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“心中だな” - A subjective interpretation of chapter 286.

Hi! 

Today I want to talk a bit about my interpretation of chapter 286, and more specifically, the deep romantism that fits in those few pages. 

I think this chapter is extremely interesting, because in just 2 pages and a half, Togashi manages to convey something extremely meaningful and terribly sad and tragic that takes root in a promise made about 200 chapters prior. 

More specifically, Togashi found a way to highlight in this chapter in a lot of different ways that Killua’s wish to die with Gon in a shinjuu sparks out of love, by making an objective character highlight it and by sealing the chapter with a shooting star, reminiscent of the shooting star sealing their wish to stay together during their night on Whale Island.

In this post, I will talk about the deep romantic subtext of this scene, because holy shit is it drenched in romance.

This analysis will be purely subjective ! I’m not claiming that this will be objective, because it will not be. Interpretations are usually subjective, and this is my personal take on the subject, not an ultimate way to analyze this scene at all ! I’ll be very clear, to me, at this point of the story, Killua is canonically in love with Gon. This is my basis for this interpretation, so I will not be objective at all. But if subjective interpretations don’t bother you, then enjoy your read!

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The Five Factor Model of Relationships

This post has been cross-posted to The Asexual Agenda.

This post was written for the May 2015 Carnival of Aces, which is on the topic of Identity, Labels, and Models.  I think I went in a bit of a different direction than most of the other submissions, but hopefully that’s okay!

A while back I mentioned my relationship model in the comments section on one of Elizabeth’s posts, and apparently a lot of people were very interested in it.  Now that I’m finally done with finals, I have a spare moment to type it all up.

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i think i want a queerplatonic relationship where that person & i simply have mutual adoration and trust in each other.

we could live apart, or together, or on & off, doesn’t matter to me.

i just want a companion. someone to be there, you know?

we can cuddle, hug, hold hands, go on platonic dates, have anniversaries, genuinely love each other.

we simply just have our boundaries.

I live my life and they would live theirs.

we’re just, there for each other. got each other’s back. emotionally bonded.

yeah. that’s it. that’s what i want.

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I’ve decided to use this blog to talk about my experiences in dating. So here is why I’m giving up (soon hopefully)! First of all, I should talk about what I am looking for. After a lot of thinking these past two months, I’ve come to the conclusion that I am probably cupioromantic. I’m not sure where I am on the ace spectrum, so I’ve been saying cupioromantic and ace spec or queer. I’m looking for a queer platonic partner or soft romantic relationship where we can still cuddle and hold hands. If I get into a “soft Romo” relationship with someone who is not aro, I have to explain my experience of romantic attraction and make sure that we can be in a relationship at all.

I find that it would be easier to date in ace spaces, because I’m more likely to meet people who want what I want. However ace dating spaces are few and far between and the ones I know about are depressing. Dating on average apps is already difficult enough to navigate as a Black woman without having to do it in niche apps like Discord. 🙃 I’m just feeling really hopeless about the whole thing. I wish I was an ace/aro person who wanted to be alone or simply just not aro/ace.

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the search for the qpp

I feel like I have exhausted every known resource in my search to find a queer platonic relationship. Dating apps are the most chaotic evil for the cause because they are literally a minefield for allo people. The most likely place to meet someone who is looking for what I’m looking for is Facebook groups and Reddit (hell). My very last attempt was on Reddit actually and I could not connect with anyone because 1. I have awful social anxiety and 2. I cannot deal with the anonymity of the app. I asked two people for their Instagram, both to see them and because it would make communication a lot easier, but they both turned me down! I just have anxiety about people trying to trick me so I can’t even trust them enough to have a conversation because it feels like they are hiding their face. It also feels super unnecessary that I am interested in aesthetic attraction as if being aro/ace was not difficult enough. So, I have a date/meet up with one of them and the other one I no longer speak to. I am out of options for meeting people. 

BTW I am sorry for any grammar errors, I am drunk :/

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SZA photographed by Blair Caldwell (2021)

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Laura Harrier for T Sinagpore (October 2020)

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2020 Film Diary:

THE LITTLE MERMAID (1989) - dir. Ron Clements, John Musker

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Study on Asexual WOC!

Hey everyone! My friend is conducting a study on women of color in the asexual community and she is looking for participants! Learn more about it from her message below:

”Hello, my name is Stephanie and I'm a college senior at Macalester College; I’ve been approved by the psychology department at my college to conduct research on asexual women of color.

I'm hoping to conduct interviews with ace women of color from various racial/ethnic and cultural backgrounds as well as of various ages. To diversify my current sample and include a wider range of experiences/perspectives, I’m looking to interview aces who don’t identify as gray/demisexual and those who don’t identify as Black (I already have enough participants from both of those demographics!). And for now, due to the small scale of the study, I'm only looking to interview people from the US or who've grown up/spent their formative years in the US; however, in a future part of the study I hope to include international aces as well.

If you're interested in participating in the study, please let me know!

You can contact me at [email protected] to get more information on what the study entails.

Thanks!”

Shoot her an email if you're interested! She will be conducting interviews until the second week of December. 💜

#asexual #ace #aspec positivity #queer platonic relationship #asexuality #boost this

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You may be apart from the people you care about, but you’re not facing any of this alone. And with time, we will find a new normal together.   °˖✧*•  Shop, Patreon, Books, Mailing List *•. ✧˖°`

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AVATAR: THE LAST AIRBENDER | S03E05, The Beach

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13 days until Take Me to Your Nerdy Leader is published!!! (Nov 20th!) I’m excited😊

Summary at haileygonzalesbooks .wordpress .com

The journey to publishing this story has been a long one day. It sat in my folder in my computer for so long before I decided to have it self-published. YA stories with no romance at all and strong friendships themes, especially between boys and girls, are few and far between. That’s why I’m really excited to publish this. It’s a story about friends which was something I always wanted to read but never saw in the YA genre. Not to mention it’s told by a mixed race, socially anxious, slightly overweight protagonist who’s just learning to embrace herself and find the courage to share her art- but that’s just me getting into specifics 😂 but seriously, I’m really excited to put this book into the world. I think so many people can find a little part of themselves in it.

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Alicia Silverstone as Cher Horowitz CLUELESS (1995) dir. Amy Heckerling

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But I’m a Cheerleader (1999) Jamie Babbit

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Adventures in Dating

So, I said that I would post updates about my dating experience here. First of all, I just want to say congrats to my fellow Americans! We got that dumb cheeto out of office! Hoes mad! Let’s celebrate that. Also, special shout out to my city, Philadelphia! I am so proud! 

Another side bar, congrats to Supernatural fans. It’s been a long time coming lol.

Okay, I think that I have grown a lot over the past few months- especially the past few weeks. I’ve just been trying to focus on my mental health and not letting this dating stuff control so much of my mental state. I think that it’s not even that I am desperate to find my soulmate because a lot of people are alone at 23 even if you’re allo. I think that the stress comes from knowing that it is going to be even harder to meet people like me. That makes me feel like I’ve got to get on it and start looking immediately so I have a better chance. I don’t think that its bad to want to be special and want to experience a relationship, but the way that I was doing it was very toxic. Ace/aro spec people, I know loneliness hurts, but don’t give up! We’ll find something someday. In the meantime, accept yourself! 

Right now, I am not really closer to experiencing a relationship. I have dialed back and decided that I need to pull myself together. I am meeting more ace/aro people and that’s nice enough because I get to meet people with the same experience as me! Even better, I’ve been meeting a lot of Black ace/aro people! These relationships could evolve into the relationships I want or I could meet someone who wants what I want and is pursuing it as directly as I am. I just need to detach from these possibilities and outcomes because the obsession is not making me happy. 

#asexual #aromantic #acearo #queer platonic partner #love #dating #relationship #Supernatural #2020 election #friendship #self love #acceptance #chamylieon dates

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