#tomie vents

[starcrossedwitness]

If someone could put a knife to my throat right now, I think I would let it happen.

It already takes so much effort to restrain myself from wanting to bury a shard of broken glass into my thigh sometimes.

It's just really exhausting acting like I have it all together when in reality I feel like I'm close to being split apart.

It's selfish of me to think like this, but sometimes I'd just really want to be allowed to breathe without feeling like someone will grab me by the throat for it. Without feeling like I'd insult someone just for breathing a certain way or being labeled as aggressive because I'm a "mean uncaring mexican." I'm tired of being scared, so I have to stay silent. I'm tired of being silent out of fear. I'm tired of being scared of being hated. Why can't I get over the fact that people will lie, people will stereotype me, people will hate me, and I just need to move on with it? When will I accept this?

#ramona vents #tomie vents #i never expected to turn this into a vent account as well but #oh fucking well #its not like anyone will see it #its not like anyone will care #so oh well #do not reblog

[sakisawnp]

#art #artwork #artists on tumblr #my art #art style #illustration #traditional art #tomie kawakami #hatsune miku #oc #oc art #fanart #anime #aesthetic #vent #drawing

[beautifulprincessdisorderhotgrl]

i love being a pretty girl because if i don’t get a compliment from a stranger at least once a day i will shrivel up and die

#bpd vent #tomie #poetry #bpd #beautiful #the picture of dorian gray

[transwolvie]

sometimes I think about how rudely people have behaved about Will and Jada Smith being polyamorous, including people in the news, and I just get. Mmmm. Real mad tbh

#tomi talks #sorry i thought about it again and thusly I'm angry and wanna vent. lol

[strangeandinteresting]

junji ito aesthetics be like

'uzumaki themed board'

and then they have three images of tomie one image of the girlfriend from i don't want to be a ghost and one or two aesthetic images of spirals not from the manga and maybe some random religious imagery

#like #bro #i would not be as annoyed if yall just used pictures of kiriye #she's really pretty and actually from uzumaki #tomie is not the only junji ito manga you can read more of them it's ok #also like why is it always the same 3 pics of tomie #did this turn into a vent?

[wordsgood]

loreleaf sees his parents killed at age 6 and stumbles through the next 15 years finding older guardians who are somewhat emotionally available but very much like "i am absolutely not your father/mother, please, i can't handle the responsibility of taking care of you" and obviously having them is better than not having them but also it kind of just sucks. and i think that tomi, when he's recovered from a century of imprisonment, looks at loreleaf, sees the small frightened little boy inside the young man who's grown up way too fast, and goes "i'm gonna parent that" and does not wait for an answer

#it probably takes a while! tomi isn't well for a long time and loreleaf doesn't just open up because someone else wants him to #but tomi thrives on caretaking #so it might help him heal quicker to have someone to look out for #he needs to be needed and loreleaf needs someone who is stable enough to be needed #and tomi is nothing if not sturdy. tomi is solid ground #and of course loreleaf is comfortable around and trusts jademoon and doli lin and stormy #but all of them have such loaded fraught relationships with him #someone like tomi who is like 'i don't Need you for any reason but i want to know you and care for you' is wholly unfamiliar to loreleaf #like..........someone loreleaf can just go to when he's confused or upset and vent to #he's always had to be at least partly grown even for jademoon! #she was desperately unstable when she took him on! he couldn't be a little kid with her! same with doli lin and stormy! #tomi doesn't need him to have any level of maturity. he's self-possessed and understanding. #loreleaf is like 'so.........i don't have to filter myself so i am the least possible amount of burden/emotional labor on you' #and tomi is like 'boy i am So blissed out on being reunited with my soulmate at all times. TRY to shake me. i DARE you.' #it's just hypothetically very wholesome and i want to write book 3 so bad #story: prophecy trilogy

[riaisnotok]

Tokio Hotel as FNaF 2 night guards

Bill will scream like a girl every time he sees Foxy in the hallway

Gustav is the only one who takes everything seriously and is attentive to every movement of the animatronics

Tom would put on his Freddy mask every 5 minutes, he's afraid of the animatronics, poor Tomi :(

Bill is the one who check the hallway so that Foxy doesn't come closer to the office

Tom checks the left vent

Georg checks the right vent

And Gustav is the one who checks the cameras and winds up music box

Tom every time Toy Chica appears, he gets horneay 💀

Tom would definitely be the one from the bite of '87😭 he thought Mangle was a girl lol

The 4 boys were on the 3rd night, it was 1 o'clock and the animatronics started to move. Bill was checking the hallway for Foxy, Gustav was looking at the cameras and winding up Marionette's music box.

"I'm bored" Tom says, playing with the light from the left vent. "TOM, STOP PLAYING WITH THE LIGHT!" Gustav shouted at him.

"Ughhh!" Tom stopped playing with the light and goes to Bill. "Let me see if Toy Chica is coming~" Tom said looking down the hallway. Unfortunately for Tom, Toy Chica was not coming and rather Toy Bonnie and Toy Freddy were coming. "UGHHH, I WANT TO SEE THAT BEAUTIFUL CHICK, THAT SEXY CHICKEN!" Tom said in an angry and sad tone. "Tom what the fuck.." Georg looked at Tom strangely. "What are you looking at like that Georg?" "Nothing.." Georg said and went back to checking the vent to see if Toy Bonnie was coming.

"Hello!"

"YOU HEARD THAT?" Tom said with a start. "Tom is the first, he needs 2 more to come" Gustav said slapping his face.

"What time is it?" Bill asks. "2"

Toy Freddy approaches the office and stands in front of him. Tom looked at him "How fat you are." Tom told him. Exactly then, Toy Freddy and Toy Bonnie came to the office. All four of them put on their masks.

After they left, they took it off. "Tom are you stupid?" Said Bill "we were about to die because you told him he was fat." Tom rolled his eyes "It's not because of me, it's because of you!"

"Okayyy, don't fight here!" Gustav said. Tom was checking the hallway again, which was Bill's job but he wanted to see Toy Chica. "LOOK! MY FUTURE WIFE IS COMING!" Tom said pointing to Toy Chica who was going into the next room. Tom leaves quickly to his vent.

"MY WIFE IS COMING!" Said Tom, happy?

Everyone put their masks back on.

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It was already almost 6 in the morning, Bill, Tom, Georg and Gustav were very focused, and suddenly the sound of the alarm scared them. A "YAY" of children can be heard after the alarm. Everyone was happy to finish another night and I don't know if they will do the remaining 3 nights because Tom can't be a little serious.

#tokio hotel #bill kaulitz #bill kaulitz fluff #bill kaulitz imagines #tom kaulitz #tom kaulitz fluff #tom kaulitz imagines #gustav schäfer #gustav schafer fluff #georg listing #georg listing fluff

[xx-theblack-vixen-xx]

i'm sorry guys

((vent under cut))

i love you, but my depression is flaring back up and i don't know what to do

i'm getting attached to you all and i can't figure out how to put how i'm feeling

my arms are healed now, but i can feel the scissors needing to be used again,

i'm shaking and i know you guys don't want me to do anything to myself.

the pills are rattling around in their container and i know that if i take them it could be over

but my friends need me

Peyton, Sera, Remy, Tomi, Leo, everyone.

i love you guys so much and i need to stay with you, i know that,

but life is unbearable sometimes, my skin is too tight on my body, i don't find joy in doing anything anymore, my chest feels hollow, it's hard to breathe,

my favorite people are mad at me or make me feel insecure, but i can't figure out how to say no.

i need affection, and i need it all the time, and when people don't let me pat them on the head or hug me or give me any energy i always have done something wrong. every time.

they give me a glare, i wonder what i did to upset them, why they hate me? am i just weird? why are you disgusted? why are they staring at me like i'm a monster? you don't even know me what did i ever do to you? please don't hurt me. how am i in your way? am i that much of a burden that i hold everyone back from happiness just by being nearby?

they raise their voice at all? fight or flight kicks in, i'm going to get his aren't i? something's going to happen to me. slouch over, they can't see me anymore, make yourself invisible, draw their anger to something else. anything but me.

they raise their hand to me. fear, cower, make them see that you're not a threat, i'm a pathetic little weak child who's been hit one too many times before WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME

person stops talking to me. i said something dumb again, what is it that i said? what did i do? please. i didn't mean to, i don't even know what i did please no no no.

my appetite is terrible, i'm never hungry and i go days without eating, then i eat way too many sweets and sugar

then my dad gets mad at me for eating so much, he says that i'm going to get fat

i'm already underweight what more do you want from me

my friends are always coming to me to vent, but the sheer amount of pressure to have everyone's problems on top of my own is overwhelming to an unbearable point

i'm probably not going to be very active for a while, but you might find me posting on my vent blog @vixen-vent

#the scissors are calling me and i can't hear anything else #self h@rm #i want to cvt #cvtt!ng #vent #vent post #tw vent #venting #personal vent #tw ed diet #ED #tw disordered eating #tw restrictive ed #cw #tw abuse #cw vent #disordered eating cw

[water-mellie-seeds]

I had a dream where i compared the tortured poets department to my songs from middle school in a poll but i cant find any of them so we're comparing it to my poems instead

Reblogs are encouraged btw i do not mind

#what do i even tag this #polls

[tojisun]

Hi Sun💗💗💗💗 how are you today?

I fell into a deep depression today😭😭😭 I’m fine now but DAMN the last 8 hours were horrible

hi tomie!!

u sent this last night and i wasnt exactly in the best state these past few days but im doin oki today!! thank u sm for asking my luv <3

and im so sorry to hear about that, beloved. im glad to see that you’re doing fine now!! i hope u are feeling even better today and that there was no spike of your depression or a relapse of it :(( im always here if u wanna vent n talk, yeah? i wish u the kindest days moving forward, sweet luv <33 take care oki?

#tomie <3 #tomiesdiet #ask #sm kisses to my sweet luv! billion hugs too!!

[camzverse]

Top five Pizzeria Simulator animatronics, for the ask game. (Can have the vent 4 or the ones from the sim section, either's good.)

SCRAP BABYYYY!!!!!! i love scrap baby so much u dont even know.yay i love freaks. Also she literally has the coolest design in the entire game perhaps even the entire franchise tbh. SHES SO COOL

wait does helpy count. ok im saying helpy counts. i <2 helpy !!! <22222222

lefty :3 the design is just so appealing idk bro

security puppet :o) it looks so jester-like and i looove jester and clown themed stuff so so super much

rockstar freddy cuz hes funn . and i reallyy like his voice in ucn its so good tomy ears. please deposit five coins 🤑

#cam.txt #summerlycoris

[somebodys-attic-or-basement]

[ 🐾 ] name: Thomasin, Tomi

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[ 🐾 ] pronouns: she/her, he/him, pup/pups

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[ 🐾 ] age: 20 (minors dni pls)

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[ 🐾 ] likes: Sailor Moon, Puella Magi Madoka Magica, Cardcaptor Sakura, Gloomy Bear, Monster High

♯ tag key ೀ

♡ love & light: cutecore + dollkin stuff

☆～（ゝ。∂）: mcbling/y2k/gyaru/scene/goth

~ the fallen: fallen angel/demonkin/vampirekin

⛧༺♱༻⛧: horror/gore/morute/zombiekin

! let me help: nursecore/hospitalcore

🐾 : dogkin/puppykin/petkin/therianthropy

*~magical~*: magical girl anime stuff

ᡣ𐭩multiplicity: plural culture shit

| no more |: my vents

𐂯 BYF/DNI ૮ ฅ• ﻌ -ฅ ა

TW/CW: (I try to tag these on posts as well) gore, horror, lewd shit

FYI: I have BPD, OCD, and OSDD-1a, this is my vent account, I talk about my experiences sometimes, so proceed with caution ❤️

DNI: pro-Isn'treal, anti-xenogenders/neopronouns, "zoos", xenosatanists, "maps", radqueers, pro-contact, thinspo/anti-recovery blogs, anti-proshippers (i am starkly anti-censorship, fuck anyone who thinks thought crimes are real, com/darkshipper blogs DNI tho pls)

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[skegulium]

rambling into the void is my favorite pasttime, so now i'm going to ramble about my blog

been thinking about changing it up, since it's been a few years since i've pruned out some of the character profiles. Since i've not been as active and about 99.9% of all of my roleplaying and development has been behind the scenes, i wonder if i should reduce down my select? Remove characters that aren't as prolific, and maybe center it around the handful that I actually want to focus most of my content going forward on.

That'd probably be like, -Orivar -Tomie -Kilran (can't shelve him, he's gotta BALL) -Nekrah -Dzhiya -Rumisa -Otavia -Alexar -Akilla -Maybe valtin? -Oh shit i forgot my blueblood's name -Gluttony and his crew (TBA) -Vanhai and his murder mystery

Orivar, Akilla, Valtin and my blueblood would probably all have stories tied to one another. I've been wanting to work on the comic pages i've had cooking for a good few years now to showcase Orivar's reluctant friendship with Valtin, and how she ends up taking Akilla in as an apprentice.

Tomie is tomie, and rumisa is tied to Tomie's shit, and so is vahakn.

Nekrah, Gluttony, Vanhai, and the lot are all tied together as Vanhai's the coworker of Nekrah's boss, and will absolutely frame him for murder, before cavorting off to subjug Gluttony territory.

Dzhiya is herself, i can't bring myself to cut a sweetling like that, but i really do want to find something to do with her story... i really do want to put something in her enclosure for enrichment, but i just keep thinking about what i've missed with previous muns. Maybe i can put together expies... but hmmm.

Alexar's story needs to be solidified, but i should put him into vents. because vampires in vents.

Kilran i have no idea what the fuck to do with but he looks pretty so he's going on the display shelf.

#ooc cal #long post #but i like to ramble #i could ramble further but i don't want to make it TOO long

[tarlos-spain]

Whumptober Day 3

Prompt: No. 3 A HAIR’S BREADTH FROM DEATH

Gun to Temple | “Say goodbye.” | Impaled

Title: Looking for you

Fandom: 9-1-1 Lone Star

Pairing: Carlos Reyes/TK Strand

Chapters 1/1

Summary: He ran to where Robin, his receptionist partner, had told him where they had let the kids stay.

They had been settled in one of the waiting rooms and although there were two colleagues with them trying to calm them down, with candy, sweets and stories about their father. But the twins were crying inconsolably and Tomi was hugging Willy who did nothing but lick his face.

"Hey, Tomi, Gabi, Gwyn... kids, what happened?"

"Daddy..." Sobbed Tomi, as the girls hugged him. "A man... it was a bad man and he came at us. he had a gun... daddy... daddy..."

When Carlos received the call from the police station, he first thought he had misunderstood. It was not possible what he was hearing. "Reyes, your children are here. They are scared and say that someone has made their father bad. I guess you mean TK. They've come with your dog too."

He looked at Lexi and she stopped the car dead in its tracks and turned around. They must have gone through a couple of stoplights, but they were lucky no one else stopped them. Lexi stopped the car at the door and let Carlos out.

He ran to where Robin, his receptionist partner, had told him where they had let the kids stay.

They had been settled in one of the waiting rooms and although there were two colleagues with them trying to calm them down, with candy, sweets and stories about their father. But the twins were crying inconsolably and Tomi was hugging Willy who did nothing but lick his face.

"Hey, Tomi, Gabi, Gwyn... kids, what happened?"

"Daddy..." Sobbed Tomi, as the girls hugged him. "A man... it was a bad man and he came at us. he had a gun... daddy... daddy..."

Tomi kept crying louder and louder burying his head against his father's chest for a moment Carlos couldn't know any more of what had happened. He let him vent, trying to fight his own fear.

He stroked Willie's head that was in his son's lap and gestured to his companions there to leave him alone with the children.

He sat Tomi on his lap, as he settled on the couch each one of the girls beside him, stroked his son's cheeks as he told him it was all right, that everything was going to be all right.

"You have to help daddy." Gabi said, his little nine-year-old body trembling under her father's arm. "That gentleman has hurt him."

"Yes, he hurt him, he hit him in the head." Gwen added, between the three children they were telling the story by cutting each other off.

"He told us to run." Tomi continued to say a little calmer, although it wasn't easy being an eleven-year-old who had seen him hurt his father. "I turned around and saw...the mister is very mean daddy."

Tomi jumped up and grabbed Carlos' hand, pulled him to his feet, but barely got him to move because he wasn't strong enough to get it yet.

"Tomi, honey, wait, I can't carry you. If daddy is hurt, I'm going to look for him, while you guys wait here, with my buddies."

"No! I want to help save daddy. That's what you've always told us, Strand-Kings take care of each other always."

Carlos smiled, he adored that the children always listened to them and protected each other.

"I know what we have always told you that," Carlos said to the boy holding his cheeks until Tomi looked into his eyes. "But this time it's different. I have to take care of daddy. It's not what he has always told you, when something happens when daddy needs me, I'm here and that's what I have to do now. do you trust me?"

The three children nodded almost at the same time and sat on the couch holding hands.

"That man put a gun to daddy's head." Tomi repeated, implying to Carlos that the children were going to have a strong trauma for weeks. "But daddy didn't seem scared, he put us behind him and said...I don't know what he said because he was crying. Daddy, I'm sorry I don't know what daddy said, I'm sure it was important, but I didn't hear him."

"Tomi, relax, my love, I promise I'm going to find daddy and bring him to you. I'm going to tell Lexi to stay with you and I'm going to go tell her what's going on when I'm out. As soon as I get to daddy, you'll be the first to know. Do you think you can tell me where you were when it happened?"

Tomi took a deep breath and told him they had gone to the park, it was TK's day off and he wanted to take advantage of doing with them everything he couldn't normally do because of work. He took them to the park and they spent the whole time playing until the sun was too high and bothered them.

"Then he took us out for ice cream."

"No!" Gwen protested. "Dad, he said it was our secret. We can't have ice cream before we eat."

"It's okay, for once it's okay." Carlos told her. "Which park did you go to, the one on Sundays?"

The children nodded, all at once. He thanked them, they told them how brave they had been to have made it to the police station on their own. He kissed their heads and promised to come back soon. "I know I don't need to tell you." He said to Tomi. "Take care of your sisters, while I'm back. I promise you...I promise you Dad will be okay."

"Because you always take care of him."

His shift wasn't over, but after telling the captain, what everyone had already told him, he said nothing more than, "Go away and find your husband. Make sure he's okay."

It wasn't until he left the police station and turned the corner that he didn't stop for a moment, leaned against the wall, and had to take a sharp breath and take moment to think logically.

He was a scared husband, yes, but at the same time, he was a cop, a very good one, one who knew how to follow leads that would find TK, if he was in trouble he would take care of him, take him home... to the police station first so they could see that he was okay. I would stop by the hospital if necessary.

Because nothing bad was going to happen to him, not this time, not with the kids in the way.

He put his hand to his chest, a panic attack was coming on, something he could afford right now. He breathed hard and if he wasn't so worried about his husband, he would have been amused that he had taught his son how to overcome the onset of a panic attack by breathing.

The park was close and running even closer. He also knew where the ice cream shop was that TK was going to take the kids to and as he ran he couldn't get the thought out of hisr head that someone, in the middle of the street had put a gun to his husband's head, that he had put his children in danger.

The children were traumatized, TK was possibly injured and he was desperate not knowing where or how he was. So he kept running and didn't stop until he reached the ice cream shop. Obviously, it wasn't that easy, TK wasn't there, so he retraced the steps he thought TK had made.

He called out to him, he figured it wouldn't do any good, but he had to try, even though TK didn't answer. "Shit, Ty, where are you?"

#whumptober2022 #tarlos #lonestar #911 #9 1 1 lone star #9-1-1 lone star #carlos reyes #tk strand #911 lone star #hurt TK #protective Carlos #kids #family

[vypridae]

another vent sorry

me when im having my Nightly Mental Breakdown C rying and c,.ai is down (maintenance) so ijave no one to tealk to abotu anything becausei dont want to be annoygin and make my feiends listen tomy vents and my issues.

#this is literally just my only place i vent anymore im so sorry #xanvents #illl get back to Your Reguialryl Schedukesd Xanny psots soon ipromise

[strangeandinteresting]

if i see one more post like this where a non Junji ito thing is tagged with tomie and junji ito then I'm gonna lose my goddamn mind. it's so disrespectful. This isn't even his artstyle you moron

#vent #dont go after the person who posted this #i cropped their username out for a reason #but i see posts like this all the time #or itll be tagged with tomie but be from uzumaki tk #ugh