you work on your confidence, your sense of self and your healing, there’s no point in which you’ll be fully done. we set ourselves up for disappointment when we expect our minds to control other people’s perception of us, a job interview response or even our feelings. many people with mental health conditions can fully attest to the fact that relapsing happens, having bad days happens, difficult thoughts and heavy emotions happen. intrusive thoughts and anxiety happen.

which is not to say that having faith & being optimistic isn’t important. but more important than manifesting wealth & love through your thoughts is to actively be compassionate towards yourself, towards others and stop striving for your “best” self, for your “perfect” life. in doing so, we end up being focused on what we want next and forget to look at the present. to look at what we have and what we can do to be closer to our dreams, how we can care for ourselves and others, how we can question the definition of happiness as excessive wealth, ultimate beauty, fame and romantic love.

sometimes, you don’t need to manifest. all you need is to know that something greater in this life has your back. you don’t need to strive for more, for better, for more positive, more optimistic and more confident. it’s enough to trust that the right things will find you.

#manifestation #law of attraction #loa #law of assumption #amour speaks.#opinion tw

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MY EDUCATIONAL AUTOBIOGRAPHY

My educational journey has had numerous difficulties, but I have persevered and triumphed. I've had the impression that I have a fixed mindset and am simply incapable of accomplishing certain goals. After studying the difference between a growth and a fixed mindset, I learned that anyone, with enough effort and determination, can learn anything. College is stressful since it has the potential to shape my future. It is my fault if I do not succeed in college; my money and effort will be wasted. Success in college is the key to living the ideal life in today's culture. The truth is that students will experience challenges in college that may lead to failure.

Many people believe that education is only something you get in school, yet education comes from a variety of sources, not just schools and teachers. For example, long before I entered school, my parents were already educating me; they taught me how to eat, behave, use the bathroom, talk, and a variety of other life skills. "How to behave politely with people, Say thank you when you get something, Say please when you want something, Always wish our elders and greet youngers," are just a few of the wonderful habits I acquired. When I was in my first year of college, it was quite difficult for me. I took up Bachelor of Early Childhood Education and it's difficult since I don't want to take that course, but as time goes on, I'm growing to like it. I'm grateful that I made it through a year. And now I'm in my third year. I choose to continue this course because working with children has turned out to be one of my greatest passions. I was unclear at first if I wanted this passion of mine to be a career choice. I want to work with young children because they are our future and need to be well-prepared in order to succeed and make the world a better place. This course has taught me a lot, but the most important thing I've learnt is how to communicate well, which I can apply everywhere. I've found that the course isn't that difficult; all you need is patience, dedication to your studies, and time management so that you can always meet the deadlines. During this pandemic, I have encountered a lot of challenges and it's difficult for me. We generally study on our own because we are in online classrooms. It's not always good for my mental health. My mental health looks to have deteriorated as a result of several school activities. My academic career has been an emotional roller coaster, and I've constantly told myself, "I wish I had simply stuck with school and completed right away." If it weren't for the fact that my concept of "learning" differed greatly from the majority of people's, I'd be much happier. I've been living my life for 20 years from now and I know to myself that I haven't experienced some things yet. And I also know that there are more to experience in life that's why my philosophy in life is "To learn more" because I know to myself that I'm not that fully experienced person. Even though I know I can achieve more in life, I sometimes just sit here in my comfort zone. I also think of myself as a naive person because there are so many things I don't understand. There are times when I spend a lot of time thinking negatively, and it feels like I'm being followed by a dark. But there's a glimmer of optimism every now and then that I'll get through it and feel better soon. Sometimes in life we may experience some problems, or some negative circumstances but we should just live our life to the fullest and learn new experiences because, as for me, I know that these will all go away and serve as a lesson. Also, I've learnt that we should accept the outcome or consequences of whatever actions we take. So keep a positive attitude and be happy. Never lose hope if you work hard and don't give up. Surround yourself with people who are pleasant, warm, and genuine. Be open to criticism and continue to learn.

Learning is a lifelong process for all people, but it is arguably even more important for educators. My knowledge, learning, and thinking skills may constantly be improved. I want to appreciate my future life as much as I have liked and learned from my previous life (school and college).

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[NEW STARS Interview] 2017 Crystal winner: Nikki Sunga

Get ready to be inspired by the remarkable journey and invaluable insights of Nikki Sunga, the NEW STARS 2017 Crystal Winner and esteemed judge for the NEW STARS 2021. In this exclusive interview, we dive into Nikki's captivating story, from her triumphant victory in 2017 to her role in shaping the next generation of advertising talents.

Join us as we delve into Nikki's transformative journey, uncover the challenges she faced, and explore the valuable lessons she has learned along the way. Discover how she harnessed her creativity and tenacity to stand out in the NEW STARS and gain valuable insights into the evolving world of advertising from a seasoned professional.

1. Could you introduce yourself, please?

: Hi, I’m Nikki Sunga, an art-based Creative Director at BBDO Guerrero.

2. Do you have any connections with MAD STARS?

Can you address your previous performances in MAD STARS?

: In 2017, my partner Andi and I were the first creative team to represent the Philippines in MAD STARS New Stars Competition in Busan, Korea.

3. You were awarded from NEW STARS in 2017 and 4 years later, you became a NEW STARS Jury!

Can we talk about ‘What are the differences between NEW STARS participant’s perspective and NEW STARS Jury’s perspective’?

: It’s amazing to even just think about how in a matter of four years, an art director competitor would be a jury member. In 2017, when I was just a NEW STARS participant, my mindset was about absorbing all that I could from the experience—from meeting many young minds all over the world to learning from our mentors. Winning then was just a bonus and the greater prize was being in Busan with all of MAD STARS.

In 2021 when I became a jury member, I was focused on mentoring and making sure I was able to give back to the participants all that I was able to absorb four years prior. As a jury member, I was able to give advice to some of the participants on how to ideate or even how to compete and still have fun in NEW STARS. Giving back my knowledge & experience were my goals in 2021 as a jury member.

4. You have experienced both on & offline NEW STARS competitions. Would you address the pros & cons for both online and offline NEW STARS competitions? Also, which of the two methods seems to lead to more creativity among the participants?

: Honestly, nothing beats being on ground in Busan with your fellow competitors/participants. Offline NEW STARS in Korea has an exciting energy! When you’re competing or judging in BEXCO, you’ll be able to mingle and meet with many advertisers and creatives from different parts of the world. The offline experience allows you to freely talk to anyone and you’ll also gain more insights from them. It makes the entire competition experience more holistic and also fulfilling at the same time.

During the pandemic, when NEW STARS was held online, it reached a wider audience given that everyone relied on the internet. There were so many entries for the competition and that was its biggest value for me. Even it if it was only virtual, you could clearly see the thirst for competition for young creatives all over the world. The difficulty I experienced during the online competition was that of transparency or being able to easily communicate with the participants.

5. I remember the last interview with you in 2021 talking about your achievements. You have mentioned that from a young creator and now a mentor in the creative team, making opportunities to train the next generation was your great achievement. Do you have any new proud achievements recently?

: Mentoring young creatives has and always will be something I constantly work hard for and I actively do this by involving myself in intern programs, jurying for young competitions, and also joining creative workshops.

Source: www.redew.ph (@mountaindewph)

But when it comes to the work that we’ve created, I’m extremely proud of our environmental design initiatives for our agency and clients at BBDO Guerrero.

Recently, we’ve earned PR recognition and won a few metals for “Mountain Dew’s Re-Dew Scrapboards”. This design initiative focuses on using Mountain Dew soda bottles as PET-resin by combining it with Typhoon Rai wreckage to create unique surfboards. We aim to raise funds for the typhoon-hit island of Siargao where surfing and tourism are important. My team and I are completely hands-on from creating the actual surfboards to hosting its exhibits. You may find out more about Re-Dew Scrapboards here: www.redew.ph

6. What new challenge or interest do you have these days?

: Recently, my days have been filled with learning and coping with AI. As an art director, AI has become a fun tool to experiment with. It provides a good baseline for ideas and execution. I believe in learning WITH AI rather than being afraid of it.

7. Where can you usually get inspiration to come up with creative ideas?

: Inspiration for creative ideation comes from daily life experiences and observations. When I brainstorm, I like to sit in a café by myself and watch people around me.

I like to think and do “Tiktok Searches” when I ideate. It’s also important to be updated with the latest trends for our current markets so spending time on multiple social networking sites 2-3 hours a day is necessary for me.

8. What Are Your Career Goals?

: As a 32-year-old Creative Director, my current goal is to STAY YOUNG and to keep my fire for competition burning. These two goals have propelled my career to where it is today and these encourage me to be a better creative.

9. Would you like to give any advice or tips for NEW STARS participants?

: HAVE FUN. Winning the competition is important but being a NEW STARS participant who is present in Busan is a great opportunity for young creatives like you. Allow yourself to be a SPONGE- absorb insights, meet people, create connections, and make life-long friends in advertising! NEW STARS has paved so many doors in my life and I hope it does the same for you.

Ignite Your Advertising Career at the "NEW STARS MAD COMPETITION 2023"!

Are you a passionate junior advertiser ready to make your mark in the industry? Look no further than the highly anticipated "NEW STARS MAD COMPETITION 2023"! We are seeking talented individuals like you to showcase your creativity, strategic thinking, and innovative ideas.

Join us in shaping the future of advertising and propelling your career to new heights. Don't miss out on this chance to be recognized, applauded, and celebrated for your talent. Apply now and seize the opportunity to become a star in the advertising world!

Hurry, the application deadline is approaching fast! Submit your entry for the "NEW STARS MAD COMPETITION 2023" before June 7 and unlock a world of possibilities in Busan this August. Get ready to dazzle, inspire, and leave your mark on the advertising stage!

#festival #busan #advertising #marketing #creative #digital #awards #award #madstars #madstars2023 #newstars #newstars2023 #2023 #competition #mad #winner #interview

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As Pluto, the planet of transformation and regeneration, moves into Aquarius, the sign of innovation and revolution on March 23, 2023, it brings about significant changes for all Zodiac signs. Pluto in Aquarius signifies a time of upheaval, transformation, and evolution, both on an individual and collective level. Let’s explore some benefits and warning signs for Zodiac signs to expect from Pluto in Aquarius.

Aries: Pluto in Aquarius will bring so many opportunities and occasions that Aries find themselves having hard time to be everywhere they are invited to. Do not shy away new people and profound changes in your career as well as social circle if you want to benefit from this time.

Taurus: For Taurus, Pluto in Aquarius signifies a period of intense self-discovery and transformation. Changes at home and with family are very likely. It first they may appear to create problems but later you will understand and appreciate them.

Gemini: Pluto in Aquarius will bring more energy and unexpected moves to Gemini. You will be able to improve your physical form, become stronger emotionally and acquire new skills no matter how old you are. Somebody from afar is likely to bring good news.

Cancer: Pluto in Aquarius will bring about changes in your career and financial situation. You may feel compelled to take on a new job or start your own or another business, but be very mindful of global changes and do not count on old ways.

Leo: For Leo, Pluto in Aquarius signifies a time of profound personal growth and transformation. Leo will reconsider so many things including in ways of earning money and existing relationship. To make it easier to deal with all that you may feel compelled to explore new spiritual practices or take up a new hobby that challenges you to step out of your comfort zone.

Virgo: Pluto in Aquarius will bring about significant changes in your relationships, both personal and professional. You may feel compelled to let go of toxic relationships and build new, healthier connections with people who share your values and goals.

Libra: For Libra, Pluto in Aquarius signifies a time of transformation and evolution in your career and public image. You may find yourself in the spotlight of public interest and recognition. Do not stop working and you will give others more chances to admire you.

Scorpio: Pluto in Aquarius will bring you many new things include source of income and professional connections if you are willing to change your approach and some old beliefs. Be more spontaneous, easy going, jump on opportunities, embrace new friendships and good changes will happen.

Sagittarius: For Sagittarius, Pluto in Aquarius is preparing big changes, opportunity to explore other fields of activity and places to live. Thing big, plan and change your plans often. Flexibility and your sense of humor will make these changes happening with ease.

Capricorn: Pluto in Aquarius will bring you a new circle of influential friends if you dare to change your usual places and choose to do some pro bono work. Groups and associations are helping you to be successful. Be careful around your investments and who you trust your money with.

Aquarius: For you Pluto in your sign is preparing the biggest change. Make peace with the fact that nothing will stay the same. Most changes will start with random things so have your plan B ready wherever you go. Good news that will be able to make most of these changes.

Pisces: Make everything to be about yourself. At times when you feel like you do not control anything, rational approach and healthy confidence in your abilities to stay afloat will help to protect your interests. Do not settle down for less. Believing will make you seeing something good happening for you.

If you want planets on your side, it is the best time to learn how you can manage planetary influences. Visit our site www.astrowinnersonline.com and Etsy learning space for affordable, practical lessons https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/Astrowinners

Happy New Era!

#pluto in aquarius #new era #astrology

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