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faboover · 3 years

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The State of Ruby as of RWBY Vol. 8 Episode 8

There are two key lines that pique my interest about Ruby from Episode 8.

(After finishing the call from May)

RUBY: "It's just too much. The Grimm, the Crater, Nora, Penny, how do we fix all of it?"

(When Ruby and Blake go to turn on the generator to restore power)

RUBY: "C'mon, c'mon!"

Blake: "Don't worry, it'll work."

RUBY: "Nothing else has."

These lines show that Ruby is starting to become overwhelmed by the situation and is unsure of how she and her allies can resolve all of it. She has also started to become pessimistic about how things will go moving forward. This is all very unlike how Ruby has been since the start of the series.

From the start, Ruby is a character who is very confident in herself, one of the most optimistic characters in the series, and has a will that will allow her to tackle any obstacle laid before her without much hesitation. So, how did Ruby get to the point where it seems that she is unsure of herself and responding pessimistically to the actions she and her friends are taking?

Well, this has been been building up for the last 3 Volumes (6-8). If you've seen my Video on RWBY's Story when I talk about Ruby, I mention that Ruby's optimism and will is being challenged by her friends and Uncle, the Apathy, and Cordovin. What I didn't notice back then is the uncertainty that was starting to develop in Ruby.

(Early part of Ruby's conversation with Maria in Vol. 6 Ep. 8)

RUBY: "The others went to get food for tonight."

Maria: "Why not go with them?"

Ruby: "I don't know. I don't know anything. What do I tell Jaune and his team when we don't even have a plan?!

Qrow's out drinking, Ozpin hasn't come back, and even if he did, I don't know if I could trust him, and there's always Jinn, but we only have one more question we can ask her. I feel like I'm letting everyone down."

Maria: "You know, you don't give yourself enough credit."

RUBY: "Oh *short laugh*, thanks."

Maria: "That wasn't a compliment."

This is an early indication of Ruby's growing uncertainty and loss of confidence as a result of everything that happened after Ruby asked Jinn her question about Oz.

This brings us to Volume 7 where Ruby makes a snap decision to hide the truth of Oz and Salem from Ironwood. Weiss, Blake, Yang, and Oscar question Ruby about making a decision like that. From her responses, even Ruby is unsure if that was a good call. Seen in her mannerisms and that Ruby does plan to tell Ironwood the truth, eventually.

Yang: "Can we talk about that again?"

RUBY: "What about it?"

Yang: "We're really not going to tell Ironwood what happened to Oz, what we learned about Jinn, about Salem?"

RUBY: "We are! *stops for a moment and turns her head down to meekly say* We will. But you saw how things looked when we flew into Atlas."

Blake: "The General's heart seems to be in the right place, but that doesn't mean we should trust him yet."

Weiss: "We need to play along for a while before we make any major decisions."

Yang: "Okay, how did Oscar feel about that?"

RUBY: *Initially looking at Yang before slowly turning her head down as the scene flashes back to Ruby's conversation with Oscar.*

RUBY: "Probably shouldn't keep running around with an Ancient Relic on a keychain, you know?"

Oscar: "But."

RUBY: "I know you'll keep it safe in Atlas."

Oscar: "Ruby, hiding things from Ironwood, doesn't that feel like what Ozpin did to us?"

RUBY: *Her eyes again looking directly at Oscar and then her eyes turn away from him*

These moments show doubt in Ruby's own decision. We see more of her uncertainty in her conversation with Qrow after being given her Huntress License by Ironwood.

Qrow: "Big day for you huh kiddo?"

RUBY: "It's definitely a lot to take in."

Qrow: "Which part? The finally getting to Atlas part? Getting your license part? Or the not quite disclosing everything to Ironwood part? Or, all of the above?"

RUBY: "All of the above.

I'm trying to do what I think is best, but I really can't tell if what's best is what's right or if I'm no different from Oz."

Qrow: "Ruby, Oz only trusted himself with the whole truth. You're trusting others, but you're making sure they prove themselves first. I think that's a pretty big difference."

RUBY: "I hope so. This says I'm a Huntress now, but I don't feel like I know much more than I did at Beacon."

Qrow: "That feeling never goes away."

Then everything at the Schnee Manor happens in which Ruby and Oscar are both excited to finally tell Ironwood, but this ends up having the inverse affect when Cinder and Salem make themselves known to Ironwood. Now, Ironwood doesn't trust them at all for the things they kept from him and the actions Yang and Blake took behind Ironwood's back. Ironwood believing their actions put him in a disadvantageous position with Salem. Thus we get a full fallout with Ruby's group and Ironwood.

That finally brings us to the start of Volume 8. Yang makes her dissatisfaction with Ruby's decision making known and is against Ruby's idea to get Amity Tower up and running to let the world know about Salem and call for aid. Yang wanting to make a tangible difference by helping Mantle. Even Ren and Nora are disagreeing. Jaune suggests they go for both as Ruby expresses her concerns about separating everyone. Ruby seeing this as creating a divide between them. Ruby is assured by Oscar that, even though they are working separately, they are still united.

The results of this decision to separate for Ruby:

JOYR is MIA

Nora is hurt badly

Penny, who she wanted to be safe at Amity, has crashed landed onto the Schnee Estate's Courtyard and is also in bad condition.

All of this including the fact that Salem has now begun her assault on Atlas, which also made things worse for Mantle.

This brings us back to episode 8 in which Ruby is struggling to figure out a way to help everyone and deal with everything. Her will is still strong enough to keep her going and try to figure it out with everyone around her, but all that has transpired has caused her to lose confidence in herself and their ability to handle these situations. This is even after Klein gives his advice to Ruby to try not to attack everything all at once and to address these situations one at a time.

Now that Ruby has seen that a person was inside the Hound and the horror she expresses at this realization, the stress placed upon her by everything happening and herself just keeps building. Her will isn't broken and is what's keeping her going along with her friends backing her up. Seen with Blake when she explains how Ruby inspires her to this day. Similar to what happened when Ruby's stress came to a head and started apologizing to Jaune at the end of Volume 4 in which Jaune explains that Ruby's ability to take action is what spurred Him, Ren and Nora to follow her.

So yeah, that's where we are at with Ruby. You can now see why those initial two lines caught my attention. I can't wait to see what comes next for Ruby this and next Volume.

#blog #RWBY #rwby8 #Volume 8 #Episode 8 #Ruby #character analysis #analysis #character #Vol. 8 #Vol 8 #Ep 8 #Ruby Rose #optimism #will #confidence

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theravennest · 3 years

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Hot Loki Take: Sylvie was Right

*Spoilers for all of Loki the series up to and including ep 6.

Sylvie was right to kill He Who Remains and free the timeline.

I’m deadass.

He Who Remains forced reality into an endless cycle between a time of Order (he rules as dictator) & a time of simulated and controlled "Chaos" (his Conqueror variants wage war). I say this “chaos” is simulated because when you think about it, it’s chaos that He Who Remains arranges himself by manipulating Lokis.

He Who Remains is so fucking sus but for some reason people are just tripping over their own feet to believe everything he says and vilify Sylvie for killing him.

He literally tells them (and us) that his methods are deceptive and we know for a fact that he’s willing to murder trillions upon trillions of people, planets, and realities to get the outcome he wants. Yet some are still believing everything he says cuz he said maybe 4 things that were truthful, I guess, and cuz he’s cute. Some of us are so blinded by the fear/anticipation of Kang the Conqueror’s arrival, we are letting him bamboozle us.

He Who Remains perfectly and personally tailored the Ordered period of the timeline to produce this exact Sylvie and this exact Loki, had them meet/influence each other, and then had them travel to the end of time...to him.

Now Lokis by nature are agents of chaos and could suddenly swerve left, so to speak, for no reason. So let’s assume I believe that He Who Remains didn’t 100% know what they would choose once they crossed the Threshold (if the Threshold he described is even real, tbh). He also so carefully molded both of their entire lives for that moment in the Citadel. He may not have known 100% but he knew at least 90% of how they would react to everything he said and did when they were both pushed to this place/mindset.

Notice how he teed them up for the fight that ended in his death:

Manufacturing a scenario where they would meet via the TVA’s variant pursuit.

Manufacturing a scenario where they would travel to the Void and meet Alioth.

Kid Loki being in just the right place to give his sword to Loki.

Miss Minutes appearing to menacingly offer an obvious devil’s bargain.

Him slyly telling Sylvie that she can’t trust Loki, putting it into her head just before he gives them his ultimatum.

All of these thing practically gift wrapped that ending to the Loki on Sylvie fight.

Let’s elaborate.

What was even the point of Miss Minutes offering to re-insert them into the same Sacred Timeline with both getting their hearts’ desires there?

Not more than ten minutes later He Who Remains told Loki and Sylvie to their faces that he manipulated all this for the sole purpose of making them choose between taking over as rulers of the TVA or killing him and ushering in a Multiversal War. Neither of those choices would result in re-inserting Loki and Sylvie back into the timeline.

So what is the truth? Why waste precious moments with a creepy Miss Minutes menacing them in that vestibule scene?

Notice how Miss Minutes’ words pushed Loki further onto his path of no longer wanting power or a throne but desiring to change his attitude about himself and the universe. Notice how her words conversely pushed Sylvie into balking at the idea of accepting another “fictional” life after a lifetime of being manipulated and made her double down on her mission to free the timeline and get revenge.

Sylvie has the ability to see memories but interesting how he kept her distracted by condescending to her and provoking her, just stoking the fire to make her react negatively. (Interesting how he was far more focused on Sylvie’s reactions than Loki’s, most likely because he needed her to kill him for his plans to work.)

Now I don’t want to completely shift responsibility for her choices away from Sylvie. In truth, if she had held in her vengeance for let’s say an hour and trusted Loki a bit more, they could’ve sat down to talk about things and maybe found a third solution other than starting a Multiversal War or ruling the TVA that still could’ve even allowed her to get revenge. (More on the ultimatum later.)

But I can’t blame her for losing her cool, either. He Who Remains made damn sure she would burn as hot as possible because he tailor made her life to give her the personality he wanted. And any other version of her out there who might have made a different choice would’ve already been pruned.

He Who Remains tells Loki and Sylvie straight up that he set them on their particular life paths because he needed them to be “changed by the journey” to ensure everyone in that room was in exactly the right mindset to do what was needed to “finish the quest” and presumably “slay the dragon,” aka Him. (Notice the parallels to the speaker narration just before episode 2′s fight at the Ren Fair.)

We don’t know! Sylvie never enchanted him to read his memories because she was so filled with rage and Loki was too busy trying to stop her, he didn’t think to do it either. And we’ve already established that He Who Remains trained them that way. Nothing that happened in that office was without He Who Remains’ influence and meddling.

Another nail in the coffin that convinces me that He Who Remains is a no good dirty liar is Renslayer.

If He Who Remains’ end goal was to either have the Lokis choose to rule the TVA or destroy it and thus end up with no memory of her previous TVA judge role/life, why did he send Miss Minutes to Ravonna with files that caused her to pack her bags and search for what she calls “free will,” AKA the one in charge?

I’d bet dollars to donuts that when the next season rolls around the only people who will know what’s going on and still have their memories will be Loki, Miss Minutes, Sylvie, and Ravonna. (Maybe Kang the Conqueror will know as well but I could see it going the other way too. I’m 50-50.)

He Who Remains was planning something by pushing Ravonna the way he did. Does he want her out of the TVA so she doesn’t lose her memories when everything resets? Does he want her to go find the Conqueror version of himself? I mean, at this point, practically everyone knows who she is to Kang in the comics, so let’s not pretend that’s not an option.

Another thing to think about...it’s super suspicious that he was so eager to make them believe he’s one of the “good versions” of Kang and all these others are much worse while giving absolutely no evidence of that outside of an interactive blob powerpoint, a quirky attitude, and a couple of sad, weary faces????

Who’s to say He Who Remains isn’t playing the long game and always manipulates his variants to eventually give him the chance to seize control of the multiverse?

Who’s to say he’s not one of the Kangs that wanted to conquer too? Funny how the “pure of heart” Kang is the one who still wrested control of all reality, killed off every other timeline with a weapon of mass destruction, installed a fascist time bureaucracy, and set himself up as the dictator. Sounds an awful lot like some conqueror shit to me, just saying.

Even wilder theory: what if this really is the same Kang the Conqueror but at the end of his life? We only have hhis word that he’s a variant. He Who Remains tells Loki that this fight is for the “young and hungry.” Maybe the “young and hungry” he’s referring to is not Loki and Sylvie at all but his literal younger self. Perhaps he set up this entire cycle of chaos and order so that he can perpetually live, conqueror, rule, die, and start all over again? Reincarnation, as he says...

But let’s set that wild theory aside for a moment. Let’s circle back to the Multiversal War debate and say it really is is caused by an infinite amount of his variants.

I think it’s hella sus that He Who Remains was so insistent that Loki and Sylvie only had two choices to resolve this riddle: Multiversal War or running the TVA almost exactly the way he did while maintaining only a single timeline. Those are definitely not the only two options they had. In fact, I could probably name 1-3 other options off the top of my head right now:

Keep He Who Remains alive while learning how he manipulated time and using those skills to slowly unleash the multiverse while killing every version of Kang to prevent him from existing as either conqueror or dictator.

Kill He Who Remains, take over the TVA, and slowly change it to something not horrific or even build a brand new system for governing time.

Kill or keep He Who Remains, still take over the TVA, slow rollout the Multiverse and kill or prevent every Kang along the way.

(I’m not saying these aren’t also morally questionable options, I’m just saying they are different from the two choices He Who Remains presented.)

But let’s say these options I suggested are not feasible. I just randomly came up with them ten minutes ago so it would be fair if they were picked apart logically.

So let’s contemplate this, instead:

Why should we assume/believe that a Multiversal War is actually a bad thing again??? Why are we assuming that He Who Remains’ Sacred Timeline really saved reality from total collapse?

Assuming he told the truth about his motives, maybe he was just...wrong about the end of reality. Maybe he saw what he thought was the conclusion to the Multiversal War coming and erroneously believed it to be the end of everything but actually it was the multiverse sorting itself out and everything would’ve been fine after.

We (and He Who Remains too) will never know because not only did he not show any evidence to back up his claim that reality was on the brink of collapse, but he himself never allowed things to play out naturally. Whenever the end of the war comes to the brink of something, he always panics, weaponizes Alioth, and traps the universe in his cage of Order with the TVA.

Even more controversial take...maybe the collapse of timelines and the end of everything should be allowed to happen. Maybe the natural cycle of reality is to build and build, splinter and splinter timelines, until it collapses and starts all over again from the void.

Nothing is created and nothing is destroyed, all things exist in a cycle so why should the multiverse be any different?

After all in all, in all three possibilities an infinite number of timelines is destined to suffer and die. Whether it be during the Kang-controlled Order period, Kang-controlled fake Chaos period, or the unrestrained natural Chaos that collapses in on itself...an untold amount of people are dying anyway. There’s only one of those scenarios that has actual unrestrained free will where those people get to exist how they want, make choices they want (even bad ones) for as long as they can.

(Personally, I’ll take that over what the Kangs have wrestled the multiverse into.)

I’ll just take this moment to re-iterate: trust nothing He Who Remains says. He’s a known liar and manipulator, and unlike Loki he has done absolutely nothing to actionably show he’s not still lying or to show that he’s trying to change outside of some sad looks. It’s all pantomime, bruh. Like, the pageantry of it all astounds me.

Is he maybe telling some truths? Sure. But that doesn’t mean he’s not using the truth to manipulate everything. It’s an illusion, I’m telling y’all! He was up to no fucking good.

Sylvie was far more right to kill him than to not. Loki, Sylvie, & team (prolly also the latest Avengers lineup too) now just need to find a way to break this Kang cycle.

#loki #loki laufeyson #sylvie laufeydottir #kang the conqueror #he who remains #loki spoilers #mcu #mcu spoilers

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terriblygrimm · 3 years

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fatws anon here: first of all agreed to everything you said i share your sentiments on all of that. i wanted to mention that the "captain america and winter soldier" title card at the end of ep 6 really threw me off and it really felt like marvel was hinting that this is the new cap and buck duo (which i hope to god isn't i want cap 4 to be about sam and torres as falcon tyvm) idk why marvel didn't just make a separate project on bucky exploring his traumas and transition from wakanda to modern life and GOOD THERAPY and his life between ws and cw..so much potential to explore and yet they just didn't. with the way bucky has been handled, i honestly think they can only do proper justice to his character either by pairing him up with steve or just going more in depth by himself. this whole one sidekick to another is not doing it for me and feels like a big disservice to bucky.

i completely agree!!!!! imagine if they legit made bucky a sidekick to ANOTHER cpt america???? omg lmaoooo... the cringe would be off the mf charts..

bucky felt SO out of place to me in tf.atws! like his relevancy is so obviously fading within the mcu - they need to reinvent him & and that’s why i eventually changed my opinion on the whole ‘forever sidekick’ schtik.

i’m thinking they didn’t change the tws titlecard because he’s going to grow more and they were kind of saying they knew they didn’t focus on him/finish his arc. they wanted to just focus on sam becoming cap! (and rightfully so!) they also made a point to name drop white wolf AND brought in the dora milaje - yet told him to stay away from wakanda. so to me- that, alongside sam’s “stop looking to other ppl to tell you who you are” comment makes me believe that in the absence of steve, and the absence of wakanda, and the absence of the sam/cap influence, bucky will TRULY become white wolf on his own terms- be it through his own installment or other projects that we’re not expecting him to be in (space!!!!!!)

once he does they’ll bring him back around and reunite him with steve (☺️🥺). bc even shipping aside.. its factually undeniable that steve and bucky are one of THE linchpin duos of the mcu. like romantic or not they’re established and ppl love them together. they work well together and personal growth is easy to do between them bc they’re each other’s narrative sounding boards. they simply belong in each other’s spheres bc they’re literally the team of the cap series. marvel can’t deny that i do really believe they’re gonna put them back together.

so that being said, i can 100% believe that steve is off being a space daddy nomad, traveling thru time on secret missions dealing with/fixing the fallout of thanos, or maybe he’s lost in time!! (one of my favorite hopes and dreams that marvel is gonna crush is that steve is lost in time & bucky was over here thinking he retired but he eventually finds out steve is lost and he’s DEVASTATED that he hasn’t been looking for him all this time- paralleling tws with the roles reversed 😭) or maybe he’s aiding fury on the dl (& eventually taking fury’s place as the orchestrator and head honcho - he did in the comics!) so i can see once bucky’s new identity is fully formed they’ll wrap him up with steve again in those storylines. nomad has already been copyrighted by marvel so something is definitely in the works w steve!

like making bucky a sidekick to another cap would not only ALWAYS put he & sam at odds (like it did in tf.atws) because they’re both title characters & they’d ALWAYS be fighting for screentime, but they might as well just write him out?? bc his growth would forever be stunted since he’d no doubt take a backseat to cap. also they made a point to show sam getting a new falcon! like there’s his future lesser-known sidekick right there! i think they’re retiring the cap/bucky duo by name, it’s old hat at this point. sam can have his new falcon & since they can both fly, they’ll be an aerial duo.

that way when they all reunite (epic) steve will have a new identity, bucky will have a new identity, and sam will be an established cap 😁

(also i agree with your comment about just giving bucky a separate project to focus on his trauma and time in wakanda 😌- what a beautiful show that would be!!! but this is marvel and things move irrationally fast & they don’t give a rats ass about mental health unfortunately)

#ask #anon #i rambled again i’m sorry lol #i hope any of that is coherent lmao #also the tf.atws head writer said something about bucky being free to become something new for who ever handles that character next.. etc #which made me 🤔 bc hes writing for cap4 #so i really dont think they plan on him sticking around sam

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emisfritish · 4 years

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Our gift to the world - Episode 8

Summary: Episode codas of an established Pang/Wave in The Gifted Graduation. Episode 8- An important talk between two friends, a couple of realizations and the light at the end of the tunnel.

Notes : Yo, The Gifted really decided to help me with having not one, but two episodes where Pang/Wave don’t interact at all, didn’t they ? Nevertheless, I think this was an important one, and it allowed me to bring my boy Ohm again.

This is set at the same time as Pang is with the director, towards the end of his visit.

Previous parts : Ep.1 / Ep.2 / Ep.3 / Ep.4 / Ep.5 / Ep.6 / Ep.7

Series on Ao3 here.

Wave looks down at his phone where Pang’s text has been sitting since he received it last night, and he sighs.

“There is something weird that I need to check out, but I’m okay. I didn’t have time to tell anyone, but I’m not disappearing again… I just wanted to let you know so you wouldn’t worry. I don’t know if I’m allowed to still say this, but I miss you and I love you. I’ll see you later.”

Of course Pang had gone to check something out by himself again. Of course. His boyfriend really could be the most stubborn man on the planet sometimes.

And since then, the five increasingly worried (and insulting, he admits) texts he’s sent back to his boyfriend have gone unanswered, except for the one Pang sent an hour ago reassuring him he was ok.

“At least he texted this time,” Wave mumbles to himself as he’s walking towards the room where The Gifted Class usually gather.

Progress.

It’s less than Wave would like to see, but he’s aware that he himself is far from perfect when it comes to communicating when he’s lost in a research frenzy. At least, Pang is trying. That’s all he can really ask of him.

When he walks into the room hoping to find the headphones he’d forgotten in his hurry to leave last time, he finds something else entirely.

Ohm is sitting at the table in the same spot he was for Namtarn’s birthday, looking around him sadly. The boy looks so dejected and lonely, Wave can’t help but feel sorry for him.

Lost in thought, it appears that Ohm didn’t even hear him come in, and it’s only when Wave clears his throat that he suddenly turns towards him.

Seeing Ohm briefly look behind him before looking back down at his hands, Wave sighs.

“He’s not with me,” he says quietly, and Ohm shrugs in answer.

“I don’t care,” he responds, and Wave has to stop himself from rolling his eyes.

Obviously, he does care. Although Wave isn’t sure if the look meant Ohm had actually wanted to see Pang, or on the contrary wanted to avoid him at all cost.

When had things become like this, exactly ?

Ohm and Pang have been inseparable since their very beginning in The Gifted class, and knowing how important the boy is to his boyfriend, Wave hates knowing that it’s another one of Pang’s relationships that is strained right now.

When reassuring him after Time’s death and Korn’s injuries, Wave had told Pang that he wasn’t alone... But was that actually true right now ?

The thought of Pang being all alone while facing everything weighs heavy on him, and he knows that they can’t keep going like that. He might have had some legitimate reasons to be angry, and part of him still is, but the idea of Pang feeling like he’s alone any longer is becoming intolerable.

They have to fix this, all of them. And maybe fixing Ohm’s relationship with Pang is a good place to start.

Sighing, Wave makes his way to the table to sit next to Ohm, resigning himself to the fact that he’s going to need to have an actual conversation with Ohm. About feelings.

He wouldn’t change his relationship with Pang for anything, not even in recent times, but god the things his boyfriend makes him do, even indirectly.

“You know you’re going to have to talk to him eventually,” he announces, staring at Ohm although his friend won’t meet his eyes.

“Says who ?” the boy answers petulant, and this time Wave doesn’t even try to stop himself from rolling his eyes at the words.

“How old are you Ohm ? ‘Says who’, really ?” he snorts, and Ohm turns to look at him, offended. “Says you, because you look miserable. I know you hate fighting with him and you miss him, and I know for a fact he does too.”

Ohm remains silent, and Wave takes a deep breath, trying not to snap at the boy. He knows that they all have a lot going on and that Ohm was just hurt, like the rest of them, but Wave isn’t really well-known for his patience either.

“Look Ohm, I know you��re upset about the whole thing with Namtarn…” he starts to say, but Ohm cuts him off.

“It’s not just that.”

Wave looks at him patiently, waiting for the other boy to finish his thoughts, which prompts Ohm to sigh, looking miserable.

“It’s not just about that time. It’s just that… We all used to be so close, and look at us now. I feel like everyone around me is falling apart, and the common denominator in all of this is Pang.”

Wave frowns at the words, not liking what Ohm is implying, although he doubts the boy actually means what he’s saying right now.

“Ohm, that’s not fair and you know it. You know that’s not his fault.”

“Look what is happening right now ? Can you honestly tell me that Pang isn’t at least partially at fault ?” Ohm asks, and Wave shakes his head immediately.

“He isn’t,” he affirms, dismissing the thought. “Or at least, he’s no more at fault than any one of us. The prime minister, the director, this school, Khun Lada, this whole messy situation… They’re at fault. We’re just all dealing with the consequences of all of that and trying to cope, Pang included.”

“Why are you even pushing this ? You’re mad at him too !” Ohm says defensively, and Wave sighs.

Ohm has a point. He was mad at Pang, and he still is a little, if he’s honest with himself. He’s had some time to digest and think since Pang’s last visit to his bedroom, but he can’t help but remain a little angry at his boyfriend. At the same time, he’s starting to realize how true the words he just told Ohm are, and realize that maybe he wasn’t being entirely fair to Pang either.

Pang messed up by keeping them out of the loop for so many things, and Wave can’t deny that the fact that his boyfriend trusts him so little hurts. But at the same time, he really was doing the best he could given the situation. Or at least, doing what he thought was best, and Wave knows that.

They’ve all messed up in the past, himself more than anyone, and Pang has always forgiven him.

Plus, he misses his boyfriend. Fiercely.

Not being able to talk to him these past couple of weeks has been one of the worst experiences of Wave’s life, and he doesn’t want to deal with the pain anymore. He needs Pang, and he thinks Pang needs him too. They’ve always been stronger as a team than apart anyway, and it’s time they went back to that.

“I was,” he finally admits. “But that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t get past it and try to move on together. You know how much he cares about us, about you.”

Ohm stays silent for a while, and although the urge to get up and run from the conversation is strong, Wave stays put, giving him the time to deal with all of his thoughts.

“Look Pang messed up, we all messed up recently,” he continues when Ohm has been silent too long. “And I’m sorry he hurt your feelings. But you know that he didn’t mean to, and that in spite of everything, he’s trying to do everything he can to help and protect us. All of us.”

Finally, the other boy sighs, dropping his head against the table, and Wave once again shakes his head at the dramatics.

“You’re right,” Ohm whispers, as if admitting Wave could be right about something actually pains him. “I know it’s not fair to blame it all on him, and I don’t even truly think it’s his fault, if I’m honest. It’s just… I feel like everything around me is crumbling down, and I have no idea how to hold everyone together anymore.”

At the words, Wave smiles sadly towards his friends.

“Then maybe you don’t,” he says, and Ohm looks at him, perplexed. “You don’t hold everyone together anymore, I mean.”

When Ohm looks ready to argue, Wave cuts him off, staring at him seriously.

“Look, I know what you’re feeling,” he says, thinking back to the moments in the past couple of months when he’s felt like he was losing all of his newly acquired friends. “But maybe in this case, things need to hit rock bottom before they can go back up. Maybe we actually need to fall apart so we can come back together stronger than before.”

Ohm looks at him in shock, and Wave understands why, not quite believing that such words could come out of his mouth either.

“Do you really mean that ?” the boy asks doubtfully, and Wave shrugs in answer.

It worked for him, after all.

It wasn’t until he almost blew up his entire life and all of the relationships around him a couple of years ago, that he finally managed to get back up in the aftermath. It was only after that moment that he finally began to open up to the other Gifted students, to get closer to Pang...

He doesn’t know if he truly believes the words entirely. What he does know is that he loves Pang and he misses him. He knows that he actually cares about the people in The Gifted group, and that they care about him too, to some extent. They may all be falling apart right now, but that has to count for something.

“I’ll talk to him when he comes back,” Ohm finally says in a small voice, and Wave nods in satisfaction.

Ohm might have pretended otherwise when he first entered the room, but Wave knows that he must miss Pang a lot too, although it can’t be as much as he himself does.

“Good,” he says, getting up from his seat. “Then if that’s all for tonight, I’ll just get my headphones and leave. After this lovely talk, I need to be alone with my computer to remind myself of what an intelligent being is.”

Ohm rolls his eyes at Wave’s words, laughing softly.

“You mean that you need to go and text your boyfriend so you can make up,” he teases him, and Wave glares daggers at him, but doesn’t deny it.

“Shut up Ohm,” he mumbles, while grabbing his headphones and quickly escaping from the room before the other one can keep making comments.

“Wave,” Ohm stops him just as he is reaching the door. He turns towards the voice, raising an eyebrow in question. “Can you help me retrieve deleted pictures from my phone ?” he continues in a small voice.

Wave frowns at him, wondering where the request came from suddenly.

“It’s just… I had a couple pictures with Pang…,” Ohm continues, his cheeks reddening slightly.

Understanding draws on Wave as to what the other boy isn’t saying, and he snorts. God, his friend could be so dramatic sometimes, as if deleting their pictures would make him feel better.

“I’ll help you later if you promise you’ll stop fighting with Pang,” he warns Ohm, and the other boy nods his head.

Satisfied with the answer and the steps they’ve accomplished tonight, Wave quickens his steps to leave the room before the other boy can stop him once again.

Once he safely reaches his bedroom, he sits down on the bed and pulls out his phone, staring at Pang’s text for a few minutes. Maybe Ohm was onto something when he mentioned texting his boyfriend.

Taking a deep breath to steel himself, he quickly types and sends three consecutive messages, before abruptly dropping his phone on the nightstand and laying down in bed, ready to ignore it for the rest of the night.

He doesn’t know when Pang will see the messages or if he’ll answer, but maybe it’s time he starts taking his own advice and tries to fix things too.

To Pang : ‘I hope you realize that when you come back, I’m going to kill you for disappearing that way. Knowing you, you’re probably dead in a ditch somewhere without me to help you.’

To Pang : ‘But come to my room when you’re back, please.’

To Pang : ‘I miss you and I love you too, idiot.’

#pang x wave #pangwave #the gifted graduation #tgg #pangwave fic #pangwave fanfic #emi's writing #our gift to the world

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THE TOO GOOD TEN with J.F.O.

Irish Rapper J.F.O. continues his busy 2021 with the release of his third single of the year, “Amnesia.” The emo trap rap song follow’s up “Pure” and “Rockstar” that appear on the 18 year-old’s “moodtape” lovethewayuhurtme.

The young rapper found success with his debut single, “Come Over If You’re Sober” that accumulated over 135,000 streams across platforms and even found its way onto national radio. Now with “Amnesia” he seeks to shine light on the mental health conversation while exploring the topic of death that has become a central topic in hip-hop songs. J.F.O. discusses the new release, why he feels its important to discuss mental health, the dream festival headline and more in the latest Too Good Ten below.

1. You have a pretty cool story of how you got started in music. Could you talk more about that and how serendipitous that meeting up with an old friend in Singapore was? Were you doing music before you met up with Danté?

J.F.O.: I’ve been free-styling my whole life, I can’t even really remember when it started. It’s just always been part of me. I was in the middle of making my first EP, Testing The Water but had only been making and releasing music for like 6 months at that point, right around when I reconnected with Danté. That’s why I think this next mixtape you can hear that I’m discovering more of who I am as I mature as an artist. Danté really helped me fine-tune my craft and take my music to the next level.

2. Congrats on release of the latest single, “Amnesia.” How does this song feel similar or different to previous releases?

J: It’s the most honest and genuine I’ve ever allowed myself to be. I’ve been delving into these deeper emotions that can be hard to explore openly sometimes.

3. Why is it important for you to be open about talking about mental health in your music?

J: Especially over everything that has happened over the past year, it's so important to talk to people and to feel like you have someone to relate to. I also see it as confidence and being happy with who you are; the good and the bad.

4. What’s something the world might not know about being an artist and making music in Ireland? How has growing up in Dublin influenced your music?

J: There’s so much creativity and talent in Ireland, I mean, from the street art to the musicians I think it’s a great place to be creative and rebel against “normal” society.

5. Your sophomore mixtape love the way u hurt me will be the first of a series of ‘moodtapes’ that will be highlighting key moments of your life. The term ‘moodtape’ is so cool – how did you come up with that? As an artist, is it difficult to be so vulnerable in your music?

J: Like the idea of creating a world where people can go to escape to and I think of the moodtapes as a vehicle. They set the vibe and bring you on an experience. I don’t see it as being vulnerable, just honest. And I think you’ll see that’s true in my music.

6. Over the years you’ve had some music play on national radio. What was that feeling like hearing your song play on the radio for the first time?

J: It was pretty surreal but to be honest, it just showed me that I want more and there’s no stopping this train.

7. What’s the one thing you hope people take away from your music when they listen?

J: I hope they take away the fact that you gotta be true to yourself and who you are but to never let someone else define you

8. If you could headline a music festival which one would be a dream to headline? Who else would you imagine would be on the line up?

J: Well, if we are talking dream headline it would be Woodstock 1969 but we are talking realistically IRL I’d love to play Longitude, a festival that happens in Dublin every year. To headline in my home city would be insane. The line up would be Juice WRLD, $uicideboy$, A$AP Rocky, my guy @killmesl0w from back in Singapore and @LOVEMEDANTE, an artist from Ireland I saw briefly at a show we played. They are all equally unreal.

9. If you could only listen to (5) artists for the rest of your life who would they be?

J: Damn this is so hard but I would say Lil Peep, Mac Miller, Eminem, Kendrick Lamar and then throw in some Sex Pistols to mix it up

10. What’s the rest of 2021 look like for J.F.O.?

J: I’m just gonna continue to work on my music. Gonna finish up ‘Moodtape’ II and then onto the two after. Hopefully, you’ll get to see my development as I continue to define myself as an artist over these next releases.

We’ll be ready for “Moodtape” and every one beyond that! Huge shout-out to Irish rapper J.F.O. for hanging in the latest Too Good Ten. To keep updated with J.F.O’s upcoming music and that eventual Longitude performance be sure to follow along on the journey below:

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The Too Good Ten interview series is dedicated to giving you a quick glimpse at some of the freshest voices in music. Ten Questions. One Artist. Too Good. Let’s go.

#music #song #rap #rapper #jfo #dublin #ireland #irish #songwriter #interview #interviews #the too good ten #too good ten #moodtape #amnesia #dante #woodstock #juice wrld #mac miller #toogoodten

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Hi, i hope you are feeling good! Im better than yesterday so i can finally answer you. First of all: i am so happy that you shared your fanfiction! i had a great time reading it! Im always open for more recs. Maybe your all time favorites? Or if you know some good h/c these are always welcome :) And YESSS please send me a link to your fanvids. -- yeah 13rw was super cursed. haha i also watched season 1 but thankfully i was able to sto watching becaue i could feel it making me feel bad (1)

I agree the suicide scene was just cringe (but i think i remember reading somewhere that they cut it out? idk) and overall this show just gave me the feeling that there was no hope and things are always getting worse instead of better and i hated that. but enough of that cursed show. can i just say i really admire how open you are about your feelings (like being suicidal and that) i realy, really admire this about you. i have so much respect for you that you can just share your feelings here (2)

I have never heard of ace attorney but that story you described sounds really good. and i get reading sth that isnt good for you and still doing it (because im a dumb bitch too :D) -- okay i might accept that Root will never grow on you (but i thought so too and look at me now :D) but i havent fully given up yet :)-- yes thats the girl. i think it was really sweet when she said that to Shaw. and i think Shaw appreciated it that someone tried to figure her out instead of just writting her off (3)

Shaw is really cool and definately also a badass and in combination with John its just great! but you will have to suffer trough some Shoot. but maybe, maybe you will end up not hating Root. hope dies last (idk how the saying goes in english, sorry). -- Did you ever ship Caresse (in a romantic way)? cause sometimes i do and sometimes i dont and i get so confused about it :) but i think most of the time i like them more as friends. anyway her death really sucked and you are right with (4)

her death and them losing the library it felt like a different show (i mean i guess it was a different show then). i kinda get your feelings about the destroyed library because i also really loved it (and im really bad with change) but i dont think it affected me as much as you. but yeah i still missed the library very much. and while the subway is a really cool new place its not the same. (also the subway is super dark cause its underground and idk it just makes the whole thing less homey) (5)

Yes he is everything! such a great, interesting character and i wish there were more John-centric episodes! (like ones that explored his character more). that was one of my biggest dislikes of the later seasons that John wasnt featured as much anymore. i think he chuckled a few times in the show but a real laugh? i cant remember one :( -- He did promise Joss to talk to Tyler so @show were is that talk? -- if seen the vid its awesome! thehiddenmemory has some great poi vids! (6)

yes i think so too. Like Grace would probably be relived and thankful that Harold is still alive and maybe they would even try again but eventually she would figure out that she cant trust him after lying to him for so long or sth like that and Harold would ofc realize that he is in love with someone else now. And then he finds out that John is still alive but stayed away cause he didnt want to get in the way of Harold/Grace. But then Harold comes back. And when they meet again John is like (7)

you came back for the machine? what about Grace. But Harold tells him he came back for John not the machine and then they kiss and have a happy live with Bear (sorry i got a little carried away here :D). -- Yeah Zoe is really hot and she needed more screen time! -- i hope you have a good day and i hope i havent messed up the numbers on the asks! :)

Hi ! I'm finally free from the resits, I hope you're doing okay with your thesis 💛

Sorry for replying late, there was the exam resits, and I read a bunch of fics, then I fell into pokémon and started bingewatching it. (Also I had a breakdown during therapy today so I'm gonna finish writing my answer to distract myself - it's been sitting in my drafts for so long rip)

Thank you !! It was a very personal thing, I'm really happy you liked it !! Your support and your comment made me thrive 💛💛

Tbh I was surprised to see it get kudos given that the only intended audience was my self projecting ass 🤣

So, my fav fics (my fav fic ever is in French, rip to y'all bc it's so good):

I am, I am, I am by RavenWhitecastle

Actually check the entire series this work belongs to: The Sinner and the Saint. I haven't finished it yet but I love it (I just skipped the explicit fics bc I don't like smut or sub!John)

Breaking All The Rules by talkingtothesky

Outsider Perspective by Neery

A Really Private Person by astolat

Hamartia (the hero's fatal flaw) by astolat

If Only for Tonight by spacemutineer

From Here, Where? by AKMars

Stroll by TheaNishimori

and the world was gone by lunarcorvid

a light that never goes out by vindicatedtruth

Limitations. by Michaelssw0rd

Reel you in and spit you out by Michaelssw0rd

All I Want For Christmas Is You by richmahogany

By What Power I Am Made Bold by brinnanza

Aftershocks by darringtons

At Certain Hours It All Breaks Down by nogoaway

construction of a kingdom by the_ragnarok

You Take Me Higher Than I've Gone by talkingtothesky

All Together Now by beadedslipper

I'll Let the Waters Still by brinnanza

Birthday Tradition by talkingtothesky

Things My Father Taught Me by KRyn

Truth is in the Eye of the Beholder by infiniteeight

Better Luck This Time by Lisztful

Motivations by JenNova

What's On the Table by cortue

In Another Life by Della19

I Thought We Already Were by talkingtothesky

Misunderstandings by thisstarvingartist

This is already fucking long omg so for the h/c: my bookmarks filtered with Rinch and h/c

Here's my playlist, it's mostly Rinch, but there are a few not Rinch vids, plus some scenes I like

This is long enough already, so it's time for a read more. Also, warning, we be talking about suicide

The portrayal of suicide is cringe most of the time anyway. If my suicidal ass can find a list of suicide methods and their lethality in 2 mins on Google you'd think writers who are supposed to do some research would be able to find them too but no they're like "ah yes slicing wrists" even though it's literally the shittiest method 🙄 (I just don't understand why slicing wrists seems to be such a popular method in the collective imagination ? It's weird.) At least in 13rw she took aspirin and cut herself vertically instead of horizontally but still, no hesitation wounds, and she dies even though she only got 4 wounds iirc ? I know more about jumping off bridges than slicing wrists, but it kinda sounds like bullshit to me. Also Netflix once suggested "beyond the reasons" to me, it's a sort of discussion with the cast and crew of 13rw and the only thing I remember is a moment of intellectual masturbation abt how they "opened a discussion abt suicide" 😬😬😬

They may have cut it out it's not impossible, idk I didn't hear about it, but it's not like I look for info about this dumpster fire lol. Maybe they faced backlash ? Wouldn't be surprised given how shit the show was. And yeah it has a hopeless vibe, I mean that's how it be when you're suicidal, but I didn't like it either.

You're sweet 💜💜 it's interesting that you find it respectable or admirable, I don't have an external point of view, so I'm just like 🤷 it is what it is. I understand where you're coming from though, I guess it's still quite a taboo subject, and suicidal people don't always feel comfortable talking about it, so me throwing around that I jumped off a bridge must be surprising. I'm detached enough from my suicide attempt that I'm able to talk about it without much of a problem, and I'm not really suicidal anymore.

Dumb bitches unite 👏👏👏 we be out there reading shit we shouldn't read

Yeah I think it's nice how the show didn't portray Shaw as a bad person for not having "normal feelings". Well, hope makes one live as we say in French (idk the English saying either lol) but don't hold much hope about me liking Root lmao

I used to ship careese bc they kissed in the crossing, but then I read some Rinch fics and I just ended up falling into it to the point where I stopped caring about careese. Now I think their relationship works better as a friendship.

Yeah all that change really puts me off... It just gives me "bad spin-off" vibes. Especially since there is less John :( and less Rinch :((((

Lmao yeah I just have a lot of feelings about early poi hgkfglrk. Also :/ I'm sad about the subway being less homey pls I just want happiness ?? I swear this show destroys my heart on top of owning my last braincell (brb changing my blog title to this lmao)

Mood I need all the John-centric eps, give me m o r e characterization and development and backstory and feelings hhhhhhh. I love him so much I just wanna spend more time with him. And that's what fics are for ! Yeah thehiddenmemory is so talented ! Astolat made some good ones too, on top of writing really good fics ! (Our fandom has been blessed with the presence of one of the ao3 founders hell yeah)

Also, remember how we talked abt the poi subreddit ? The other day I left a comment on there, wild I know. It wasn't a discussion about the last seasons though, I'm not crazy, it was about the impact poi had in our lives so I said it literally taught me English. Who knows maybe sometimes I'll comment again lol. I just don't wanna meet one of those people who prefer late poi over early poi.

Allow me to uuuuh write something based on what you said. Don't ask me how John survived with no major injuries, my man got that Thick Plot Armor alright. Hope you appreciate me getting carried away sjdkdksk it's kinda rushed and the first part isn't that good bc idk how to write Grace I'm just here for that sweet sweet Rinch stuff

Harold is eating breakfast with Grace in her kitchen – he can't think of her home as his home – when his phone vibrates. It's a text from the machine. It's a surprise, she barely contacted him since... He blocks the thoughts and the images coming to his mind. The machine sent him a picture. When he opens it, his heart misses a beat. Right here on his screen is a silhouette he thought he would never see again. His phone vibrates again. Another picture, this time it's unmistakably John, wearing his signature suit, Bear next to him. Transfixed, he stares at his phone until he feels Grace gently touching his arm. She goes straight to the point.

"Is it John ?" He looks up in confusion, but before he can say anything, she adds, "I hear you call him in your sleep every night."

"It's him, yes." He doesn't want to explain. He only wants to see John, to touch him, to tell him how much he loves him.

"You should go back to him. I like you, Harold. I am deeply relieved to see you alive. But I've been thinking, and... It's not working. This, us... You aren't really the man I fell in love with, the man I grieved... I can't trust you anymore." She doesn't say 'You lied to me' but Harold hears it all the same.

Harold sits on their bench. The machine indicated John often comes here. Soon enough, his arms are full of Bear, and John is standing in front of him.

"John. How are you ?" he asks when Bear finally calms down.

"Busy. And you ?"

Harold eyes him suspiciously – John once said he was busy when he was bleeding and way too close to death – but he seems to be well.

"I'm fine." He doesn't have time for awkward small talk." I thought you were dead. Why didn't you contact me ?"

"The machine told me you were with Grace. I thought you wanted to come back to your previous life. I didn't want to crash into it and ruin what you had."

Harold wants to be angry at him, but he understands. He did the same with Grace.

"You would never ruin anything. Besides, my relationship with Grace... didn't survive my lies. She's very dear to my heart, but she's a part of my previous life, as you said."

"So you came back for the machine, and the numbers, like the good old times ?"

Harold gets up from the bench.

"I came back for you. You are an important part of my life. The most important part."

John smiles, finally. He takes a step towards Harold, they're so close they could kiss. Harold reaches out, grips his shirt and slowly inches closer. He's still afraid of being rejected but John wraps his arm around him and kisses him. The kiss is over too soon. John's smile is even wider when they part.

"You're the most important part of my life too," he says before kissing Harold again. "You will stay ?"

"Always."

Damn I live for sappy Rinch stuff.

Bitches decided that Harold saying "always" is peak Rinch. It's me I'm bitches.

Also ofc I had to make a reference to number crunch, who do you think I am

Anyway. I hope you have a good day ! 💛

#half valid anon

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What the Hell is going on w/ Ep. 5?????

Hey World,

I just wanted to pop in and say what’s been going on, as it’s been a whole Season in between episodes.

So... I guarantee you, I was working on it. Pretty diligently at first. I don’t know how many sessions, but I did X6 playthroughs while pausing and writing out the stage directions and reactions, etc. etc. Some of this was humdrum and boring and then ideas popped out at me where I took some risks and really opened up the creativity. Whenever I do that, I always think it’s shit at first. But then upon a second or third look I get a different feel and decide whether it’s okay or not.

So, I promise you that it wasn’t really a Motivation thing. Not X6 wise, anyway. The episode is roughly 7/8ths finished. That’s for sure. The file for Ep. 5 was last modified on July 26th, so what the Hell happened?

What stopped me was Life, itself.

...We all know that in April, my Mother passed away. Right when I was in the midst of Writing Ep. 2. Somehow I plowed through that. Then, in May and June life became about working out, eating right, exercising and going on dates actually, believe it or not! I was writing Ep. 3 and even 4, during that time. I was making some decent progress.

But then... Dating wise, things fell apart.

And this is where I need to spare the details, because this is a MMX Blog and not a Relationship blog. However, you could basically say that for the month of June I was enjoying myself with someone. Then, when that didn’t work, in July I quickly moved on to someone else and then That didn’t work out either. Like, at all. And a combination of the two events just shut me down in August.

I just got hit so hard with the timing of everything. I thought I was ready to date, but I really wasn’t. And for the first time in my life I was straight up couch-ridden depressed. Like, actually not wanting to do anything. No video games, no shows, no music... not eating... Not working out... and Certainly not writing MMX6.

So... I had to pull myself out of it. And how did I manage that, you might ask??

Well... for the entire months of August and September (and even now), I’ve spent a LOT of time working on myself. For everyone, this is different.

But for me, I found a great comfort in writing out everything that has happened. And I’m talking about really digging deep and diving into all of my life choices for the past 5 years of my last relationship.

My Diary Entries weren’t just about the relationship, but also Life before Covid. It was very nostalgic, therapeutic and cathartic once I got to the hard stuff and really analyzed what the Hell happened here and there. (This Project was part of those entries as well.)

My favorite writer, Brian Michael Bendis says, “A Writer writes every day.” And no matter how true that is for you, I definitely found that to become my own form of therapy. Getting over myself, as it were.

And within days and weeks, I was enjoying this new project of Self-Reflection while listening to new music on Spotify. Having the company of just 1 friend to do puzzles with and stuff, and eventually play video games again. The shows came back. Soon I was living my life and this project was becoming it’s own chore. Even the exercising and eating right came back, although not in full force as it was before.

I also can’t forget that as of August and September, our Federal Help situation drastically changed. So I had to get over the rut of seriously looking for new jobs again. At this point, it still sucks, but I’m used to it now.

My life is applying for jobs and then treating myself to either my Self Reflection Project or any other hobbies that I’m feeling that day.

Video Game wise, I enjoyed finishing the MMZ saga and finally delving into MMZX. What I can say there is that I loved MMZ3, which is a pretty popular opinion. MMZ4′s story was too different for me to care. They did a serious disservice by eliminating the Guardians in 3. But either way, I surprisingly Loved ZX. I thought by then, I wouldn’t care. But I actually thought Vent was awesome. I really appreciated their nostalgic throwbacks to X1 with Giro (clearly being a Zero, boss figure) and Area D-3 being the frickin Central Highway stage!!! That lightened my heart and made me so happy, even though the game is so different. And those transformations into the Guardian Model Letters, (beyond X & Z) was just really well done. It was the next phase in the evolution. Despite the Metroidvania open-map being confusing as Hell. I enjoyed the attempt a lot.

[Save-assist states also really enhanced this experience for me.]

MMZX Advent however... The only positive thing I have for that one is that, I actually LOVED that you were Model A the whole time. I always kind of wanted an Axl game, and in a way, this was it. But... that game is very flawed, and transforming into all of the psuedoroids on Top of gaining all the Model Letters (including ZX) was a bit much. Meeting Aile as Model ZX, in my play through as Grey was probably the only nice throwback to the canon of that game. It’s sad to know that when you play it on hard there’s a cliff-hanger that could’ve lead to the Legends series. But as someone who was never into the Legends series, I’m fine getting the Normal/Medium ending where Grey & Aile save the day and now they just want to live and travel around. I also liked any open-ended chemistry they had. (Would they have been an item in a future game? It doesn’t matter anymore.)

Lore rants, aside, playing through the ZX series brought me back to X6 a lot, because it made me wish I could play through the game in the same way that I’ve been writing this Anime Fic. That you could just press a button and freely transform into your Falcon Armor or new armors that you acquire.

So what brought me back was a long-term plan in a way. That friend who did the puzzles with me, as I mentioned expressed a Serious interest in reading my Long-Fic. So I told her the best jumping on-point to get into Season VI stuff, which is actually starting at Xtreme2. And I was so excited that she’d be reading it, that I relived it myself too. [I even made some important edits to Duff McWhalen along the way.]

From there, as I’d go through my routine of job-hunting and soul searching, I’d also treat myself to reads of Xtreme 2, which turned into new routines of reading Season IV and V first, then applying to jobs, then going about my Self-Reflection Project. Video Games wise, I also just decided to go through the whole MMX Legacy Collection. So very quickly I went through X1 and X2. X3 took a whole night. X4 was a pretty quick Afternoon. X5 was a decent day and X6 took a while (to play through in the way that I envision this fic.)

And then in the past week, you could say I’ve finally caught up, in more ways than one. Self-reflecting wise, I’ve actually caught up to April 2020, right at the worst moment of the year. And it was good for me to go through that. Video Game wise, X6′s playthrough only spoke to me for the 1st Arc, mostly but it gave me a little more of an idea on how I’m tackling certain bits of the 2nd Arc. The 3rd Arc is still a God damn mystery as is the exact ending, but I’ll figure it out. Ideas are slowly forming.

And lastly Season VI wise, I quickly reread up to Ep. 4 and just opened up the file to Ep. 5 today!

I made new edits, came up with an Episode Title like I thought I would and at the stopping point, of course I was let down, but I was left with some new ideas on where to go from there.

Now I find myself actually wanting to rediscover what can happen next.

I have things to do today, and obligations weighing on me such as job-searches and stuff. But now that my Self-Reflection thing is quickly catching up to the current day, I’m looking forward to alternating my writing days with X6 again.

Music is coming back to me, and funnily enough, someone swiped on me in September!! So I started dating again, lol. I’m not half as invested as I was in the Summer. I know what I want more, this time around and yeah...

Other than the whole Job thing, life is good for the most part.

...I’m looking forward to getting the next episode out soon.

And finishing the 1st Arc by the end of the year. That seems like a reasonable enough goal.

Until then, folks.

#Season VI #Writing Diaries #What the Hell is going on with Episode 5?????#Life #Covid-19 #Unemployment #Dating #Depression #Job Hunting #Soul-Searching #Self-Reflection #Moving Forward #Gaming #Reading #Writing Again

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Homicide Life on the Street

I just finished watching the movie that rounded up the series and I’m feeling a little emotional. Hiding behind a cut because no one wants to read this right now.

I watched the last 6 eps of season 7 today and then watched the 2000 movie which is in youtube. To say I’m slightly emotional right now is the understatement of the decade. If there are any typos it’s because I’m typing through tears. I also can’t breath because my nose is bunged up and my eyes now hurt from the pressure in my head from the crying. This also may not be very coherant.

I’m emotional because this was the end of a series which I started watching when I was about 16 or 17 years old back in 1995 or 1996. It was my first real ‘fandom’. Not my first slash fandom, that came later after I had gone to university, found the internet and found the thing that would become the biggest thing in my life. But HLots was the first real obsession, before slash, before pairings, before fic. I’d loved shows and characters before, thinking back I was pretty much a tv fiend since I was about 4 or 5 years old. Gentle Ben I think was my first tv love, so long ago I can barely even guarantee that was the right show. All I can remember is turning on to watch it one day and refusing to because he didn’t look right. His beard had gone, or something and apparently I didn’t believe it was him. The it was Knight Rider, Airwolf, The A Team and so on for the next ten years or so (well thirty seven to count).

But Homicide caught me. Mid teens. I loved the characters, the stories, the look and feel. It was earthly, intriguing, dark and different. I remember boring friends at Uni talking about it so much (the ones I knew would listen anyway). I lost some of my interest as University brought with it it’s own focus; uni life, love, friends and of course no TV! I got my parents to tape it for me at home but I lost chunks of it when they forgot or didn’t bother. Still, I never forgot my first obsession even though I didn’t return to it until recently, nearly twenty five years later.

I never saw the end of the show and now I’ve seen all 7 seasons I don’t think I ever saw the start either. I watched around season 4 and 5 with bits of 3 maybe. Now looking back I wonder how quickly I loved and how much I actually saw back then. I barely remembered many of the episodes I’ve watched over the last three weeks, some stood out; Thrill of the Kill and Hate Crimes specifically. (I think was because when I was a teenager to enable me to ‘watch’ my favourite tv I would record them onto audio cassette so I could listen to them in bed or in the car - great for taking on holiday! And because I’d watched them I could see them in my head - ingenious or what?!I think these were two episodes I had on tape which I could then record).

I remember the Waterfront and Dr Cox and Kellerman being under suspicion but not for what. I remember seeing Bayliss tell Pembleton about his childhood abuse but the rest of the stories are missing. I remember the layout of the squadroom, the board, the box (who’s idea was it to turn that into Gee’s office in the seventh season?!?! Ugh) and the coffee room.

So essentially I’m really upset right now because something that was so important to me as a teenager has now concluded. And in such a sad way (everything is going blurry again). I’m not going to lie, when I watched as a teen it was Bayliss who was my favourite (lets face it Kyle Secor was gorgeous back then - still is but that’s another story) and his relationship with Frank which was for me the draw of the show. I liked all the characters, some more than others and it was the way the whole show was put together; look, sound, feel. Watching it through now, Bayliss is still my favourite, Frank still amazing but I enjoyed the other characters more, I paid more attention to Lewis and Kellerman (yes I’m slashing them) and Munch and Howard and even Felton, Crosetti and Bolander who I think had pretty much come out of it by the time I’d started watching originally.

Watching the show now I’ve also been able to watch with a slasher’s eyes, something I didn’t have back then. I was always drawn to the partnership between Frank and Tim but I’d never paired them because I didn’t have the language or the knowledge that you could do that. I’d been intrigued by gay storylines in shows, those that were starting to emerge on tv in the 90s but it had never crossed my mind that you could ‘pair characters’ outside of the ‘canon’ (and I’m talking het as well as slash here). So this time I’ve been watching Frank and Tim and especially Tim and his relationship with Frank. Watching now I can see the love and the adoration that he has for Frank grow over the 6 seasons they were together and despite it being unrequited it’s quite easy to see that as a canon love story. I believe I’ve read somewhere that Kyle did actually approach it as Bayliss being in love with Frank (when I’m more together I’ll try and find where I read it) and watching it, I can very much believe that.

Which is what made the movie so difficult to watch. Watching Bayliss slowly fall apart. Turn to Frank at the end when they’d caught Gee’s shooter. The scene on the roof at the end when Bayliss is confessing what he has done to Frank and the way that scene plays out. The complete inability for Frank to comprehend what Tim is telling him, to comprehend that Tim has killed someone, not just in self defence or as a cop related shooting but as a murder. A cold blooded murder (Tim used the word execution and their difference in vocab is specific). He can’t understand, gets angry (righteously) that Tim has put this on him. When Tim pleads with him to take him in or he will likely eat his gun, has thought about it before, can’t marry up his heart with his head (knows in his heart he was right but in his head he can’t accept what he has done), Frank can’t do it. Despite knowing, seeing that Tim has threatened to end his life if he doesn’t. I can’t accept that as the ending to their partnership. It stings. It hurts (blurry eyes again). After all that they’ve gone through in the past 6 years it’s upsetting that it finishes here. I’m not going to lie. I hated when Frank left at the end of season 6. I hate this a hundred times more.

When the name goes to blue on the board, I assume we are meant to understand that Tim has indeed confessed/been taken in. By Frank? His words to Mike in Gee’s office seem to indicate so ‘good at catching the bad guys...caught me a couple tonight.’

...and I can’t....to hear Frank refer to Tim as a bad guy just breaks my heart into tiny pieces (oh god my nose is never going to unstuff at this rate). To be honest, that out of the whole film is what I can’t get over. And why I’m so upset I think. It really fucking hurts.

And then. And then we get the scene of Gee in the afterlife, going into the squadroom and seeing all the people from the past, his life and the stations. Little Adena skipping past. And then seeing Felton and Crosetti in the coffee room (as it was thank god). And then the chair. The fourth chair (oh god I’m off again). Gee asks but they don’t know who it’s for, ‘we don’t know yet’ says Beau, ‘but they’ll here sooner or later.’ Gee worries about his son (he’s a foot cop now) but to me, I take that to mean be for Bayliss. He threatened his life and when Crosetti says ‘it’s not like it’s written in stone, it’s not preordained or anything.’ My brain took that to mean that if Bayliss is in custody, that won’t stop him from eventually taking his life, either in jail or on bail if he’s allowed it.

So this had been the ending tonight of a very very long fandom arch. I’m emotionally battered and bruised and feeling rather strange. I want to return to season 1 ep 1 straight away (that’s what I did with Starsky and Hutch every time I finished season 4, immediately pop the first ep in again and start over) but I’mn not sure I’m ready. I’m not sure I could watch fresh faced Tim enter that squad room, knowing where he’ll end up in seven years time.

I loved seeing everyone come back for the movie, even for the brief scenes most of them had, it was enough (why oh why didn’t Kellerman have any scenes with Lewis though??). Cox and Griscom over Gee’s bedside? Excellent! Kellerman shovelling food down whilst Mike beats up suspects? Awesome! The knowledge that they go back to the squad room in the afterlife? Beautiful if emotionally traumatic.

It’s going to take me a long time to get over this but suffice to say this was one of the best shows ever made. I didn’t like season 7 or the new characters much and the show was definitely at it’s best earlier on when it was in it’s original and intended format but even later on it still beats the pants off most of the shows made then and today.

#homicide life on the street #boxset watching #old fandoms #tim bayliss #frank pembleton #slash #hlots #homicide the movie #long post #posted whilst still crying #incoherent posting

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hippyexd · 4 years

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Collection of my stories: Explained

Here is the post that nobody cares about but I'll share it because I just want the world to know.

1. Demon Academy.

I've posted some things about it already, it's a comic I started in 2014 originally in hungarian. I'm not quite happy with the way I started it, but I've built an interesting world, and I adore the characters, it's one of my best work that I'm very proud of. I drew 260 pages in total (book 1 and book 2) and I intend to pick up the story again sometime soon, when I get over exam season.

2. Runner

A medieval-themed fantasy story that I eventually want to make into a cartoon series. It's a bit cliché, but the characters are fun, and it has a lot of potential for epic music. I basically came up with the entire plot while listening to fantasy music mixes. Fun times. I've only got some character drawigs, and I just recently managed to finally have eneryone's finalized version. I also have a side story/shared universe thing planned for it.

3. Xyber-no

A post-apocalyptic cyberpunk futuristic action horror cartoon series idea. I've got the characters done already, and plans for like 2 seasons worth of content, I'm just lazy to edit the 1st ep's script. It's not even 20 minutes long. Honestly I'm just anxious to touch it. Got most of my ideas while listening to Neffex songs.

4. Racer

I watched Initial-D, and way back I had a roleplay about a car racer dude, and these two motivated me to write this story. It's not really a novel, it resembles more to a script but it's not actually a script. It was mainly dialogue practice, to make the characters feel more fun. I just finished the rewrite like a week ago, I think it turned out pretty great. Planning on adding a part 2 or a season 2 or something like that, but again, too lazy to actually touch it. It's fun to re-read though.

5. Singer

I'm currently working on this story, because when I'm bored, I write. And when is the best time to be bored? Exam season. Hell yeah. Anyway, it's about a suicidal dude falling in love with a singer (also dude, I love my gay kids okay) and then they figure out their shit. Good story to fit in as much angst as possible, with a few lovely fluff parts.

6. ZR series

Most of my followers came from the ZR community, so y'all know what this one is. But in case not, it's a comic series portraying my reactions to various moments that happen in Zombies, Run!, a really fun and creative workout app. The comic is on hold right now because I've already got too much shit to do til christmas. (Such as the Fellow Five drawing I promised. It's not forgotten, I just don't have time!! XD)

7. Demon and Vampire

Basically an over the top gay fluff love story with a little angst. It's pretty cool, sometimes it's boring, it's full of clichés and stuff, but I read it like 6 times and usually I hate my own writing, but there are parts that I just genuinely love in it. Fun stuff.

8. Psychoville

I've written the first 10 pages in like 30 different versions, because I'm unable to nail it. The main character is the daughter of Satan, who's name is ironically Angel, and she lives in a small town called Psychoville in the desert in Nevada, next to Searchlight, Nevada. As the name implies, she lives with 9 (or 8, I forgot) psychopaths, killers, mass murderers, insane mentally ill people who love each other to bits (and sometimes cut each other to bits) until she gets the task to investigate something for her father away from her home. Got a lot of inspiration from Welcome to Night Vale, and that lawless town in Kansas, I think? The yes theory made a video on it on yt, it's pretty dope.

9. Hollywood Undead Hungarian Fanfiction

It's just what it is. A fanfic of the boiz going on tour, getting in trouble, drinking and so on. No romance (bc that's gross and I couldn't find any fanfic that was not in some shape or form a ship fanfic). Da Kurlzz was still in the band when I wrote it. I was like 12. I just wanted to have fun. The chapters are 2 pages long in total. But the hungarian fans liked it, was trending a bunch of times on wattpad and it has a lot of reads. Despite being horribly shitty, I'm proud of it, and it has a lot of really fun parts and jokes.

10. Wrong Number

I almost forgot about this gem, but this was my first finished english story. It's almost entirely written in sms text format, it's progressig a bit too quickly, but at the time I was having a lot of fun with it, and that's all that matters. It has some really funny lines I came up with, I like re-reading it just for that. But also, it was a fun way to get around having to write long paragraphs lol. I just wanted to have fun with it. Heavily inspired by the Call me Beep me klance fanfic.

11. Milky Boiz

Context: my friend and I, at 2am, were thinking about what our ship name would be, but I kept typing "mmmmmilky" in the chat, that turned into milky boiz, and she said, that if we were guys, that would be our ship name. This gave us an idea for a webcomic, which we didn't actually progress with yet, but we do have an insta page where we already posted some of our boiz, you can find it under the name of @ink.stars , go pay a visit, it's my art and my friend's, and she is a wonderful artist and a lovely person and I love her to bits.

12. Night Vale Steampunk AU

It's pretty much dead, but while I was really actively part of the Night Vale fandom, I started a Steampunk AU. It was fun, it got like 4 chapters or something and big plans, but the characters were not in character, and it lost the Night Vale vibe, so I just let it go.

13. Cop Comic

Also a dead project of mine, but I still like it. It was inspired by a moment on one of our high school class trips. The characters were based on me and my friends, but the resemblence stops at hair color, that's all. Mabye not even that. Anyway it's what it is: cops dealing with crime and their personal problems. I wish I had known Brooklyn Nine Nine back then, would have been a great help.

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So, there you have it, all my favourite finished and unfinished works/ideas, just so you know if in the future I reference one (planning to post more Runner, DA and Xyber-no content along with the ZR comic)

#character #zombies run #original story #original comic #comic #story #novel #plans #original #my story #collection #demon academy #demon #explain #explained

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thekaijudude · 4 years

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Ultraman Taiga Movie Analysis & Predictions

Back from watching the trailer for another dozen times just to see if there's any other clues

So let's start by getting the obvious out of the way first

1. Toregia is behind Taro's corruption

Why?

The appearance of the corrupted Storium Ray here is reminiscent of the corrupted Storium Blaster that Taiga fired at Titus when he was corrupted by Toregia

Also

Need I say more?

In addition

In the official website, Toregia and Kirisaki are stated to appear in the cast list

So, next question, in fact, probably one of the most important,

How?

So I think the answer to this lies in what exactly happened after Toregia and Taro both detonated their respective Ultra Dynamites

So prior to that, Toregia seemingly totally disintegrated Taiga, which led to Taro thinking that his son has just been killed directly in front of him

In a fit of rage and overwhelmed with grief, Taro let's his guard down and charges in with Ultra Dynamite, in which after usage, the user Ultra will temporarily disintegrate into light particles and has to reform

And during that period of time, let's not forget that Toregia wouldve also disintegrated into light particles, except that he's definitely corrupted as well, which meant that it's possible for his light particles to corrupt Taro's as we can presume that the Ultras are very vulnerable when disintegrated as we saw Fuma wasn't able to do anything when he was a crystal

Like what Mebius pointed out before in his series, it's a forbidden technique cause it's a risky move to use

Plus Taro's in a state of extreme grief, so this might be further dropped his guard which allowed Toregia to corrupt Taro without much difficulty

This further supports the reason why Toregia was able to escape Taro 15 years ago back in the M78 Universe

And perhaps Toregia was really addressing the corrupted Taro back in Taiga ep 15 when he corrupted Taiga

And this is also why he purposely didn't kill the Tri Squad, just so he can pit corrupted Taro against them in the movie, definitely something his sick mind would come up with

2. How does Grimude and Reiga fit into all of this?

Firstly, I suppose Taiga would eventually be able to reach out to Taro in his mindscape, just like how EGIS and the Tri Squad did to the then corrupted Taiga

But after that, let's talk about Grimude first

So since he's a 'Evil Demon God' of some kind, I suspect that he's the one responsible for corrupting Toregia in the first place, and perhaps may also be the one who corrupted Taro as well if we want to also say that Toregia is also in a vulnerable state while he's disintegrated to light particles

But by that logic, we can also say that Toregia may be totally not involved in this and everything has been under the influence of Grimude himself as he seeks to get directly involved and having Toregia to stand down this time

So after Taro regains control, either Grimude or Toregia will descend and directly challenge the New Gen

After a severe beatdown, all the New Gen fuses into Reiga and yep, final showdown

Not too surprising if it turns out this way considering that TsuPro has been really elusive with information this year

3. Additional important information

From the same official website, this part specifically:

2 things to point out:

a) Grigio's VA is on the list

This mean cancel last mic, Reiga will be a fusion of 11 Ultras

But this also means that we won't see Asahi cause she's not part of the cast list but only on the VA list

b) Powered has a VA

(Thanks to several of my followers pointing this out to me, I totally had no idea at first)

Of course, obvious question, what the fuck is Powered doing here?

Well, 2020 is Powered's 25th Anniversary and tbh I don't think he's gonna be in on the action

Like sure he's pretty much an Ultra Brother Level Glass Cannon, he's super fast, super strong in terms of brute strength and beam potency (potentially Ultra Brother Level) but iirc, his durability is really lacking

And considering that this is basically the New Gen movie, most likely he's just gonna play a side role, nothing really important, maybe as minor as Taro's appearance in the Geed Movie or something

Or unless he arrives also plays the same role as Grigio, which is definitely possible as with his ridiculous speed and beam potency, he's a pretty solid Ultra Brother Level long ranged support unit

4. Clarification on contradictory information

So let's recap, we received trademarks of Grimude, that was released alongside the Shin Ultraman trademark

We also received the Reiga trademark

These were corroborated in the leaked Bandai 2020 Item Catalog List:

But yet we don't see any VAs for Grimude in the official webpage

So what I think is going on is two possibilities:

a) Grimude won't be appearing in this movie

This would explain the lack of his VA

Which means Reiga would be taking on Toregia, most likely unsealed as although Toregia IS powerful, I don't think hes THAT POWERFUL enough to stand against an 11 Ultra Fusion, even unsealed tbh

But this could be reconciled by Taro stopping Reiga from landing the finishing blow on Toregia due to their past friendship

b) Grimude will be appearing in this movie

Tbh I'm leaning more towards this cause despite the lack of his VA, let's not forget that TsuPro has been very elusive with the information they've been relaying to the public, like they totally mislead us with the Q2 scans, UGF as well as till this day, we STILL don't have a Taiga movie catalog leak

So Grimude's VA was likely a purposeful omission

Cause Im definitely seeing a grand battle of two super powered beings going at it to end the Heisei Era officially and kick-start the Reiwa Era with a blast

#ultraman #ultraman taiga

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almaasi · 5 years

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reaction post typed while watching Good Omens (ALL OF IT)

my favourite novel is now my favourite mini-series and IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL

under the cut: a very long, spoilery six-episode reaction to MY NEW FAVOURITE THING EVER

may 31st 07:36pm nz

i posted my episode 1 reaction a couple hours ago but that got ZERO NOTES so i assume people are either avoiding spoilers or aren’t interested, which is fine, but i’m just gonna put all my reactions in one big post so anyone who IS interested doesn’t have to read 6 separate posts c:

edit june 1st 04:08am: btw i watched using a free trial on amazon prime, which i’m pretty sure is worldwide. soooo if yOU WANT TO WATCH THIS, YOU CAN, FOR FREE

EPISODE 1: In the Beginning

04:03pm

idk how much i’m gonna type, whether i’ll post a reaction to the entire thing in one post....... or how much i’ll end up watching right now

kinda want to spread it out and save it as a treat for after i’ve done some writing

but right now i wanna watch before writing

so maybe i’ll do one ep, write something, then return to this?

edit: aahhaha that didn’t happen

04:04pm

I’M SO EXCITED

I’VE BEEN WAITING SO LONG

well... since 2011 when i first read the book

but regardless it’S BEEN 84 YEARS

04:05

okay first off i did not know amazon prime did adverts at the start of their videos. so i was like SINCE WHEN WAS CHILDISH GAMBINO/DONALD GLOVER IN GOOD OMENS

and then

yeah

either way i thought it was a good opening

W A R

NING

cool cool cool cool cool

omg i’m used to where the netflix full-screen button is, and on amazon prime that’s the “next episode” button so i gotta be real careful

dear god my video quality is TERRIBLE

i.......... i might torrent this show and watch it offline

this is horrendous i can’t see a damn thing

i have never seen pixels this big

04:11

okay the quality calmed down after a minute

i loooove the intro, i love that it’s basically word for word from the book

i feel like i’d find it funnier if i hadn’t read the book 3 months ago

also? god is a woman? yes

04:13

is it just me or does the snek have a slightly david tennant-esque quality about it

i’m so happy adam and eve are black

04:17

omfg. aziraphale said “ineffable” and now CRAWLEY’S CHECKING HIM OUT TRYING TO SEE IF HE HAS ANY JUNK

WOW

...or y’know, looking for a flaming sword. SAME FUCKING THING.

also i looove how FLUFFY azi is

azi: “do hope i didn’t do the wrong thing”

i fucking love them both uhrgughhhuhuhughuhhh

04:21

small sob for cuteness

umbella wings

04:23

in the opening titles, crowley just stopped a spaceship and aziraphale turned it into fish

i feel like that was a douglas adams reference and i’m on board

04:25

the entire time i read the book, up until i saw video promos of this show, i thought “crowley” was said the same way as spn’s “crowley”, as in “crahwlee”

not “crOhwlee”

i definitely like that they’re different though

both probably named after aleister crowley tbh. all of whom are queer.

THOSE SWAYING HIPS

i haven’t found david tennant attractive in about 9 years but WHOOOP HELLO AGAIN

somehow attractive for entirely different reasons than before. like. my taste changed but tHEN

i’m on crowley’s side, taking down a cellphone network is VERY ANNOYING

04:35

crowley: shitshitshitshithsit

i can’t wait for aziraphale’s big swear

04:37

i miss eating sushi

sushi was great