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me holding out my neck to the vampires: come get yall juice

#me

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Takato Yamamoto

#unf #boyoh #vampire

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#yea

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A cut transgirl romance comic by Garun

#tbh this fucked me up

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me, in 2014: haha what is up with people who want to fuck monsters that’s disgusting 

me, now: 3 werewolves fucked me in a denny’s bathroom

#me

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Girls are so beautiful, i can’t wait to get absolutely railed by one.

#mood

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I used to hit on the demon under my bed but decided to follow the McElroy brothers advice "if someone cannot run away from you don't hit on them"

#demon #mcelroy brothers #advice #me #hot demon #in my opinion #god need my some of that good demon d #thankyou brothers for helping me see #the seething darkness under my bed for the person they are #and not the magical sex adventure I imagined them to be

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P fun for a 3 min doodle

#art #skeleton

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I'm starting to think my self destructive behaviours are beginning to actually cause damage in ways I can only catch a glimpse of. Out of the corner of my eye is where I can see reality starting to warp, colour start to dim, and hear the sound of dry black grass rustle in moisture sucking wind.

#me

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Reason it's good to take the bus:

Some time you get to see drop dead gorgeous people

#positive #happy

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I've been asked if I'm okay by a lot of people recently and I always get like befuddled by the question. "Yeah I'm fine" is always gonna be the answer cus my problems aren't serious enough to complain about and as such I'm always made uncomfortable when I'm asked if I'm okay. Because I usually don't know why I'm being asked it.

What I love though, is when people tell me I look like shit. Like a coworker of mine just said "you need to go home, you look awful" and it makes me feel nice cause they aren't like walking on egg shells. They care and because of that they don't coddle me like a child. It's so validating when someone not only sees but then points out "hey, you look like you're in pain" and it's just nice. Cause then I can go, "yeah, I feel like shit thankyou for noticing". Being able to be honest about it a vent like that is awesome and god it's always welcome cause it feels amazing.

#personal #venting

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Marcille reaction images

#I saw this set of images and just this wave of #I want to be like that #I want to look like that #me

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Oh Dyin’

So this mourning I rewrote the song Oh Diane by Fleetwood Mac cus I wanted to, if you’re interested you can see why bellow. Oh no, Here I go, again No will, to live, again Joy is like a grain of sand Slowly slippin' through your hand Oh Oh Dyin' Oh Oh Dyin' Wanna give up, I will, Always. Will I hold, my ground, Always. 'Cause joy is like a grain of sand Slowly slippin' through your hand Whoa, whoa, whoa Talkin' 'bout Dyin' Oh Oh Dyin' Oh Oh Dyin' Oh Oh Dyin' Talkin' 'bout Dyin' Oh Oh Dyin'

So I’ve always loved sad things overlayed with very peppy and happy aestheics and forever everytime I’ve heard this song Diane is pronounced so close to Dying that I cant help but want to rewrite it! It also ressonated with my current mood too and I find it v entertaining so yeah. It was really fun to do also! I’ve always loved the idea of rewriting songs so maybe ill do more sometime!

#Music #I make this

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So, holy shit I think I may be trans? Anyway I've come across a couple things this week which are real disconcerting. A friend asked if my given name was my

preferred name. It never occurred to me it was possible to have a name you like or identifyed with. It never occurred to me till recently that people are attached to their identities, that you can have a self that you are because thats you?!? I didn't know you could do that and it fucked me up a bit. I knew I didn't exist much especially as a kid but, now, I'm going to have to relate to myself. And god all mighty that's, really fucking dawnting. I learnt like yesterday that people do things because they enjoy them, and that fucked me up too. It's such a level of, its such a other idea to me. Like, how am I going to start doing that? I've always wanted a guide to life handbook or atleast like, a reference sheet! For how the average person lives! I'm just so lost I have no idea where to start tbh. It occurs to me that, though physically I can heal from stuff to the point that pain is temporary and all damage can be negated in no time, I'm several layers behind mentally. I knew I'm not healthy mentally, and I know I'm very far behind in knowledge and in general experience. But it's, sometime very exhausting, looking at people and not being able to relate, to almost anything. I've winged every conversation since I can remember but now more then ever am I flying by the seat of my pants. I've not got alot of content. I'm leagues behind in that aspect, all the stories I've got have been made with the people I already know, and the rest of my history I've forgotten, don't know how to describe or just isn't interesting or constructive? And so I just try to be interesting I guess, I really enjoy the people I'm around and god they're important for my sanity and also just as people I can learn from. But god I'm so worried about my value to them, currently I'm holding it together with improve jokes and what little good moral value I have but, I'm a water cracker. I spent essentially 14 years locked in a room of various houses not doing anything, I set out a little during my teen years but I didn't actively start going and doing things until I was 19. It doesn't help that I can't remember, like, important details, about my friends. Or even understand important details when I remember them. It can take me weeks to realise that I had the wrong idea about what someone said. I don't know, im tired, I'm heading into an empty patch socially and I wanna die. It's exhausting, buuuuuuuuut I'm not dead yet XD and there's fun time occasionally too so that good.

#personal

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Just a note to self, if you wanna make new words just copy what English has done for forever now. Look at words in German French Latin and where ever else English words come from that match the meaning you want and then English them.

#r #linguistics

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Here's a short excerpt from something I texted to a friend, jus cus I liked it

"Yes it's true, I don't need to thank you buuuut I wanna thank you. I believe good people should be thanked for being good, it's a value to often ignored and assumed as a standard so as not to be given credit for, and I don't agree with that. But also I just like saying thank you to people! I love showing gratitude!"

#personal #happy #gratitude

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Would you believe me if I said I found this on a random unnamed cd?