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                           [Amphierotic Bloodlines & Kuebiko]

CHAPTER SUMMARY: Narcissa realizes she knows fuck all about the people she supposedly cares for and attempts to rectify that with a lot of questions until one inevitably blows up in her face. Oh, and there’s more book canon plot stuff.

CHAPTER LXII

Narcissa had hoped that speaking to Bellatrix would hasten the conversation her sister needed to have with Cassandra, so that maybe they could all finally get past this and actually find happiness with each other again, but of course that did not happen. For once though, the blame did not lie with Bellatrix. She had tried— had finally mustered up the courage to ask Cassandra if she could talk to her for a second, and even though her words were mumbled and her gaze was firmly settled on the skin she kept picking at around her nail bed, Cassandra seemed thankful that the woman had actually come to her at all, and nodded her head in agreement. But then Rodolphus apparated into the room, his billow of smoke dark in his wake, and told his wife with his one good hand outstretched and a lingering smirk on his face, "Time to crash a wedding, love," and everything else got put on the backburner. And it was jarring, truthfully, as Bellatrix and Rodolphus hated the air the other breathed, and yet it seemed they were both so bloody fervent about their master's accomplishments and their own newfound freedom that they didn't care about their baseline animosity towards one another in that moment. Bellatrix actually smiled at him, and looked for a second as though she actually might take his hand, before she suddenly remembered that she had just promised Cassandra a conversation, and turned to apologize to her. She had been sincere with it though, which Cassandra clearly appreciated, and after Bellatrix kissed each woman in parting, she left with her husband to celebrate their victory over the Ministry with more mayhem and murder. Narcissa explained the situation to Cassandra as she was aware of it, but outside of the fact that Scrimgeour had been assassinated and someone the Dark Lord had placed inside the Ministry succeeded him, she knew very little. Cassandra understood immediately what that meant though, and it was a good thing she had, because she was the one that reminded Narcissa that with Dumbledore dead and the Ministry under the Dark Lord’s control, that Hogwarts would likely be next, and Draco could go back to school. School, which was away from the horrors of the war, away from the front lines, away from Voldemort, and Narcissa wept as she allowed that hope to wash over her, hoping beyond anything that things were about to finally change for the better. But then Bellatrix returned.

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                           [Amphierotic Bloodlines & Kuebiko]

CHAPTER SUMMARY: Porn. Angst. Angst. Actual Canon Plot Point. Angst. I think that about sums it up, lol.

CHAPTER LXI

It should have been magical, the three of them falling back into one another after such a long separation. Narcissa wanted it to be so desperately because she had missed them— both of them, because while Cassandra may have been the one who left, she and Bellatrix drifted apart in her wake, and now that the three of them were picking up the pieces of one another as they began to rebuild their relationship, Narcissa had assumed that once they took that next step it would be this beautiful, passionate, emotionally honest experience that would just completely overtake her, because Narcissa loved the two women who shared her bed with every part of her heart, and she could no longer bear being separated from them anymore. And to be fair, for a little while, it had been all of those things. It was intense and heartfelt and absolutely all-bloody-consuming, but in the end, it seemed it was the overtaking part that caused a problem for one of them, and not even the one Narcissa had been expecting. Cassandra’s eyes were closed, her face buried in Bellatrix's neck with her fingers tightly wrapped around Narcissa's as she just… took a moment to feel them. Although it still seemed like it might be a lot, even with the sip of potion she had taken, Cassandra could not bear to let go. She seemed to find some semblance of comfort in the intensity of the sisters’ collective emotions, as though they drowned out any lingering doubts or fears she had, and when Cassandra eventually lay a gentle kiss just beneath Bellatrix's ear, the older woman exhaled a shuddered breath, and Narcissa smiled. She made eye contact with Cassandra then from behind her sister, holding the other woman's gaze as she allowed her own lips to press a gentle kiss beneath her sister’s ear as well. The smile was returned before the contact was broken, and when Cassandra lay her lips upon the other side of Bellatrix's neck again, the kiss was no longer tentative and gentle, but firmer and purposeful as she took the sensitive part of the woman's neck entirely into her mouth, causing Bellatrix to exhale a needy groan as Cassandra began to leave her mark on her.

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                           [Amphierotic Bloodlines & Kuebiko]

CHAPTER SUMMARY: The Dark Lord has finally fucked off for a couple months, and the three idiots finish their long overdue conversation.

CHAPTER LX

It was mid-morning when Narcissa padded down the grand staircase, her arms wrapped around her torso as she looked around her home, feeling as though something was off. And it was ridiculous, really, that she hadn't noticed straight off— her house had been a bloody circus for months, so the fact that it was now eerily quiet should have registered quicker than it had, but it didn't seem to click until Narcissa made her way into the kitchen and only saw her husband sitting at the breakfast bar. “...Where is everyone?” Narcissa asked him, as usually there were at least four people yelling over breakfast in the morning. “Pissed off, finally,” Lucius muttered before taking a bite of his bagel. He didn't look as run down as he had in weeks past, but he still carried himself as though a dark cloud followed overhead wherever he went. Narcissa still felt awful about how much her marriage had deteriorated, but they both knew she had made her choice, and pretending otherwise wasn't going to do Lucius any favors. Besides, she hadn't exactly been in the greatest head space lately either. “For good?” Narcissa exclaimed in shock, as that sounded too good to be true. And of course it probably was, because Lucius just shrugged. “At least until the Dark Lord comes back from his… travels.” Off of his wife's confused expression, Lucius' brow rose and he queried, “Bellatrix didn't tell you?” “She was gone before I woke up— I think she's with Cassandra.” At least she hoped she was with Cassandra, and that the woman hadn't chosen to be taught by another. That would shred Bellatrix. “Where on earth is he traveling to? I thought we were in the middle of a war.” Lucius glanced around for a moment, before motioning for his wife to come closer. Narcissa slid herself onto the chair beside him, a hot mug of coffee appearing before her courtesy of the house elf. As Narcissa took a sip, Lucius quietly revealed, “...There is something wrong with the Dark Lord's wand.”

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Amphierotic Bloodlines was written in 2010, Kuebiko in 2015, and Crimson Regret in 2020. Although there were five years between all of the books, there is a very noticeable difference in the quality of the first book compared to the other two, to the point where I cannot even bring myself to read it during my rereads anymore because I hate it so much, and that is a problem for me, because this stupid incest trilogy is my legacy apparently, lol. That is primarily why this rewrite is happening. As Crimson Regret is still not finished, that fic obviously takes precedence. This was just an idea I toyed with about a month ago, and rewrote the first chapter off and on. So it will be awhile until it's finished, but in the meantime, I've decided to open it up to the community via the Toujours Pur Discord to help with first reading/betaing since it's not a new story, and spoiling anything isn't an issue. So if you guys are interested, please join and check it out ^_^ The first chapter is already posted.

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         [Amphierotic Bloodlines & Kuebiko & Crimson Regret]

CHAPTER SUMMARY: Bellatrix informs Cassandra what the actual scope of her potential powers are, and why no one should ever, ever find out that she has them.

PART VIII

The last time Cassandra was in this room, she had tried to turn the whole thing into a stupid game with her ridiculous glasses and her silly little yes, professor responses as she practically begged Bellatrix to bend her over and spank her with a bloody ruler. She hadn’t taken her studies particularly seriously because, truth be told, Cassandra had been more interested in spending time with Bellatrix than anything else. It also probably did not help that she didn't have much faith in ever emotionally healing enough to wield whatever power she was supposed to have before it had been ripped away, and while Cassandra certainly wasn't healed by any means, it had apparently just been enough for her to acknowledge the trauma she was subjected to as a wife, as a child, as that meant she was no longer hiding a part of herself behind a brick wall and dissociating. Unfortunately, not dealing with her shit only seemed to litter Cassandra's soul with cracks that were causing her to leak psychic energy that she had yet to learn how to control. It had started as this slight trickle as Cassandra was able to pick up strong emotions here and there, but was otherwise unbothered by it. However, after six weeks of separation while she drowned her 'I'm fairly certain my two lovers murdered my husband' angst in tears and gin, which, frankly, she barely even fucking liked, it seemed those cracks began to run deeper until finally she began justifying his death, and everything split open. He loved me. He hurt me. It was my fault. He made the choice to be forceful with me. But it wasn't half as bad as what those boys did— That's not an excuse. Pain is pain. Rape is rape. Semantics don't fucking matter. He deserved it. They all deserve it. I hope Bellatrix kills them all. Accepting what Peter had done to her caused Cassandra to acknowledge what had happened in her past as she had tried, and failed, to weigh them against one another, as though the weight of one's sins would absolve the other. But it didn't. Peter may have loved her once, but he had become an ugly man once he feared Cassandra would slip through his fingers. She did not mourn him, not really— Cassandra had mourned the past, and an image of the future that would never come to pass. She mourned for her son, who only seemed to regret the relationship he would never have with his father. But most of all, during her six weeks alone, Cassandra had mourned her sanity, because she had loved that the Black sisters had come to her rescue.

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me: damn i really need to finish CR also me: okay but what would bloodlines look like now if i rewrote it lmao

#cissatrix #bellatrix x narcissa #narcissa x bellatrix #blackcest #amphierotic bloodlines #tp series #honestly idk if this will go very far because while i hateeeee reading it now cause the quality is just... bad lol #i do still need to prioritize finishing the third book #also i have no idea how to really get around a lot of the underage stuff #bc so much of that shit shaped who they became as adults #but like i do not want to write about young teenagers doing the dirty now that i'm in my mid 30s lol #also the questionable consent scene needs to stay bc that ends up being a huge part of bellatrix's self hatred later #and something that is brought up often as they both kind of attempt to work through the reality of it #and maybe i guess i could just be non-explicit about it but then would it even have the desired impact #straight up would not have this issue if this happened as adults though #so #idk #i have kids now so them being kids for the majority of this hits different #even though my kids are no where near this age #i'm probably needlessly overthinking all of this #i need to go to bed lol

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finished chapter 61. it's 14k of straight angst and porn, so. lol. impressed with myself for keeping up the momentum this long tbh, I think I'm def gonna make my goal of at least putting out 5 chapters this time around!

#tbf though the last time i posted chapters I got superrrrr depressed bc the lack of reviews #which is like #fair bc i've been writing this series for 13 years #and now take long breaks in between my random spurts #so its prob hard to keep up #but man i still haven't gotten a single review for 59 and its like pls #pls if you are out there just say SOMETHING lol #bc while this story has always been mainly for myself and for my wife #its so hard when you put shit out there and there's just like #nothing in return #so idk i guess we'll just see how long I can go before I get depressed again LOL

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#bellatrix lestrange

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i feel like i've been writing the sex scene in 61 for a fucking week i keep hating it and rewriting over and over and ahhhhhhhhhh

#i thinkkkkkkkk its okay now though?? #god i pray #if i wake up tmrw and hate it someone pls slap me i can't keep doing this to myself lol #but yeah its at least been 5 days of this lmao RIP

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                           [Amphierotic Bloodlines & Kuebiko]

CHAPTER SUMMARY: Cassandra finds out what type of clairvoyant she is, Bellatrix is actually getting emotionally healthier, and Narcissa is, well… Narcissa.

CHAPTER LIX

Cassandra, who was still a little drunk, let alone emotionally depleted following the night’s events and the altercation thereafter, had fallen asleep not long after Narcissa had insisted she get into bed. The blonde had tucked her in, but did not linger. It felt… invasive, to occupy the same bed as Cassandra when they were still not okay. Bellatrix seemed to be of the same mindset because she ended up settling in the armchair, while Narcissa just found the pillow that Cassandra had thrown at Bellatrix earlier on the floor and laid at her sister’s feet. The thin rug covering the hardwood was not very comfortable, but Bellatrix wordlessly used a cushioning charm to make it more bearable for her, and the corners of Narcissa's eyes crinkled as she shot an appreciative glance toward the woman above her. The expression was short-lasting however, her lips turning downward as she nodded towards the chair Bellatrix resided in. “You're going to wreck your back sleeping there,” she softly warned, as even with the charm, Bellatrix’s back would be forced into an odd angle while she slept, and she wasn’t exactly young anymore. “Doesn't matter,” the older woman murmured, and Narcissa did not push it, as she already knew why Bellatrix didn’t wish to lie on the floor with her: their relationships no longer felt separate, and neither sister wanted Cassandra to feel like it was one against two. They both knew she had enough insecurities in that area, especially after what they both had kept her on the outside of. So they separated— after the handful of days following Peter’s funeral that accomplished nothing other than pulling the other deeper into their shared misery, the only time Bellatrix and Narcissa had truly been together was a week and a half following that. Bellatrix had come home angry over another tactical failure and Narcissa couldn’t bear feeling alone and hollow anymore, and although falling into one another for all the wrong reasons had always been their favorite coping mechanism, that mess had ended almost as soon as it had begun, with Bellatrix suddenly stopping after she had roughly undressed her sister, her forehead resting defeatedly against Narcissa’s as the sounds of their labored breathing rang loudly throughout the otherwise quiet room. “…I know,” Narcissa had breathed in saddened acknowledgment, as she already knew what had halted Bellatrix’s actions, but Bellatrix had scoffed at that because she sometimes forgot that they were one in the same, and that her walls had become mirrors to the one who shared the other part of her soul. “You don't know shit.”

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coming soon!!!

#i have the next chapter of kitten done too! #although its not beta'd yet #and i'm like 2.5k deep into chapter 60 #ya'll might get a decent amount of chapters this time before I ultimately fuck off into the sunset again lol

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“Only for your own good, Cissa.”

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𝐶𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑠 𝑚𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑖𝑒, 𝑃𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒. .

Bellatrix Black & Narcissa Black.

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holaaa, if I may ask what happened to the fic Incarcerated Rememberance ? Loved these chapters

I don't think I deemed it decent enough quality to move it to AO3, and unfortunately when I did my big incest purge, it was removed from FF.net.

I thought I had all the fic I removed saved, but I can't find it on my HD I'm sorry :/

ETA: Oh man I found it posted to my AFF which is so old oh my god lmaoooo. Formatting is a mess cause of something that happened with the website a while back and I don't even know my log on to fix it so enjoy the mess I guess lol

#ask #anonymous #i wrote that in 2008 so if any of ya'll are reading it for the first time pls don't expect tp series quality lol

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idk when this will actually get finished bc, you know, life things lol, but at least it's getting worked on again.

#tp series #i'm over here with 2 babies now lmao what is life #cissatrix

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What are Bellatrix, Cassandra and Narcissa’s birth dates in your head cannon ? (I’m a Scorpio who relates a bit to Narcissa sometimes lmao)

Straight up cannot remember the actual dates off hand BUT we had this whole discussion on the discord about their signs and their compatibility so:

Bellatrix is in October and is a Scorpio Narcissa is in December and is a Sagittarius Cassandra is in February and is an Aquarius

I also have their compatibility pinned in the discord so for shits and giggles here you go lol:

CISSATRIX "Scorpio will see their Sagittarius partner as a ray of light that suddenly makes their life brighter and better, while Sagittarius will see that there is so much to learn and enjoy the depth of their Scorpio partner, followed by emotional attachment. In time, there is a strong chance they will slowly lose interest in one another, especially the mutable sign of Sagittarius for their fixed Scorpio partner. Even though their relationship might end on bad terms, it would be a shame not to give in to it and let it fascinate and exalt both of them for however long."

NARSSANDRA "A relationship between a Sagittarius and an Aquarius partner might seem like a same sex friendship to other people and whatever they might think of this, this is the type of relationship both of these partners might need. They will get together when it is time for both of them to go through a change in their lives or leave a partner they feel restricted with. Their relationship is often a shiny beacon to everyone around them because it gives priority to the future and brings hope of a better time."

CASSATRIX "Someone might say that this is a karmic relationship, that these partners were enemies in one of their previous lives and that they could fight until one of them falls dead. This would be a bit extreme though. The truth is, Scorpio is the sign of Uranus’ exaltation and as such, it adores Aquarius in a way. In most cases, Scorpio partner will show their affection obsessively, but this might actually feel good for Aquarius. When we look at the sign of Aquarius, we will see that it exalts Neptune, the ruler of a Water sign of Pisces, and all of our assumptions on their lack of emotionality will drown in their ultimate love. The fact is they are both in a way outcasts and rebels. While Scorpio represents all of our emotions we don’t want to deal with, Aquarius represents the way of thinking most of us are not ready for. It is best to look at them as announcers of change, for this is exactly what they will bring into each other’s lives."

#tp series #cissatrix #narssandra #cassatrix #bellatrix lestrange #narcissa malfoy #cassandra goyle #now that i'm thinking on it I think cissy was like december 2nd or 3rd or something #i know it had to be super early to align with her pregnancy (the one she had to have an abortion for) in kuebiko #p sure that was it #fun fact we have never once celebrated bella's bday in canon #yet #we will this year #the year before she dies lol

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                           [Amphierotic Bloodlines & Kuebiko]

CHAPTER SUMMARY: The battle of the 7 Potters goes to shit, someone loses an arm, and Cassandra slips into her unhinged era.

CHAPTER LVI

“What the fuck are you doing?”

“…I’m pretty sure I’m having some sort of breakdown.”

Bellatrix stared at her sister, who was sitting rather unceremoniously on the ground, a flock of Lucius’ bloody peacocks free roaming in the grass around her. Narcissa’s voice had sounded far away to her own ears, as she no longer felt present in her own body. She was dirty and defeated, too caught up in her own bullshit to escape from the cage her mind had become, as it seemed one stupid mistake at this point was enough to send Narcissa tumbling right over the edge.

 “Right, I can bloody well see that,” Bellatrix responded flatly, before violently waving her hand at one of the peacocks who had tried to nip at Narcissa’s hair. “—Piss off, you feathered fuck! Cissy— Narcissa… what happened? What the hell even is this?”

Because Bellatrix could deal with, and had dealt with a lot over the years: crying, screaming, violence, self-harm, among a myriad of other warped coping mechanisms from her mentally unwell lover, but this… this was calm. This was strange. This was new.

Narcissa merely exhaled a long breath, staring aimlessly at the setting sun in the distance. Her eyes were glassy and out of focus, and Bellatrix’s patience had already reached it’s limit. “Alright, get up,” she demanded, grabbing at her sister’s arm to force her to her feet. Bellatrix snatched Narcissa’s chin once she had risen, forcing the younger woman to make eye contact with her. “Look at me— look at me. I am going to start with something simple: what the fuck happened with the peacocks?”

God. Narcissa just wanted to be left alone. “I’m tired, Bella.”

“Not what I asked.”

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