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errihaienx · 1 year

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Having a situationship with Osamu Miya was absolutely hilarious; his possessiveness towards you against his own twin never fails to make you crack up. It's been over 5 months of never-ending flirting and playful dates with him, and you're honestly wondering how things will turn out, especially since he's known to be inaccessible and completely out of touch with girls.

"You called for me?"

your gentle voice sent chills through his spine; you had an obvious affect on him that drove him insane. You were aware of this, not to deny that he has the same impact on you, which may be worse than what he is experiencing.

"Let's be together, for real"

Osamu, with a serious expression and a firm voice. So he's really asking you to be his girlfriend in this way?

You found this very hilarious, even though you had butterflies and had been waiting for him to ask this. The 5 months and 2 weeks had been amazing, and you're wanting for more.

"For real?," you asked playfully.

He leaned in and stroked your hair. His eyes were still pierced through yours, and his dashing attractiveness was out of this world, so incredible.

"Yeah, 'ya heard that right."

You smiled, knowing why he felt the need to label your relationship. You and Atsumu were chosen to represent your class in a school event, and the other twin, Osamu, was naturally disturbed.

You found the twins' dynamics fascinating, and your first impression of Osamu was very different from Atsumu's. 'Samu was more laid back, and he was a 'cool-quiet-guy' that many of the girls on the campus loved.

"Don't just look at me, pretty, what's yer answer? is it a yes or nah?" he asked again

Osamu begins to feel the pressure as he sounds desperate. He's never been envious of Atsumu. But the thought of you standing beside his twin, proudly representing your class, makes him sick to his stomach.

"It all depends on what you want to hear"

You decided to play him a little more, but you already knew what answer you'd give him when he asked. His reactions were unexpected, so you're curious to hear what he has to say.

"That ain't even a question, i wanna be yer bf so bad." Osamu replied with a frigid tone

His tensed up cold face was charming; he appears stiff but maintains his "cool" demeanor.

"Will I be able to kiss you if you were my boyfriend?" you asked, anticipating what he would say. attempting to get past his barriers.

That shattered his wall, and the 'cool-quiet-guy' has his ice completely shattered and melted off, his face reddening.

He was speechless as he couldn't say anything, so you waited for him. It took him a few seconds to say something.

"I didn't know ya wanted those, i could give it to ya now."

With just that, everything changed quickly, and you're now speechless. Who wouldn't, after all? But, unlike him, you were quick to get your voice out.

"You think you could?"

You prevented the urge to stutter, you can't! You can and should keep up with his cool demeanor; this was a piece of cake for you! Yes, but why are your hands trembling?

"Yeah, but firstly be my gf," he responded calmly.

You were a puzzle to him, so difficult to please and so difficult to win over. But he knows that everything will be worth it for you. You are magnificent. Finally giving up, you crossed your arms and stared at him.

"Fine, you'll be my boyfriend. You're probably doing this because my partner was Atsumu, but-"

"Bae, don't even mention the name of some insect now, I'm yer partner."

You laughed, and yes, Osamu 'the cooler Miya' is your only partner.

this was just a random thought of mine while studying lol, hope you liked it! i love you guys so so so much!! please be safe everyone<3<3

#osamu miya #inarizaki #hq osamu #osamu x reader #osamu fluff #haikyuu hcs #osamu hcs #miya osumu #osamu drabble #miya twins #atsumu miya #haikyuu x reader #i miss my boys #i miss haikyuu

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zerobaselove · 11 months

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i don't know | ricky

pairing: ricky x reader

genre: angst

word count: 675

warnings: just angsty stuff from situationship ricky, lowercase intended, not proofread

prompt: 20. "what are we?"

notes: not often i post the angst i write but here i am,, projecting LMAO (sorry anon who requested this if you weren't in the mood for angst aaaa) looped what are we by lizzy mcalpine while writing this so thats fitting

"that's a damn sorry excuse and we both know it." tears threatened to fall from your eyes as you tried to keep your composure. you never handled fighting well, especially not with ricky.

you knew the risk you were taking, falling for your best friend, but you didn't think you'd end up here; not even able to look at the boy you loved, begging for a straight answer instead of beating around the bush like usual.

these last few months had been amazing. ever since you confessed you had been even more attached at the hip than usual. you had never made anything official, both wanting to ease into the new dynamic. but the nights spent next to each other, fantasizing about your futures together, it was perfect. too perfect.

the signs were there, as of lately at least. ricky had been distancing himself; not answering calls, short responses, avoiding your gaze or any conversation pertaining to the two of you. that's how you ended up here. the tension was thick in the air, an uncomfortable silence seemingly strangling you, leaving you breathless without much left to say.

"what are we?" your voice was quiet, not quite trusting it to not break and further embarrass yourself.

silence. he couldn't even give you an answer.

"is an answer too much to ask of you?"

he let out a sigh as he ran his hand through his blond locks, "i just, i don't know." his voice trailed off as his eyes scanned the room in an attempt to find anything to look at other than your red and puffy eyes that seemed to be staring into his soul.

"you don't know?" you couldn't help the way your voice raised, your emotions getting the best of you. "did none of this mean anything to you?"

you needed to know. you needed to know if the last four months were nothing but a distraction for him. if you were the only one who felt that this could actually go somewhere. you had spent your whole life trying to find the one, and you were sure you had found them in the boy you had grown close to.

the tears had broken the surface; like opening the floodgates, or a dam breaking, the waterworks just kept coming and it wouldn't stop, much like the words threatening to spill out of your mouth.

"i'll tell you what i don't know," you took a deep breath trying to control yourself to the best of your abilites. "i don't know if you thought maybe this was a waste of your time. but i didn't." you weren't even sure of what you were saying anymore. every thought on your mind was pushing past your lips without a second thought or a chance to filter the words. "i wanted this. i wanted you. i still do."

by now you were full on sobbing, choosing to let your words die in your throat in the chance of wasting your breath babbling incoherent words. it also gave ricky the chance to collect his thoughts and finally say something.

"i'm sorry." he breathed out, taking a few steps closer to you. "i should've said something sooner, rather than dragging this out. i know that." he had somehow made his way to the space in front of you, too close for your brain to work properly. "i'm just not ready, yet."

you let out a shaky breath as you processed his words, "do you think you ever will be?" you didn't mean to come across as snarky as you did, but the throbbing pain in your head mixed with the stinging remaining in your eyes made your fuse a little smaller than usual.

"i don't know."

there it was again, another thing he didn't know. but you couldn't expect him to. you were both new to this, and maybe he just needed time. you were willing to wait though, even if it killed you, because these last four months were something you were convinced you needed to experience again.

#zerobaseone #zerobaseonefics #boys planet #boys planet fics #boys planet imagines #boys planet reactions #kpop #boys planet drabbles #zb1 #zb1 x reader #zb1 imagines #ricky imagines

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shadfinite · 4 months

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ok but the thing is shadow and infinite isnt a "healthy" or "good" relationship at first. it takes them years to be good for each other. they shouldn't have been together! they should have broken up years ago! but they didn't and they are working through it and eventually things work out. EVENTUALLY Infinite stops enabling Shadow's self destructive behavior and EVENTUALLY Shadow stops tolerating the admittedly unacceptible way Infinite treats him.

See, Infinite doesn't know what it's like to be with someone who doesn't want to hurt him even a little. Every relationship he's ever been in has been a really unhealthy and dangerous power dynamic (he's been the weak one and the strong one before). It takes him YEARS DECADES maybe even CENTURIES to realize Shadow is NOT LIKE THAT. Shadow didn't even really want to specifically hurt Infinite when they first encountered each other in the Mystic Ruins. He was just doing a job. It takes Infinite such a long time to understand that. He's so obsessed with Shadow but he has this one conflicting core understanding with Shadow that he simply cannot wrap his head around. He needs to stay in control so that "when Shadow tries to fuck him over he has a way to regain the upper hand."

Shadow thinks he's lesser than everyone, even Infinite. Even though Infinite literally started a war and wanted to destroy everything just because he was bored. If Infinite wants all the power over him, Shadow is okay with that because surely he deserves it for being such a miserable creature. When Infinite calls him names and treats him poorly he just lets it happen because Infinite is the first person he's met in a long time who will treat him in a way he understands. To Shadow, this is unfortunately what true love looks like. Being attacked is familiar, and Shadow knows that when people are kind to him he doesn't know how to deal with it. He thinks Infinite is giving him a form of stability that he can't live without.

What's confusing for both of them is that they do have moments of tenderness, and they do have inexplicable boundaries that they never cross with each other. They've never discussed their limits, but there are things they would never do to each other because it'd be too much.

They have moments of vulnerability, where they are just sitting beside each other and Infinite is telling Shadow how beautiful he is. And Shadow believes it because he's pretty sure that Infinite wouldn't waste his time being nice if he didn't mean it. Shadow introduced Infinite to a part of himself he didn't know existed, a part of himself that doesn't want to have to try to hard to reach for the top. But that vulnerability is terrifying at first and neither of them want to acknowledge it. It just happens and then its back to business as usual again. They don't talk about it.

They will do things to each other that cause conflict or anger, enable each other's worst habits, but they won't try to change each other's identities. That's the hard limit. They might have an argument where they harp on each other's bad behavior, but it's just talk. They'd never do anything to each other that would actively contribute to a crisis because one thing they both understand on a fundamental level is that changing the answers to core questions like "What is my purpose?" or "What do I believe is right?" is mind breaking. They never force each other to do things that challenge the status quo or threaten to shake their already deteriorating stability.

But this boundary is also part of the problem. They, for a long time, don't let each other grow and absolutely get worse! They break each other down, but they keep making excuses for why they should stay together. People who constantly fight with each other should not be together!

And when I say "together" I don't really mean together. Their relationship is a situationship at best, but Infinite still refers to Shadow as his boyfriend. Shadow insists they aren't even friends, but doesn't really passionately refute when Infinite says they are together. He just deflects. Of course he wants to be Infinite's partner, but that commitment is terrifying and he doesn't get how Infinite can be ready to commit like that even though it's been YEARS. It feels so impermanent because Shadow's perception of time is based on his immortality. That's one thing Infinite doesn't have (doesn't really think he has).

Two things jade them: time and people.

Shadow and Infinite won't challenge each other's core values, but time and people will. For Shadow, this comes in the form of his admittedly slightly larger support system: people like Rouge Amy and Big especially, but also Sonic to some degree. Infinite stagnates. His only support system is Shadow, really. He also has, like, Big and Sonic and Wave, but he isn't ever vulnerable with them in the way Shadow is with his. Shadow starts to grow, Infinite doesn't.

Infinite is definitely the worse off in this relationship. Shadow always knew that. They both knew it when they got together. Shadow has a savior complex. He thought he could fix it.

It in fact gets worse. Infinite is just bound to break that unspoken boundary they set, and Shadow has to put his foot down. Only then do they break all of their walls down and talk about those unacknowledgable moments. Only then do they get better. They can't work out unless they start to see each other as equals, but it's a really slow process for them to explore what that looks like or how its possible.

#infinite the jackal #shadow the hedgehog #shadfinite #infinadow #textpost #squid screams #i also have some ocs relevant to this #but i havent mentioned them here yet #so less confusing not to mention them #theres also more about shadows savior complex #but its kind of self projecting and #doesnt fit with the point im trying to make #shadow and infinite have an open relationship which is part of #the reason they eventually grow #because if they were isolated they'd probably just kill each other #i didnt get to it much here but infinite being the first one shadow #feels real kinship with is important because its a gateway to self love #which shadow has none of lol #and in turn shadow is a gateway for infinite inti trusting others #ill make a different post about that later #guys they are so important to me #i could say words about them forever #THE POINT IS THEY ARE TOXIC #THE POINT IS THEY WORK TOGETHER TO FIX IT #THE POINT IS NOT EVERYTHING IS PERFECT ALL THE TIME #AND JUST BECAUSE ITS BROKEN DOESNT MEAN IT CANT BE FIXED!!!!!#BAD RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOT A LOST CAUSE #ITS POSSIBLE FOR BAD PEOPLE TO TURN AROUND #i have catholic guilt. what about it?

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hekatekun · 10 days

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yaoi was horrendous this week genuinely great job i am always obsessed with your uncanny ability to put todomatsu under a magnifying glass and burn him like an ant ^__^ cannot wait for chapter 5!!! i noticed a change in direction though particularly in how you characterize todomatsu's interactions w atsushi which i really liked!! i am curious though what prompted it :33

thank you^^<3 there's probably a few different reasons both intentional and unintentional. to start, ccckk will have 10 chapters, however in its original "outlining" i intended to have 9 chapters

i've shared my hyperlinked table of contents on a few different posts now, mostly as cockteasers. but also i literally don't think i could navigate the google doc without it atp

i think theres like 30k of it published? so there's on average at least 1-2k worth of a scene in all 6 of the unpublished chapters that i've chipped away at over the last 3 years, bc ofc some are more developed than others. there's never been a solid outline for ccckk but rather a string of scenes i knew i wanted at certain intervals, like milestones, and i had wanted to retro-engineer the rest around those concepts

with that in mind, ch10 isn't a real chapter but more like a coda i wrote right after publishing ch1 and so the rest has been "how do i move the story from ch1 to this epilogue?" the plot is only in the first 9 chapters, so i structured it with three "acts" in mind and tried to have the chapter titles reflect that - both for my own amusement and to ground the ideas better lest i forget what wasn't written yet. so if ch4 starts "act 2" then it should show off that shift. but also, i never intended ccckk to be a slowburn, more like a...... medium burn ig? it's supposed to be a todomatty character study first and foremost, after all

each chapter should feel episodic to some extent, since i paced it on individual chapter "goals" rather than wordcount or anything (tbh i actually thought i would only ever hit ~50k total but if i'm not even halfway done and i'm at 30k now? jesus fuck. fuck me. what the fuck did i do.) if i've planned/structured the story like i'm fitting individual glass pieces into a metal frame, then by god you're gonna get the yaoi-est stain-glass art you've ever seen outside church in your life. it's why ch4 utilizes something like a montage, to show that ~passage of time~ and what that did to their dynamic now in this act 2

as to what that situationship dynamic actually ended up looking like on the big screen, i definitely blame @moeatsushi's art for that one^^ a lot of it made me realize i could definitely make them..... messier? nastier? gayer? [insert tumblrbait adjective]? for a lack of a better word. and that i could balance That with the surrealist realism that i wanted to achieve when translating the show into prose. also helped me get out of a general writer's block<3

beyond all that, i think part of it comes from me now being 23 writing yaoi instead of writing yaoi at 20. not that my brains developed any more, but my opinions have changed. like, to the point i find it hard to read the previous chapters when i have to reference them. ch1 really is a mark of shame to me ngl only god knows how i wouldve wrote it now. i had a friend look at it a few weeks ago and they called that shit "college freshmen posting on wattpad" 😓 which is already how i felt about it but whatever. post and move on. i (probably) won't repost/edit since that's more work that no one's paying me for, and it (probably) isn't as bad as my perfectionist monkey brain feels. anyway this isn't about being emo it's my precursor to admitting that there's a good chance i went off script bc i refused to look super close at my own goddamn source material/notes and decided winging it was better out of a mixture of laziness and pride at the cost of tighter consistency/characterization

#ask #writing ccckk has been like an exercise in performing improv with past me and future me #theres a homestuck joke here somewhere. maybe i just need to commit to the bit and insert more audience participation #ty for asking btw this is actually something ive been kinda thinking about but never knew how/when to say it^^

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feysandfeels · 1 year

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Thanks for your encouragement 🥰 I’m definitely doing it for the plot lol, also I just don’t wanna live my life with a missed opportunity. I’ve known him for a couple months now and he just moved away days after we met. He’s the first person I could ever seriously see myself with. He’s kind, attentive, so smart it’s a little intimidating, funny, so hot it’s definitely intimidating, has the same aspirations as me and he’s just an overall great package. But I guess this is where my quarter life crisis is coming from. I’m 26 and I’ve never been seriously in love, except now for the first time and it might not work out bc the distance makes him unsure. I feel romantically I’m very far behind everyone else. Also I still wanna get my masters degree which will throw me back to a students life and make me feel even less accomplished. BUT I have found a great therapist at the end of 2022 and I’m working on those issues 💪🏼🌞 what about your love life and life in general? Only if you wanna share ofc

Here is my thing boo... when thinking about your life, about your times and your dreams and plans and goals and all that jazz.. why would you then put on top of that timelines that correspond to agendas that are not your own? Like if you are at 26 experiencing love for the first time, why do you have to categorize it as "being behind"? behind who? yourself? you can't be behind something you have not experienced. Others? why would you use parametres that do not come from you in order to measure your own experiences?

On that note, going back to being a student is no less of an accomplishment: it is a privilege because you get to experience the joy of learning again... and learning something new. What are you thinking of getting your master's on?

Define a version of success that caters to your specific path and no one else's. Just like you should define beauty by your standards and not by society's you know?

You are brilliant and living life at your own pace and that is what success looks like.

My love life?? it's been interesting because I realized the way I have been dating no longer serves me and that's fine... like I overgrew this dynamic and way of engaging that came as a result of like... D R A M A. But other than a very intense situationship/showmance in the summer, dates here and there, doing whatever it is my blah and I are doing, and a lot of chemistry with my stage combat instructor (because omg omg hahahaha like fighting is a a whole thing hahahaha and when you need to block that with a story is always v interesting) there's nothing else to report. I'm what my friends call "the coveted one" like they try to date me, I get bored because if they don't make me feel like Rhysand does I will not waste my time...I also have been going through a Hockey moment... but like that we can blame @moononastring and @briannamcfraser for that.

#FeysandfeelsAsks #Luisa Rambles

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