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The blorbos are rattling in my widdle bwain

#Blorbos #mod speaks

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Merry Christmas folks :)

#Chibi #anime #christmas art

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No Prompt, Just Drabble

I'll explore this later when I'm in a better headspace. Ezume has always been a character that is really just representing the perfect version of myself. And by perfect, I mean the character with no struggles, who always knows what to do and say. She's my Mary Sue. It's about damn time she isn't so perfect. I've sort of explored my emotions and frustrations with my characters before, but I think I'm going to start leaning all in with it.

Drabble below the break

Head in hands, breathing heavily and on the verge of tears… very ANGRY tears, Ezume stared at the numbers on her dice, the cards in front of her. The tea leaves on her pseudo windowsill mocking her with their strung out patterns. She’d been sitting here, shuffling her deck, pulling cards multiple times, only to get the same cards or cards with similar meanings. Dice rolls offering her the same doubles of numbers she’d been seeing all week, and the leaves? The last ditch effort for something different? No, no. It was all the same. Every time. 

Every fucking time. 

The same. 

She had to have broken some law of probability by now. 

Confirmation Bias maybe?

How can you have Bias to something you don’t even know or understand? Crazy. That’s the only answer. She’s looking too deep into this shit. 

But why won’t that itching under her skin go away if she’s telling herself she’s looking too far into it?

She feels like she’s running on a battery. Unable to stop moving, yet so fucking mentally drained.

It didn’t matter what form of divination she practiced, how many times she did it, hell even doing the process backwards didn’t change anything. Her Spirits were trying to tell her something, and no matter what?

She didn’t get it. 

Ezume had never been good at trusting her instincts or trusting that fate had something better in store for her. She was twelve years old when she was taken into The Underground, “rescued” by this organization that was hell bent on saving this desolate hellscape of a country she lived in. 

Ok, that wasn’t fair, she was interested in saving it as well. 

Sometimes she wished she could just talk to her guides. That maybe they’d make an exception for her, show themselves to her, tell her what she needed to know. 

It was nice to believe in the fantasy. 

It’s frustrating for her to know that she is on the precipice of understanding. The itching feeling under her skin telling her a storm is coming, everything around her telling her to have faith in what was coming.

But what is coming?

What is this warning? What is she being told? 

Why is it so hard?

#drabbles #divination #angst? #itchy feeling #perhaps this is anxiety #perhaps this is actually something #idfk anymore #I am choosing to simply vibe from here on out #u can't hurt me if I don't feel #man this is EDGY

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I will be making a genuine effort to make more time for myself and stop worrying about the people I live with so I can actually get back to posting here

#Mod Speaks

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@natyune-writes you core

a real blorbo is someone you can both write a lengthy and serious/sad analysis on yet also constantly and i mean constantly make stupid jokes about

#Nat core fr

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Still alive! Works been kicking my ass

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The next time I get followed by a fucking bot I'm sacrificing a goat to the tumblr gods

#this is gettinf ridiculous #what the fuck

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khrgbhejkbeg its been a bit im so sorry

Bastard (Good) You're a bastard. A wet cat, if you will. And we love you for it. You're a little shit, but in the good way. You are the baddest babygirl. You killed a man, but you looked good doing it. You flirted with the hero and the enemy. All of Tumblr is madly in love with you. Congrats, I guess? Well Tumblr you have a new main character and its ME gently tagging: @artsfromjoanna @skyderman @junypr-camus

What Kind of Fictional Character Are You?

thank you @digital-chance for the tag! this was... interesting to say the least.

RULES: 1. Do this uquiz. 2. Do this picrew. 3. Tag people.

Erhhmm... Anuli would agree with this result.

(Apparently Anuli was more of a self-insert than I thought)

I think this is as close to Anuli as I could get

Fae would agree with the result.

Me? I was surprised tbh.

We're both villainous I guess.

Bastard(Bad)

You're that one character that everyone very impolitely wants dead. You're a constant cockblock, you try to stop the characters from saving the world, you insult the lovable ones in increasingly creative ways. You're not the big bad, but the fandom treats you like you are.

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Gently Tagging - @mylee-sketches @batzyx @the-stray-storyteller @the-chaotic-writer @awleeofficial @briarborealisocs @poetsandstuff @gummybugg

#tagging game #not writing #tag game #piccrew #again let me know if its not ok to tag you in a game and I won't!

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9 People You Want to Get to Know Better

Thank you for the tag @hd-literature ! Favourite colour: Blue, all blues are very good

Currently reading: I'm currently working on The Naked Ape, WoT, Cryptum, and a few other books for research purposes

Last song: Adrenaline by Zero 9:36

Last movie: I'm currently rewatching Into the Spiderverse with my boyfriend and his bro cause his bro has never seen it!

Sweet, savoury or spicy: All? At Once?

Currently working on: Currently working on some personal concept art, a few commissions, and writing for The Broken Kingdom! An Original Story that I'm also turning into a DnD campaign :D I'ma tag @doeblossom @temper-temper @briarborealisocs @natyune-writes @theunboundwriter @writeblr-of-my-own @ck-scribbles @jshimshon-art @daisywords

#writeblr #tag game #ask game #hope its ok I tagged! #let me know if its not #I won't do it in the future ^^

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@natyune-writes seems like this is up your alley!

Oklahoma School for the Deaf has opened up FREE ASL COURSES for the Fall season this new school year and anybody can join. The courses close on December 31st of this year (2023) so if you've been thinking about learning ASL here is your opportunity to get professional lessons for FREE

If you're interested, here's the link: https://courses.osd.k12.ok.us/collections

This is a GOLDMINE for information because not only do you get free video lessons by professionals that you can do at your own pace, but there's also graded quizzes as well as resources to educate you on the history of Deaf culture as well as sub-communities within, with links to loads of different websites to read up on Deaf-related topics.

#non writing #i already signed up #seems legit!

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@natyune-writes average description of Nik

can I coin the term tumblr sicklyman for our poor pathetic little meow meows. you know the ones. you just wanna find em shivering in a wet cardboard box on your doorstep and take them in and nurse them back to health. there are at least 5 guys like this come on

#pathetic man

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will you just let me be silly for a sec. there's this dread so ancient in me

#briar core #its just bri #my beloved

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I desperately want to get involved in NaNoWrimo and I did a fantastic job getting started last year but the 7th day I sat outside to write was the day I got the news my childhood dog had cancer

and we put her down the next day, the day before my birthday

she was only 8

and I haven’t opened that document since

but I wanna try

#Nanowrimo #its sad #ill probably post pictures of her later #But man #that dog was my everything #I still can’t believe it’s already almost been a year

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This request is like over a year old I just stopped working on it and never finished it cause I forgot to save and it fucked me up enough that I was like YEET

but he’s done lmao

for my Boyfriend’s brother, his DND character uwu

#Dnd #repost #reblog #my art #if anyone want art #i likea do da art

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wait guys im curious— what were you doing 500 days ago? you can use a diary or whatever to check i just think that it'd just be cool to see

#i got back into pokemon go like hardcore for about 4 months before falling off hard again #april was also the month i could start wearing regular bras after my reduction #theres so many pics of me in cute putfits and post surgery having lost weight cause my back pain was gone #april 2022 was a really good year tbh #im really grateful to my friends fam and bf for making it that wat #love u guys

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Its giving @briarborealisart energy

#love u #skin is useless #become skinless

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✨Wall of curiosities✨

#this pleases the crow brain