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greatpistachiopie · 1 year
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she's sneaky. she's spicy. she's karna solara 🌶
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halfway-happyyy · 2 years
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cool my desire (rooster bradshaw)
AN: hi friends! i got sent this message a couple days ago and have been obsessing about it ever since. 18+ only! this piece is under a cut for obvious (sexual) reasons. warnings include: public oral sex (f receiving) masturbation (f&m), dirty talk, swearing, etc. hope you enjoy 💕
Pairing: rooster bradshaw x female reader (she/her pronouns)
song inspo: i'm on fire - bruce springsteen
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Of two things Rooster Bradshaw is absolutely certain: the first one is that he is helplessly in love with the woman sitting directly opposite him. The second one is that she’s just announced that she’s never had an orgasm. He thinks he misheard her the first time around, so he strains above the rock music blaring from the bar's jukebox and asks her to repeat herself.
“I've never had an orgasm.”
It exits her mouth in the kind of nonchalant way in which one might announce that it's raining outside, or that they're hungry.
Rooster glances at Hangman who wears the same confused expression, and suddenly she laughs, and Rooster reckons it’s a sound he'd be happy to listen to until his dying day.
“Gosh, if I got compensated for every time I got the same reaction I could retire and live happily on a private island somewhere. For some reason it’s a concept most people have a hard time coming to terms with.”
Bob is just as floored as the rest of the gang. He pushes his wire-frame glasses farther up the bridge of his nose and asks, “When you say never?”
Rooster watches her shrug.
“It’s been my experience that in the heat of the moment, most people just don’t care.”
And Rooster suddenly thinks- I care.
Coyote tips back the rest of his beer, setting the bottle on the wooden tabletop with a resounding clank. “I’d accept this challenge any day, and all I would need is ten minutes to do it.” He tosses her a wink and Rooster’s cheeks flame from equal parts envy and second-hand embarrassment.
“Wow, Coyote. Ten minutes only? Not exactly selling the experience here, are you?” Her teasing tone and wry smile causes the rest of the group to dissolve into fits of low whistles and peeling laughter.
“Wait- so you mean to tell all of us that you fly combat planes for the United States Navy for a living and you’ve never experienced an orgasm?” Hangman’s Texan drawl is incredulous.
She nods her head, her dazzling gaze narrowed. “I can’t imagine how the two are related, but yes Jake, that is what I’m saying.”
“I think it’s sad.” Bob murmurs lowly and Rooster can't help agreeing with him. “More people could benefit from taking the time to consider their partner’s pleasure.”
Hangman snorts. “Sex is sex, Bob. Remind me again which fairy tale you’ll be reading before bed tonight?”
“Yikes Jake. I pity anyone who has the misfortune of sharing a bed with you.” She turns to Bob and offers the unassuming pilot a reassuring smile. “Thanks Bob.”
Rooster clears his throat, suddenly self-conscious of the fact he chose not to partake in the festivities this evening. “For what it’s worth, I think Bob’s right. Making sure your partner gets there is most of the pleasure already. At least for me, anyway.”
Hangman slaps his hand on the table twice, his expression triumphant. “Well, there you have it, kid. If you ever get desperate for a lesson, I’m sure any one of us would be happy to offer our enthusiastic assistance.”
She laughs again, and this time it causes goosebumps to bloom on Rooster’s arms. “How generous of you, Jake. Guess I’d have to be pretty damn desperate though, huh?”
Despite every effort, Rooster doesn’t get much sleep that night. Instead, he spends most of his waking moments trying not to think about how she would look spread out before him, ready and waiting and so willing to do anything he tells her. His cock swells at the mere thought of it all, and he knows the only way rest will come for him is if he carves himself out a shred of release. It won't be enough, but it'll be something. Snaking his hand down the front of his body, he palms the erection straining the crotch of his briefs.
“Fuck,” He breathes out and dips a hand beneath the elastic waistband to pump slowly along the length of his thick shaft.
His eyes fall shut as he pictures her before him; can practically see her arousal drip from her as she touches herself the way he wants her to- the way he knows will have her coming undone for him. Spitting into the palm of his hand, he continues working steadily along his cock. He swipes the rough pad of his thumb over his sensitive slit, swirling the pre-come around it and reveling in the feeling of it as it drips down the underside of his shaft. “Oh god,” He whines out into the still air before him while he shamelessly fucks his fist. He imagines her fucking herself on her fingers; imagines the filthy noises that fall from her lips the closer she gets to her rapture; imagines that he is the sole orchestrator of her pleasure and all of it is enough to get him there. His hips rut desperately into his tight fist, his head falls back against the pillow in unbridled ecstasy, and he comes hard all over himself, his lower abdomen painted with his hot, sticky seed.
Sleep descends on him heavily after that.
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“Would you like to go for a drive with me?” It’s been over a week since he’d first thought of her, and he asks her on a whim because he knows if he doesn’t do it soon, he’ll regret it for a lifetime.
She looks hesitant; doesn’t know which angle he’s playing at which is fair, because he’s not entirely sure either. “A drive?” She asks, her head cocked to the side.
Rooster nods. “A drive. We can get drinks or food, whichever you prefer.”
So, she agrees. They drive to a local pizza joint, pick up a large ham and pineapple pie (though Rooster detests the ungodly yellow fruit) and park on a deserted end of beach, their legs hanging off the back end of Rooster’s 1975 Ford Bronco.
“I’m fairly certain I can do it.” He squints out at the setting orange sun as it sinks low over the Pacific Ocean before them.
She washes down the last bite of her pizza with a swig of beer from their shared bottle, her eyebrow quirked high in amusement. “Do what?” She asks, but the glint in her eyes tells him she knows exactly what he’s referring to.
Rooster turns to her, his jaw set. “Give you an orgasm.”
She shakes her head, folds her arms across her chest in defiance. “Believe me, Rooster. Many a brave soul have tried and failed before you. I reckon I may just be broken.”
He gives his head a half-shake. “You’re not broken.”
It’s certainly not your fault no one’s ever taken the time to learn your body.
“Can I tell you something?” She asks, her voice quiet.
Rooster nods.
“That night at the bar last week, when I so readily shared with everyone that I had never had one?”
Rooster nods again, encouragingly.
“I went home and I touched myself.” Her admission is so quiet, Rooster almost misses it.
He swallows hard- tries in vain to keep his voice level, even. “You touched yourself?”
She sucks her bottom lip between her teeth and nods her head. “I was thinking of you.”
It’s Rooster’s turn to bite his lip to keep from groaning out into the humid air before him, and his cock stirs in the crotch of his jeans. “What were you thinking about?”
Her cheeks redden in embarrassment and God, Rooster doesn’t know what to do with himself. “I was thinking about your fingers, your mouth, your cock. I was thinking about how good it would feel to finally be able to come for you.”
“Jesus,” Rooster breathes out. “Did you finish, sweetheart?”
“No.” She murmurs, her tone thick with disappointment.
He gives his head a half-shake, his hazel gaze sharp. “That just won’t do, will it?” Slipping off the edge of the truck, he turns to her, and the urge to reach out and touch her is almost too much to bear. “I want you to show me.”
Her eyes widen in surprise. “Excuse me?”
“I want you to show me the way you touched yourself.”
She glances around at the barren beach, silently weighing the pros and cons of his demand. “Right here?”
“Right here.” Rooster affirms.
Leaning back, she hikes the sundress she’s worn over the tops of her thighs and Rooster’s throat dries like sandpaper when he notices she’s forgone underwear for the evening. He watches with half-lidded eyes as she sucks two fingers into her mouth- gets them nice and slick with her spit, and then dances them slowly down the front of her body to her clit. Rooster braces his arms on either side of her legs and watches her work her magic. She starts off slow, by pressing firm, steady circles into her swollen bundle of nerves. Just as he had predicted over a week ago, her arousal nearly drips from her slit and he has to take a deep breath to center himself to keep from swiping a fingertip down the length of it. He just knows it tastes heavenly. His cock jumps at the mere thought of tasting her- and he doubts he’ll be able to put off touching himself for much longer.
“How does that feel, sweetheart?”
Her eyes flutter closed and all she can manage is a low, desperate mewl.
“You want more?” Rooster asks and all she can do is nod her head. “Give yourself more, then.”
She does as she’s told and inserts a finger into her hot, wet core, and it’s all Rooster can do to keep from groaning out, loudly. “Like this?” She gasps, and he nods above her in approval.
“Exactly like that, sweetheart. Keep going.”
“Wish it was your cock,” She whimpers, and Rooster swears to God, this is the sexiest thing he’s ever been privy to. Her words send what feels like every ounce of blood in his body to his dick, and he palms the front of his crotch, needily.
“It will be soon, baby. Just need to be patient. Need you to be a good girl and come for me.”
She inserts a second finger into herself and cries out at the full sensation, her other finger still pressing roving circles into her clit. Rooster peppers kisses over her the expanse of her exposed collarbone, encouraging her through it all. “That’s it, sweetheart. You’re doing so good. You keep going like this, and you and I’ll both be coming apart in no time.” It’s quiet while he studies her; the only audible noise between them are the obscene sounds her fingers make as she fucks herself with them, and the sweet moans that rip from her throat every couple of seconds. Rooster can feel her start to tremble beneath him; he watches her eyes widen as the realization becomes apparent to her. “That’s right, sweetheart. You’re so close,” Nodding in encouragement, he watches a thin sheen of perspiration bloom over her chest and neck, her lips part and her head drops back, and he doubts she’s ever looked more breathtaking. “Don’t stop now, you’re so close…” He whispers in earnest. “I’ll get you there, I promise.”
Her hands are all but frenzied movement now as she’s trembles violently beneath him and he presses his lips to her temple to keep her grounded to him. “Rooster,” She gasps. And he nods against her.
“If its time, let go. I’m right here, sweetheart.”
Her fingertips grasp at the impossibly hard, warm skin of his shoulder blades. She clasps on to him for dear life as pleasure blooms inside of her like fireworks on a warm July evening, and Rooster’s doesn’t know how much longer he’ll last like this. “Fuck, I’m going to come, Rooster.” She throws her head back and finishes hard around her fingers, her entire body quaking from the effort that took. Rooster holds her to him while she comes down from her high, her body entirely alive and electric with sheer energy.
“God, you did so good just now.” Rooster’s voice is hoarse and wrecked and thick with lust. “Look at you,” He whispers and presses a kiss to her flushed cheek. “How did that feel?”
She swallows hard, still in a bliss-induced trance. “I can’t believe it…”
Rooster chuckles against her. “You ready for one more?”
Before she can answer, he pulls her to the edge of the truck, dropping to his knees in the warm sand. His cock throbs uncomfortably and he brushes a rough palm over it to glean some form of friction. He hovers above her soaked entrance; the sheer, heady scent of her is nearly enough to have him coming in his jeans. He rubs the warm palms of his hands up and down the outside of her soft thighs and glances up at her. “May I show you another way?”
She nods wordlessly, with eyes half-lidded and blown over by hunger for him.
Rooster wants to take his time- wants to savour every single second of this in case it never happens again, but the urge to taste her is entirely overwhelming. He presses hot, open-mouthed kisses to the velvet soft skin of her inner thighs and works his way up, the all-encompassing heat from her leaves him dizzy and breathless with want. He palms his erection, stroking it fervently through the fabric of his jeans and moans against her at the rough sensation of the denim on his sensitive skin.
“Are you touching yourself?” She asks, breathlessly.
Rooster swears to God, he feels her get a little more wet as he nods against her.
He licks a long, wet stripe up the length of her soaked slit with the flat of his tongue and nearly groans out at the taste of her. It’s an unendingly perfect combination of slightly salty and sweet, and he reckons he could get drunk off it if he had enough.
“Holy shit, Rooster.” She whimpers, and her fingers find purchase in his auburn hair.
He nods against her, and grazes his teeth over her swollen clit, earning him another obscenely sexy moan. “God, you taste good sweetheart.” He pulls away from her heat to tell her that, and his breath as it fans out over her warm wetness causes her to quake violently beneath him. He doesn’t allow her a moment of respite before he’s back at it, lapping at her folds like a she’s the most delicious treat on the planet. And to him, she is. His skilled fingertips dance along the length of her thighs, her hips, her ass. He wants to memorize every inch of her body that he can, lest he’s not lucky enough to experience her again.
“God damn it, you’re good at this Rooster.” She swears, and her thighs tighten involuntarily around his head. He grins against her, wickedly. Without warning, he inserts three thick fingers inside of her and the wonderfully full feeling they bring her causes her to cry out into the warm evening air before them. Rooster doesn’t give a flying fuck if anyone hears them at this point; they are exactly where they’re supposed to be. He could die doing this, and he would die a happy man. He fucks his fingers into her with reckless abandon; the first sign of her looming release is in the feeling of her clit against his tongue; how it swells and throbs the longer he sucks at it. “Oh, Rooster…” She keens, desperately. Her fingers tug at his hair, and the sharp burst of pain it brings him causes him to moan against her and the vibrations from that alone are all it takes before she’s falling off the precipice and into his willing arms. Rooster presses a free hand to her lower tummy as she spasms around the fingers still buried to the hilt inside of her and a flood of wetness bursts from her, soaking him and everything around them within a certain radius. Rooster's fingers fall from her, and she whimpers at the sudden loss of fullness. He rests his head in her lap, closing his eyes and trying to focus on regulating his breathing. He’s still so fucking hard right now, it’s a wonder he’s even upright at all.
“Jesus, Rooster, that was something else.” Her voice is raspy and shot from their recent activities and Rooster smiles softly as he listens to the fervent hammering of her heartbeat against the top of his head.
“Told you I could do it,” He laughs, breathlessly.
She giggles against him and his heart soars. “What about you, though?” She cards a hand through his damp hair.
“I’ll be alright.”
She shakes her head, her gaze knowing. “I want you, Rooster. And I’m going to have you.”
Of two things Rooster Bradshaw is absolutely certain: the first one is that he is helplessly in love with the woman beneath him. The second is that he doesn’t know when- and he doesn’t know how, but he is going to spend the rest of his life having her come apart for him like that.
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stalkedbytrains · 2 months
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Stone Face Sorrow
The mourners were all there, in their elaborately carved masks. Each carved face covering was unique to the person, to the family, to the emotion the wood conveyed for flesh. All of them showed sadness or regret or, in a few cases, sorrow.
All of them were draped head to toe in black, not a piece of skin showing, only masks, frozen in a single emotion. The procession started, passed the freshly dug grace, passed the coffin, passed the crying masks of a tall figure, passed the three smaller sad masked figures, the husband and the children of the deceased.
A processional of carved mourning faces moved passed the grieving family, offering flowers on the grave and hushed, muffled words of condolences. The masked family nodded their acceptance of the comforts but didn’t say anything, the masks conveying their emotions for them.
With the processional was almost done, only one person was left. There was no billow of breath rising from beneath the elegantly carved sorrow mask. Not a single indication that it breathed, or if it did, the breath was warm.
Empty, sad eyes of the mask looked over the small remains of the family and placed a small statuette on the coffin, before turning to leave. The footprints left behind in the semi-frozen mud were much deeper than the others of the processional.
The tall remaining figure, the husband of the deceased woman, looked at the statuette only to see the small representation of the Wailing Father.
That would mean…
The man quickly turned to see where the last person went, the one with the heavy Sorrow mask, but they were gone, off into the late evening mist that was rolling off the mountains.
He was nervous now, was it possibly they were just visited by The Sorrow?
He didn’t know, didn’t want to know.
With the processional, and the funeral over, the husband took his children out of the cemetery and back to the house.
Once inside, in private, the family could remove their masks and cloaks. They sat together in silence. The twins hugged the little one, a girl no older than four.
The father was just about to rise from his seat to fetch something. He was dimly aware that the girls needed to eat, but he wasn’t hungry. That was when they heard the loud footsteps on the front porch. Slow, heavy footsteps.
Then the door burst open revealing in the Sorrow masked figure, dressed all in black, with a cold, late winder wind blowing in behind it.
The figure stepped in, crossing the threshold with heavy, steady steps. Then with a black clad hand, reached back and closed the wooden door behind it before standing in silence.
In the absolute silence that radiated from the being’s presence the family could hear a quiet, raspy, labored breathing despite seeing no breath coming from it earlier.
The father moved, stood in front of his daughters and yelled, “We don’t want you here! We didn’t pray to the Wailing Father! Leave us in peace! Please!”
But the hollow eyes of the Sorrow weren’t directed at the father, or at the older girls, the twins with the dark hair, past them to the smallest girl, the four year old with the shock of bright blonde hair. The instant girl felt the attention on her she ran away from her father and sisters and into the back bedroom.
“Just leave us alone! We thank the Wailing Father for sending you in our hour of despair but we don’t need your services, please. My wife… my wife is dead. There’s nothing to be done. She drowned,” the father choked out.
Suddenly the younger girl was back, this time she was holding up a much too large mask of dark wood, painted red, with an angry snarl carved into it.
With the wooden barrier between herself and the masked Sorrow, she spoke up, “Will you find out who killed mommy?”
Sorrow descended, resting on knees that were hidden the large dark robe. With a voice like air escaping from a long sealed tomb it answered, “Yes.”
“Good,” the girl said. “I’m mad at them. Mommy was supposed to come home. We was gonna read the end of the Princesses story together. But now she can’t.”
Sorrow’s empty eyes stared back at Anger held up by the four year old. For a long moment there was silence.
The Sorrow stood up and exited the house with a slow but determined gait.
The next night was just as cold and windy as the night of the funeral, but today had a sleety, half frozen rain to add to it.
The tavern’s fireplaces were all roaring and the food was hot. All of the patrons were dressed in their warmest, their masks were often the woolen or knitted variety, politely hiding half their faces while leaving their mouths exposed as to better talk and drink.
Through his informal, dull, half-faded mask that showed off his cheeks and mouth and chin, the bartender surveyed the bar.
All of the masked faces turned when someone burst through the door. All of the people that were usually here were here, and everyone else was in the safety and warmth of their own houses. It was either an out-of-towner or bad news.
The new arrival threw off their clock, soaked with freezing rain and before the tavern stood a tall, red cheeked, auburn hair elf with pointed ears, high cheekbones, bright eyes and no mask.
After shaking out some of the water from their curly and graying hair, the elf took a seat at the bar.
“What do you want here bareface?’ the bartender asked unkindly.
They always started with the maskless insults before they moved into the racism.
But the elf was tired and having none of it. They reached into their pocket and produced a hand sized piece of metal. The second they slapped it on the table it glowed, white, and brilliant and outshone everything else in the tavern. After a second the light faded and the metal returned to being just a highly polished metal star.
The bartender’s attitude changed. “What can I offer you Lady Investigator?”
“Whiskey,” they said. “You may refer to me as Investigator Stalking Heron.”
“Start with what?” he asked nervously, adjusting his mask to sit correctly over his face.
“I heard Sorrow is in town. Has anyone in town died recently? Or anyone seen the Sorrow faced being?” they asked loudly.
Once again the silence filled the room like smoke, choking out the sound.
“I’ll take that oppressive silence as a yes. Any one seen The Sorrow? Anyone pray to the Wailing Father?” Heron asked.
They were only greeted with more silence.
“Do you want me to break out my mask? I’ll get it and conduct this investigation all proper like if that’s what you all want,” they threatened.
When the elf was met with only silence, the mysterious Investigator started to reach for their coat when the man slumped on the bar next to them drunkenly raised his head.
“It was me! My wife died three days ago. Drowned in that damn lake out back. My littlest prayed to the Wailing Father himself and he sent The Sorrow down on our heads. Maybe we’ll find out if a godsend can fight a lake.”
Heron sighed heavily. “I’m sorry,” they said with genuine sadness. “But if Sorrow is here, then I hate to tell you that your wife was murdered.”
The drunk and bereaved man broke out into a fresh round of sobs.
"I’m going to need a room somewhere,” Investigator Heron said. “I’ve got to solve a murder quickly before you’re burying someone else.”
“If they killed my wife,” the drunk shouted. “They’ll be lucky if there’s anything left to bury!”
“Alright Elijah, I know you’re grieving, but it’s time you went home,” the bartender told him.
The drunk was already asleep.
“Silah is dead, someone prays to your damn elven demon god, Sorrow is here, and now a barefaced elven Investigator here. How can it get any worse?” the bartender muttered as he looked at the passed out man on his bar.
“The barefaced elf is Inspector Heron,” they said with a menacing finger pointed at the bartender. “And as if your ignorance couldn’t show any further, the Wailing Father is one of the very few gods that exist in all six major pantheons. Now, if you’re done choking everyone with your extreme aura of stupidity. I need to get to the bottom of this, get to the murderer before Sorrow does. If I do, there’s a chance that Sorrow will back off. They usually stand down when the murderer is brought to justice. Otherwise it’s just a death sentence. And it’s only a matter of time.”
At that moment, outside the bar, the figure in the Sorrow mask stood silent into the rain, empty mask eyes fixed on the bank of the slowly defrosting lake.
It stood there for some time, just looking without eyes or perhaps waiting.
Elijah stumbled out of the bar, with the help of one of his neighbors. The light spilled out of the open doorway for just a moment, illuminating the Sorrow, but in the next moment it was gone.
The two men walked through the slush and frozen rain towards Elijah’s house, masks keeping out the worst of the rain.
Neither of them noticed the Sorrow outside the house down the small lane from the both of them. If Sorrow had eyes to read it held the posture of something reading the name sign posting on the outside of the house.
But the men were too drunk and too eager to be out of the weather to notice the dark figure lurking.
Back in the bar, Investigator Heron started questioning patrons. They held the shining star in their hand at all times, metal gently pricking into their hands, as they passed from patron to patron. The human’s masks and half masks made it difficult to tell if someone was lying to them, but that’s why they had the star.
Every time someone lied to them the star started to glow. It made it easier for them. Even though Heron was a master liar at one point in their life, mask or no mask. But it still didn’t change the fact that they were no investigator, not really. So they held on to the star all the tighter.
They discovered that the deceased Silah was in the bar the night she died. Her husband was at home with the children. Silah and some of the other wives met once a month in the tavern for some time away from their usual duties. The last one to see Silah alive was the barkeep since she stayed till the tavern closed. The innkeeper was rapidly moving up the list of Heron’s suspects. He was right behind the husband, because it was always the husband.
Heron moved to put on their own mask, the terrifying bird shaped mask all investigators wore, their head a bit too small for it, even with their hair. The long beak and dark wood made it the long and thin elf look even more avian.
They’d barely got it on when someone burst into the tavern looking terrifying.
“Sorrow! It’s here!” the frightened young man yelled. “It’s in the cemetery!”
Heron swore, not bothering to take off their mask, and ran out into the driving rains, barely taking time to put on their clock as they ran.
If Sorrow was in the cemetery, then there was a chance. A slim chance, that maybe Sorrow would be occupied with the body of Silah. Hopefully they’d get there before Sorrow left.
They spoke a quick word that rolled off their tongue and a bright little marsh light appeared before them, lighting their way through the darkness.
Sorrow was in the cemetery, seemingly looking at headstones. Black shrouded fingers traced lettering on gravestones. The figure stood for several moments surrounded by the dead, a bit of it was touching their gravestones as if absorbing their lives through the tiny little epitaphs that sum up entire existences in as few words as possible.
By the time the marsh light got to the cemetery, Sorrow was already gone.
Heron swore, their tongue flying other lilting syllables in elvish, cursing everything, mostly themselves.
There was a statue of the Wailing Father in the cemetery, for the dead center. A grief stricken father kneeling over all the graves in the cemetery. Permanent, unending anguish over his finely sculpted face.
“You’ve already figured it out haven’t you?” Heron asked the statue, dropping the mask in the mud. “I’m not even half the investigator you were. Not even close. I don’t even know if I should go after the bartender or the husband.” They sank to their knees, falling into the freezing mud. “I know I’ve said it before, but I’d give anything to trade places with you. You should be the investigator everyone knows and fears. I should be the one that’s… that’s… Why? You were always the good one, the better one. I was the fuck up. I never wanted your job, your name, but you’re gone. And I’m trying, I’m trying so hard to be a better person, to be you, but I’m not. I’m just still me, and I’m awful at it. Just… just come home? Please? I can’t do this without you.”
The elf with the assumed name Heron knelt in the half melted snow and mud and midnight night rain before the Wailing Father. They knew it was too late. Sorrow had their target and was probably on its way. And they didn’t even know where to begin.
The rain blurred away the tears as soon as they fell, but it didn’t wash away the cries of anguish and failure.
Heron was alone, cold, tired, and failing more than they succeeded. All of that barefaced, raw emotion was coming out as they mirrored the emotions set in stone before her.
The weather did not care. If the Wailing Father cared, he didn’t show it.
“We’re closed!” the tavern keep called as he heard the door open and shut behind heavy footsteps.
He turned around to repeat the phrase, but instead found himself face-to-face with a pale weeping mask of sadness and stone.
“Fuck!” he cried and fell backwards.
“Murderer,” whispered the voice from behind the mask like a stale breeze being let out of a cave.
“I did nothing!” he yelled as he reached beneath his bar for the short sword hidden there.
He held up the sword between himself and Sorrow. The being did not move, save for the masked face that followed him as he slipped out from behind the bar.
“I did nothing! Ya hear!” he yelled again.
Sorrow took a single step towards the tavern keeper but he slashed out with steel.
That rebounded. Bounced off whatever passed for flesh beneath the black shroud.
“Cursed, demon elven gods! I didn’t kill her!” he cried once more before attacking.
But the blows bounced off once again. This time Sorrow reached out and grabbed the blade in one hand and ripped it from the half masked man.
The man yelped as the other hand rose and knocked off his mask revealing all of the barkeep’s worn, terrified, scratched face. He had several scratches by his eyes, which were concealed by the mask he wore.
The touch of the frozen hand of Sorrow caused him to leap out of the way and over to the fire. Her grabbed the hot iron poker from the dying embers and brandished it like a sword.
Still Sorrow advanced slowly.
The tavern keeper lashed out with the glowing poker. It connected with Sorrow causing a dull thud.
Nothing seemed to even affect it till the hot poker caught the robes on fire, then it only warranted a brief look down.
Sorrow took another step forward. It continued advancing, unceasing.
Until the tavern keeper struck with the heavy iron rod, right in the mask of Sorrow.
Two blows in quick succession and Sorrow stopped moving. The stone mask cracked. Heavy cracks like scars spread across the mask.
The tavern keeper laughed and smashed the iron into the mask once more, deepening the cracks and wounds.
A dark, thick red substance started to pour from the mask and a sound like rocks groaning before being split under pressure escaped Sorrow.
Another attack came from the over confident tavern owner. He tried to strike the figure with the bleeding stone mask, but Sorrow’s hand intercepted his own.
The hand was heavy and strong and it squeezed and the small bones in the attacker’s hands snapped loudly.
Sorrow took the weapon from the man and threw it into the bar, shattering liquor bottles and catching it on fire.
“Oh shit,” he swore.
The blood was pouring out of the cracks in the mask. Sorrow reached up and removed the wounded mask, dropping it heavily on the ground, then removed the burning, smoldering clothing.
Before the tavern keeper stood an ethereal beauty.
An elf, naked, pale skin looking exactly like porcelain stone. But the stonework was so perfect, so smooth, it looked like flesh transmuted or, perhaps, silk made stone.
Slowly, with all the ease of chiseling stone, Sorrow’s face turned from one of neutral interest to one of abject rage.
The figure raised its hands and advanced upon the innkeeper.
Sorrow didn’t stop until the murderer’s face matched the Sorrowful expression on the mask it wore.
A little while later Sorrow knocked once on the door of the residence that once belonged to Silah.
The father was passed out in his bed. The twins were up in a moment, the little one rising a little slower.
Sorrow entered the cabin, shrouded in black with the sad, broken expression on the mask it wore.
“It is done,” wheezed the voice behind the mask.
It held out a hand towards the youngest girl.
She nodded solemnly and turned back into the bedroom.
A moment later the girl returned and placed a well worn, much loved stuffed bear into Sorrow’s waiting hand.
“Thank you,” the girl said. “Take care of him. His name is Bubbles and he needs lots of hugs.”
Sorrow’s hand disappeared with the bear back inside the robes, then it turned and left without another word.
Once outside Sorrow’s mask turned towards the smoldering tavern fire. Heron was watching, forlorn and sad. Another missed opportunity.
Sorrow stood in the dark, watching the light for some time until the rain had stopped.
Then, as dawn was breaking, moved on.
In a little network of roads beneath a great tree, in a small area that formed a little cave Sorrow built itself a little fire, hung up the cloak and mask beside it.
It sat down, orange flames dancing across the pale porcelain skin that was gently reflecting it back. Then, very carefully, like it was reaching for a holy object, Sorrow grabbed the stuffed bear. In the dim firelight Sorrow examined the bear, almost as if it was trying to remember the object’s significance.
After several seconds the stone lips parted and Sorrow said in a rough, cracked voice becoming a being of stone, “You need lots of hugs.”
Then gently embraced the bear like Sorrow was once a small child with an animal.
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stalkedbyplanes · 3 months
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Stone Face Sorrow
The mourners were all there, in their elaborately carved masks. Each carved face covering was unique to the person, to the family, to the emotion the wood conveyed for flesh. All of them showed sadness or regret or, in a few cases, sorrow.
All of them were draped head to toe in black, not a piece of skin showing, only masks, frozen in a single emotion. The procession started, passed the freshly dug grace, passed the coffin, passed the crying masks of a tall figure, passed the three smaller sad masked figures, the husband and the children of the deceased.
A processional of carved mourning faces moved passed the grieving family, offering flowers on the grave and hushed, muffled words of condolences. The masked family nodded their acceptance of the comforts but didn’t say anything, the masks conveying their emotions for them.
With the processional was almost done, only one person was left. There was no billow of breath rising from beneath the elegantly carved sorrow mask. Not a single indication that it breathed, or if it did, the breath was warm.
Empty, sad eyes of the mask looked over the small remains of the family and placed a small statuette on the coffin, before turning to leave. The footprints left behind in the semi-frozen mud were much deeper than the others of the processional.
The tall remaining figure, the husband of the deceased woman, looked at the statuette only to see the small representation of the Wailing Father.
That would mean…
The man quickly turned to see where the last person went, the one with the heavy Sorrow mask, but they were gone, off into the late evening mist that was rolling off the mountains.
He was nervous now, was it possibly they were just visited by The Sorrow?
He didn’t know, didn’t want to know.
With the processional, and the funeral over, the husband took his children out of the cemetery and back to the house.
Once inside, in private, the family could remove their masks and cloaks. They sat together in silence. The twins hugged the little one, a girl no older than four.
The father was just about to rise from his seat to fetch something. He was dimly aware that the girls needed to eat, but he wasn’t hungry. That was when they heard the loud footsteps on the front porch. Slow, heavy footsteps.
Then the door burst open revealing in the Sorrow masked figure, dressed all in black, with a cold, late winder wind blowing in behind it.
The figure stepped in, crossing the threshold with heavy, steady steps. Then with a black clad hand, reached back and closed the wooden door behind it before standing in silence.
In the absolute silence that radiated from the being’s presence the family could hear a quiet, raspy, labored breathing despite seeing no breath coming from it earlier.
The father moved, stood in front of his daughters and yelled, “We don’t want you here! We didn’t pray to the Wailing Father! Leave us in peace! Please!”
But the hollow eyes of the Sorrow weren’t directed at the father, or at the older girls, the twins with the dark hair, past them to the smallest girl, the four year old with the shock of bright blonde hair. The instant girl felt the attention on her she ran away from her father and sisters and into the back bedroom.
“Just leave us alone! We thank the Wailing Father for sending you in our hour of despair but we don’t need your services, please. My wife… my wife is dead. There’s nothing to be done. She drowned,” the father choked out.
Suddenly the younger girl was back, this time she was holding up a much too large mask of dark wood, painted red, with an angry snarl carved into it.
With the wooden barrier between herself and the masked Sorrow, she spoke up, “Will you find out who killed mommy?”
Sorrow descended, resting on knees that were hidden the large dark robe. With a voice like air escaping from a long sealed tomb it answered, “Yes.”
“Good,” the girl said. “I’m mad at them. Mommy was supposed to come home. We was gonna read the end of the Princesses story together. But now she can’t.”
Sorrow’s empty eyes stared back at Anger held up by the four year old. For a long moment there was silence.
The Sorrow stood up and exited the house with a slow but determined gait.
The next night was just as cold and windy as the night of the funeral, but today had a sleety, half frozen rain to add to it.
The tavern’s fireplaces were all roaring and the food was hot. All of the patrons were dressed in their warmest, their masks were often the woolen or knitted variety, politely hiding half their faces while leaving their mouths exposed as to better talk and drink.
Through his informal, dull, half-faded mask that showed off his cheeks and mouth and chin, the bartender surveyed the bar.
All of the masked faces turned when someone burst through the door. All of the people that were usually here were here, and everyone else was in the safety and warmth of their own houses. It was either an out-of-towner or bad news.
The new arrival threw off their clock, soaked with freezing rain and before the tavern stood a tall, red cheeked, auburn hair elf with pointed ears, high cheekbones, bright eyes and no mask.
After shaking out some of the water from their curly and graying hair, the elf took a seat at the bar.
“What do you want here bareface?’ the bartender asked unkindly.
They always started with the maskless insults before they moved into the racism.
But the elf was tired and having none of it. They reached into their pocket and produced a hand sized piece of metal. The second they slapped it on the table it glowed, white, and brilliant and outshone everything else in the tavern. After a second the light faded and the metal returned to being just a highly polished metal star.
The bartender’s attitude changed. “What can I offer you Lady Investigator?”
“Whiskey,” they said. “And for the record, we elves have long since abandoned your stupid human views of gender, so drop the whole ‘lady’ business or I’ll start with you. You may refer to me as Investigator Stalking Heron.”
“Start with what?” he asked nervously, adjusting his mask to sit correctly over his face.
“I heard Sorrow is in town. Has anyone in town died recently? Or anyone seen the Sorrow faced being?” they asked loudly.
Once again the silence filled the room like smoke, choking out the sound.
“I’ll take that oppressive silence as a yes. Any one seen The Sorrow? Anyone pray to the Wailing Father?” Heron asked.
They were only greeted with more silence.
“Do you want me to break out my mask? I’ll get it and conduct this investigation all proper like if that’s what you all want,” they threatened.
When the elf was met with only silence, the mysterious Investigator started to reach for their coat when the man slumped on the bar next to them drunkenly raised his head.
“It was me! My wife died three days ago. Drowned in that damn lake out back. My littlest prayed to the Wailing Father himself and he sent The Sorrow down on our heads. Maybe we’ll find out if a godsend can fight a lake.”
Heron sighed heavily. “I’m sorry,” they said with genuine sadness. “But if Sorrow is here, then I hate to tell you that your wife was murdered.”
The drunk and bereaved man broke out into a fresh round of sobs.
"I’m going to need a room somewhere,” Investigator Heron said. “I’ve got to solve a murder quickly before you’re burying someone else.”
“If they killed my wife,” the drunk shouted. “They’ll be lucky if there’s anything left to bury!”
“Alright Elijah, I know you’re grieving, but it’s time you went home,” the bartender told him.
The drunk was already asleep.
“Silah is dead, someone prays to your damn elven demon god, Sorrow is here, and now a barefaced elven Investigator here. How can it get any worse?” the bartender muttered as he looked at the passed out man on his bar.
“The barefaced elf is Inspector Heron,” they said with a menacing finger pointed at the bartender. “And as if your ignorance couldn’t show any further, the Wailing Father is one of the very few gods that exist in all six major pantheons. Now, if you’re done choking everyone with your extreme aura of stupidity. I need to get to the bottom of this, get to the murderer before Sorrow does. If I do, there’s a chance that Sorrow will back off. They usually stand down when the murderer is brought to justice. Otherwise it’s just a death sentence. And it’s only a matter of time.”
At that moment, outside the bar, the figure in the Sorrow mask stood silent into the rain, empty mask eyes fixed on the bank of the slowly defrosting lake.
It stood there for some time, just looking without eyes or perhaps waiting.
Elijah stumbled out of the bar, with the help of one of his neighbors. The light spilled out of the open doorway for just a moment, illuminating the Sorrow, but in the next moment it was gone.
The two men walked through the slush and frozen rain towards Elijah’s house, masks keeping out the worst of the rain.
Neither of them noticed the Sorrow outside the house down the small lane from the both of them. If Sorrow had eyes to read it held the posture of something reading the name sign posting on the outside of the house.
But the men were too drunk and too eager to be out of the weather to notice the dark figure lurking.
Back in the bar, Investigator Heron started questioning patrons. They held the shining star in their hand at all times, metal gently pricking into their hands, as they passed from patron to patron. The human’s masks and half masks made it difficult to tell if someone was lying to them, but that’s why they had the star.
Every time someone lied to them the star started to glow. It made it easier for them. Even though Heron was a master liar at one point in their life, mask or no mask. But it still didn’t change the fact that they were no investigator, not really. So they held on to the star all the tighter.
They discovered that the deceased Silah was in the bar the night she died. Her husband was at home with the children. Silah and some of the other wives met once a month in the tavern for some time away from their usual duties. The last one to see Silah alive was the barkeep since she stayed till the tavern closed. The innkeeper was rapidly moving up the list of Heron’s suspects. He was right behind the husband, because it was always the husband.
Heron moved to put on their own mask, the terrifying bird shaped mask all investigators wore, their head a bit too small for it, even with their hair. The long beak and dark wood made it the long and thin elf look even more avian.
They’d barely got it on when someone burst into the tavern looking terrifying.
“Sorrow! It’s here!” the frightened young man yelled. “It’s in the cemetery!”
Heron swore, not bothering to take off their mask, and ran out into the driving rains, barely taking time to put on their clock as they ran.
If Sorrow was in the cemetery, then there was a chance. A slim chance, that maybe Sorrow would be occupied with the body of Silah. Hopefully they’d get there before Sorrow left.
They spoke a quick word that rolled off their tongue and a bright little marsh light appeared before them, lighting their way through the darkness.
Sorrow was in the cemetery, seemingly looking at headstones. Black shrouded fingers traced lettering on gravestones. The figure stood for several moments surrounded by the dead, a bit of it was touching their gravestones as if absorbing their lives through the tiny little epitaphs that sum up entire existences in as few words as possible.
By the time the marsh light got to the cemetery, Sorrow was already gone.
Heron swore, their tongue flying other lilting syllables in elvish, cursing everything, mostly themselves.
There was a statue of the Wailing Father in the cemetery, for the dead center. A grief stricken father kneeling over all the graves in the cemetery. Permanent, unending anguish over his finely sculpted face.
“You’ve already figured it out haven’t you?” Heron asked the statue, dropping the mask in the mud. “I’m not even half the investigator you were. Not even close. I don’t even know if I should go after the bartender or the husband.” They sank to their knees, falling into the freezing mud. “I know I’ve said it before, but I’d give anything to trade places with you. You should be the investigator everyone knows and fears. I should be the one that’s… that’s… Why? You were always the good one, the better one. I was the fuck up. I never wanted your job, your name, but you’re gone. And I’m trying, I’m trying so hard to be a better person, to be you, but I’m not. I’m just still me, and I’m awful at it. Just… just come home? Please? I can’t do this without you.”
The elf with the assumed name Heron knelt in the half melted snow and mud and midnight night rain before the Wailing Father. They knew it was too late. Sorrow had their target and was probably on its way. And they didn’t even know where to begin.
The rain blurred away the tears as soon as they fell, but it didn’t wash away the cries of anguish and failure.
Heron was alone, cold, tired, and failing more than they succeeded. All of that barefaced, raw emotion was coming out as they mirrored the emotions set in stone before her.
The weather did not care. If the Wailing Father cared, he didn’t show it.
“We’re closed!” the tavern keep called as he heard the door open and shut behind heavy footsteps.
He turned around to repeat the phrase, but instead found himself face-to-face with a pale weeping mask of sadness and stone.
“Fuck!” he cried and fell backwards.
“Murderer,” whispered the voice from behind the mask like a stale breeze being let out of a cave.
“I did nothing!” he yelled as he reached beneath his bar for the short sword hidden there.
He held up the sword between himself and Sorrow. The being did not move, save for the masked face that followed him as he slipped out from behind the bar.
“I did nothing! Ya hear!” he yelled again.
Sorrow took a single step towards the tavern keeper but he slashed out with steel.
That rebounded. Bounced off whatever passed for flesh beneath the black shrouds.
“Cursed, demon elven gods! I didn’t kill her!” he cried once more before attacking.
But the blows bounced off once again. This time Sorrow reached out and grabbed the blade in one hand and ripped it from the half masked man.
The man yelped as the other hand rose and knocked off his mask revealing all of the barkeep’s worn, terrified, scratched face. He had several scratches by his eyes, which were concealed by the mask he wore.
The touch of the frozen hand of Sorrow caused him to leap out of the way and over to the fire. Her grabbed the hot iron poker from the dying embers and brandished it like a sword.
Still Sorrow advanced slowly.
The tavern keeper lashed out with the glowing poker. It connected with Sorrow causing a dull thud.
Nothing seemed to even affect it till the hot poker caught the robes on fire, then it only warranted a brief look down.
Sorrow took another step forward. It continued advancing, unceasing.
Until the tavern keeper struck with the heavy iron rod, right in the mask of Sorrow.
Two blows in quick succession and Sorrow stopped moving. The stone mask cracked. Heavy cracks like scars spread across the mask.
The tavern keeper laughed and smashed the iron into the mask once more, deepening the cracks and wounds.
A dark, thick red substance started to pour from the mask and a sound like rocks groaning before being split under pressure escaped Sorrow.
Another attack came from the over confident tavern owner. He tried to strike the figure with the bleeding stone mask, but Sorrow’s hand intercepted his own.
The hand was heavy and strong and it squeezed and the small bones in the attacker’s hands snapped loudly.
Sorrow took the weapon from the man and threw it into the bar, shattering liquor bottles and catching it on fire.
“Oh shit,” he swore.
The blood was pouring out of the cracks in the mask. Sorrow reached up and removed the wounded mask, dropping it heavily on the ground, then removed the burning, smoldering clothing.
Before the tavern keeper stood an ethereal beauty.
An elf, naked, pale skin looking exactly like porcelain stone. But the stonework was so perfect, so smooth, it looked like flesh transmuted or, perhaps, silk made stone.
Slowly, with all the ease of chiseling stone, Sorrow’s face turned from one of neutral interest to one of abject rage.
The figure raised its hands and advanced upon the innkeeper.
Sorrow didn’t stop until the murderer’s face matched the Sorrowful expression on the mask it wore.
Several hours later Sorrow knocked once on the door of the residence that once belonged to Silah.
The father was passed out in his bed. The twins were up in a moment, the little one rising a little slower.
Sorrow entered the cabin, shrouded in black with the sad, broken expression on the mask it wore.
“It is done,” wheezed the voice behind the mask.
It held out a hand towards the youngest girl.
She nodded solemnly and turned back into the bedroom.
A moment later the girl returned and placed a well worn, much loved stuffed bear into Sorrow’s waiting hand.
“Thank you,” the girl said. “Take care of him. His name is Bubbles and he needs lots of hugs.”
Sorrow’s hand disappeared with the bear back inside the robes, then it turned and left without another word.
Once outside Sorrow’s mask turned towards the smoldering tavern fire. Heron was watching, forlorn and sad. Another missed opportunity.
Sorrow stood in the dark, watching the light for some time until the rain had stopped.
Then, as dawn was breaking, moved on.
In a little network of roads beneath a great tree, in a small area that formed a little cave Sorrow built itself a little fire, hung up the cloak and mask beside it.
It sat down, orange flames dancing across the pale porcelain skin that was gently reflecting it back. Then, very carefully, like it was reaching for a holy object, Sorrow grabbed the stuffed bear. In the dim firelight Sorrow examined the bear, almost as if it was trying to remember the object’s significance.
After several seconds the stone lips parted and Sorrow said in a rough, cracked voice becoming a being of stone, “You need lots of hugs.”
Then gently embraced the bear like Sorrow was once a small child with an animal.
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strywoven · 5 days
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@drippingheart has requested a story : ❛ My, my, aren't you a delight. Did you miss me? ❜  Kenjaku unfolded his arms from within the baggy sleeves of his monk robes and offered a pseudo-sweet wave.
𝑼𝒏𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒅.
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A DELIGHT , he says ( spare me your pretenses ! blight me not with these trying falsehoods ! have i not endured enough already ?! ) .  Lo’ she knows well the many guises Death doth take ( verily , one face might well be her own ) , but this ⸺ PROVES TOO MUCH .  It creates a terrible pain which Verona cannot make sense of , familiar but not , similar to the wound left behind by her wife and daughter.  Now a third ruin carved into her spirit , gaping and gored , hemorrhaging at the sight before her , at the sound of his voice ( a sound she might have once been desperate to hear & now it only breaks her further — ) .
Must be rather a t r e a t to see such a proper lady disregard all decorum , her composure falling to tatters at her unsteadied feet ( much like the wastes of own fraying nerves & sanity ) .  Marble countenance twists , breaks apart , maw splitting open like a BROKEN GASH in a show of sharp , too-many teeth ( this , as if a beast cornered , ready to bite & rend apart the antagonistic hand daring to reach for her in a spurious show of consolation ) .  Not one to be mocked , to be made a fool , she is WELL AWARE of what this is : a sort of Possession.  What else ?  And though she would want for nothing but to free her friend of such thrall , she refrains.  Who is she to cast stones when she , too , has defiled life and the course of nature ?  If not retaliation , then , is there little more to do for this but SUFFER IN SILENCE ?
Conflict passes across her features , plain and distraught , uncertain of w h a t to do.  She remembers her promise to Suguru – continue his will , watch over the family and do what must be done , at any expense – but does it also mean enduring this t o r m e n t ?
It takes several moments to gather herself back together , to collect the pieces strewn across the ground and cobble them back into place for s o m e t h i n g resembling normalcy.  Her smile returns , though strained , and Verona decidedly strides forward as she replies , ❝ Yes , in fact , I HAVE missed you.  Terribly.  Grief is such a wretched mistress , you know.  I fear I have entertained her too much without you here. ❞  A confession which comes through the bite of teeth ( can the remnants of his soul even hear it ? ) .  Once close enough , her hand rises , reaching out to catch upon the other’s jaw , s h a r p l y angling his head to meet gazes , own eyes bright and fierce with the edge of scorned contempt.  Verona’s touch is corrosive , hissing against skin , clawed nails digging into flesh , springing up blood ( be careful with him , a fleeting part of her warns , but a greater part of her is hungry for this violence , too eager to tear this false apparition open ) .  She sneers , ❝ And , you left me behind !  You ought know I do not take too kindly to such betrayals , to being left wanting … ❞
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lisinfleur · 3 years
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Shelter
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Author’s Notes | I took the chance for Day Felice’s new album and wrote it while listening to their song Shelter, if you guys want to listen to it while reading as well. I hope you guys enjoy it! (And the song too haha). Universe | Vikings Pairing | Ivar x Reader Info | Viking Age AU, requested by anon. Words | 1878 ⁑ Warnings: Mentions to child abuse and abandonment. Wounds, blood, and some angst.
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His chariot noise was always something that would help his mind to ease after any kind of arguing. And with his wife, it wasn't different. This morning he’d left after a huge discussion with her.
Why was Y/N so worried about a slave child?
Ivar insisted several times she should just forget the thing and let it go. It wasn't their responsibility! And more: by taking leftovers and water for that child every night, she was only making the little thing's suffering longer!
"It would be dead already if it wasn't for you, feeding it every night!" he remembered trying to insist.
But Y/N's was stone-headed! Every single night, there was his queen, dressing her cloak and leaving his castle - once a former church - to visit the thing that now wasn't moving places, of course.
Someone was feeding it, helping it, all the time! Why would it be stupid and leave it behind?
Ivar was getting used to passing by that child every day as if the girl was some kind of door or local decoration. But not for his wife. Not his Y/N and her heart blessed by Frigg.
She was a natural mother. He knew that! It was one of the reasons he chose her the love Y/N would show for any child she could have around.
But when she came with that stupid idea, it went too far for him.
"I'm going to take her home."
A thing.
A useless thing that wouldn't serve not even as a slave, so thin it was.
They've discussed it for hours. Ivar screamed at Y/N she was insane, perhaps touched by some local spirit. Y/N yelled he was an insensitive motherfucker who could fuck himself out of her room if he thought she would let a child starve to death on her door.
As always, their love was intense but also was their anger. And whenever they would yell at each other, one of them would end up hurt.
This time, it was her.
"I don't fucking care about what you think! It's cattle, Y/N! Cattle die! And that's it! I won't spend my supplies with a thing that can barely give anything back to us!"
Or maybe not.
Perhaps... It was him.
"Fine then. Let us guide her to the woods and leave her to the wolves, Ivar. Isn't it what we do with useless things? Oh, wait... Wasn't it what your father did to you?"
Their words would always hurt each other deeper than they wanted to hurt. Their hearts would regret the words said at the moment they’d left their mouths.
But this time, her words forced his eyes to look out of his chariot. And Ivar stopped it by the street near where that thing was sitting, observing. Trying to understand why his wife was trying so hard to save that starving child.
Why was she comparing them as if there was anything in common between him and a Saxon abandoned child?
It was early in the morning. He watched as the little girl unwrapped the leftovers his wife had given to her the last night. At first, Ivar thought the little hungry thing would, of course, eat everything without care. But he watched with surprise as she fractioned the little portion, eating a quarter of it and saving the rest for later.
It was an intelligent move... She wasn’t a wild animal, after all.
That would be a cold day. Ivar observed as the little one looked up to the sky. The sun was born behind some heavy clouds - probably some rain would be coming at night.
He watched as the little thing looked around, smartly stealing a barrel from the trash of a nearby store, checking on its wooden pieces to place it properly as a shelter. She was young and thin enough to fit into it. It would serve for the night and maybe keep her warm.
The owner of the store, so as some people who were passing by, pushed her here or there, complaining about her attempts to move between them. And Ivar watched as the little girl looked up from the ground to the bigger people around her, fearlessly.
She wasn't such a defenseless little thing as he thought she was.
In fact, she was pretty smarter than he thought a Saxon child could be, hiding her barrel between the mead barrels of the same store, covering its problems with some mud, so the owner wouldn't see it wasn't one of his barrels.
She wouldn't have her shelter for the night thrown away or broken before she could use it.
Ivar lost track of the time he spent there, watching the girl moving here and there, gathering stones and mud to imitate the shop owner's way of stocking his barrels and preserving hers.
But the important matters of the town had to be more important than his arguing with his wife, and with this, Ivar moved away from that place.
His mind wondered if that was the reason why his wife was so sure he and that child had something in common.
The little girl was a fighter like he was someday, indeed. She was fighting her way to keep herself alive and, perhaps, his precious Y/N was right, and death wasn't exactly the fate that child had in this world.
Ivar tried to get himself occupied during the day. But the truth was that his mind never stopped lingering over Y/N's words, passing over and over the things he had seen that morning.
When the night was threatening to come, the sky broke in water as he thought it would. But curiosity dragged him away from the path to his home.
Ivar wanted to see if the little girl's plan had gone right and what was his surprise when he found the little one sitting away from the store under the heavy rain, with nothing but a rag to cover herself and wounds everywhere.
The barrel she'd tried so hard to protect was shattered near the store's trash, and a fence was placed by the owner around his barrels with some spikes near the place she was sitting before. It was preventing her from having coverage under his roof, even from the outside.
That angered Ivar a little. He'd seen her hard work! And, in the end, her plan had failed. She was clearly beaten and wet from her head to her toes anyway.
However, his eyes caught something he wasn't expecting.
After eating the last piece of what his wife had given to her, the little girl extended the leather over a hole he watched her carve with her bare hands on the ground. Treated, the leather started to catch water and fill itself, becoming a bag into the hole. The little girl caught the bag before it could lose its content, tied the leather with a strand of her ragged trousers, and created a canteen from where she started drinking the rainwater, relieving her thirst.
She was beaten down, defeated. Yet, she didn't give up. She didn't lay her pride down. And found herself a way to turn that rain into a chance for her to survive one more day.
There was determination in her eyes.
That little thing wasn't being sustained by his wife's crumbs. No. She was fighting to the limit of her strength to survive.
Like he'd done someday...
Ivar's eyes filled with surprise when he could see himself in that little girl's wounds, dragging himself through the mud when everyone thought he would never move.
Standing, when everyone was expecting his legs to break and let him fall.
She was a fighter. And, maybe, Y/N was right. Perhaps it wasn't about a Saxon child or a useless slave. Perhaps the gods were showing him they've chosen that little thing, to give her a chance, to reward her for the fight she was putting on for her life.
"Get in," Ivar's voice sounded.
The little thin thing lifted her eyes to see the mighty Viking looking at her from the chariot everyone from her people was taught to fear. Her wounded little body could barely reach the top of its wheels when she got up to look at Ivar.
Her eyes into his, instigating even more the curiosity he was starting to have about that little Saxon thing.
How fierce would she be if raised under his roof?
But the little thing didn't get up on his chariot at once. Instead, she lowered herself, gathering more stones with her muddy and wounded hands.
"I said get in! Don't you see you'll end up dying under this rain?" Ivar complained, annoyed he was standing under such heavy and cold waters for a thing that dared to turn her back on him, carving the floor and placing the stones in a way the rain wouldn't destroy her little monument. "What the fuck are you doing?"
"I must do it, sir," she mumbled.
Ivar could recognize a small stone monument in that little girl's construction. His people were used to rising those little towers to pray for the gods or place small sacrifices and offers.
Was Y/N teaching her about the gods?
"Why?" he asked as she tried to climb up on his chariot, struggling a little with the height and her wounded knees.
"It is for the lady who comes here every day," she mumbled. "I promised if I ever was to leave, I would leave one of these for her, so she would know I'm not dead."
For his wife.
She was leaving a stone monument for Y/N, so she wouldn't be worried...
"I don't know where you're taking me, king Ivar," she said, showing she knew who he was. "But I don't want her to be sad."
Ivar's heart ached. There was indeed something in common between him and that child. But not only the fact that both of them were survivors.
She didn't want his wife to be hurt.
And so didn't he.
"Cover yourself," he said, throwing his warm cloak around her.
It covered her like a blanket in which she rolled herself, nestling with a grateful smile.
"She was right," the little girl mumbled as Ivar started to ride his horses.
"What?" he asked, and she repeated, smiling at him.
"The lady was right." She said. "The gods were watching me. Maybe I passed their test."
Y/N was definitely teaching that girl. And Ivar sighed, looking at the road.
Perhaps it was a test for himself as well. Or Skuld just had decided to use him as a feather to write that little girl's fate differently.
"Skuld," he said, catching her eyes. "We shall name you Skuld. To honor the god that wrote your fate like this."
"Skuld," she tried.
Pronouncing it perfectly.
"Sounds strong... I like it!"
What a petulant little thing, Ivar thought. As if she had any choice on how things would be from now on. A giggle filled Ivar's mouth.
Y/N was right and he would remember apologising after coming home that night.
The little girl wasn’t a useless thing. And he had to admit.
She was like him, after all.
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emospritelet · 3 years
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Heatstroke - chapter 22/23
Last time, Lacey managed to get Gold to admit he wanted to have sex with her...
[AO3]
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His whispered ‘yes’ seemed to hang in the air between them, and then Gold bent his head a little and captured her mouth with his, his hand sliding up to cup the back of her head. The tip of his tongue pressed gently against her lips, parting them softly, and Lacey moaned as she opened her mouth, her hands sliding up his chest. She could feel him pull the pins from her hair, dark curls beginning to fall around her face, and Gold stroked his fingers through them as the kiss deepened. His mouth was soft and sweet, the touch of his tongue delicate, and she could hear his breath growing harder as their lips grew slippery with saliva.
It felt good to kiss him, the insistent tug of desire low in her belly as she pressed herself against him. She realised that it was the first time in years that she had passionately kissed someone without being at least partly drunk, and it felt different. Better. Intimate. As though it meant something other than a prelude to a quick bang. As though it mattered.
He was still in his three-piece suit, neat and perfect, and she wanted to see him undone, his hair messy and rumpled and that pristine suit in a pile on the floor. She tugged at the buttons, getting the jacket open and pushing it from his shoulders. Gold tossed it over the back of the chair, and Lacey let her hands slide up his chest, feeling for the knot of his tie and tugging it open. Gold let out a tiny moan, the kiss growing hungry, his fingers tightening in her hair, and she got the tie undone, pulling it from around his neck and pushing open the first three buttons of his shirt. He broke the kiss with a gasp, pressing his forehead to hers and breathing heavily, and Lacey took the opportunity to get to her feet. He followed her more slowly, grabbing his cane to push himself upright, his eyes locked on hers, his chest heaving. She dropped her gaze to where his shirt gaped open, the skin of his chest warm and smooth, and licked her lips in anticipation. Gold chuckled.
“You look as though you’re gonna eat me alive,” he said. “Should I be worried?”
“I’m just looking forward to getting you naked,” she said, with a grin. “I suggest you relax and enjoy it.”
“Oh, I intend to,” he growled.
He grasped her hand, pulling her with him to the heavy wooden desk and pushing her back against it as he kissed her hard. Lacey moaned, twining her arms around his neck, pushing her breasts against his chest as his tongue stroked hers. Gold bent a little, grasping behind her thighs and lifting her onto the desk, and Lacey let out a tiny cry as he pushed her legs apart, hands sliding up her thighs underneath the dress. He kissed down her neck, the soft pull of his lips making her shiver, his hands trailing up her sides and gently cupping her breasts. Lacey let out a gasp, opening her legs wider as he pushed in between them.
His fingers found the hem of her panties, thumbs stroking along the lace edging that circled each leg, and she sucked in a breath as the pad of his thumb brushed upwards between her legs, pressing against the tender flesh. Lacey wrapped her legs around his waist, head rolling back as the thumb began to move in circles, sending ripples of sensation through her. His breath was hot on her neck, his lips and tongue soft and wet against her skin, and one finger slipped beneath the hem of her panties, stroking against soft flesh and releasing slippery fluid. Gold groaned, a low, rumbling sound that made her belly clench.
“Fuck, you feel good,” he murmured. “Like wet silk. Beautiful.”
The finger gently pushed inside her, and Lacey gasped, arching her back as it slid deep. His thumb continued to rub at her, the sensations intensifying with the feel of him inside her, and she clung to his shoulders, rocking her hips to increase the friction. Gold sucked at her throat, teeth nipping her before his mouth trailed up to fasten on hers, and she kissed him hard, moaning into his mouth as his fingers worked between her legs. She pulled her mouth free, kissing along his jaw to nip at his earlobe with her teeth.
“That feels amazing!” she breathed. “I want to feel you there. I want to feel you inside me.”
Gold groaned, thrusting his fingers deep, and Lacey let out a cry, pushing against him, feeling the pleasure rise within her as he rubbed at her. She was close, her pulse throbbing, her cheeks flushing, and she came with a loud, moaning gasp, a wave of bliss coursing through her. He groaned again, his fingers sliding inside her, and she gripped his sides with her thighs as her body jerked.
Gold kissed her neck, sucking at her skin as she caught her breath, his fingers sliding out of her. Lacey licked her lips, wishing she had something to drink. Her mouth was dry, her cheeks burning and her heart thumping hard. He drew back to meet her gaze, his breathing heavy and his eyes dark with desire. There was wetness on his fingers as he cupped her cheeks, a hot, musky stickiness.
“Bed,” she gasped. “Take me to bed.”
Gold smiled, fingers gently brushing over her cheeks, his nose nuzzling hers.
“I think I should warn you that I’m very out of practice.” he murmured.
“Practice makes perfect, remember?”
He let out a soft chuckle, and kissed her again, his tongue probing deep in her mouth, and Lacey crossed her ankles around his waist, tugging him against her, moaning as she felt the hardness of him press between her legs. She broke the kiss with a sharp intake of breath and pushed him back as she slipped off the desk.
“Dammit, Gold, bedroom!”
He pulled away, his chest heaving, his eyes dark and deep, and grasped her hand, the other seeking his cane. Stumbling a little as he got it under himself, he pulled her towards the door, and Lacey staggered with him, her lips tingling from his kisses and her skin humming with pleasure. She barely noticed the stairway with its gleaming wooden banister as they hurried upwards, and Gold pushed open the nearest door, revealing a large, airy bedroom. The bed had an ornately carved wooden headboard that reached most of the way up the wall, its covers deep red over white sheets.
He kicked the door closed with his foot, shoving her back against it, and Lacey moaned as he pressed up against her, his mouth finding hers. She ran her hands up his back, tugging him close, and his free hand slid over the curve of her hip to squeeze her rear as his tongue stroked against hers. Her fingers stroked around his waist, sliding up to pluck at the buttons of his waistcoat, and he shrugged out of it, struggling a little before tossing it aside. She went to work on his shirt buttons next, revealing a thin vest that clung to his chest, his nipples taut peaks pushing against it. Lacey shook her head.
“I don’t know how you don’t die of heatstroke,” she observed. “So many layers!”
Gold chuckled, his eyes twinkling.
“I’m enjoying being unwrapped,” he said, and she made a noise of agreement.
He still had his shirt on, and so she went to work on that, flicking open the rest of the buttons and pushing the silk from his shoulders. Gold shook it off, the shirt cuffs getting caught on his wrists and causing him to swear under his breath before he fumbled at the cuff links. He finally got the shirt off, and she pulled the vest over his head, revealing lightly-tanned skin and a smooth chest that smelled of his cologne. Lacey wanted to bury her face in it, and kissed down his chest, sucking at the hard nub of his nipple. Gold let his head roll back with a deep groan, fingers twisting in her hair, and she swirled her tongue in a circle, pulling at him before raising her head to gently bite at his throat.
Gold knew he wasn’t dreaming, because his dreams of Lacey had thus far permitted him only a hint of how it truly felt to kiss her. She was sweeter than he had imagined, her skin softer, the tender flesh between her thighs more hot and silky-wet than his imagination had suggested. Having her in his arms was incredible, kissing her felt as though he had been jolted back to life after decades of unconsciousness. The touch of her lips was trailing fire over his skin, and he felt as though he might explode.
Her fingers were tugging at the belt of his pants, and he fumbled for the back of her dress, searching for the zipper.
“It’s at the side,” she murmured against his neck.
He almost got the thing stuck halfway down, but a swift tug opened it up, and he peeled the dress from her, exposing tantalising curves of creamy-white skin. Lacey wriggled her hips, letting the dress pool around her ankles and straightening up to reach behind and unhook her bra. Gold felt his mouth go slack as she dropped it, his eyes roaming over the perfect peaks of her breasts with their pink nipples, her flat belly and the curves of her hips. She wore a tiny pair of white lace-front panties, a pair he recognised as one of Darcy’s gifts.
“You’re so beautiful!” he whispered, raising his eyes to hers, and she looked momentarily touched, her mouth softening a little before her old wicked grin was back.
“Bed,” she reminded him, and Gold nodded, reaching for her hand and letting her pull him to the bed.
He had no idea where she had previously stashed the two condoms that she placed on the nightstand, and could only assume the dress she had been wearing had pockets. His shoes and socks were off, his belt open, and he shimmied out of the pants and underwear in one, trying not to look at his thin legs and ruined ankle, and hoping she wouldn’t either. There was a snide voice at the back of his mind telling him that she had already seen what he had to offer and hadn’t been impressed, but he reminded it that she was here, in his bedroom, apparently keen to have sex with him. That had to mean something.
Lacey pulled him out of his reverie by straddling him, smooth thighs sliding against his as she pushed him back on the bed. It was hard to think about anything much when she was gazing down at him, dark hair framing her face and a satisfied smirk twisting her perfect lips. His hands found her waist, sliding up to cup her breasts, and Lacey lunged to kiss him hungrily. Her tongue was soft and sweet, and he let out a low groan of pleasure, his hands sliding back down to grasp her hips. Tightening his grip, he turned, flipping her onto her back and making her squeak in surprise.
Gold kissed down her neck, relishing the feel of her beneath him, slipping lower down the bed as his mouth found her nipple. She moaned, pushing up against him, fingers carding his hair and sending shivers through him as he sucked at her. His hands slid down her body, finding the waistband of her panties and tugging them down over her hips. Lacey wriggled, lifting her rear to help him get them off, and he briefly rolled to the side to pull them down her legs and off at her feet. When he turned back she was propped up on her elbows, dark curls falling over flushed cheeks and her plump breasts heaving with her ragged breath. He let his eyes trail over her, following the lines of her slender thighs, the gentle curve of her belly and the soft folds between her legs. She was utterly perfect, and he wanted to lose himself in her.
He wanted to kiss her slowly, to be gentle, but Lacey was eager, reaching for him as he bent over her, mouth finding his as her hands sank into his hair. Her urgency fuelled his own, and he felt the kiss harden, a low groan coming from him as he bore her down on the bed. He was hard, pushed up against her thigh, desperate to be inside her, and just when he thought he might burst she pushed at his shoulder, rolling them so that she could straddle him once more. She slipped down the bed, kissing her way down his chest, hands sliding over his belly. Gold could feel his breath catching in his throat as her hair brushed against his cock, her tongue trailing along the crease at the top of his thigh.
“Fuck, Lacey!” he breathed.
He heard a low chuckle from her, and one finger delicately traced the curve of his balls before running up the length of his cock. Gold sucked in a breath, hands clenching to fists in the sheets. Her tongue swept across, gently stroking his balls, and he gasped out a curse as sensation shot through him. Lacey glanced up at him, a wicked gleam in her eyes, and Gold arched his back with a moan as her hot, wet mouth closed around him.
“Oh my fucking God!” he rasped.
Her tongue was soft as silk, stroking against his length, her cheeks hollowing as she sucked, lips pulling at him. It felt incredible, and he closed his eyes, his chest heaving as she sucked. Saliva ran down the length of his cock, pooling at the base, and Lacey made a contented sound, elbows pushing his legs further apart. She had settled into a rhythm, her mouth firm around him, finger and thumb circling his cock and pulling in time with her lips. The pleasure was building, a wave of sensation at the base of his spine, rising up through his body. Gold groaned, knowing he was close, wanting her to stop so that he could turn her over and fuck her hard, wanting her to make him come and drink him down.
“I - we have to stop!” he gasped. “Lacey, please, I wanna feel you! I wanna get inside you, before—”
She let him slip from her mouth with a wet, sucking sound, and he felt the rising tide of bliss pull back, sinking back down within him. He let his head fall back against the pillows with a gasp of relief, eyes closed as he felt Lacey move and heard the rustle of plastic. Opening one eye a crack, he saw Lacey holding one of the condoms. She took him firmly in hand, rolling it on, and Gold inhaled deeply as she straddled him, one hand on his belly.
“You ready?” she asked, and he grinned.
“As I’ll ever be.”
Lacey giggled, and lifted her hips, lining him up and then sinking down onto him. Gold arched his back with a loud groan as her heat and softness closed around him, gripping him tight. He pushed his hips up, trying to get deeper inside her, and Lacey moaned, hands bracing on his belly as she began to move her hips, slowly rocking back and forth.
“Fuck, you feel incredible!” he breathed, and Lacey sent him a heavy-eyed grin.
“So do you,” she said, and quickened her pace, making him swear under his breath as his head fell back against the pillows.
She was gripping him tight, soft flesh pulling at him as she moved, her fingers sliding up his chest to pinch at his nipples. That was a new and unexpected pleasure, and he moaned as twin jolts of sensation shot through his body. Lacey rode him at a steady, rhythmic pace, letting him slide almost all the way out before pushing back down onto him, her breath coming hard and heavy as she ground against him. Tiny moans came from her, and she seemed to catch and hold her breath as her hips moved rapidly back and forth, her mouth open and her lips full and wet.
She threw her head back with a moaning cry, clenching around him, her fingers digging into the flesh of his belly as her body pumped against him. A flush had spread across her chest and in her cheeks, a light sheen of perspiration on her skin, and there was heat and wetness where their bodies joined, a delicious friction. Her head tipped forward, curls falling around her face and sticking to her damp cheeks, and he reached up to stroke it back, strands of dark hair catching on his fingers. Lacey turned her head to take his thumb in between her lips, sucking hard, and he groaned and pushed up inside her. Desire throbbed deep in his loins, a rising wave of bliss ready to wash over him, and he dropped his hands to grasp her hips and roll, flipping her onto her back.
Lacey gasped as he pushed her down in the sheets, his cock hard and thick inside her, his body deliciously firm between her thighs. She lifted her knees, allowing him to push deeper, and Gold groaned as he thrust his hips, moving in slow circles. He was hitting her just right, the depth of his thrusts and the friction of their bodies sending ripples of pleasure through her. His hair was brushing her face, his breath hot against her lips, and his hands reached up to cup her face, wet mouth finding hers, tongue pushing deep as he thrust inside her. Lacey moaned into his mouth, fingers twisting in his hair, and Gold broke the kiss, pushing up on his hands, the tendons on his neck standing out and his face tight with desperation.
“Oh God, Lacey!” he gasped. “Oh fuck!”
He thrust into her with a groaning cry, and she arched upwards as she felt him pulse inside her. The sensation made her moan in pleasure, her thighs gripping his hips as he moved with rapid, shallow thrusts. He let out another deep, shuddering groan and slowed to a stop, his chest heaving, sweat making their skin slick and wet. Her fingers pushed through his hair, twisting around it as he buried his face in her neck with a low, rumbling sigh. Lacey felt her mouth curve upwards in what she knew was an incredibly smug grin, fingertips stroking through his hair as he tried to catch his breath.
“That,” she declared. “Was awesome!”
Gold let out a breathless laugh against her neck, and pushed up on his elbows. His hair was wonderfully messy, his eyes gleaming with soft amusement.
“I have to agree,” he said, his voice a low purr. “That was certainly worth the wait.”
“Beats yelling insults at each other,” she said, and he chuckled.
“Oh, I think we might have shouted a few expletives here and there.”
“You swore more than I did.”
“Probably.”
“It was kind of a turn-on, not gonna lie.”
His grin widened, and he bent his head to kiss her. She could feel him starting to shrink inside her, and he reached between them to grip the base of the condom before pulling out and rolling onto his back with a sigh. Lacey snuggled by his side, throwing an arm across his waist, and he reached down to pull the covers up over them. She could feel his heart beating, a heavy, rapid thump against her cheek, and kissed his nipple, fingertips drawing patterns on his belly as his heartbeat slowed. Gold turned his head and pressed his lips to her brow.
“Will you have dinner with me?” he asked, and she smiled.
“Yes. When?”
“Tonight.”
Lacey pushed up a little, folding her arms across his chest and resting her chin on them.
“You’re gonna cook for me?”
“I can cook, you know,” he said dryly, and she grinned.
“Good, because I can’t.”
“I’m almost certain you can,” he said. “You just don’t know how yet.”
“No, I really can’t,” she said seriously. “I’d hate to poison you by accident.”
Gold grinned, that twinkle back in his eyes.
“You have other, excellent qualities,” he assured her. “But I can still teach you to make something. If you like. Not tonight, of course. Some other night.”
“Hmm.” Lacey pursed her lips, feeling satisfied. “That sounds like it might be a date.”
Gold blinked, nodding slowly.
“It did, didn’t it?” he agreed. “Maybe we could do that next week. You can help me make dinner, and we can both eat it. What do you think?”
“I think we already had the hot sex,” she said. “So we really should have the date.”
He laughed at that.
“Takes the pressure off, I suppose.”
“Oh, we’re still definitely having hot sex,” she added. “But yes, I’d love to come over for dinner.”
“How about Wednesday?”
“Sounds amazing.”
Gold was still grinning, and impulsively she leaned in to kiss him.
“It’s a date,” she confirmed, and his grin widened.
“Excellent.”
There was a moment of silence, and Lacey put her head to the side.
“What about tonight’s dinner?” she prompted, and he pulled a face.
“Give me a minute. I’m not sure my legs are working properly.”
Lacey giggled, kissing his chest, and pushed up on her hands as she heard a familiar mew from the open doorway. Darcy jumped onto the bed with a prrp of greeting, and proceeded to walk up and down Gold’s body, purring loudly.
“Huh,” said Lacey, as Gold scratched his ears. “I’m glad he didn’t find us like ten minutes ago.”
Darcy settled down in Gold’s lap, blinking contentedly as Lacey petted him.
“He looks even more smug than I do,” she remarked. “Maybe he knows this is all his fault.”
“Hmm.” Gold looked amused. “Clearly it was all part of his diabolical plan to get double the amount of treats and ear scratches.”
For a moment Lacey pictured lazy weekend mornings in bed together, coffee steaming on the nightstand and Darcy curled between them. God damn the man, I’m getting domestic. She shook her head and settled against his side, watching as Gold stroked Darcy’s head with a finger.
“Do you want to stay over tonight?” he asked. “I can find something for Darcy to eat.”
Lacey couldn’t help smiling at what almost looked like nervousness in his eyes. Full sex and he still thinks I don’t find him hot? Man, this guy’s self-esteem needs some work.
“I’d love to stay over,” she said. “Besides, we didn’t finish the interview. Now I’ve gotten in your pants, I’m confident you’ll open up a bit more.”
Gold chuckled, kissing her forehead.
“How did your research on Zelena West go?” he asked lazily, and Lacey pulled a face.
“Oh, I got a bunch of info on her dealings in New York,” she said. “Money missing from accounts, charities losing out—her story was volunteers helping themselves—but it never went as far as any charges being brought. It’s enough to write a juicy piece of speculation on, for sure, but I’m not sure there’s anything court-worthy. Circumstantial at best. Not surprised Sidney got twitchy about it, to be honest.”
“I daresay she’s adept at covering her tracks.”
Lacey made a noise of agreement, snuggling a little closer as she glanced up at him.
“So,” she said, trailing her fingers over his chest. “What’s Zelena’s deal? I know you know more about her than you’re letting on.”
Gold smirked.
“Did you just come over here to pump me for information?”
“No, I came over to pump you for mutual orgasms, but I still think you know stuff.”
He burst out laughing, and she grinned, kissing his nipple. He eyed her with amusement.
“Well, your instincts are correct,” he admitted. “I, like you, was suspicious of Miss West and her motives, so I did a little digging not long after she arrived in Storybrooke. I told you to look into her past, didn’t I?”
“Yeah,” said Lacey patiently. “And I know she was adopted aged two. Laurence and Miriam West. He was a diplomat or something. Zelena spent most of her childhood in England. Her parents died in a house fire when she was in her early twenties, and she moved back to the US a few years later.”
“What do you know about her life pre-adoption?”
Lacey wrinkled her nose.
“Not a whole lot. She was sent to a kids’ home in Boston when she was just a baby. I don’t know anything about her birth parents.”
“Ah.” Gold smiled. “Perhaps I might have information for you after all.”
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refinedbuffoonery · 3 years
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Only Human
Post 5x05. Angst. Riley POV. It’s sad. 
*****
Only human. That’s what Jack was. 
As a kid, Riley thought he was invincible. Nothing bad could ever happen to him. And if it did, he could always find a way out. Like when Riley busted him for picking flowers from her yard to give to her mom on their first date, or when he charmed his way out of yet another speeding ticket. 
As an adult, Riley thought he was invincible. He and Mac pulled off crazy stunts Riley could barely wrap her head around, and they always came out alright. Whatever gods or forces of the universe were looking down on Jack Dalton clearly liked him and wanted him to stick around. 
It took the sight of a flag-covered casket for Riley to realize Jack Dalton was only human. 
The one man she thought would never truly leave her was gone. For good this time. 
And there was nothing she could do about it. 
Until there was. Until Mac received that postcard—that last piece of Jack—and suddenly they were flying to Croatia to crack his final clue. Until they were the ones hunting a not-actually-dead Kovac. Until they were the ones stuck in a trap laid by the same woman who murdered Jack. 
Riley would’ve snapped that blonde bitch’s neck if Mac hadn’t stopped her. 
Rotting in a cell for the rest of eternity was too good a fate for the person who cut Jack’s life short. 
Normally, Riley would’ve felt smart for catching a whole taped confession like that, but this time she just felt cold. Empty. No amount of justice would even begin to heal the Jack-shaped wound in her heart. 
The flight home seemed like it would never end. Riley didn’t even feel the burn of the whiskey Russ handed her as she knocked it back like a shot. If she had the energy to get up, she would’ve drank the rest of the bottle. 
Even Mac sitting beside her didn’t bring Riley any comfort. She wanted to scream at the universe until her voice was hoarse, cursing it for ripping the closest thing she ever had to a dad from her grasp. It seemed like just yesterday they made amends and he was her dad again. 
But it wasn’t. 
That was more than five years ago, and the few years Riley had with him were the best of her life. Even though half the time they spent together usually involved trying not to get killed. 
Riley couldn’t help but think that if she had been there, had been part of that task force, hunting Kovac with Jack, she would’ve connected the dots Jack missed and realized the rescue op was a trap. She could’ve kept him alive. 
Because as a team—Jack, Mac, and herself—they were invincible. But alone, they were only human. 
Since that first drive with Mac, Riley drove the GTO every day. She drove it to work, to the grocery store, to the gym. She even drove it just for the sake of driving it, wasting gas with no destination in mind. On those days, she usually found herself ordering a brisket sandwich at Jack’s favorite Texas barbeque restaurant. Most of the time, she was so numb her body revolted at the idea of food, but Riley forced herself to eat the damn sandwich anyway, since she had to enjoy it for both of them now. 
Driving Jack’s car was the closest thing to feeling like he was with her again. 
She even stole one of Jack’s Metallica t-shirts from Mac to sleep in, but the GTO was where Riley felt his presence best. 
Presence. Like all that was left of her invincible dad was a ghost, following her around quoting Bruce Willis movies and harassing her about leaving fingerprints on his car. 
Soldiers died all the time. So did agents. That was part of the job. But Riley never thought her agents would die. Not really. Not when they avoided death so well. And if they were to die, they’d all go at the same time, doing something incredibly stupid. If you go kaboom, I go kaboom. That was Jack’s promise. The whole team’s promise. 
“We were supposed to go kaboom together,” Riley whispered to herself, parking the GTO in Mac’s driveway. She blinked back the tears threatening to escape. 
Her eyes caught the old basketball hoop. Mac and Jack used to spend hours playing HORSE right in this very spot. Jack usually won. 
Mac had invited her over for dinner, but Riley couldn’t yet bring herself to go inside. A week had passed since Jack’s funeral, but since then, that first step into Mac’s house made Riley feel like she was permanently stuck at the wake, pressed against the wall and choking on tears as fate carved a gaping hole in her chest. Mac’s house—one of her favorite places in the whole world—was heavy with sorrow and guilt. 
No matter how many times Mac repeated that they shouldn’t feel guilty, the what-ifs still stuck around like shackles around Riley’s wrists and ankles. She knew Mac felt the same way, even though he hid it for her sake. 
Riley barely mustered the courage to go inside. 
She made it two steps in when her gaze locked on Mac, standing in the kitchen, a folded American flag in his hands. 
Riley thought of Jack's promise again. If you go kaboom, I go kaboom. And suddenly she was furious. Furious at Jack for walking into a trap alone. Furious at him for dying. Furious at the government—the same government she served—that sent a flag home in place of a man. Her hands shook. 
Every minute she wasn't crying, Riley was angry. She tried to direct it, use it to make sure that woman never saw the light of day again. Riley refused to even call the woman by her name. She murdered Jack. She shot Bozer. She used her power as an Interpol agent to run a terrorist organization. That bitch deserved every ounce of hatred Riley spewed at her. 
But sometimes Riley was just angry at everything, and she sat somewhere quiet and stewed so she didn't take it out on someone who didn't deserve it. Riley still owed Desi an apology after nearly ripping her friend’s head off when she tried to check up on Riley a few days ago. 
Mac finally looked up, his expression raw and broken. It pushed Riley over the edge. Her keys fell out of her hand, and Riley’s breathing stuttered. The all too familiar lump in her throat returned, rendering her unable to speak, and the tears she’d been holding back finally spilled over, twin hot streams running down her cheeks. 
Mac left the flag on the kitchen counter and strode to her, not stopping until his arms wrapped tightly around her. “I didn’t know what to do when I saw it either,” he murmured, clutching her to his chest like their lives depended on it. 
Riley sobbed. She’d cried so much in the last week she didn’t think her body could produce any more tears, but they just kept coming. She weakly returned Mac's hug. 
"The hole in my heart just keeps bleeding," Riley gasped. "And I don't know how to make it stop." 
"I don't know either," Mac said in a rare moment of honesty. He'd been keeping up a strong front for her sake, she knew. Because if they both let go, there wouldn't be anything stopping them from drinking themselves into oblivion and hurling spite at the world. 
A world that didn't deserve Jack Dalton. 
Riley didn't let herself think about the fact that Jack died for nothing. Well, not completely nothing, since his death led them to the clues he'd left behind just in case. Jack's death led to Kovac being put away for good. But that would never change the fact that Jack died alone, in a trap. 
Mac grunted softly. The sound pulled Riley out of her head enough to realize she'd dug her nails into Mac's back, hard enough to leave marks. 
"Sorry," she whispered, barely loud enough to hear. 
Mac whispered back. "It's alright, Riles." 
Riles. That was Jack's nickname for her, long before it was anyone else's. Mac had picked it up after a year or so, and even Desi sometimes called her that, but above all, it belonged to Jack. 
Her knees started to tremble, and Riley let Mac hold her up. Besides her mom, Mac was the only one she felt safe breaking down around. She didn't know why. She was just as close to Bozer as she was to Mac. Maybe it was because talking to Bozer still felt like sympathy and not just someone to be sad with. 
"How's your mom?" Mac asked softly. 
A new wave of tears, silent ones this time, rolled down Riley's cheeks. She’d spent the previous night with her mom. Riley finally told her about Jack, after receiving clearance to tell her mom everything. 
It was the hardest thing she'd ever done. 
"We cried a lot." Riley sniffed. "I didn't know telling her would be so hard." 
She knew it would suck, but finding the courage to squeak out "Jack's dead" was almost more than she could manage. 
"I could've gone with you," Mac offered. 
Riley appreciated the gesture. "Thanks, but I needed to do it on my own." She wasn’t even sure which way was up anymore, but she was sure of this. 
They stood there for a little while longer before Mac asked, “Are you hungry?” 
“No.” Riley’s stomach turned inside out at the thought of food. 
Mac’s hands got brave, roaming her body and feeling how thin she was after a week of barely eating. She could hardly manage one meal a day, much less three. Riley tensed at the intimacy of the gesture. His tone was firm. “We’re having tacos. You have to eat at least one.” 
“Okay.” She knew it was pointless to argue. Mac would force-feed her if he had to. 
Without thinking, she asked, "Can I sleep here tonight?" Realizing what she said, Riley quickly backtracked. "Or if you and Desi want your space I understand, and—" 
Mac cut her off. "No. You can always stay here, for as long as you want." After a moment, he added, voice strained, "I want you to stay." 
“Thank you,” she said weakly. Riley felt Mac’s strong façade starting to crack. She knew he couldn’t keep it up much longer, that he couldn’t hold her up forever. 
Maybe then they could just lean on each other. 
Jack may have left Riley and Mac behind, but at least he didn’t leave them alone. They had each other, and while they would never be able to fill the Jack-shaped hole in their lives, maybe each other would be enough to keep going. 
Because as it turns out, none of them were invincible, and Riley had to figure out how to staunch the wound before she bled out on the floor.
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Oct 1: A Season for Spirits
By HognoseSnake (@snakeHognose on twitter, Hognose Snake on AO3)
It had been hard going, in the thin daylight of late-September. These were days of the lengthening nights, days that turned his breath to mist, days hostile to long journeys.
The young man had managed to find his way to the forest, just as the sun was setting. The shadows stretched out long in front of him, the light starting to dim. It had been hard going. He had hoped to find his way to a village for the night.
He raked a hand through his unruly hair and heaved a sigh, a cloud of breath lazily snaking its way into the air. He had no lantern -  he’d left it at Liledal, lost it in a drunken game of cards. To be out in the open air on days like this-
(On nights like this, dark nights, cold night, in places like this at the edge of these woods-)
He took another deep breath and paused. Woodsmoke. Smooth and rugged. He glanced around again and saw a pinprick of light emanating from the distance, glowing in the early evening.
It seemed worth a try.
He set off, down the gentle slope he’d found himself on, towards the house. Smoke was rising from the chimney. Someone was home.
(Who would want to live here, at the edge of the woods, at the edge of these woods, alone with nobody around for miles-)
It was a small, squat cottage. The walls were a bright, cheerful white, nearly dazzling him with the reflection of the setting sun. The door was rounded at the top, the wood thick and smooth and shining in the early evening light. Thin tendrils of smoke slithered up from the squat chimney, just visible from the worn, well swept doorway. There was a window box, the flowers no longer in bloom, and thick windows that warped the shapes of whatever lay within.
Just above the entryway was the lantern, glowing gently, providing the little spot of light that had caught his eye from all that way away. He rested his hand on the rough cottage walls, testing to see if it was there, if it was really there-
(He’d heard stories about these woods, and not just the good ones, not just the ones that he had followed all this way, he’d heard of the hungry lonely broken things that lurked in the shadows of this forest, waiting, waiting, waiting for him-)
He knocked. He heard the muffled sounds of someone rising, making their way over to the door. It slowly creaked open, the first few gusts of warmth creeping out and laying flat against his skin.
The woman in the doorway was old, her face lined with deep grooves. Her hair fell in limp, grey strands about her shoulders. Her hands were old and gnarled, knotted like the roots of a tree, the skin thick like scales. She was a head shorter than him, and looked up with milky eyes that didn’t quite fix onto his face.
“Hello?” she croaked, and her voice was like woodsmoke too.
The young man took off his hat, distantly remembering his manners. “Sorry to trouble you,” he said, mustering up the charming smile that had gotten him out of a dozen half-paid debts.
The old woman hummed. Go on, then.
“I’m travelling east, see, but I must have made a mistake and gotten myself stranded halfway between towns,” he said, as apologetically as he could. “It’s awful embarrassing. I don’t suppose you’d mind me staying the night?”
The old woman stared up in his direction, not quite at him, not quite at the darkening sky behind him.
“Come in,” she said, after a long pause. “I’ve not got anything worth stealing anyway.”
It sounded like a joke, so the young man laughed. She opened the door a little wider and gestured for him to come in.
The room was warm and homely. A fire crackled loudly in its place, sputtering as the old woman threw another log onto the fire. Firewood, he noted. Split firewood. Someone must care about her, then.
The rug beneath his feet was faded but clean, and the table was laid, and there was the warm smell of porridge emanating from a pot hung over the fire. She paused to stir it a few times.
“You’ll want dinner?” she asked over her shoulder. The young man settled on a chair at the table.
“If it’s not too much trouble,” he said. She hummed again, before steadily making her way back to the spinning wheel. With a great effort she settled herself back on her chair, spinning her yarn from a small pile of fibres next to her.
“What brings you east?” she asked, glancing up in his direction again. The young man eased the pack from his shoulders.
“Visiting a friend,” he said absently. The lie he’d told a thousand times over fell easily from his lips.
The spinning slowed slightly. “Where?”
“Arabay.”
“And where’re you from?”
“Shanshannon.”
The spinning returned to its usual speed. “Long way.”
“I suppose.”
“What drew your friend to Arabay, then?”
She was asking a lot of questions. “Work.”
“For who?”
“A farmer?”
“You sound unsure.”
“We weren’t close.”
“Long way to go for someone you’re not close with.”
“I-“
“Stop,” she said, and her voice was harsh, firm. Steady. “Enough lying. What brings you east?”
There was a long silence, the only sound the gentle creaking and whooshing of the spinning wheel.
“You know,” he said eventually, even though his heart was racing, even though he felt like he was about to start trembling in every bone of his body. “You know.”
The spinning slowed, stopped. She looked up towards him again.
“You’re here for the forest, aren’t you?” she asked. Her voice was thin and small and husky again.
The young man nodded. She huffed and went back to spinning.
“Is that so wrong?” he asked, and tried to sound confrontational.
(Tried to hide the shake in his voice.)
“A hundred men before you have walked into that forest looking for their heart’s desire. I have seen none return,” she said evenly, focused on the yarn between her hands.
“I’ll be the lucky hundred and first, then,” he said, crossing his arms. He felt petulant, childlike.
“Tell yourself that,” she muttered, “if it makes you feel better.”
“Please,” he scoffed, feeling himself again (and also quite rude), “they must have found another way out. Or been stupid enough to not notice they were wandering into a wolf’s territory.”
“So you don’t think there is anything to fear?” she asked, glancing in his direction, briefly. The spinning quickened. “You believe there is nothing in the forest beyond your comprehension.”
“Of course not.”
“And yet you search for it, don’t you?” Again, the spinning quickened. “The heart of the forest, the beating heart that will offer you untold riches. Or is it a loved one back from the dead? Or a life unbothered by sickness? There are so many stories out there I cannot possibly guess which it is you are chasing.”
“All of them! None of them!” he snapped, glaring at her. “What is it to you?”
“Your journey is nothing to me,” she snapped back, and he distantly wondered why it was he was sitting here, arguing with a woman in her eighties, and why it was his heart was racing in his chest. The spinning kept quickening. “Your journey is nothing, and your life is nothing as well. I am telling you to leave. Go back to Shanshannon a failure. It is better than not returning at all.”
“You dumb bitch,” he hissed, “how can you possibly believe that? At your age, believing ghost stories for children! You can’t think I’d believe that you really think any of this nonsense, can you? When you live out here, in the middle of nowhere, all alone. It can’t be that dangerous, if someone as frail as you has survived this whole time!”
The spinning came to a sudden halt and her head snapped up to look at him.
(To look at him.)
“Listen carefully,” she said, her voice quiet, steady, flickering in the light of the fire “I will say this only once. Tomorrow, it is October, and with it come the days of the lengthening nights, the days that turn your breath to mist, days hostile to long journeys. Now are the days of bonfire evenings, appleyard harvests, carving gruesome visages into gourds and setting them as sentinels outside your door.”
“Whilst children dress as monsters and beg for sweets, their parents watch the shapes of the shadows and wait. They lock their doors and keep the candles burning long throughout the night and wait. They say their prayers and cross their hearts and wait for the sounds of the parade they’ll join in their time.”
“Now is the season for spirits, boy, when things benign and cruel and kind and hungry seep forth from the night. They are waiting, too. For whatever fool has deluded himself into thinking he is walking on virgin ground. For whoever is so arrogant he can ignore the pricking of a hundred eyes on his skin. For the hundred and first young man to think he is deserving for whatever is at the heart of the forest, to wander in and convince himself that he is alone.”
She grinned, her gaze clear on his face, and everything about her was sharp. In the flickering light of the fire, in the gathering dark outside, he swore her smile held to many teeth.
“It is October now, boy. I am never alone, here. Neither are you.”
After a long pause, the spinning resumed. The young man tried to work out why his heart was beating so thick and heavy in his chest.
“The porridge is done,” she said, her voice thin and wispy again in the quiet, homely room. “I’ll make up the spare bed for you.”
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In the morning, the young man woke up in the ruins of a house. Where the spinning wheel had sat, the roof had caved in. The fireplace was ancient, filled with soot and dust. He sat up, hearing the rotting wood of a bedframe creek ominously underneath him, and he flung the mouldy, damp quilt off him in disgust.
His pack and boots were exactly where he’d left them the night before. He’d tidily put them away, leaning them against the doorframe. Now, the door was hanging off its hinges, warped with a hundred years of weather.
He put his feet into his boots and cautiously pushed the door open. He glanced up – the lantern was smashed to pieces. He wasn’t sure what he expected.
He pushed the door a little further and tried not to jump back in surprise. Where yesterday the door had opened to rolling hills and wide open fields, he now found himself mere inches from an enormous oak tree. He craned his neck but couldn’t quite see the top of it – just the endless stretch of tree trunk reaching up into the sky.
Edging around it didn’t prove much more encouraging. Just another enormous tree, the grass beneath his feet thick and long and overgrown.
This was it, the forest. He paid no mind to how he came here, how the cottage had aged a hundred years overnight, or how he now awoke in the thick of it. He took a steadying breath, and headed deeper in.
Alone.
(Except for the hundreds of eyes he felt on his back, watching, waiting, waiting.)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hognose Snake is a 23 year old who likes doing things such as burrying herself in soft dirt, eating toads, and writing fanfic. Best known for Green & Gold, she is the founder and primary organizer for the Halloween festival.
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So I rewatched Raya.
And I was really trying to watch it without a skeptical lens. I wanted to be able to act like the oblivious kids in that theater and just enjoy the movie. But I just couldn't. I've mentioned it before it's a gorgeous movie but there are so many things wrong with it that just bug me. And I’ve mentioned before the changes that could be made to fix it and the main one being just completely scrapping the movie and starting from scratch with a tv show. And because I’m on spring break and I have nothing to do (also I’m a perfectionist and I tend to hyper-fixate on things that I know have easy solutions) I broke down how I would make it better in two different categories. The first one being kind of baseline stuff like animation and character designs and other stuff I had small problems with and the second being plot.
Section One:
Okay so I know we all hate Sisu’s design. As someone who grew up with Naga carvings and paintings all around my house seeing this Elsa fursona was like a slap to the face. Like I know I really shouldn’t expect more from Disney but I did. I mentioned in this post that I would have loved to see a longer series even if it meant the animation quality went down. And I feel like Neeith_ on TikTok did a great job of drawing what Sisu could have looked like which only disappointed me more. Caldatelier on Twitter also pointed out the many flaws with Raya’s outfit design which fully proved to me that Disney did little to no research and chose style points over historical accuracy. I also felt like the designs of the main characters were very unremarkable and before you’re like “that the whole point it’s supposed to be normal people saving the world” I don't mean that I mean it feels like they took previous designs and just made them Asian. Like my sister and I were talking about it and she said the baby just reminded her of the boss baby and Tong reminded her of one of the twins from rapunzel with a little more depth. This is also kind of a small thing but it kind of bugged me that they were all the same skin tone if not lighter. SEA is incredibly diverse and if they weren’t going to represent all of the cultures in full then they could at least shown their features. I feel like the food should have been more important. I know I mentioned it in my last post but food is an incredibly important part of our culture. It’s not a placeholder or a set-piece to make a scene look more aesthetically pleasing. It’s a way for us to bond and show each other we care it’s a way we show genuine love and appreciation. And when you have a main character who is emotionally stunted it felt like food was a perfect way for her to show her love and they blew it. Like can you imagine Raya and her dad getting into huge fights and then bringing each other food as an apology sitting in front of that window not needing to say a word because they simply get each other? Can you imagine Raya visiting Namaari and stocking up on foods that she knows Namaari loves but also hasn’t been able to eat for a while? We could have had genuinely heartwarming scenes centered around food but instead, we got set pieces and props. And one more thing that stuck with me was the voice acting this movie should have been a change for SEA voice actors to really put their names out there and be a part of a really big Disney project but as always out voiced were overshadowed by someone lighter.
Section Two:
(I’m going to warn you this is gonna be really long because I’m essentially rewriting the entire plot because as I said before I’m a perfectionist)
I feel like the first ep should be dedicated to the backstory and the lore
How were the Druuns made how where they defeated
I feel like it would have been interesting to see them fighting over the gem
But I think it would have been really interesting to see from the get-go how Sisu wasn’t the one who made the gem
So instead of having this big reveal alongside Raya, we would know that her hope of finding this all powerful Naga is hopeless because the story was a lie
Another thing I think another person who should have had more screentime was Raya’s dad
I think it would have been interesting to know his backstory and get some questions answered like “why does he have so much faith in the other rulers to help him on his journey to make Kumandra a thing?” “When did he become the protector of the gem?” “And how many attempts of stealing the gem has he thwarted”
Also as much as I love him I feel like his personality incredibly unrealistic because all SEA men I’ve met have been really emotionally stunted
Idk it’s just a small thing that made me go “eh he talks to his daughter. What kind of magic world is this?”
I would have liked to see Raya’s various attempts at becoming a protector of the gem
I think it would have been a really good way to show how resilient she is from a very young age
And when she finally succeeds the audience could have celebrated with her like a small “yes she finally got it and all her hard work finally paid off” moment
I feel like we should have gotten more Raya and Namaari moments right from the start
Like how they meet is basically the same but Raya doesn’t trust her with the gem’s location an hour after meeting her
It's a trust that both of them fought for in their own way
Like you get to see them bond over their mutual understanding of “well the worlds fucked”
So when Namaari finally stabs Raya in the back when she betrays her for the first time it hurts when she says the throwaway line about them being friends in another world in burns Raya
Because she thought they were friends and she genuinely trusted Namaari
Which would have really justified her distrust in the world
And again I feel like we should have seen that 6 year period of Raya trying to find Sisu
We would get to experience the frustration of building up the hope of finally finding her just to have it knocked down when she’s not there
It could also do two more things
Raya making genuine connections with people
And Raya and Namaari’s strange alliance forming
Now for the first one, I feel like it would have been really cool for Raya to be introduced to the different lands
And yeah sure I feel like it would make her feel like kind of a tourist but I feel like it would be really interesting to see her go through culture shock
Because she really thought she knew these places but boom they’re completely different from what she was told
And while she’s making her way around she learns about the different lands and the people inhabiting them and also their culture
We could have seen Raya make genuine connections outside of the main cast
And if you’re feeling a little masochistic we could see her lose those people because of the druune or simply because they died
But the main point is we would be able to see her become less and less selfish
Now back to Raya and Namaari’s alliance/romance later on
I mentioned in my other post that when Raya trusted Namaari to put the gem back together it felt very flat very fake
So I feel like it would be cool for the series to be split into two parts the first part being from Raya’s perspective and the second part being Namaari’s
I also feel like Namaari would have to be a constant in Raya’s journey
And what I mean by that is like she’s there every other episode either trying to stop Raya or she’s trying to save her from life or death situations
And later on down the line, we find out the main reason why she kept helping Raya (in her own way) was that she didn’t want to see her get seriously hurt
But anyway that’s mostly backstory and now we’re in the present tense
And like I said before we know that Sisu wasn’t the one who made the gem so we know that Raya’s quest is pointless
But because we’ve seen her various attempts at becoming the protector of the gem and the six years of looking for Sisu we know she’s too stubborn to give up just yet
So she and Sisu head out to find the other gem pieces
Now with context, her and Namaari’s standoff has more tension because for the first time in years Namaari doesn’t know the motives behind Raya’s actions
I don’t really have many ideas for Sisu other than she starts to trust people less and less
Like she’s still really innocent for the most part but there’s a small part of her a really small part that’s kind of lost faith in humanity
And after this, we meet Boun
I feel like we should have known more about Boun considering the fact he’s the first side characters we met
But it’s very clear they gave no thought to his character I’m sure they just wrote down “funny kid who lost his family”
This is such a shame because he could have been so much more than just “Raya’s funny younger brother”
Like he could have been this selfless kid who hands out food to the orphans around and offering his ship to homeless people during the night
Next with the baby and the monkeys, there’s really not much you can do with them unless you seriously age them up
Like at the very least have Noi be a grade-schooler who can express more emotions than mad and hungry
Like she can still be the baby of the group while taking care of herself and expressing her emotions a great example of this is Polly from amphibia (which is a great show with a SEA main character you should check it out)
With Tong, I have two words: Survivors Guilt which is something Raya would be able to relate to in fact they all would
I feel like Tong’s entire character arc would be him realizing that he can’t save everyone
Which yeah sure would seem pretty contradictory with the ending being them literally saving everybody but I have a fix for that too
And finally, we get to Namaari who is selfless to a fault
Giving me very much typical Disney princess she gives up food to kids who seem particularly hungry
She’s usually the one who tells the stories to the kids but her mom was taking over that day
She helps her people in any way she can and honestly, she’s wearing herself a little thin
Because while she’s doing all that she’s also saving Raya & co from their own mistakes
Giving me very much burning the candle at both ends
So you see all these characters bonding over the course of at least a year
Making and losing more allies along the way
And because Namaari has been helping them they trust her… for the most part
But there have been times when she trips them up and makes their end goal all the more difficult
And because they haven’t known her as long as Raya has each character has at least one moment when they look up at the sky and scream in frustration “What is this binturi’s deal!”
But anyway they finally get to fang and Raya is more open to the idea of just talking to Namaari because she trusts her not because Sisu told her to but because she’s seen Namaari do good
And Namaari is even more reluctant to take the gem pieces by force because she has a decent relationship with Raya like yeah sure they’re not best friends but they’re in a good place
And shocker shocker she’s maybe just maybe head over heels in love with the princess of heart
But her mother gives her an ultimatum and that is “either you take it from her or I will”
Because here’s the thing, Queen Virana isn't a moron the exact opposite in fact and she knows her daughter has been going easy on Raya these past six years
She also knows that she could squash Raya under her shoe if she damn well pleased and Namaari knows this too
So when Namaari gets her necklace back she doesn’t even hesitate to take her crossbow when she leaves
The meet up goes basically the same except its more Raya talking Namaari down than Sisu
And while they’re having their little heart to heart Sisu notices Namaari’s finger twitch and she goes to jump in front of Raya
And Namaari was shaken by the sudden movement and fires and kills Sisu
I feel like this would make Raya furious for two reasons one she killed her best friend and two she deep down trusted Namaari to do the right thing
So when the fight goes down instead of the whole “I don't care if you trust me because Sisu did” it would be “I trusted you and you murdered her”
And when the dust settles Raya realizes that this battle doesn’t matter because fighting Namaari isn’t going to bring Sisu and she’s also sick and tired of hurting the people she loves
And she decides to help people instead not because Sisu would want her to but because its the right thing to do
Which is cliche sure but its better than the scene they gave us which really wasn’t faithful to her character arc of not caring for people who aren't close to her
And I feel like Namaari joining her makes more sense with my context if anything else
And here’s how I would fix this scene even with them fighting the Druune off to the best of their abilities there are still falling buildings and the gem can’t really save people from that
So they lose some people not because of the Druune but because death happens even when the heroes are fighting their hardest
And because I feel like this would just affirm Tong’s character arc because there are people dying under these buildings he knows it’ll take too long to save them and its not time they have
So he leaves them behind prioritizing the people he knows he can save
Anyway, after a long battle scene, they finally end up underground
And it goes basically the same except it doesn’t take Raya as long to convince them
And instead of Raya’s reasoning of “Sisu told us to” it's more “all this fighting isn't going to bring Sisu back” and “I know she’s done something terrible and you can be mad at her after this but for now trust her”
So when they all make their sacrifices it’s less “I’m doing this for Raya” and more “I’m doing this because deep down I know you’ll do the right thing”
And Namaari does do the right thing obviously
Sisu comes back and it's all “yay we saved the world!” but it doesn’t really end there
Because I hate the “lifetime” ending of “even though we all went through incredibly traumatic events we’re all fine months later” no they’re running around for months and years fixing their mess
And while this is happening Raya and Namaari is mending their relationship they’ve apologized for all the terrible things they’ve done to each other
And when they’re fixing their world they’re helping each other become the best versions of themselves
That’s when they really fall in love
Like don't get me wrong they loved each other when all the bad shit was going down but there was too much bad blood them to really process it and talk it out
But that’s exactly what they do when it’s all over they talk it out for hours
In fact, they both said its the most they’ve heard the other speak
They both agree they’re in the best place to start a relationship and so they do
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spinning.
| summary | sometimes, its just easier to move on to a new thing - rather than hold onto the old.
| word count | 2.6k
| warnings | none
| era: | pre-debut, circa. 2013 through 2016
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2013. 
There is nothing in the world that can compare to the feeling of skating across clean ice. A smooth sheet, unmarred by skates belonging to those who have yet to wake up in the early hours of the morning. 
Not when it’s just you, the blades beneath your feet and the soft sounds that come with the ice being carved out - lines being embedded into the sheet of ice as you twirl across it. Painting pictures without the paint, gliding over the frozen lakes. 
It’s indescribable. The feeling of freedom, the feeling of flying. But that doesn’t mean Aria is going to stop trying to describe it to as many people as she can.
The most common question she is asked in an interview, either post or pre skate, is “why do you do what you do?” or “why do you love skating?” or “where does your motivation come from?” All the same question essentially, in different words and different fonts, with the same over-eager expression that Aria has come to know as one that is plastered on when the interviewer really couldn’t give less of a damn about the answer. 
They would swarm you at the edge of the rink, hungry and eager for a good piece, almost falling over each other in their desperation to catch her slip up on her words. Just because she was a child, doesn’t mean they weren’t ready prepared to destroy her on the front pages. 
Either way, Aria never had a solid answer for them.
Why did she do what she did? Her parents enrolled her in lessons as a child, you could say she just stuck with it. You could say that she found her niche early on, that she was blessed to have found what it is she loves at a young age. You could say that she was a prodigy in the making, you could say that she was advanced for her age, that she was sweeping competitions with skaters nearly twicer her age. You could say a lot of things, but that didn’t necessarily make them true. 
Skating was, all she knew. 
She had to love it.
Her life revolved around the carefully regimented training schedule, around meets and competitions that involved too many airplanes and too many sickbags and too many sprained wrists, ankles, knees; not enough schooling and not enough friends. 
Aria could her her coach’s voice calling out from across the rink. 
“Back leg! Straighten it out!” 
She straightened it out. 
Aria could feel the eyes of her mother from across the rink. The woman had insisted on accompanying her daughter to the rink that morning, although she never usually attended Aria’s morning practices - saying that it was ungodly hours to be awake and claiming that “she was a working woman! She needed her sleep”, although never had any reservations in shoving her daughter out the door.
Today though, her mother’s piercing eyes found Aria’s from the side benches she sat on, legs crossed as well as her arms, eyes cold and calculating. She knew better than to call out her corrections - less Aria’s coach hear her - but Aria knew she’d be getting an earful back home about that leg. 
She took a breath, eyes hardening as she fixed her gaze forward.
Today marked six months since she had competed in her last competition, having taken a break from public appearances and performances, reducing her training down to twice a week instead of her regular rigid schedule. Spilling across the ice, feeling her knees weaken underneath her as she pushed up into the air before coming down far too quickly was enough to deter her from getting back onto the ice again for a while. 
Aria loved skating, she did. Truly. There was something about coming to a rink in the early morning, half the gym barely awake to take notice of the petite fourteen-year-old kneeling beside the benches to lace up her skates. 
Something about the soft sun that came whispering in through the skylight windows that dotted the ceilings, something about the silent speakers that had yet to play the summer 2012 hits because the attendee hadn’t woken up from their bed yet.
Something about skating as fast as you can, before wrapping your arms in as tightly as possible and spinning. 
As fast as a spinning top; spinning, spinning, spinning. 
She never felt like she would fall. 
Spinning, spinning, spinning.
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2014.
She spun around slowly, hands and arms raised as the security officer checked the scans. A small beep sounded and the lights beside the panel the officer was standing at flashed green. Stepping out, she was cleared to go through with a wave, the teenage girl offering a nod of thanks and a small smile to the man as she moved out of the way of the next passenger and towards the moving belt across the room.
Her brightly-coloured yellow suitcase was starkly obvious against the faded black plastic of the rollers that spun as it moved down, and Aria grabbed its’ handle in her fist before bracing herself and heaving it off the just slightly-too-high to be comfortable ledge. 
Aria’s shoes scuffed against the grayed flooring as she pulled the case off the belt, and reached back up to grab the smaller - but still large enough - backpack in a similar colour to the suitcase she was now stabilizing with her other hand. The bright red sticker with the letters U.M. on it stuck out against the material.  It slid off the ledge quickly, almost smacking Aria in the face.
She huffed slightly, glaring at the plastic-covered backpack in her right fist.
“Pooh-san, you could have hurt me! I have to look like the pictures mum sent of me, or else they mightn’t let me in!” she scolded the soft yellow covered ear poking out of the partially unzipped bag. It bounced slightly as Aria proceeded to swing the backpack onto her shoulder, tugging down on the strap with her hand.
Her mother’s voice echoed in her head. “Don’t you go losing that bag now! It has all your details in it for when you land - you show those bits of paper to the lady who’ll be picking you up in the airport, alright?”
A small squeeze to the bottom of the bag made the papers rustle slightly, and Aria relaxed minutely at the knowledge that they hadn’t suddenly gone missing. The rattle that followed the shifting paper popped another stark reminder into her mind. 
Still standing off to one side of the security line, Aria pulled the backpack down off her back again, opening the zip and carefully pushing Pooh-san to the side before dipping her hand in and closing her fingers around a small pink velour sachet.  
She pulled it out, and tucked it carefully into the front pocket of the hoodie she was wearing - nestled beside her passport and the few bank notes she had left. There had been hot chocolate offered on the flight and it had been all too easy to accept without her parents there to tell her no. 
Aria inhaled a deep breath, letting her shoulders come up to her ears before exhaling sharply and dropping them down.
“Okay,” she mumbled to herself, her grip tightening on her suitcase handle. “Okay.”
Not looking back, she began walking towards the exit that would lead her into the main section of the airport terminal, following all the light blue signs and their arrows pointing “arrivals”. Aria kept her head down moving in between people walking slower, apologizing when she accidentally hit a tall man with the wheels on her case and subsequently opting to push the case in front of her instead of tugging it behind. 
Leaving behind everything that she knew was daunting; her friends, her home. Everyone she'd ever known was about to be replaced with a dozen or so trainees - all years older and wiser than her.
She was going to miss home. Home, in the sense of the people that knew her inside out and back to front, who she knew the same. Even those that she didn't know at all, but knew her too well.
Aria passed a dozen shops, all with brightly coloured names and signage in an alphabet she couldn’t read, people walking both ways down a one-way corridor, noise surrounding her. Older women gave her a smile as she passed them by, offering a small wave when she smiled back. 
Walking through a final archway, Aria stepped forward into a large opened area, illuminated by the skylights that covered the entire ceiling. Large panels hung from the centre of the room, flights inbound and outbound covering both sides of the screen. People stood around at the gate, some holding up signs with names in a multitude of languages, others clinging onto the metal bar that separated the passengers from their families who waited for them.
Looking up, Aria scanned the white panels for her name. 
She spun on her heel as she searched, spinning around twice before landing on the oddly written kanji, with its slightly wobbly lines like it had been written very slowly.
Aria’s eyes trailed upwards, finding the eyes of a peaceful looking woman holding her sign and already watching her. The woman broke her serene stare with a blink, before beckoning Aria over. 
“Miyazu Akari?” 
Aria nodded, her eyes continuing their trail upwards.
There, above the woman’s head. A sign.
Incheon, International Airport. South Korea.
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2014. 
Aria was spinning. 
Four counts, and a half beat. 
Her feet left the ground in a graceful arc, turning in mid air as her arms pulled themselves in, and - oh dear. She’d missed the final count. 
Aria met the ground in a heap, too rushed to try and stop her spin to slow down her movement enough for her to catch the wobble. Her hands met the wooden spring flooring, fingers crinkling as she gathered herself again. Her breath came in heavy pants, knees aching from where they had hit the floor. 
Covered in bruises hidden by the dark grey leggings, Aria’s legs shook slightly, even after righting herself and moving gingerly back over towards her starting position. She could feel the eyes of the others boring into her back, and she made an aborted apologetic bow towards their choreographer; who scoffed slightly. 
“Again. Because some people can’t count.” He gritted out between clenched teeth, walking over to stop the pounding music that had yet to halt like the rest of the girls in the practice room had. 
Aria kept her eyes on the ground, moving her mouth in time with the counts.
“One, a two, a three, a four, and, one-” she mouthed, focused on keeping her feet in time with the others as they moved through the motions again and again and again. 
By the time their choreographer called for a break, Aria was sweating through her hoodie, though still unwilling to take it off. The other trainees had no such qualms however, tugging hoodies and t-shirts over their heads to leave them in leg-hugging shorts and various colours of sports bras. Toned stomachs and steely legs were revealed, as heads were tipped back to pour water into open mouths.
Aria picked up her own water bottle to follow suit. 
The water was warmed slightly from the condensation that was beginning to gather on the mirrors and the hot, sweat-filled air that permeated the room, but Aria broke open the seal and drank thirstily regardless. She knew she only had a moment before they were called back to practice. 
“Okay girls, I think that’s enough for today.”
Or perhaps she had been mistaken. 
Nevertheless, Aria was definitely not done for the day. That final turn was going to drive her insane unless she got it down, and she’d rather not have to walk back to the practice rooms in the middle of the night just because she couldn’t sleep. 
So instead of following the others in their relieved, tired sighs and bemoans of wanting a shower, Aria opened her bag and shoved her bottle back inside. She called out to another girl as she passed. 
“Unnie, I think I might stay back for a bit. Can you tell Eunji-unnie that I’ll be late home and she shouldn’t worry?” her voice was higher pitched in Korean Aria noticed; not on purpose, but the language had a certain lilt to it that felt more comfortable in a higher register.
The woman in question send her a look, eyebrows furrowed. “That’s fine Ari-ah, but don’t stay back too long ok? We have another early practice tomorrow morning.” 
Aria winced at the reminder. “I will, unnie.”
She waved goodbye to the other girls, waiting for the last one to leave with a smile and a small wave before moving to the small sound system in the corner of the room. Aria pulled up the track again, pressing play about halfway through the song. 
Her hand came to tap out the rhythm on her thigh, eyes looking to the left but not seeing as she focused on finding the syncopated beats in the back of the song. As the section ended, Aria pulled back the track to the same part, playing it four more times before she was satisfied that she’d found the correct rhythm. 
She clicked play, before moving back to slightly off centre of the room. Counting out the opening beats, Aria pushed herself off the ground, calling out the rhythm to herself in her mind. 
The room was spinning, 
and she landed in a heap. 
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2015.
Oh god the room was spinning. Her hands were shaking, Aria was pretty sure that her stomach had turned and that was a good signal that she was about to throw up and was not something to be ignored.
Yet here she was, ignoring it. 
Her wobbly hands reached for the proffered pen - a blue ballpoint pen with a fancy casing that probably cost more than the jumper she was wearing to hide the old t-shirt she had thrown on that morning. 
She was absolutely going to be sick. 
A click on the top of the pen let Aria know that it was ready, and with wobbly, shaky hands;
she signed across the line in deep blue ink.
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2016.
The ceiling was spinning. 
That was new. 
Aria felt like her back had been slammed into a wall, like she’d been run over by a truck and been flattened into the ground - like she’d been underwater for too long and hadn’t had time to regain her breath. 
With a choked gasp, her mouth opened as a hand flew to her mouth. She coughed and inhaled simultaneously, choking on the air. Her chest heaved, hand pounding into it as if it was just in need of a kick-start. 
Hands found her waist, hoisting her into an upright sitting position. Aria was still coughing lightly, although the new pair of hands rubbing gently against her back helped tremendously. From a look upwards, eyes watering in the bright light, she was able to make out Yuta’s humored face.
“Yah, Riri what have we told you about those turns?” he scolded, eyes bright with mischief although she could see the tinge of worry hidden behind it. 
“Not to do them unless someone else is here,” she mumbled, leaning back into his comforting hand on her back. It really did help, considering she had just wiped out onto the hard flooring. 
“Stupid.” Yuta flicked her forehead, before mussing her hair affectionately. The skin reddened slightly, and Aria hissed in pain. She glared at Yuta, who looked far too nonchalant for having just assaulted her. Standing up, he offered a hand to help her off the floor which Aria begrudgingly accepted.
She huffed dramatically, stretching her arms above her head. Aria felt her shoulders crack and sighed slightly at the burst of tension release. She let her head fall to the side as she heard the door to the practice room open.
Ah, there were the others.  
Taeyong walked into the room first, followed by Taeil, Donghyuck, and all the boys before Aria was outnumbered seven to one. 
Her world was spinning. 
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legendsoffodlan · 3 years
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The Unwritten Supports: Raphael x Dorothea
C – Support
Location: Dining Hall
OST: Respite and Sunlight
*Raphael enters the dining hall*
Raphael: Hey, Dorothea!  Just the gal I was looking for!
Dorothea: Oh, hello Raphael.  What can I do for you?
Raphael: I don’t need anything.  But I do have something for you.  Here!
Dorothea: Something for me?  A pendant?
Raphael: Yeah. I carved our class symbol on it.  Do you like it?
Dorothea: It’s quite lovely.  Did you make this?
Raphael: Sure did!
Dorothea: Oh, Raphael.  You’re a very sweet guy, and I’m flattered, but I’m afraid I cannot accept this.
Raphael: Huh?  Why not?
Dorothea: I’m terribly sorry, but I don’t think I’m the girl for you.  Please excuse me.
Raphael: Wonder what she meant.  Maybe she doesn’t like pendants?  I could make turn it into a bracelet instead.  Or maybe some earrings?  But first… gotta fuel my creative muscles with some food!
**
B – Support
Location: Outside
Dorothea: Damn! That brigand was a lot stronger than I thought. One more hit like that and I’m done for!  *gasps* Oh no, here comes some more enemies!  This could be it for me!
Enemy Soldier: Die!
Raphael: *appears* Dorothea, look out!
*fades to black, weapon strike*
*fades back in*
Raphael: Are you okay?
Dorothea: I’m hanging in here, but I need to get to a healer.
Raphael: You got it. Stay close to me and I’ll clear you a path.
Dorothea: Thank you.
*Fade to black*
*Fade back in*
OST: Calm Winds Over Gentle Waters
Healer: There, that should do it.  You were very lucky to get alive.
Dorothea: It was quite the close call.  Oh, before you go, could I see that thing you’re wearing?
Healer: This?  It’s the class pendant Raphael made for all of us.  Didn’t he give you one?
Dorothea: He made one for everyone? Ah, well… Oh dear.  *speaking to herself* It appears I’ve misjudged him. I need to find him and apologize.
**
B+ – Support
Location: Training Grounds
OST: Recollection and Regret
Dorothea: Raphael?
Raphael: Oh, hey!  You’re looking better.  How are your injuries?
Dorothea: All healed, thanks to you.
Raphael: What? I didn’t do anything. *pouts*  I’m not so great with magic.
Dorothea: I meant saving me on the battlefield.  I might have been killed if you hadn’t come when you did.
Raphael: Oh, that.  Don’t sweat it.  We’re friends, right?  And friends look out for each other.  Next time, you can protect me!
Dorothea: Speaking of, I also owe you an apology.
Raphael: *looking confused*  What for?
Dorothea: A while ago, you offered me a pendant.  I rejected it because I thought it was a courting gift.
Raphael: *blushes* W-what?
Dorothea: I’m so sorry.  It’s just – men don’t usually offer me trinkets like that unless they want a certain something in return.  But the healer who helped me was wearing an identical piece.  He explained that you made one for everyone in our class, including the Professor.
Raphael: Yeah. I thought it’d be cool if we all had one as a team symbol.  I mean, I know we all wear academy uniforms, but I figured it’d be nice to have something just for our class, you know?  Plus, that way, we’ll all have something to remember our time together once we graduate.
Dorothea: What an excellent idea!  I’m sorry I misunderstood your intensions.
Raphael: Aw, don’t give it another thought.
Dorothea: You wouldn’t still happen to have it, would you?
Raphael: Yeah, I’ve got it right here!  Except, I thought maybe you didn’t want it because you liked other kinds of jewelry instead, so I also made a bracelet and some earrings too.
Dorothea: *laughs*  Well would you look it that!  They’re all so beautiful.  May I have them?
Raphael: Sure!
Dorothea: And in return, perhaps you’d join me for tea? If we’re to be proper friends, then I’d like to get to know you better.
Raphael: Oh course!  Will there be snacks?
**
A – Support (Note: this support is only available after the Time-skip)
Location: Monastery Grounds
OST: Somewhere to Belong
Raphael: Long time, no see Dorothea!
Dorothea: Well look at you!  You’re a knight now?
Raphael: Yep!  Ever since my parents died, I wanted to become a knight so that I could take care of my little sister.  It’s been a long road, but we’re finally in a good place where we don’t have to struggle anymore.  As long as I continue to work hard, I won’t every have to worry bout my sis going hungry.
Dorothea: That’s very admirable of you, Raphael. *whispering to herself*  And if I’m honest, it very attractive.
Raphael: What’s that?
Dorothea: Oh nothing. *pauses* I was just thinking that I may have made yet another grave mistake regarding you.
Raphael: What do you mean?
Dorothea: Well, you see, for a long time, I’ve been looking for a suitable partner to share my life with, one who ensure both my happiness and survival.  But, rather unfortunately I admit, I limited my prospects to those who come from wealth and high standing because they would be in the best position to take care of me for the rest of my days.  As such, I discounted individuals such as yourself, who work hard every day for the ones you live, and are – above all – kind and honorable, more so that any noble I’ve ever dealt with.
Raphael: Um, thanks… I think?  I’m not sure I know what you’re saying.  But if you’re worried about the future, you can always come stay with me and my sister.  We’re thinking about opening an inn someday.  When we do, you can come stay any time you like.  And I promise I’ll always take care of you, just like I do with my little sis. 
Dorothea: *blushing*  Well, perhaps not quite the same as your sister.  But, thank you Raphael.  It’s nice to know I have a friend who’s willing to look out for me.
Raphael: You bet!
**
Paired Ending:
Raphael returned to his hometown to serve his liege lord as a knight, and spent his spare time helping out at the inn that his family had opened during his time away. Members of the Mittelfrank Opera Company lodged and performed at the inn whenever they were in town, and Dorothea became a favorite guest, eventually retiring from the opera and moving into the inn.  Raphael tirelessly ran the inn while Dorothea drew nightly crowds with her singing, making it huge success.  Some claim that they were married in a modest ceremony, as neither had another partner and Dorothea was always seen wearing Raphael’s homemade jewelry but regardless, all records agree that they were lifelong friends, living together in happiness and wanting for nothing.
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merryfortune · 3 years
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Beloved by Bronze
Written for 100ships Challenge on Dreamwidth 
Prompt #07 Bronze
Ship: Hilda/Marianne
Fandom: Fire Emblem Three Houses
Word Count: 2,784
Rating: T
Warnings: No Warnings Apply
Tags:  Alternate Universe - Pygmalion & Galatea, Fairy Tales, Fluff, Minor or Implied Gaslighting (Hilda to Ignatz)
   Bronze was Hilda’s least favourite material to work with.
   It had so many steps to be used. It wasn’t just a mere assembly of smaller pieces, like with the clay beads she usually made to make jewellery, it was a lot more work than merely rubbing something down until it was tiny and firing it in a kiln. Or even just loosening fine steel to make intricate chain links so encoil into bracelets. It was so much more effort. Especially when the expectation was to create something huge, not just what Hilda usually made in her pursuit of jewellery.
    Bronze meant moulds and castings and sandblasting and fiddling around with wax which rarely smelt of honey. But it was all worth it in the end, Hilda had to admit, if only to get to the part of working with it that Hilda did like. That was the act of polishing.
   She enjoyed polishing across all her craft hobbies - and even some that didn’t involve craft. There was something about beautifying things, making them shine to their truest potential, that resonated with Hilda to the bottom of her soul. It was the only kind of hard work and effort that she liked to pour into things, rubbing them down with a rag, going as hard in with the elbow grease as possible. It worked up a sweat but the result even blew Hilda away and she was the artist.
   This particular project was no different in the regard that Hilda liked polishing it but it was exceptional in how she felt when she finished.
   She had been commissioned by the city to create a new statue to install close to the plaza. When she had first heard that, Hilda assumed that the city council representatives had meant for her to create bits and pieces to go towards a new statue, accessories for it, but no. They wanted her to make the whole statue and she had been ready to whip out a crate of marble but no, it had to be bronze since the fountain it was meant to adorn was slightly saline and marble had a weakness to salt. Hilda had tried to worm herself out of this commission but the time they gave her was generous and as was the offer that it could be a statue of whatever she pleased was enough to mute her.
   The only real condition was that she had to be finished by the time of the next Festival of the Goddess next year sans one day so there was time for the installation to go up. Hilda nodded and even though she had been initially reluctant, she did get to work almost immediately as her early process did require a few days of sloth for her to think.
   But if it was for the Goddess, Hilda did come upon an idea that she liked and thought would be well received by the cityship. Thus, Hilda toiled for months and months to create her statue. She drew up plans and concepts and once they solidified, she began to tinker with the wax moulds, dicing up her idea into more manageable pieces and soon enough, time began to fly for Hilda. She was nothing if not passionate about beauty and she was endeavouring to create the most beautiful woman to stand romantic watch over the plaza and fountain she was intended for. Someone who could take the breath away from any man, woman, or child and Hilda was certain she had succeeded.
   The famed jewellery maker of the city was now about to become a famed artist who would be remembered for eons by everyone, not just the select few who had bought her wares and retained them for future generations. Her name would be carved at the pedestal the statue was to be erected upon and that did excite Hilda somewhat. She had never considered herself fame hungry but it was a temptation none could resist. Especially when Hilda knew to be rightfully proud of her work.
   “You're done…” Hilda murmured to herself, starstruck, as she removed her cloth from the statue’s face.
   It was late in the afternoon, with an orange sunset filtering into the clutter and clamour of Hilda’s work studio and the light complemented the statue’s complexion immaculately. She - not it, but she - looked sublime. She looked better than Hilda could ever have imagined and she could hardly believe that this statue was the product of Hilda’s efforts and toiling. Now, she just needed a name and from thin air, Hilda managed to pluck one.
   “Marianne…” Hilda murmured. “Your name will be Marianne, my beloved.”
   Hilda took a step back from her creation and smiled softly. She, the statue, her dear Marianne stood with a delicate pose and small, gentle hands. Her lips slightly parted, perfect for a surprise kiss, and her eyes were wide, doe-like. Every hair upon her head looked realistic and came together with a braid at the back like a clothed crown of old. Her clothes were modest but elegant: frugal but timeless. Hilda felt the pace of her heartbeat quicken the more and more she admired her statue, poring over it, ensuring she was nothing less than perfection and finding no flaw even though her eyes were weary from the last of the polishing.
   There was no doubt this bronze statue could stand and stand for centuries at the plaza, she was sturdy and firm but Hilda’s swiftly beating heart wrenched. She swallowed. And she realised something. She didn’t want to give up this statue to the very city council who had paid for the materials and more for it. The very city council whose representatives would be here tomorrow to collect her from Hilda and she felt this streak of stubbornness flare.
   Hilda stepped closer to Marianne once more and Hilda had no doubt that were anyone to see her creation, they would feel the same. An attraction that was deep and enamouring. And so, anyone would do the same.
   Hilda put her hands atop of Marianne’s, cupping them slightly. The bronze was stiff, unhuman but Hilda minded not. She sighed before she kissed Marianne’s mouth. Her lips, too, were stiff but Hilda kissed passionately against her bronze lover regardless, savouring the fleeting warmth from being polished. She dearly recalled the hours that she had been put into Marianne and no wonder they had came so easily to Hilda, it was because they were expended in the name of love, not money or fame or anything else like that.
   The kiss was wonderful and Hilda was hesitant to pull away. Unfortunately, she had to breathe whereas Marianne had no such need to. Bronzed and in eternity as she was; the notion, Hilda mulled over as she pulled away, was bittersweet as that meant her lover could not fully feel at all.
   Something like regret clouded Hilda’s emotions. She was tired. Hungry. Had been working long hours as joyful as they had been, polishing the imperfections from Marianne and ensuring her beauty. She needed to get some sleep so Hilda left her studio with rue in her footsteps.
   She ate a sweet pastry by herself in her room, thinking about Marianne. The Festival to the Goddess was the day after tomorrow. On one hand, Hilda wanted to bask and praise, she wanted Marianne seen by all and appreciated for her beauty. On the other, the creation could only truly and purely be loved by the creator and Hilda did not want to relinquish Marianne to the masses who may see her as spectacle or novelty for a handful of times before just becoming part of the scenery of the city, nothing particularly special or extraordinary. The thought of that happening distressed Hilda so she offered a prayer.
   Hilda was not typically the type to pray, let alone as earnestly as she did in her room, over food and by her bed. She pleaded with the Mother Goddess for her love unto Marianne. For it to be made as precious as the very metals that Marianne was made of. She drifted off into a dreamless sleep, still with her hands clasped in prayer over her breast.
   In the morning, Hilda woke up and felt well rested. She almost felt as though the day before, completing Marianne and kissing her on that romantic, artistic impulse, had been a dream but Hilda knew her sleep to be empty of such imaginations. She took her plate from last night to her room, clandestine proof that yesterday had happened, and returned into the kitchen. Through the window of it, she glimpsed her studio.
   She wondered when Ignatz or whatever his name was and his posse of similarly downtrodden and mousy public servants would come. They usually arrived after lunch but they were so pesky with how bright eyed and bushy-tailed they could be. Completely unlike Hilda who had, she realised by the clockface on her kitchen wall quite idly, had slept to mid-morning once more. She sighed. It could even be sooner but ultimately, these were all rationalisations for her own whim to visit Marianne in her studio.
   She was still there, funnily enough. Still a statue; still as a statue. Hilda smiled as she circled Marianne. It hadn’t just been an illusion, her hard work had truly paid off and the gratification was immensely satisfying. Marianne was as perfect as a person could be. Or as perfect as a person could make.
   “Good morning, my love.” Hilda greeted her, stood in front of her, playful and even flirting. “I thought about you all night and yet… I slept so brilliantly.”
   Marianne smiled. She smiled the same smile that Hilda had sculpted onto her.
   “I hope you thought about me all night.” Hilda murmured and she invited herself to a kiss on that cue.
   Hilda kissed Marianne and she could swear that she could hear the saints singing at that but, more likely than not, it was just the sweet twittering of birds outside. Hilda sighed into the kiss and Marianne kissed back. Her lips were soft and supple. Hilda gasped and pulled back.
   “Marianne?” she exclaimed, eyes wide.
   Marianne’s head shifted and her expression, it turned bashful, “Yes, Hilda?” she asked. “Is, um, something the matter? D-Did I displease you, somehow.”
   “Displease me?” hilda echoed back and her hands flung out in joy. “Oh, Marianne, you could never.”
   Hilda kissed Marianne again. Wild and excited and giggly. She caressed Marianne’s cheeks as she kissed her and everything about her was soft and warm and human. She was hardly bronze at all. Marianne kissed her creator back: glad to be alive, even gladder still to be loved.
   “Oh, Marianne,” Hilda murmured, “how did this happen?”
   “We were blessed by the Goddess.” Marianne replied quietly and she touched back at Hilda’s face.
   She admired everything about Hilda, as though she were the work of art, not Marianne. Hilda didn’t mind at all. She marvelled at how Marianne touched her, explored her body and the sensation of touch at all. Marianne was ecstatic with this newfound freedom of her human body now freed of bronze.
   The newness of it all made them both giddy but somehow, they managed to retreat from the studio. There were so many more pleasures than just kissing and touching that Hilda wanted to show Marianne and she was eager to learn so they broke their first fast together, having an early lunch of sandwiches and pikelets, whatever either of them wanted and if Marianne could, she would want it all.
   Their feast and merrymaking, however, was eventually interrupted. Just as Hilda thought they would, in the early afternoon, the city council representatives came and it was the teeny-tiny, bespectacled one who led the horde. He smiled sheepishly at Hilda’s front door and she let him in, smiling mischievously to herself as she thought he would be all too easy to dupe.
   “It;s good to see you again, Miss Goneril,” he said as he politely shuffled through her kitchen, having visited numerous times before, he was aware of its attachment to Hilda’s art studio, “it’s been far too long since we’ve last seen each other.”
   “I’d say.” Hilda snickered as she opened up the door to the studio for him.
   Ignatz vibrated as he adjusted his glasses, “The day of the Festival is tomorrow and we’ve got all the preparations to unveil your sculpture tomorrow, we’re very excited.”
   “Yeah… about that…” Hilda murmured.
   Ignatz glanced, confused, at Hilda but his confusion only thickened as he glanced around her rustic workspace. Everything was in a clutter but there was a pattern to it, he noticed, it was clean enough without being minimal. Things had places, purposes, but what he could not find was the thing that should be most obvious of all.
   “Miss Goneril…” he began, concerned, turning his head to Hilda who toyed with a strand of her hair in seemingly absent thought but her pink eyes were vivid with a scheme, he could tell. “Where is the statue we commissioned? It should be finished, should it not?”
   “Yeah, I got bored and gave up.” Hilda shrugged. “Spent all your money and stuff, it was much more fun than working with that stupid bronze, ugh, it was so hard to use.”
   “Miss Goneril!” Ignatz exclaimed at the top his lungs whilst Hilda giggled devilishly to herself. “There will be repercussions for this, I can promise you that! Hearings, fines, returns. You will never get work again in this city for such a gross misuse of our resources and trust.”
   “Whatever you say, glasses.” Hilda shrugged.
   The door to the studio jangled and Ignatz could have jumped out of his skin. He watched with a slack jaw as the most beautiful young woman walked into the studio. She was slender and pure with hair of blue to rival that of the morning sky and eyes of a winter grey. Her demure presence would be enough to capture the attention of anyone, not just Ignatz. However, it was the bronze jewellery that she bedecked herself with that most caught Ignatz’s curiosity as such accessories were most certainly would have been made by Hilda.
   “Is everything alright, Hilda?” asked Marianne. “I thought I heard a commotion.”
   “It's alright, Ignatz was just scolding me for wasting governmental money but its no skin off my back.” Hildra shrugged.
   Marianne gave Hilda a solemn glare, it seemed she thought that was a bad idea as well. At least the pause in conversation gave Ignatz time to recover from seeing such a striking woman in a place - and time - like this.
   “Hello, ma’am, I don’t believe we’ve met before…” Ignatz said and he had the strangest inkling that he had seen her face somewhere before, stranger still, not in a person but perhaps in a drawing or in something else similarly arcane.
   “Ignatz, you rude little man,” Hilda scolded him now, hands on her hips, “this is my partner, we’ve been courting for about a year now.”
   “O-oh, my apologies.” Ignatz said and he decided now would be a good time to go before he further stuffed his foot in his mouth. He straightened up his coat and glared, rather ineffectually, at Hilda. “We will be sending you a very strongly worded letter quite soon, Miss Goneril,” he softened, “but I wish you the best between yourself and your beau.”
   Hilda smiled and she reached out for Marianne. Their hands entangled lovingly in one another with Hilda snuggling into the side of Marianne’s slender frame.
   “Thank you, Ignatz.” Hilda said. “For the well wishes, not the letter.”
   “Good day to you both.” Ignatz said firmly and with that, he left.
   However, Marianne still called out to him, “Have a lovely day, may the Goddess be with you.”
   Hilda chuckled to herself and she kissed Marianne’s knuckles. Marianne smiled and she felt her heart flutter. What a lovely yet peculiar sensation in her chest, she was eager for more of it. To know life beyond that of her origins as a cast of bronze.
   “I love you.” Marianna whispered.
   “I love you too.” Hilda replied to her.
   Hilda was still holding Marianne’s hands and she had marvellous hands as an artisan, Marianne thought. They were hands firmer than those of a statue;s but it further assured Marianne that she was in the company of a very capable woman to love and be loved by. Truly, by the Goddess, a mere statue could not be more blessed to have an artist as her lover and creator, Marianne found herself thinking as she kissed a grateful kiss onto Hilda’s loving mouth.
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your love is my turning page
(based on “Turning Page” by Sleeping at Last because I listened to it the other day and cried like...twice)
tw: whump, major character ‘death’, blood mention, canon typical violence but only briefly, snuggling, fluff
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Geralt cradled the bard’s body gently against his chest as he exited the keep, which was burning to a massive stony heap behind him. His amber gaze was blank and his mouth formed a thin, grim line as he moved steadily towards the side of the path ahead, where Roach and the sorceress were waiting for his triumphant return. How disappointed they would be.
Yennefer gasped and covered her mouth with her hand when she finally saw what Geralt was carrying, her tone utterly disbelieving. “No, Geralt. Tell me it isn’t true. Please tell me that he isn’t-”
“We didn’t make it in time, Yen.”
“Geralt, I’m-”
“It doesn’t matter,” the Witcher interrupted again. His voice was toneless and his eyes were glazed and empty when he spoke. Yennefer worried her lip between her teeth, mouth still hidden by her hand. She reached out for Geralt with the other but he growled and flinched away from the contact, “Don’t.”
“Just let me-”
“Don’t touch him, Yen!” the Witcher bellowed, curling his arms up and holding the bard’s limp form against his chest. Tears leaked from his eyes, slow and impossible in their appearance (Witchers physically cannot cry, or so he’d thought). They made their way down his stubbled cheeks and fell noiselessly to the ground. Some of them hung from the end of his nose for a moment before plummeting. Some dropped down to form damp, grey marks on the material of the bard’s half-open chemise. A chemise covered in dark, drying smears of blood.
Jaskier’s blood.
Too much of Jaskier’s blood. 
The Witcher fell to his knees in a patch of flowers and pulled the broken form of his best friend even tighter to him. “I...I’m sorry I was too late this time,” he murmured against the crown of Jaskier’s clammy forehead. His slender, long-limbed body still hadn’t gone entirely cold yet despite the blood-loss. “Gods, I’m so sorry.”
There were marks carved all over the bard’s torso, oozing blood through the thin material of his shirt; Geralt had seen the bloody sigils glowing faintly before he’d killed the crazed mage who’d put them there. The Witcher had pulled Jaskier’s shirt back down to cover his wounds and absconded with him, casting a careless Igni on his way out the door. 
The mage had needed a human sacrifice. The mage had chosen Jaskier.
Yen placed a gentle hand atop Jaskier’s unmoving shoulder and Geralt heard her empathetic sigh. “I’m sorry, Geralt.”
“I waited nearly a hundred years for someone to come along and show me what love was supposed to feel like and I’d wait a million more; but only for him,” the Witcher admitted. There was no reason not to admit things, now, when he couldn’t ruin anything between them. He laid the bard’s body down beside a small patch of daisies and buttercups and let the aching, burning tears continue their cascade down his face. He didn’t say anything more for a moment; words had never been his strong suit.
“Tell him now,” Yen suggested, her own voice watery with emotion, “Tell him everything. I’ll give you a moment alone.”
Yen wandered a few steps into the treeline to give them privacy, to give Geralt a moment alone with his paralyzed but absolutely not dead bard. She smirked to herself and wiped the forced tears from her eyes. Like taking candy from an enormous, stupid baby. Can he not hear the faint beating of his little bard’s resilient human heart?
“I’d give anything to see you smile at me again, Jaskier. I’m so, so sorry that we didn’t make it to you in time. I’m sorry that you died like this, for the sake of a greedy, power-hungry asshole. You were so bright. You brought so much happiness to the Continent. You brought so much happiness to me.”
Geralt, still kneeling next to Jaskier’s limp form, brushed a stray lock of brown hair behind the bard’s ear and felt a primal sense of loss wrap around every individual piece of his shattered and slow-beating heart. “If only I could have caressed your skin as softly as I often dream of doing. If only I could have felt your warmth in such a simple, human way. You made me stronger every time you coveted my weaknesses, you know. Even when I failed, you stayed at my side and told me how strong and kind I was. How brave I was. Your heart was so delicate and human and fragile. You forced me to work every day to improve myself. I would have done anything to keep you from breaking under the weight of this awful world and yet-” the Witcher’s voice broke completely and he only barely managed to gasp out “-and yet here we are.”
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Jaskier could hear everything. The too-sweet paralyzation agent force-fed to him by the evil mage was close to wearing off but until then the bard could only listen as the man of his dreams mourned his apparent death. He could only lay in stunned silence as Yennefer noticed the presence of the mixed herbs and refused to mention them to Geralt. Perhaps this was her gift to Jaskier; perhaps this was an apology. Whatever twisted form of affection she was showing her new friend for now, though, had the bard feeling more than a little upset.
He hated seeing Geralt so worked up. So sad. So hurt.
“I’m going to miss your presence in the world, Jaskier. I’m going to miss the way you smiled when you blushed; gods, I wanted to make you smile at me like that so many times...it was blinding. The way your lip would curl up and your tongue would poke out when you scribbled your poems into that damned expensive notebook at inns or near the fire. Gods, I-”
“I could fix him for you,” Yen offered, returning from the trees. It was almost nonchalant in its casualness. Almost. 
“What’s the price for such an impressive feat?” Geralt asked. He smoothed the bard’s hair back again. He’d need to bury the corpse soon; he could barely stand to look at it any longer. It’s not Jaskier anymore, not without those sparkling eyes and that trembling, velvet voice. 
He’d do anything to hear that voice again, even Jaskier was only cussing him out or calling him every name in the book. He’d listen to a thousand repetitions of every insult hurled his way by every villager across the Continent if it meant Jaskier was saying them with the voice Geralt knew he’d never hear again. 
His voice was low and quiet when he asked the sorceress: “What kind of ingredients would you need for such a task?”
“I would need a sacrifice of equal value. Those runes can only be transferred from one person to another.”
Geralt’s head whipped around and his eyes widened hopefully. “Use me. If that will bring him back then take me.”
“And get horrifically murdered when he wakes to find his darling Witcher dead and buried? No, thank you. I don’t have a death wish.”
Smart woman, Jaskier thought. Just give me the antidote or whatever magical cure I know you’re hiding, Yennefer! Let me up! Let me comfort him, I’ve heard enough!
She’d clearly been listening to his thoughts because just as he summoned the worst of his insults to silently throw her way, Yen relented. She knelt beside Geralt and leaned forward, pressing her palm to the center of Jaskier’s forehead. There was a soft purple glow and Geralt panicked, “What are you doing!? You just said-”
“I lied,” she shrugged. “He was just paralyzed. You should have been able to hear his heart, faint as it was.”
“You...you mean…” Jaskier’s eyes slowly fluttered open and he groaned softly. The Witcher’s eyes were wide and shimmered with new tears as he leaned over the bard’s prostrate figure. “Jaskier?”
“Did-” he coughed and groaned again but pushed on “-did you mean it?”
“Every word,” Geralt smiled shyly. He hadn’t thought Witchers could blush, either, but here they sat; Geralt’s cheeks were pale pink and Jaskier was still heaving out labored breaths.
“Here are some basic healing supplies for the bard’s chest,” Yen interrupted, tossing a linen bag towards Geralt, who caught it easily. “I’m going to be on my way. You two need a moment, seems like.”
“Thank you, Yen,” Jaskier smiled. Geralt glanced between the two but before he could ascertain the bard’s meaning, the sorceress had fled through one of her portals and disappeared. As soon as she was gone, Jaskier let out the loud, anguished cry he’d been holding back in her presence. “Fuck me, this hurts! Fuck!”
“Fucking hells,” Geralt scrambled through the bag for some kind of pain relief. He placed a few drops of poppy tincture at the end of Jaskier’s tongue and lifted him slowly from the ground. “Let’s get you to an inn. I need to treat those cuts and I can’t do it very well in the grass.”
“My big, scary Witcher,” Jaskier smiled, hooking his arms around Geralt’s neck as he was lifted into the White Wolf’s embrace. “Taking care of me so well.”
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That night, Geralt laid with Jaskier’s head atop his chest. The oddly patterned cuts across the bard’s torso were now covered in salve and bandaged tightly.
“None of my training prepared me for this,” the Witcher admitted, kissing Jaskier’s petal-soft cheek with the utmost reverence. 
“What is this?” the bard asked.
“I am yours,” Geralt stated. It was a simple fact. A fact he’d accepted the moment he realized he hadn’t lost Jaskier forever. The younger man’s face went bright red and he nuzzled closer to his rescuer’s side. Geralt’s strong arm was looped around his back, holding him close. “If you’ll have me, of course.”
“Gladly.”
The bard leaned up and pressed his lips to Geralt’s. It was soft, tender, and endlessly healing. Warmth spread through the Witcher’s body, spreading from his heart to each and every one of his limbs. He pulled the bard completely on top of him and wrapped his arms around the man’s lower back to anchor him. Jaskier crossed his arms over Geralt’s chest and rested his chin there. 
“Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell, When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well.”
“Is that your newest composition?” the Witcher asked, running his hand through Jaskier’s soft brown hair as he sang. The bard nodded. 
“It’s a love song. About a Witcher...and a bard.”
“Hmm. I can’t wait to hear it.”
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In our own image... (21)
Chapter 21
(Poe Dameron x OFC)
Other chapters... My Masterlist
Word count: 2k. Read it on AO3.
Rating: Teen & Up (PG) mind control.
A/N Update schedule going to T/Fri for a while. The low interaction on this combined with my writer’s block are making it likely this may eventually just get shelved.
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Everything was… fuzzy. Like he was seeing it through a pane of ancient glass. The kind people used to melt down from sand rather than manufacturing transparisteel. There were waves and ripples in reality. Warping his vision. Sometimes if he moved his head too fast it was as though the world took a minute to catch up. Sliding past his eyes in slow motion.
His world had narrowed down to very few things worth thinking about. He eats when he is hungry. Relieves himself when he feels the need to do so. Sleeps when he is told.
And he serves.
He kneels by their thrones, hands and feet and mind ready when they ask. Trying to anticipate their every whim. They pet him sometimes, running gentle hands through his hair and he hums in appreciation. Sometimes they are not so nice. Sometimes the hands are claws, digging into his skin. He has displeased them, but he doesn’t know how.
They keep telling him he’s fighting. The voices around him that slink through his mind like smoke. The song that thrums into the back of head, pulsing along the veins of his body. Stop fighting, it says to him, over and over. Like a mantra he never asked for. Stop fighting and be ours. He strains towards the voices, towards the song, the beat, the melody. He wants to hold it in his hands and press it into his heart.
He tries to tell them. Tries to tell them he’s not fighting. He’s stretching, reaching, wanting, waiting. He’s not fighting. He could never fight them. Would never want to. He is here to serve.
When they take his clothes and order him to bathe he doesn’t fight them. Nor does he fight when they give him back only a pair of thin, loose trousers to wear. He takes his place with the others happily, in a line of other bare-chested men and loosely garbed women who are also there to serve.
He appreciates being one of many, appreciates being one who serves. That’s what the song tells him. He doesn’t even need to hear it anymore to know the melody by heart. He is one who serves.
He kneels with the others, eyes bright with adoration when his goddesses come. When one touches him his whole body quakes with need. When she places a finger beneath his chin he tilts his head up to her, begging her silently to love him.
But then she moves away, her face disappointed and he feels it like a knife through his heart. She tells him again that he is fighting. Doesn’t he want to be theirs?
He does, he wants it so badly he can feel his heart break at the accusation in her voice. He nods so fiercely his hair falls into his eyes, his hands reaching out to clasp the hem of her robe. Clenching his fingers into it with a wordless plea. She pauses, looking down on him with a harsh gaze. Then plucking his fingers from her one by one until he is left to hold nothing but air.
He has displeased her.
Pain fills his heart. His mind. He wants nothing but to please her. The look on her face shatters him, sends him reeling. He clasps for the melody again but it feels wrong somehow. Not as comforting.
Hasn’t he done everything they have asked of him? When the man came, claiming to be his friend, claiming he needed to leave, he had sent him away. Told the truth. Told him that his place was here, that it was all he wanted.
They had not been disappointed in him then. Had praised him, laying him across a throne and caressing his chest. His arms. His neck. He had reveled in being the center of their world, of having these ethereal beings focused on him. They had painted designs on him, sang him the song and he had tried, he really had. He had become lost in them and what they were doing with their fingertips. The intricate swirls and patterns in deep gold they drew across his body that reminded him of Her eyes.
Her.
Someone else. Another goddess. Not here. She was not here, was somewhere else. But as he fell, as he was lured into the deep with them he had reached out and She was there waiting. Holding Her arms out to him and he had fallen into Her gratefully. Wrapped himself in Her warmth.
They say he is fighting but he’s not.
He will serve them while he waits. Serve them until he can serve Her. He adores them and will take every opportunity to tell them so. To show them with his body and his heart that he belonged to them.
But his soul…. he is Hers.
It’s most difficult with the one that looks like Her. When she caresses his face or traces her fingers across the designs set upon his bare chest he feels himself swaying. When she croons into his ear he can almost feel her fingers plucking at his defenses, pulling him piece by piece away from Her. But he never strays far. Has only to see her eyes to know that she is not Her.
It angers her. She struck him once for it, a hard slap that set his ears ringing - drowning out for just a second the song that thrummed in his blood. He had blinked at her, brows furrowing in confusion. Had seen the look of shock that went over her face before she was on her knees with him, hands cupping his cheeks, her lips on his as she sang her song directly into his body and as quickly as that he was sinking again. Falling through the air and feeling the joy of flight once more. The weightlessness, the freedom. Falling down down down down…
That was nearly it for him. Sinking into the tune she was playing on his tongue. Had she not stopped to gloat, to give him a feral, catlike smile he might have never stopped. Might have lost himself.
But her eyes were not Hers. They pulled him up short and the part of him that was still him searched in the darkness for Her.
He wasn’t fighting - but neither was he giving in.
They seem afraid to let him stray. To lose sight of him. While others were sent on errands, he is always by their side. A hand in his hair while they pet him like a dog. He doesn’t mind, the attention makes him happy. He catches his sleep that way - he has to. When he is alone, apart from them for too long his head begins to hurt. He had discovered that the first day, waking from nightmares of blaster fire and danger and loneliness. His head pounding like it was going to explode. He had dragged himself from the room he was given, presented himself to their mercy.
Since then he never slept alone. Always touching, always reaching. They each accommodated him in a different way. One allowing him to curl across the foot of her bed where he could wrap his fingers around her soft ankle. Another allowing him to sit on the floor near the pillows, his fingers wrapped into strands of her hair.
But his favorite was the one who used him herself. Laying him out into the soft pillows and nuzzling her face into his stomach. He always slept soundest with her in his arms. Her touch on his skin.
He couldn’t have told you how long he was there, wrapped in their song. Feeling it sink deeper and deeper inside of him until the notes were carved into his bones. It could have been an eternity spent happily in their service. He no longer looks at the people who occasionally come to visit. The ones who do not love his mistresses.
How could they be so blind? How could they be in their presence and not love them. It pains him. He wishes he could show them the way, the light, the truth of what they are. Some of the visitors give him looks of pity he does not understand. One man in a grey suit with red and blue bars across his breast laughed, had offered to purchase him. He had sat in fearful silence while his mistresses discussed the offer, relieved when they had turned the man down.
He belonged here. Not with that man with the sallow cheeks who called him 'Dameron' like it was a curse. When the man left they had asked him if he had wanted to leave. If he wanted to be 'Dameron' again.
He had assured them that whoever this 'Dameron' was he had no interest in being them. Only in being theirs. They had laughed, soothing his agitation with musical notes and three sets of hands were stroking him and he never wanted to hear the name again.
He is happy. Trusted finally. They send him on small errands. Fetching fruit or other things to sustain them. Today they have asked for wine and he leapt to his feet to be of service. He strides the halls confident, bare feet padding on the stone floor. He stands tall, proud, wanting to prove that he is worthy of their grace.
The storage room he goes to first is full of food, delicate bites that have been gifted from all over the known galaxy. The next is the same. The third is what he is looking for, flagons of sweet red wine lining the shelves. He chooses one carefully, cradling it in his hands before leaving. He is brought up short by the sight of two women in the hallway. One is forgettable, brown hair pulled back from her face and a short metal rod at her side. But the other…
It’s Her.
He falls to his knees, mouth gaping open, flagon slipping from his fingers. He doesn’t notice it stop before hitting the floor, doesn’t see the woman next to Her hold a hand out and gently set it down a few feet away without even touching it. All he can see is Her face. The beautiful designs on Her body that mark Her as celestial.
Poe stops fighting.
She is saying something. Something about luck and chances. Her hand reaches out to him and he takes it, his body convulsing at the feeling of Her skin on his. She is urging him back into the tunnels, away from his mistresses but he doesn’t care. She is who he was waiting for.
She is everything.
He won’t let Her go. As they duck out a side door and She is rushing him through narrower and more crowded tunnels he refuses to let Her go. Grips Her hand with his until She has to stop, turn to him. Place a hand on his cheek and he leans into it with his mouth.
The other woman is speaking, he can hear a whistle and a tinned voice in response. But whatever they are saying is nothing compared to being able to taste Her. Her fingers press to his mouth and he looks into Her eyes. The ones he’s dreamed about. Beautiful and deep and kind and everything the others were not. He is falling again, but this time there is nothing to catch him. He can feel the bliss overtaking him, the need to wrap himself into Her and never let go.
Her eyes are urging him to do something, her hands pulling him and he follows willingly. Leaves behind his lesser goddesses for this one. The only one. The one he had chosen. And all the while he can feel his mind receding further and further into the dark warmth of the song. Her name written alongside his own deep inside himself.
He follows because it’s the only thing he knows how to do. He follows because it’s what is right. He follows because it’s what She wants.
He’d follow Her into death itself.
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roses-shadow · 4 years
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A what if fic DMC5 Mission 17
Random fic thought I had awhile ago. Finally wrote it all down. I don’t have an Ao3 account so Ima just post it here.
Edited to add in the spaces that were eaten up. Still figuring out the formating.
Summary
It’s all an illusion, created by this extraordinary fruit.
Sitting upon one of the branches of the tree in front of him, Eva smiled.
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Dante had finally caught up at last, falling down into the pit where Urizen was in a backdrop of their childhood home. It caught him off guard for a moment, being able to see it as it once was in his memories rather than the destroyed wreck it was in actuality. He wondered if Urizen had created the image, hungry for a taste of home himself.
He could see Urizen positioned in front of the gnarled up extension of the demonic tree, standing motionless save for the roots that still clung to him. It seemed as if he were lost in thought, starring transfixed at whatever fruit had formed for him, not that Dante could see what it looked like with his brother’s hulking form blocking the view.
“Hey, so do I get to see the damn fruit you’ve been jabbering about or are you busy writing you name on it or something?” Dante goaded, hoping to draw his brother away.
Of course, Urizen was indifferent and refused to respond. Dante huffed, taking a few steps closer and widely gesturing to the general area.
“Yup, this is where it all started,” he began, slowly moving closer to Urizen. “The day mother saved me and –”
Dante had walked close enough to see more of the tree behind Urizen’s bulk and stopped short.
Sitting upon one of the branches of the tree in front of him, Eva smiled.
“Hello Dante,” she greeted warmly.
“What the hell,” Dante breathed. “...Mom?”
He took a second to take it in. She was dressed in the same clothes she had died in, the horror of that day leaving an imprint of her in his mind: a black dress with her favorite red shawl draped over her shoulders. Her hands rested primly over her lap as she balanced perfectly on the branch. She looked real, demonic shenanigans or not.
“What is going on?” Dante demanded. “Mom?” Eva bit her lip and gave him a conflicted look and he was impatient enough to bother his brother instead. “Vergil?”
Fortunately, he decided to respond. “This is all merely an illusion, created by this extraordinary fruit,” Urizen absentmindedly explained.  “All meant to entice one by giving them what they have always wanted.”
“Always wanted, huh,” Dante mused, eyes staying fixed on Eva. He’d had Trish to rely on as a living legacy of his mother –a more badass version, at least, who could more than hold her own against any of the small fry demons they dealt with. But a more accurate version would be amazing. If he could just get through to Vergil, without having to kill him, and clean up his mess in the process...it’d be the best thing ever if he could have his actual family again. To be able to tell Nero just how closely they were related, let him get to know his own grandmother, and maybe introduce him properly to his own father; but that was another mess to deal with right there. And to have his brother be the one to dream up their mother and a nice peaceful day at their childhood home as his greatest wish? It gave him hope.
Dante lifted a hand and gestured to Eva and the house in the distance, giving an actual genuine smile to her, small as it was. “Well, you’re making a good case for it. Finally realized what matters more than being a power hungry douchebag, brother?”
Eva raised her eyebrow, giving him a look. It made Dante avoid eye contact as he shuffled in place, running a hand through his hair. Years without his mother and he wasn’t doing a good job of impressing her with his manners.
His brother, meanwhile, was dismissive of their small exchange and replied with his standard broken record answer. “On the contrary,” Urizen retorted. “Absolute power is the only thing that matters.”
Dante sighed heavily. He placed his hands on his hips and looked down for a moment to gather his thoughts, trying to figure out a way to get through to his stubborn brother’s obsession with power when a version of their mother was literally right in front of his face. “Look, that day, when mom saved me? She didn’t leave you behind. She kept searching and searching until it killed her.”
“It’s true,” Eva added, looking at Urizen sadly. “I found Dante first but I hid him away before I went to look for you. I couldn’t leave without the both of you.”
Urizen reached for her then, offering his hand as a perch for Eva to climb into. She went willingly, bracing herself on his fingers as she settled herself onto his palm. She gazed up at him affectionately and he gave her a considering look in return, prodding her hair with a single fingertip then slowly trailing it down her face, briefly making her close her eyes as it passed by. He continued to drag it down past her neck and toward the center of her chest, then paused. Eva looked down at where he had paused, then took a breath, meeting his eyes again as she waited for him to decide what to do next.
Dante was hoping he was checking for a heartbeat, further proof that Eva was alive and able to have a part in their lives again.
Urizen had not looked away from where he had stopped his hand. “Futile of you to appeal to me when I have no recollection of this tale.”
He pressed his fingertip into her chest.
Eva gasped, hunching forward and gripping onto his finger with both hands in a fruitless manner in an attempt to push him out. “Vergil,” she panted.
“Vergil, what are you doing?” Dante screamed, rushing forward but already knowing he was too far away to stop him.
“What I have come here to acquire,” Urizen said, continuing to carve open Eva’s chest as she screamed. “And with this, I will have everything.”
Dante was expecting a human heart, but what came out of his mother’s chest was a close simulacrum for a demonic one: textured with a branching over layer, still beating and giving off a dark mist. It was large enough that it was taking up all the space needed for the other organs. Eva was arching backwards as Urizen pulled it free, snapping a connecting cord that made her let out one last gasp before falling limp. His eyes were fixed on the heart as he absentmindedly dropped Eva’s corpse to the ground. He raised it to his lips, blood dripping down his fingers and ate it.
Dante stopped, despair and resignation on his face. He looked down at where Eva lay, closed his eyes and sighed in disappointment.
The illusion of their home shattered, the sky darkening as the tree before them evaporated into a red mist. Dante watched Urizen as he shed the roots covering his body, the pieces large enough to fall on Eva and bury her underneath, only her blond hair barely visible.
“No brother, you don’t have everything,” Dante said quietly, bracing himself for a fight. “That last shred of humanity that you still had?” He scoffed in disgust. “You just lost it.”
Urizen turned his head toward Dante. “That,” he spat, slowly stomping his way to Dante, “Is nothing but the pitiful cries of those without strength. Come to me, brother.” He gestured toward himself, taunting Dante. “I shall enlighten you, Dante.”
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Later, after Vergil had come back to himself, he turned to where Eva was buried and stared.
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