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[prettyviaa]

I feel so shitty rn and idk why. I don't wanna go to school anymore because I mentally can't do it, my friends(?) are still talking to that one girl and her little minion even though I've told them how shitty she's been to me because "they would feel bad if they dropped her". I'm stuck here feeling like crying all day in bed and I can't talk to anyone because I have no one that'll actually listen without yelling or calling a mental institution on me. Her minion told me how I was faking my feelings and now I feel like I am but I can't stop myself from feeling it and I won't stop crying.

#I'm so tired

[prettyviaa]

listened to a sub, asked her, and she said yes (she's the kind of person to send me to school even if I physically can't go)!!!

gonna try and convince my mom to let me stay home from school tomorrow, wish me luck!

#prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #law of affirmation #void state #reality shifting #reality shift #manifesting #coquette #manifest #subliminals

[prettyviaa]

gonna try and convince my mom to let me stay home from school tomorrow, wish me luck!

#I couldn't focus today at all #prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting

[prettyviaa]

maybe I'll just run away

not sure if I wanna kms or cry

#sounds easier

[prettyviaa]

not sure if I wanna kms or cry

#probably both #prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting

[prettyviaa]

me rotting in bed because murder is illegal and I lose motivation to shift the second I enter my room:

#wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting #prettyviaa #girlblogging #this is a girlblog

[prettyviaa]

realized that I should just keep my feelings to myself after this one guy (who I thought was my friend) took everything I said to him for the past 3 weeks and told her. She proceeded to make a gc with everyone (there's more to the story) and use my insecurities against me and blame me for her fucked up mind without mentioning the specifics. I had to be hospitalized for a day because of how bad my panic attack was and I got yelled at by my mom for "starting this whole thing" and making her miss work.

I can't even trust my own friends because they're still friends with her. I've resorted to only speaking when I'm spoken to and only sharing my personal feelings when I absolutely need to.

#i feel so betrayed #and sick #AND he and I are in the same class #so I have to see him tomorrow #never speaking again #prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting

[prettyviaa]

real

i don't think i can thug this shit out anymore

[prettyviaa]

my friends and I just got into a debate on whether or not Harry's desi (headcanon ofc) <33

#i have other interests #i swear #harry potter #prettyviaa #reality shift #reality shifting #shifting realities #shifting #shiftblr #shifttok

[prettyviaa]

would anyone read my blaise zabini x fem!oc oneshot (it's a self-ship ig)????

#sounds like I'm begging #because I am #blaise zabini #blaise zabini x fem!oc #blaise zabini x reader #prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting

[prettyviaa]

I feel so embarrassed shipping myself w/ fictional characters

but then I remember that I'M A SHIFTER

WHO INTERACTS WITH OTHER SHIFTERS WHO DO THE SAME??

#prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting #self shipping #self love

[prettyviaa]

the day I stop treating shifting and manifesting like a homework assignment is the day I get everything I've ever wanted <33

#prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting

[prettyviaa]

I talk about Blaise so much to the point where I can type "guyss" in the gc and everyone just assumes I'm gonna talk about him and prepare themselves for what's gonna happen next.

#he's one of my motivations to shift actually #If I don't see his face irl soon #I think I'll die #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting #blaise zabini #blaise zabini x reader #prettyviaa

[prettyviaa]

just finished writing an oc oneshot and let me just say that I'm so proud of myself. The last time I finished a creative writing piece was for an eighth grade writing portfolio and I used AI for help 😭

I might publish it if I'm feeling up to it <3

#prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting #writeblr #character x oc

[prettyviaa]

shifting to 2 of the same drs have got to be one of the most confusing things ever because I absolutely hate someone in one dr because of how she treated my friends (canon) and are sharing the same lipgloss with her in the next.

#I haven't shifted yet btw #don't wanna confuse anyone #prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting #hogwarts #hogwarts dr #shifting realities

[prettyviaa]

I know I brought this situation up earlier but there's always something new going on so ventinggg:

I might I have jealousy problems: one of my friends was talking to the same girl who just hates me (for no reason btw) and I felt my heart drop to my stomach. I don't know if it was the fact that they were laughing like nothing ever happened or that she brought up wanting to be friends with her but I felt.. upset?? idk. I feel bad for feeling like that too because earlier, another one of my friends brought up how she wants to talk to her (the girl) because she's started talking to her again and she wants to be more forgiving. Now I'm wondering if I should do that to because I don't wanna lose my friends (I have literally no one other than them) but I can't get over the way she treated me beforehand. It's the way she would say the most degrading things to me and then laugh it off like it was nothing. She's someone who mentally drains me (and my friends, from what they've said) and I would really prefer if I had absolutely nothing to do with her. If I were to do that though, I know that I would be pushed to the side because said girl has a lot of things going on in her personal life that would make her my friends #1 priority. It sounds selfish, I know but I've always had the feeling that I'm always the second choice and the one time that I start to feel as important as everyone else, I get seriously humbled. That just puts me in a position where I could either: a.) stop associating myself with her completely, lose all my friends slowly in that process, and start to spiral or b.) talk to her and lose all my dignity and self respect but still have people I can talk to and be around.

I know it sounds obvious what I should do but it's all just so complicated and ughh.

#prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting #personal vent #vent post

[prettyviaa]

born to say "fuck you bitch" and put a curse on all bluna shippers

forced to say "blocked" (in my mind) and move on with my life </3

#as you can see #I hate that ship with a passion #I start tweaking when I see that ship mentioned #prettyviaa #wonyoungism #manifestation #coquette #law of affirmation #void state #wonyoung #reality shift #reality shifting #manifesting #blaise zabini #this is a joke btw