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Dude. Happy for you. Wish I hadn’t heard about this on Twitter.

#lolsnort #I’m gonna laugh #cause my other option is to cry #and I already shed a few tears about this #so I’m gonna get off social media #watch frozen #and drown in fanfiction

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Me, waking up, seeing that SPN fandom is once again going crazy because the 8x17 script has revealled that Dean's much talked about "I love you" to Cas comes across even more obviously romantic as it doesn't include the "we're family, we need you" parts and instead starts with "I forgive you"

AND

MIsha Collins, ever an agent of chaos, has confirmed a formerly open secret in Cockles shipper circles that he pretty much always lived with Jensen when filming SPN.

I can't process this much new SPN information so soon after waking 7 months after the show has ended

#I woke up this morning #expecting it to be just another morning #and I saw a text from Misha #and I opened it #and my immediate thought following it was #‘he wants to see the fandom implode’ #supernatural #destiel #cockles #it never ends #misha collins

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It’s Here!!!

I got my @tohellandbackanthology book today, and I’m finally getting a chance to sit down and look at it. I was just overcome with so many emotions and started crying in my bedroom, clutching this book to my heart.

It’s been a wild last 18 months, and this definitely is a Top 5 Best Moments. And I can’t wait to get lost in it’s pages. And my roommates will be delighted to not have me saying “book book book book book” every time I come across something that reminded me that it was almost here.

Now it’s time for the hard decisions…

Where am I gonna stick these stickers?

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in high school my friend and i used to judge people based on how good their “birthday” episode of supernatural was LOL like my birthday is july 17 so my episode is 7x17 “the born-again identity” (nice). if you’re past the season finale you loop back to the beginning i.e. she’s nov 27 which gives you 11x04 “baby” (also nice). anyway sound off what’s your birthday episode i’m not going to steal your identity i promise

#spn 9x22 #aka #stairway to heaven #the episode where Cas refused to kill Dean just to show his loyalty to the other angels

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I think Cas would come home with two baby guinea pigs one day without talking to dean about it and dean would grumble at him for hours and then sigh deeply and set to work building an elaborate wooden enclosure for them

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every day i am percieved™️

#wow it me

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So about 35 minutes until I’m in the year 2021. And while time is arbitrary and you shouldn’t feel like you need to start improving yourself on a specific date, I do have a very short list of goals for the New Year.

1. Don’t get the plague.

2. Don’t go into more debt than I already currently am in.

3. Don’t crash my car in a ditch

4. Keep loving my cats

5. Tolerate my roommates at worst (Love them at best)

That is all. That’s all I can give to 2021. 2020 broke me. I’ve set the bar so low this year. If I don’t accomplish all 5, I’ll be big mad

#goodbye 2020 #don’t let the door hit ya on the way out #bitch #2021 goals

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Guys! GUYYYYYS!!!!

Look at what one of my roommates got me for Christmas!

My heart, dudes! I love this so much!

#merry christmas bitches #spn

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If you’re a Dean girl and your favorite female character is Claire

Ooh buddy are you avoiding therapy too?

#yo #just @ me next time #smh 😒 #lmao but seriously #i need to go to therapy #🙃🙃🙃

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Guys, I’ve been MIA for the past couple of days (not that any of you really noticed) because

WE HAVE AN UNEXPECTED BABY IN OUR HOUSE!

So my sister wakes me up at 8am on Thursday, December 17th, 2020 by saying, “Tianna I have a kitten!” And now anyone who has known me for more than 5 minutes knows that I LOVE cats. I always have. And so upon hearing that my sister has a kitten, I am immediately out of bed. I open my door and sure enough, there is my sister, and in her arms is a kitten (looks to be anywhere from 6-9 months old). And my first thought is “omg baby!”

My sister tells me that it’s a girl (now, my sister and I have had cats since we were little kids. I know what to look for to tell the sex. I assume she does too. We’ll get to that later.) and we both immediately recall our family cat, Ellie. She was a tuxie too, and super friendly like this kitten. Our first thought was “this is someone’s Ellie. This kitten has a family out there that must be worried sick.” So we do what any good person who loves animals would do.

We make a post on Nextdoor.

And we scan the humane society lost pets page.

And we search through Facebook.

Nothing.

Okay, well it’s still early in the day. And if this cat’s family is at work or something, they may not know that she’s missing. So we set the kitten up in our downstairs bathroom, and we get her all settled in, and I have to leave for work.

And I couldn’t focus to save my life. I probably wasted two hours of company time just scrolling through my phone looking for someone in my area to say that they’re missing their baby tuxie.

Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached.

I’m texting my roommates that we are NOT naming the kitten! We are NOT keeping the kitten. That we ARE going to find this kitten a home that is not ours. And I’m sure my adamance at not keeping this cat threw them off. I mean... keeping a cat who needed a home was how I got Han Solo

But really, we are NOT keeping this one! So don’t name it. It’ll just make it harder to say goodbye. We’re not keeping her.

Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached.

I get home. My brother in law has named her Berry.

So I go to give Berry (I guess?) some attention, and while I’m playing with her, I get a full blown look at her backside. And wow, that is not female cat genetalia.

So now I have to go to every post I’ve made about this cat and edit that it’s a he, not a she. Back to scanning Facebook and the humane society and oh my gosh did we just lose a whole day of finding this kitten’s family because my sister can’t tell a boy cat from a girl?

So now it’s time for me to go to bed. I put Berry the unnamed kitten in the bathroom and go to my room... and then it begins.

This cat begins HOWLING! I mean full on screaming. He wants nothing more than to be out of the bathroom and with his new people.

Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached.

It’s a long night.

I wake up the next day, fill his food and water dishes, clean his makeshift litter box, and I’m off to work.

It was a long day, and all that I really wanted to do was go home and cuddle with the new baby in the house. I want to know that he’s settling in. That he’s okay. I am still adamant on not naming him, because we are not keeping him.

Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached. Don’t get attached.

I finally get home, and I go downstairs to check on him and he just immediately perks up when I walk into the bathroom. He jumps up on my lap, and cuddles in close, and begins purring...

And I have an absolute meltdown.

Because damn it, I got attached.

All it took was a couple days, and I already love this little guy almost as much as my other two. I have more than enough room in my heart for him.

I want to take care of him. I want to have days where he shits on the carpet and I’m mad at him. I want days where I break down and he’s there for me like the other two.

I want to look back on his life one day and say that he lived a long and healthy and safe life. More than anything else, I want him to be happy.

Which is why he can’t stay with me.

I am aware that I think with my heart and not my head. It’s caused me to bite off much more than I can chew in the past. And so my initial adamance of not keeping him stemmed from a place of rational thinking. I’m in a different place in my life than I was the last time I had kittens to raise. I have more responsibilities that keep me away from home. Thinking with my head, I know that I cannot provide a new kitten a home right now. I would not be able to easily provide him a fulfilling life.

It’s now day 5. My roommates and I all have acknowledged that we have grown attached. Myself Some more than others. We finally caved.

His name is Jack.

And yes, he’s named after Jack Kline from Supernatural.

It fits him quite well. He was just randomly dropped into our lives. And he’s begrudgingly grown on us despite our best efforts to not bring him into our family.

And in the end, he will inevitably leave us.

A coworker of mine has told me repeatedly that he’d love to take Jack in. My sister has had offers from friends, too. A few rescues have also offered to take him. I know deep down that more likely than not, Jack will go to a good family that will love him dearly. And sadly, that knowledge does little to comfort my grief.

I still check the Nextdoor message I posted.

I still scan the humane society lost pets page.

I still search for his picture on Facebook.

We still haven’t found an owner. A cat that is this comfortable around humans most likely HAD a family. Maybe they’ve seen the postings I’ve made. Maybe they found themselves in a position where they couldn’t care for him anymore. Maybe they just didn’t want him anymore. I don’t know. And I’ve reached a point where I don’t want to know.

These past few days have been a bright spot in the shitty tapestry of 2020. I don’t know if it was fate or merely a coincidence that brought Jack to our deck on December 17th, 2020. But I take comfort in believing that the universe brought Jack into my life for a reason.

#cat #cats #baby cats #kitten #kittens #foster cat #accidental cat acquisition #supernatural adjacent #Jack the Tuxie #jack kline #i’ve been crying for an hour #because #endings are hard #and knowing that his time with me is going to be ending soon? #it breaks my heart #i’m gonna miss him #but we’re gonna find him a great family to call his

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jackles leaving the cw's office for the last time after securing the rights to spn for $10

#lmaoooooooooo #my dudes #I am PRAYING #that this is what happened

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Me: What’s happening today on Tumblr?

*opens tumblr*

Tumblr: MISHA COLLINS AND BILL CLINTON FUCKED

Me:

#yo... #what the actual fuck #I’d ask if you guys are okay #but I know the answer is no

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So I’m on AO3 and I see a lot of people who put “I do not own [insert fandom here]” before their story.

Like, I came on this site to read FAN fiction. This is a FAN fiction site. I’m fully aware that you don’t own the fandom or the characters. That’s why it’s called FAN FICTION.

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do you like long-ass deancas fics? can you never decide which one to read next? mood!

I’m here to help. That’s why I’ve created my patented Long-Ass Deancas Fic Rec Generator. It has 50+ fics to choose from, ranging in wordcount from 20k to 400k, with most fics falling in the 50k+ range. I’ve added a short description to each fic, noting the wordcount and season, as well as a couple words of summary. Note that I haven’t read any of these fics (hence why I made the generator), but I got each rec on good authority from long-term fans of the show.

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