#product doesnt have tumblr tag

[haeroniel-doliet]

God that mood where you both need to do stuff and want to do stuff but both needs are vague and have too many options so you just. Do nothing you want or need to do and realize all the time you had is disappearing. A good time!!!

#haeroniel talks #forget the tag oh well #but for real. had 4 days off work and a ton of real life stuff i both have to get done and have been meaning to get done for a long time #ive pretty much only played video games and called my friends. genuinely not time wasted and i love when i get to do that #and like rn i would love to play more games and spend time with my friends like if one offers you know i never say no #but its also already getting dark and i have to go back to work tomorrow and ive not done everything i promised to have done yknow? #time doesnt feel real and i dont wanna get up even if the anxiety slowly builds to hopefully productive panic #but in the mean time im like ugghh i wanna stop laying around just playing sudoku and watching lame youtube. i wanna play something #(unclear what it is i actually wanna play too many options i kinda wanna play all of them and none huehheh) #im also very sad i havent drawn in ages and any attempt just feels shit. like maybe if i read enough fanfic thatll respark the love. #id love to post something before christmas to get me excited to draw again over the break but who the hell knows if i'll manage #and yeah still have the annoying job related/driving school related/therapy applying/other life admin that really really should be done #im just being grouchy and stuck and need to vent hi tumblr love you all kiss kiss i wish i could function better #i think maybe perhaps. ill concede that driving school and therapy arent priority (important but ive wasted ages on them already) #i think i can do work related things bc theyre sort of fun. i can use my parents help to whack through the life admin and then #maybe i can let myself spend the rest of the evening guilt free either calling my friends and/or playing or if im going totally w drawin

[spacelazarwolf]

i get you and doberbutts are older but the reason why ppl get upset about proshipping is bc a good chunk of them tumblr and twittet are genuinely post pedophila,rape, incest ect. Taboo is fine to me and i dont think ppl should have derailed post about something going in irl that but saying no fiction effect reality and saying just bc its drawn doesnt mean it doesnt effeft ppl. Its how i and many other ppl have raped and groomed and i think genuinely do not care about ppl being into that stuff bc i will block them but proshipper is synonymous with pedophile bc of the twitter thing and because the excuse that just bc its coping its ok. Which hey im not g-d, im not gonna go hunt these ppl down bc its counter productive but i wanted to shed some light on how other ppl feel bc this is genuinely how i was a victim of csa and many other ppl as well. so yeah its tiring that ppl cant learn to curate but also do you know little ppl actually tag this shit bc it can get deleted on here and on twitter the straight up do not put that in there bc it used to them banned. so like nobody wins.

i get that you're trying to be helpful but please for the love of god can people stop dragging me into shipping discourse. fiction is fiction. if you don't like it, block whoever posted it. it's really as simple as that.

#ask avishai

[pigeonriot]

MY FUCKING PHONE-

MY FUCKING PHONE MADE A MISTAKE WHEN DOWNLOADING THE EPISODE ON SPOTIFY

SO I LISTEN TO IT AND WHEN ALICE SAYS THIS

AND THEN AFTER SHE SAYS " one of the most unspeakable evils known-" AND THEN; AND THEN IT ENDS ABRUPTLY AND FUCKING GOES BACK TO THIS

AND PLAYS THE REST OF THE EPISODE LIKE NORMAL

first i fucking went back a minute to check if maybe i accidentally rewinded the episode myself, but no it happens in the audio so then i am loosing it like "is this fucking time reversal? does alice know too much and now the computers intervene and rewind the time like Wanda did in Wandavision? WHAT IS GOING ON" and then i was still confused after the episode finished, so i went into the tag on tumblr and NOBODY WAS TALKING ABT THIS

so then i went to check the transcript and it doesnt have this, so i was like "ok maybe they messed up sth huge in post production?" so i went to the youtube episode and listened to the last part and there it also didnt happen so i thought ok its just the spotify version? so i listen to the end on spotify on my desktop AND THERE IT ALSO DOESNT HAPPEN SO APPARENTLY MY PHONE JUST DOWNLOADED THE EPISODE WRONG

........ gotta say very fitting thing for technology to do for a horror podcast where technology is acting funky and creepy😭😭😭

#SPOTIFY OWES ME COMPENSATION BC WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK #the magnus protocol #tmagp #tmagp 12 #tmagp spoilers #spotify #my post

[anthraxplus]

im pretty sick of the condescension in people's posts when they say that tumblr "has to make money somehow," as if we all don't know the basic function of a capitalist economy. do they think we don't know? do they think we think this website runs on magic?

i got a blazed post saying this in the most long-winded-2013-tumblr style imaginable, and the whole time i was reading it i was amazed by how disconnected they were from the reality of the situation. the main pushback to giving tumblr money is that the website continues to make blunder after blunder. it isn't that we're spoiled babies who don't know how economies work. why would we give our money to a website that clearly doesnt know what to do with it?

and this isnt to say that the money making opportunities for tumblr are bad. on paper their options are fine, imo. ads suck, but they're not a tumblr specific issue (though the choice of ads presented does seem to be specific to tumblr). paying to browse ad-free is a standard business practice rn. tumblr shop makes sense (putting aside how they handle it - the basic idea makes sense). funny badges and checkmarks make sense on paper. blazing even makes sense, and afaict is a pretty sweet deal when it comes to advertising online.

but im not really gonna give my money to a website that continues to disregard the wants and needs of its user base. we still don't have a functional search/tagging function on this site, and you wanna condescend to me about how tumblr has to make money? they also have to make a good product! they should also stop being cowards about nsfw content, fix their handling of hate speech, and stop abusing their powers to silence trans women / boost pro-tumblr messaging. it's insane that these points are lost on these people.

to put it simply - none of this "tumblr has to make money" shit would be happening if their product was better. the path to ending these issues is pretty clear, and the ball is in staff's court.

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

(Note: All of these asks are before episode 206 (Season 2 finale) so some may be dated.) 1. The wild part to me about the "Persephone got approved Underworld citizenship" is it took what, a week at most? Even if you want to use IRL Royal examples, someone like Megan Markle would (if she had kept up the process) still need two YEARS to get approved of it at minimum which includes a lot of paperwork and staying in the country for prolonged time, but Persephone gets it in a few days with no process? Is there really nothing Persephone doesn't get handed to her on a silver platter?

2. "How to be a woke misogynistic :Add white before woman" I think this anon was tryna call antis misogynistic?? Which like. Some of the "criticism" ive seen is just people using lo as an excuse to be misogynistic against rs but most of it is genuine idk what they're going on abt 😭

3. ya know for claiming to be a "loving and supportive fandom with no drama" lo fans are by far the most cruel set of bullies i've ever seen, and I've been in a LOT of intense fandoms. and I can't even handwave these fans as just dumb kids, many of them are adult women who made a mid webcomic their entire world and would rather get a power high off the harassment and bullying of others who dare no obsess over what they do while still thinking they're "feminists". it's so weird 💀

4. Lol I love that the person typed that 'regular' people just drop it and move on when they dislike something. Apparently you're no longer a regular person for disliking and discussing a piece of media 😔

Anyway, LO can bite it. It's misogynistic and an insult to Greek culture among many other glaring flaws. The giant red flag of an age gap and power dynamic between them is one hell of a thing to defend y'all, and it's also a hell of a thing to praise 1 character for cheating but cheer on another character for doing the exact same thing 🙃🙃🙃

Also it's incredibly funny to me how LO stans are so so aggressive and condescending to us about disliking it when we're just minding our own business?? We ain't talking to you nor do we go out of our way to mess with your tags (tumblr is tumblr, y'know) unlike a few of y'all that I've seen specifically use the anti tag to start shit like a bunch of brats. We'll continue minding our own business talking about LO with both non-fans and fans who actually want to have a discussion instead of mindlessly praising it, and y'all should mind your own business. 

5. This comic loves to claim it’s pro sexuality, pro kink, and pro female empowerment AND anti purity culture yet loves nothing more than framing sex outsides of Hades as bad, loves to push Purity culture to make Persephone look like the best woman ever, loves tearing other women down for not being the “right” type of woman, and consistently shames others’ consenting sex lives as gross and weird despite the whole comic being an obvious stretched out mess of Rachel’s office setting DDLG kink. Like??

6. I mean I get why LO Hera doesnt murder babies and all but it is an issue RS rides off "I'm not trying to be accurate!" when she makes Hades the "perfect" guy and Hera and Persephone the most desirable/amazing with zero flaws but then turns around and goes "oh well I'm being accurate!" to make Zeus be super mega awful and just make up stuff to pin on Apollo, Leto, and Thetis like?? you can't have it both ways?? Like she obvs picks and chooses who gets to be whitewashed and who doesnt.

7. Go figure LO fans to make Netflix all but closing down their entire animation department and laying off hundreds of people to STILL make it all about LO. I have countless friends who lost their jobs all en-masse with no warning and a neutered severance plan (NF purposely made it be four WEEKS instead of four MONTHS), the majority of them and their productions by BIPOC and/or LGBTQ+ creators and they're only worried over well-off and employed Rachel? Fuck off. I'm so upset over this.

8. Completely and utterly disappointed at LO being nominated for an Eisner again. I think Webtoon has the power to just nominate it every year and ignore all of their other series.

9. Listen we all know every award is just marketing and we know damn well Webtoons just pumps the with money to nominate LO but we know damn well they're giving way more money to pump up their brand now because the Batman comic is so lazily made yet was ALSO nominated for best webcomic and they're like "one of our BIGGEST HITS big ethel energy is being printed!" despite it being one of their most hated series that is lampooned for bad art and writing. anyway they need to be taxed more.

10. HXP is such boring, basic mythology shipping. Get back to me when they give Isis x Osiris and Dionysus x Ariadne the respect they deserve.

#anti lo #anti lore olympus #lo critical #lore olympus critical

[onthemerits]

okay im getting a little overwhelmed by the jegulus discourse (tm) surrounding the strike but i need to rant abt something tangential (and that seems to be going unsaid) so here goes:

there needs to be a more productive conversation about how adults and minors can interact respectfully and safely in shared spaces, particularly with regards to different forms of queer generational trauma and internalized biases (read: transphobia).

this is really long so the full essay is below the cut, but

TLDR: if you're sending trans people messages telling them that writing about sexuality wrt their own identities and lived experience is "perverse", "weird", "gross", "predatory", or "pedophilic", pls check yourself and think about why you feel uncomfy before proceeding

(also if you feel the need to harass/send hate to people on behalf of unnamed "others" or for "safety reasons", odds are you're the problem)

CW: discussions of transphobia (specifically kink/ hyper-sexualization and accusations of predatory behavior) teen pregnancy, grooming, age-gap relationships,

first, i want to state the obvious and say that adults and minors are in very different stages of life. as much as this may offend some underage people, adults have more lived experience and have had more time to process their internalized biases and phobias. they have had both the freedom and responsibility of adulthood. and this brings new revelations and understandings.

this does not necessarily mean that adults are necessarily phobia or bias-free point blank, but it does mean that there are a lot of things that would understandably make minors uncomfortable (even as woke as they are) simply because they have not had exposure to those things. and on the flipside, minors should not be blamed or bullied by adults for their discomfort.

with all this in mind, it is the responsibility of adults to create adult-only spaces and for minors be mindful of what they could be exposing themselves to when they enter those spaces. a lot of the discussion around "no post november" seems to pit tumblr (old hp fans) against twitter and tiktok (newer, younger hp fans).

i've seen a bunch of arguments that "minors dni" and "tags" don't take away from the fact that "offensive" content exists, specifically in the case of underage relationships and sex (often with content that is deemed pedophilic).

i empathize with this immensely, and i understand why the idea of an adult sexualizing you would feel uncomfortable. but i think it's important to note that thats not what's really happening.

if someone is writing a sexual relationship between two minors that isn't flagged with the hallmarks/abuse of age-gap relationships, then there isn't any real danger to minors reading it. if there is no grooming going on, if there is no glorification of age gaps, if there isn't an infantilization of one of the characters, then there's no real predatory behavior that would have a marked impact on a minor.

even if there there was a depiction of an age gap and an artistic depiction of predatory behavior, if the story is marked as for adults then writing and posting the story is not predatory behavior and it doesnt make the author a pedophile. for all you know, they could be processing trauma that they underwent as a teenager and is now creating art for other adults to share their experiences.

it is not fair to compare this to the fetishization of lesbians or gay men (which does exist in this fandom) because unlike straight cis women readying gay smut, we have all been minors at one point, and that experiences comes with a lot of trauma, especially for queer individuals who grew up before queer rights gained popular traction.

on the love of all that is holy and unholy, i beg of you to think before you call something disgusting, especially if it is created in a space that is not meant for you.

in this case, i am thinking very explicitly about discussions of trans sexuality in the fandom. anyone who has been on ao3 can see that smut, explicit adult content, and mild sexual content are a big part of the online space across all ships. Dramione and Drarry have some of the filthiest (non-derogatory) content I have seen in my entire life. much of it is written by people who have been actively involved in the harry potter community since the early 2000s, and are therefore older than 20, and a good chunk of it is written about 17-year olds.

however, as soon as things like pregnancy, trans sexuality, or any combination of the two are brought up, it's "fetishization" no matter what the context. im not here to defend or attack the mpreg tag (especially in other explicitly kink-related contexts), but trans sexuality and explicit content that is trans focused (specifically ftm) is not inherently kinky or fetishization. there are so many things that are fetishized by the world (trans people tend to be in that bucket) but that does not mean writing those things is inherently fetish-related. in fact, calling it "fetishization" reinforces that idea that trans people cannot exist sexually without being reduced to a kink.

this is further perpetuated by the fact that cis (and occasionally straight, re jily and pregnancy) underage sexual content is only ever given a slap on the wrist. (and also this is extremely fucked up when u think abt how some fics reduce women in the fandom to plot points-- thinking of "lily is only relevant to birth harry" fics)

in fact, the double standard is so enormous re all the girlies that want self-insert fics with their gay favs. the straight-up obsession with cis mlm ships that straight women in this fandom seem to have is something that largely goes unspoken about. but we don't cancel people for writing self-insert fics or check to make sure female authors are queer before they write mlm sex scenes.

(there are a few cases where trans regulus seems to be flagged as a self insert for cis women which is transphobic and fetishization in and of itself, but i promise you that the likelihood of this being written by a trans person is 0.00001%)

this is all to say that attacking trans authors for writing about trans sexuality and trans versions of experiences that are "cishet" is transphobic. but how does this come back to minors?

well, there is a long history of queer individuals (trans people specifically) being called pedophiles or predators for expressing their lived experiences and discussing sexuality that deviates from the norm. while most people in the marauders fandom are comfortable and content with cis queer "sexual deviancy," there seems to be more contention around trans queer "sexual deviancy." it can be seen as inherently "problematic" or "predatory," even when it is just trans people writing about their own lived experiences.

obviously not all trans people are perfect, not all queer people are perfect, and predatory behavior exists from people of all genders and sexualities blah blah blah disclaimer disclaimer.

and in all seriousness if someone feels genuinely unsafe and specifically targeted in online spaces, please speak out. this is an attempt to alleviate harassment, not silence people who are being groomed by strangers online.

but it feels like everyone is so quick to call out "problematic" in an attempt to distance themselves from JKR that you're just coming back around to doing her work for her

(this is very terfy, "anti-trans for safety reasons" behavior)

(also this is just me feeling attacked but if you come at queer adult marauders fans for being "harry potter adults" (derogatory) when you're in the same fandom, pls stop)

*if you disagree with this and what i'm saying, feel free to send me a respectful, preferably non-anon message*

#if it doesnt apply swipe on by #jegulus #discourse #ahhhh #this is scary #but i needed to rant #yes this was kind of about ollie #trans #queer #i am 21 #so i am a baby adult #but ive also been a hp fan for most of my life #and have only recently gotten back into fanfic #this is just my two cents #fuckboyregulus #no post november #this is one of those kind of posts

[dailyfigures]

Hey regarding the problematic shows anons. Personally I don’t have any problem with you keeping stuff from problematic media on your blog. Sure, X show is bad, but I doubt you’re directly contributing to anything bad in the world by posting a few pictures. Most of these figures were a one-time-only product, so you can’t even say you’re promoting a company that supports bad stuff or whatever. Obviously it’s your choice what you want to keep on your blog

Also the way some anons are phrasing things is,,, weird, to say the least. Stuff like dramatical murder has a dog that is a love interest, technically, but the dog also has the consciousness of a human, from what I recall. He’s a literal human in a dog’s body and the human form comes out. I wouldn’t say that’s “bestiality”

Anyways sorry to go on a tangent, you already said you don’t have time to look into the shows yourself

When you’re posting a figure, you’re showcasing a the sculptor’s work. Most of them are already out of stock and buying them second hand isn’t gonna give the original producers any more money. But again, it’s your choice. If I, a random tumblr user, really want a figure on my blog I can post it myself

i would usually agree with the "showcasing the art" part because i can look at figures in that way myself, i actually keep a list of mfc of cool figs i wouldn't actually buy just so i can still enjoy them that way!

however i feel like i have to be a bit more careful on here. i regularly see people tag my posts with stuff like "this is so cute im gonna watch this" or "idk what this is from but i want her". i know it doesnt seem like a massive impact if 3 people add a show to their watchlist because of a post i made, however if it's a show filled with harmful ideas against minorities or something i'd absolutely hate to spread that around. it makes me super uncomfortable to think about people watching stuff like that because of me so i try to be more careful with what i post!

#also i do think some anons simplify problematic aspects of shows sometimes like you say in the example! #im not saying dramatical murder is unproblematic btw i havent seen it #im just saying theres always a lot of people arguing in my inbox about whether specific shows are problematic or not #but i dont post half of it cause i usually already deleted the post after the first anon and i dont see the point in discussing it further #so i do see that sometimes shows arent actually As Bad as the first anon says...... #i just dont have the time to really dig into things or watch a show myself rn so i kinda just want to believe the first anon and #post a replacement figure and be done with it tbh 😭 #anyway thank you for your input anon!!! #ask #anon #non figure

[blushstories]

hi! hope you're okay! :)

i just wanted to maybe explain a bit of the perspective of people who don't reblog stuff on here, not trying to justify anything because i'm aware that writers deserve to be recognized for their work and people should share it when they're able, but there are a lot of reasons why people don't reblog anything!

in my case i used to not reblog a lot if not at all because i read like 50 things a day and i felt like it would be annoying for the people that follows me to have their timeline full of my reblogs, especially because most of them were from different fandoms and had completely opposite interests, also it made me feel so anxious because there's stuff i don't want people to know about me that's maybe visible on the things i read (or at least it felt like that in my anxious brain) and i'm sure other people have other reasons and again, i know it's not fair and it doesn't justify anything, but everyone is different! as for me, now i reblog everything i read/enjoy, but it was really hard to let my anxiety about it go!

anyway, maybe this won't help at all and i'm sorry if it's inconvenient or upsetting!

i absolutely love everything you write and i hope i can read more of your work soon! :)

hello! thank you!

i do understand that perspective, and i absolutely can see those fears but i think it’s more than just being ‘recognised’, and i’ll explain why!

firstly, yeah being conscious of your followers is totally fair, however the beauty of tumblr is that you can make sideblogs, or tell your followers to blacklist/filter a specific tag so that their timelines arent clogged! even just queuing the posts gives a chance for them to scroll by if they want. ofc certain tws make sense to not share with followers who know you tho.

sometimes it isnt even about reblogs specifically; if someone left a comment or ask instead of a reblog that’s more than enough! the problem with just liking posts is that it creates a really consumerist experience on tumblr, which is first and foremost a blogging platform: so when i see empty blogs and their like pages are just full of fics i bluescreen a bit. these days, the like to reblog ratio of literally every artist (writer, fanart) is really really sad to see, their audiences just consume it without even sending a kind thought to the creator!!! doesnt that make your heart ache??

imagine a small town. everybody knows everybody, small businesses everywhere trading their own products to share the love and hyping up each other’s babies (their passions). that’s how i imagine blogs, and so when i see spam likes without reblogs, or a “part 2 when??!” when said person hasnt even commented before or reblogged, it transforms my blog from a community space where we share thoughts about blorbos into a product that only serves to entertain.

i really dont care about followers or note counts; i do care about having conversations with anyone who decides to hang around, if that’s a reblog chain or an ask or a comment thread then that’s how it is! we can talk headcanons or daydreams (within reason) or just generally chat!

i just cannot describe how crushing it feels when i open my notifs and only see likes. it makes me close the app straight away because there’s no one to interact with. also, it gives the message that someone read my fic, and liked it, but not enough to share it with their friends.

i hope that clears it up a bit more! it’s not a vanity or note count thing, if you comment or send an ask about a fic that’s exactly the same thing! thank you for reading and let me tell you i say this with nothing but love.

#the noticeboard #i do get it #i used to be a reader like that as well bc hey it’s just me right #but as a writer who hates capitalism as a hobby #i do not wish for my blog to replicate the capitalist system we are forced to partake in

[poobit]

My tumblr Year in Review (the graphic was ugly lol

I posted 6,355 times in 2022

757 posts created (12%)

5,598 posts reblogged (88%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@strangeauthor

@kindestegg (<3)

@curly-fried

@taptrial2

@laslloronas

I tagged 3,045 of my posts in 2022

#the owl house - 288 posts

#art - 238 posts

#animals - 148 posts

#video - 146 posts

#samsa´s art stuff - 140 posts

#gif - 112 posts

#insp - 101 posts

#maru - 90 posts

#death note - 82 posts

#fashion - 79 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#when deviantart tells you “take this tutorial draw a picture n well give u whats essentially a tiger shaped sticker for ur page” well then

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

it doesnt matter what game you want to play, ive just gotta live long enough to see the end of all of this.

See the full post

178 notes - Posted May 15, 2022

#4

im gonna be honest as someone with over 50 original characters across decades of my life...and as someone whos really into concept and production art...

most "how to build your original character!" advice is utterly useless because you cage the character into a superficial box of traits and trying to build some sort of proper reference for it when you have no idea what the story youre trying to tell actually needs the character for, proffesional productions literally dont work with a chart of what the character likes or dont if its not relevant to the design or the narrative shown,

thats post production shit you talk abt with your coworkers for fun or put it in a fucking booklet , stop trying to build huge reference sheets when you havent even built a basic story to follow, you are GONNA forget about it, even if the character has like a huge family tree , unless its explicitedly exposed or paced correctly, you gotta be FLEXIBLE with your characters instead of caging them to irrelevant details, or else you gonna find yourself rebuilding the same characters OVER AND OVER every 2 years because turns out the ref sheet is outdated or you got feedback and now you wasted a lot of time and energy on something that wasnt even usable !

start SIMPLE guys let a character develop through the story NOT a phamplet , i assure you , it is way more organic that way.

194 notes - Posted October 15, 2022

this one should have more

#3

My condolences to the families of the victims in Uvalde, Texas. This is another senseless tragedy , especially a direct attack on children.

230 notes - Posted May 24, 2022

#2

some of you have no idea of the ripple effect that “su critical” had in the terminology and way ppl interact with “being critical of media” in tumblr and anywhere else rlly,  critical fandom blogs where not started by random white kids overthinking things and taking kids media too seriously, they were spearheaded by , first and foremost as i remember? black bloggers who were really sick of the amount of casual racism and antiblackness that was plaguing (and honestly still does) kid´s media. 

overall you can thank black bloggers in almost every niche group of topics and discussions for BUILDING the present day tumblr , the amount of racism and shadowbanning and censorship these people have gone through (and continue to go through) is fucking ridiculous to the point theres still ppl here thinking that russian tumblr psyops where an actual Real Thing and not just some scheme to delete black people´s accounts whenever they said anything against politicians or even anything political. 

654 notes - Posted January 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

4,942 notes - Posted January 1, 2022

so glad my first post of january was also my most popular lol

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #long post

[lawtistic]

my icon logan tagged me for the tag game 

name/nickname: liam/L !! i have many nicknames given to me by 6 other shitheads and they vary from loincloth to lemur (i hate them all)

height: 5′4 (~162 cm), ive been called tall tho? im... not very tall im very average actually

sign: aquarius sun, capricorn moon and rising if those matter

song in my head: diana by one direction (its been literal years since ive heard it i have actually zero clue why this is happening)

number of followers: i will say very low and majority of them are bots i dont care enough to block but i pride myself on that so

amount of sleep: i was up freaking out over a social situation til like 2am and woke up at 7 but usually i go to bed around 10pm (22:00) and wake up at 6am

dream job: if you asked me this a year ago i would have given you a 4 page essay about how im working to get involved in film production somehow but now i just want a stay at home job where im not expected to cry on a daily basis

currently wearing: t shirt leggings leather jacket. i wear this every day its comfortable its my style and nobody expects anything different from me

media that summarizes you: i hate watch a lot because i find it funny but because of that i cant really think of anything since i havet seen a lot of stuff i genuinely like. maybe lady bird? even then thats a big if

aesthetic: fucking 2015 5sos core. ive never in my life been a 5sos fan but it just feels fitting since i drown myself in 2010s nostalgia constantly and they just radiate the median between grunge and beach dudes

favorite author(s): i dont really read a lot? the only book ive really cherished in my lifetime is a million ways home by dianna dorsi wingnet so probably her. i read a lot of beverly cleary like 10 years ago too

favorite song: i dont have a singular one but some of my favorites are absinthe by idkhow, pretty face by public, favorite poison by fuller, stay with me by better love, and touch by animal sun

fav instrument: that ive played, viola because it was easy but ive always thought saxophones were cool

 fun fact: my birthday lands on a very controversial upcoming holiday thats within the next 2 weeks

i would tag theo for this but id rather just aggressively hint it at him and let him find it himself (also i dont remember how his user is formatted and dont feel like looking for it. hes also the only active person on tumblr that doesnt scare me)

#its valentines day #tagging game #i havent listened to 1d unironically in at least 3 years #please #get out of my head #im cringe but im free #maybe its nostalgic #thats probably why #also the 5sos thing is a lie #i listened to a singular song last year #and i still like that singular song #but thats it

[mousepregnant]

how each pony in the mane 6 uses tumblr or whatever cause cringe culture is dead ^_^

Fluttershy - runs/is a mod in one of those "is-the-(insert animal here)-video-cute?" blogs. she doesnt use tumblr a lot cause shes scared of the majority of everypony here and their bloodthirsty-ness. otherwise her main blog would probably have less that 200 followers and be cottagecore themed, she uses it sometimes to show her teacup collection and pets.

Rainbow Dash - probably prefers twitter more for sports news and interacting with celeb friends (e.g The Wonderbolts, A.K Yearling, etc etc.) though she probably did run a Daring Do fandom blog secretly at one stage and deactivated it out of embarrassment.

Rarity - follows every single fashion runway lookbook blog under Celestias sun, uses tumblr to keep up with the trends and get fashion inspo. very much prefers tumblr for the aesthetics and reblog purposes but knows that twitter and instagram is more mainstream sob.

pinkie pie - is probably literally one of your mutuals and you dont even know it. acts the most like a "regular" tumblr user than any of the rest of the mane 6. uses some edit of the tbh creature as her icon. says the most insane goofy things at 3am and nobody questions her. Has so many mutuals....

Applejack - doesnt know how to use tumblr at all, tried to use it to promote the apple farm and sell apple products. doesnt use tags and sometimes just advertises under random posts that have nothing to do with what she was saying. everyone thought she was a bot. wonders why nopony interacts with her, gave up after a month </3

Twilight Sparkle - isnt allowed to use tumblr, has to have all her socials managed by somepony for royalty reasons. she did use it in the 2013 tumblr era though, she reviewed books and whatnot very critically and to be fair nobody understood her takes at all. srry queen..

#too scared to tag this but ok to rb #raddy rambles #mlp

[vaudeville-venom]

3/4AM — O3-12-2O24 : RANT / RAMBLE ﹐🪶 ˖ overview: im tired of tiktok, want to move to other social media platforms. want to start blogging / journaling on tumblr and love the idea of others doing the same and find it interesting. want to redo my intro post really bad (i bring it up alot.) i want to have the 'average highschool experience', feel alone then ramble about my life a bit. talk about how i am rambling and how i dont expect anyone to read it. im tired of having a fucked up sleep schedule and being unstable. then an ending note talking about journaling on tumblr again, moodboards, the fucking intro post again, and want to work on a tagging system. (im really fucking tired oh my god)

[ me-core / aesthetic of my brain atm ] : images frm Pinterest

im really debating on just leaving tiktok for now, the algorithm fucking sucks especially right now. its boring as fuck and im not even seeing stuff of my interests or my mutuals ☠️ its all the same 3 god damn audios of content i wouldnt ever like want or expect to see??? ive mentally wanted to stop using shit like tiktok and move to using tumblr more and other sites like spacehey and stuff. i really need to redo spachey too. because while tumblr still has an algorithm ofc its alot less addicting and doesnt absolutely wreck your attention span like tiktok has for me. i feel like not using tiktok other than for occasional posts and sending things to / receiving things from friends would make me a bit more productive as well as being better for me mentally. while it wont magically cure me from any mental illness itll make me feel better and probably help my stress a bit.

i really love the idea of using a tumblr blog to post whatever i want and like use as a digital diary of some kind,, its super fun imo. i had an old acc but it felt like more of a chore to keep up with so now it’s abandoned. speaking of that blog i may make a post being like “hey, im [here] now!!” because i had some neat mutuals there. i think its really neat to see people post about their day and share things they like and reblog everything that catches their eye yk! that may just be a me thing.

i want to redo my intro post a bit, because idk im a bit unhappy with it. (dont be surprised if i edit it mid-writing this or before i post this..) i really love to write but i havent had much motivation at all. i typically love researching my interests and taking notes on them but recently i havent been able to no matter how much i want to, maybe this diary / blogging kind of thing will help me get back on my feet with that :)

i really dont have a ‘yearning’ for anything at the moment, besides having the experience of like everyone else my age. idk how (hahaha) corny that may sound but like for background, im online schooled due to mental and physical disabilities, i dont have many friends online or in person, i rarely see anyone, and i live with my dad and see my mom sometimes and dont really have family outside of that. the family i do have i dont get along with very well or theyre distant (physically or emotionally.) the family i really consider is my dad, because hes always there for me, and my friend micah, but he lives like 9 hours away from me like a LOSER (ily bffie.) im a big believer on chosen family and he is that chosen family. ok i got sidetracked, what im saying is i have no social life really, dont have a place to get a social life (school), and cant really connect with people no matter how i try to. i want to live life like how i see in teen life films or tiktoks of people vlogging with their friends, hell id kill to even have an irl bestfriend to be around. i do have irl friends, and i do have close friends, but i dont see them often or have the personal connection of a mutual best-friend feeling. my dads probably my best friend but i need someone my age lmfao.

this post will be so long that no one will read it i garuntee but also i dont mind?? im not gonna spill my guts like someone wont read this but im not gonna act like i have a large audience. this will just be a nice thing to look back on and keep up unless i anxiously delete it whenever i look back on it (maybe in the morning)

im really tired of waking up at 3-4pm right now, but i cant sleep earlier than 5am no matter what i do. and if i manage to fall asleep at 2am or something i wake up an hour later or wake up at 4-5am panicking for some reason. i havent been to therapy in forever, my therapist is like not doing her job as well as id like and i have no doctor other than my pediatrician who doesn’t understand what im talking about ever!!

i just made this post and thats kinda what led to all of this ranting and wanting to write and shit. im sorta just tired of alot of social media and would love to find myself in other ways and use other forms of social media to share those things even though tumblr is a bit more dead than some things :) im gonna end this one here but if i write another tonight or early tomorrow (like the afternoon same day but it’s tomorrow to me) dont be surprised i love rambling to myself. now i think im going to make this post look cute, post it, redo my pinned intro, work on featured tags/a tagging system, then go from there ^^’

#cain.txt #oversharing on the internet is fun! #;; #blogging #blog #ranting #ramble #rambling #rant #diary #digital diary #diary entry #my diary #tumblr diary #tumblr blog #yapping #autism #bpd #neurodivergent

[pretendstoread]

first...second...second first

it's funny that every time i think about writing i never really know what to say. i don't remember making this account in 2018, or writing for the first time on here. i've gone back and forth between journaling--where to do it, if it's even helping me--and there's a strong chance that i'll move on from this just like the other journals and modes of expression.

i've just been kinda uninspired. i fear that i wasnt born to be an artist. i dont think i Do enough. i dont really photograph. nothing really inspires me anymore. i'm kinda worried that new york's tap has run dry, but i dont think it's effective to blame the city i live in instead of myself. this has been a problem of mine for years now. why is it so hard to express yourself?!! i feel like i have a lot in me and yet no way to show for it. i dont know if i have a good work life balance. i dont know if thats even the problem? it's just.....so easy to do nothing....? but it doesnt make me happy??? but i keep doing nothign anyway??? maybe THIS is the first step to that. there's a bit of ego in making this. like. diary public. though i dont really think anyone will see it (and i don't care (but i will tag this anyway and maybe check if it gets any notes)). but i dont mean it to be egotistical.

i am a product of post internet use. i grew up expressing myself online. i was on facebook in fifth grade, tumblr in middle school, wattpad/ao3 and stan twitter in high school, art school in college, and back on twitter as a young adult. there has never been a point where i wasn't trying to put myself out there somehow, to be seen and shared and agreed with or admired or congratulated or impressed by. this pressure To Be Seen at 24 feels the most strong. the strongest ever felt. everywhere all the time i see and am told that i have so much time and that 20s are just the beginning. but it doesnt feel that way at all. it LOOMS over me. life shouldnt be Established but it should be.....Impressive? thats the second time i used impressive in this post so thats some subconscious thing going on there. But much of life right now is waking up, going to work, hating work, coming home, sitting on the couch until it's time for bed (which i either fall asleep right there or lazily flop into bed--and consequently miss taking my antianxiety meds), and then i wake up all over again. there's nothing to really show for. i don't feel like an interesting person. i dont feel like i do enough for myself. i guess i have a fear that i will be in this cycle for so long that one day it's 20 years later and nothings reallllllly changed. like. fundamentally.

i cannot think that far ahead. i have no ten year plan, 5 year, one year, 6 months...but i will be a fucking doomer about myself every chance i get. it's, of course, easier to catastrophize in the moment. lower expectations = less chance of disappointment! i think it's also interesting that the only things i really journal about are negative thoughts. wtf is that about. i'm not even necessarily unhappy right now.

things that make me feel Happy:

having enough food in the house that i can make something without having to go out or order in

laying in the sun on the beach after getting bodied by waves

creme soda

when i'm wearing a dress and dont care about my underwear showing (i like to spread! im sitting knees up at my desk right now!!)

catching someone i like looking at me (does it mean anything extra if they're drinking something at the same time....? and they don't break eye contact...?)

customizable internet--the past now....i remember when tumblr was a WEBSITE more than an APP. we must free ourselves from The Profile.

#diary #if you see this hi

[kelpiemoon]

Sunday Skincare

I've been planning to do a skincare blog for the longest time so I'm gonna just start on Tumblr. Let's see how long I can keep this up...

So I only use Cerave foaming face wash at the moment...its been really great for my skin... not too oily and it doesnt dry me out either...

In the pic I have the GlowRecipe Watermelon Toner which I don't find to have done anything for my skin honestly but I like the smell which isnt very sticky sweet but has some grassy notes I find relaxing and spa like.

I'm also using the Cerave Retinol Resurfacing Serum which has had a nice effect on my acne spots but because I'm super inconsistent its effect has been limited. I bought a pack of Mizon essence masks ages ago and today I'm using the acerola which is actually making my skin tingle a bit... that's new. I'm using my jade roller and gua sha to try to tighten up and I'll finish off with the COSRX Advanced Snail 92 A unll in One Cream.

This is primarily just for me to record my thoughts on the products I'm using. It's not an ad.. and I'm never gonna tag companies or whatever. If I have my way most of my posts will be food porn, art and book reviews... maybe some interior design and more skin stuff... so hi all... I am shy, boring and generally anxious so... yeah...

#skincare

[doodlbee]

because Harry in suits is *chefs kiss*

get it here

#product doesnt have tumblr tag #my art #artist #artists on tumblr #drawing #pop art #flat art #faceless #art #harry styles #one direction #1D #harry styles art #fanart #niall horan #louis tomilson #zayn mailk #liam payne #sign of the times #doodle #fine line #otra #canyon moon #cherry #golden #sunflower vol. 6 #made in the am #lgbtq #room decor #fashion

[doinbetter]

Day 6/100

I had a pretty bad start to today. I've been fighting depressed feelings (aka lack of motivation, lack of energy, being sleepy for no reason, irritability) and this morning was BAD in terms of mental health. I barely wanted to get out of bed.

I tagged along on my sisters errands with her earlier to try to boost my energy, but that didn't really help. So later this afternoon, I took the long drive through the mountains to get to Santa Cruz and visit the beach instead of taking the faster highway. The drive through the mountains always helps to clear my head- having to focus on the curves and being surrounded by redwoods. I stopped at this roadside cafe, got a burger, and ate it at a table under the trees. Continued on and went to my old favorite beach and sat for a while.

I felt a lot more energized after being in nature and going on that adventure, so when I got home I was able to watch a video lecture for my class on Californian history. I'm about to get ready for bed, and hopefully I'll get a better start tomorrow (aka exercise first thing, have a good breakfast, and knock out some schoolwork before logging into a zoom call. Beat depression before it even wakes up)

Anyways, goodnight friends, thanks for reading 🤩

#100 days of productivity #idk when i was writing this i was thinking #this doesnt seem very productive #but then i thought of it this way: #instead of giving in to the depression #i said nah fuck that forced myself up #i tried to help myself right? and thats the most productive thing i could have done #maybe driving into the mountains was all i could do #so yeah #still actively working towards becoming the woman i want to be #lol if u read the post u get my mind #but if you read the tags #u get my heart #HAHAHA i get too personal on here #who cares its tumblr