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Lily

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader

Summary: Lily McIntire, trainer for new SHIELD recruits at the Avengers Tower, has been in love with her best friend, Bucky Barnes, from the moment she met him. She's been content with her role of the #1 girl in Bucky's life, even if it means she has to sabotage a romantic relationship or two. It'll be worth it when he realizes that they're meant for each other, right? There's just one small problem: Lily McIntire never expected Bucky Barnes to fall for You.

Warnings: (For this part only; see Story Masterlist for general Warnings) Language,

Word Count: 413

A/N: Please accept this little preview nugget.

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Best friends to Lovers. Lily McIntyre couldn’t think of a single thing more romantic than that. She’d spent her entire life searching for that one person who would transcend the bonds of friendship into something so much more, and for years, she’d been left wanting. So many friendships left to flounder when the necessary spark failed to materialize, so many seemingly perfect connections ruined because she wanted more than any of these so-called “best” friends could give. It felt unfair. It felt cruel. It felt hopeless.

Until.

Lily remembered the day like it were yesterday, forever seared into her memory as though it had been branded there, and it in a way, it had been, because the moment she met Bucky Barnes had become an indelible part of her, a core moment in the creation of the perfect life she desired– no, deserved to have.

It was warm for late March, the birdsong thick in the air as she ran a batch of new SHIELD recruits through their drills on the outside training track of the new Avengers’ Compound in Upstate New York. She hadn’t been thrilled with Tony Stark when he’d insisted on moving the operation out of the city proper, but she had to admit, being away from the congestion of the metropolis ended up having its perks. Besides, the city was still close enough to enjoy all the amenities it had to offer.

She’d just sent her group off to do sprints when she saw Captain America, himself, approach her, followed by a stranger she’d never seen before.

She was immediately struck by how gorgeous he was– chiseled jaw, piercing blue eyes, shy, timid smile. Perfection, she thought, as Captain Rogers introduced the man as his best friend, James “Bucky” Barnes.

“Lily runs the training program for new SHIELD recruits,” the Captain was saying. Lily found she could only nod and smile as Steve explained the training program, so transfixed was she by this handsome new stranger. Bucky listened with polite interested, then said something about wanting to go check out the obstacle course, and as he walked away, the Captain leaned toward Lily and spoke softly, so as not to be overheard.

“Buck’s going to be joining us in the Compound. Aside from me, he hasn’t really got any other friends, so, you think you could help make him feel at home? Maybe try to be his friend?”

“It would be an honor, Captain,” Lily agreed, smiling. Absolute perfection.

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With Friends Like These... Masterlist

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader

Warnings: 18+ Minors: GTFO; I don’t serve your kind here.

"*" indicates explicit sexual content (each chapter will feature its own warnings as needed), language, angst, excessive use of Bleachers' lyrics

More will be added as the story progresses, and some chapters may have specific warnings that I will keep under wraps to avoid spoilers. When we get to those sections, I will let you know, so if there is a specific trigger that you absolutely cannot handle, let me know and I will tell you if the section is safe. As always, please let me know if I miss any warnings.

Word Count: Currently 23.5k; Total TBD

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It's over

But the ending was sooo good! I am wondering though. Pocket mentioned complications? Did something happen during her recovery that we don't know about?

I can't wait for the sequel! I'm so excited but nervous to see har happens! Once again, I bow down to your greatness. <3

<3 Thank you, bestie! And yes, something happened-- we'll learn more about it in either Unbroken or a oneshot. Not sure which yet! Thank you for coming on this journey with me!

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Unwanted: Chapter 30, Epilogue - Pt. 2

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader

Summary: When your FWB relationship with your best friend Bucky Barnes turns into something more, you couldn’t be happier. That is, however, until a new Avenger sets her sights on your super soldier and he inadvertently breaks your heart. You take on a mission you might not be prepared for to put some distance between the two of you and open yourself up to past traumas. Too bad the only one who can help you heal is the one person you can no longer trust.

Warnings: (For this part only; see Story Masterlist for general Warnings) Language, mild sexy stuff (Just some very light hand business. Very light.)

Word Count: 1.1k

Previously On...: You moved out of the Tower :(

A/N: This is it! The last part! You guys. I can't even. It's been a magical journey, and I'm so honored that I got to take it with all of you. I'm scheduling this post on Thursday in my office, and I'm fucking crying, because you've made this more than anything I could have ever hoped for. I love each and every one of you, so fucking much. Thank you for coming on this adventure with me. Thank you for loving Pocket. Thank you for sticking with Bucky and not throwing knives at him and his stupidity. Just, fucking THANK YOU. You are all amazing, beautiful people, and I could not have done this without you. Thirty Chapters, One Hundred Fifty Five Thousand, Four Hundred and Fourteen Words, and more to come. Bucky and Pocket's journey is not over! POOKIE LOVES YOU SO MUCH.

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Not even twenty minutes later– it was actually almost pathetic how close your new place was to the Tower, really– you were opening up the door of your brand new penthouse apartment. It was more extravagant than any other place you’d ever laid your head, and when Tony’s realtor had first shown it to you, you’d balked at the opulence of it. But Tony reminded you that you’d been shot, after all, and had almost died once, then actually died, all in the span of a few days, and after that, on top of everything else you had already endured in your life, wasn’t it time you treated yourself to something good? Besides, it wasn’t like you couldn’t afford it. So, here you were.

“Honey, I’m home,” you called out softly to the enormous, empty space. It would still be some time before the movers finished loading up and delivering everything from the Tower, and then you were going to have a lot of furniture shopping to do. Toeing off your shoes, you padded your way across the apartment to the terrace. Opening the glass doors, you stepped outside. You walked to the edge and rested your elbows against the railing. Taking a deep breath, you admired the view of the city before you, the Tower just a block away. Looking across, you could easily make out Tony and Pepper’s apartment. Waving at breakfast, indeed.

You felt a pair of strong arms slink around your midsection, tugging you into a broad, warm chest. “Thought I heard you come in,” Bucky said, nuzzling his head into the crook of your shoulder.

“Hey, baby,” you smiled, reaching back to caress his face with your hand. You turned in his arms so you were facing him. “I missed you.”

Bucky laughed as he pressed a gentle kiss to your lips. “I only left the Tower two hours ago,” he said. “But I missed you, too.”

You wrapped your arms around his neck and stood on your tiptoes to kiss him, pouring every ounce of love and affection you felt for him into the motion. “I can’t believe we finally did it,” you grinned.

“Took us long enough,” he mused back, but then turned thoughtful. “Probably would have happened a lot sooner if I hadn’t–”

You brought a finger to his lips, silencing him. “Stop. We agreed not to talk about that, remember? Dr. Whitmore said we can’t move forward if we keep hashing out the past, and I just want to move forward, with you.”

“Sorry,” he murmured, but you just smiled and kissed him again.

After you’d been released from the hospital, you and Bucky had had a long, emotional discussion about the future of your relationship. The only way you’d ever stand a real chance, you’d both decided, was if you committed to couples’ counseling and complete and total honesty. Bucky knew he didn’t deserve yet another chance from you, and you probably wouldn’t have given him one if you hadn’t loved him so fucking much. But you’d actually died, and you couldn’t stand the idea of wasting any more time without him. Now, after nearly a year of doing the work, both on your relationship and yourselves, you felt your connection was stronger than ever. And besides, when it really mattered, Bucky had proven, in the most definitive way, that he would pick you over Jade Carthage.

“So…,” you said once the kiss had been broken and you began playing with the hem of his shirt.

“So, what?” he asked. You raised an eyebrow at him suggestively. His eyes widened as he caught your meaning. “What? Here? Right now?!”

You tilted your head and looked up at him with the most innocent expression you could muster, given how completely un-innocent your current thoughts were. “Yeah, right here, right now. Don’t you think we’ve waited long enough, baby?” You trailed a hand down the center of his chest and his breath hitched. “Almost a full year, spent using my fingers, pretending they were you, never feeling full enough? Never getting off as good as I got off with you? It’s been so long since I felt you inside of me, Buck. So long, it fucking hurts.”

When you had decided to give your relationship a real reset, one of the rules you had established, with the advice of Dr. Whitmore, was no sex. You needed to establish emotional intimacy and boundaries once again, without the complications a sexual relationship would bring. She had even suggested you both try to date other people, to ensure that this was the relationship you both truly wanted, but neither one of you could bring yourselves to do it. And now, here you were, almost a full year since the last time you’d been together, and you were desperate.

Bucky groaned at your words and you knew he was this close to giving in to you.

“Come on, baby,” you purred, reaching down and slowly unbuckling his belt. “Don’t you want me? Don’t you want to be inside of me?” You slowly began nibbling at his jaw, tasting the salty sweetness of his skin and letting it flood your senses.

“Always want you, Pocket,” he growled, tightening his grip on your waist and pulling you flush against his hips. You let out a low moan when you felt the evidence of his arousal press into your stomach through his jeans.

“Then have me, Barnes,” you whispered, carding your hands through his hair. “Have me on this balcony, have me on every fucking surface of this apartment, as many times as you want.”

Any remaining sense of resolve Bucky may have possessed snapped, and he was on you, sucking on the skin of your neck as he rutted his hips against you, and it felt so. fucking. good. to feel him like that again. His hand dipped into the waistband of your pants, where he found you wet and eager for him. “Fuck, sweetheart,” he growled into your skin as his fingers slipped through your slick folds to toy with your clit. “All this for me?”

You groaned as you felt one finger gently breach your entrance. “Only you, love,” you moaned. “Only ever you.”

You both froze when you heard the sound of the elevator ding, and Bucky quickly withdrew his hand, popping his finger into his mouth to suck away the evidence of his actions. Grunting in frustration, you looked around him to see the elevator doors open and the movers begin to unload dollies of boxes from the Tower into your new apartment.

“Fuck,” you whispered. “So much for reunion sex. I swear, I’ve got blue balls, Barnes”

Bucky grinned at you, leaning down to give you a quick kiss before redoing his belt and heading over to help the movers. “This’ll only take a little while, doll,” he winked at you. “We’ve got the rest of our lives together to make up for lost time.”

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Unwanted: Chapter 30, Epilogue - Pt. 1

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader

Warnings: (For this part only; see Story Masterlist for general Warnings) Language,

Word Count: 634

Previously On...: You and Bucky are probably going to be okay.

A/N: IT'S OUT EARLY!

This is it! The last chapter! OMG!

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10 Months Later

“I refuse to accept this.”

“Well, unfortunately, Boss, it’s my decision to make, not yours,” you told Tony as you finished stacking up the last of your moving boxes. Sixteen years– almost half of your life, now condensed into neat stacks of cardboard, waiting to be loaded into the van that was waiting downstairs.

“What the hell am I supposed to do without you?” Tony asked, dramatically flinging himself on your now bare mattress. “How am I supposed to survive?”

You rolled your eyes at him. “It’s not like you won’t see me every fucking day, dude,” you admonished him. “I still work here, for fucks’ sake. Besides, you refused to let your realtor show me any place you couldn’t see from your terrace.”

“I thought it would be nice if we could wave to each other during breakfast,” he said, his face drawn into a pout now, “that’s all.”

You sat down next to him and put a gentle hand on his shoulder. “It’s time to cut the umbilical cord, Tony,” you said.

“But you’re still such a kiddo, Kiddo,” he sighed.

“I meant your umbilical cord, Boss,” you laughed. “And who knows? Maybe I’ll try it for a year or two, figure out I absolutely hate it, and come crawling back, begging for my old room.”

“Don’t press your luck,” Tony said, sitting back up. “I’ll probably turn it into a sauna, or an indoor golf simulator as soon as you walk out that door.”

“Ah, there’s the Tony I know and tolerate,” you said with a smile.

“I’m just going to miss having you around,” he said, his voice now laced with sadness. “Sixteen years together– probably the longest stable relationship I’ve ever had. It’s not going to be the same around here without you.”

“I know,” you sighed. “I’m going to miss you, too. But you know I need this. After everything that happened last year with Carthage, and Barnes… me spiraling, losing a baby I didn’t even know about, getting shot, and the… complications; all that shit with Steve. I just think I need a fresh start, some place where I’m not reminded of her every time I walk around a corner. It’s the only way I’m going to truly heal.”

“I told you I’d move you to another floor. Hell, I’ll tear down the entire Tower and start from scratch. We can build a whole new compound Upstate or something. You’d never have to set foot in this hallway again,” he said. And you knew he was telling the truth– there was little Tony wouldn’t do to ensure you were comfortable in your old home, but you couldn’t rely on him forever.

“You’ve saved me so many times already, Boss,” you said, looking back at him fondly, “and you know I’m always going to be thankful for that. But it’s time I started working on saving myself.”

“Well, when you make it sound all empowering and shit,” he began, “I start to feel like a dick for protesting.”

You laughed as your phone beeped. Looking at the message, you told him: “Movers are on the way up. I guess this is really it.” You both stood and embraced, Tony leaning down to speak softly in your ear.

“You know you always have a home here, Kiddo,” he said. “Whenever you need it. Even if it’s just for a night, or if you decide you want to come back for good. Door’s always open.”

“And even if it’s not,” you said as the two of you broke away from one another, “I can always hack the system to break myself in.”

“I’ll have you arrested for trespassing.”

“You think Mr. Mitchell’s still practicing law?” you asked with a grin. “I can definitely afford to have him represent me, now.”

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STEVEN GRANT ROGERS YOU RAGGEDY BITCH

I’m bout to pull a Wanda and slice him in half with his own shield 😩

That's "Raggedy ASS Bitch" to you! ;)

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We are almost at the finish line and God it's bittersweet. This series has been a wild ride and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Crazy to me how time flew by so quickly. But anyway, let's get to this chapter.

First off, TONY! that first sentence was so funny to me because the first thing he really found out was that Pocket had a miscarriage. Like, she didn't know he was there obvs but goodness was about to give him a heart attack. Happy to see that not they have the means to save all the women who were involved in the trafficking. Also her swear jar? That MUCH. How? But also, I'm really not surprised.

Also glad to have a confirmation that Jade is dead (aha. pay respects to the dead? Or not. But anyway this is the first and last time I'm calling her by her name so) But I mean, Bucky did snap her neck and I pictured it the way Thanos did with Loki in Infinity War and I don't know if she could recover from that lmao. And as much as I wanted her to have a slow painful suffering where she wished she was dead, i also don't want her around with how crazy she was so. Win-Win.

But them having to sedate Bucky just to get Pocket to the cradle though, oof. The whole scene playing in my head. Ugh. My heart. And truly, Bucky did pick her in the moment that mattered most, and as he said in the next part, he didn't regret what he did, so long as he saved his girl. I'm also glad that Tony and probably the rest now knows, because at least Pocket can have someone she can confide in. After all, there's nothing that kills you more than having to carry a burden by yourself. But with that said, Pocket does know things that they don't. Everything that transpired in the room when she got kidnapped was between her and Jade and nobody else knows about it so they also can't fully pass judgment on Bucky. And yeah, he's not entirely blameless, he still did some shitty things. But you also can't ignore all the other factors because they did play a part. Either way, the decision is always going to be Pocket's, at the end of the day it's up to her if she forgives him or not and how she wants their relationship to look in the future.

The unarmed joke, please I love. Also Tony beating Bucky up. Not saying it wasn't deserved but I also feel kinda bad because I just know Bucky didn't even fight back and just let it happen. Again, he's not exactly blameless, but he also not a complete asshole u know. But AH SO HAPPY THEY FINALLY GOT TO TALK. And I for sure know that this is just the start and they're going to have so many more conversations like this in the future with and without a therapist. I'm just so glad that they finally knew what happened with Jade and her manipulations like. Bucky and Pocket don't have secrets anymore and they truly have laid everything out to each other and this is the best way for them to start on a clean slate. It's so sweet that Pocket is understanding of his situation but I'm also glad that Bucky isn't going to let himself get off on a light sentence either so you just know he's going to always try and better. Just so much self awareness and growth through the whole part which I loveeee. They're both such different people now but for the better.

Not onto to this shithead named Steveioli. And boy do I have a lot to say. He's such a selfish little fucking bitch. Like who the fuck does he think he is trying to make these decisions for Pocket? Like say Bucky was still a player after DECADES, Pocket is still a grown and smart woman, she can handle herself. Because to me, this whole thing ultimately looks like Steveioli was underestimating Pocket and her judgment. It reads as him trying to control Pocket's decision for her and who she should be with. Not only that. THIS IS HIS BEST FRIEND LIKE REALLY? you're throwing him under the bus after EVERYTHING he's gone through? You see him being happy with a girl and the first thing you think about is "he's going to get bored of her" like, how dare you? what kind of friend are you? That also speaks SO MUCH on how he sees Pocket because??? You think Bucky would get bored of her????? She's this amazing woman and YOU think he's going to get bored????? Or is she just an amazing woman that fits your agenda? I DON'T GET YOU ROGERS. You know how I know how insincere his apology is? He keeps dragging Bucky down to make himself look good!!!! It's always "Yeah I did that but Bucky did something worse!" or "Okay I might have helped Carthage get what she wants and made it absolutely fucking easier for her to manipulate him and put him in a difficult and also dangerous situation BUT BUCKY! He still did the thing!" like how despicable are you? Obviously, Bucky still did make his choices I'm not denying that. He truly isn't innocent in this at all but he was manipulated and was practically beaten down to a pulp mentally, and was put in so many positions where he had to fight his own demons as well as an ACTUAL DEMON IRL WHISPERING IN HIS EAR and guess who had a hand in making that possible? YOU STEVE. And you were perfectly fine, sound body and mind! And what was his reason? Selfishness, jealousy, envy and just whining and crying that the girl he loves is fucking happy with someone else. YOU WEAKASS BASTARD. He wasn't even going through ANYTHING. So I could argue what Steve did was so much worse because THERE WAS MALICIOUS INTENT. Because Bucky was right, he can try and hide behind this "I did it to protect you and wanted to save you from heartbreak" when we all know he did it for selfish reasons. He wanted Pocket to himself. He wanted to try and "save" her like she's some damsel in distress and become her shoulder to cry on and strike while she's vulnerable to manipulate her feelings to get her to fall for him. Yeah, you never meant for her to get hurt but you were willing to get in between her and your BEST FRIEND because you want her to yourself as if YOU OWN HER OR HAVE CLAIM OVER HER. THAT'S JUST SICK OF YOU ROGERS. sigh. I'm so angry I can't even. I need a fucking walk.

But anyway, so happy to see a glimpse of what Bucky has learned in therapy. Like that really hit the nail on the head about his self-sabotaging tendencies. It's like an evil voice in his head needing to be proven right and that's such a tough battle. And please, that cute little reintroduction for them to start over is so sweet. I'm so glad they're taking this one step at a time. Lots and a lot of therapy, and with them always being honest with each other? They're going to be fine. Also, What the 'F' is it?

— Jnon 🤍

Yay, two Jnons for me to respond to! <3

Isn't it so crazy how, tomorrow, it's over? Like, I've been working on this story since September of last year! It's been a trip, but I have to say, it's been so much better since I started sharing it with all of you!

LOL, I really wanted Tony to hear about the miscarriage and be like "exqueege me?" and Pocket to just brush it off like "lol, wut?" She's definitely not ready to talk about it, but I thought it was important for him to know. He's got to be able to help her through it. Also, poor girl-- second time in (for her) three days she's woken up in the hospital. She's basically like "Nah, not this shit again."

I imagine Pocket is kind of like me, in that, throughout the day, when she's frustrated, she'd just mutter "fuck, fuck, fuckity-fuck" out loud-- just a variety of swear words coming out of her mouth without thought. I was also imagining that the savings account where her swear money went had a high-yielding interest, lol, so it was just money growing money. Now, it almost makes me wish I had some way to track the number of times I swore on a daily basis. I mean, it tracked her swearing for over a year and a half. And who knows how many times she cried out "fuck" when she and Bucky were alone... ;)

I debated long and hard about how I was going to have her use the swear jar money. At first, it was actually going to fund a vacation for her and Bucky to reconnect, but I really like the idea of her distributing among the surviving victims so much better. She's doing for these woman what Tony did for her-- giving them a second chance, an ability to transform their circumstances. It seemed like a very Pocket-thing to do. She can't save all the women, but she can change the lives of these women, like Tony changed hers. Oh no, Jade's dead. Press F to pay respects in the chat :P lol

I'm glad you liked the unarmed joke. I really, really wanted to use it again, lol. It was so horrible the first time around, but it was the thing that drew Bucky to Pocket in the first place. So, I thought it was a really cute full-circle moment for them. And yes, absolutely-- Bucky just stood there and took it while Tony beat him up. He felt he deserved every single blow, and would have probably asked Tony for more. He and Pocket did a lot of growing up, and I'm happy that they can finally have these conversations and be honest with each other.

Ah, Steveoli. Where even to begin? To me, there's just something incredibly sinister about a person who does things in the benefit of their own interests, but is convinced they are doing them for the good of someone else. It's like... ignorant malevolence or something. He was definitely trying to control decisions for both Bucky and Pocket, simply because he didn't like the outcome of the decisions they made for themselves. In his mind, he's Captain America-- he knows what's Right, what's best. I don't think Steve necessarily believes that Bucky would have gotten bored of Pocket-- it was more that he wanted to believe that Bucky would, so that Steve could excuse his own actions. My read on Steve (and this is just that-- my personal read) is that he always felt morally superior to Bucky. Bucky dated a bunch of girls; Steve was holding out for true love. Bucky got drafted; Steve wanted to enlist and "do the right thing", and in the context of this story, it hurt Steve's pride that this girl he likes would choose his inferior friend over him (again, just MY Steve take; don't come at me, Steve lovers!). And I tried to show that in the way Steve "apologized." Like "Yeah, okay, I did a bad thing, but Bucky did worse, so obviously I'm more deserving of your forgiveness, and by extension, love."

I mentioned in another ask that the whole bit with them redoing their introductions to one another was something I planned pretty much since Chapter 1, Part 1. Like I said, I love call-backs, so having them go back to the moment they first met, as a means of truly starting over, just felt like the right thing to do. But then, this tiny voice in the back of my head that sounds a lot like Tony Stark demanded to have the last line, so we had to come back to "What the 'F' Is It?" I swear to god, that was the best idea I ever came up with while high, lol. As always, I love you!

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OKAY CHAPTER 28. First off, can I just say I admire Pocket being such a spitfire in this because the girl really has the confidence to mock Jenny at any given moment when she can kill her with one pull of the trigger. Pocket really is just joking around and laughing and making quips as if she isn't being dragged by her hair quire literally I was reading it both horrified and impressed because I'm like, Pocket....shut up please i don't want you to get hurt anymore or die but also like, this is so Pocket you go get 'em girlie. BUT AH THAT GLIMPSE OF BUCKY IN THE MONITORS GOING ABSOLUTELY FERAL, COVERED IN BLOOD AND BOILING WITH RAGE AND TAKING DOWN A WHOLE HYDRA BASE ON HIS OWN BECAUSE THEY GOT HIS GIRL? SIR? I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU? Pocket was literally such a mood during that moment because that was such an insane show of violence and truly showcased that the Winter Soldier might be gone but Bucky Barnes very much still has his skill and if he wanted to burn the whole place down to save the love of his life we would've no questions asked. But also, yes please? Can I have your babies? LMAO.

Now, that confrontation was...a lot to say the least. Judas insanity and obsession just showing through and you could just see how our of control he was when Bucky showed up. Like that whole exchange was intense I can't even deal. Her calling Russia "making love", and that she was quite literally built to "love" him. You could just tell that there was no getting through to her anymore. She's too far gone and man was that disturbing.

And UGH POCKET, being all self-sacrificial and everything as if I'm not already filled with so many emotions!!! Just, I don't even have words that was just so amazing it made my chest ache. The confessions, them pouring their heart out I just... WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAPPEN WHEN SOMEONE IS ABOUT TO DIE. IF THEY TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE I—well, we wouldn't have a story but anyway. That was just so good, Evoked so many emotion in me gosh.

But you know what made me absolutely insane??? BUCKY BARNES AND HIS BAIT AND SWITCH MY GOD?????? I knew what he was doing the second he started to feed Judas' fantasy and telling her exactly what she wanted to weaken her which is such a smart move and good for him to realize that immediately when the first try of getting through to her didn't work BUT MY GOD THAT WAS SO COLD AND BRUTAL IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE? AM I SICK IN THE HEAD BC MR. BARNES BUCKY SIR THAT WAS KINDA HOT? (i know he probably snapped her neck and she's dead now I couldn't care any less but STILL????) The second he kissed her and boy did it take a lot longer but I'm sure he was trying to gauge that Pocket was far away enough and the second he realized that and grabbed Jessie's throat WITH THE VIBRANIUM HAND MIGHT I ADD and his demeanor immediately switched to feral and unhinged and "I'm going to give you a slow painful death for hurting my girl" I.. am .. on ..... the floor?????? i'm not even kidding when I tell you I put my phone down and squealed into my hand because that was such a powerplay i can't even deal. AND WHEN HE SAID HIS PROMISES DON'T MATTER AS A CALL BACK I'M LIKE???????? ahem. sorry. I just, I'm a sucker for men who goes overly feral to protect their girl. Doesn't matter how many times it happens it's just *chef's kiss* every single time. Never gets old.

But ugh, Pockey got shot. (i know I seem like I don't care but you've talked about a sequel so I know she's going to be fine haha ha ha unless.....) But still, that scene tugged at my heartstrings gosh, that was...Bucky crying, Pocket still joking around and comforting him as if she's not the one losing blood and practically dying. That was just perfection. I just love those two so much and I'm glad they're both going to be on the path of healing.

I feel like I've ran a marathon reading this chapter because wow what was intense. I know there's still something about Steve and whatnot but I honestly just can't wait for the come down. God, we're so close to the end. It's going to be a lil bittersweet but hey, I'm so glad it happened. You're amazing as always. Lots of love!

(p.s. i usually type on my laptop with these ask and sometimes i type way too fast because i'm excited to spelling won't always be great so i absolutely did not realize i wrote "cheese game" instead of "chess game" but i'm glad it made you laugh because that is quite funny.)

— Jnon 🤍

Hi, beloved!

I really, really wanted Pocket to stand up to Jackass in the best way she possibly could, and since that couldn't be physically, it was going to have to be through sarcasm and snark, lol. Like, this is her one and only chance to get back at Jade for all the shit she put Pocket through, so Pocket is definitely going to take the utmost advantage of it. Also, she knew that the more off-balance Jade was, the more likely she was to fuck up and give Pocket an opening for escape.

And I know it's not healthy, like, at all, but when Pocket saw him being completely feral in his quest to find her and save her, it definitely did things to her insides, lol. Violence is never acceptable, and IRL, I'm a total pacifist, but if my fictional man wants to be violent in my honor? Yes, please.

Writing Jerry's confrontation with Bucky made me feel sick, lol. When she's like "Oh, but we made love," I'm sitting there like "Ma'am, that was borderline sexual assault. You don't know what love is." In a small, tiny way, I feel sorry for her. She was basically fed this fantasy to such a degree that she couldn't fathom it not coming true. Like, she was made to believe there was no other option for her, and so, she would accept no other option.

Bucky began his bait and switch as soon as Pocket told him to let her go. I wrote it with the idea that he knew she'd sacrifice herself to ensure that Jade couldn't use her as leverage over Bucky, so he did the only thing he could think of-- pretend to give her what she wanted. He was definitely making sure Pocket was at a distance from him and jade before he made his move, though. He also wanted to make sure Jade was properly distracted. He should have taken the gun away from her, but eh, lol. It's more dramatic this way.

I really enjoyed doing the "promises don't mean shit" callback, because I felt like, in a way, that was also him taking responsibility for everything he put Pocket through. Or, at least it is in my head, lol. He had planned on killing Jezebel nice and slowly, at least until she shot Pocket. After that, his rage got the best of him. Plus, he needed to get to his girl; he didn't have time to torture the hoe any more.

And of course Pocket would be fine! I can't kill off my best girl! I love her too much! I just really love that emotional drama, lol. I have your next missive to read, so I will sign off! Love you so much! <3

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