#I just have a lot of feelings about this

[multi-babii]

some of my thoughts about this whole mess before I go to sleep

first off all i can see where they are coming from with this decision. it's no secret that youtube is fucking over creators more and more so it makes sense they want to move to a different platform

however the way they announced it was just not it and i think it's the main reason for such a huge negative response

if they introduced this gradually then it would be better. this way we basically loose access to all the new content at once (better solution in my opinion would be to put some exclusive things on the streaming service first and then slowly move there once you're sure the audience will follow)

also almost completely abandoning youtube seems like a bad idea. what about the casual watchers?? or new people?? where are they going to promote now??

also it seems like the details about the streaming service are not set. will they only make 4 new videos a month?? because that really doesn't seem worth it for 6$

not to mention the huge disadvantage for international fans who will have to pay more

also them saying it's just 6$ and that they made it affordable for everyone was not it

over all this either isn't very thought through decision or they are not disclosing all the details which makes them look shady

also the fact that it's basically confirmed they wanted to pull everything from youtube but decided not to after the backlash is truly disheartening

another thing, a lot of people are blaming solely steven for this decision which i think is unfair. just because he is the ceo (which also means he has better knowledge about the overall situation of watcher) doesn't mean he makes all these decisions himself. ryan and shane are still owners too so they have to agree with what is happening with their company. i think it's possible that steven was the one who pushed the decision but i believe he would have a genuine reason for it

lastly i saw a lot of people calling out the fact that shane is very eat the rich and rob the banks type of guy and that this goes against it. IT DOES NOT. THEY ARE NOT RICH. which is the whole reason why this is even happening. this is their job so it's understandable they need to make enough money.

in conclusion, i don't think they made this decision out if greed or anything but unfortunately the way they presented it was very poor and that's why it was taken so wrongly by the fans.

#watcher #watcher entertainment #watcher tv #sorry for the rant #i just have a lot of feelings about this #i'm worried this is going to lead to their downfall #and I don't think they deserve it #ryan bergara #shane madej #steven lim

[frau-kali]

On Self Awareness and Cognitive Dissonance

So @jaynovz made this really interesting and excellent post about Silver's crazy decision to go to Charlestown at the end of S2. I thought I'd toss out my two cents as to why he might have done it. And also discuss some related stuff. Buckle up, folks!

So first, let's begin with THE SCENE:

Silver: I've had my fill of adapting lately, doing your bidding, keeping the crew in line for you. Flint: I wasn't the only one who benefited from that. Silver: It certainly seemed that way.

Here Flint refers to Silver's position among the crew, which Flint sees as a benefit to both of them. As we see:

Flint: I need your help. They need your help. Silver: Oh please. Don't try to convince me to do it for the sake of their futures. Flint: For the sake of your own. Those men listen to you, they care about what you think, what you want them to think. Where else in the world is that true? Where else would you wake up in the morning and matter?

I could talk endlessly about this whole scene, particularly about Silver's incredibly amazing lie and how he acts during it and his bitterness toward Flint, but that's beyond the scope of this. Instead I wanna focus on self awareness.

With these few words, Flint basically drags Silver kicking and screaming to self awareness land. He is suddenly exposed to the fact that he actually means something here. And by his reaction, I think it's fair to assume this is one the few times, if not perhaps the first time, he's been in a position like this. Based on his past actions and his desire to remain anonymous (see refusing to show his face during the schedule thing, it’s safer to be anonymous), I think his previous modus operandi has been to position himself behind some powerful figure and work in the background to help them achieve their shared goals of getting lots of money. Said people were also probably not as smart as him so he could easily manipulate them as well. We see him do this with Flint a bunch, too, working in the background to help him. And that's what his position on the Walrus crew starts out as.

But then he becomes the centre of attention. They start to like him, which he didn't even necessarily expect when he started his gossip monger plan, he just wanted them to need him, despite his proclaiming that he’s a hard man not to like. But no, they get attached to him. And he, unbeknownst to himself, becomes attached right back.

Now, it's entirely possible that he's been in similar situations in the past just like this one, but because he is very good at repression and lying to himself, he was able to walk away without any real trouble. Maybe he realized afterwards that he actually liked those people but it didn't matter because he'd already left and he tells himself it’s for the best anyway. Silver is likely carrying around some heavy trauma related to emotional attachments to other people, given how he tells Muldoon that “we’ll take care of you” is the most terrifying part of everything that’s happened after losing his leg. And, considering everything else, that sure is saying something.

But here, he has hitched his wagon to James Flint, a man after his own heart. Flint is a lot like Silver, a brilliant liar and excellent manipulator, able to bend people to his will and look damn good while doing it.

Then he does it to Silver, too. And it's all while Silver is in the middle of pulling off his own master class in lying, some of his best work, by being outraged and angry that the gold he actually stole is gone and trying to extricate himself from Flint and the crew. Except Flint won't let him.

Flint's request for Silver's help doesn't, I don't think, extend merely to the lovely speech Silver gives to swing the vote in his favour, either. During the voyage to Charlestown, Silver continues working to convince the men of the dangers that lie ahead, presumably at Flint's behest. Scott does indicate to Billy that Silver is using his storytelling powers to “help the captain” when Silver is addressing the crew.

So Silver stays because he has come to value his position on the crew. However he doesn't yet realize how attached to them he's actually become. Jay is right, he could’ve easily deserted after the vote, run off to hide somewhere until Flint is gone, but he doesn’t. And he's still lying to himself about why. He thinks “yeah ok, Flint, you won this round. I'll stay and go on the voyage so as not to arouse suspicion from you and everyone else, and I’ll take the scouts along because I don’t trust them not to fuck this up, but I am leaving after that.” The real reason he stays is because he values his position, he actually likes that he matters, but he is still convinced he’s going to leave because he also wants the money. I think he probably would’ve left, too, but he’s trying not to think too hard about the newly exposed self awareness and continuously telling himself he doesn’t need this and he sure as fuck doesn’t actually care about these people, even as he stays. It’s like he’s torn between how he wants to be and how he actually is and he cannot bring himself to go no matter how much he wants to.

That’s also not even going into how, during the voyage, he is exposed to how much power he actually has over the men on the crew when he gives the scout a fucking look and said scout kills their co-conspirator because of it. And then that same scout tells Silver that all the men know he cares about their best interests and Silver is just fucking taken aback by the level of regard these people have for him. This is on display again when they all stand up in his defence after Vane’s men come to grab him.

When Vane’s men attack the ship, Silver could swim to shore with the remaining scout and if they kept their heads down, they'd probably be ok. They could likely swim far enough away to not get caught, especially at night. Silver surely knows this, too.

Instead, he cuts the forestay and saves the crew. And then he refuses to give up a list of names, once again saving the crew. He has, against all his own cognitive dissonance, become attached to them enough that he endures torture and risks death for them. Now, I don’t think that he ever thought that he would lose his leg, I don’t think that he made space in his mind for the possibility of being tortured either, he knew that one of the men had grabbed the keys during the scuffle when they took him away and he thought that he could stall long enough until they broke in and saved him because he’s good at talking his way out of trouble. I also have to say that it is such a nice moment when he says this to Vane’s man: “The question you should be asking yourself is, where are his keys and has he seen them since he took me away from my men?” They are his men now, his brothers, whereas before he always set himself apart from them.

And it's all because Flint made him see that he valued his position enough to stay and go on the journey to Charlestown in the first place. Silver even gives Flint credit for this in 305 - “Such a waste, it seems to me, knowing that it doesn't have to be this way. That the man who talked me into giving a shit about this crew, he could talk those people out there into anything. If he wanted to.”

Or that’s how I read it anyway. The way Silver’s attachment to the Walrus crew is developed over the course of season 2 and the final culmination of him refusing to betray them is one of my favourite things about his story and I have a lot of feelings about it. I could be wrong in my interpretation, of course, but thank you all for coming to my Ted Talk :)

#black sails #john silver #silverflint #black sails meta #i've never written meta before #i just have a lot of feelings about this #and about silver in general #so i wanted to share #i could just be coping with this headcanon to paper over something that doesn't make sense (silver refusing to leave) #but it makes sense to me #who knows tho #shrug emoji

[mrs-sherlock-holmes]

The fact that the first time we see James around Alyssa with a knife it’s because he plans to use it on her to feel something and then the last time we see him with her with a knife it’s to use it to protect her bc she finally made him feel something 😭😭😭

#i just have a lot of feelings about this #the end of the fucking world #the end of the f***ing world #james and alyssa #jalyssa #teotfw #teotfw text post #fandoms #fandom text posts #otp #otps #James x alyssa #elle’s original posts

[idiotsplayingvideogames]

“Alas! for the gulls. No peace shall I have again under beech or under elm.” - Legolas

I can’t decide if I like this, but I’m done with it for now

#sea longing #legolas #legolas greenleaf #lotr #lord of the rings #I just have a lot of feelings about this #fanart #my artcrap

[themightylotad]

Being ficto while being an adult feels so silly to me.

Like the idea of coming home after a harrowing 40 hour work week, emotionally and physically exhausted but just the mere idea of this person loving you who isn't even part of your physical world bringing you comfort when you fall into bed once you get home...it's so powerful but so silly at the same time

#fictonal other #fictosexual #fictoromantic #fictoromantism #i just have a lot of feelings about this #f/o #f/o community

[shewantsitall]

Thinking about Marvin and his curly hair. And how he probably kept it short most of his life bc he didn't know how to deal with it and didn't care to learn. And then when he and Whizzer got together he started letting it grow out because it's a new chapter in his life or whatever and Whizzer said it was his best quality and taught him how to make it look nice and keep it healthy. But then they break up and Marvin is Depressed and he doesn't take care of it. And it's a tangled, matted mess and eventually he just buzzes it all off again and he keeps it that way for a long time. But then he gets his life together and he's seeing a new psychiatrist and working on himself and eventually he feels better and starts letting it grow again...and then the baseball game

#falsettos #just my ramblings #i just have a lot of feelings about this #so many feelings

[lenievi]

I really wish I didn't keep comparing Kirk/La'an and aos!Kirk/McCoy but like

La'an being like you see me, and you don't care about my name, you see the real me, and it makes me want to be my best self

and aos!Kirk meeting McCoy who just doesn't give a fuck when Kirk introduces himself, who maybe doesn't even recognize the name, who just sees "Jim", who stays and always sees just "Jim"

the same way Kirk keeps seeing just "La'an"

and McCoy becomes the only person Jim opens up to and can be vulnerable with

the same way being with Kirk makes La'an want to be vulnerable

#yeah anyway #one day i'll stop coming up with la'an and kirk's parallels one day #i just think they're very similar #in snw/tos with occasional crosses to aos #but this one is huge #snw nonsense #aos nonsense #idk i probably shouldn't tag it with the ship tags lol maybe later #kirk opening up to la'an about his childhood 🤝 kirk opening up to mccoy about his family situation #in beyond it seems that for five years kirk only allowed mccoy to 'celebrate' his birthday #well eight if you count how long mccoy and kirk knew each other #only mccoy could see him at his most vulnerable #i just have a lot of feelings about this

[nat-seal-well]

For your consideration:

An affectionate Freelancer who will just always be touching one of the D.A.M.N boys at any given moment. Sometimes it’s handholding, and sometimes it’s full-on cuddling. Physical touch is just important to them and they like to do it with their best friends.

Sometimes Lasko will just kinda lay on Freelancer and they’ll play with his hair or run their nails up and down his arm and back and he’s fallen asleep because of it at least one time (that he’ll admit to)

#redacted asmr #redacted hc #redacted headcanons #redacted freelancer #redacted lasko #redacted d.a.m.n #am I projecting? #lol yeah #I just have a lot of feelings about this #and doing it with friends #it’s so important to me

[your-royal-momoness]

The deeper I get into my therapy masters program, the more concerned and also completely unsurprised I am that my program has to keep saying “if a client’s goals do not align with ur personal beliefs, that doesn’t mean u can push ur beliefs on them” LIKE YEA NO DUH who am I to tell u what is best FOR YOU??? I’m not you??? I’m just a professionally trained sounding board???

#hello it’s ur local therapybender #I just have a lot of feelings about this #this class is meant to be difficult because you have to question all ur biases but babygurl I’ve been doing that for decades #and I will continue for decades more #not atla

[saltyfilmmajor]

I know in my heart of hearts that they were not going to give tom that best acting nom but by god it makes me sad

#Tom Cruise #Top Gun Maverick #Oscars 2023 #Anyway! I simply will not watch again like i have always done (unless McQ shows up then it's a solid maybe) #i fully expect to get hate for this opinion someone is gonna be like: so you're a scientology apologist?? oh so you hate minorities???? #As if the academy cares about either of those things too btw #listen i get it I'm a bad film major I like mainstream things and i think the academy is a poor way to judge art #but most people use the oscars as way to see a films merit #it is the yardstick to measure quality #now whether that's good or bad is up for debate however that's just how things are #and i've spoken at length as have others that the academy's lack of respect for genre films (and also animation) really proves #how out of touch they are #Yes Top Gun Maverick got the nomination but Tom didn't and i know we quibble with Tom = Maverick or Tom = any of his lead roles #but Without Tom there is no top gun full stop #I'm not going to say Tom's lack of formal recognition is the biggest problem in hollywood right now #There are Several more serious issues #I just have a lot of feelings about this #I know he doesn't care he's not actively campaigning and as my friend amanda said he did what he set out to do: #Save Movies #I just wish he was recognized for his efforts and that wanting is a double edged sword #I don't particularly respect the Academy but at the same time I know people use their approval to measure quality #And that's what it boils down to

[shadowxamyweek]

In recent weeks, I have found myself more and more keen on the idea of Shadow having something akin to a Dr. Who Van Gogh Episode moment.

For context, I mean this one.

Shadow does things (in my opinion) largely for two reasons:

1- Because he wants to.

and

2- Because it is what he percieves as the right thing to do.

In Sonic's world, Shadow is not... liked. I'd go so far as to say in most cases Shadow isn't even necessarily trusted out of Sonic and Co. I've sort of expanded on his dealing with this and his own development but like...

There's a part of me that wonders if other's attitudes towards him get to him.

Or if his own immortality weighs on him.

Or if GUN never does change their plan about locking him away (yes I know 06 'didn't happen' but i think this is outside of that pervue) and Shadow becomes aware of it.

Just... I can't see him changing his mind about doing what he wants and doing what he perceives is right, but I do wonder if it ever feels almost like... Gilgamesh, or Beowulf, or (in light of me being angry over things I will not post about on this sideblog🙃) Faramir.

To do what you believe is the right thing, knowing it will kill you.

But not even kills in his case, because the boy can't really die. He'd just be left, burried in cryo and forgotten by the very people he works for, all his effort for nothing, because without him, he fears what will happen. Who will save this planet he calls home now? Sonic is mortal. Everyone he knows and finds capable will die. Who would be here? Who will do the right thing and have the strength to see it through?

I would love it if Silver somehow was able to take him to the future. He'd have to trick him, of course, but still. And the future is not perfect, and maybe that bothers Shadow, but somewhere in their adventure, Silver would take him to a tiny street vendor to buy them some noodle dish in a thick spicy broth. They'd sit down on a park bench overlooking the city.

Silver, sensing his friend is struggling with these thoughts, quietly mentioned how because of actions Shadow has yet to perform, this town will continue to be here.

This dish they are eating, created in this town, will come into existence 75 years before their current place in the timeline, and it will only continue to exist because of what Shadow has yet to do.

But that it will happen, because Shadow always tries to do the right thing, and that has an impact.

And I can just see Shadow sitting there quietly, the only way Silver can see he hit his mark is because the boy's hands are shaking as he puts the bowl to his lips and drinks.

...Basically:

#i just have a lot of feelings about this #shadow the hedeghog #thoughts

[betyoudidntcthatcoming-blog]

Has everyone been spammed to update? If so it needs to stop. Writers spend hours of their time creating stories for everyone to enjoy. Constantly pestering them for updates is just wrong. Im sorry this is happening to people right now. Hopefully they'll get a break from the pestering. ~La Anon

I can't speak for every artist out there, but I do know that it can and does happen often enough that I felt compelled to say something.

Media is unfortunately a very easy way for people to forget about the innate humanness of the person on the other side, which can lead to people pressuring artists to create more and even just straight up being mean.

It makes me sad.

#just rants ig #i just have a lot of feelings about this

[kindall]

Kogan is all about the power dynamic and how Kendall wants to give Logan everything and how Logan wants to make Kendall feel so damn good, and that is actually something than can be so personal

#logiebear #kindoll #big time rush #BTR #Kogan #I just have a lot of feelings about this

[ruinreigns]

@tellstales ( luke ) asked : ‘  thank you for seeing all the good in me.  ’

                 a soft smile pulls to her lips as she reaches out a delicate hand to brush the hair from her son's face . there's so much of his father in the boy's features . eyes that dance with adventure and curiosity , a smile that hints at a tease of mischief that she knows far too well . she's spent years wondering what had gone wrong , what had pushed anakin towards the darkness . years being afraid that the seeds had been planted in their children . but looking at luke , at the brightness in his smile , she knows he's inherited all of the good his father once held , the good that gives her hope that one day the light will find its way back to his heart . 

                 until then , though , she's content in knowing that her children have inherited only the best parts of their parents . there had been a fear , a brief moment of terror when she'd given birth , that she was making a mistake , that maybe she was bringing more sith into a world that desperately needed kindness and light . but when she'd looked into her children's eyes , she'd known that they were the light the galaxy needed . a reminder that there was still good in the darkness , that maybe there would one day be a way to pull back the lurking shadows .

                 a hand cups the other's cheek , eyes finding his to ensure he understands the weight of her words . ❝ oh my sweet boy . how could i ever see anything but the good in you ? you are meant to change the galaxy for the better . i can see it written in your eyes . don't ever think you are anything but good . ❞

#re. arc ↳ padme amidala | resistance #re. padme amidala ↳ answered #tellstales #i just have a lot of feelings about this

[fandom-took-my-sanity]

Abbott Elementary 2x02 “Wrong Delivery”

- Just from the cold open I could tell this was going to be an amazing episode, and I was SO RIGHT

- The easy relationship that the main characters have is beautiful, and I loved that they’re not telling Barbara what she’s doing. Real top tier friend behavior right there

- So...Taylor’s out of the picture? She was never really IN the picture because I think we only really saw her once or twice, but it’s still good to know

- Greg dating Taylor reminded me so much of when Jonah dated Glen’s daughter. Just the awkward position he’s in with Barbara (which was just the right amount of awkward I think, I didn't faint of second-hand embarrassment)

- I am 100% going to keep pointing out the similarities between Abbott and some of my other favorite workplace comedies, because I think it’s very cool when I see tropes or situations I like shown across different shows

- So that being said:

- Couples who frozen dessert together, stay together amiright?

- I loved that Janine got Greg the ice and went over to check on him. A lot of the time it’s him checking in on her, and you can just tell that she really cares about him and he really cares about her and ughhhhh I hate that this show is airing right now because I want to look up if they get married and all their details but I obviously can't do that

- I loved “What did you tell them?” because what WOULD Jacob have told his class about him?

- Melissa’s sister is a nice added layer to her. I wonder what's going to happen with that

- Also, Melissa throwing a corn cob at someone>>>>

- School funding is tricky, I liked that storyline, and Janine realizing that at the end of the day, the kids just want to feel special. At my school they gave us all laptops, which I am so grateful for. But every time I try to search for information I need to learn (like pretty much anything WWII related) and I get blocked by the content blocker, I wonder if it was the BEST use of their funding. The cost of school lunch went up to $4, when it was free last year, and today in chem my teacher told us that she cried when she got sent gluesticks by a student, because she would otherwise have to buy them herself. It’s interesting how schools choose to spend their funds, and I really do think that students (speaking as one myself) just want to feel appreciated, and like our needs are being met.

- A side note about the laptops (so sorry I’m going off topic, this just related really nicely for me). Last year if you had a laptop of your own, you could bring it to school and use it for work. If you didn't have one, you could rent one from the school for the year. It was very easy, it was free, and they had enough for everyone who wanted to rent one to get one. This year they are requiring all students to only work on the school’s laptops, and you are not allowed to bring in a personal computer. The only reason I have a laptop is because I needed it to do school online, so now I have this expensive piece of technology that I cannot use for the reason I have it. Last year’s system worked fine in my opinion, but I’m not on the school board, so I guess I wouldn't know. It’s just strange to me is all. Thanks for sticking through that if you did.

- Not enough Barbara and Melissa in this episode!

- I feel like Ava just isn't around as much as she used to be, is that just me?

- Janine did not look disappointed at all when she told Jacob she was sorry to hear Taylor and Gregory had broken up. I see you Janine

- I do not like that charter school teacher at all. I hope we never see her again, she was way too smug

- Oh my gosh the mice. That freaked me out and reminded my of how my school is currently home to a few too many HUGE spiders

- I think if Janine had painted her whole room that color it would’ve been distracting. It was a little TOO blue

- My family started talking during the pitch prep scene. It’s like they don't understand that my ship is onscreen! It’s a time for observing!

- Wednesday is my favorite day of the week hands down. I’ll see you all next time!

#abbott elementary #abbott elementary season 2 #janine teagues #gregory eddie #barbara howard #melissa schemmenti #jacob hill #ava coleman #janine x gregory #teddie #you all know by this point im just creating my own ship name #I AM CAPTAIN OF THIS SHIP #sorry for going into rant mode there #I just have a lot of feelings about this

[vamprisms]

i feel like a lot of the 'i hate kids' crowd would be more tolerant if they understood that due to a kid's limited experience of the world that 4 hour flight might just be the longest they've ever had to sit still for or that trapped finger might literally be the most pain they've ever felt in their short life or they might not have ever seen a person with pink hair ever so of course they want to touch it or nobody's told them yet that they can't run around the museum and they only just learned cheetahs are the fastest animals so of course they want to put that to the test. how were they supposed to know etc etc.

#like majority of the time kids are not just 'being naughty'. they have big feelings inside little bodies it's a lot #also like. #it should be illegal to dye your hair fun colours if you aren't prepared for kids in public to ask if youre related to a my little pony #EDIT: the notes on this post are an absolute cesspool. i don't care about your reasons for hating kids you sound like a disney villain