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Was it out of comfort that we stayed together? Because when I think back to us, I only remember a sense of warmth, of not having to think before I speak or worry about what you’d think of me. I can’t think of the reasons I loved you or the reasons you loved me. ‘Best friends’ – the two words that kept us tied together but separated by a line. A line drawn in the sand near the waves; a line we might have unknowingly crossed countless times. Maybe during the five-hour phone calls at midnight or a heart emoji at the end of a text, one that meant a lot more than it should have. But at 16, you were the only love I knew. At 19, you slip into my mind sometimes, and I smile back at the years that have passed. I sometimes think of what could have been, but she’s made my life a lot easier. You’re with her now, and the line is a firm one, carved into wood, and a boundary clearly established. A line that has reduced us to old friends who keep in touch.

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[roseblueclouds]

death by a thousand cuts

a slight sting is all i feel

when your words fall like darts

against the piece of my soul

that i bared to you

you turn another blind eye to me

and i make another excuse for you

another brick on the wall of defense

i've built around your name

should i beg for your love?

get down on my knees

and ask you, "please?"

please love me

like i love the sky

in all its hues and shades

please accept me

with my deformed clouds

and flashes of rain

but all i get are safety pins

piercing my skin

over and over again

you hurt me in ways

i can't seem to name

we seem to be doing just fine

until we're not

and you say our end came out of nowhere

but it was death by a thousand cuts

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[roseblueclouds]

you’re everything I never wanted to feel, until summer became a time only the rain spoke of kissing. yesterday is just a heartbeat away, but forever has your name on it. Silence has a softer voice when you’re loved, yet nothing is emptier than a room you just walked out of. I smile about you, but I really wish I was smiling at you. If I were to unlove you, it would take all of my heart and more.. so I’m going to start being really good in this life, and maybe I’ll end up with you in the next one.

you left me with feelings I never knew I had.

[roseblueclouds]

how could you be empty and still carry the whole universe inside of you? you beat inside my ribcage like the soft throb of waves on the seashore, yet every day is a prayer to a summer of shadows we still sing under. everyone leaves an echo - darling, you’re the warmth my heart needed to survive. the more I love you, the more alive I feel. don't want you to become a chapter in my life, I want us to write this book together.

This is my favorite time in history because you’re alive right now.

[roseblueclouds]

"i have so much to do :///" my brother in christ you are still scrolling

[roseblueclouds]

Where are you from?

India!

#answered ask

[roseblueclouds]

i'm starting to run out of fingers

to count the amount of times

you've made my heart flutter in its cage.

a gentle brush of shoulders

or an insult mixed in with smiles

when you grab my arm

to stop me from doing something stupid

or you shake my hand

and hold it for a second too long.

the sound of my name from your lips

carries with it more weight

than the two syllables ever held

and i can't help but want to know you

to travel the paths that led you here

to read the map which points

towards the mountains you've climbed

and the rivers you've swam across.

i want to know what you've left behind

and the secrets you're hiding

i want to know

if you prefer moonlight

to bright yellow sunshine.

dogs or cats? pink or blue?

an endless list of questions

i want more

and more

like a book whose pages are yet to be filled

and i'll wait for you to write down your stories

until we run out of paper and ink

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[roseblueclouds]

Sylvia Plath

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via weheartit

#reblog

[roseblueclouds]

To me you're the morning; you woke me up.

내겐 넌 아침이란 걸 you woke me up

-BTS, '"Her"

#lyrics #bts #bts lyrics #outro her #jhope

[roseblueclouds]

ON PURPOSE, I'M GOING TO LOVE YOU ON PURPOSE

Jenny Slate // Casey McQuiston, Red, White & Royal Blue // Pleiades, Anne Carson // Taylor Jenkins Reid, The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo // @oriley42 and @earth167 (and a half) on Tumblr // Jodi Picoult from The Book Of Two Ways // The Night Vale, Episode 100, The Toast // Adam Melchor, I Choose You // Kierston White, The Chaos of Stars

[roseblueclouds]

[roseblueclouds]

And If I Had One Wish

If I had a wish granted,

Dreams of happiness ever implanted,

I'd ask for the best for you,

Your skies fo'ver the prettiest indigo blue.

For you a smile never faded,

A chance you forget reasons to be jaded,

I'd beg some god for you to love,

A wish I couldn't have shared, never spoke of.

[roseblueclouds]

i am aching

for a life that is impossible

filled with only the best parts

of books and movies

of green fields and blue skies

of stolen kisses and whispered secrets

i want the pretty rain and soft snow

to return home to a lover's embrace

and food on the table

i want purple clouds and silver stars,

yellow trees and golden air.

i want the world to be rose-tinted and

tinged with summer

the smell of books mixed with that of the rain

white fluffy sheets and hot chocolate

glowing hair and swollen lips

happiness and that's all.

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[roseblueclouds]

So well written :')

I never knew rock bottom had so many levels, and though today I’m half empty, the other half is love. I don’t know how to swallow all the words I never said, how to keep your name from dragging old loves back into my vocabulary. I never wanted to fix you. I just wanted to hold you until you didn’t care if you thought you were whole or broken anymore. How many nightmares have I woken up from looking at my hands to see if the blood stains are still there? sometimes you have to close a door. Not to keep the bad things out, but to keep the bad things in.

I loved you when there was nothing left to love except these shadows.

#reblog

[roseblueclouds]

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals

#reblog

[roseblueclouds]

ghost of you

a lingering touch on my arm

a quick hug against your side.

gently, you interlace your fingers with mine

just as gently, you press a kiss to my temple.

your thumbs catch the tears on my cheek

and your arms hold me tight against your chest.

your sweet words bring a smile to my face

and your low voice brings an ache to my stomach.

i miss you

deeply, terribly, painfully.

i miss you, yet i don't even know you.

maybe one day i'll meet you

or someone like you,

and i can finally tell them the words

i so desperately wish to say to you.

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