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moved to @mattsumaki

thank you so much for your love and support here, it continues to mean the world to me ♡

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#—important news everybody

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My piece for the MSBY: Game changer zine 💕

#—dog eared bookmark: haikyuu #lord have mercy…

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how gay would it be if we kissed? ₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎

~ p.

very and luckily for you im gay

#—oh my god soulmates: reno & i #what are the odds #i’m gay too! #we should like totally kiss…or hold hands and make out…or something…

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not my sister accidentally affirming my gender by saying i smell manly…hello???

#—talking to myself again #for a little bit of context #i’m wearing my brothers old spice deodorant #and some ocean musky cologne from bath and body works #so i am just on cloud nine :> #perfect start to pride month

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jumping off of this, i wanna take a little moment to be a bit heartfelt, a bit serious, don’t mind me :)

when i was 16 years old, a.k.a a sophomore in high school, i started questioning my identity. up until that point, i had comfortably been a cis, straight she/her girl; then, it started to stop clicking as much

my journey of identity was not the smoothest one, i’ll admit. i tried on many different labels in a matter of months: non-binary, genderfluid, aromantic, grey aromantic, pansexual/panromantic, transgender, the list probably goes on. out of all of them, asexual stuck, and…it explained a lot for me; it was the first label that i connected to the deepest

my pronouns were no different: he/him fading in and out, it/it’s and some other neopronouns snuck in than back out, they/them seemed to be the only solid one to stick for a good while

don’t even get me started on my name. anyone who has had the chance to know me has sat with me while i cycled through names every other month (i am only half joking…)

i’ll spare the nitty gritty details

eventually, after many many many attempts and years of trying to find what labels fit best, i put my foot down. i grabbed the word ‘queer’ and they/them pronouns and called it a day, because, hey, those were my best bets and i liked them

now, almost four years later, i’ve found the labels that work, i’ve found me

if you don’t know me, hi. i’m percival -- percy for short (or bean, if ya want) -- i’m genderfluid, bi aromantic asexual, and i use they/any pronouns (well, except for she/hers), it’s really nice to meet you :)

i can’t say confidently for sure if i “finally got it right” — the past few years is clear of that — but…i can confidently say that this is the closest to my true self i have felt since i was that questioning sophomore nearly four years ago. and it feels fucking amazing

for some, figuring out your identity is easy, and for some, it takes a bit more time, and some may never truly figure out their identity. and all of those are okay and valid. don’t feel pressured to slap on a label because you think it’s right or because it will appease other people; use a label because you feel is right and because you like it. or, be unlabeled, that is perfectly okay to

try out dozens of labels, try out dozens of pronouns, try out dozens of names, or don’t do any of that at all. the most important part of figuring yourself out to me is being patient and experimenting. it can be really scary, it can be daunting, it can feel like your just standing in place making no progress. but you are, sometimes it’s just hard to see

sorry for going on a mini rant, i just…i have a lot i’ve wanted to say for years, even if some of it is just repeating the same stuff other queer people say, it’s still worth saying

now, go have an amazing (and safe) pride month in whatever way you celebrate

i love you, and i’m proud of you ♡

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH YA HOT GUYS, GALS, AND NON-BINARY PALS!!!

#—talking to myself again #i have been counting down the days for pride month to come so i can say all this #and i am so happy that i finally did :) #……now if i only i could tell my family… #((coming out is not required!!! wanna say that real quick!!!)) #genderfluid #bisexual #biromantic #asexual #aromantic #queer

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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH YA HOT GUYS, GALS, AND NON-BINARY PALS!!!

#—talking to myself again #i am giving each and every one of you a tender kiss on the forehead #mwah! #i love you #be as queer as you can #be safe #drink your water #eat a little something #take your meds #get some good rest #and don’t forget to love your proud valid self :)

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if it ain’t full homo, i don’t want it

#—talking to myself again #miss me with that straight shit #we are queer in this household

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yzny -> cvut

#—oh my god soulmates: reno & i #*sniff* ​it’s so beautiful :’) #i love the word/curse word c*nt so much #i hate how clever this is #teach me your ways cause damn you’re good at thinking of usernames

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often you’ll say ‘im sorry’ in the same way a fighter puts his gloves up before a punching. for trivial, menial things - you apologize like playing defense. you say it again and again “sorry for this” or “sorry to bother” or “sorry for forgetting” like you’re forfeiting. on the losing side of a battle, always. confident you will take damage by merely taking space. i dont ask you to stop. i know you will always put your hands up to soften the blow, so i put my hands over yours. i take your gloves off, i tell you it’s okay while i hold them. in my heart i believe maybe telling you enough times will make your impulse twitch less. maybe someday you wont even flinch. 

#—talking to myself again #fuck… #okay… #just #casually call me out like that #/lh #holy……hoooooo #yep #that checks out alright

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yeeeeees!!!

kiss kiss, fall in love :D

SAWARASENAAAAI KIMI WA SHOJO NA NO

#—oh my god soulmates: reno & i #that’s my puppy :) #(i’m only now realizing i did the fuckin’ thing wrong but it’s fine!) #(also totally didn’t watch ohshc and have the opening song stuck in my head today that’s ridiculous)

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ladies, gentlemen, and other folk inside and out of the binary, i give you…my sister:

#—talking to myself again #it’s funny cause we both don’t believe in god :D #(no hate to those who do)

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🗗 OUT OF CHARACTER | k. sakusa

warnings. food mentions, very very slightly suggestive, mentions of knives and killing lmao isa i swear this ain't angst ( 0.8k approx. )

note. for isa ( @kiyelle ) my love ! happiest birthday, and i'm sorry this is like a day late. hope u like this ^_^ pls ignore that i haven't written /properly/ in like over a month help i forgot how to not make everything literal crack isa im so sorry

"i'm pretty sure we don't use cleaver knives to slice salted eggs," oh, you know that. you don't need sakusa to remind you. however, a little experiment here and there, once in a while, doesn't really hurt.

"why do we even have this at home?" a scoff slips off your tongue as you press your lips in a thin line, checking out the anatomy of the said kitchen appliance, before shooting him a menacing grin. "you're not planning to murder me in sleep now, are you?"

"hm, perhaps?" he cocks his head slightly, mirroring the expression on your face before snaking his arms around you as he pulls you closer. "you do make living a tad bit harder."

you chuckle, that's the plan. a few beats pass away in silence as he admires you with utmost adoration in his eyes. there's a smile on his face and it resonates of love.

you missed these warm mornings with sakusa. you missed waking up next to him, the taste of his food, his kisses, his touch, him— maybe, it's the price you pay for dating nation's top volleyball player? it's funny. and if in case sakusa is capable of hearing your thoughts right now, you well aware that he'll laugh at you for being madly in love with him, despite knowing that he has fallen harder, and so deep that he's not being himself anymore.

"is there a way i can make it easier for you?" you mumble with the same lovestruck smile, hands wrapping around his neck as you step closer, capturing his lips with yours.

he smiles into the kiss, tucking on your waist a little to frame you against the kitchen counter. well, kissing is a good way to make his life easier. he can lose calories and spend less time at the gym, ultimately spending every second by your side. sakusa hopes it makes sense, even though he's certain it doesn't.

but logic is far out of his reach when you're in front of him, in his arms, your lips on his instead of preparing breakfast; he's at home. logic is the last thing he needs right now.

you try to pull away, only for him to lead you to the couch, a few giggles spin in the air as you lie down, one hand cupping his face while the other brushing through his hair. a dust of pink rests on his cheeks, and what you're doing right now is very out of character of him. sakusa likes to kiss you, he can do it all day, but not like this. not when you need to tend to your breakfast before it burns, not when your phone is ringing and he's doing everything to stop you from attending the call.

"omi—" you attempt to pull away again, only for him to deepen the kiss; and you give in, like the lover drunk soul you are. you don't know what happened to him in past few weeks while he was away from you. however, you surely don't complain.

another series of ringtones, another fight to pull away. you feel him smile, one that fades away quickly as you turn over, pinning him down to the couch before grabbing your phone. "kiyoomi. i need to take this call,"

and from what sakusa could hear, it's your workmate. he's checks the time, you're late by two minutes. his nose scrunches up in annoyance, it's just two minutes. sakusa has been known of his punctuality and it surely does come to him as a surprise when he realises that you're late for work and he doesn't mind any part of it. ( you know, he doesn't mind if either of you are late to work if you both are busy kissing each other )

he looks at you, fiddling with your fingers, waiting for you to hang up. just how long is it going to take? sakusa is going through multiple waves of emotions and one of them is purely because your workmate is disturbing you while you were busy doing some important work.

"no i'm not sick, i'll be there— ouch—" you shriek as he nibbles on your neck, a sinister grin on his face and you shift away from him, before answering your friend's questions. "no no, it's my cat. it scratched me."

sakusa smirks, some kind of cat you have.

"what's with you today?" you finally hang up, his hands sliding in yours as he pulls you closer. "you're acting like a five year old right now. so clingy, and for what?"

"i don't know, maybe because i was out for a tournament and haven't seen you in like two weeks?" that sounds like something atsumu would say, and you're sure sakusa has been spending too much time with the said miya that he has gone crazy. "maybe."

you see, being roommates with atsumu has it's own flaws. the last time they went for a tournament, sakusa came back with a weird habit of singing old, rusty songs after getting drunk. the time before that, atsumu rubbed off on him in the worst ways possible and sakusa hasn't stopped using deez nuts jokes ever since. his antics right now, you're sure he acquired them from him too. but again, who are you to complain?

sakusa's lips trail along your jawline, down your neck before he looks into your eyes once again. "you should call in sick today."

"i can't lie, you know it." now, that's a lie.

he frowns. "you lied about not knowing me when that reporter asked you about our relationship,"

"i can't lie to my employer, kiyoomi." you clarify, chuckling as you kiss his palms.

"we can get onto that." there's a mischievous hint in his voice as he kisses your fingers, eyes enunciating a wicked plan. "tell him you have some things to take care of at home,"

"like?"

"like," and he pins you down the couch once again, leaning down as he smiles against your lips. "looking after your five year old clingy boyfriend."

taglist in the rbs.

#—dog eared bookmark: haikyuu #mmmmmmmmm!!! #i did not know i need clingy flirty sakusa in my life till now #godDAMN #you and sakusa both need a kiss for this literal MASTERPIECE #like #mmm! #>:3 #you are one of my top favorite writers #practically every work of yours makes me fall in love with you and your writing just a little bit more #and this is undoubtedly no exception

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some little updates/changes!!!

moth/miles/torryn -> i now go by percival (percy/perc/p/etc.)

soulmatebehavior -> is now mattsumaki

#—important news everybody #feel free to reblog #that would be very helpful and very appreciatied :> #but also zero pressure! /gen

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comforting genderfluid s/o

featuring: kuroo, aran, bokuto, and akaashi warnings: gender dysphoria

✰ a/n: while this is written with a genderfluid! reader, it needs to be said that no genderfluid experience is the same. these mini scenarios are based on my own experiences or ones that have been shared with me. it’s super self indulgent actually~ also no physical features are mentioned, so each scenario can be read from a amab or afab pov ! hope you enjoy it <3

 ⋆⋆ KUROO TETSUROU ⋆⋆

It’s just a typical movie night with Kuroo, but you can’t bring yourself to fully pay attention. Instead of keeping your eyes on the screen, you find yourself glancing down at your hands. The nail polish coating them seems to mock you. You had stared at the same polish with satisfaction just yesterday, so why did it have to bother you so much now. You resisted the urge to pick at polish, telling yourself you were being ridiculous. Anyone could wear nail polish, so it shouldn’t matter what gender you identified with right now. You tuck your hands under your thighs in attempt to forget about them and lean further into Kuroo. You place your focus back on the screen, but soon after it pauses. You look over to Kuroo who has the remote in his hand.

“Sorry babe. I’ll be right back” Kuroo kisses your temple and gets up to go to the bathroom you assume. You bite your lip, stubbornly keeping your hands hidden. Kuroo, however, doesn’t come back empty handed. Your eyes widen as he sits on the floor in front of you and begins to unscrew the top of some nail polish remover.

“Here. Give me your hand” he softly instructs. You’re silent as he begins rubbing off the polish. You feel a flicker of guilt thinking your fidgeting had distracted him from the movie, but you can’t help but feel a wave of affection. He somehow always knew how to make you feel more comfortable.

“It wasn’t a big deal” you finally find your voice as he begins on your other hand. His eyes flicker up to yours and the corner of his mouth quirks up in a soft smile.

“Maybe not” he shrugs. “But this isn’t a big deal either” he turns his attention back to your hand. Once he finishes he places a chaste kiss on the back of your hand, and your heart swells.

Keep reading

#—dog eared bookmark: haikyuu #i’m not gonna cry i’m not gonna cry i’m not gonna cry— #this #i #aaah! #i very recently discovered i’m genderfluid #and… #this was so heartwarming to read #like… #i don’t know how to put it into words #there are times i wanna paint my nails and wear eyeliner #or i put on an outfit i really like #and sometimes i really do like having black nails or eyeliner on or wearing the outfit #but then there are times i really don’t #and to see it translated into writing — very well done writing might i add #AND coincidentally with some of my favorite haikyuu boys #it’s just #mmm! #it makes me so soft #i love it #i am definitely gonna come back to this a bunch #10/10 highly recommend :) (especially to my fellow genderfluid babes)

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hq boys when they're in love

feat. gn!reader x iwaizumi hajime, kuroo tetsurou, miya atsumu, bokuto koutarou, hinata shouyou, nishinoya yuu, sakusa kiyoomi

cw. intended lowercase, food mention (iwaizumi), kissing (bokuto)

note. these are all inspired by my brother and his boyfriend omfg they're adorable

iwaizumi hajime watches all of your favorite movies and shows because he knows you enjoy them. seeing the smile on your face when you talk about a good movie just makes him want to be able to talk to you about it. he’ll even binge watch them with you, buying all your favorite snacks for the occasion.

“you were talking about this one last night, yeah? you were right, his best friend is so annoying…”

kuroo tetsurou mimics your style so you match. oh, you’re wearing a sweater and skinny jeans? that’s crazy, so is he! he doesn’t mean to annoy or embarrass you, he just likes showing off how cute you are together!

“would you look at that, we’re matching! okay, fine, i did do it on purpose. but you’re beautiful, so i can’t help but want to dress like you!”

miya atsumu is so whipped that everyone knows he likes you… well, somehow everyone but you. and even as rumors spread far enough to reach your ears, he’s too shy to tell you how he really feels.

“what? people’re sayin’ we’re datin’? hahaha… that’s crazy, isn’t? why would they think that? haha…”

bokuto koutarou kisses you on a dare. the class cheers the two of you on as you lean in… and get detention for inappropriate behavior during class. oh well, now he can spend some extra time with you… and maybe ask you out.

“okay, okay, maybe we shouldn’t have done that when the teacher was there. but you’re a good kisser, we should totally kiss again sometime. if you want to, of course!”

hinata shouyou whines all spring break about the lack of texts from you. it’s not your fault, you’re using your days off wisely! he’s clingy, but it’s because he cares.

“my partner hasn’t been texting me… shut up, natsu! i guess i’ll go practice some sets… i hope i have some sort of message when i get back…”

nishinoya yuu shows off pictures of you. he can’t help but brag, he’s so lucky to have such a perfect partner! his camera roll and social medias are full of shots of you, and while you may not like them, he cherishes each one.

“look at this picture of my parter! yeah, they really are good-looking, aren’t they? can you believe they told me to delete this after i took it? their smile is just so cute, i couldn’t!”

sakusa kiyoomi never gives up on you, even when you start dating someone else. he will always stay by your side, friends or otherwise. if the opportunity arises, he won’t let you slip through his fingers so easily again.

“hm? oh, they started dating someone. you don’t need to console me, i’m happy to be in their life either way.”

© kage7ama 2022. do not modify, translate, or repost my works on any platform.

#—dog eared bookmark: haikyuu #this was so friggin’ cute #but that last one #i’m not gonna lie #sakusa’s hurt a bit #but bokuto’s (and really everyone’s) made up for it so it’s fine! #kuroo matching with you is just… #it’s so him and i don’t know why #i love how we all collectively agree that atsumu — as loud as he can be — would be too chicken to tell you he likes you for so long #i could gush about every single one of ‘em #each is so perfect in my eyes #like ‘yes you are absolutely right that is what he’s like when he’s in love’

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not you flirting with my husband :/ (joke)

i’ll have you know, i’m married to @yzny too, tell ‘em babe!

and another thing, that is not even the flirtiest thing i’ve said to them!

i am not helping my case here……

#—the amazing 3hdie #this is all light hearted i promise! #it’s very nice to me you by the way!

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url change

arkynz -> yzny

#—oh my god soulmates: reno & i #it’s so cute!!! :> #just like you :> #how are you so good at thinking up usernames