#All while hung over

[dxsole]

Me, but I am once again so so so sleepy: more of you guys should do "got married while drunk" plots with me bc drunk Vegas weddings are absolutely delightful to me!! It's happened to Didi twice already, let's go for the trifecta!!!

#ooc #There's something so funny to me about 2 randos waking up in a legally binding situation and then being forced to deal with it #All while hung over #and tbh while didi is a prime candidate for that lbr so many of my other muses are too #hmu!!! let's turn the party into accidental matrimony!!! #I gotta write out a proper plot wishlist or smth tbqh

[youareunbearable]

I like to think that Himring has some elf magic on it, or at least prime Noldor construction that allows it to keep standing

Imagine if it did keep standing well into the third age? That you could look across the sea and see the little island with that strange elven fortress on it? Many Men, Elves, and Dwarves alike have sailed to its shores and tried to open its gates, but just like the Doors of Durin, they're sealed shut. Nothing anyone does can open them, and there is no way in either. The walls are unscalable, no grapples will ever find anything to catch onto, and ladders will sway and fall under the strong sea winds. Tunneling under the walls gets one no where either, for if they dig deep they either keep meeting rock, or find water.

This is Himring, the fortress built with the desire to withstand anything a Vala could throw at it, outlast any siege. It was constructed with powerful intent, to be the strong hold and last safety net an eldest brother could use to protect his siblings. Imagine the power a frantic, paranoid, still healing from his torture Maedhros would pour into a place with the mindset of Safety?? Of Protection?? Maedhros would have rituals where every dawn he would walk upon its battlements and talk to himself, talk to Himring, of nothing important, nothing that could be valuable to overhear, but nonetheless the intent of using it for safeguarding, of protection, and providing safety. A ritual of that for over a couple hundred years? Maedhros burns bright with the white flame of life and hes pouring all of that into his fortress. There is a reason Himring is the only thing to survive of Beleriand, it has it's Lord's Will within their foundations.

As far as Himring is concerned, it's still waiting for its Lord to return. It survived the devastation of the War of Wrath that turned the mountains around it to rubble. Its holding against this siege of water surrounding its gates. It will keep holding until its Lord returns, whenever that may be.

#himring #Maedhros #Silmarillion #silm #lotr #she only opens her doors to Maglor who uses her as a home base for a while #the memories become too much so he never stays for long but he comes back every one in a while #he takes elrond there once #and while her interior design is in serious decay shes still beautiful #and maedhros rooms are untouched by time #elrond and maglor spend a day in his rooms reading the letters he kept in his desk and crying about it #he also had little nicknacks of his brothers scattered all over and his wardrobe #has some of Fingon's shirts in them still. perfectly preserved as if they were hung up yesterday

[localcryptic]

the LD Rangers team is the nightmare blunt rotation. argent is intentionally trying to freak herald out because its funny. herald keeps floating higher and higher because he can't help it. steel's paranoia is through the fucking roof. ortega is the ONLY one having a good time. don't even get me started on sidestep

#i think they should all get high together and i think it would be a fucking disaster #fhr #fhr posting #fhr ortega #fallen hero rebirth #fallen hero retribution #fhr sidestep #fhr herald #lady argent #marshal steel #wei chen #julia ortega #ricardo ortega #man i dont fucking know how to tag shit #anyways i think chen and ortega would both be better off if they hung out and took edibles together every once in a while #chen is like “it's for pain management not recreation.” shut up and smoke your weed man #ortega is the only one who can be normal while high #argents munchies go fucking CRAAAAAAZY #sidestep should never ever ever ever smoke weed i think they'd die #argent turning to herald like Oh that was my forever weed brownie. yeah youre going to be high forever now. #oh and i'm inviting sidestep over and you can't let them know youre high.

[barredandromeda]

i need go create and absorb content at the same exact time

#how can i read a book while writing #godbless i just need to get off my phone im too addicted #ig i could do sat prep but goddd. ykwim #im also still hung up on excrush cause what was all that... but tbfff he never said he didnt like me he js said he didnt want to date so #not holding out hope tho trust ill be fine later i just need school to be over so i can stop seeing him ykwim #i love chappell roan godbless and taylor swift 🙏🙏🙏 #post #erics tag

[mattodore]

done with sehyuk's tattoos so his sim's officially finished now <3

#river dipping #kang sehyuk #echthroi #had to add last minute censor bars to these pics bc i forgot abt tumblr's aversion to full on dick and balls while taking them lmao #also hi… i’ve been offline a lot recently </3 normally i lurk but i’ve been busy #i was gonna work on his tattoos yesterday but i hung out with my best friend all day so i put it off until now #now that they're done i think i'm gonna finish my tamino sim and then add both of them to my little ocs save #hopefully i don't spend five hours agonizing over every feature change again bc lordddddddd #i was fighting demons last time i tried working on the tamino sim

[trashbaget]

#wrote a fucking poem #because a bitch is fucking feeling things #cue venting in the tags because this is where i'm feeling comfortable to do it right now #a while back i caught the love bug for a friend and tbFCKNh it was the very second time i'd ever actually fallen In Love with someone and.. #the first time it didn't end well. long story short: i asked him out and he turned me down but we stayed friends and it actually made us.. #grow closer regardless. a little while later i'd realized my feelings were Different and it just came out one night when we were having a.. #really deep conversation. and i'm glad i told him because it helped me get over him and we got better and things weren't weird at all. we.. #stayed really good fucking friends. now i didn't get to see him for a summer and i definitely don't have feelings for him anymore and i'm.. #sincerely happy for him and his now partner. i consider him (and always have) my best friend. (among others but he's definitely Up There.. #like no. 2 probably) but way too soon after Talking was summer and we were both farthest from everybody and are both the kind of ppl who.. #pretty much don't text anyone except like 2 ppl and we are not one of each's 2. today i got to see him and a bunch of our friends for the.. #first time since fucking april and god have i missed them all. but seeing him again kinda fucked me up a second. threw me for a massive loop #i got Weird (neg) and i was NERVOUS as HELL at the start and for a few minutes i couldn't figure out what it even WAS because i hadn't felt. #that way in a long time. and i am not about to catch those feelings for him again because No. i chilled out after like 3 minutes bc i got.. #reacclimated to being around ppl My Damn Age again and things weren't Weird (neg) anymore. we talked we joked we sincerely said our I Miss.. #Yous and we hung out. with everyone and alone for a bit because ppl had gone out and come back and it was FINE it was NORMAL () and we.. #were GOOD. we ARE good. and i don't love him in that way anymore. i love him as a friend. and that love is definitely more intense than with #other friends because we have a deeper bond and yes because i Loved him. but the fact is i don't and it's ANNOYING to react like i still do. #and getting nervous like i still do. and i kept worrying that something i'd do might make it seem like i do and i don't and just UGH having. #feelings is annoying. i've never been able to stay friends with someone after having feelings for them at all let alone INTENSE IN LOVE FEEL #INGS!! like wtf!!! and this is sincerely one of the best friendships i've ever had and i don't want to and Won't. lose him especially for.. #this but god DAMN am i not having it right now. and my head's been spinning like a fucking tornado in the 5min ride home and i accidentally. #wrote it out in a poem because the words wouldn't go anywhere when i just tried to brain dump about it because Of Course They Did. because i #can't think about this man in anyway except poetically and i can't write a poem unless it's about love in some degree and just UGH love is #and i'm gonna leave it there because i'm running risk of repeatin myself. #if you read all this i positively adore you and also you need to touch some grass bc reading the vents of internet dwellers is for suckers #i am just kidding i really do sincerely appreciate you and love you very very much thank you for caring #please ignore the following organizational tags: #writing #poetry

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#it's so weird trying to describe yourself when u really aren't something u used to be #like until i was probably 21 or so id say i was shy. very very shy. but now im like was that even true? was i ever shy bc im not now #maybe i was just quiet and anxious. maybe thats just what being shy is. but im still both of those things but im not shy #im sorta like a hermit. i dont really go around ppl if i can avoid it but i dont hate being around ppl. its just that im less anxious when #im alone. but if u put me around ppl i like to talk to them so im not shy. ill say whatever. i dont really give a fuck #but if u throw me in a group i go back to being a non entity. i guess thats just being an introvert with an asocial streak #thats a thing i noticed while i was at the grad weekend i attended in march. the group would gather and do things while i kinda just #wandered away from them to poke at trees and sit in the snow. i dunno i just feel better away from ppl. my brain gets a lot louder if ive #been too social. which is a shame bc its interesting to watch ppl and understand how thry work #my friend came over to day goodbye before i leave next week. which was nice. i wish we would have hung out more in person but so it goes #and i think in my head im a lot more contained thst i actually am. like if u set me a task that becomes my focus but im also sorta all over #the place. partly bc i think my brain works on like a lag. and also my mood is a little elevated rn so im sorta like *jazz hands* and #talking too fast and too much and oversharing. yesterday i was instrucing an undergrad and felt so bad bc my brain was all over the place. #could not b made linear. im tired now tho bc theres nothing more draining than being emotionally honest and talking for like 2hrs. woof. it #so hot. like fucking so hot bc the monsoons have started and humidity is up so my swamp cooler is fucked and its gotta b at least 80 degree #inside my apartment. holy christ. and the temp has been over 100 degrees for like at least 2 weeks. its so hot its kinda alarming. and im #glad my friend was also freaked out by how hot its been bc oh god its hot. and i cant focus. ive done fuck all today. but i did get rid of #couch which is so so so great. ugh. someone make the sun stop making it so hot #unrelated #its been over 100 degrees outside for like 2 weeks. not on my apartment #and when i say i wish i spent more time with my friend irl. i mean it in a distant sort of way. like thats how im supposed to feel. like i #dont kno if thats actually what i feel or i kno im supposed to b social but idk if i actually mean it

[intertexts]

hm.

#how do i tell my sister that while i appreciate the thought it is in fact not nicer if she takes the couch occasionally and lets me have my #room sometimes. first of all i HATE disruptions like this it's kind of even more distressing 2 be able 2 sleep in #my own room for one night and then i can't again!!! that sucks net zero!!! second of all She Has My Quilt.... trying very hard 2 be normal #and chill about this and not like it's one of the few things i really really really hate other people using & causes me distress etc. #also like i explicitly said 'hey haha don't do this please' & then she did anyway. which she does!!! i forgot about that!!! #also like man i dont fucking want to sleep on someone's used sheets & blankets that's gross. so im arguably less cosy than i would be. gggh #this all seems like.... very minor and stupid im sure however man im like constantly in a state of middling to severe distress over this #shit. because i in fact also hate people going through my shit or being in my room and also having no privacy however #im very good with suppressing and or masking how much i hate it usually!!!!! but dude she fucking hung her laundry & underclothes #to dry or air on top of my fucking books on my shelves. like. ghghhh hate it hate it cant SAY i hate it because of the everything!!! #ok. sorry. minor pressure cooker escape valve complaining over now im gonna go sleep awkwardly on top of the blankets on my own bed with #some throw blankets. leaving my door open for the beafts if she closes it in the morning bc she thinks she knows what i want ill scream. #txt #neg #this is like private kvetching btw ok i love her dearly it's just unbelievably frustrating.

[emile-hides]

Messing with the idea of a Fursona again. One day I’ll understand furry.

#Emile's Arts #Today is once again not that day #but every year I chug a little closer #My boyfriend determined recently that I'm a Polar Bear so I ran with that idea this time #and got really hung up on the idea of just. Big Paws #I'm just throwin stuff at the wall and seeing what sticks #I also while I was at it redrew the Fursonas I've had over the years #Just because #The Bat's still my favorite just for concept alone #My furry style is slowly evolving into Sonic but with Diverse Body Types #And I mean I guess I'm okay with that #Anyway!!! I'm going to Pride tommorrow so I won;t be on much if at all #It's gonna be 87 degrees I'm going to MELT #Lotta people and hot temps I'm gonna be SUPER tired by the time I get back #So don't expect much posting tomorrow #Alright!! Off to bed early!!!

[cowardlylearningtobebrave]

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#just had a great friend date with a guy (cishet guy at that!) and we spent over 3hs talking #and he asked (!!!)​if he can hug me afterwards. like. my standards are low but damn am I amazed #haven't hung out with a new person in a while so this fills me with glee #walked the city center like five times over. got a non alco drink in a korean cafe of all places #nice nice. this evening was nice :3 #personall

[agdab]

ok only high me agrees with that weird shit a lot of girls feel about their partners i.e wanting to fuse with them/crawl into their body etc but for me when i was so stoned and just laying on my husband and feeling him breathe it felt like we were melting together into one and i could only hear and feel his pulse and heartbeat that is to say we share only one heart and god i love him

#i eat bees. #idk if this makes sense at all rn im a bit hung over but i just thought about it so much last night while falling asleep #that i remembered itthis morning

[dballzposting]

I domt think that I can look at this redbubble sticker the same way anymore now that I know that he licks that cat

#im over it now but i wanted to make the posts i drafted in my head while at work anyway.... #Like Ok ive been considering buying this pattern on a hat and i almsot did for my birthday but i didnt and #if i had then that shit would be in transit right now and i domt know how i would feel about that .. Think id lose it. #Im over it but earlier today i was a little hung up and honestly i frowned at thag bc #i dont want it to be like a Thing(tm)bc i HATE IT when things are Things i hate it when i get tunnel vision like that #things are much more enjoyable when i can be expansive and wholesome abt it and not get stuck on one needlepoint perspective or detail #EXAMPLE goten shitting in the urinals. i loved it but for a long time it was all i had 😭😭i got so sick of GOING ON ABOUT IT. #so im glad im over this glad i was able to let it pass naturally w/o getting stuck on it.. was getting a bit disquieting there but im good.. #ive been wanting that on a hat for months maybe one day i really will get it .. honestly maybe i need to now more than ever. Well anyway #dballz posting #yajirobeposting

[fooltofancy]

the fuckin fluster of activity when u remember there's an internet tech guy coming at one that u spent all weekend forgetting about.

#anyway trash out dishes done office vacuumed litterbox cleaned fishtank rewatered #lost my phone between work and the store and home so spent half an hour trying to figure THAT out #..... was down the seat of the car. only had to go back to work and have my coworker call it fifteen times to figure THAT out #god also when i was watering plants mallow (who doesn't go on the porch) SPRINTED out and across to the neighbor's side and then #HUNG OUT OVER THE EDGE for like three minutes while i tried to coax him back #he did not come because he is one year old and a fuckening menace #finally climbed the partition and rhat spooked him enough that he sprinted BACK into the apartment #... at least he didnt go over the edge it's just pavement down there #i don't mind lenore out there with me cause she fuckin comes when i call her. mallow is baby and stupid and hasnt had to learn #that im the safe space #time to find out if i'll be able to sleep at all before noon

[angeltism]

rot.ary di.al the aqua bpder song ever

#➳ the fool speaks #like me listening 2 that on repeat years ago while splitting on my fp back then . #putting aside all the story and stuff . those lyrics are basically just what it feels like splitting on someone . to me . #as well as some of my less normal/healthy ways of showing my devotion to those i care about #''call me call me baby - check me on the cheek and all night i'll wait for your reply'' #and then ofc the ''i can't wait for you to die'' for the splitting obv . #''all the ones that i love have hung up the telephone time after time after time after time after-'' abandonment issues ++ bpd tend to go #hand in hand #''time and time again again i'll only speak to uu'' prioritizing uur fp above all others because they're OBVIOUSLY the most important perso #in uur life (and if uu don't talk to them right this instant they'll leave uu forever and hate uu and uu can't have that now can uu) #''and maybe uu should give me back the love i gave to uu'' feeling unloved and as though uur fp doesn't care about uu the way uu care abt #them (and if they don't have bpd or uu just . aren't their fp too . then yeah they most likely don't . ahahahah . ow .) #''i've given up on any kind of hope that's left for me'' the self awareness uu get at some point abt the fact uu are . well . Like This tm #and then the ''time is just a-ticking away now hey now for uu for uu'' more ''i hope uu fucking die'' splitting type stuff #''and after i've called uu for the 43rd time'' flashbacks to me desperately trying to talk to my fps over the years to no success . #and then more ''call me call me baby'' w affectionate words and the want/need for attention #''where are uu going my darling?'' fear of abandonment #''why do uu never talk to me'' as mentioned above being more prone to feeling neglected by uur fp if they aren't around as much as uu'd lik #''nevermore forevermore - love is nothing but a waste'' feeling like trying to connect w and maintain a relationship is . well . #a waste because of whatever reasons uu find applicable since there's like 100 uu could think of . purrobably . #and then the rest of the song is kinda just repeats of all these lyrics #ok nawt all of them but uu get the idea #like #damn #idk maybe it's just me but bpd song of all time . sort of . idk . #hap.py days too but that one iirc was Actually Written as a bpd song . this one is kinda just fitting even if on accident ??

[authorwithissues]

Looks like it's time to graduate from a student bank account to an adult bank account

#awi #personal #over a month ago there was fraud on my parents account #they caught it sorted it its all good #except #my ability to pay external bills keeps getting blocked #i call. i wait in the hold line 45 minutes. i explain my issue and the rep says huh that weird let me put you on hold while i check with #my supervisor. except im not put on hold. im booted back to the main menu #i get back in the hold line. another 30 minutes. i get a different person. i explain. they havent seen it before. theyre checking with #their supervisor. i am booted back to the main menu. i lose my compusure perhaps a lot #next day i call again. i explain. i say BEFORE YOU PUT ME ON HOLD TO CHECK WITH YOUR SUPERVISOR please know that if i appear to have hung #up I Did Not. Please Call Me Back. i am booted back to the main menu. i hang up and wait for the call back. they do not call back #i call. i wait in line 20+ minutes. i explain. they havent seen it before but hey try xyz. okay. i hang up to try xyz. it doesnt work. #i call. the hold line is over 30 minutes again. i give up #next day i call. wait in line 20+ minutes. havent seen that before. try abc? okay. i hang up to try abc. it doesnt work. i cry. #i tell my parents im fuckin losing it. its probably related to that fraud. are you guys having this issue???? no were paying ours just fine. #okay so fuck me in particular #i call. i wait in line 20+ minutes. they wont talk to me. im not the primary account holder. i say ive been talking to people for weeks. #they say not sure why but they can only talk to the primary account holder. i text my mom. i show her the error im getting. she says lets #go to the bank in person. i say okay. its too late today but we can go tomorrow. i will pick you up tomorrow mom. she says okay #i message her in the morning to silence. let me know when youre up! silence. fuck i drive over shes still asleep and theyre closing in an #hour.i drag her to the fuckin bank. wait in line. teller hasnt seen this before. asks his supervisor. she says oh i know exactly what that #is! but i cant fix it. call this number. i sit in the lobby and call the number. theyre closed. okay. i tell my mom i will call tomorrow but #if theyll only talk to the primary then youll need to call. i call. they wont talk to me. i text my mom. they close at 3 you need to call #silence. at 330 she texts that theyre closed. tomorrows a holiday. i remind her in person to call tomorrow. today i remind her again to call #i dont hear from her so at 4 i ask what the bank said. she says they closed at 3. she didnt call #im going to drive off a fuckin cliff #the bank will be open a little while after i get off work but ill be hella late to feed my cat. might just have to feed her late because im #an inch from losing my shit and i will take the ability to Pay My Fucking Bills over the covenience of the joint family account

[synonymroll648]

OMG DID TOU READ THE BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES HELLOOOOO I FUCKING LOBE RHAT BOOK

I DID AND I AM STILL SO FUCKING MAD ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO SEJANUS HE DESERVED BETTER HE DESERVED THE WORLD AND CORIOLANUS TURNED THE WORLD AGAINST HIM OUGH FUCK SNOW ALSO THE ENDING MAKES ME GO INSANE LIKE SNOW MY MAN WHY DID YOU GO DOWN THIS PATH YES I KNOW YOU WERE DESTINED TO BE AWFUL BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I LIKE IT HOW DARE YOU HOW DARE YOU HOW DARE YOU

#now i'm thinking about the meanings behind the title...ough #sejanus was my BABY. also he read as kinda queer for coriolanus for a while ngl #and then suzanne collins had them going 'you're like a brother to me' and i died inside #to me the best part of the book was once the games came into play really #and then when the whole 'and then coriolanus signed up for the peacekeepers before the end of the day' thing when the games were over #made me go. WHAT #because WHAT #which was intentional but still #tbf. the jabberjay scenes were good. well used plot devices and characters #OH MY GOD I WAS SO HORRIFIED W/ SEJANUS' DEATH THOUGH #BECAUSE LIKE. WHAT. HE WAS ONLY SUPPOSED TO BE SENT BACK TO THE CAPITOL WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE'S GETTING HUNG #AND THEN THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS LIKE CORIOLANUS YOU'RE GONNA SAVE HIM RIGHT?? YOU'RE GONNA DO THE RIGHT THING RIGHT??? #AND THEN SUZANNE COLLINS SAID NO AND I WANTED TO CRY #all in all it's an interesting example of a negative character arc #though i think the ending was. a bit out of nowhere. a bit rushed. a sharp left turn where there should've been a curve if that makes sense #everything else was good though. the plot was great up until the end for me #ask #skylilac #...i need to be yelled at to keep writing the keefitz fic smh