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aaaalso jellyfish are angels! all of them, all jellyfish are angels

things that are angels: fungi. computer programming. bioluminescent creatures in the middle of the pacific ocean that have never been seen by people. a weird restaurant server late at night pouring coffee. overgrown things. androids and robots. etc

#angelcore

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also also! water towers are angels

things that are angels: fungi. computer programming. bioluminescent creatures in the middle of the pacific ocean that have never been seen by people. a weird restaurant server late at night pouring coffee. overgrown things. androids and robots. etc

#angelcore

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also: street lamps. telephone poles. slightly unusual rocks. stuffed animals on the wrong shelves at the thrift store. that comforting presence you felt standing behind you those times you were alone in the house as a little kid

things that are angels: fungi. computer programming. bioluminescent creatures in the middle of the pacific ocean that have never been seen by people. a weird restaurant server late at night pouring coffee. overgrown things. androids and robots. etc

#angelcore #that last one is a real childhood memory of mine funfact

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Sometimes I wish I was just an unsettlingly shaped creature that scuttled along telephone wires and perched on the tops of street lights when the moon was waning

#cryptidcore #monstercore #angelcore #maybe this isn't angelcore to most ppl but to me angels and streetlights are inextricably linked sooooo

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if I could draw dragons and humans well, I'd definitely draw a cool looking dragon bitting the tits off of a transmans chest, I think that'd be a cool picture

#art inspo #transgender #new top surgery just dropped #dragons #transman #top surgery #body horror #implied gore

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i fuckin love cats they're the best animals ever I love them so much i'd be so sad all the time if I didn't have cats to cuddle and play with and watch the cats be silly

#cats #name a better animal than cats. you can't it's impossible. and if you do then you're very wrong :)

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damn maybe the people that say going for a walk will make you feel better were onto something

#been feeling horribly anxious all day for no specific reason #and finally this evening i went for a walk in the grey rainy weather #and now i feel so much better #like yes im very damp and my neck is sore from the angle i held my umbrella at but Mentally im doing so much better now

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I'm a girl in the same way my dad is a present father figure

#*hint* hes not a present father figure at alllll #transmasc #daddy issues but not in a sexy way. is that a tag?

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Ok but years ago I came up with this Sherlock AU (based on the show with Benadryl Cumberbund) where some of the main characters were actually deities that had been around for centuries. And the interesting twist was that there were two deities for every thing, and one represents the positive side of that thing and the other represents the negative side. For example Mycroft and Eurus were the two deities of like war (tho tbh I never actually figured out which represented the good side and which represented the bad side). But the really interesting dynamic and the main focus of this AU was Sherlock and Moriarty, who were the two deities of knowledge. But unlike all other sets of deities they weren't set on which was the positive side and which was the negative side, they switched back and forth, and took turns depending on who felt like portraying which role for the next couple centuries. All the deities also each had more inhuman forms, I remember Mycroft looked like two of himself side by side that merged together, not in a gory bodyhorror way, but more like an object in a video game clipping through another object. Sherlock's "true deity form" had extra eyes floating around him (bc ya know he's rlly observant) and he had multiple heads that glitched through eachother similar to Mycroft. Moriarty had lots of extra arms and hands (which if I remember correctly were sometimes attached to him or just disembodied and floating, depending on which he felt like) and he had extra mouths that just floated around him, (I never had a specific reasoning for those specific limbs/features but they just seemed like the right choice). And in the AU due to the fact that neither Moriarty or Sherlock was particularly better than the other of being a good or bad influence, and the fact that they also just refused to permanently pick who had which role, they were considered to be weirdos that didn't take their deity jobs seriously by the other deities. Of course bc of all this neither Sherlock or Moriarty is inherently a villain in this AU, and in private Sherlock and Moriarty actually got along quite well bc they're representations of the same thing so of course they do, and of course they're drawn to each other bc they're two sides of the same coin, just depending on the situation either of them could be either side. And also obviously they are both gay for each other. Aaaand I like to think that at some point Watson would end up accidentally finding out about all of this, and ya know, having an existential crisis. I like to think that he walks in on Sherlock and Moriarty in Sherlock and John's flat in their "true deity forms" talking about deity stuff, and he's just like "What the everloving fuck???", then Moriarty points out that they obviously should kill Watson since humans aren't supposed to find out about this, but Sherlock talks him out of it cause he's grown attached to John (in a gay way) obviously. And Moriarty's a bit unconvinced at first but he agrees, and eventually realizes that Watson is trustworthy. Maybe then Moriarty and Sherlock and Watson are all gay together idk.

Anyways I feel I should apologize for this near incomprehensible ramble of an alternate universe idea, but it's been rattling around my head for so long that I needed to just get it out.

Also, bonus! There are two songs that inspired/remind me of this AU: Mind Games by renforshort (this just rlly has Sherlock/Moriarty vibes in general). Oh Ana by Mother Mother (this more reminds me of the dynamic between human Watson and deity Sherlock).

#I feel I should also probably say that I've never actually been at all present or active in the Sherlock fandom #I just watched the show and came up with this idea then found out abt tjlc a few years later #bbc sherlock #jimlock #sheriarty #johnlock #deity au #long post

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a list of random phrases i like and (mostly) don't know where they come from, that i don't ever want to forget:

"do no harm, but take no shit"

"today, it's ok to be not ok"

"everything will be alright in the end, if it's not alright, it's not the end"

"a bad day doesn't mean a bad life"

#poetry #quotes

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just found and watched some old video drafts of me and an ex friend from a couple years ago. 230 dead, 1700 injured. irreparable psychic damage done. i will never be happy again

#:'(

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man i wish i was fireproof, i'd build a giant bonfire and curl up in the middle of it and i'd be so cozy and safe and happy

#do i have pyromaniac tendencies? yes. should that be concerning? no bc my anxiety keeps it in check #anyways i'd sell my soul to be fireproof

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ive eaten Borscht, drank some bitter tea and am feeling somewhat better

catch me sitting on my grandparents couch, wondering how i can go from happily contented to apathetic and sad in like an hour

#:) #fuck i love borscht! #especially with LOTS sour cream

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catch me sitting on my grandparents couch, wondering how i can go from happily contented to apathetic and sad in like an hour

#:( :( :( #at least i got my anxiety bunny #this is definitely a meh at best Christmas

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jfc i want sushi so fucking bad, i'm literally gonna cry if i cant get any

#why don't any of the sushi places deliver 😭

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situations in which i believe my mental health would either be so so so much better, or infinitely worse:

alone on an abandoned space station/spaceship.

in a zombie apocalypse where there's no working technology anymore.

manning a lighthouse in the middle of the ocean with no contact with the rest of the world.

#the zombie apocalypse one may seem out of place with the other two. but listen. zombie apocalypses are a fuckin vibe.

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exhaling a big breath outside in the winter so my breath is visible so i can pretend im breathing out smoke, not in an "edgy teen pretending to smoke a cigarette" way, but instead in a "trans teen pretending they are a fire and smoke breathing dragon" way

#listen i fuckin love dragons #and fire #i probably be a pyromaniac if it wasn't for my crippling anxiety #anyways seeing your breath when it's cold out is one of the best parts of winter and no one can ever change my mind