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Why am I so unloveable?
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Sometimes i wish i could relapse
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I usually come off as aggressive to my friends and people in general, like i have a strong personality, when really that could not be further from the truth.
I am so deathly afraid of people that i felt like i had to appear strong to them, so that they would leave me alone.
Sadly, that only made them hate me more, so, now I'll try to opt for a doormat/pacifist approach. It will take a while for them to change their mind about me, but if i lie well enough and put in the work, then maybe I'll finally get what i want and they won't hate me as much anymore.
God I'm so scared
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I just realized, I'm not a likable person at all.
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I want to be so skinny that I trigger people
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Another one
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I want to be loved but the idea of someone actually loving me disgusts me.
How could someone love me if I can’t even love myself?
Am I even worthy of wasting someone’s love?
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Realizing that since I can’t physically self harm, I’ve started triggering myself as a form of mental self harm. (I’d rather cut myself to shreds tbh)
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Sometimes I feel the only reason I want to lose weight is that people will take finally serious my feelings when they see my sick body.
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after all who's gonna love the girl with scars?
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It’s when i need to talk to someone, that I realize I truly have no one.
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i want to self hxrm so badly , I’m getting so tired of trying to get better
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personally, it's a huge accomplishment and milestone to no longer immediately jump to self harm as a coping mechanism. ive been going through some tough shit and i feel like ive just lost the taste for doing it when upset.
the downside is that i now see it as more of a pass time. it no longer has the emotion attached to it and now i just kinda want to do it. i don't think about so often, but sometimes i just crave it. it has gone farther for me than just a coping mechanism and crossed into addiction, in which i no longer need a reason but just want to do it. im still clean, though. i wonder how long i can keep this up.
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Today’s meal
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