#BUT FOCUS HERE IS THAT HE LOOKS SO GOOD

[samarecharm]

Endlessly tickled by the idea of Akira being a good shot but a shit gamer. I like to think its cause hes got incredible hand eye coordination and super steady ‘surgeon’ hands; hes very good with precise movements, but panics when he has to do brain melting inputs. His brain can keep up but its hard to make his hands follow suit. Its why u can have him be dogshit at arcade cabinets; panicking with the little joystick and button mashing like mad, while having him be a beast at things like darts and billiards.

The only arcade games he can play is house of the dead-esque shooting games (hes literally at the top of the leaderboards for MILES and he draws crowds whenever he plays) and DDR cabinets (hes just very light on his feet)(NOT to be confused with stepmania; he would die if he had to do arrow inputs with his HAND). Its kinda fun to watch him fumble with the other silly gimmick cabinets, but its more entertaining to watch him do what hes good at. If u take him to play darts, and if the darts are super cheap, he will absolutely try his best to split them down the middle each time. Doesnt always work, but its insane to know that he lands the bullseye literally 100% of the time.

#chattin #akira #i just think. having him play games like how my uncle plays games is a silly visual #hes also Tall #so hes like as tall as the fucking machine and shaking it like crazy. hes dying. help him. #but hes never like. hmm #i guess self conscious about looking silly? it doesnt even occur to him bc hes so focused on smashing inputs #so ryuji can take him to the arcade all the time and never get a sore loser for a teammate or rival #on the flipside. he is so good w knives its scary #and like. anything sharp. and anything thats a projectile tbh #if u took him to do archery i think he would love it. #but for now hes got Baseball and Darts. and hes good at Both. #i know royal has him playing darts or something w goro?? #i think its cute. also funny. goro would lose miserably and get so fucking tight. like alright. im not taking u here anymore. #akira opts to just watch bc he didnt think he was going to hang out w a sore loser #and goro HAS to challenge that. obviously. #like *clenched fist* ‘no. i insist. were here for a. good time. friendly competition is. healthy.’ #*clenches jaw so tightly u can hear it pop* ‘another round? ‘ #thinking about it; turnbased rpgs would be perfect for him. hes very bad at action games and fighting games #so playing games that dont demand that from u would be nice for him. #rhythm games would be easy too; the focus isnt on the hands but the beat #he doesnt have to THINK about hand inputs #MAYBE racing games would work too? but high speed racing games like burnout would be too much for him i think #and depending on the TYPE of shooter; fps games would be bad; third person shooters even more so

[best-enemies]

I've reached season 5 on my CSI rewatch and I'm a few episodes past "Swap Meet", where a woman is murdered after attending a swing party with other couples from the neighbourhood. Near the end of the episode there's a moment that made me jump from my seat:

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two cups. He hands her a cup of tea.)

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - BRASS' OFFICE]

Erin Brady: Everybody fantasizes about other people. (She glances at Grissom.)

Even you, Mr. Grissom. A neighbor, a friend ... girl at the office.

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - HALLWAY]

(The door opens. Paul Brady walks out of the hallway. Erin Brady walks out into the hallway. Sara is sitting in the hallway chair watching them. She watches as they meet and kiss.)

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two culps. He hands her a cup of tea.)

LIKE!!!!!!!

Right after Erin ends her sentence with 'girl at the office', the first time Sara and Grissom meet again, he brings her tea. This might be an innocent interaction but to me it seemed like a nod to this relationship they have where both are into each other, know about the other's feelings, but can't/won't do anything about it (although Sara has kind of given Grissom an ultimatum). I don't know if it was intentional - I'm guessing it is, because I picked it up immediately. I might or might not have squealed in delight.

#csi #gsr #i'm very Normal about them btw i don't think about them 50 times per day or anything #need to talk more about these two here #because im obsessed about them in a Normal way #sara is like. my dream wife. i totally get grissom being in love with her for years and barely holding it together #i would not though #i'm 1000% sure she's bi. but the writers have been cowards so far #also she and i dress THE SAME. yes i love 2000s clothes so what #i could talk about her forever she's everything to me #and grissom. oh grissom. i also get why she's been in love with him forever #i mean what the FUCK went down in san francisco did they hook up and sex was so good it scared them #and now they have to live with that tension and they're scared of crossing that line #nah i'm guessing with these two they just REALLY clicked. like. they were an instant match and they knew it #but grissom didnt want to lose focus on work or whatever and they lived in separate states you know #but oh my god i totally get sara. grissom is such a silver fox. he's like one of the hottest old men i've ever seen in my life #you know what i 100% get tumblr sexualizing old men it's completely valid i'm in this now too #he has this LOOK. whenever he's angry at a suspect. and he looks angrily at them. i'm chewing on my keyboard just remembering it #and his smirks #AND THE WAY HE LOOKS AT SARA #im losing my mind #i love all of gil grissom but seasons 4-5 jesus fucking christ #ok enough with the sexualizing i love him as a character SO MUCH. he's absolutely fantastic #one of the things i love the most about him is that he doesn't judge people. whenever the team is confused about someone #or this persons' lifestyle #he's always trying to understand them and not judge them #like a true scientist he wants to understand the nature of things and people #and he's such a sweetheart i love him so much #like there are so many things i love about him i can't fit them all in the tags. same for sara #they're a perfect match for me

[crispywizardtale]

First of all Willi is gorgeous.

And now to my little ramble... it's the eye contact for me and the parted lips and the small eyebrow raise which you can barely see but I see it all too well! The way he dropped his gaze to his lips... He looks hazed and and lost in Focuses eyes or actually his presence, he is so I love with Focus and you can really see even if they have like 2 minutes of screen time all together

Focus not breaking the eye contact while having the biggest smile on his face. Tell me you are whipped without telling me you are whipped... and that small and slow blink... I can't do this

I know that Willi can kiss but I still had to pause when he kissed Focus because damn boy... I never kissed anyone so I won't talk about kisses much but that FELT deep! If I'm being honest Willi probably has one of the best kisses in Thao bl industry I said what I said

Between that hand that was on Focuses neck that moved to his leg and that other hand on his back I don't know which one is driving me more insane... Or perhaps it's the the fact that Focus is actually sitting on his lap??? Or or the fact that Focus had to groud himself by putting his hand on the wall???????

This one is just a gif I have nothing to say about it I have so much to say but I can't put it to words

Just gonna say holy shit Focus... But also his abs.. he looks amazing which isn't a surprise if his partner is Willi who love gym. I also wish we got more of this cut because Willi was about to put his head on his tiny waist and I just love seeing that

My God Willi that hand of your... that had is... from touching the lower belly to climbing up to his shoulder and back... there is something just so attractive about it and it's making me go insane. I am also not sure why they made Willi so wet they just started the activity he shouldn't be sweaty already but who am I to complain Willi looks even better

THE BITING?!?!?!?! THE BITING?!?!?! He was insane for that and I love it even more but not only the tiddies but the collarbone later...

I wasn't gonna include this gif but I had to when I rewatched it. The fuck me eyes Focus is giving and the parted breathless lips but also the moment he felt that Willi will pull him in he was ready.. Parting his lips even more and closing his eyes even before their lips touched. And the strong pull that Willi did on the back of his head which took him by surprise by what I see... I am not sure if that hand flying to Willis upper hand was scripted or not but to me it's more like Focus was trying to find balance after the neck pull...

Now this part was actually amazing, Focus being breathless and throwing his head back as Willi is kissing his way down?! And Focus flexing and moving away from Willi's lips????? That is some amazing acting! It's so realistic

And finally the collarbone biting while Focus has his hand pulling on Willi's hair and then Willi getting ready for another kiss... damn I was so not prepared but I enjoyed it. Willi can deliver amazing NC scenes hopefully this post won't get reported I spent over am hour on making this post

#this series is a whole mess there is too many people but i will watch it!! #i will watch it for my boy Willi #and i knew he was gonna be great #the way Willi was looking at his eyes but then dropped his gaze to his lips and than back up #but also he is so gorgeous that 1st gif has me swooning #but he is a devil and i knew it #ever since TTWE i have been following him and im glad to see more of him #but the way they kissed here was just wow... #i was UNPREPARED #but also fully into it #i know my boy can because he did a number on Art in TTWE before so i knew he can kiss but i was still taken a back (in a good way) #i love him and i will watch it no matter how bad it is for him and him alone if i have to #but also... Focus i see you i see youu.. keep up with good work i like you now #this was a very nice scene #Willi NEVER disappoints on an NC scene he is just that good and dedicated #beyond the stars #beyond the star the series #willi arawill #best anavil #focus poonyavee #thai bl series #asian bl #bl series #thai bl #and now i shall see how long it will take this to upload its currently 1:22am so how long do i have to say up this time Tumbrl?? #edit it took 30 minutes to uploaded which is fast actually... #beyond the star

[the-eyes-of-andyserkis]

He got a haircut and I'm lightly losing my mind. 😳

#andy serkis #he looks sO GOOD #i will miss the floof #but that undercut though #and chest hair #i'm just over here staring like a weirdo #please sir #how am i supposed to focus #thinking about that man again #sexualizing that old man #equityuk #wga strike #sag aftra strike #solidarity

[owlsie-hoot]

*The eyes are the window to the soul*

(You cannot deny it: they have the best eyesex)

#all creatures great and small #acgas #siegfried farnon #audrey hall #siegfried x audrey #siegfriedxaudrey #honestly: there is at least one moment like this in every episode #the selection above are just the few that I immediately remembered #except for the breakfast table one #this one is not even in focus because it kind of happens of screen #also had to include my favourite hand holding moment #because it's such a natural and familiar gesture to reach for her hand without looking at it and to feel where it is and then slowly embrace #so many things going on here: the we both cared for Tristan and look how far he's come look #the omg you look stunning look #the I am so glad you're by my side look #and the scolding glare audrey is so good at

[lunarharp]

some illustrations/vibes from my uhh 29k memory trauma/disability focus orufrey fic, into the deep end.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #idk what more i'll draw so i'll just put these here. i think my failing eye qifrey will be with me forever now. #yesterday - i realise this is probably weird - i BURST into tears for ages like hot tears bc i just suddenly was overwhelmed #by oru's feelings rather than qifrey's. i was just in my orufrey mindscape as usual teehee and i just. oru wanted qifrey to be able to look #at him so much suddenly. and realised that can't ever happen again. i could literally cry a lot again now. i wrote oru trying so hard #to focus on the good qifrey can still have from living and i felt bad and HE felt bad in that moment for being SO sad about it #but until then i/he hadn't processed the truly painful parts of disability that you can't deny. sometimes it hurts so bad and it's unfair #the thing is i do feel that shirahama is leading up to this. disability is so central to witch hat and as for qifrey's narrative... #mm. i can't really believe the powerful and desperate emotions orufrey give me lol anyyyyywwaaayyyyy read my fic haha #i want more ppl to read it and tell me they enjoyed it..but you can't beg for such a thing. no matter what orufrey is..god they are so much #i am so glad from the bottom of my heart that i encountered this manga. #the first drawing is meant to express the feeling of pain coming from one place in your body. and feeling like a conduit #*oru voice* You are a human being.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it #my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store #and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person #dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much #for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is #trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u #treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her #dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a #god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close #my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he #feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom #which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were #saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were #a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was #distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their #relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her #expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she #grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear #in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i #saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The #Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and #unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much #unrelated

[wantbytaemin]

my god i just woke up from THE most detailed gentle and heartbreaking dream about jinki im in my bed like 😮 what was THAT

#so it was way too detailed for me to get into everything but it started with him being sad and like not wanting to speak to anyone #and i was sitting on the floor doing some writing & was like hi come here so he sat down like in between my legs and rested against me #i asked if he wanted to talk but he didn’t so i let it be and kept writing but couldn’t really focus #and then minho got there and was like ‘oh good he’s here’ and i was like what happened #and minho explained that like they were planning to do a world tour and album as shinee but jinki didn’t want to participate bc of the way #it was being handled #like there was a promo poster that was super insensitive towards jonghyun too #and a bunch of other things and then it flashed back to jinki filming a teaser for the tour and it was super intricate and too much for me #to type up right now but he looked so happy & smiley #like to make a point that he had wanted to be there until all the shit went down #and then it flashed back to me holding him and i stopped writing (or pretending to anyway) and just held him #there was no minho at that point and it felt like it was hours #and now i’m up and Shaken a little. not to be off the rails you’ll understand as I’m still affected by the dream but like it was so nice to #see him smile im still feeling the feeling like. relief and joy whew whatever he’s doing rn i hope he takes all the time in the world if he #needs/wants to & im grateful to have seen him smile even as a dream

[taeyungie]

hi ♡ i guess i'm back? 🥹

here's a little life update! i think you guys deserve it after my absence that lasted longer than even i expected it to last ;( i am very sorry about that. i miss everyone here and bangtan so much, you have no idea. the reason for all that is that for the past months i have been going through a lot of things and changes in my life. there were good and bad things happening, time flies extra fast, days melt into one and i didn't even notice the past half a year pass. although i think my absence was unavoidable in these circumstances i just thought that you guys deserve to know what's been up with me for the past months haha i have received a lot messages and reminders that people remember about me and that they miss me and i just want to send all of you my biggest apologies for leaving you for so long with no response, as well as all my love and gratitude! 🥺 i think i've been always fairly transparent on here so if anyone wanted to know more I'll leave some more details in the tags but basically I just hope that soon i will be able to become more active again and respond to messages ❤️❤️❤️ i hope everyone is doing great 🥰

#honestly... it was yoongi's comeback that made it happen. that made me have motivation to come back. i didnt expect it but here we are LOL #because for the past months i have been struggling a lot and i almost lost all the connections with my friends family and bangtan #i lost all my feelings and thoughts #i didnt miss anyone i didnt want to do anything i didnt want to be anywhere. i was completely submerged into my own head #i still am. it didnt exactly get better but.. its just yoongis impact jasbhdjdjd he made me remeber a lot #in october last year i developed a very agressive eating disorder and its gotten a lot worse at the begging of this year #and it has taken everything from me. it sucked me dry and still continues to do so. it made my mental health so much worse on every level #but im still here and thats what matters in the end right ❤️ #from the good things - after long unfortunate and very stressful job hunting i finally got a stable job 🥰 and i continue my uni so far #that's why i was absent here most of the time. i decided to focus on my life and on trying to change something and to fight a little more #after jin's enlistment announcement... it was a wake up call for me #and maybe soon i will be back on track but im taking things slow. especially that its not easy for me at all #but i just wanted you to know that theres been a lot happening here so ❤️ im not just getting bored of tumblr and bts haha #i never stopped following the fandom i never turned off my notifications from media i never stopped looking up what they're up to each day #i just didnt have time and motivation to be active. because of my health i wanted to be quiet and away from eveyone and everything :/ #even from my comfort people and activities #that sounds sad but. it's alright so please don't worry about me ❤️ I'm holding on just fine. got used to some things ❤️ trying to heal #so yeah i think thats that haha i think its enough and all basically #it may seem like very little but my life has always been very slow when it comes to big actions haha #anyway. love you all so much ❤️ thank you for not forgetting about me ❤️ #soon i will try to answer some mesdages from my inbox. please wait for me just a little bit more ❤️ im very overworked right now #but im so sorry that you have to wait so long ❤️

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

saw some art of hunter making a grimwalker of belos to cope and man am i glad the owl crew made belos into a writhing pile of goo so he doesn’t have any more bones to make grimwalkers with. like i can imagine hunter’s mental state getting bad enough somehow that he’d think to do something like that, to raise belos so he’d turn out good. and that’s the same pitfall phillip fell into when creating grimwalkers of caleb.

and damn what a cruel thing to do to a kid. to the grimwalker, hunter-his creator and probably father figure-would have created him to prove a point to himself. that someone evil in his past could have grown up to be good. that hunter could shape the grimwalker into what hunter wanted him to be. and everything the grimwalker does, he would have to wonder if phillip did the same in life, and if hunter would approve.

its the exact kind of existential crisis hunter is having in the show from being the clone of caleb. except the theoretical belos grimwalker would have to live with the fact that his ortet almost committed genocide on his entire civilization. im sure hunter would avoid being an abusive parent the way belos was. he might even be a good dad. but the act of making the grimwalker means hunter is giving the kid the same kind of trauma he struggled through. belos couldn’t accept that caleb left him, so he tried to reshape innocent kids into filling that void. if hunter creates a grimwalker, he would be doing the same with belos. he would have turned into his uncle, which to me is a very depressing way to end his story arc.

#toh #the owl house #shut up pandora #i do like the au where belos made another grimwalker after hollow mind and hunter finds it #in that case hunter doesnt cross an ethical line bc he didnt make the grimwalker #but ye in here i can see hunter having a really bad episode and making a belos grimwalker bc he wants to prove his uncle can be good #but that kid is going to HATE him when hes old enough to understand the implications of that #like if the point of the au is that hunter crossed an ethical boundary and has to grapple with the repercussions of ruining his sons life #sure even if its a little too depressing for me #the specific au i saw though seems to be mainly fluff and how HUNTER is sad about it? #which no it should focus on how the people around him ESPECIALLY the grimwalker is sad about it #also the au was so mean to willow like #apparently she didnt want a kid in the first place and then her husband brings home a clone of the guy who tried to kill her multiple times #and she ends up graciously accepting a kid she never wanted and immediately forgiving her husband for ruining her new sons life #and its supposed to be romantic? #i wont say the specific person who came up with the au bc ive been dunking on them #i am just grumping #im sure they have a lot of ideas about their au but i personally think it looks iffy from a first glance

[jrueships]

THESE PHOTOS ARE KILLING ME

#i would watch the lord of the rings so many times over if these were my legolas and my gimli #why did he have to make dj look so squat here 😭 #so small.. #the different kinds of lesbians u can see #wandering around the forest #like deer #tall leg lesbian was trying to wrap her skinny long arms around a tree to hug it as good use of her slenderman nature #but accidentally crushed five spiders and some ants in the process so now shes contemplating burning the whole place down #nature lover but the kind of lover that observes rather than partakes #gimli lesbian does not fear though #she marches steadfast through the swamp with her picnic basket #and her little legs #she is become death #sauce slicing his leggings so he can show off his fuzzy legs lol #these are literally two types of my fav shapes on display LMAO #pg and anthony edwards... #the photographer said THIS is for TED!!!! #and then captioned it something hideous but we're not gonna focus on that rn #this photo is literally so girlfriend... it makes being a jets fan a little more bearable. still burns tho #(we're in hell) #sauce

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

He is like an angel to me <3

#akira nishikiyama #every time i see a gifset of this scene and it's THIS quick moment JUST before he slicks his hair back THIS to me is his pinnacle of beauty #look at my beautiful bloodstained koi. succumbing to the darkness but honestly he held out longer than i would so we gotta respect that #also Matsushige. my guy. my dude. why did you think talking shit to a guy JUST after his sister died was a good idea. ya shoulda run #but also thank fuck ya didnt cause i fucking hated ya and im glad pretty koi her fucking gutted ya. absolutely eviscerated. like goddamn #this rewired something in my brain lads #cw blood #almost forgot that bit lol. also the other day i posted this pic and caption in a Discord server im in #yknow with the intention of basically swooning over him because yeah im in love with him right. and one person responded to me #and props to her she was reacting like. properly i suppose? like 'oh it's so sad what happened to him #when it all came crashing down </3' but im here like 'yes the scene is VERY tragic and rips my heart out but thats NOT what im doing here #today lmaooo' i am happy to focus on the tragedy of his character and often do #but right NOW i am trying to sexualize a man covered in the blood of his enemy as his psyche shatters so like <3 #theres probably nicer pics of this bit but i dont have them on hand. i might start a 'pretty Nishiki pics' folder on my phone too

[worstloki]

Thor noncon-ing villain!Loki (but he likes it): unoriginal, boring, trope of fixing someone via secxing the bad out, seamlessly blends into previous abusive dynamic, doesn’t do in the way of suiting respective character arcs, overdone, often dismissed as noncon at all, typically excused as something being done for a greater good cause which keeps Thor a good guy

Villain!Loki noncon-ing Thor (but he likes it): unequivocally hilarious, exquisite, victory as the evil vile most wretched Loki-plot for revenge has been foiled, trope of absolute bafflement on both sides for the same AND vastly different reasons, contributes in the way of respective arcs while encouraging growth of character, done too less, dismissing it as attempted noncon ruins the whole effect, the secx in question is indeed framed as a bad thing being done by the villain one

#like idk how to tell u this but Loki secretly pining for Thor (somehow??! ur telling me that wouldn’t SHOW??? Thor wouldn’t see it?????? —?) #is also nowhere near as good as Thor secretly pining for Loki for so long and covering it with dismissiveness and arrogance #like ok so Loki has some perverse dark emotional secret? boring. been there done that. THOR on the other hand........... #ISNT he meant to be perfect and golden #isn’t he meant to be the correct path followed #what does it mean for Thor to harbour unbrotherly feelings? #Loki is messed up already and he’s ignoring to focus on Asgard and Thor and their father but Thor isn’t meant to be a single shade wrong #it’d be understandable to admire your perfect brother for how he looks and who he is #what in the helheim is Thor seeing in his little bro who ticks exactly NONE of the ‘good Asgardian’ boxes #what do you mean he sees Loki who is a top tier avenger villainous menace with enough uwu energy to enjoy an attempted noncon #loki already feels (and rightly) slighted so throwing him into a noncon situation bc Thor wants to show him he’s loved is terrible. booooo!! #it feels like rubbing salt in some kind of wound like hey Loki come home haha ur loved <3 #meanwhile loki who is bitter and angry enough to scheme up a noncon doesn’t deserve the satisfaction of a victory here #Thor who in this scenario has wanted Loki back anyway??????????? enjoying this plan????????????? #Loki: I will prove how far gone I am. I will do the worst thing I can think up to Thor. he will suffer for my amusement. #meanwhile Thor is moaning 2 seconds in and saying Loki ought to prove how much a villain he is more often #get rekt Loki #Thor views himself differently to how you perceive your own autonomy Loki #thorki #Thor/Loki #crack #this is a joke post there is obviously a variety of ways either scenario can play out #I’m generalising a lot #and embellishing a little

[theduchessofnaxos]

This paper is actually going quite well.

Too bad it's complete bullshit.

#I'm not lying #but I'm definitely not being brutally honest about the historiography here #look the first few works are technically all social histories but there's a qualitative difference from the later ones #and the politics is still important enough that I should get to call them political histories #Also frankly I don't care #I just need to finish the damn paper by midnight and then I will be free of this fucking course #I have never in my LIFE dreaded going to class before this course #And honestly? It's soul crushing! I have no will to succeed here! #My only motivation is that I liked the rest of the semester and I need to pass this class to continue the program! #the professor asked for an additional evaluation (still anonymous) and I'm torn about how brutal to be #because on the one hand it was an enlightening course and I am definitely better equipped as a historian than I was three months ago. #on the other hand every single one of my classmates had completely given up by the end because no matter what we did it wasn't good enough #and also the professor was just fucking mean a whole bunch. But in that subtle way where you feel crazy for noticing. #so the class was horrible but I don't want him to feel horrible but also maybe he deserves it??? I can't even tell if he's actually a dick #or just acts like one #which is perhaps not a meaningful distinction but if he doesn't mean to I'd feel bad being too harsh #though several incidents make me think he meant to #blegh. It'll all be over by midnight! #And then I can focus on studying for women's history and - joy of joys - writing a syllabus about Victorian fashion and politics #I fucking love historical fashion that's going to be absurdly fun

[frozenambiguity]

Mayhaps I have shed a tear.

#{{ how else am I supposed to announce my weekly comeback if not through an angsty post!? }} #{{ It's my trademark jhjhjhj }} #{{ but LOOK...... my baby is getting the love he needs... }} #{{ i'll be tending to the inbox call from last week. And then --- it's time to attack my own inbox. maybe drafts too if I feel inspired }} #{{ I'll be having 4 days off from work so I'm thriving rn; really want focus on being productive here }} #{{ cuz i've been plenty productive in discord rp; just not in here. boogies }} #{{ Hope everyone is having a good day! }}

[lokilickedme]

So...last night me and the boys are watching our nightly episode of Dexter and we hit the one with Julian Sands as Hannah McKay’s abusive rich husband who ends up (rightfully) murdered and dumped in the ocean.

Twenty minutes ago I get a pop-up on my computer saying Actor Julian Sands Has Been Missing For Five Days (hiking in California) and I

Shit

I guess...you guys got anyone else you want us to do?

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#I like Julian Sands he's an okay guy as far as I know so I hope he's alright #though at this point it's not looking good for him #Mt Baldy is a rough one especially this time of year #and five days in an avalanche area #I just find it incredibly weird that I haven't really heard much about him for years and then #he's in an episode we happened to watch last night and then today it's announced that he's possibly deceased #in the episode he's officially missing #and now he is IRL too #hold up I'm onto something here #WHO DO WE NOT LIKE THIS WEEK TUMBLR?? #who's an abusing piece of shite that needs to go missing?? #Apologies Mr Sands I don't believe you were one of them #but maybe we can focus this thing