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#will graham #beverly katz #Hannibal nbc #he’s soooooo meeeee

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Well, that friend I had a fallout with texted after a month. I was worried, though I did suspect she was taking a break. Didn’t mind it, of course— but her message is extremely dismissive and I have been laid off as a friend. “I appreciated” “you were always” and yeah all too familiar.

Can’t help but feel a bit betrayed despite it being me the one who sparked the disagreement we had. I didn’t do it consciously, I was stupid and rash and should have taken her feelings into consideration. And I am deeply hypocritical thinking she should have given me a heads up. Now she’s a month ahead into dismissing me— and I feel it.

I feel really sad about this, despite everything. It was a short friendship but she was a smart, sweet girl and I appreciated her beyond fandom shit. And fuck fandom. And fuck it for real. But she has also frustrated me in the way she handled it. I suppose I didn’t deserve a second try and it’s fine. I will respect her boundaries.

But to say “if you wanna get it off your chest” don’t you? She worried about being immature and what if she was sometimes? I never cared. I never cared about her being sensitive and letting herself feel. I never give myself space for that. What exactly is being immature in her mind? It was refreshing to see someone so attune to what they felt. Come to think of it—I am immature. I am immature writing this now and complaining about everything to no one and always rationalizing everything. And I will be a coward in not replying because everything I say sounds dismissive and framed as a farewell. And I don’t wish for it.

Anyway I’m just all over the place about this. I’m just ranting and victimizing myself. Look away.

#personal #sighhhh #another day in my baka life #Idk what to reply at this point I will not #despite my throat constricting about knowing we will never speak again #I can feel it how she’s not interested anymore ando must respect that #she had these gego cat plushies coming in the mail and i was so excited for her #and now i also have to draft her birthday gift because we are both Leos #it’s whatever #idk why I’m so sensitive #Ig I let the whole ‘it’s not that serious ‘ façade fall for a sec and cared too much #oh well it’s the void #I like the void I like to speak my mind when no one’s watching

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#jjk #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #sugusato #gego #satosugu #every time I’m grieving you guys will get fucked in the ass just like me #I need to vent through this stupid idiot white haired guy #I’m not saying you’re a liar #florence and the machine #that’s the song if you’re curious

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Every strong emotion I have about anything always leads to the same lingering feeling I have of grief. Everything. Not to scare any of you but having someone you truly love die will change you molecularly. It will be a before and after. I will never be the same person again.

#personal #grief/mourning #I jump from grief to horny in a second but that’s how that works and I’m sorry of this is triggering #but this one is like a pivotal part of me #I’ve never been the same ever since and I will never be the same person again #they lied when they said time heals all wounds. It really doesn’t.

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This comment had me cackling I love it

#geto suguru #gego #THE AGENDA HAS BEEN SPREAD #xxl magnum cock Geto CANON

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Turns out the coworker I hated on few months ago was actually really sweet and helpful 😭😭😭😭 I’m so sorry girl

#personal #my job

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Cried at work again

#personal #I wanna kms

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I need to draw more bizarre huge cock massive distension porn before I collapse and die idc if I get qtr to death like the last time 🤣

#personal #SOMEONE HAS TOOOOOO #someone has to give Geto his massive xxl cock and that someone has to be ME #too bad I’m seeing my friends today and probably won’t have time #I mean not bad bc I love seeing them but y’know what I mean 🫵🫵🫵🫵

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#personal #SOMEONE HELP ME #ITS SO FUCKING HOT ALL DAY I CANT SLEEP

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Baby albino changyuraptor spooked by her own reflection, realizing that she's not like her other siblings.

#paleoart #changyuraptor #theropod

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Liking bottom Geto a whole mental illness

#personal #oopssss LMFAOOOO #but did I lie #i did I got bttm Geto on my fyp and i had to vent #my profile is top Geto ONLY tho so if you get offended idk what to tell u girl

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I might be the only person in the Hannibal fandom that likes Will to top exclusively :T

#hannibal nbc #everyone likes sadistic mean Hannibal or whatever #or make them switch like no #I want Will to top all the time LOL #it’s okay tho

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Hannibal (2013-2015)

Will Graham + shirtless

#hannibal nbc #will graham

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Oh sorry for not uploading art I was writing. ^^ oh sorry for not writing I was drawing. ^^;;;;;;; Oh…… sorry for not drawing I— I’m trying to write…. I need to update my fic what’s up with all these WIPs? I don’t remember how to hold a pen… why did I even upload this fic in the first place? Sorry for not…… uploading…..

#personal #this is how my baka life be like #and add A FUCK ASS JOB IN BETWEEN #painful

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#jjk #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #sugusato #gego #OKAYYYY BOYFRIENDS #Geto looks so smug hehe I love him #satosugu

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#jjk #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #slut #WHO SAID THAT #whore whore you’re such a WHORE #and you also died a virgin probably BUT!!!!!!

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I’D RATHER TAKE MY WHISKEY NEAT (I mix it with coke) MY COFFE BLACK (I don’t like black coffee) AND MY BED AT 3 (I got to bed at 9:00pm) YOU’RE TOO SWEET FOR ME (I have a sweet tooth)

#personal #THIS SONG IS ABOUT ME YALL #liar #hozier #too sweet